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[numbbrainstrorm]

Can I request a Tarn drawing if you’re still doing them?

*ahm * accept?

I squeezed you in (my Now full, "time Calendar") just so I could make this joke ( my top tier joke)

Anyways

Torn

[yache-berries]

*sends them off to Unova for their umpteenth honeymoon in my school's clubhouse room*

[spkyart]

I didn't expect this cosplay to be a full blown success but I am so happy about it

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

[ray935sworld]

Unfriendly reminder that with Aleix retiring next season, the last rider who was racing against Marco Simoncelli in MotoGP will no longer be part of the grid (wildcard's not included) and that makes me sad.

[marclef]

okay so uhhh. definitely wasn't expecting this any time soon. or ever. but unless my tumblr has been lying to me for 3 days straight then i guess it happened.

uhhhhh. thanks for 700 followers bros 👁👁💧

like. i didn't even see my tumblr get to 400. unless i've been hallucinating that it's been at 300 for the last month. am i going insane? maybe. but uhhh. that's a lot of people looking at me. kinda freaking me out a little. but thanks regardless i guys, it does mean a lot to me ✨❤❤❤✨

anyways. i die. nervous. some various rambling under the cut and in the tags but here's an artistic rendition of how i feel right now. enjoy.

so yeah. i don't know how the hell my follower count has doubled in like, two months. maybe it's the Fake Peppino Hugs? a lot of people have been wanting hugs after all. it uhhhh kinda makes me feel weird knowing there's this many of you. but i'll try to manage.

speaking of hugs, yes i've seen the new asks and requests in my inbox i promise!! i will get to them when i can, but for now i'm gonna try to focus on getting a couple other big important things done. mainly, a large Fake Peppino headcanon-related post i've been planning, and getting a few more characters up on Artfight before July.

and also.... i might be getting commissions up soon too?? i don't know how soon, but it'd be a way for me to get income right now since i don't have a job. or, if you don't wanna commission me but still wanna show support, i have a link to me Ko-Fi on my intro post as well! really any support is welcome, but i'm trying to figure out how to do commissions and pricing and stuff since it'll be the first time i *officially* do them. i hope you'll think about it though!!

but yeah, i've got a good few things i've gotta get done with, i'm trying to take things a liiiiittle slow right now though so i don't burn myself out fully. i will try to get stuff done soon though! expect that big Fakey post in maybe a week or so, and i'll update you all on other things that happen as well!

thanks for reading if you have, love ya's ❤❤💗💗💗❤❤

[yellowymellon]

2.5 spoilers

you know what's VERY funny? i was going to (ig?) analyze characters in a post and planned to pay homage to jiaoqiu, but thinking "eh nothing could possibly happen in 2.5" i lazed around

AND BOYYY was my day ruined when i woke up to check twitter for some sunday leaks and WAS FREAKING SPOILED (i only have myself to blame)

idk why him becoming blind gave me anxiety, i knew hoyo like the back of my hand won't kill him but this.....i mean im glad there are stakes but NOT MY FAV CHARACTERS

the bright side is playing the part where he was given "freedom" was 10x times better (also got my periods and was constantly on the verge of breaking down) because i felt that anxiety, my heart dropped and to be honest.....i cried thrice (I mean it was lustrous moon playing in the background). The voice acting was just peak, he was able to convey everything he felt spot on. i'm a sucker for a great vocal performance

my day was extra ruined when i wanted to know what happens if we ask for help but then got scared so i googled it AND THEY GET KILLED???? I KILLED AN INNOCENT NPC OUT OF CURIOUSITY AND IT WAS BLAMED ON JIAOQIU

i sincerely just wanted him to get a comfy hug but ended up being an accomplice to the trauma inflicted on him ITS FINE ITS NOT CANON

And then I learn about how he and feixiao are big idiots who are very similar. Both being martyrs who'd sacrifice themselves for others while dehumanizing themselves EVEN when people around them tell them off. Literally the whole time feixiao was telling jiaoqiu that as a healer he's doing his best job and he's very valued, and this mf proceeds to say his life is insignificant as he starts dying AAAAAAAAAAA

Meanwhile feixiao is told to cherish her life more, and that the battlefield isn't where she should belong (as in, that world is so cruel to be your everyday reality) and to not push herself. AND THAT'S LITERALLY WHAT SHE DOES 24/7

It's like, these 2 feel sad when others do it, they want to take the brunt of it, but never consider themselves to be part of the "everyone" they want to protect.

these mfs deserve to burn. in JP foxian's aren't called lowly beasts, but freaking live stock

[riddlerosehearts]

i found ur blog recently after becoming incredibly infatuated with twst but specifically idia shroud (my friends said i act like him to an uncanny level and they were absolutely right...) and i love your vilidia posts dearly. ok that's it thank u

OMG that's so awesome, welcome to the twst fandom and congrats on having such fantastic taste in characters and ships lol!! i adore vilidia (obviously, if my whole vilidia tag is any indication) but i haven't posted about them in so long, i hope you don't mind if i use your ask as an excuse to share some silly little headcanons that i don't believe i've posted before:

so i think that when vil was like, 10 or so, his dad tried to encourage his love of potion-making by getting him one of those candy chemistry kits. the ones that come in super cute colorful boxes and teach you how to make things like exploding pop rocks and glow-in-the-dark gummies while explaining the science behind it. (here's a picture of basically the exact thing i'm thinking of.) but vil, poor sweet little vil who'd already let the brutality of the entertainment industry make him believe that he needed to be absolutely perfect, just rolled his eyes and said he was too old for that stuff and that all of that candy wouldn't be good for him anyway. he never once touched the kit, even though part of him probably did really want to.

and i also think that at some point, after he and idia had started dating, idia bought one of those same kits online and just barely mustered up the courage to ask vil if he'd like to join him and ortho in making some of the candy. he claimed the entire thing was ortho's idea, but vil could tell that idia really wanted them to do this together and he decided it'd be okay to indulge his boyfriend just once. as he actually made the candy he realized that although it obviously didn't teach him a single thing he didn't already know, it was still a lot of fun and he wished he hadn't rejected things like that as a kid.

also, speaking of chemistry, there's a voice line in-game where idia implies that he is not good at it. so while i think he and vil would be fascinated by each other's different fields of scientific interest and would love talking about it together i also think that one day idia just very overdramatically goes like: "omg i'm doing soooooo bad in my chemistry classes... if only some super smart and kind and very attractive person would help me out..."

and vil responds by telling idia that he most certainly does not share his younger brother's talent as an actor. but he agrees to help anyway and then they have cute study dates.

idia's habit of starting to excitedly infodump about his interests only to suddenly get embarrassed and stop persists for a while into his relationship with vil but every single time it happens, vil encourages idia to keep going. he often says things like "oh, are you done already? that's a shame, i was so looking forward to hearing more about sora's journey to save kairi". it takes a long time but eventually idia gets to a point where he's so comfortable around vil that he doesn't feel embarrassed anymore.

[simplydnp]

Stop im rewatching why dan is leaving me bc of ur post theyre so disgustingly domestic i adore them

sometimes i watch that video just to feel something

[trashlie]

Nol’s Weird Reactions to Shinae’s Weird Compliments

I needed to take a small break from all the heavy discussions and decided to go round up all the little moments I could remember of Shinae paying Nol an unexpected - and often seemingly weird lol - compliment and Nol’s very puzzled reactions lmao because it always makes me laugh. There’s something about his “um what” that always makes me laugh 

Honorable mention to this scene at the black and white formal

Not a weird compliment (hence it being an honorable mention) but it still came by surprise and left them both feeling awkward

Honorable honorable mention to THIS scene, too. He seems to react more to the fact that she’s saying anything nice to him at all, hence why it’s an honorable mention, but it still fits the “reacting kinda weirdly” theme so here it is lmao 

Let me know if I’ve missed any more - I think a post of all the times Shinae has paid anyone an awkward compliment would be just the best because I still never get over “SEXY HANDS” and Dieter nearly dying in response lmaooooo She’s a unique and somewhat socially awkward one, our Shinae, and I wouldn’t want to have her any other way 

[honeysucklethornsandalligtrhorns]

The urge to make a q&a even though I don’t have established tsp designs… I feel like it’d help me get better at art… gonna try and make some tonight :] 👍👍

[vibinwiththefrogs]

Friendly PSA for trans people complimenting other trans people: please do not self loathe as part of the compliment. Like "you pass so well, I could never", "you're so lucky to have (trait), I don't pass because I have (perceived opposite trait)"

This feels like getting back handed compliments and like you're using me as a reason to beat yourself up. I have a friend I have never once been able to tell about a good gender experience I've had without them doing this and then spiraling and picking themselves apart. And they always end up loudly beating themselves up for traits that we both have, which I know if I had less self confidence would drag me down with them.

Self confidence issues and dysphoria can be discussed, especially with other trans people who can relate, and that's fine and good to do. But be careful not to do it in an openly jealous way, because the people you put on a pedestal for "passing" usually have self image issues of their own.

[microwave-prince]

Larry is the kind of guy who fusses at me and pokes fun for me getting like Wendy's and stuff and being like "you eat that stuff??" And then I don't share any with him he gets more upset.

[majiedoodles]

I doodle whatever comes to mind and a wonderful week ago this did:

And from there this happened:

(Morgana: *mocking merlin* Arthur, I'm gay af for you, my king. Also Morgana: *mocking arthur* No way, me too!)

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I think you guys know where I'm going with this.

Now finally I FAVORITE part! This masterpiece:

(Morgana: *makes puppets kiss* mwah mwah *kissy noises* Arthur: MORGANA!! *knows it's true but wished Morgana didn't do this in the middle of the hall* Merlin: *too red and embarrassed to speak*)

Would you believe me if I told you the first I thing I drew from this scene was NOT the intense make-out between two puppets?

Yeah. I figured you wouldn't believe me.

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WHELP ANYWAY LOOK AT ARTHUR'S FACE! HE SO ANGY! AND MERLIN- poor Merlin. he's gone tomato. Uh oh.

OKAY THAT'S ALL OF MY CRACKHEAD ART RELATING TO THIS TOPIC BYE BYE NOW

[fiepige]

I'm trying to make a short introductory post about a (sorta) new oc but I'm currently at 1224 words and I'm not done writing about him yet 😭

I just have so many things I wanna share about him but I'm afraid people will skip it if it's too long...

[kowaindar0u]

watching this video and thinking about idol au again omg ...

I think I really like the idea of yuichi being in a group (as opposed to a non-idol, though i still think he would've been recruited while doing some other behind-the-scenes job) and thinking he would be the type to secretly write & compose songs...

He might even be quite good at it. like ... shit I'm getting emotional thinking about it but ... He already writes in his diary a lot, so imagine him taking that kind of emotion and putting it into a song...

He'd write songs about anxieties, hopelessness at times, breaking down... songs he would describe as "the kind of atmosphere/surroundings i wish to have when I'm overwhelmed"... songs that just really talk about things he struggles to actually talk about ;_; ... songs for his friends...

(a song about appreciating his fellow group members, a song about a certain friend from another group with lyrics like "we don't have to say much and we're happy")

maybe at some point he surprises everyone with like. a straight-up angry song and even his close friends are like "i didn't even know you could get angry" lol

also circling back around to how he became an idol, he'd get recruited a relatively short time before debuting maybe compared to his other members, and so maybe he'd feel/actually be judged/resented about it and knows he needs to really prove he deserves to debut with them, so he'd practice and work on himself constantly ... it sounds miserable and probably kind of is but I think he would never have gone into all this or agreed to start training at all without having other people relying on him...

and oh man... i imagine his stage fright would never actually go away (again it's easier when he has members with him) but god... the first time he'd step on a stage he would be a mess like they'd look back at their debut performance especially and see him like shaking/clearly about to cry the whole time but still able to see he's giving his damned best... like he doesn't perform it well necessarily that day but it's something the members and fans look back on with a kind of endearment, especially as he gets a bit more confident onstage as they go

idk who he'd be in a group with or what kind of sound they'd have but i think whatever it is would have a lot of dramatic atmospheric type stuff (idk if that really suits him or if that's just what i like LOL but) ... like i can't imagine him really thriving well in a Poppy pop group without a lot of deeper substance (?), if not for personality/vibe reasons then because he's just got kind of a very unimpressed resting face LOL

also. can you fucking imagine. i imagine yuichi still keeping his eye covered most of the time LMAO so he'd be one member where like. one video he's got his hair parted a different way or pulled back somehow and the fans go INSANE because they get BOTH EYES

[speculative (?) gender stuff below the cut cause my brain said What If]

also i'm thinking ... maybe depending on how old yuichi is when stuff happens ... an Interesting angle ...

i know this is obviously Very Unlikely irl for several reasons but this is alternate universe of fiction so .

1 ) maybe he discloses to his company upon being recruited that he's trans like "i didn't say anything when i worked here as [whatever he did before, maybe stylist help] because i need Job but i don't think i can go in front of People being misgendered i would not survive" so they help him transition (yet another driving factor for his hard work afterwards) before debut ...

OR ...

2 ) maybe he initially debuted in a girl group that didn't really pan out, and after disbandment he Transed his Gender and re-debuted in a boy group...

Inch Resting ....

in 2, i think like...obviously his time in that first group would have been ... really REALLY hard, fucking miserable, not only for dysphoria reasons but because the group just could not find success-- perhaps their company was shitty-- but i think he wouldn't hold any disdain for like... fans of that group, those members, and the songs they performed together? like he'd still be friends with them if they wanted, and he'd even do reunion perfromances with them omg lol ...

okay actually i like this concept. and maybe after the first group fails he does go back to being a "civilian" and then 1 happens and ... !!

yuichi my beloved

idol yuichi i stan u