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nuclearnerves · 17 days
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that one post thats like "tumblr name a woman challege (impossible)"
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lovinnelily · 5 months
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Y'all do know you can't make Jason be NOT white without changing his whole character, right?
For other characters, yes, because their physical appearance are not that influential in their story, on how they are viewed by people, on their personality formation — you can have a black/asian/indigenous/arab/brown/latino/etc Nico and yes, the hate he gets will have a undertone of racism but at the same time nothing significant on his story, motivation or personality will need to change. This is also true for other characters: Clarisse risks repeating the "aggressive WoC" stereotype but the character itself doesn't change.
This isn't true for Jason, whose main character trait is how he is perceived by others and how he showcases himself to others based on that perception. (specially with how little effort Riordan put on him besides making him perfect-er Percy who's somehow also weaker and less important than him).
Let's not pretend a black, Arab, indigenous, Asian, Latin man, etc, in the USA would ever be treated with the universal reverence Jason gets from New Roma, you can't have the illusion of perfection and most of all, of invincibility they have about him when you see him suffering racism or xenophobia in the middle of a mission. Nothing in his life has ever gone wrong, that's his image, destined to be king, he is supposed to have no weakness on his peers eyes.
He is not trying to prove people wrong, he is trying to prove them right; he isn't worthy despite their prejudice, on the contrary, he only tried to make himself worthy to fulfill their expectations. He can't be a woman or an immigrant or have a visible disability or any other thing that strays him from a perfect ideal by western society standards, and be that same character.
#Different from the other white character in the series he was never questioned or doubted#There's a presumption of perfection with no exceptions that society doesn't give to us (women poc immigrants visible minorities in general)#His privilege (handsome white man with no visible disability son of Zeus etc) also prevented anyone from worrying for his well being#This illusion/expectation of him having no weakness/being untouchable pushes himself too far and clouds his judgment.#I headcanon he didn't even consider the possibility of myopia because that wouldn't fit Jason Grace Son of Jupiter so it wasn't an option#And you think it'd be the same character after facing racism? Because ain't no way he'd be praetor without going through racism#I think I'd love him nonetheless since I'm very weak to the whole golden boy tearing himself to save the world but it'd be a new character#jason grace#I know racism in USA is different from here but I know how different a “non-racist” white person treats me and treats my white friends#Also for him to not be an entirely different character if PoC would be incredibly disrespectful and racist on its own#It would fail to recognize the difference in how we are read (and written). I hate that a lot.#I remember that when Cody told Brandi “I see no color” she told him “then you don't see me” and that's so fucking striking#We ARE different. treated differently. if you act like you don't see it then you also turn a blind eye to the violence that comes from it#This is straying from my point I got a bit heated banalization of things I care about usually does that to me#Point is please don't change Jason on the very few things that man actually bothered writing about him#I actually think this is true about Octavian too. A lot of what he is allowed to do would not be possible if he weren't a white man.#Same for Rachel Elizabeth Dare. I mean you can work around making her poc but it will truly be pushing A LOT#Let's put it this way: a woc doing a street performance is perceived very differently from a white woman doing a street performance.#Specially in the eyes of cops#Pjo
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julyrivers · 6 days
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fleshdyke · 3 months
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#csa warning for tags#goddd being raped at 6ish and brutally bullied is a hell of a combination#i was the one kid in not only my grade but multiple above and below me as well that the boys would dare each other to 'ask out'#absolutely CONSTANTLY. like jesus#by the time i was raped i'd already been bullied pretty badly for a while. including being constantly told i was ugly by all the boys#which is like. a huge reason i was raped in the first place. i still dont know who it was but i can only assume he took advantage of me#being constantly bullied to abuse me. as child rapists so often do#but like i was always the one that would be 'asked out' as a dare bc why would any of them want to talk to me#it was so inconceivable that any of them could want to be near me let alone 'go out' with me. they didn't even bother trying to hide the way#they laughed. like they didn't try to hide it bc they knew no one would do anything#and this happening to me fucking constantly for years on end throughout my ENTIRE childhood. that fucks with you man#like i dont think its even possible for anyone to like being around me at all. let alone find me attractive#there's still never been a single person who's had a crush on me or whatever#like all my friends have stories about annoying boys having crushes on them when they were younger. and what does it say about me that im#the complete opposite. and like it's so stupid because who fucking cares what 10 year old boys thought in 2016 but it really really fucks#you up bad man. like if anyone ever does come to be attracted to me for whatever reason i dont think im ever going to be able to believe it#i'm always going to be waiting for the joke to end and them to start laughing. i'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop#and the worst part of it all is that i fucking want to be raped again#being raped as a little kid is the only time anyone has ever wanted me. it's the only time i've ever been desired. and i dont even like sex#but it's just the only time anyone has ever loved me in a non parental way#like i have one crush story to all my friends'. and it was a grown man that raped me when i was little#and i want to be raped again so fucking badly not because i would enjoy it but because it would prove that someone actually fucking wants me#i want to be sexually harassed and not in the way i usually am. i want to be catcalled and have to be scared walking around alone#i want men to grope me and say disgusting things and rape me because then i would finally be fucking wanted#it would prove that i'm actually likeable in some capacity. that i still am#im so scared that now that im grown im just a lost cause. because i was only desirable when i was little. now im just nothing#and i know i shouldnt even care but its so fucking hard to shake. i just want someone to love me#and i love my mom so much but i want them to love me because they want to and not because they have to#rambles#vent
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heylenaa · 4 months
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thebirdandhersong · 7 months
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personally I don't like this ish (pointing to my emotions) and if I could remove one very specific one I am struggling with at the moment, that would be SOOOOOO very convenient and helpful, Lord
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ereborne · 3 months
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Song of the Day: February 25
“Watermelon Crawl” by Tracy Byrd
#song of the day#I just remembered to go back and edit this song file on my comp so it has the correct artist#it was so stupid funny--last week-ish Duncan and I were talking about the playlist I'd made for him to veto things off of#(neither of the boys are any good at telling me what songs of mine they /do/ like so we've landed on this variably-successful strategy#where instead I make a playlist of my best guesses for their taste and then as it plays through they tell me which songs I was wrong about)#and we got to 'Brown Chicken Brown Cow' by Trace Adkins and I was like 'yeah you probably don't want this one do you'#and he was like *extremely flat expression* No. Thanks.#and I told him I'd already remembered to remove 'Ala-Freakin-Bama' (also by Trace Adkins. same album and all) so I should get partial credi#and he was like mm. sure.#and I told him how I'd started with my 'all country music on my laptop' playlist for scaffolding#and then added in pretty much everything I had by other artists he'd seemed to enjoy before#(Duncan's more tolerant of this playlist-winnowing process than Nick is so his playlist starts with a much wider net#Nick's playlist I was a lot more cautious with because if I lose him at an early stage we'll never get a successful final product)#anyhow so Duncan rolled his eyes so mightily at the mention of Ala-Freakin-Bama and I was like actually you know what#here's all the songs I have by Trace Adkins. tell me which ones you /do/ want and we'll pull all the rest now (to save your eyeballs)#and he looked over the whole list (about twenty songs) and finally he said 'oh! Watermelon Crawl! I do like that one. at least there's one'#and I had to laugh and tell him 'actually I'm pretty sure that's mislabeled. that's a Tracy Byrd song' and he rolled his eyes again#turns out there's actually no Trace Adkins song Duncan will tolerate! no respect for the artistry of the Honky-Tonk Badonkadonk
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etherylelixyr · 27 days
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X has stopped replying to my texts. Did I do something wrong..? I must have. Why can't I be perfect like them.
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sparks-chaotic-cove · 2 months
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It used to befuddle me how my friends were like.. terrified of the kids who'd hide in the bathroom and vape or get into hallway fights. Like... just nod at 'em, go along with you're business and don't get in theirs and you'll be fine
I had to brush my teeth after lunch for a while and every time I walked in there they'd all tense up then go "oh it's you" and move on. A few were on my soccer team or knew me from art class so they'd say hi but really do nothing.
Ended up hearing all the drama of "oh this person cheated on this person" and "oh this person is rumored to be pregnant."
Like at the end of the day- 1) they're highschoolers, 2) they really don't care as long as you're not crossing them, 3) just be decently friendly to everyone. Unless they go after you first, then you can deal with it.
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mishkakagehishka · 1 year
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i think it would be saur funny if Yuu suddenly got to telling people "well, actually, uhhhhhhh the great seven were villains" i think it would be so funny can we get a season 2 that is entirely just dealing with the fallout, i wanna see total anarchy i wanna see "what else were we lied to about" i wanna see the absolute existential dread
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moregraceful · 10 months
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kinda eating drywall abt the karlsson trade but it is what it is
i consider it a win in that i didn't lose nick cicek in the trade honestly, which probably says intensely worrisome things about my priorities in the sharks org AND my perception of nick cicek's trade value but. yeah no we got fleeced not only by pittsburgh's most eligible president of hockey ops slash gm AND kent hughes, which is an ego blow on unforeseen and sloppy levels. like my mom could sell me to kyle dubas and i'd be like fine, whatever, but mike grier is a whole ass nhl gm. he should have protective charms in place against that man so i gotta ask. i gotta ask. mikey you good. you good babe??? you need some electrolytes???
congrats to sid crosby for adding another boytoy to his dman harem tho. personally cannot wait to see what happens when karly (mean cat), tanger (evil cat), and gravy (anxious greyhound) get in the same locker room. the sparks...they're flyin
#or gravy ends up in wilkes-barre. i'll kill you gmkd don't test me#back for a hot second to check one (1) thing for a challenge but i could not resist explaining my passions (gay defensemen)#maybe there's a god above...all i ever learned from love...was how to write ryan graves in various situations getting stressed out#have i ever written ryan graves smut? i can't remember. huge L if i haven't. someone inform me if i have. i don't remember at all#this tumblr break is going great. i started and finished a fic for time begins that needs psychological spiritual and emotional help#''you know what this baseball fic needs? a trans grandmother who is witch-coded'' boy no it doesn't!!!!!#if i were smart i'd lean into urban fantasy and just go nuts. blake sabol the magic is within YOU#alas the grandmother is simply from sonoma (at first she was from bolinas and then i was like i CANNOT validate those maniacs)#still packing but i'm so stressed bc i have one episode of tunnel talk left and i'm like what do i do if i run out of episodes untll sat#my sister told me to listen to the audiobook of gideon the ninth and i'm like dude i don't know if i'm smart enough for that#i bring a real ''checking books out on libby and not listening or reading to them'' that libraries paying for ebooks and eaudiobooks#per use on a proprietary license do not enjoy#so i'm holding off on gideon for now. i checked out the night tiger while i wait for time war to come round again we'll see if i listen#what am i talking about. i rediscovered spotify's tropical house playlist and that's all i fucken listen to now#on some secret level i am on a sunny beach far away from here getting [redacted] by [redacted] while [redacted]#it's so interesting how it took me a half hour to respond to this and yet i gave anon none of the commiseration they wanted or needed#cage replies#anon
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bat-the-misfit · 1 year
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"disappointment" is when you show a drawing of the main male character of the book you're writing to your mother and she says he's "kinda ugly" as if he had the responsability of being handsome for being the Main Male Character (tm)
#mom it's Tadeu we're talking about#after everything i told you about Tadeu do you really think he'd be Tipically Handsome (tm)?#also this is weird bc some people might actually think he's attractive bc beauty is relative#i personally don't imagine him as a dude i'd simp for#even then what if my book gets a series (lol) and the actor who plays him is handsome while still being perfect for he role??? what if???#actually if you look at his board on my pinterest you will see the dudes i put there that remind me of him#are actually very cute in my view and they still look like Tadeu even if Tadeu's not “that cute” for me#so who knows dude??? what even is beauty??? why do people need to be “beautiful”????#i think my mom forgot who's her child lmao#i LOVE taking everything that society made typical and popular and putting my own twist on it#and funnily she knows about this#like come on it's a book about time travel and no one time travels on it lol#the main character is a girl that has a boy best friend and they don't fall in love with each other#the old lady who serves as a mentor in a literary sense is actually an angry bitch and not your typical Wise Mentor (tm) like Gandalf#while other books' mentors are saying philosofical shit about life the mentor of my book is holding herself to punch the charas on the face#but really why do people need to be beautiful? can't we just BE people???#also just bc i like men that doesn't mean all my male characters are supposed to be attractive to me#to me my characters are my children not my boyfriends#UUUUUGH MOM WHY MOM#I'M SO ANGRY LOL RESPECT MY SON TADEU HE DESERVES THE WORLD#LEAVE HIM AND HIS UGLY HAIRSTYLE IN PEACE#tio morcego tá pistola
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bravevolunteer · 5 months
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VERSE — WEREWOLF
Michael didn't know of their existence until the night he was turned. It was after a particularly difficult night ( barely seventeen, just him and his father ) that he stormed out of the house, unsure where he intended to go and caught roaming around in the dark alone. The wolf attacked, Michael's instincts no match for the creature, only surviving as they seemed to get distracted while flecks of dawn began to appear in the night sky. When William saw him— confused, bloody, and freshly traumatized— with subtle shifts in Michael's appearance in addition to his story, the truth surfaced. Michael was now a werewolf.
With his father developing a fixation on his condition ( possibility of him already researching/being interested in monsters before this ) and without anyone else to turn to, Michael reluctantly relied on his research in growing accustomed to himself. The adjustment period, especially through his first few full moons, was rife with dealing with his father's intrigue on top of the transformations.
It was months later that Michael not only found out about, but became part of his father's real secret: each month, he was set on a victim while turned. Studying monsters, children's fear, remnant and agony, it all lined up, and with the seeds of Michael's reliance planted, William's survival around Michael was assured. Michael stays in Hurricane, with secrets to hide and the rage of an animal trapped in a cage brewing within him.
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Some physical changes while not in full werewolf form include sharper canines, sharper/more pointed nails, thinner pupils, a yellowish tint to his eyes, and thicker hair. He is also considerably stronger and faster.
He sustains his condition after the night ends and he turns back: usually, this means he's still covered in blood after a kill. Would stand for an injury as well, but good luck with that-
As time passes and Michael starts to gain a little more control, he can learn to transform ( or half transform ) at will, full moons are uncontrollable.
There is the possibility of gaining enough control to stop himself from lashing out against someone in this form, but it's incredibly difficult. The only person he has managed this with is William.
Michael is physically exhausted after full moons. Needs recuperation day. He's fucking eepy. ( and that's without the mental toll ).
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hua-fei-hua · 1 year
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*flopped down on a couch w/a glass bottle of apple juice to make it look like i'm drinking beer*
yeah... yeah i'm fine.... just coming to terms w/the fact that i must use javascript in order to achieve my vision w/the neocities...
#the main reason i haven't just abandoned this particular aspect of the Vision(tm) is bc it would be useful for like.#more than one thing. so it's like. le sigh.#(reading the documentation for tippy tooltips tonight so that i can sleep on it n try to implement it tmrw or something)#why is it always js.... please god spare me at least a Little bit of suffering here i'll never sin again etc etc#speaking of sin i've started speaking more candidly abt my queerness w/the kids at work this week#it's nice to talk to the older kids (as in fifth grade or older) bc even tho like. nine years old is when they start to be tolerable#they lack awareness n life experience. today i told the older kids that i like men but in a gay way#n one of them was like 'i don't get it' n then i reminded her of Gender:tm: n she was like 'ohhhh i get it'#n the two guys also listening were like 'what. i still don't get it.' ONE OF THEM ASKED ME IF I WAS AMAB ACTUALLY LOL#n i was like 'what? that's not important.' but that was really surprising! kids usually read me as female#so it was kind of flattering in a way to be asked 'were you born a boy?' like idk how he's trying to process my gender#but i'm going to flatter myself into thinking the question comes from him like. idk clocking some kind of innate masculinity or w/e idk#花話#anyway it's Crazy that it took me almost a year to not feel like i'd get instantly fired for telling kids i'm queer#Not going to lie it really felt like i'd never get to this point but it really is kinda just once you start it gets easier#(though to be fair i also wouldn't have told Any of the kids Anything had one of them not started acting like 'gays' was a dirty word)#(n i just Looked at him n said 'you know i'm a queer right?' n he was like 'O_O')#when i worked at homophobic summer camp i do remember daydreaming abt telling my boss i was a 'flaming queer'#i'd have put my feet up on her desk n everything as i made direct eye contact w/her but ofc i never did anything like that.#anyway! i will slep now so that i can get back to work on my projects tmrw morning
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headofthedemonn · 5 months
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It's very seldom my heart agrees with my mind but I know he's not coming back.
#captain's log#I've never once felt desirable he told me so many times how beautiful i was he asked me why did i hate myself#and who hurt me so much he made me feel seen because he told me everything they did to me wasn't my fault he said stop calling yourself ugly#please don't hurt yourself anymore okay? im here for you I'd never leave you like they did okay? never I'm not like them i promise#i love you. but none of it was true finding out the truth made me hate myself even more how stupid could i have been to think someone#love me i wanted to believe it so bad no one has ever said that to me so of course i wanted to hold on with an iron fist but everything#but i was just a game to him he didn't care about me i honestly think he hated me to my core#i don't think i have a chance at finding love but that's all i want i could easily fall in love with a boy or girl or whatever but someone#lied about loving me and caring about me so am i doomed to chase things i don't really want money? status? success?#sure money is needed to survive the world but why can't i have what my grandparents had or other people have had love and it lasts still#i just wanted to feel it in my heart so much i was willing to do anything but i was so fucking stupid i should have known better#i thought it was real i didn't think he was being dishonest because i was telling the truth the whole time so i expected him to do the same#i don't think i have a chance but if i do idk i don't think i can survive getting hurt again#i just want something real and someone real but that's far too much to ask
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kindahoping4forever · 2 years
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Some birthday Cake for @cal-puddies, my otter half, my online bestie that I can finally call my IRL bestie as well! I'll forever be indebted to this band for "introducing" me to such a caring, thoughtful, fun and funny friend. Whether we're driving up a mountain to see our boyfs, fleeing a sketchy motel in Glendale, becoming baby birb in laws or accidentally talking on the phone for 6 hours, I'd happily do anything with and for you. I can't wait to see what kind of dumb shit we get into during this next year of your life.
As 4 Australian poets once said, "I love to love you, for god's sake!" 💙🐢🦖💙
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