#Bluebond-Langner

[tesl8n]

"People never dream about using their phone" Incorrect, last night I had a stress dream about entering food into my calorie counter

[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

★☆☆☆☆

I wish I never listened to the medical and psychiatric community when they told me it was possible to change my sex. What a lie. Very dangerous and unethical. Sex reassignment surgery is a hit and miss type of surgery, but they don't tell you that. They never do. And maybe if I didn't have autism, maybe if my brain wasn't so defective, I would have caught on before it was too late. I wish there was a cure for autism, but that's unlikely. It's endless suffering on top of even more suffering. I also wish voluntary euthanasia was legal. My death, likely painful, has proven that ethics are not universal and are otherwise non-existent.

No one is truly there for me. There's no need to pretend. I have a gaping hole in my genital area with my colon spilling out (disgusting) and a ring of scar tissue blocking most of the entrance. If the colon can't discharge, that leaves it with severe blockage, which then could turn (and likely expected) into blood clots, followed by death. I've already reached the stage of blockage.

What hurts me the most is the loneliness and the inability to find a partner. I can't have a normal sex life. I'm a loser and I probably deserve this deception. This is what I get for messing with nature. Mankind is destructive and I self-destructed. I just wanted friendship and love. I wanted life to be easier. I wanted to be a woman since I was 15. I wish I had the knowledge that I have today. I was a confused kid with no identity. I wish I could have done everything different, but it's too late now. I'm royally screwed.

Dr. Thomas Satterwhite and Dr. Maurice Garcia, both in California and who are my original surgeons, have basically killed me. With accessory to my death is Dr. Miroslav Djordjevic, Dr. Rajveer Purohit, Dr. Rachel Bluebond-Langner, and Dr. Jess Ting, who all refused to help me despite having letters by 1 psychiatrist and 2 Clinical Social Workers recommending reversal surgery and my detransitioning. My last wish is for the State of California and State of New York to press mutilation and criminal charges against these monsters, but they won't because people like me don't matter. There will be no accountability since malpractice is impossible to prove, especially with no lawyers willing to help me. There will be more victims of the false promises of changing your body into someone you can never be.

The Transgender Ideology and its lies, along with the pro-gay media, medical and psychiatric community, have killed me. The feminization of America will continue to produce outcomes like mine. It wasn't my fault for failing. Everyone failed me, my death shouldn't surprise anyone.

I hope they're all happy now. They've doomed me to choose between a life of suffering and death. No one cares enough to help me, they want me to wake up in pain everyday and suffer. No pain medication, no surgery, no empathy, and no pleasure.

I hope to be remembered in positive light, but no doubt I'll be labeled mentally ill and a fool. I've always meant well. It was my kindness and trusting at face value that screwed me (like always).

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Yarden's pleas for help, ignored by the medical institutions that did this to him in the first place, can still be found on his Yelp profile [archive].

[bleh-idk-bro]

2021-08-10

The consult with Dr. Bluebond-Langner went surprisingly well. Everyone I interacted with was friendly and taking measurements not as awkward as I thought it would be. I opted for DI and Dr. BBL told me that it'd look great :) I even got a surgery date!! I really wasnt expecting it because the nurse told me I wouldn't get one today, but Dr. BBL told me there was a cancelation just before she came to see me so she offered me the date :))

it hasn't been formally scheduled yet, but it's tentatively scheduled for feburary 11 2022 :)

[twinpoetry]

Hey I haven't posted much on here in a while. One update is that I started testosterone March 6th 2020! This is what I look like now! If you want to stay up to date about my goings on, I'm still posting a lot on Twitter (BKellyGorman). Anyway, that's all for now!

[jamesvin-varsity]

i’m! too! excited to write anything!!!

[arthurjude]

March 2019 (21 months post-op)

[dickandtwoballs]

I’m cancelling my consult appointment with Dr. Bluebond-Langner due to what she said in the NYT article. I’m furious.

[xprincetx]

1 month post op slowly starting to look much better, I’m loving it. Left Side 1 week post op, Right Side 1 month

[missjessicabrewer]

So I had my GRS revision yesterday with Dr Rachel Bluebond Langner at NYU Langone. It seemed to go well. I'm still in a fair amount of pain but I feel good compared to last time.

My room is beautiful though. I have a view of the Empire State Building out of my window and the selfie lighting is incredible.

Surgery questions are welcome :)

[itslucasaaron]

Dr. Rachel Bluebond-Langner Top Surgery Consultation Video!

Check it out! I go over all the details of my consultation and how I feel about it! Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe to my channel!

https://youtu.be/7i3JD-bpocw

[transcythe]

I FINALLY get my drains out tomorrow holy crap this has been the longest two weeks of my LIFE.

I still have to wear the surgical binder pretty much 24/7 for at least another week but...progress...

[librarycards]

The sacrificial nature of childhood is terribly evident: children exist so that parents, doctors, and other caregivers can act and identify themselves as nurturers, protectors, benefactors. The paradox is that once the children recognize their importance to their parents and other caregivers and decide to maintain the pretense, they become protectors themselves and an ironic role reversal is effected. Who is needy, who gives? The parents and doctors in Bluebond-Langner's study are depicted as caring, or attempting to care, for the children in primarily physical terms, while they are less aware and even neglectful of the children's psychic and emotional well-being; conversely, the children are uncannily aware of their parents' and doctors' emotional and psychological needs. Children's fear of physical abandonment by adults on whom they vitally depend binds them to the implicit agreement not to admit the truth of their mortality. Adults' fragility and neediness can imprison their dependent children.

Rachel Quy Collier, "Performing Childhood" in Outsiders Within: Writing on Transracial Adoption.

[bleh-idk-bro]

2 years on T and 3 weeks post top surgery

I did it :)

[queertransjew-blog]

good news!

Quick update: 1) I have legally changed my name, 2) my insurance company agreed to reimburse me for electrolysis, and 3) I have a surgery date! very early 2019. I don’t want to post the specific date. But I am very excited.

And I’m excited about my excitement, considering I wasn’t sure how I’d feel when I actually got a date. It feels real now, concrete. And my excitement makes me feel like this is the right thing for me to do.

[arthurjude]

Hello beautiful people! In a couple of hours it will be Trans Day of Visibility and frankly this entire photo set is pretty self-indulgent. I have learned a lot about myself in the past two years. One of the most important things that I have let go of was the inclination to try to rationalize why the things that I do for myself actually serve a greater purpose. It’s okay to be proud of yourself. It’s okay to do things for yourself just because they make you happy. Because being happy and learning how to embody yourself fully is one of the most radical things someone can do in their lifetime.

So today I don’t have sage words to report back. I am here to celebrate the simple pleasures -- like the way that my shoulders grew into my blazer, the way that my scars have faded and healed, and the strength, joy, and boyhood that I feel when I carry around my sweet, curious, talented, and funny two year old cousin who has only ever seen me as who I am -- his “Aurfuh”. (Who is, by the way, turning two tomorrow! Happy Birthday, sweet bean. I love you so much.)

I’m blessed to live the life that I am living now. I hope that wherever you are, my trans siblings, you know that you are loved and cherished by people who have never met you, that you have an incredible future waiting for you, and that we will be here to support you whether or not you are visible today.

In Solidarity, Arthur Jude

(he/him. click on each picture for timeline.)

[dickandtwoballs]

My Current Plan

Hysterectomy in my home state

Consult with Dr. Bluebond-Langner (first choice)

Possibly with Dr. Chen as well (second choice)

RFF phalloplasty with UL, burial, vnectomy, and erectile device

Tattooing done by Michelle Varga when surgeries are completed/healed