#ChimonySteam

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Being a person who has OCs but isn't confident enough in their art skills to draw them is absolute torture, because I know all about them and exactly how they look and I can picture it in my head, but I don't have the ability to draw them in a way that would do it justice to me, nor do I have the ability to try to commission somebody else to

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As a tumblr user without the mobile app who also has school I find it very entertaining to go to school throughout the day, going through all the boring classes and whatnot, and then to come home to a huge mass of posts made by all my mutuals and the people I follow, going through each one and seeing what was on their minds through the day

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Fuck

Jesus fucking

FUCK

THAT WAS MORE TEARS AT THAT STUPID FAREWELL THAN I WAS AWARE I COULD CRY

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People are speculating that FNAF X Fortnite will be announced as a collab on August 6th, and if that's true I will play Fortnite just for that

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Alright, so my performing arts school does a Senior Showcase at the end of the year as a last performance for seniors to show off the height of their talents, right?

People can sing, people can dance, people can act, play instruments, make films, make visual art pieces such as drawings, paintings, or sculptures, and all sorts of stuff.

I, though I am an actor and tap dancer as well, chose to sing because that is the art I've been doing for the longest in my life. I've been singing since second grade.

I could have chosen a normal song from the radio, I could have chosen a song from a musical like Freeze Your Brain from Heathers or I'm Not a Loser from the SpongeBob Musical.

BUT.

My nerd brain decided "y'know what, let's embrace the nerd side of things."

So instead of doing a radio song or a musical song

I'm singing Space Was Cool.

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Oh yeah

Happy New Year I guess

I'm totally not focused on the fact that I'm already halfway through being a senior in high school

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It's finally hitting me that as a high school senior, my last year with the direct physical support of my parents (at least for a little while) is getting closer to being over. I'm gonna be living on my own. That's wild.

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Y'know that whole 'character design is either big pant or big jakt' thing

Yeah that one

Today I absolutely embodied the 'big pant' side

Because for some reason

I decided

To wear snow pants in early fall.

SNOW. PANTS. IN. EARLY. FALL.

What the hell is wrong with me.

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I need a lot more time to record videos for my YouTube channel than I have right now; it's very frustrating to only have one video uploaded.

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I hate people. My house got egged (I didn't even know people still did that 💀) and we have literally no idea who did it, and only a possible reason why, and our cameras haven't shown us anything helpful. Like what even do I do in this situation. People suck

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There is no way I've been on here for three years

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Currently losing my fucking mind at my super ironic fear of failure that causes me to overthink all of the different possibilities of failure in all aspects of my life, to the point where I'm stuck in this loop of self-hatred and self-destruction and I end up bringing about the very failure I'm so afraid of

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LOSING

my

GODDAMN MIND

At people who have the audacity to lie to your face and tell you things are going okay, but are secretly going behind your back trying to get away from you.

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I got sick again.

AGAIN.

IT HASN'T EVEN BEEN A MONTH YET.

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People are fuckin wild man. I don't understand how you can take on way too many responsibilities for your FRESHMAN YEAR of highschool, get burnt out because you don't actually wanna be a responsible person, you just want the attention and praise that comes with it; people notice you're burnt out and becoming meaner and more rude and they try to help you, but instead you take it as an attack or some bullshit; you've been cast as a decently sized role in a show for the Thespian Troupe at school and you're starting to have issue with the class because of your own decisions to take on too much, and when people call you on your lack of care or engagement, instead of trying to fix it, you decide to just be a coward and leave the class. WITHOUT FUCKING TELLING ANYBODY, EVEN THE TROUPE DIRECTOR.

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I hate being gluten free due to Celiac diseas so much, because people constantly misunderstand in one of two ways.

Either they misunderstand it as an allergy and act like I'll have an allergic reaction such as anaphylaxis.

Or they think it's completely unimportant and "just a fad."