#Crow rants

[that-one-zombie-crow]

God forbid a person be aromantic. God forbid a woman be aromantic. We live in a world where romance is treated like the holy grail and friendships are pushed to the side. A woman is supposed to fall in love and get married and have children and it's not fair to people who don't feel that way.

I hate it so much

[go0dvib3s]

I wish I could go back to 2021-2022 to live back in the good old days of the dsmp cc's, but with the good friends i have now, and the good ones from them

[fortheloveofexy]

i know a lot of people do it as a coping mechanism but as a survivor I hate when people joke about killing themselves.

I have very vivid, very traumatic memories of the time I attempted and every time I see people joking about it, it flashes back into my mind - and let me tell you, it is not something I like remembering!!

The worst part is that it's so pervasive now that there's no getting away from it. It doesn't matter if I block tags because most people don't use TW's when making these jokes. Half the time, they're blasted directly into my notifs via comments people leave on my angstier fics and art. I still struggle with suicidal ideation from time to time and these sorts of comments and jokes do not help!!

I know people don't mean any harm by it and I would never judge people who use it to cope with their own suicidal thoughts. I also know I'm responsible for managing my own responses to my triggers... but can we maybe have some consideration for people who find those jokes triggering?? 😭

[valravn72]

I’ve been playing a lot of small indie games and god I wish the rest of the game industry understood that the whole point of farming and grinding is so that in some point of the journey the player can go HAHAHA I PLANNED FOR THIS and pull off crazy crap earlier than they should be able to. Like Teenage Exocolonist letting me just walk past all the checks when I’m outside the colony and go to the boss immediately because I farmed the fuck out of my perception skill should technically be game ruining but it’s not. I planned for this so I could get the ascension ending easily while simultaneously putting the rest of my effort into figuring out as much about engineering as possible at the same time so I can pull off a full shield run. Having advantages in certain contexts should allow me to interact with it in a way that opens an entirely new path for me to take. Poisoning the campfire survivors at the very beginning of my Inscryption run lets me take a route where I focus on building up the cards I already have instead of hunting down new ones. Advantages are good!! Grinding so you’re high enough level to beat one boss only for the rest of the game to balance itself by making everything else many levels higher than you once again is unrewarding. If your player cannot face your game from multiple angles then maybe it’s not that worth exploring. If your player over relies on an ability they spent a long time working up and they’ve made the game too easy make it so that steers them into a new situation where they have to innovate on their strategy to get things going again. Just hand me a game like Inscryption where I farm the whole game with fecundity decks and then get to Kaycee’s Mod and realize I have to relearn the whole game from a completely new perspective now that I can’t rely on that anymore. If it’s just a matter of “the numbers are too high we have to turn all the other numbers up too” then do the numbers really mean anything anymore or are you just keeping me stuck in a role where I’m saying to myself “once I have the advantage I’ll be able to explore so many new things” but then never letting me have any advantage until near the end when the world has lost its charm because everything is just a damn numbers game.

[headofocs-inklesspen]

I’m sick of being judged for being tired. Or mocked. “You’re always tired. You don’t even do anything you just work and read and rewatch House on your days off. How are you tired??” It’s a problem that I have to work so many hours that I’m constantly tired. It’s a problem that I’m constantly so tired I struggle to do the other things I need to get done. I don’t Want to feel like I’m sacrificing being able to pick up my apartment as often as I’d like just so I can work all day. I don’t enjoy spending most of my days off lying on the couch worrying about all the other stuff adding up

[crowandmoonwriting]

Infinite possibility--infinite possible futures, and infinite possible failure. Is it my inability to focus? Is it my fear of failure? Is it my fear of success? I need to dig deeper. Why am I this way? Why is my writing this way?

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time, to the young writer so unafraid of infinite possibility. To the writer with one story, writing passionately, working a steady groove into my finger's callous, feeling tired and happy every time I wrote. I want to write that boy a love letter, young me, bursting with feeling, with desire, with wonder, afraid but not letting it stop him. Am I just so brow-beaten by trauma and the inevitable discouragement of adulthood? Or does the idea of complete freedom no longer seem so freeing?

There will always be excuses, and this is the most insidious one. Possibility.

[deckdancer]

The older and more aware I get, the more I feel the romanticism of vampires is a special kind of classist "pick me"-ism. Kinda like the dream of winning the lottery. It's the idea that if you're special enough, in the right place, at the right time, someone can remove every mortal ailment and stress from your body in exchange for a small act of service that ultimately perpetuates the cycle. Bram Stokers Dracula should have been fought. Vampires from their inception have not been sexy. Vlad Tepes, who we often associate with the original Dracula, was a psychopathic aristocratic murderer who had the bodies of thousands of dissidents in his courtyard. And yet now, the narrative of vampires has shifted from the elites of society sucking the blood of the poor to sustain themselves ad infinitum, to something sexualized and romanticized. I don't blame kinks at all for the romanticization of vampires, kink unfortunately was the community the propaganda spread through. It makes sense from a surface level. The neck is a very intimate part of the body, something we only allow someone we truly trust to get near. That, mixed with the humanization of vampires, having them need consent in order to feed, helps play them into the role of the victim of circumstance, just needing to do what they do in order to survive. That, or they find a substitute, and thus once again human blood is seen as a treat, an indulgence, that only furthers home that those born into wealth and capital don't have a choice but to live in that lifestyle, and those that don't live like others are seen as odd. The humans in these stories are us. They always are and always were us. We feed the vampires, willingly or unwillingly. But to think that we can slough off every problem we have by a single act of service to those that think themselves higher than us is a fallacy. Because a vampire must always feed, and when it can no longer feed on you, they will dispose of you, because then you are competition. The best you can hope for in that situation is eternal thrallhood, never reaching the status of vampire, never sinking low enough to be seen as a human again.

[macbethlives]

episode ii: attack of the porn bots

[crow-obsessions]

I am completely (not) normal about MLP infection AUs / fanart ... I watched two eps of the show *years* ago but damn if I don't love the creepy fucked up art

[darkcrowart]

I want to make artist trading cards. Not those little cards you buy, draw originals on, and then take to places and hope to trade with other artists. I mean like artist trading cards.

Packs of cards with series differing by year or theme. Numbered cards where some numbers are rarer than others. Foils that add something ethereal to the image. Small descriptions that explain the artist's thoughts or feelings, and maybe multiple versions of one card with different descriptions. Ultra rare cards that are hand signed and slipped into the occasional card pack. I want a binder full of artist trading cards.

[1928crows]

And for my final wish, I would like a mass extinction event to purge all of the misguided, irredeemable and prejudiced people unworthy of being human. I would rather rid this whole planet of human life, than deal with any form of hatred to minorities, or children bullying people through anonymous comments, people supporting known abusers, corrupt politicians inciting their hatred into their campaigns and inflicting it to the land upon which they govern.

I fucking hate the concept of sentience, let's have birds rule the planet.

[alex-dontknow]

maybe i'll keep my art over here for now i forgot how bigoted tiktok can be

[go0dvib3s]

I'm getting so sad because I keep saying beeduo, allium duo, and bench trio posts, and it makes me so sad like I miss them.

I also miss the old clingy duo they've changed so much already what

Time flies.

[foxy--stoat]

i have seen so many psychiatrists and missed so much school in the last two weeks and i'm so tired and i just want to go to school like normal

[valravn72]

Yeah, it’s really sad that toh is over, but instead I like to think about how the fantastic finale has finalized it’s legacy as a pioneer of cartoons.

This show meant so much to so many people! It did everything SO WELL. It has been there for so many queer and nd kids and now that it’s over it will be remembered by so many as a fucking revolution of a show and will pave the way for so many people to make so much beautiful art.

Now that it’s over it has found its permanent place in the museum of culture as an absolute paragon of animation and representation. Someday we’ll be able to look back and say that so many of the franchises of the future have been inspired by it.

Luz was right, it’s over, but it’s also just the beginning

[headofocs-inklesspen]

The other day I was talking about hyperfixations and how being in the middle of one makes it so hard to convince myself to do anything else even important tasks and a coworker goes “you let things like that control you?” And I

….yes….????? I don’t have the ability to just like, switch it off????? Like I get I come off as unaffected by the autism/adhd as I can manage but they’re still things that affect me??? With traits and symptoms that I cannot control?????

Sorry, let me just tell my brain to simply learn to not get obsessively focused on a topic for days weeks months at a time. I can’t believe all these years I never tried just telling myself “no we can’t hyperfixate on this we have to function within the confines of ‘normality’”