#EVERYONE SOUNDS THE SAME TO ME IM AUTISTIC

[hcguesstheauthormessageboard]

i'm not the lucid dreamer, sadly. but here's another hint: remember your advice about switching up the typing style in our asks? -puzzle book anon

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[piplupod]

feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.

[bitegore]

i must not become a bitter joyless hater. bitter joyless haterism is the mind-killer. genuine bitter joyless haterhood is the little-death that brings total obliteration. i will face my annoyance and frustration. i will permit it to pass over me and through me. and when it has gone past i will turn the inner eye to see its path. where the bitter joyless haterism has gone there will be nothing. only i will remain.

[waybrightgender]

is there any way that i can tell moirail that theyre definitely autistic or at least suggest that they look into it without sounding mean

[faaun]

i realised i never went clubbing w my friends all together before this point. just w random individuals etc

[toastsnaffler]

see I get its abt repression and letting that bury u alive but theres still time it doesnt have to be like this etc !! and it does that powerfully. but I've just. never been repressed or closeted in that specific kind of sense. dysphoria has never manifested like that for me... I kind of feel like social pressures esp gender related ones didn't exert the same force on me growing up that they did on a lot of ppl I know (and still don't now) bc I never fully understood them or was excluded for various reasons. but man. fucking rough for ppl who did/do still feel that way 💔

[darlinimamess]

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[muttfangs]

I don't understand neurotypical cis queer men who want so so so so badly to be catty and mean on purpose

[purityonice]

Hiiii!!! Could you write a Autistic!Reader x Clay where the reader is like really over stimulated and Clay helps them (NB reader preferred/nf)

📗CLAY X AUSTISTIC! NB! READER

Please note that this is my first time writing an autistic character 🙏🏽 and if i made ANY mistakes please tell me in the comments and i will change it ASAP!

Clay noticed how overwhelmed you were when you went to Pop Village it was to overstimulating with all their bright lights, loud sounds were too much. So he decided taking you away from everyone would help calm you down.

You were walking with Clay he was chatting as you nodded or shook your head in response was you stimmed trying to calm yourself with this new enviroment. Looking at the ground a small ball rolled towards you too.

The ball exploded as a glitter bomb went off infront of you and clay the sound frightening you as the glitter stuck to your skin. The feeling of the glitter and the sound of the bomb going off still ringing in your ears made you shake as you ran off your hands covering your ears.

Clay tried to follow you but he was pulled away by a few trolls that sang. He felt himself fill with anger as he watched you run into the forest. Freeing himself from the trolls who looked at him confused, As he turned around and began running after you.

He ran for awhile trying to listen out for you running from place to place before hearing you wail.

He ran out of breath huffing with his hand son his knees as his eyes landed on you. You had your knees against your chest as you rocked yourself trying to settle down as glitter was scattered around you crying and wailing could be heard from you as you hit the floor beneath you.

His eyes softened as he relaxed his body his chest still jagged as he walked closer to you as you continued to cry shaking as you tried hard to scrape the glitter off of your face.

“Baby?” Clays voice was low as his chest rose and fell rapidly his eyes never leaving you as tears rolled down your face he reached out to touch you before backing away. “Right-no touching. im sorry i- got your headphones you dropped them.” He said reaching to his side to give you your headphones.

You sniffled lifting your head fron your arms are your glitter covered face looked at him with teary eyes. “T-thank you Clay.” Your voice was meek and raspy as you took your headphones from his hands and placing them on your head. The sounds of nature being drowned out by silence giving you somewhat of a relief as you continued to sway and stim rubbing your face.

“Do you want to stay here for awhile or get the glitter off of you?” Clay asked leaning against the rock his face filled with worry as you, you didnt answer him as you closed your eyes basking in the silence your face still cringing in disgust as the glitter was still on your face. “Are you okay?”

Clay was filled with concern as you calmed yourself down. A few minutes passed before you decided to leave looking into Clays worried eyes. “I’m ready to go please.” He sighed in relief sitting up from his spot on the floor dusting himself off.

You walked through the forest making your way back to the village. “I don’t think I can live here Clay… everything is to…UGH it just isnt right nothings the same and it’s so loud all the time.” You vented as Clay listened nodding his head in agreement. Drinking in your form as you walked.

“Yeah it is alot right? I don’t get why they have so much energy 24/7 it’s like having a village full of Vivas.” You both laughed at how reckless that would be. You let out a sigh before looking into your boyfriends eyes.

“T-thank you for being there for me Clay…” You trailed off hesitanting before grabbing his hands. Blushing at how warm he was. He looked at you shocked before a huge smile crawled onto his face.

Turning his head hiding his blush as you did the same. “ eh hm yeah no worries its the least i could do you know i love you alot so i’d do anything for you.” He spoke as you guys walked hand in hand together back to Pop village and to get all the glitter of off you.

After you guys got back he made sure to protect you from any more glitter bombs after that.

IM SO SO SO SORRY IF THIS IS BAD please tell me if i made any mistakes!!!!!!!

[zebulontheplanet]

Another stupid question, hope you dont mind :l

not mocking or anything, just genuinely interested.

but, as you are nonverbal, can you scream and/or laugh?

i have seen this autistic teen in my yt shorts, on and off, its been a long time now though, he is nonverbal, but i realised i have never seen him laugh, he just smiles a little and im wondering, can nonverbal peeps actually laugh, i do realise not everyone is the same, so some may be able to, im imagining?

Hello! Not a stupid question. Yes, I can laugh. I can make grunting sounds. I can scream. I can even do “mhm” and that type of noises. I just cannot verbally form words.

Every person is different! But this is just for me personally!

[sexhaver]

me n bailey marathoned the first season of this show over the last few days. some thoughts:

Alan Cumming, specifically his accent and wardrobe, are by far the highlights of this show. i sincerely hope someone has made an edit compiling all of his outfits without any of the actual gameplay, because he is consistently serving cunt

like just look at this

that being said i did keep seeing him as Fegan Floop from Spy Kids

oh right there's an actual game/competition component to this

im just gonna get this out of the way: the entire premise of the show is fundamentally flawed. they keep trying to make it sound like the three Traitors in the group are "backstabbing" and "working against" the Faithful (non-Traitors), but, like, everyone on the show (Traitor or Faithful) is competing for the exact same prize pool. it's not like The Mole (or any other social deduction game), where the secret evil team actually has different goals diametrically opposed to those of the good team and has to complete them without having anyone notice. here, the evil team just... votes on someone to "murder" every night. that's it.

to emphasize this point: the literal only thing that can ever give you away as a Traitor is being bad at lying/concealing guilt. there are ZERO gameplay differences between the goals of a Traitor and the goals of a Faithful, which means the arguments over who to vote for banishing are based entirely on "gut feelings"

nobody on the show has ever played a social deduction game before. late into the season, there's a day where all 3 Traitors are alive and it's down to 6 people total (so 3v3). anyone who has played Mafia/Werewolf/ToS/etc knows what this means: barring bullshit last-minute rules from the producers, it is quite literally impossible for the Traitors to lose, because none of them can be voted up. it takes 4 out of 6 votes to exile someone, and there are only 3 Faithful left. if no Traitor votes for another Traitor, then it is, again, literally impossible for a Traitor to be exiled. furthermore, if they all coordinate their votes on one Faithful, all they have to do is convince one of the remaining two Faithfuls to vote with them, and they instantly win $180k (split three ways). and hey, wouldn't you know it, one of the Faithfuls (Kate) was already really suspicious, and another one of the Faithfuls (Quentin) said out loud multiple times that he was voting for her!

so what do you think the Traitors did?

god this part pissed me off so much im having to pause for breathe while typing this. okay. so.

two of the Traitors voted for the third Traitor, who got voted off.

after being voted off, youre supposed to walk up to the Circle of Truth and reveal if you were a Traitor or not. the guy who got eliminated (Christian) was entirely too nice and gracious about it. me n bailey discussed this and came to the conclusion that we would either a) out the other Traitors on the stand and explain, using game theory and math, exactly how fucking stupid they are, completely ruining the game for them, or b) pretend to cry a little while walking up to the Circle of Truth but as soon as you walk behind the first other Traitor's chair you flip it over backwards and elbow drop their nose into their face while screaming "YOU STOLE $60K FROM ME YOU SON OF A BITCH"

also the guy who got eliminated (Christian) was very clearly autistic and Every Single Reason the other traitors gave for not liking him was like straight out of the DSM V diagnostic criteria ("he talks too loud and laughs weird", "he's got way too much energy all the time", "his emotional responses don't make sense")

apparently there's a season 2 but i cannot bring myself to watch it after seeing Christian thrown to the lions (ayyy Sunday school reference)

also at one point a Faithful has to leave because of COVID (this was filmed in 2020) so the producers don't let the Traitors murder anyone that night for balance reasons, but to compensate, they tell them they can like. write down three names that will be publicly revealed to everyone the next morning, and then one of those people dies the next night. so obviously this is mostly a nerf for the Traitors because they miss a night of killing someone, but the intention was clearly to give the Traitors an opportunity to sow confusion by putting one or two of their OWN names onto the list to make them seem like Faithfuls. and they even had an extra objective during that day's game where one of the three people could earn a "shield" to protect them that night, so if a Traitor was on the list, they could basically "steal" the shield from the other 2 (since they obviously weren't getting killed no matter what). but i think the Traitors heard "write down three names" and "kill" and had all the blood rush to their respective dicks because they just wrote three Faithfuls lmao. deeply unserious show

[salemontrial]

My (probably unfinished) official list of everything I love about the trailer💫

- "How's it going :))-" SWERVED. ALEXANDER CLAREMONT-DIAZ GOT FUCKING S W E R V E D-

- Nora looks like she's going to stab Alex with her high heel. Also she's so pretty. Xjakcjd

- "you've done some pretty stupid things in your life, but this-" "Takes the cake? :DD-"

- The way Henry looks at them when they're lying on the floor covered in cake. It's like he's restraining himself from strangling Alex with his own suit jacket for the sole purpose of not worsening the scandal.

- "HENRY. SHOVED. ME.😡🥺" "An urge I currently share."

- Ellen in her pantsuit.. hey Ellen👉👈

- Alex is looking for ways to escape the room when she says the words "damage control" he fucking knows-

- THEY. GOT. LIL NAS X. ON THE FUCKING SOUND TRACK. Oh I p r a y they got the rights to Get Low I p r a y.

- ALEX'S FACE WHILE ZAHRA IS BRIEFING HIM HES SO DRAMATIC

- Im sorry guys henry is so fine alexander isnt going to be the only one thirsting over henry for the entire 2 hours/jjj

- That FUCKING handshake in the park. I can see the veins in their hands they are g r i p p i n g-

- these faces this is a point.

- "My NDA is bigger than yours, I want you to know that." "You're wearing Lifts. I know that too, sweetheart." -H e a d t u r n--- HES SO FLOORED FJSNF-

- HENRY'S LITTLE MOUTH QUIRK AFTER HE SAYS THAT

- I CAN SEE THE KEY NECKLACE. I CAN S E E IT BLESS THE COSTUME DEPARTMENT SHOVING HIM IN A LOWCUT SHIRT-

- "You better act like the sun shines out of his ass and you have a vitamin D deficiency" ZAHRA HAS THE BEST LINES AND ITS WHAT SHE DESERVES.

- Alex faffing about with his hair via his phone camera before the interview thats my b O Y-

- Henry slides over the box of cornettos so hard like thats the only hostile act hes allowed to parttake in

- To the person who theorized in the comments of one of my posts that Alex was going to do a little shoulder punch in the interview scene i am going to draw you a little firstprince fanart-/hj

- Because that was so funny and so fucking cute henrys fucking face through that whole interaction was just. He looks like he's actively trying to dissociate from the situation fjsjfj-

- The cancer ward🥺🥺

- Alex's u g l y ass suit at the new years gala... its such a gross jacket guys Im sorry this is what happens when you dont have jUNE TO MICROMANAGE HIS WARDROBE-

- Alex putting his arm around Henry and Henry smiling to himself because he's probably got the most insane case of butterflies

- I'm marrying the lighting director of this movie.

- GUYS GUYS SHUT UP ITS THE KISS.

- HENRY'S FACE BEFORE HE GIVES THE "Christ, you are as thick as it gets" LINE IS SO FUNNY. QUESTIONING WHY HE EVER WENT AND FELL IN LOVE WITH A DUMBASS

- THEY D O N T KISS LIKE THEYD RATHER GO DOWN A RAZOR WATERSLIDE🎉🎉🎉🎉💫💞💞🏳️‍🌈/GEN

- He does Henry's "Oh shit" face so w e l l-

- ALEX'S STETSON EVERYONE GET AWAY FROM ME

- KARAOKE SCENE KARAOKE SCENE I SEE HENRY AT THE MICROPHONE

- Guys hes g o i n g to do the thing he does with the bottle I just know it oh my god

- "Get O V E R yourself your majesty -p i l l o w-" "It's your royal HIGHNESS -p i l l o w-" "OHoho-"

- The polo match sjsjf. Same alwx-/J

- The little new voters goal thingy poster thats so cute actually-

- The pride flag in the back of the campaign office

- Henry texting while he's getting the royal preening sjcj

- never thought id cry just hearing henry say he misses alex out loud-

- THEYRE NOT SANITIZING IT TO MAKE IT PALATABLE/POS

- HENRY IN THE CLOSET I AM GOING TO SCREAM-

- "If anyone sees you leave this hotel I will brexit your head from your body....... Your royal highness." I LOVE HERRRRRR

- IF YOU FEEL FOREVER ABOUT HIM. AND THE AND THE PANNING TO THEM IN BED WITH THE SOFT LAMP LIGHT. AND THEYRE SO SOFT. AND AND AND AND. UEUE

- "Do you love him?" "What difference would it make if I did?"

- Bea's voice is so pretty sobs..

- It's always the blond autistic boys in the blue hoodies I swear to god/lh

- Theyre just chilling in their robes🥺🥺🥺

- DAVID!!!!!!!😭😭😭💞

- "Prince Henry belongs to Britain" and what if i sobbed.

- THEM HOLDING HANDS SOMEBODY SEDATE ME.

- NO SHUT UP NO GO AWAY HENRY CRYING... I TRUST HIM WITH HENRY'S HEAVIER SCENES NOW

- THEYRE AT THE LAKEHOUSE😭😭😭

- "It's like there's a rope attached to my chest and it keeps pulling me towards you"

- THE ASS GRAB. ALEXANDER GABRIEL CLAREMONT-DIAZ

- "The night is young, ma✨" <- said as if he isn't currently groping the prince of England's ass

- She sees right fucking through him sjcjsj

CONCLUSION: I will eat my hat. The movie looks really really really fucking good, it looks spectacular and I am so excited for it. I trust them. I'm only SLIGHTLY mad they barely had Nora in it and I'm only SLIGHTLY bitter at cutting June and Luna. But I am an optimist and I will focus on the good which is that they're doing the characters incredible justice, and if I see one person try to deny their chemistry I will A Clockwork Orange their ass to this trailer for days. Because That Is Alex and Henry. That's them in front of my eyes and I think they're in very good hands and this is the most coherent thing I can write I'm still crying-/srs

[neuroticboyfriend]

there is a difference between "i'm scared to do X because im afraid of judgement or being wrong" vs. "i'm scared of X because it confuses me/doesnt meet my needs." in autistic people, these can occur at the same time; but the former is probably caused by the latter... which is made worse by the trauma (ableism, abuse, etc) in our lives... and unfortunately, a lot of professionals don't realize this, so they blame all the struggle on poor self esteem alone.

so now, if you're wondering if your anxiety is linked to being autistic, here are some questions to ask yourself:

is my anxiety less severe if i'm in a familiar situation? do i feel comforted when i know what to expect?

is my anxiety made worse by communication styles (like small talk) that dont make sense to me?

are things that are usually distressing for me easier when they are explained in ways i understand?

is my ability to do things without distress related to how sensory friendly a space is? can i do X in a quiet, calm room, but not a loud, bright one?

do i feel better when i fidget? am i calmer in places where i know i have somewhere comfy to sit or something i like to eat?

where did i learn to judge myself for this? do these judgements sound like ableism against autistic people? (ex: they're so annoying, they never stop talking about [intense interest])

these are based on my own experiences, so they may not work for everyone but. learning how my anxiety connects to being autistic and experiencing ableism has allowed me to employ coping skill that are actually effective, and i want others to be able to do the same.

[strangeclouddream]

So I think I might be autistic, or on the spectrum. here's why

I sucked my thumb until THIS YEAR (I'm older than ten, and I had recently got braces off when I finally stopped. I know, its really embarrassing) because it provided a way to relax/provide comfort/stim that made me feel happy and safe. Like i couldn't function without doing it (ofc not a school, but at home and at other safe spaces) Now ive realized i just like to flap my hands, or crack my finger bones.

I don't have a lot of memories of Pre-K but I do remember trying to mimic the other kids, and I have this one vivid memory of REALLY liking the way kinetic sand felt. I also remember getting really upset when other children expressed discomfort because that meant my safe space was suddenly not safe anymore (I hated the sound of crying, I would cry because I felt SEVERELY uncomfortable, but my teachers thought otherwise. I have a memory of my preschool teacher telling us a story about Jesus being crucified- it was a christian preschool- and telling me ‘To not cry’ I was just like ???, like as long as nobody gets upset, I'm fine.)

I disliked scenes in movies/shows that had lots of emotion, like scenes where the main character gets betrayed (I called them ‘sad scenes’ After a ‘sad scene’, would come the main character's redemption arc), or someone dies, etc. I couldn't handle it and would always go upstairs (Same with my sibling)

I liked the quiet. Ive always liked the quiet, unless I was focusing on something I liked, ie coloring/playing with dolls/writing I cannot work in loud spaces

Whenever my little sibling cried I would dislike it (See above) and I wasn't trying to be mean or anything, I just couldn't handle the noise. So of course I would pull a face. 

When kindergarten first started i couldn’t handle the sudden shift in routine and I got REALLY upset over it, to the point where I cried every single day except the day before break and the last day of school

Growing up i really liked to sort things into little containers, like you would empty a bunch of blocks and tell me to sort them by color, Im your girl

I was really good at reading, like this doesn't have anything to do with the autism thing (I just wanna brag), but I was a level G in kindergarten. Also my teacher yelled a lot, which would get me upset (Because obviously, i was sensitive to loud noises)

During first grade I couldnt tell time that well, and I was allowed to go to the third grade classes (Something about being smart idk) to do some extra work there. I couldn’t tell time, so i would go up to the teacher and be like ‘Oh I think my time is up can i go back to my classroom’, and since i COULD NOT READ CLOCKS it would always be four minutes later or something (i was supposed to stay there for 15) and she would be like ‘oH yOuR tRyInG to GEt oUt oF wOrK’ and i would be like ‘???? NOOO???” like i cannot tell time girl

I hated whenever a teacher/friend wouldn't be coming to school i would have a near meltdown because A) the substitute teacher they brought in wasn’t very nice to me, and B) it would be an interruption to the routine. You don't interrupt the routine, you can’t do that

When I was in third grade, a day of PE was canceled. We were all herded (along with another class) into a dark room with one teacher in it. I was already on edge when we went in, because everything was too loud. The teacher screamed at everyone to shut up, then turned on a cartoon. I don't remember much of the cartoon, but it was really bright and loud, and at one point they showed butts (It was baby angels) and everyone started screaming, and the teacher started screaming, and I was so overwhelmed I started to cry. When my teacher later found out, she told me that THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND ME. LIKE SORRY I GOT SO OVERSTIMULATED BITCH 

I hate the feeling of denim/shiny/itchy things pressed against my skin. I hate low rise jeans, I hate baby tees/any article of clothing that's way too tight. I like being able to breathe, I can’t understand how people wear them without ripping off their skin. I hate how it's too tight, my legs need to feel free, it shouldn’t feel like the denim is becoming a second skin. Same with tight shirts, the ones with sleeves. How do you not feel uncomfortable, especially with deodorant? My armpits need to BREATHE! IT'S LIKE BEING IN A STRAIGHTJACKET. I’m hyper aware when something feels wrong, and I cannot focus until that problem is removed

I change my personality to fit people. When I was little I would copy what other people were doing so they could like me, and now I'm super aware of what I am doing around other people. I want them to like me so badly, sometimes I even jokingly call myself out by saying “(Something abt current hyperfixation)- oh lol why did I say that that's so cringe!” When they’re talking I monitor what my face is doing, so I look interested and not bored. I find it really hard to pay attention when the subject isn't on something I like, and I want to talk about. Sometimes I even zone out, and I feel really bad about it later. Sometimes I overshare, because the person i’m talking to is so cool, and I just want to tell them everything about me (As affection). Sometimes I don't even notice what I said is rude, and when I do, I think about it for hours and hours. 

It feels like I’m constantly obsessed with everything, and I need to know everything about that thing.  For example, when I was young (Six  or seven years old), I first picked up a percy jackson book. That sent me into a spiral. I read every single book, watched all the movies, drew fanart and made fanfiction of my own. I started listening to music that made me think of the characters, imagining them in scenes and AU’s of my own. I would info dump on anyone I met who even knew of the series, making headcanons of them with me, talking their ear off about it. (This pattern continued for the nevermore series, the serafina series, harry potter, studio ghibli…) It was even to the point where i would dominate conversations just to talk about it, not caring if other people wanted to talk about something else (This still happens but im trying to work on it) I also loved playing with dolls, making up stories, I would even go as far to make little books, papers, posters for them out of sticky notes and tape (I WAS SO OBSESSED WITH DOING THIS). Miniatures fascinated me, so did rocks, birds, and fish. 

I loved routines so much it was scary. When I was little, whenever we drove to Pre-K, to make sure i had a great day, i would force my dad to play this one japanese song over and over because it reminded me of a pretty girl in my class. When I got older, and I would get really anxious about school, because school was over stimulating and scary, I would have this little routine. Get up, do my normal morning routine (if it even changed a bit i would probably throw a fit), and I would refuse to wear anything that was red, blue, orange, or yellow, because to me, that symbolized a ‘bad day’ (I still don't like wearing red or orange). After breakfast, I would write in a small journal that my mom and teachers forced me to write in because my anxieties about school were at an all time high. It had to be between 6:55-6:58, no questions asked. It had to have the same format,and always end with a drawing of me being attacked by a wild animal. Time skip. When we went into the car, we always had to play the muppets 'manamana’, and while we were driving, I would only look at houses that were white, brown, green, or gray (See above). After manamana, we had to play moving right along, and if we weren't at school by then, we had to play it again. Once we got to school I had to walk across the courtyard, jump over two overturned bricks, walk up the stairs, and go to my classroom. After that, while we were walking through the halls, the walls had these different murals that showcased the alphabet. One of them was an elephant with a bunch of easter eggs. Whenever we walked past it, i ALWAYS had to think ‘eddie elephant eating excellent easter eggs’, and if i didn't, i would be upset.

Im so sorry this is long, but its not even half of it. I'm tired, and I need to go to bed now, so I'll update this tomorrow.

I'm showing this to my therapist. I might be autistic, I might not be, but I just want clarification. I was just a really sad and anxious kid and there were some traits that made me different from other children my age. Most of what you saw above were just core memories I have of being different, but part two will be things I still have today. I still have a lot of weird routines I do, nothing harmful, I still have giant hyperfixations on things, I still try and mimick people so they will like me, and I still get overstimulated easily.

[todomemolesta18]

I REALLY MAD AT THAT SPOP SCENE WHERE EVERYONE GETTING ANGRY AT HER. STFU ALL OF SUDDEN YOU GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HER WOW WHAT A CONVINCING ACTING GIVE IT UPP FOR THE BEST ACTRESSSES. Look they can get angry for believable reason thats fine but please dont pretend you are her friend, i want a media where they make it clear toward the character who is neurodivergent they are not friend MAKE IT CLEAR FROM THE START. Make the friend group whether they are popular kids or not they are not interested to be friend with neurodivergent people GIVE US THAT

That sound was used by a lot of autistic people who have experienced being treated the same way as entrapta. Honestly the characters just make me get angry so much

"You don care about hurting other persons feelings. Even if those people are supposed to be your friends". STFUP.

YOU. ARE NOT. FRIENDS.

You have been treating poor Entrapta like shit. Like she is a kid. You never tried to understand her, to explain things in a way she can understand.

Entrapta deserves better.

About that sound, Im curious. That line of Perfuma? Because I can see why.

[variablejabberwocky]

started watching delicious in dungeon/dungeon meishi (sp?). or as i like to call it

~*AUTISM COOKING DUNGEON*~

dear god y'all have undersold this to me. and like i get it. spoilers and all that. but holy shit

our boy isn't like... "tee-hee little-bit of autistic, just a smidge" like you were all making me think. no no. no, this guy is DEEPLY autistic. we're talking "normally we only give THIS much autism to aliens and robots" kind of autism. the "i need an allistic translator for my social fubars" autism (rip your sister dude). the "i learned a thing! so now im not gonna shut up about it for at least an hour" autism.

and they gave this to THE ONE SINGULAR HUMAN IN THE PARTY. this guy is a HUMAN FIGHTER/KNIGHT-type that is like the MOST BORING/NORMIE shit in a d&d style setting. that is "why are you even playing a fantasy game?" level of normie shit.

and THAT is who gets to be The Party Freak(tm)

i love it. completely unironically/unsarcasticly i love it. they took the "that much autism isn't human anymore" bullshit thats so prolific its basically a trope and went NOPE FUCK THAT NOISE

what i find unforgivable though is that none of you mentioned he's a Kronk too.

boy sounds SO SO STUPID but is so so smart when you actually listen to what the fuck he's on about now (and think on why he's on about it right then). he's a big tank (literally in the fantasy class sense) that just wants to help everyone and do his little special interest shit on the side. and it is on the side because the other two seem like they had no idea it was more than trivia until he didn't have to help micromanage a massive party. like this shit has clearly been on repeat in his brain in the background for A WHILE but he was so busy helping/keeping everyone alive it got shoved aside of his outward behavior unless it was useful. he is a lovable dorky himbo and NONE of you mentioned this.

anyway, i'm also loving the way this whole show is basically only like this because him and senshi are vibing on the same wavelength and the other two are basically just along for the ride to save their friend/part member

the whole thing has a Green Eggs and Ham kind of thing going on with it too. but like...environmentalist about it? like it was more subtle about the whole "hey maybe work WITH your current environment rather than against it" bit and then we found out what senshi normally does and subtlety just went right out the fucking window on that front.

i'm also liking the way it both explores the horrors of dying in a world where being brought back to life is common, while also kind of...poking fun at it? like its reminding me of a thing i heard something like "the difference between comedy and tragedy is how far from it you are" kind of concept.

like they are so fucking ... how the fuck do you spell it blase? with the little "/" over the e. that. the story is so bland in how it handles how people came back from horrific deaths and yet when the characters have to face things that remind them of their own it gets heartbreaking very quickly. but like...chillchuck. goddamn. we get just enough from his perspective that its harrowing but the way its shown to us the reader/viewer is like a comedy skit

cause like...its both.

these guys keep dying/nearly dying to THE. SAME. FUCKING. SHIT.

mage elf is slimebait, chillchuck is basically Dungeon Canary with an emphasis on mimics, and himbro over here is gonna get himself killed trying to pet/eat a new monster no one else knows about at some point. probably why his sister seems to have specialized in healing magic.

i know the fandom is thinking once they get his sister back that she's gonna be Just Like Him but i think it would be much funnier AND more 'realistic' if they were classic autism-adhd alliance but siblings about it. like him being better at staying on a task and her being better at navigating social cues and shit. and both of them with their own little special interest energy. i'm betting her's is magic. and thats why even magic elf is like "omg shes so good at magic i'm no where near that level" about it. i mean its also the lesbianism but there IS more to that than thirst from what i've seen.

anyway i'm 6 episodes into what seems to be 12 available on netflix and i'm already hooked. might have to see if i can get my hands on the manga or something too