#Enjoying something or not being able to do something doesn't make you lesser

[sataninsparkles]

I don't understand why people seem to dislike "Girl Dinner" and "Girl Math" so much.

Like, it's not about girls being unable to take care of themselves or make smart financial decisions. Girl Math is literally just about how under the capitalism small purchases that add up to a large number don't feel as expensive as one large purchase. It's the same phenomenon as being willing to pay $10 for a product but not $8 + $2 shipping. Or spending cash feeling different from spending on a credit card.

Or like why a bunch of people just started talking about how being a bimbo is just quirky sexism.

Yes, women can achieve great things, and they can be smart. We all support women's rights. But we gotta support women's wrongs as well.

After being told that you have to be smart and strong and do everything a man can do or you're a bad feminist and you're setting the movement back fifty years, the ability to just be dumb and carefree feels like taking off a bra.

Yes, women can be smart. But they can be dumb too. We can be weak and dumb and that doesn't make us "bad feminists" or "quirky sexists". It makes us human. And shaming women for their freedom to enjoy their life however they want is counterproductive. Men get to be as dumb as they want without shame, so why is it that when women are the ones who are dumb, you get offended and try to shame them into acting the way you want them to?

We can't have equality until you guys stop shaming women for every little thing they do. We can't have equality if we don't support women's wrongs.

[afurtivecake]

One thing I've been wondering is how much did Riko really see Kevin as a brother and how much did he see him as a possession? (And is there really a distinction between the two in Riko's eyes?) Because, I don't think Kevin was ever meant to be Riko's brother or Riko's equal on the court. I think Tetsuji took Kevin in as an investment, nothing more:

"Tetsuji never formally adopted Kevin. Do you know why? Moriyamas don't believe in outsiders or equals. Tetsuji took Kevin in and took over his training, but he also gave Kevin to Riko—literally. Kevin isn't human to them. He's a project. He's a pet, and it's Riko's name on his leash. Sakavic, Nora. The Foxhole Court (All for the Game Book 1) (p. 88).

To the outside world, Tetsuji taking custody over both Riko and Kevin would have looked like him adopting them and making them brothers, but "Moriyamas don't believe in outsiders or equals" so what reason would he have had to lead Riko to believe that Kevin would be his brother? A brother implies a level of equality. He probably thought this will be a learning experience for Riko: give him something to be responsible for, something that he has to learn to control because he's a Moriyama and it's about time he learned how dominate lesser beings. He probably imagined Kevin to be something like Jean was: an obedient servant who can take being beaten within and inch of his life semi-regularly, no sense of autonomy, blindly submissive, and still able to be one of the top players in his position. A valuable right-hand man perhaps, but nothing worth kicking up a fuss over.

I think (and this might just be me wanting a good story) that the whole "brothers" thing came from Riko. A neglected kid with nothing and no one to call him 'family' receives a boy, who doesn't have anyone to call him family either, and is told, "This is yours now. This is yours to mind. Do whatever you want with him but make sure he knows his place and knows how to obey the right people." To a kid who's longing for something to call his own and someone to recognize him as family, that could easily have sounded like, "This is yours now, your person, to be by your side always. Yours to tend, yours to keep, yours." I think Tetsuji said "possession" and Riko heard, "brother". And if that's not what a brother actually is, well, who's going to tell him that? It's not as if there's a single example of a normal family relationship to be found among the Ravens.

I think Riko made Kevin his brother because he wanted something more than a possession. He wanted an ally, someone who always has his back and would never leave him. Riko making Kevin his brother instead of just a pet as was intended, gave Kevin a degree a freedom that Tetsuji probably wouldn't have allowed otherwise: travelling outside of the country with Riko, not always being stuck inside Evermore, studying what he wanted...he even got to have interests and to enjoy exy even when he wasn't playing (being a Trojans fan) and he managed to have friends outside of Evermore (Jeremy). Ravens don't have family or an identity outside of being a Raven, but Riko made Kevin his brother and gave him the chance to become his own person.

If Riko considers Kevin a brother, how can he turn around and hurt Kevin like he's nothing more than a possession, you ask? Well, I'm not sure he sees any conflict between the two. To Riko, beating Kevin up isn't outside of what Riko understands as "family" and doting on Kevin as a brother doesn't go against what Riko sees as ownership. To Tetsuji, ownership might only include being able to treat a person like shit without consequence. But for Riko, allowing Kevin freedom and indulging his "whims" probably feels as much like ownership as hurting Kevin without recourse does.

It seems impossible and stupid for their relationship to be anything other than toxic and deeply fucked up, but I think Riko selfishly believed that so long as he kept things in check, so long as Kevin stayed exactly where he was, he'd get to keep him. Even when Riko starts suspecting that other people are starting to see that Kevin might be better than him, even when being brothers is no longer useful to him if he wants to prove that he's really a Moriyama, Riko can't let go of their brotherhood. He doesn't give Kevin up until the very end. He can't. No matter how angry he gets at Kevin, no matter how much he comes to enjoy seeing Kevin hurt and sorry, there are lines he can't quite bring himself to cross. Because Kevin is still his brother. Because for better or for worse, he made Kevin mean something more to him than a possession when he made him his brother.

I don't think Tetsuji expected Riko to cling on to Kevin as though Kevin was actually important. He didn't think that by partnering the two, by giving them a common goal and a common enemy, that it would create a bond between them. But they did and maybe, in some ways, their dysfunctional relationship both saved them and doomed them.

[miraculouslbcnreactions]

Any opinions about Lukloe (Luka x Chloe) and Liluka (Lila x Chloe)? Honestly, I don’t like either of these ships, but I like Lukloe slightly better (like, the lesser of two evils).

I'm generally not the kind of person who gets into ships with no canon backing, so most of the Chloe ships baffle me. If she hasn't had an actual conversation with the person in question, assume the ship isn't on my radar. It's also worth noting that my ideal Chloe is extremely aroace, so I'm also not inclined to pair her with anyone.

However, if I take a step back and just look at the general character templates, I can see why someone would like a ship like Lukloe. It's probably the same reason people used to ship her with Nathaniel. The bratty, rich mean girl who falls for the kind-hearted poor artist is a classic setup which can be applied to musicians, painters, and many more. Contrasting personalities and life situations are fun to play with. They make for good drama.

Most "you can change them" stories are a hard no for me because I can't turn off my brain and pretend that's how the real world works. If the character starts off horribly abusive toward their eventual romantic interest, then the ship is dead to me in almost every setting. It's just too close to romanticizing the cycle of abuse for my tastes.

However, I do believe that people can change, so I enjoy so called enemies-to-lovers dynamics where the "bad" character is more generally rude than abusive and where there's a larger story going on, leading the "bad" character to change for reasons beyond love, but love still happens by accident. Variations where the "bad" character is just on the wrong side of a conflict work, too.

I can even handle situations where the "bad" character changes because of love so long as they're never abusive toward their eventual partner. Something where the "bad" character falls for the "good" character, realizes that the "good" character would never go for a horrible person, and superficially changes to try to win the "good" character's heart only to realize that being "good" is actually kind of awesome even without the romance aspect, leading to real, lasting change.

I think Luka and Chloe would be fun in either of those setups. Because Luka isn't one of Chloe's usual victims, I can see him being more willing to give her a chance on the civilian side. Maybe she's actually changing, but no one who knows her well believes in her because she's gone too far in the past. Luka, not having that baggage, is actually able to see that she's trying and encourages her, leading to a cute romance.

I can also see something like my romcom pitch working. Chloe falls hard for Luka, realizes Marinette is his ex, and tries to be Marinette-like to win his heart. She fails hard, but ends up learning her own brand of nice along the way and Luka likes that brand of nice, too, so she wins the guy anyway. My favorite mental image for this type of story is Chloe trying to volunteer at something, failing hard, but using her personality, money, and/or influence to make real major change.

Lila x Chloe, on the other hand, is a hard no. Lila just doesn't have enough depth to her character for me to be able to see her actually falling in love with anyone. She'd need to care about someone other than herself for that to be possible and canon has her caring for no one. I don't see how Chloe would change that when she's just another pawn for Lila to use. Lila and Marinette makes more sense since Marinette is at least different from the others in that she stands up to Lila and doesn't believe the lies. That's an interesting dynamic that could make Lila feel differently about Marinette than she does the general population. Meanwhile, if any romance developed between Lila and Chloe, it would be completely one-sided and end as soon as Chloe stopped being useful.

I could buy characters like Lila and Chloe using each other in a selfish, purely physical way, leading to a self-destructive, angsty "romance" where everyone ends up miserable after Chloe catches feelings, but that's about it. Anything that actually deserves the "romance" label is a no-go.

[shadows-writing-lounge]

Content: General Horny headcanons. Ganondorf calculations. General Ganondorf .

Kinks and activities mentioned: Size kink, fingering(Ambiguous)

Ganondorf only for now(I was tempted to put stuff for Ganon, phantom Ganondorf and Demise).

Reader: This post his general, gender neutral, without mentions of genitalia. Butt stuff fair game. Reader is refered to as smaller than Ganondorf because no matter the iteration he's at least 7'6" feet<228.6 cm> (Oot source Hyrule Historia) and they keep making him bigger. (Gamespot pixel counted and said Totk Ganondorf is about 10 feet <305cm>) you/your

Pussy having reader version

Dick having reader version

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General Headcanons

Ganondorf's goods

Balls are also heavy. They really fill your palm. I see people use breeder balls very often but I think it's an apt description of these boys.

As we all know he's big. Big in every aspect. I don't like to designate specific sizes or details for self projection sake but for the people that asked I'll attempt to describe it for y'all. Despite what people think height doesn't equal bigger dick but ignore this because he a big boy anyway. After some tasteful research. Which means I looked at studies of hand to penile length calculations, looked up some fan estimates he's at least 22.9cm <9 inches> though I'd personally say bigger. Girth could also be wild but I will limit it to 17.78 cm <7 inches> in max because the human anus can stretch to 17.78 cm <7-7.5 inches> if you're into that feel free to go bigger. It's hefty. Hangs down when erect.

Ganondorf carries more that one great sword 👍 (watch me edit this out at a later date)

Cum wise I imagine him with a thicker consistency. Opaque. Slightly salty. He has no preference where he cums so if you do be sure to tell him.

Ganondorf is a king who takes self maintenance serious. Literally never looks bad or ungroomed. Though I believe there wouldn't be time to shave. He is clean and would most likely trim beforehand if he thinks he'll initiate intercourse.

Muscle lovers are feasting good. Nice ass and thighs with every iteration. Torso changes but I think all of them are pretty good.

Ganondorf is not that vocal during the act. Usually only responding when talked to or the need arises. Confirmation of continued consent or if something is working etcetera.

Ganondorf's kinks

I will say his kinks probably change depending one which iteration you're looking at though some are shared. I'd peg Ganondorf as uncaring of his partner's sex.

-Size kink(all) is an obvious one. He's so much bigger sometimes he doesn't even need to undress to overwhelm his lover as they struggle to take his fingers. Though he also enjoys the reverse of his smaller partner taking control. Just don't instigate a coup on your self.

-Going along with size kink Ganondorf likes to Manhandle. Holding his partner in the air, holding them down and moving them mid bang and some iterations are into being a little rough physically.

-Praise kink both receiving and giving. (All) Oot Ganondorf sometimes leans into the mocking variety. Warriors very sparingly praises but always means it.

-Degradation kink giving only.(OoT, TP, ToTK) Twilight Princess is that classy degradation. Wind Waker would attempt but wouldn't be able to do it long as he feels it's dehumanizing. All you'd really get is the rare times when he's outraged.

OoT makes me think he'd be into Dacryphilia.(ToTK as well but lesser)

Roleplay involving power imbalance. OoT only if he's the higher power, HW he'll humor being the lower power, TP occasionally either or.

ToTK generally refuses to give up power unless you offer in a specific way. Such as it being akin to worship or that he's so powerful he doesn't even bother to give an effort. Stroke both is dick and his ego. Predator/Prey is the only exception you can't convince him to act prey like.

Exhibitionism. Even if an iteration doesn't care for others seeing their partner naked. He is a possessive and jealous man. He revels in showing off what's his and other's knowing they're off limits. If he has access to a throne...

Body worship. Both receiving and giving. He enjoys letting his partner know how much he desires them and vice versa.

Note: I'm not really into Degradation, Daceyphilia, so I can really get into depth as I would like. If you have ideas feel free to send it in. For educational purposes of course.

Reader Insert Headcanons

Regardless of how much you weigh or how big you are. He'd be able to pick you up. He likes letting you know this. So malleable small in his grasp. Sometimes his hand makes it's way around your neck. Not tightly but the warmth makes it clear it's there and how much only one hand wraps around you.

He's patient taking his time, relishing it it even, working you open. OoT and ToTk will more inclined to edge you until he can fully slip in. If you voice annoyance he'll do the opposite overstimulating you until he's satisfied.

Very encouraging of you to make noise. Perhaps say how well he's doing. WW is basically the only iteration who's not overly teasing.

Sessions where Ganondorf's focuses solely on you are mostly non penetrative.(unless you request) Outercourse, and intercrural being the focus.

Adding on to that he finds hit very endearing and cute if during a thigh job his tip peeks out the other side. Those he'd praise you if your thighs cover all of him.

Feel free to ride his thighs to completion. He'll let you go unless you ask for his touch. He doesn't hesitate to join fondling and presses kisses where he can reach without disrupting your ministrations. He waits until either you cum or plea for him to help release your buildup.

Couple things for Anorgasmia

Whether it's just difficult or complete lack Ganondorf doesn't mind if you can't come. If it's difficult but possible and you want to climax, he'll have you guide him. Telling him how and we're to touch to force out that climax.

Otherwise he relies on you informing him of he's doing something that's uncomfortable or painful.

[uroboros-if]

id like to ask about some general in lore things for uroboros, since im currently hyperfixating on it and i NEEED to perfect my oc for it. my main question is, like, theyre kind of outcasted and look down upon by most deities, right? do you think there would be any of that with their fathers? of course not as bad, but maybe just like. some internal conflict, or even the slightest bit of disappointment in their child? or are they fully supportive, if just a bit confused

AND ALSO, this one is purely for design purposes: how strict is the modesty of the gods? i know most of them wear robes, but do some gods dress like the greek gods (artistic nudity, lesser clothing, ect), for example? or would that be looked down upon?

I know bad hyperfixations get, so I have to answer this one!

I answered something similar previously but I am lazy to look back, but to reiterate and add on to it: they are completely supportive.

First, let's remember that the main reason other deities see MC as inferior is because they do not know what they are meant for. This is usually revealed during their emergence, but for them, it is not so clear. Not being able to wield immense power is only a symptom of their meaninglessness, not the source of resentment. If MC serves no purpose, they do not contribute meaningfully to the world—the sole reason for existence for deities.

Rafaele is concerned for MC. While he accepts that MC may never have their meaning reveal themselves, he believes there is a possibility they have not yet discovered it. He hopes that it will make itself known one day! However, he is content for them to simply exist. He does not actively seek to know it.

Nero, on the other hand, rejects this idea for meaning. No being, not even gods, need a reason for existence. The Chaotic Universe itself is proof of that. If you can remain with him and Rafaele to enjoy the world they have crafted together, he doesn't need more. Having you play a hand in it would simply be a bonus, which he feels you do already in tremendous ways that others cannot see.

So, too long didn't read, they have no internal conflict about it!

As for modesty, there is no real requirement. Some of the second-generation gods like to show more skin! It is only the first generation of gods who prefer to robe themselves conservatively. Nudity is not inherently taboo among deities.

Ohh! I do allow anxious MCs to exist already, but for them to fear being an experiment would be very interesting! I will definitely have to consider it.

Salvatore's own thoughts on MC is... complicated.

Anyway, I hope this is all useful to you! Thanks for sending an ask, Anon!! <3

[itsallmouthwashing]

Salt and Mouthwash- Band AU

welcome to Angst World, I am the mascot, here is some angsty jimcurl from my band AU MUAH [(I am projecting :)] [(this time they're emo barbies :)] [(a.k.a Jimmy is in platforms and they're in a scream rock band the silly picture is cute)]

Here’s the full scene from one of my bullet points here. Feel free to read up if you want to understand more context! Anya is OOC, please forgive me. She has different reasons to be timid around Jimmy (you’ll find out why in a bit), and I def imagine her being more outspoken at this point in her life.

This is Part One of Two (I'll update post with part 2 when I post it) and part two is gonna be,,,,,, smut :)

Reblogs are appreciated :) Please enjoy

CW: parent death

_____P--L--E--A--S--E----E--N--J--O--Y_____

“I’m leaving, Curly.”

“Come on, Anya! He’s-”

“Turning us into punching bags! Is that what you were going to say? Cause it should have been!” Her hands fly to her face and push her hair back with a huff that rattles the room.

My hands won’t stay still at my side. The sickness turns in my chest like a witch’s brew and I’m cursed to remain on this bridge with my feet in cement. 

She sighs. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be yelling. These are my feelings and they’re not for you to bear for me.”

I try to take a deep breath. “It’s alri-”

“Is what I would say if I was JIMMY!” 

Her shrill voice echoes through the garage. It’s all so empty except for the equipment we’ve been storing here. Daisuke’s drum set sits alone on the back wall, my and Jimmy’s guitars laying on the adjacent and Anya’s bass slung on her back. She’s going to fucking kill me with it if I’m not careful.

“You-”

“Say something that isn’t ‘you have to understand,’ Curly. I’m begging you! Say something in my defense for once!”

Silent is all I can be. I wouldn't be able to hear through the blood in my ears. 

The space between me and the floor is infinite. 

Gravity hits me now, draining it all from my body a gallon at a time. “I’ll talk to him,” someone says. “Please, Anya. Let me talk to him.” 

We float in silence. I don’t feel her eyes on me. I feel eyes looking at myself looking at her looking down at her feet, hearing someone trying to steady their breathing so they don’t drown. It’s me, I think.

“Fine,” she says as she brushes past me. She pauses in the doorway, her hand gripping the wood so tight it might splinter under her rage. “But if I’m made to feel lesser again, I'll walk.”

She storms out of the garage, making sure the door doesn’t slam behind her and doing the same when she flees out the front.

I hear it all happen at once. The times where Jimmy screamed at her for playing a note wrong one too many times. Or thinking her criticism is some sort of snide comment. 

The sound of his walls reaching up through the ground is deafening every time. The sound of the door slamming behind him doesn't even compare. 

Daisuke looks at me, holding back tears and failing when he looks away. Anya follows Jimmy out of the door, but I hear her stomp up the stairs while the front door shakes the house. Each time, I try to say something. Each time, I am silenced. Each time, I leave to find Jimmy. Each time, we cry. Each time, the talking never comes. 

The red-soaked concrete stares back at me, and I, it. I think I’m jealous. If only it could feel the anguish I do. If only I didn't feel the weight of the people that walk all over me.

Footprints form in the thin membrane left over from my fluids returning to me in one fell swoop. One step at a time to the front door. And I follow, one step at a time, to the front door. They lead me to a knock, steady and shy.

I pray it’s Anya. Nothing leaves me sore more than a conversation left on bad terms. I need to make her understand, I need to-

-Take a deep breath. In through the nose, out through the mouth, slow and steady. 

And rip off the band-aid. 

“An-”

It’s hazel eyes instead of cool blue. Greasy brown hair instead of blow-dried black. Smoking a cigarette left un-ashed for too long. I wish he’d do it on the neighbor’s porch instead of mine. All he has to do is reach over. 

“Uh, what’s up Curls? You forget about our lesson?”

“Jimmy! Aha… Yes, I did. I’m really sorry.”

He sucks in a deep drag from his cigarette, breathes it out like dragonsbreath. 

“It’s fine,” he says through the smoke. “I was really looking forward to this one too-”

“Jim, I didn't say I wasn't available.”

“Oh,” he says, finally ashing his cigarette. Only half of it falls to the neighbor’s side as he notices me eyeing it, suddenly remembering my countless requests to ash it literally anywhere else. He snubs it on the concrete slab that serves as my porch.

“May I?”

He sniffles and moves past me to come inside, takes his shoes off and places them off to the side. I take one last look around my block for Anya, but her car is already gone. I think the sun’s gone down a little too.

“Let's set up in your room this time. It has the most furniture so there’s less space for the sound to escape.”

“Right, good idea,” I say from the top of the stairs. He stumbles up behind me, tripping on the carpet.

I need to pull it together. This is serious. 

“Actually, before we start. I really need to talk to you." I choke out as I sit down on my bed beside him. 

Jimmy almost goes rigid. He tries to hide his left hand as it grips my sheets. 

“Uh, okay. Shoot, Curls.”

In through the nose. Out through the mouth. “It’s about your behavior recently.”

“My God, not this shit again-”

“Jimmy, I’m being serious right now.”

“So am I! Do you know how much pain I’m in every single day?” He shoots up from the mattress, towering over me on platforms that he clearly doesn't know how to walk in. The tag is still on the left shoe. “I know what they’re thinking… How could he be this torn apart over two people he didn’t even love? Didn’t even love him? What are the tears for when it’s two sociopaths who went on to raise a sociopath of their own?” His hand claws at his chest, pulling his shirt from his neck like it could choke him if it came any closer. 

“I know what they did to me. I know what they think I should be feeling. They say they understand but they dont- No one could ever-” His hands push locks of hair out of his face like they’re the hands of hell come to drag him below. He’s trying to steady his breathing. “I know what I would be thinking,” he scoffs. “You should be relieved, overjoyed, even. You should be celebrating… Ding dong, the bitch is dead, right?” His eyes fall to the carpet again, counting the fibers like he needs to know exactly how many pieces he needs to break into. 

“So why do I miss them?” He chokes out. 

To anyone else it would be unintelligible; just sopping wet words coming through a pinhole of vulnerability. They’re cut and bruised by the time they finish their journey to me, the oxygen we breathe like salt and mouthwash, but I hear them all the same.  

“Why do I miss my mommy and daddy so bad?”

We’re shaking. His knees are about to buckle and my stomach is on an endless roller coaster into the abyss. We’re standing on the edge of a bridge and I’m begging God for a chisel.

I stand despite the gelatin that’s become the air around us. He’s heaving as he scans the floor, his eyes doing suicides between the decisions of ripping his jacket off or hiding inside of it. My hands steady on his shoulders.

“Jimmy.”

 He doesn’t look up, but he pauses his decision making for a brief moment. He’s listening. “Deep breaths. Listen to me.”

He closes his mouth to keep his breathing through the nose, but he doesn't slow down. I lean into his vision, forcing him to look at me when I stand between him and his endless options on the floor. His eyes are bloodshot- either from the pot he smokes in his car before coming over or this outburst- and he blinks twice to move along a tear stuck in his eyes. I squeeze his shoulders gently.

“…I feel it too, Jimmy. All of this,” I glance between his misty hazel eyes. He can't help but count them all, I think he mutters a number around one thousand. I need to start over. 

“It’s not wrong to feel this way, Jimmy.” 

He doesn't stop. He doesn't pause. He’s waiting to hear what I have to say. If it’s even worth stopping for. 

If he’s worth stopping for.

“You’re allowed to miss your parents, Jim.”

That does it. I think he goes through all six stages of rigor mortis at once before his muscles spasm up to me. But it all shuts down again. He’s back to staring at the carpet, but his eyes are still.

“You’re allowed to hate them at the same time. You can miss your parents while hating the people that hurt you. You can grieve the knife even after it stabs you.”

“... You’re crying.”

I’m fucking crying. My parents are fine and my best friend is shaking and I’m crying. 

“I feel it all, Jimmy,” I say in a deep, desperate moment to stay truthful. I can't sully any part of this with a lie. I won't brush it off. I won't shove it down. 

“We’ve been together through it all. Everything you see, I see. Everything you feel, I feel.” Scared. I’ve been so scared.

“Every moment, I am a part of you. I can't help but see the things that make you coil up inside. I can’t help but feel it all.” It’s so deep and aching, the pain. Everything is kept in a tiny bottle labeled ‘Fuck This’ and I’m swallowing it over and over again. “You have no idea how it feels to see your best friend suffer every day and not come to you for help.”

Thick and heavy tears wipe the dirt from my face. I don’t want to look away because he’s staring at me like I’m bringing him salvation in the middle of a hurricane. 

“Let me help you, Jimmy.” I hold him a little tighter. “Please…” I don’t mean to, but I bring him closer. 

His head finds its place in my shoulder, his hands to my back, and my hands to his head. He presses me into his face in an attempt to muffle his screeching sobs and I press him into me.

“It’ll be alright, Jim,” I mumble into his hair. “I’m here for you.”

His hair is greasier than I thought as I comb my hand through it. Maybe a hot shower will help him feel better after a cry.

“But, hey-” He sniffles as he looks up at me. He’s listening. Really listening. “Come to me before you lash out on our friends, okay? I know you’re hurting, but we all want to help you. Anya and Dai dont deserve the way you’ve treated them these past few months.” I wipe his tears with my thumbs.

“Curly, you know- with the whole-”

“Jimmy, no one understands you more than me. But I also know other people better than you.”

He turns his face in my shoulder, hiding only half as he mumbles into my shirt, “That’s mean, Curls.” 

“My point is- You need to apologize to your friends.”

He’s silent for a moment. A while. He stares into my shirt and holds my shoulder with both hands like the floor is about to fall out from under him.

“I guess… I have been a little bit of a dick,” he mumbles after a while.

I chuckle and rub his back. “A lotta bit, yeah.”

“Hey!”

“Hurt people hurt people, James. Us of all people know this.”

He nods and digs his fingers into my shoulders, now overwhelmed with hearing his government come from me of all people. I let him cry until he stops shaking and hold him up as his legs finally give out from under him. 

Remnants of his sobs ripple through him as I scoop him up from the floor and lay him down on my bed. 

“Let’s worry about the lesson another time, okay?”

He lets out a sort of hum that I think could be acknowledgment, but there’s an equal chance he’s fallen asleep and started his god-awful snoring. My body leans forward, resting on my elbows as I press a kiss to his hair. I pull away and pray it’s the latter, closing the door to take a hot shower before he wakes up. 

[reds-ultrakill-brainrot]

hiya! firstly, thank you for filling my current brainrot on this game, you are the best

could i get some gabriel romantic headcanons? enjoy your day!

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- he had never taken much of an interest in having a hobby before, his duties had never given him the time. this changes after he meets you, your passion in your hobbies inspire both affection and interest in him, and it isn't long before he begins practicing in his spare time to share with you - it isn't the most surprising thing that he is incredibly touch starved, however the issue goes further than that. Gabriel was designed to act as a soldier for God's will, a spear against the darkness and a voice for the aimless. the only compassion intended in his design was that for heaven's chosen, not himself. his reaction to comforting touch is shock and immediate discomfort, not to the physical sensation- he could drown in that, but in what it represents. all he had ever recieved were compliments for his actions and abilities, the people of heaven revered him, but they did not truly love him, not like you do. it takes a fair amount of time for him to settle to the idea of intimacy, but once he does he incorperates it into nearly every interaction, wether that be a lingering touch or a short embrace - i imagine his wings aren't corporeal, however this doesn't stop him from wrapping them around you while the both of you cuddle. he sees it as his job to protect you from the numerous threats across both heaven and hell and he knows with you safe in his arms nothing bad will happen - despite his distaste for their inhabitants he does appreciate the architecture and views around certain layers of Hell (such sentiment has never been voiced and never will while he serves the council). if you appear interested in viewing any of the more notable sights around Hell he will volunteer to take you, being that you are willing to go no further than an arm's reach. he trusts you, however he does not trust the wretched beings that inhabit Hell - a majority of his tasks are dealing with the more distasteful tasks such as quelling unruly inhabitants of Hell and overseeing the conduct of other lesser angels. he rarely wishes to recount his day to day activities, much preferring to hear about your own day to day life, mundanity and all. such domestic normalcy is a dream to him, so please humor him with details of chores and unruly hair, nothing would make him happier - he is quite easy to fluster, especially with any particularly forward expressions of affection. he quietly delights in the attention he receives for his reactions; teasing may have a slight sting to it but is much easier for him to digest than soft words - if you ever choose to dress in his colours or in similar attire you will find him enamoured, his gaze unable to leave you for long. he very quickly notices the gesture and the creeping burn of a blush doesn't leave him until he is forced to take a moment to compose himself - he is especially gentle with you. oftentimes he chooses to let you initiate physical contact to allow you to approach it at your own pace and to avoid manhandling you by accident. he is exceptionally strong, and all it would take is him being distracted to grip you too firmly and bruise you, or, Heaven forbid, worse. he has seen the damage that his wrath incurs and would sooner perish than harm you - he (much to his own dismay) doesn't have a mouth to kiss you with, however the both of you have learned to make do with other gestures. touching foreheads has to be his favourite, there is something about having you so close to him that calms him almost instantly. of course you are still able to kiss him, and despite his, at times, inelegance in other romantic interactions he is always quick to respond if you peck his cheek; expect to be swept up in his arms for a hug

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the sneak peaks at the new chapter have been really interesting so far, i am excited to see where Hakita is taking the plot (especially Gabriel's story) next

[sukimas]

The primary difference between gods and youkai in Touhou is of course that gods inspire awe rather than disgust. I've discussed this before.

Now, the differences between yuurei and youkai might be a little more difficult to pick up on, especially when a lot of them are spawned from similar circumstances (rejection, betrayal, othering.) Yuurei of course die from those circumstances while youkai don't really. But much more importantly, in terms of Touhou, yuurei were hurt, and remain hurt. Their existences are quintessentially defined by their suffering and regret; vengeful spirits are defined by unending anger, funayuurei by their own drowning, common yuurei are simply humans who weren't buried properly and thus cannot pass on. They both suffer and cause suffering.

Youkai, meanwhile, are beings that were initially defined by rejection. This may have caused them to hate and resent humanity at first, but they're not supposed to do that (see Eiki's lecture to Medicine); a youkai cannot survive off of that sort of notion. Youkai are nigh-universally (barring some very unwell- and I do mean physically unwell here- exceptions) happy with their current situations. They exist to cause others to feel fear, rather than feeling it themselves. They do not attack humans because of a desire for vengeance. They attack humans because they enjoy it; because they are defined as beings by enjoying the exercise of their own power, because they pass their curses onto others instead of being cursed themselves.

I think that this a key insight to understanding a fairly large number of youkai. In particular, some of the underground ones; Parsee enjoys being able to inflict jealousy even though she's often jealous herself, and Satori loves the ability to read minds even though she's hated for it. The reason that Koishi closed off her heart was because of rejection from other youkai, not from humans!

It's also key, though, to understanding the youkai that interface with the outside world. Mamizou has every right to look at humans with hatred and allow her life to be defined by it; they destroyed her home while she was there, they terrorized her into Gensoukyou. And yet she loves hanging around with them in Gensoukyou, even though she secretly dreams about how the humans of the outside world scare her. She loves exercising her superiority over them, too: "Ho ho ho!" and all that.

Yukari is similar; though she has plenty of reason to despise humanity, she... doesn't.

She resents their abandonment of things they don't need, certainly, and plots to take it all back. But she doesn't hate them. They're her funny, dear, pathetic creatures.

As with Mamizou, her relationship to humans is simply one of predation and exploitation. A youkai who misses the noise of the city. A youkai who adores violence, even when she has nothing to prove; there's little reason to talk how much she loves the scent of death in front of Okina (who can always tell if she's lying) and Sumireko (who would surely just think it was cool, rather than fearing her like she'd want) if she intends to play a role.

If anything, she hides that violent side around humans she needs to trust her. Compare her initial conversation with Reimu to those she has with Marisa and Sakuya; only when talking to the shrine maiden, who she needs to not see her as a threat, does she not bring up murder.

...Of course, I'm getting away from myself a bit. But Yukari ultimately sees humans as lesser than she is. They are not something to "take revenge on", because there's no reason to take revenge on something that gave you the greatest gift of your existence. (Other youkai we get the internality of seem to see them similarly) They are something to take advantage of to make her own life better. If it happens in a way that's ironic considering what happened to her, well, all the better; but that isn't what defines her. What defines all youkai is that they hunt humans. Nothing more, and nothing less. Without that, they would not be youkai.

Contrast Mima; though she's less developed than our dear current vengeful spirit, her raison d'etre is "to take revenge on the entire human race". Until she has accomplished that, she cannot rest; this is quite literally preventing her from dying, and once she achieves it, she will be at peace. She needs to do this; it is the very purpose for which she was reborn. What defines vengeful spirits is their desire for revenge. Nothing more, and nothing less. Without that, they would not be vengeful spirits.

So.

Youkai are differentiated from vengeful spirits in that they exist to prey on humans, rather than to take revenge on humans. They do this because they pass on curses to others rather than be cursed themselves. The method of choice for youkai barring those with more spiritual requirements for sustenance is to kill and eat humans; those with more spiritual requirements still often kill humans (and do eat some part of the human; whether it be magical power, fear, or jealousy.) They are defined by consumption and exploitation; they have become the powerful, rather than the powerless, and enjoy this ability to exploit. Youkai who do not enjoy this kill themselves.

Yukari is a youkai; one whose interface with the world is quite physical. Just look at her. She is made of eyes and hands. Therefore, the method she utilizes for exploitation and consumption must thematically be quite physical as well. She happily sees herself as a youkai of this nature, too.

For all of the above reasons, it's completely thematically incoherent for Yukari Yakumo to not kill and eat humans with enthusiasm.

[laios-thorden]

To them [people who don't read horror] it is a kind of pornography, inducing horripilation instead of erection. And the reader who appears to relish such sensations-why he's an emotional masochist, the slave of an unholy drug, a decadent psychotic beast.

-David Aylward

horror is about catharsis. it is about experiencing fear or pain or shame or suffering via a piece of media, and being able to sigh in relief when it is done. it is about emotion and flesh and the human condition.

the point of the genre of horror is to inflict the emotion called "fear" or the related emotions "discomfort," "disgust" and "shame." if you do not want to experience and explore negative emotions and the stories that they can tell, you do not actually want to engage with horror. the point of horror is that it might make you feel bad or upset or, god forbid, scared. there are stories that rely on that and it doesn't make horror a lesser medium for narrative than any other genre. it just means that you personally might not enjoy horror.

it's fine to not like horror, but don't pretend like it's something it's not because it makes you uncomfortable.

a lot of takes about horror i see are like, "why doesn't horror have x, y, or z" and the answer is it does. you aren't engaging with the medium or searching out stories that have those things because you don't want to deal with the trappings of the genre (being scared/experiencing negative emotions). liking one piece of horror media doesn't mean engaging with the genre as a whole with all its tropes, trappings, and its rich and varied history.

Ursula K Le Guin writes,

A writer sets out to write science fiction but isn’t familiar with the genre, hasn’t read what’s been written. This is a fairly common situation, because science fiction is known to sell well but, as a subliterary genre, is not supposed to be worth study—what’s to learn? It doesn’t occur to the novice that a genre is a genre because it has a field and focus of its own; its appropriate and particular tools, rules, and techniques for handling the material; its traditions; and its experienced, appreciative readers—that it is, in fact, a literature. Ignoring all this, our novice is just about to reinvent the wheel, the space ship, the space alien, and the mad scientist, with cries of innocent wonder. The cries will not be echoed by the readers. Readers familiar with that genre have met the space ship, the alien, and the mad scientist before. They know more about them than the writer does.

the same is true for horror; people who do not engage with horror as a medium, as a genre, as a way to tell stories and convey meaning do not get to reinvent the wheel. doing so won't be met with gratitude by people who do like horror. it's not helpful. it's condescension.

[b-blushes]

not entirely clear reflection about disability and 'hobbies' and perceptions of the intersection of those things in relation to more serious circumstances 👍

thing i think i have been somewhat finally been able to put into words is like. okay everyone has limitations in their life to a lesser or greater degree. lots of factors you might have limitations within (financial, disability, etc) when i'm genuinely enjoying things, i'm genuinely enjoying them. the 'problem'? these things are not necessarily the things that i would be doing if i was not disabled. doesn't make those things bad! i'm still enjoying them! just challenging emotionally when someone is looking at snapshot of your life, seeing X 'positive'/'fun' thing you're doing only because the rest is either deliberately or by circumstance hidden (e.g you don't see me being unable to do daily life things because they happen to me alone in my house, i do not tell you about certain upsetting thing going on in private etc) like 'oh you are having so much fun you are doing good 👍'. it's like, i am making the best of 'it', and often in the recent years of my life i would class 'it' as somewhat bad. still cannot express enough my gratitude for those things. like the ability to find and have the capacity (physical, mental, financial) to do them? literally lifesaving, not a metaphor. also for some periods of time i AM purely having fun, rather than the typical 'feeling very unwell but doing X instead of [variety of things that would be harmful or not presenting me with an opportunity for a positive emotion, etc]. not to say there are, for want of a better word 'pure' and 'not pure' versions of doing an activity, the activity is the same in both situations. the circumstances are different though. difficult because it feels like for me atm the Xs are directly as a result of the bad 'it'. it's hard for me to separate the two! idk what the 'point' of this is, just a feeling i've been having. it feels like 'doing X because i had the freedom to choose it out of a world of possibilities' and 'trying to find something that will give me some respite and determined to make X happen to try to achieve this, and now i enjoy X' are different to me! doesn't make X any less enjoyable or authentic or whatever! just feels very linked! like 'you are so strong' 'thanks it was that or die' type situation i guess? idk! also very easy from an outside perspective to just see the various Xs and use them to explain away or ignore the circumstances? 'you can do X so it can't be that bad', 'if you were that unwell then you couldn't do X', etc. really really hard to do positive things when they're seen as a negation of your real and serious circumstances sometimes. also true that there are people for whom the various Xs aren't even possible. also true that the various Xs are often literally and explicitly things i've been asked to do therapeutically as part of various treatments. they are also still 'hobbies'!

idk. difficult situation when people's perceptions of you and thus their expectations of you are based purely on their perception of your Xs, and there's a cognitive dissonance situation going on there. and then it's also like okay. it would seem that to break this, if i want to be seen accurately and wholly, it's complicated. person might feel lied to or mislead. person might not believe you. you likely will need to share your worst moments for them to believe you. you didn't share those moments with them before. why. it's a whole thing. makes it difficult to want to be known by people sometimes. I guess one antidote to this is sharing the bad things as they are happening more. tricky though when those circumstances are not always ones where i'm able to communicate well, or that people actually. want to hear about! or maybe i don't feel like i can handle other people's feelings (or un-asked-for advice) at the moment i am experiencing them. etc. it's a whole thing :P i'm doing 'fine' rn nothing has changed, the whole thing is just something i've been thinking about while i'm getting tested for more 'serious' conditions and am waiting for test results, and considering more radical life changes i might want to make. i'm feeling like it might be difficult to get some people on board with those life changes, or that, the difficulty will be 'emotional difficulty to me to have to petition other people to believe the full extent of it, which i have, either circumstantially or deliberately, been hiding from them, for at various times either my own or what i determined as for their wellbeing.' NOT VERY FUN. i can do it. but i wish i didn't need to. and idk how much it is as a result of decisions that i 'should' have made differently if i wanted a different outcome, or just naturally occurring as a result of all the stuff that's been going on.

anyway it all boils down to "sometimes you will be increasingly more unwell and disabled across a long period of years and someone will make hugely incorrect assumptions and be like 'oh it's nice that you do so many hobbies you must be having a good time generally' and you are like. '(lying) yeag.'" hahahaha. but this conversation has real consequences other than you just feeling invisible.

also like yeah i am having a nice day doing hobbies at home. THAT'S BECAUSE TODAY I AM LITERALLY UNABLE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE BECAUSE I WENT OUT AND HAD A HAIRCUT THAT SOMEONE ELSE DROVE ME TO AND FROM THIS WEEK AND THAT'S THE ONLY TIME I'VE BEEN OUT. okay i'm fine about this. and i am trulyyyyyy having a nice time doing said hobby.

[spacelesbiandisaster]

Part II of my head cannons for the masters of the younglings of the Gathering

(and others)

You can check Part I here!

Byph and Luminara Unduli

Listen, I know Luminara technically already have a Padawan, but let's just all agree that by the time Biph became ready to be a Padawan Barriss either already was knighted or she already bombed the Jedi temple and got expelled.

I love Barriss, so I just going to assume she never became a terrorist, got knighted and is very excited about her new baby brother, okay? Okay.

Also I think Byph would be the last among his classmates to pass the younglings tests to become a Padawan (I love him, but he just seems like the slow one of the group) so Luminara would have some extra time to finish taking care of her first Padawan.

Note: This set of headcanons are for a really specific fic I'm working on, so we may disagree on somethings but in my works Luminara is a great mom to Barriss and, eventually, to Byph as well. Barriss never hold her master accountable for what she did and seem to think highly of Luminara as far Tales of the Empire goes, so I will always assume the best regarding Luminara.

• Byph needs to learn how to deal with his fears

Luminara Unduli is the Jedi who decided to go into a sand storm just to get a chance to capture Poggle the Lesser and she also seem to have taught Barriss how to prepare herself any kind of situation she might encounter on field, and I think Byph needs those lessons.

Is okay to have fear of the dark or of scary creatures (likes he does in the Gathering), but Luminara could teach him to overcome those fears either by being prepared or by himself that whatever they do will affect hundreds of people all over the galaxy and it's the job as Jedi to protect those lives even when they are afraid.

Also Luminara looks pretty wild on her speeder on her way to capture Poggle, maybe she can be able to inspire some rebellion within Byph. It would be funny if he gets a tattoo on his teens (but not a Mirialan one, of course).

• Byph and Barriss are actually very similar (at least on my head)

I see Barriss as a very shy kid, specially when she was a youngling, and Byph also looks like he had social anxiety and can only be himself around people he already knows and trusts, which can be a huge problem for a Jedi. They need to interact with senators, kings, queens and the high society on general on a regular basis, being timid can get on the way of their job. Luminara on the other hand seem very sociable, cracking jokes with Obi-Wan and Anakin, stating her opinion even in front of people with higher rank than her, being firm when she needs to. And on top of that, she already got experience with a shy padawan and would know how to act when Byph got a little too anxious.

I don't have kids myself, but I think it's easy to take care of them when it's not the first time you do it. That's why I got so many traumas and my sister is fine.

• A politician to be

You know how we see Luminara in the Chanceller's office on the movies? I got a headcanon that she spent a lot of time on the Senate before the war, dealing with conflicts, stopping minor wars to happen, helping planets to join the republic. Things like theses, and I also think Byph would be great at this! He not the time of guy who would jump into conflicts, but I think he really cares about people and would find joy in helping planets avoid war. He probably would take the role of a adviser.

Of course that, by the time he his knighted, he is no longer afraid to fight, but that doesn't mean he enjoys swinging his lightsaber around like some of his classmates (aka Petro) do. Luminara would make a great teacher regarding politics.

Byph is probably my favorite youngling of his clan and it only makes sense to give him my favorite Master Jedi.

Petro and Aayla Secura

At first I thought about pairing Petro either with Quinlan or Anakin, but that would be way too chaotic and he would probably end up blowing way to many things up in his Jedi career.

My third choice would be Ahsoka, but I got other plans for her, so Aayla seen like a good fit for the boy.

• Aayla would balance some of Petro energy.

Aayla seen to had picked up some of Quinlan habits: She can be very confrontational and it's always up for a fight, much like Petro seems to be, but she also knows when control herself when she needs to (I can only wonder were she learned that. It wasn't with Vos!) being able to put her feelings aside while listening what the people actually expect her to do.

Petro needs to learn some of that self control!

• Petro would love to learn lightsaber combat with someone as skilled as Aayla.

Did seem Aayla fight? She is a goodness! I bet Petro already had a eye on her even before the Gathering, since he looks so interesting on learning how to wield his weapon. Also I think of him as being the best duellists of his youngling clan, so it only makes since to give him a master who could polish his skills even more.

• Aayla would teach him the value of forming strongs bonds with people.

I'm still assuming that the test the younglings had to pass on Ilum reveals a fault on their character that will take years to overcome, and in Petro's case it's that him kinda think himself to be better than others. It's not like he doesn't cares about his friends, but he can be a little selfish sometimes and Aayla is the opposite of that.

On the episode Anakin gets hurts and she have to take care of Ahsoka she teaches her that! Ahsoka wanted to stay with Anakin for selfish reasons and Aayla took time to explain to her why they could do this. She was very patient too, and force knows she will have to be while teaching someone like Petro who can get really cocky (gods help me to not be using this word wrong) sometimes. She would make him understand that sometimes a Jedi needs to put their needs on second place to be able to do their jobs.

Bonus

This two are the only Younglings of the episode "the gathering" that I didn't cover on part one, but there's four more force sensitive children that I like to imagining getting a master and living happily without order 66:

Reva and Anakin

Please remember that this is in a AU were Order 66 never happened and this baby girl never got traumatized by Anakin.

I think Anakin would feel in love with teaching after taking care of Ahsoka for so long and after a few years would give a second try on being a master, now way more experience and mature. Also he is such a girl dad (sorry Luke) that I had to give him another daughter/little sister.

• A lesson about emotions

Okay, I know Reva feel into the dark side because of Anakin, but at the very least she already had a inclination to immerse herself into negative emotions. And considering that Anakin was able to resist the dark side and stay a Jedi even after being manipulated for years by Palpatine, who would be better than him to teach her how to control her anger?

I mean, maybe Mace Windu, but he already got a awesome Padawan and lineage, so let's Anakin have this one.

They probably would fight a lot, but so did him and Ahsoka. That's probably just part of the experience. I think Reva could really grown to respect the man Anakin is, just like her older sister (Ahsoka), and would have a lot to learn with him about feelings and how to permit herself to have them without letting them control her actions.

• Anakin would feel respect by the order.

The way Reva speaks about Anakin Skywalker on the Kenobi series makes me think that all younglings adore the Hero with no fear, specially her! I think she would be a fan girl part of the time and Anakin would love the attention.

Also I'm considering that after killing Palpatine Anakin would come clean about his wedding and his newborn babies, and for the order not only allow him to stay in their ranks as a Jedi master but also let him take on another Padawan would make any fear of being a forever outcast disappear from his mind.

I also like to think that this time he not only choose to teach a Padawan, but also had time to make the decision of picking Reva specifically instead of having Yoda drop a kid on his hands without warning. All this facts would make Anakin more certain of his path as a Jedi.

I not going to come up with more excuses to make those two a thing because I just think they are neat and that's reason enough to me want them together as master and apprentice.

Jax and Barriss Offe

I have a elaborate story about how Barriss would become Jax's master but this only happens on the middle of the fanfic that I'm currently working on and I don't spoil so much of the plot, so I going to be very careful with what I say here.

I love the idea of Mirialans training other Mirialans so they can pass on their culture even inside the Jedi temple. It makes their species unique I who doesn't love unique aliens? But that's not the only reason I would paring them together:

• Jax is a edgy boy, just like his master!

(I mean, just look at their looks! I can hear MCR playing on the background of these pictures)

Only a few characters exhale so much angst as Barriss Offee, and I think Jax kinda matches this a little bit. I mean, it's probably because he's trap on a Imperial facility, but I like to think he would maintain some of his edgeness even inside the Jedi temple.

He is a bit of a rebel too, constantly questioning authority just like Barriss seem to be by the end of the clones wars. The difference is that Barriss bottle up her feelings until they explode (literally) and Jax would be a lot vocal of his concerns. Barriss would love this and would schedule some "debate" to hear him speak his mind and give him some of her own too. She also would know how to canalize his concerns into health activities.

Note: because of my shitty english I not sure if any of this made sense, but what Im trying to say it that Jax is a bit emo and Barriss understand him very well because she as well is a bit emo. They would go like "Oh the galaxy is so corrupt and the council fuck up all the time!" But Barriss would know what to do because she would be older and wiser. Does that makes sense?

• Jax is a fighter and Barriss could use some of his spirit.

You know when Jax tried to scape a Imperial facility but punching a stormtrooper? Yeah, now imagine this boy with a lightsaber!

I think Barriss good a tendency to got depressed fast whenever she seems something bad happing, just look at the time she got stuck on that tank on Geonossis with Ahsoka and she was like "Oh, I guess I'm going to die now..." This never stopped her from acting when she needed to, but the sentiment was definitely there.

Jax would drag his mom master to the craziest situations were Barriss would learn to never give up on a fight and Jax would, eventually,learn how to think before acting. They would be a good duo!

• A lesson on hope!

Much like Yoda, Barriss also needs a reason to keep believing on the future of the Jedi order, and having a Padawan so full of life would give her strength to keep fighting for her believes in a healthy way.

Barriss would move mountains so she could be sure Jax would never had to fight in a war and watch his friends die like she had to, at that means she would take on a leadership within the order. Make them distance themselves from the republic and focus on serving the people of the galaxy, just to create a better future for Jax and all the other younglings in the order.

(I just want to point out how great of a Gramma Luminara would be for Jax as well, but unfortunately I can't elaborate on it)

Sami and Ahsoka

Listen I will not give a trouble Padawan to Ahsoka!

She had enough with her master being Anakin Skywalker and she deserves a sweet kid like Sami who the worst she can to is skipping training to play with the kids in the creche. You will have to fight with me about it if you don't agree!

• Ahsoka needs to learn how to live in peaceful times and Sami would help with that!

Unlike Jax, Sami doesn't have a single aggressive bone in her. You know how she, a ten years old, look at a orphan baby and goes like "Okay, I'm your mom now!", that's how she is! She is a kind soul who loves to take care off people and doesn't like to fight.

Meanwhile Ahsoka is a war veteran whos whole Jedi career was in the middle of a battlefield. She not even sure what to do with her self once the war is over. Sami would help her to see that a Jedi doesn't always had to explode things and destroy droids to help people.

The funny thing is that in the second battle of Geonossis Ahsoka is unsure how Anakin is going to deal with peace and in my head cannon she's the one struggling the most. Giving her such a peaceful Padawan would kinda balance this out (sorry Sabine, I love you, but you not what Ahsoka needed)

• Sami could pick up some of Ahsoka's spirit.

In the bad batch she seems to be the scariest after hearing Omega's plain (which makes sense considering she's ten and a solo parent... I'm jocking) but by having a master like Ahsoka by her side she would grow more confident over the years and learn when put up on a fight. They balance each other!

Unfortunately I can't say much more without spoiling my story, so I going to leave at that, but I truly believe their dynamic would be interesting!

On top of that Ahsoka and Barriss would could help each other a lot when it comes to teaching their Padawans. Sami would enjoy a lot learning about forcing healing with Barriss (considering her caring nature) and Jax would count the days so he could have a sparring session with Ahsoka.

They would be co-parenting under the Jedi council noses and no one could said a thing because they are such good masters.

Edit: I forgot to say that, but I truly think Sami would be the one to end the reputation of Ahsoka's lineage to be those "unconventional Jedi". The Disaster lineage would live on Reva because (as far this AU goes) she is the closest one to fall to the dark side.

Eva and Shaak Ti

I feel really bad for them, but I can't add more pictures in this post and I don't what to make a part three just to include them. But it's okay because everyone knows who Master Ti is and I'm almost sure you guys know Eva too (the one with the Tooka doll that Omega made in the Bad Batch)

I going to be quick about them:

• Both Shaak Ti and Eva are deeply carrying people.

Eva is the sweetest! She tries to stay positive even if the situation is the literally worst possible and go out of her way to comfort her friends so they don't feel so bad.

Considering how Shaak Ti treats her clone troopers I think they would get along just fine.

• Shaak Ti is the maternal figure Eva needs!

You know how Eva is trying to get affection from every adult that crosses paths with her? Shaak Ti is already the mom is millions of clones, she can take one more daughter.

I think they would get along just fine and probably go into missions to establish clones rights in the republic, but I don't have anything more to say other than that.

Honorable Mentions

Bayrn

Bayrn is the baby on Project Necromancer, and he really doesn't have a personality that I could work with to set him with a master. But if I had to go with vibes only I would put him with Plo Koon. Please don't ask me to elaborate on it.

Edit: Now that I think about it, maybe Sami is old enough to become Bayrn's master someday, specially considering she manege to get knighted has early as Anakin and (in this scenario) Ahsoka.

Omega

Star wars never made it clear if Omega is force sensitive, so I'm choosing to believe she's not and on this scenario she would live with their brothers happily ever after.

Luke and Leia

For the fics I'm working on right now Luke and Leia wouldn't be force sensitive.

I have a headcanon that the force isn't something that can pass on genetic, and that's why Jedi avoid having biological children (what would they do with a bunch of non force sensitive children if they decide to have them?). The reason why Luke and Leia were born force sensitive in the main timeline it's because Anakin failed in bringing balance to the force and the galaxy needed a new hope.

If they were born force sensitive and Padmé somehow agreed to let them to join the order I would give Luke to Deppa Billaba and Leia to Mace Windu, because they would need experienced master and the order would be reluctant on giving the children to someone close to Anakin like Obi-Wan or Ahsoka. Also I like the of Deppa and Mace shaping them to be a little bit more stoic Jedi. But I truly think Luke and Leia could be more happy by following a different path.

That's it!

[kawareo]

PSSSST 2 for the writer question meme

2. How does their race play into the design? Was it a conscious choice because of the racial features or did you simply enjoy the playstyle or lore?

Sooo Strike is a drow and when I made him one i admittedly had no idea about most of DnD and drow in general, I was just making my favorite OC to see what he'd look like in bg3 lol, it's why he doesn't really look like a drow or other drow ingame

BUT after getting way too into the Bhaalspawn stuff and bg3 lore and everything, I can confidently say that I found excuses reasons for why Bhaal would've made him that way.

the drow are considered a 'scary' race, Bhaal would've wanted that for his child, and they're kind of like... a degradation of a 'noble' race of elves? At least they're considered as such, they give off the high and mighty vibe and can do everything elves can but they're also considered lesser than surface dwellers.

They have a fucked up culture that's centered around an evil god(ess), but one that is not Bhaal. Strike could therefore relate to them but only from afar as they would've never accepted him as one of their own, which leads me to my next point

Isolation. That comes in two ways; one because people who aren't that familiar with elves and drow see a drow and assume the worst, so noone in their right mind would want to associate with him if they knew (Strike has to roll a persuasion check whenever he meets someone new and tells them that he's actually an elf), but because he doesn't fully look like a drow, everyone who does know them better will get this awful uncanny valley feeling about him. Like something is wrong but you can't really point it out, you know?

and another important thing is that Strike is a cis man, which puts him at the very bottom of social hierarchy of the lowest rank of an elf. Drow men are basically slaves and are treated as such, which means that his entire life he was constantly aware that without Bhaal and the title of being his scion, he would still, always, be a slave.

So yeah essentially me not knowing how drow work or look turned out really well because Bhaal is just enough of a bitch that I could totally see him make a mismatch of a person who will never be able to fit anywhere and whom noone will respect unless if he uses his Father's name and power to assert himself, but in any case, he created someone who will be unable to relate to anyone and find any other home outside of the temple.

[bitterlycursedstars]

Hey! I hope you're doing well! I've been scrolling the DMC tag for a while and love your writing! That said... I was wondering if I could get Dante and Virgil head canons for the differences between dating them when they're younger like in the first few games vs when they're older like the lar couple of game.ps, I just think it's would be interesting to see how being a relationship with them would change with their age/maturity

First of all, thank you so much! I love when people enjoy my writing!

Second, forgive me if this isn't to your liking, I've only played 3, 4, and 5, and I'm more of a Vergil girl 😅

(you're actually my first ask, so I'm not used to this)

DMC3 Dante-

•would smack your ass in public

•would hit on you, no matter where you are

•would appreciate it if you don't shoot him in the head, babe

•would trip you on purpose just to be able to catch you and smirk at you "Heh. Looks like you really fell for me, huh?"

•would pursue you until you fell for his charm, if you didn't immediately

•knows you love when he walks around the office shirtless

DMC3 Vergil-

•would be uncomfortable showing PDA, including hand-holding, so you would more than likely just walk beside each other in public

•would be terrified of getting close to you because of what happened to his mother, so you'd be kept at arm's length

•would be extremely hesitant to trust you for a while, and come off as cold and uncaring, when he simply doesn't know how to love or be loved

•when you did earn his trust, he'd teach you how to wield your own weapon so you're not defenseless against lesser demons

•but good luck getting out of his sight long enough to actually fight anything your own

DMC5 Dante-

•would wear your bra/thong just to mess with you

•would give you your own personal strip tease in the bedroom

•sends you dirty sexts in the middle of the afternoon, just so you have something to look forward to that night

•if he knows you're really busy, especially at work, expect to get nudes

•if you use guns or swords, he falls that much harder for you

•rides his motorcycle everywhere with you just so he can feel your arms wrapped tightly around his waist

•would pull you close to him by your waist to give you surprise kisses on your cheek

DMC5 Vergil-

•much more at ease than his foolish little brother, preferring to sit down with a good book and a cup of hot tea

•would read William Blake to you from his book of poems, especially if you're sleepy

•would be much more comfortable with hand-holding in public

•would occasionally give you a forehead kiss in public, since he'll more than likely tower over you at 6'5" (195cm)

•would give one cold look to anyone who dare look your way for longer than necessary, and Sparda help them if they hit on you

•please give this demon a hug, because he just wants to be protected and loved, darling

•definitely the little spoon, despite his height

•wants you to stay out of the devil hunting business, because it would destroy him if he lost you too

•pretends he doesn't make dad jokes, but he definitely does

[diristine]

do you have nsfw Simon hcs..

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Ahem, you asked for it.

NSFW SIMON GLASS HCS BELOW, PROCEED WITH CAUTION

Hopefully we're safe to begin here, I don't want someone to just stumble upon some nsfw if they're not comfortable reading it. Or simply aren't in the mood to read it, that'd suck. Like seeing random porn on insta and wanting to bleach my eyes. Anyways!

Simon is a switch but is more of a bottom than anything, however due to his time as Shard he genuinely believes he is a top and will not entertain the idea of bottoming unless you're a woman. (He's weak for a good femme person really)

He has a dick piercing, there's no other good way to say it. So, yeah.

He loves it rough, the rougher the better. A lot of it has to due with him having to become used to it due to being forced into situations as Shard that he was uncomfortable with. His brain essentially went "Hm, instead of being grossed out, we should like this so we don't cry." And now he's a freaky mfer.

Zero gag reflex. Zero.

He is a sucker for anyone in lace, he loves how it looks and feels against the skin. If you're in lace, he's gonna eye you for a moment before pouncing.

Simon can in fact unbutton and unzip your jeans with nothing but his teeth. Did he practice for this? Of course he did.

Don't be scared to leave bruises, he will wear them like trophies the next day. No, genuinely. He once pissed off Daniel (oc he's dating) so much that the man left hand prints on Simon's neck. Simon didn't even attempt to cover them.

It's difficult to get him to bottom like I said before, however it is possible if you frustrate him enough. Make him desperate to where he's just kinda, "Fine!! Just let me please-" Don't worry, he'll enjoy it. It's good for him.

He has scratch mark scars all up and down his back from people reopening old wounds when he was Shard. Sometimes he had back to back to back missions where the scratches simply weren't given enough time to heal, and now he has a mosaic of scars across his back.

He can find the clit dw guys.

He is LOUD, both as a top and a bottom. He's very vocal and will whine if you stop him from what he was doing, whether if its focusing on a partner or himself.

Simon is very much a giver in manners of the horizontal tango. But he'll take whatever you want to give him too, no complaints whatsoever.

Due to...activities as Shard, Simon now needs a minimal of 2-3 finishes before he's satisfied. Why doesn't he just, only do one and let his body adjust to the lesser amount you ask? Well, Robert likes that he can keep up, so he will never adjust his stamina or what his body is able to take.

While he enjoys it rough, he doesn't fuck his boyfriends. No. He makes love to them, he's gentle and sweet and kind. Unless they specifically ask for roughness, he will default to soft praises and gentle touches. He loves and respects them too much to default to something as depraved as his own desires.

Call him good boy and he will cum.

Surprisingly not a fan of piss. Did he do it for targets? Of course he did, that's his entire job as Shard. The whole fuck and die thing, but Simon himself doesn't quite seek it out.

He did one of those silicone dildo molds of himself and gave it to his boyfriends...ironically that's his favorite one to use on himself but he doesn't want to think about the implications of that.

If given the chance to have a consenting audience, the answer is yes. He loves being watched.

Essentially, he's a class A freak in the sheets and this is the tamer stuff. Focused more on Simon than on Shard here but it's kinda hard to talk about one without mentioning the other side of him. Especially here, when a lot of his tastes and preferences came about due to his mind trying to protect himself from what was actually trauma. (Being blackmailed into doing things he didn't want to as an agent, yeah, that's not exactly consensual.)

I have more NSFW headcanons of course, and you simply need to ask to receive! Honestly I could make a list of his kinks, interests, dislikes, and even write some scenarios he has found himself in (there are actually 2 fanfics of my Simon on ao3 that revolve around his life as Shard, I'll have to ask my friend if they're willing to share their fic before I release any links)

(Yes I write on ao3, and yes I do intend on writing the last of the piss glass fics because it bothers me that we have a piss glass fic with every one of the four horsemen other than Kondraki, sorry Konny, ur being piss glass fic'ed and you have no choice)

[cadybear420]

Do u think Evie wld have any complicated feelings surrounding days like mothers day? Like regarding herself as a mom but also bc she doesn't have a mom?

TYSM @rjschoicesstuff for the ask! 💞💞💞

Ask game here!

Mother's Day headcanon but I think Evie as a kid would have made Mother's day into a second Father's day.

Evie has generally-understanding-but-also-mixed-feelings about Rani leaving. Scott told her the story early on, and at that time she was able to understand that parenthood is a choice and a big responsibility. But at the same time she hears about how amazing Rani was and she can't help but wonder how amazing it would have been to have her as a mother figure.

In the end, Evie has been able to accept Rani as more of a distant Auntie. But mother's day does still become something she feels weird about.

It sort of starts in elementary school where, each year, the classes always have the kids do special gift crafts for the kids to give to their parents on Mother's day and Father's day. Little Evie can't help but feel a bit... left out? She doesn't have a mom to make the mother's day crafts for, so what does she do?

She doesn't wanna skip it because she loves doing crafts. Especially since the mother's day ones almost always have pretty flower themes. She likes pretty flowers.

But who does she make it for, herself? No, she thinks, that would look selfish, even if the other kids know she doesn't have a mom.

She could make it for her dad? What if the other kids find that stupid? She still sticks out like a sore thumb.

Maybe she could make it for Rani anyways? Maybe Auntie Rani might still like the nice gifts? Except that still feels awkward.

I think in the end, she does decide to make the mother's day gifts for Dad (and needless to say he absolutely adores it). And unfortunately, a lot of kids do bother her about it. Some years aren't as bad, it tends to tone down by the time the kids are in middle school. But in a lot of the elementary years, she's crying and running out of the classroom. In second grade, it gets so bad that she retaliates by scribbling marker all over a bully kid's card. Not entirely her proudest moment in retrospect.

The act of Evie giving Scott the mother's day craft gifts does initiate a little tradition. Mother's day basically becomes a second Father's day for them, sort of like a more chill Father's day. Like they don't wanna make it into a big deal, just a day to relax and spend time together. Evie does sometimes feel weird about celebrating her father on mother's day, but making the day a more chill celebration does ease that for her.

I think when Evie becomes a mom herself, Aiden and the kids love to spoil her on the day. Breakfast in bed, her favorite flowers, her favorite kinds of gifts. Evie loves the cutesy and flowery mother's day cards from the store, but sometimes they make her their own card because sports-themed mother's day cards are ultra rare.

Evie adores all of it, she even finds it therapeutic to a degree, and doesn't really have any awkward or complicated feelings about it. But often times, she still thinks about how awkward these sorts of holidays and festivities could sometimes be for other kids who didn't grow up with the typical normative mom-and-dad structure. Single parents, same gender parents, nonbinary parents. Or when you also consider the commercialized gifts for the holidays: moms who like tools and cars, dads who like flowers, moms who don't get pregnant, dads who get pregnant. Evie enjoys these days, but is also a bit bothered by the one-size-fits-all aspects that tend to be associated with the holidays.

Evie and Scott do also keep up their tradition, albeit to a lesser extent. He does like to visit on Mother's day to hang out with the Aidevie family, and she does still like to come up with a little gift for him, but with Evie being a mom now the festivites have become more Evie-centric. I also don't see Scott remarrying in the foreseeable future (and even if I did, I'm not sure how Evie would feel about that).

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Hi, the context is childhood trauma though I don't think there is much of a TW. It is more about recovery.

I have been in therapy and been doing my best but recently I felt some barrier inside of me and explored it. My therapist and I were working on some specific happenings from my childhood - minor ones yet. And I found out my issue:

I can't imagine being healthy. The ordinary life seems so overwhelming, I can't imagine working a job all day, socializing all day, this is so beyond me. I can't see me ever being able to do this. But what if I overcame all my trauma and would still be the same person, but then people would expect me to live an ordinary life? And I would expect too. My mental illness is my excuse, for now. I am afraid to lose it.

And second, not the lesser one: In a way, holding a grudge is the only power I have. I feel if I overcome these memories, (I won't forget them but they will be worked into the grand scheme of memories, I guess) then they got away with it. I know it is silly and people say "Overcoming it and living your best live is good revenge" but that doesn't resonate with me. Holding a grudge until the end of time seems like good revenge! It was the only power I had for so long, something in my blocks, when I try to do like the last step to overcome it. Idk. Any ideas?

Hi anon,

My therapist tells me that holding grudges and resentment gives the other person power over you because it means you give them the opportunity to live rent free in your head. You give them permission to use your time and energy towards being angry at or upset with them. Being angry or upset at someone indicates that you believe they should or would behave differently. But if you believed that the behavior that led to your resentment is perfectly within their character and not surprising, that resentment melts away. If you expected them to do that, it almost becomes laughable.

There are ways to respect the damage done and also live a happy and fulfilling life. The real power is making an active choice to enjoy yourself and not let someone else's behavior have power over that. Trauma has been such a core part of my identity for so long that I forgot how to focus on my life as it was happening. I was made to believe that my experiences weren't real which further enforced my own resentment and rumination on said trauma. I struggled to allow myself to be happy because then I felt like I was ignoring what happened. Despite mourning the person I could have been, I've come to realize that I can still give myself, to the best of my ability, the life I know I will never have. I can still try to be the person I could have been, as close to it as possible. I am treating my child self, and I hope that you can too.

-Bun