Wish You Were Here [1] | Bradley ‘Rooster’ Bradshaw
Summary | Some things you’d rather not face alone.
Pairing | Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw x fem!reader / Bradley 'Rooster' Bradshaw x fem!oc (no use of y/n)
Warnings | swearing, explicit smut / 18+ only
Words | 7.4k
Note | Can be read as part of One For The History Books (takes place post-epilogue—chronologically the final part) but also works as a standalone.
Library
When the blob of paint unceremoniously splashes over your bare feet, you feel like your final shreds of sanity have hit the ground with it. You stare intensely at the pale sandy color splattered over the plastic covering on the floor, your legs and the more of outside the paint bucket than the wall at this rate.
What were you thinking?
Dropping the paint roller in the bucket, creating another wave of splatters for good measure, you sit down in the middle of the room, knees pulled up. Your hands are burning painfully from gripping the roller hours on end—you can see the first blisters forming. You’re not even half-way done yet with painting. And then you need to install curtains. Clean. Wax the hardwood floors. Pack up your house. Clean. Disassemble all your furniture. Move. Order new furniture. Assemble everything. Clean.
This was such a bad idea.
But you promised. You promised Bradley you would take care of it all, not to worry and focus on the detachment at hand. Six weeks. And you really thought you could do it.
Now, you’re really not sure.
Your apartment is a mess. This house is an even worse mess. And you feel so incredibly alone.
Hanging your head, you can’t stop the tears from coming. There is no reason on this godforsaken earth this should be so hard. Really, you need to get the fuck over yourself. You rub the heel of your hand over your cheek to wipe away the tears, but you’re probably just spreading still-wet paint over your face. But it’s not like anyone will see you here like this.
Your sobs echo through the empty house.
After getting engaged last July, you both decide there is no sense in a long engagement. Or a big wedding. Bradley is straightforward about it—you could have whatever wedding you want, but for him, it’s a means to an end. He wants you by his side. But more importantly, he wants taken care off in case anything would happen to him.
He still hasn’t completely shaken the consequences of facing death so directly as he did on the mission almost three years ago now. Through long nighttime talks, chipping away his and your own walls, you’ve come to understand that Bradley not concerned with his own mortality per se—he is a lot more scared and concerned for what he will leave behind. Who he will leave behind.
You don’t like to think about, but rationally you have to. If—god forbid—anything would happen to Bradley, you would have no say. No rights to anything. Not unless you married.
So right before the new year, scarcely three months after you receive your doctorate, less than half a year after you’ve gotten engaged, you say ‘yes’ to each other in a small mountain chapel in the Rockies, surrounded by your closest friends and family.
Snowflakes falling from the sky contrast starkly against Bradley’s formal Navy blues as you walk out of the chapel. The sight of him, with a slight blush on his cheeks from the cold as he kisses you under the arch of swords, is one of your favorite memories from that day.
After that, everything keeps going so quickly, you feel like you still can barely comprehend everything that happened. You’ve had been looking at houses together for a few months already, but when you view the red brick house with hardwood floors and a great big tree in the backyard with a swing hanging from it in Fredericksburg, one look at each other says it all.
You sign so many papers in such a short time, you might have signed your soul away and not even remember.
When you get the keys on a strangely sunny late January day, you grab a bottle of champagne, and drink it together in the empty house, dreaming about how it will look when it’s done. It needs a little TLC according to the realtor, but it could be the perfect place to raise a family.
Bradley is pushing you on the swing, as you laugh in the evening sun—your breath coming out in small puffs of smoke. For a moment, it feels like you have champagne in your veins—everything is so light and intoxicating.
“Let’s have a baby.”
You turn so quickly, you nearly vault yourself off the swing. Bradley pulls back the swing, stopping your motion. His mouth hangs sightly open, the tips of his ears red, like he can’t really believe he just said that. The champagne must be getting to him too.
You discussed having children, although not very concretely—between everything else, you don’t have a timeline. And why would you? Until a few hours ago, you didn’t have a house. You live in a one-bedroom apartment surrounded by mostly books and stacks of paper, and Bradley lives on base (most of the time).
“Now?” You utter, completely stunned. Your cheeks are stinging from blushing in the cold air. Bradley licks his lips nervously.
“I mean- I don’t - If you… Fuck.” Bradley stumbles over his words, averting his gaze from you. There’s a blush creeping up the back of his neck, just peeking over the collar of his jacket. You are at a loss for words, because you don’t know how to verbalize everything you are feeling. The champagnes, early winter sunlight and Bradley’s words are forming a vortex in your head.
You end up just grabbing his hand, threading your fingers through his. Smiling, you pull yourself up from the swing, enveloping his hand in yours.
“I’m going to have to go off birth control first.” You tell him softly. “But no time like the present, right?”
You look at Bradley to gauge his reaction. He still looks a bit apprehensive, like he’s not fully convinced you’re really on board with this.
“We should also practice a lot.” You add seriously, looking him straight in the eye.
Bradley bursts out laughing, and you can’t help but laugh along.
But you let yourself dream a little too much. As you sit on the floor tearfully, paint drying on your face and feet, you know damn well a large part of your current misery is of your own making.
Three days ago you got your period.
And it makes you feel like shit.
You dreamed a little too much about surprising Bradley with a house made into a home, and a positive pregnancy test to boot when he came back from deployment.
Rationally, you understand. It’s early days. You shouldn’t expect it to happen this quickly.
Rationally, you know. Quitting birth control has been hell on your hormones—you can’t explain why you’re feeling what you’re feeling, just that you are feeling it. Intensely.
You are just fucking miserable, incredibly lonely, and kind of bloated—and there’s nothing you can do about it.
Power through this, you tell yourself. You’ve faced bigger challenges. You overcame them. You’re not getting defeated by a fucking wall and some paint.
What would Bradley think? Probably that you’re unreliable. Or worse, incompetent. Just what he needs in a wife.
You are making yourself cry harder now, pathetically sobbing into your hands.
Oh fuck, you really got yourself good with that one. You excel at making yourself sad these days.
You’re not giving up. No, you don’t think you could face Bradley if you gave up like this.
You’re just giving up for today.
Bradley calls you that evening, quite unexpectedly. You have not managed to get out of your funk, electing to wallow in it as you power down a sleeve of Oreos while binge-watching sitcoms reruns.
“Hey darlin’,” He sounds so cheery. “How are you holding up there?”
“Hey babe, all good!” Your voice sounds strangely out of tune, trying to hide the evidence of your self-pity as you’re brushing the Oreo crumbs on your shirt. “How is it over there?”
“It’s been busy, lots of hours up in the air,” Bradley replies, sighing, before changing the subject. “How’s it going with the house? Making progress?”
“Oh yeah, it’s fine.” You try to sound at least neutral, but your voice wavers on the last syllable. Swallowing dryly, you hope Bradley didn’t hear it.
“Sweetheart…” His sounds out gently before you start talking again. Fuck. Of course he heard it. You stare at your chipped fingernails, covered in specks of paint you didn’t manage to scrub off.
“No, really, it’s fine.” Willing your voice to be steady. “It’s just a lot of work, and it’s kind of messy…” Hesitating for a second, you hurriedly continue: “But it’s nothing I can’t deal with, I promise, the house will be as good as done by the time you get back—I just need to get those walls done you know? After that, I’ll get the floors polished, and-”
By the end of the sentence, your voice is thick with tears. You can’t stop it now. And you hate yourself for it.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” You cry, desperately trying to regain a semblance of control over your emotions. “I just had a hard day today—everything kind of sucked and everything went badly, and I just miss you so fucking much, because you’d know what to do, and it wouldn’t feel so alone…”
You choke back a sob.
“I’m just afraid I’m not going to be done in time, and you’ll be disappointed.” Hot tears stream down your face again, your eyes stinging from the salt.
“Darlin’, look…” Bradley sounds worried as he hears your cry softly on the other end of the line. “Darcy, listen to me.” His voice is level—not stern, but enough to focus your attention on him. “I truly do not care if you stuff all the furniture in the garage and put garbage bags over the windows instead of curtains. All I need when I get back is food in the fridge and a place to sleep. Because most of all, I need you to be happy.”
He listens for a moment, your crying now just soft sniffles. “Everything else we can take care of when I get back.”
“You’re right.” You concede quietly. “I’m sorry, I just got so worked up about this—I wanted to surprise you.”
“Don’t apologize, darlin’.” His voice is warm again and it’s so easily washing away your sadness. “This deployment was extremely shit timing, but I never expected you to do everything by yourself in the meantime. We’ll fix it together.”
Finally, after a long day of unfortunate events, a smile creeps up your face again. Together. Together is always better.
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When Bradley does finally get home after his six-week deployment, spring fill the air. It’s making your head spin.
You managed to prepare the house a fair bit beyond “food in the fridge and a place to sleep”, but some things are definitely still missing. You need a place for all your books, and Bradley’s steadily growing collection of vinyls is outgrowing the corner of the living room where he’s been keeping them.
Every day you wake up in a house that feels a little bit more like a home—boxes finally get squared away, and things are finally finding a place. And soon, hopefully very soon, the drill can take a long well-deserved rest in the garage.
You pack up the last of the bags and suitcases from the bedroom. All clothes have been folded or hung, shoes put away, bedding and towels squared away in the linen closet, and the hopefully final load of laundry is in the washing machine.
You navigate your way down the stairs with the bags, intending to store them away in the garage. You hear music playing downstairs and Bradley whistling along, and you can’t help but peek in on him. He’s in the living room, back turned to you.
There must be something in the air.
But those basketball shorts, that sleeveless shirt, and the pencil tucked behind his ear as he’s drilling into the wall gives you pause. Your heart is suddenly beating so loudly you are sure it’s audible over the sound of the drill.
From your vantage point, you can see clearly how the muscles in his arms and shoulders are tensed, vibrating from the tremors of the drill.
Fuck.
You lean against the door frame, taking in the scene before you, not particularly feeling the need to announce your presence yet.
Bradley focused on his task. Measuring out where to drill, marking it with the pencil before tucking it back behind his ear, leveling shelves, gently brushing the dust from the wall with his fingers. He grabs one of your books from a pile on the floor, placing it on the shelf as if to see how it would look. With every motion, your eyes are irrevocably drawn to the movement of his arms, the way the muscles of his broad shoulders shift, and the faint sheen of sweat forming at the nape of his neck.
Shit, you need to pinch yourself, because that’s your husband. The words still feel new and almost unfamiliar in your head, like they haven’t fallen into place yet. But it makes your heart skip a beat, much like when you first met Bradley, filling you with exited energy.
Unconsciously, you rub your thighs together, the fabric of your yoga pants creating unexpected friction, suddenly overcome with the urge of being in his arms. Forget the shelves, you want that attention to detail on you.
You pad across the room, while Bradley still hasn’t noticed you, humming along to the music. Wrapping your arms around his waist, you boldly run your hands over his chest and abs, pressing your cheeks against his back. You feel Bradley chuckle, as he puts away the level before covering your hands with his.
“Can I help you?” He jokes.
“I hope so.” You murmur, bunching up his shirt in your fists and pulling it up.
“You hope so?” His hands grasp your wrists, pulling them away from his shirt before turning around to face you. You waste no time—it’s like a raging fire has been lit in you—pulling free from his grasp, and running your hands over his biceps before grabbing his face, crashing your lips into his.
Bradley doesn’t hesitate, opening his mouth as you lick the seam of his lips for access. He lets you push him up against the wall next to the shelves, kicking away the tool box. Screws get knocked out of their box, bouncing off the floor in a symphony of metal. Bradley knows it’s going to be a massive pain to find them all back, but he really doesn’t care right now. All he can really focus on is your hands, lightly scratching, making their way up his stomach again, pulling up his shirt up as you go.
He doesn’t know what just got into you, and he doesn’t really care either. Since he returned from deployment last week, you’ve been a lot more forward in, well, practically tearing his clothes off when the mood strikes you. Bradley is only happy to acquiesce—normally he would try to tease a reaction this strong from you, but this is even better. It does his ego a lot of good when you want him so unashamedly. He doesn’t think he could ever deny you.
You break the kiss to pull Bradley’s shirt over his head, taking the pencil behind his ear with it. Unceremoniously, both drop at your feet. Meanwhile, Bradley’s nimble fingers are pushing the spaghetti straps of your top down your shoulder. You shimmy your arms out, giving him easy access to unclasp your bra.
You push Bradley back to the small stepladder by the wall. You know what you want, you know what you need, and you are in no mood right now to give up dominance. As you guide him to sit, you clamber into his lap, your hips hovering over his crotch. Bradley’s mouth is on your nipple, not-so-gently tugging at it with his teeth. You can’t help but moan out his name, completely shamelessly.
Your hips dip down, rubbing your pussy over Bradley’s hard dick through the layers of clothes you’re still wearing.
“F- fuck, darlin’,” Bradley’s eyes close for a moment, brow furrowed. You grind down again, your own eyes fluttering from the sensation. His lips find your collarbone, nipping at the skin, up the column of your neck. Your hand roam over his shoulders, the back of his neck, nails scratching lightly over his heated skin.
Your mouth finds his again, pulling Bradley’s lower lips between your teeth. There is little romance in the moment, it’s mostly about need. Mostly your need, one that you can’t fight, and don’t even want to fight.
Bradley’s large warm hands are tugging your yoga pants and underwear down your hips. Grabbing your ass, he pushes you up, to tug the fabric down your legs. You kick them off the rest of the way, as he shrugs off his own short in one fluid move. Immediately you are back in your position, your soaking pussy rubbing over his cock, letting out a breathy sigh.
But the fire in you is still raging.
Grasping his length, running your fingers along the shaft, you delight in the way Bradley’s breath hitches and his fingers dig into your hips. He moves to kiss you again, but you move back with the mischievous smile tugging at your lips.
“Oh, you’re going to be like that?” Bradley breathes out. His face is flushed, lips parted—you have him right where you want him.
“Like what?” You tease, giggling.
“Difficult.”
You shush Bradley gently, grin still on your face. You lightly rub the tip of your nose against his, your breath mingling, but not releasing him with a kiss just yet. As much as you’re burning, you want to blow his mind.
Bending closer, your tongue darts out just below Bradley’s ear, teasing the sensitive spot as your hand is lightly pumping his cock. He sucks air in between his teeth, causing your hips to involuntarily stutter, brushing your pussy against him. You let out a litany of curses—you are so sensitive, just that touch is sending you into overdrive.
Rubbing your cheek against his, you finally let yourself slowly sink down on Bradley’s cock. Just before you sink down completely, your lips find his again. You kiss him hungrily, moaning into his mouth as your hips connect. Bradley’s hand travels up your spine, wrapping around the nape of your neck, keeping you in place.
Starting slowly, you roll your hips, screwing your eyes shut at the overwhelming sensations, Bradley fills you up completely, and at this angle your clit rubs against him with almost every breath.
Bradley’s other hand is rubbing over your ass, helping to guide your pace, as his head falls backwards, resting against the wall. It gives you access to more of his neck, which you gladly explore with your lips, kissing and nipping.
Steadying yourself by leaning your palms against the wall, you pick up the pace. There is a wildfire in you, and it’s only growing—every motion fans the flames higher.
“I need—I need more.” You grind out. “Please, babe-Bradley, I need it all.” You end in whine.
You lower one leg, putting the tips of your toes on the floor for better leverage. The new angle makes you cry out, as Bradley’s head bangs against the wall as he curses.
His hand leaves your neck, his calloused fingers running over your collarbone, pinching your nipple, before grabbing the fabric of your top that has now bunched up around your waist and pulling you closer. His other hand leaves your ass for a second before coming down back on it with a resounding smack. You cry out in ecstasy.
Bradley wants to say something to tease you, but he can’t get the words out of his mouth as you start riding so hard he’s practically seeing starts. His head and shoulder keep colliding with the wall, but he can’t find the presence of mind to care. He needs all his focus and strength just to keep you and himself upright, and not to cum before you do from the absolute onslaught you’ve suddenly unleashed on him.
He spanks you again, delights in the vision before him as you throw your head back, his name on your lips.
The metal beam of the stepladder is digging into your knee uncomfortably, but it’s no more than an afterthought right now.
Chest heaving, your movements are growing more frantic. Bradley grasps your hip, fingers digging into your flesh, guiding your movement in the unrelenting pace you’ve set. He can feel how you are starting to tighten around him, how your eyes are slowly glossing over and the blush from your cheeks is slowly making it’s way down. He has you close to the edge now, and he knows that when you go, he will go right with you.
Bradley pulls you closer by the fabric of your top, so your clit is rubbing against him harder, bucking his hips to match each movement. You are crying out incoherently now.
Desperately, you wrap an arm around his neck, kissing him deeply, like you want to disappear in him. Your hips are stuttering against his now in hurried, small movements, maximizing the friction.
All the muscles in your body a growing taut, like an elastic being stretched.
“I love you.” You breathe out against Bradley’s lips, unable to form another thought as every bit of your energy is focused on keeping your body moving.
“You’re the love of my life.” Bradley barely finishes his sentence as you scream out, and your orgasm hits you with blinding force. As every muscle in your body coils, your walls clamp down on Bradley’s cock in a vice-like grip. He cries out, thrusting up with such force it has your head lolling backwards.
Completely spent, Bradley collapses back against the wall with you against him. He winces as his right shoulder definitely has a tender sport from where it met the wall before—it will probably a bruise by tomorrow.
The room is filled with your heavy breathing as the record player is skipping, having reached the end of the vinyl. He can hear birds chirping outside. Bradley is content to sit like this for a little bit, enjoying your body against his.
You finally stir against him, lifting your head from his shoulder, trailing kisses along his hairline.
“Was I helpful?” Bradley asks you, unable to hide his cocky grin.
“What?” You seem genuinely confused for a moment, eyes wide. “Oh, oh…” You burst into giggles as it dawns on you.
“Yes, although I could really use another hand later.”
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“Come on, come on.” You almost beg under your breath. At least you don’t live in your old second-floor apartment in Arlington anymore, where the lack of an elevator meant you would have to drag your exhausted body and groceries up the stairs. The only stairs you need to climb in your new house in Fredericksburg are the ones to the master bedroom, where you can collapse in peace. Gracelessly, you stumble into the hallway as the door finally swings open. Almost there.
Dropping your keys in the bowl by the coat hanger, you blindly kick off your shoes, before haphazardly stuffing the perishables into the fridge. It will have to do.
You cannot remember the last time you were so incredibly tired. Not when you were writing your PhD thesis into the early hours, hell, any all-nighter you’ve ever pulled, or when you painted the whole house and coordinated the move when Bradley was deployed. Maybe it’s the last few months finally catching up with you. It’s been a lot, and you haven’t had the chance to stop a bit, and actually enjoy life as newlyweds. You are barely done with the house—most rooms still have some unpacked boxes, and not everything has a place yet. A honeymoon would be somewhere on the horizon ideally, but you haven’t even picked a destination yet, let alone a time.
You hope you’re not coming down with something. Like the flu. Regardless of the fact that it’s May – it’s probably from the climate control in the archives. It leaves the air so dry and arid, the chill settles on your throat and lungs easily.
You have an hour before Bradley gets home. You have both been busy, and commuting is a bitch (when Bradley has early formation he still stays on base), but tonight is for you, finally spending time together without any external pressure. Just a homemade dinner, a movie and each other.
One hour. That’s plenty of time for a nap. Just a nap. You’ll be ok after a nap.
Not even bothering to get changed, you collapse face-first on the bed. God, it’s so soft and nice, exactly what you need. With your last bit of energy, you set a thirty-minute alarm.
Just a nap.
When Bradley opens the front door, he immediately notices how quiet the house is. Too quiet. Usually, you’d have music playing as you’re busy in the kitchen, calling out to him as he walks in the door. Your shoes are here, in the middle of the hallway, like they just dropped off your feet.
That’s not like you.
“Sweetheart?” His voice echoes through the house. No reply.
Carefully, he walks into the kitchen, looking around for you. The grocery bag sits half-unpacked on the counter, like a still-life of non-perishables, but no sign of you. Bradley frowns.
Again, that’s not like you.
You leave a quite literal paper trail behind in the form of books throughout the house, but you don’t really make a habit of just randomly throwing things down. Are you upset? Is something wrong? You didn’t mention anything. The last he heard from you was when you were shopping, asking if he needed something.
Carefully, Bradley walks up the stairs. He strains his ears—but he can’t hear the shower running, or any indication that you are up there. What the fuck? You must be home. His heart is starting to beat louder. Did something happen? Did you hurt yourself?
He quickens his pace, almost running up the final steps, barreling into the bedroom first. “Darce? Sweetheart?”
You are so dead to the world, you don’t even stir at the sound of his voice. Bradley stills, finally taking a deep breath. It’s kind of cute how you are sprawled across the bed with your socked feet dangling off the side. Your hair has come loose from the braid, strands framing your sleeping face. Gingerly, he approaches you.
“Darlin’?” Voice soft, his hand dips under the hem of your blouse, fingers lightly running over your spine to rouse you. You groan in response without waking. Carefully, Bradley climbs into bed next to you, kissing you along your hairline, his fingers dancing in delicate patterns over the skin of your back.
Instinctively you cuddle up to him, your nose nuzzling his neck, arm draped loosely over his waist. Somewhere far away, your consciousness is piecing together Bradley is there with you, pulling you out of your slumber step by step—you can feel his skin on yours, the warmth radiating off his body. His breath is caressing the shell of your ear as he talks to you in velvety tones of which you can’t make out the words, but it’s like being wrapped in a warm blanket. You can smell his cologne, he is so close.
Lids heavy, eyes stinging, you finally stir. Your brain is managing to finally fire back up again.
Fuck.
You overslept.
You try to sit up, rubbing the sleep from your eyes, anxiety suddenly rising. “Shit, babe, I’m sorry. I meant to get up before you got here. I need to start dinner -” You croak, sleepily.
This was supposed to be your evening together, and you fell asleep before it even started. Great going, you fucking dork. You start to move, struggling to untangle yourself from the remnants of your deep sleep and Bradley’s arms.
But Bradley pulls you back wordlessly, tucking your head under his chin. He just shushes you, as he starts running his hands over your back again. Your palms rest on his chest, feeling his steady heartbeat.
“Don’t worry about that, darlin’,” His voice is warm. “I want to make sure you are okay first.”
You nod. “I’m good. I just suddenly felt so tired.”
“Do you think you might be coming down with something?”
“Maybe.” You cuddle up closer to him. Bradley feels so good, and his body fits against yours like a glove. The steady rise and fall of his chest against your palms as he breathes grounds you from your sudden surge of anxiety. “But I feel better now I’ve slept a bit.”
“You sure?” Bradley’s voice is neutral, not wanting to pressure you, but he knows you are quick to say you’re okay. You sat awake the whole night before your PhD defense, mumbling through your presentation, but swore up and down you were fine in the morning as you kicked back countless coffees with shaking hands.
You ended up doing great at the defense. Although, Bradley doesn’t think he’s ever witnessed tension leave someone so physically as when you were in the waiting room while the commission debated your defense. You kept repeating you were fine, just a bit tense (although being completely wired from caffeine didn’t help). When the door opened, you sat rooted in place, wide-eyed, barely even breathing, fingers digging into your cheeks. A simple nod, the confirmation: “Doctor Williams.”, had you physically deflating so much, Bradley thought for a second you would collapse out of your chair from joy (and exhaustion).
After that, your brilliant smile skillfully masked every bit of suffering you had gone through in the past years, culminating in what were the final 24 hours from hell for your nerves. He noticed how you were unsteady on your feet after your third drink, the hors d’ouvres not being enough to stave off the alcohol on your otherwise empty stomach. But you would never admit you were feeling anything less than perfect, ecstatic even—but really just fine. But Bradley likes to think he had you figured out by then. So the moment it was appropriate, like a good fiancé should, he bundled you out of the stuffy academic after-party and to a large order of fries and a peanut butter milkshake.
“Yeah.” You confirm. “Let’s do something easy for dinner, though?”
You dread how late it already probably is, and having to start dinner will eat into your time with Bradley tonight.
“How about I just make us some grilled cheese?” He offers, picking up on your anxious thoughts. “You go freshen up, chill out and pick a movie for us.”
“I’m sorry for falling asleep and making you miss out on the homemade dinner I promised.” You mumble guilty.
“I’m not missing out on anything.” Bradley counters immediately. “I don’t care about dinner, I care about spending time with my wife.”
You chuckle as you look up at his handsome, grinning face.
“And I make a mean grilled cheese, wouldn’t you agree?”
“The best.” You smile back.
Throughout the evening, it’s like the fog of tiredness just won’t lift. You struggle to keep your eyes open as you watch a movie together, the grilled cheese heavy on your stomach.
Bradley is peeling a tangerine, plucking the white threads off the flesh carefully before feeding you the slices. He is pretty convinced you are getting sick, so extra vitamins can only help.
You think a good night’s sleep, cuddled up to your toasty warm husband, is all you need to feel better. But you are not going to complain about Bradley taking care of you, especially when he’s so good at it.
As you predicted, you feel better in the morning. Giggling, you pull Bradley into the shower with you. He fussed over you last night, so it’s only fair you show him exactly how much you appreciate it. Any protest from him dies away the moment you sink down to your knees, his rapidly hardening cock sliding into your wet, warm mouth.
After that, you are both hurrying out of the house, travel mug of coffee in your hand. You blow Bradley a kiss as you slide into your little compact car (which Bradley still thinks you should upgrade to something he considers safer), as he gets into his Bronco with a wink. He has a safety brief this afternoon, which always runs late, so that means he’ll be home late. But he will be home, and you will be awake for it, even if it means drinking the Pentagon’s entire supply of coffee.
As you pull away, heading north towards D.C., you reach for your travel mug. Bradley made coffee this morning as you tried your best to dry your absolutely sodden hair. As you hold it up, and gently blow through the opening, you realize it smells… off.
It smells like coffee. Without a doubt. But it doesn’t smell good. Can coffee go off? Surely, but that pack you have a home is fresh. Bradley makes good coffee, you doubt he fucked something up. But why does it smell so nasty?
Maybe you’re just being weird this morning. Carefully, you take a sip. As the hot liquid hits your tongue, you realize without a doubt: you are going to throw up.
You force yourself to swallow, accepting how uncomfortably your stomach churns. Fuck. Taking the nearest exit to a gas station, you pull into a parking spot and immediately throw open your door, unclicking your seatbelt.
You breathe heavily as you limply hang from your driver’s side door, but nothing comes out. Sitting back up, the smell of coffee is suddenly overpowering. You need to get it out of here.
You dump the contents of your travel mug in the grass next to your parked car, the soft breeze mercifully carrying the heavy smell away. Taking a second you catch your breath, you dig out a pack of chewing gum for your bag. The minty taste erases the acrid taste of coffee from your mouth, and settles your squirming stomach.
Right. So you’ll just have water today.
You fire off a text to Bradley. “Bb, is there something wrong with the coffee?”
You know he won’t reply for a while, but there’s no hurry. For today, you’ve gone off coffee anyway.
Bradley confirms his coffee was fine, and that your travel mug was freshly washed that morning. You try not to dwell on it, deciding it was probably a fluke. Maybe it’s a stomach bug? At work, the smell of coffee doesn’t actually bother you, but you still decide not to have any. Just in case. You used to live really close, and could be home in no time, but now you have to drive for almost an hour to get home. Not something you’d like to do when nauseous.
When you get home, you can’t stop yourself from inspecting the bag of coffee like some sort of maniac. It doesn’t smell off, it’s not past it’s best by date, it looks completely normal. Your mug doesn’t smell weird, either.
What the actual fuck?
In the next few days, you feel fine. You’re still tired, but you tell yourself it’s not more or less than usual. Your days at work are long, your weekends are busy finishing up things about the house, shopping, chores. You’re bound to feel tired, right?
Bradley eyes you wearily as you hurriedly clamp a hand over your mouth when you pass a fish restaurant on your evening out that Friday, the smell hits you so strongly you think you might pass out. He isn’t bothered by you not being able to stay awake through a movie anymore, but it’s the sudden, quite frankly bizarre reactions to food that concern him.
First it was coffee, then potato salad, sweet and sour noodles, even peanut butter—you suddenly turn white as a sheet, practically dry heaving from just the smell, barely able to even look at the food.
You keep insisting you’re fine, that it will pass, you never liked potato salad to begin with, it just needs a few days, and then you smile that brilliant smile of yours. Nothing to worry about. But Bradley worries.
On Sunday night, he goes to a Korean barbecue place with fellow aviators—you excuse yourself from the evening, feeling too tired. Bradley tucks you into bed with your laptop, promising not to be late and let him know if he can pick you up anything.
“I’m fine, really.” You say between kisses. “I just really need to catch up on sleep.”
“I worry about you, darlin’.” Bradley looks at you pensively.
“I know.” You smile up at him. “If I’m not better by next week, I’ll go to a doctor.”
“Promise?” His lips hover over yours.
“Promise.” You press a final kiss on his lips.
You fall asleep before the first episode of the show you started watching (have been sleeping through?) is over. You don’t hear Bradley come home. You barely stir when the mattress dips under his weight as he leans over you. It’s only when his face is close to yours, pressing a kiss on your temple with a quiet “I’m home”, your senses are absolutely assaulted by the pungent stench of alcohol and barbecue coming off him.
You shoot up so quickly you nearly fall off the bed, not sparing a second look for a completely bewildered Bradley, still kneeling on the bed, as you sprint towards the bathroom, barely making it in time to the toilet, before the contents of your stomach splash against the porcelain.
Bradley has witnessed women having some strong reactions to him. Hell, you’ve had absolutely buckwild reactions to him, ranging from trying to punch him to almost fucking him through the wall of your new house. But never—absolutely never—has anyone reacted to him by violently throwing up.
He’s almost too stunned to move until he hears your cries echo from the bathroom. Bradley hurries to the bathroom but stops dead in his tracks in the doorway. You are crouched down, hunched over at the toilet bowl, hand clamped over your eyes as sobs wrack your body.
“Darlin’...” He trails off, worried. You cough loudly, uncovering your eyes and pressing the back of your hand against your mouth. Finally, you look at him, your face tear-stained and eyes bloodshot.
“Bradley… I feel so sick.” Your voice is raw, barely above a whisper. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”
He starts to walk to you, reaching out to you, but you motion him back, waving your hand urgently.
“Please… please.”
Bradley stops again, completely unsure of what to do now. He wants to comfort you and help you, but you don’t want him close.
“You smell like barbecue.” You utter weakly, feeling completely defeated and embarrassed to hell. What kind of fucking reaction is that? To Bradley, no less. Yes, food has been setting you off, but it hasn’t made you throw up, never mind so suddenly and violently. You would have rather vomited in the middle of the street at this point than in reaction to your own husband.
Flushing the toilet, rest your eyes against the heels of your hands, letting yourself fall back on your ass. You hear rustling from Bradley moving around, his footsteps going back and forth. Curiosity wins out over your embarrassment as you peek over your fingers to see what he is doing.
While you are wallowing in self-pity and embarrassment on the bathroom floor, Bradley started to strip off his clothes—he’s just now pulling his shirt over his head, throwing it out the bathroom door into the laundry room across the hall.
The moment you mentioned the smell, Bradley felt like slapping himself. He was so preoccupied with checking up on you, he didn’t think of taking a shower first, not realizing the barbecue smell would wake you up. Like that no less. He wants to help you, hold you, and it’s driving him crazy that you’re sitting there on the floor, and he can’t come near you.
Shrugging off his jeans and sending them sailing out the door, he hops on one leg to take off his socks. Bradley finally notices you looking at him, knees pulled up, head leaning on your hand. He stops. Your face still looks pale and drawn, but he thinks there’s the smallest of smiles on your face.
“Don’t stop on my account.” You joke, voice still raw. “I’m just enjoying the view.”
Bradley chuckles. Of course, you bounce back quickly. He loves that about you. And he never doubted your resilience—you power through most things with a smile on your face—but that same resilience comes with a special brand of pigheadedness.
He turns on the shower to warm it up.
“You coming to supervise?” He jokes back as he slips off his underwear, balls it up, and throws it outside before closing the bathroom door and turning on the fan. He hears you giggle. Good. A much better reaction to him than crying and throwing up.
Bradley makes sure to lather up liberally and scrub his skin and hair to get rid of every bit of food smell that still lingers on him. Rinsing off, he turns back to you, wiping the fog off the glass. You are brushing your teeth, back to the sink, eyes roaming over him appreciatively.
“Will there be an inspection, Dr. Bradshaw?” He asks, mischievous grin on his face as he sticks his head out of the shower. He cannot get enough of calling you that—he liked you just as much as Miss Williams, or Dr. Williams, and now as Dr. Bradshaw-Williams. But secretly, he likes Dr. Bradshaw best.
“Brush your teeth, lieutenant commander, and I might consider it.” You reply, mouth full of toothpaste.
Turning off the shower, Bradley dries off before wrapping the towel around his waist. You are rinsing your mouth as he steps out.
Gingerly he walks up to you and runs his fingers over your back lightly. When you turn to him, he finally sees you up close, it’s clear how tired you still must be. As soon as the adrenaline from feeling intensely sick died down, exhaustion settled back onto you like a heavy blanket. You look up at him with bleary eyes, stifling a yawn.
“Go lie down darlin’.” He tells you warmly. “I’ll be with you soon.”
“Better be ready for inspection.” You yawn, a smile tugging at your lips. Bradley doesn’t reply but just taps your butt playfully. Entire body heavy, you make your way back to the bedroom. You collapse back onto your side of the bed, not even pulling the covers back over yourself.
Already dozing and your stomach finally settled, you feel how Bradley climbs into bed with you and pulls the covers over your body. He smells so good now, you happily wrap yourself around him. Your lips immediately go to Bradley's—the minty toothpaste that still lingers is making you feel even better.
Bradley cradles your face in his hands.
“Promise me you’re seeing a doctor tomorrow.” He implores you, voice soft, but urgent.
“I promise.” You nod.
“No more ‘I’m fine’—call in sick if you have to.” Bradley sounds so serious, you feel ashamed you’ve been putting it off for the whole week. This isn’t going to go away on its own, and you’ve been making him worry. That was really the last thing you wanted, which was exactly why you kind of kept brushing it off.
“I’m sorry.” You sigh, dejectedly, as you cast your eyes away from his intense gaze.
“You don’t have to apologize, sweetheart.” He tells you gently, brushing his nose against yours. You look back up at him again—his eyes are so soft and warm, it’s melting your insides. When Bradley looks at you like that, with so much love, he makes you feel like the center of the universe.
“I just want you to be okay.” He concludes with a kiss.
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note | Yes, it's truly the last Bradley and Darcy story. But to celebrate 300 followers, I decided to make it a two-parter ✨ Read part 2 here.
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