#Fuck Windows 10

[theelmoarchive]

Tumblr pls let my post im on my knees begging please im just a little boy

My style's evolving a little bit, since I found a total of ONE new brush that I liked, so natually this happened. Narrinder brush on procreate will always be my beloved tho

[yamsgarden]

holy shit time flies...

[anexperimentallife]

Windows is such a piece of shit, and Microsoft is such a shitty company. Second time in the past year or so an update has fucked my machine.

The only reason I use Windows at all instead of sticking strictly to Linux is gaming, but gaming HAS gotten a lot better on Linux, so this may be my sign to just dump Microsucks once and for all.

For now, this is all it will do. That little circle has been going round and round for like a half hour now.

[nando161mando]

[world-of-lang]

2 Tone Tuesday #6

hi~ today i'm bringing you Mirror In The Bathroom by The Beat (or The English Beat)

this is another one of the big bands that released 2Tone music during those few 2Tone years. their sound mixes 2tone with a "beat" of New Wave and Reggae Rock.

ok, now to what i wanted to talk about. you see that iconic ska Rude Girl silhouette? it's based on a photography of trans ska singer Brigitte Bond dancing with Jamaican musician Prince Buster:

and guess what. there's a 30 minute documentary on youtube about her.

from the video description:

The Beat Girl has been representative of ska, ska subculture, and women in ska since 1979, but little has been known about the real woman who inspired the icon....until now. This never-before-told story will take you back in time to 1964 and introduce you to the world of movers and shakers, musicians and mods, ska and strip clubs...and The Fabulous Brigitte Bond. Brigitte Bond / Brigitte Saint John / Brigitte St. John was the earliest known transgender ska musician and was also the woman who inspired the iconic "Beat Girl" logo for 2-Tone band The Beat.

ok let's do another song by them more in line with the 2Tone sound but without a music video

🏳️‍⚧️🏁

[snzluv3r]

at the point in allergy season where i used a sick day today because i can’t stop sneezing and i don’t feel like having to hide it from the general public or my coworkers…do i feel ridiculous taking a sick day for hayfever? yes. is it the biggest relief not having to hold back or stifle at all and just sneeze as much as i want (and NEED) for the day? also yes.

[rpfisfine]

im literally 22 and like in the prime of my youth my mind should be flexible and easily adaptable to new things and i consider myself kind of moderately tech-savvy and yet it will never stop amazing me that stuff like electric cars exist even though they've been around for ages by now i see an electric car when im outside and im like what the fuck what is this are we living in the year 2751 how have we learned to do that

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

"youre so special 😔 you're so fucking special 😖 but I'm a cREEP! 😫 I'm a wEeEiiRrDdOoO‼️✋🏻🥶"

- Albus Severus singing creep by radiohead, looking emo-ly out the window like he's in a music video

[sarah-sandwich]

The computer says the printer is printing. The printer says the printer is printing. And yet the printer is NOT PRINTING

I'm going to eat the printer.

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.

I don't have external meltdowns.

I could. I don't let it happen.

I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.

So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.

She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.

Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].

It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.

They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.

I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.

I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.

I couldn't understand what made her like this.

But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.

If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.

And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*

And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?

My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.

Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???

And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.

I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*

She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.

I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.

So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.

But I told her hundreds of times.

I probably should have just screamed at her.

[front-facing-pokemon]

[orphetoon]

sometimes in my online classes people share their screens and they have windows 11 and it makes me gag. how do they live like this

[irrelevantassassin]

Magma W. I. P

I was casually drawing before deciding to take a break because I already spent all morning lining this. When I was coming back to it, my Windows 10 Surface decided to refuse to let me touch the screen and use my pen no matter what I looked up and tried sooo- this might just stay unfinished. I hate Windows.

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Estaba dibujando antes de decidir tomar un break porq estuve la mañana entera lineando esto. Cuando fui a regresar para continuar, my tableta Windows 10 Surface decidio no dejarme tocarlo o usar mi lapiz despues de tanto buscar aver como arregrarlo yyyyy pues- alomejor esto se qda sin terminar. Odious Windows.

[nando161mando]

[elviragrey]

I only ever post about Strahd as a DM… maybe I’ll ramble about my own pcs someday… (years and years ago my party got their happy ending and my warlock romanced the party sorcerer and Ezmerelda in the most rancid polycule known to man)

[auguryofjellyfish]

hey! I see you've been watching all the character playlists TA's been posting. what, to you, has been the standout moment of each playlist thus far?

hi hi, i love these character playlists! it's been really nice to tune into them everyday. i'm not sure i have a standout moment for all of them, and i definitely have more to say about a few of them more than others, but, let's see...

• isono's playlist- this one's standout song for me is definitely 'Welcome To the Internet (Bo Burnham)', it's so off-colour compared to the rest of the more preppy tracks, and it's just a very fun pick for isono.

• harada's playlist- 'Angel Down (Lady Gaga)' this one was just...oww. really tugged on my heartstrings.

• chiba's playlist- this one is full of bangers, so many of them being songs from former child stars is a cool detail. but like... 'The Climb (Miley Cyrus)'... dude.

there's always gonna be another mountain i'm always gonna wanna make it move always gonna be an uphill battle sometimes i'm gonna have to lose ain't about how fast I get there ain't about what's waiting on the other side it's the climb…

i think i have to climb to the top of the hill to see what's on the other side.

like, holy shit...shakes fist...UNNGH!! WHAT THE HELL! that was some generational pick fr, i was astonished. INCREDIBLY fitting.

• kamimura's playlist- if not for the very last pick, it would've definitely been 'Body (Mother Mother)' but as it is...'No Surprises (Radiohead)'. i could just choose both of them as a standout moment, but jfc... no surprises literally bowled me over. that quiet resignation... it's just... such a heartbreaking song to end on. i always thought that its simple, sweet melody sounded like a lullaby. going gently into the stillness.

i'll take a quiet life, a handshake of carbon monoxide… and no alarms and no surprises no alarms and no surprises no alarms and no surprises, please...

i'd like to think... that just before he died, he returned to that beautiful house from his memories, even just for a second. and that brought him some peace before the end.

• hayashi's playlist- 'Bounty Hunter (Derivakat)', cause it was a crazy good opening. the song just SCREAMS hayashi mai, and the singer's voice reminded me so much of hers! stone cold badass vibes 💯

• wada's playlist-

and i know no one will save me i'm just asking for a kiss give me one good movie kiss and i'll be alright…

nobody, nobody, nobody…

wada playlist...oooh wada playlist. i love this one. it's chock-full of amazing tracks, but my fave is 'Nobody (Mitski)', easily. mostly because i've never cried at this song before and i was very surprised when i found myself tearing up at it here...but also because it's such a wonderful pick for him. it's very fitting, and it meshes very well with how i feel he dealt with the lack of love in his life pre-kg, not to mention the absolute crushing loneliness and unwantedness. he had his streamers, he had the light, fluffy worlds of all the romance manga he could immerse himself in. that's all...because he couldn't even dream of having something more. something real. still...these things weren't something that could truly ever fill the void, not really, but they were enough to get by. comforting illusions to make things seem alright. just like a good movie kiss.

also i NEEED to mention 'Talking to the Moon (Bruno Mars)' too cause, god, what a terrific pick!!

talking to the mooon…. tryna get to youuu…. in hopes you're on the other side, talking to me too or am I a fool, who sits alone… talking to the moon…

it's like you're so close, close enough to hear me, and i just... i can't reach...

🥹🥹🥹 oh, wada...god. so so so beautiful. it's making me tear up even now. such a lovely and heartfelt representation of wada's sentimentality.

i loved loved LOOOOVED this playlist, i enjoyed every single track, the overall vibe is fantastic and it definitely did him justice. it was beautiful. all in all, it's my most favourite so far, bar none.

•sasaki's playlist- 'One Step Closer (Linkin Park)' EVERYTHING YOU SAY TO ME / TAKES ME ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE / AND I'M ABOUT TO BREAK 🗣️🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥

• ojima's playlist-

no matter where you go... i will find you. if it takes, a long, long time...

'I Will Find You (Clannad)'. very touching ending... shining with quiet certainty and determination. it was beautiful to see that from him in his exit interview. seki claimed that ojima hadn't really lost anyone close to him in the kg, and i can see where he was coming from, but things aren't as simple for ojima "call everyone by their first name" takeshi. he might not be emotionally open with most of the others, but he's always valued the people around him a lot. i hope he found them. every one of his friends.

ojima's playlist has to be my 2nd favourite too, the vibes are impeccable in this one.

• okazaki's playlist- 'I'm Glad You're Evil Too (Rachie)' i expected and loved the cuntiness of the songs before this one, but this? it was just very sweet. made me imagine okazaki and watari twirling happily in a flowery meadow, giggling about evil!

we still have 6 more playlists to go, but that's it for now! very much looking forward to the rest of them 💖