#Help Luai

[mariluphoto]

Sign the petition and share, please!!! This baby boy, Luai 3yrs old, needs our help!!

[smitten-miqitten]

Picked ESO back up and while having my Vestige run some errands for a certain madgod, I got to thinking about my dear Hero of Kvatch.

ESO is set waaaaaay before Oblivion but I can’t help but to think it’d be fun if Everanis were Luais’s relative even so. Maybe something of the Vestige’s odd composition was retained through generations, making this HoK just ever so slightly more likely to be successful than prior attempts to stop the Greymarch.

Everanis looked even more like Luais before getting her soul yoinked, but the ordeal turned her red eyes and hair bright white.

[socionicsdatabase]

Hi! I'd be so thankful if you'd help me type myself.

I have had so many tests which results are always EII or LII, some of them included relative results, as it determines the percentage of my answers matching each type, and so the result is most of the time in this order: 1)EII 2)LII 3)ILI/IEI 4)ILE 5)IEI and the rest are almost null.

upon reading a little about the information elements I can confirm that both my Ne and Ni are strong and I'm pretty sure that Ne is the valued one, on the other hand both my Se and Si are very weak I don't know which one is the valued one though (I only concluded that it's Si depending on the previous data), this helped me eliminate the ILI and IEI, but still I'm having trouble determining the positions of the judging elements, I tried reading about the quadras values and I can say that I relate to the Alpha quadra primarily, and to a lesser extent the Delta quadra, reading about each type didn't help either I can't say that I don't relate to any or relate to all, I simply don't know if I do relate or not, seeing how the more I read the more confused I get, I thought I should seek assistance before I embark upon reading about the DCNH and the lead/parent subtypes.

if considering my types in other systems would do any help, here's what I'm sure about:

Enneagram core: 6(w5)

Tritype: 694

Instinctual Variants : Sp/Sx (So blind spot)

BigFive: [R]LUAI

Attitudinal Psyche (not super sure but like 60%): 1V2 2E3 3L1 4F4 (VELF)

Thanks in advance!

Hi, thanks for the question.

The problem with personality tests is that it is hard to get an accurate result unless you are absolutely sure you are answering honestly and objectively. And that can be hard to do. However, it sounds like you have tried many different tests and are always scoring either as EII or LII.

So, I would say the easiest way to tell the difference between those two types is to ask yourself how easy it is for you to accurately assess feelings, both of your own and of others. The EII can easily see and understand the way another person feels. They are excellent at reading body language, and can also often accurately determine the feelings between two individuals and the type of relationship between them. They can even see the potential relationship between two people and what is likely to develop. They are not mind readers and are not always right - but they are much more in tune with these things than an LII. They are also highly aware of their own preferences, like/dislikes, and personal feelings towards everything. Their subjective experience of their feelings is what they use to make their judgments and it guides their decisions.

In contrast, the LII has trouble accurately picking up on another person's feelings. They are also often not "in tune" with their own feelings toward people and things, because it is not what they are using to make their judgments and decisions. Instead, the LII relies on their own system of logical reasoning. Of course, LIIs do have feelings like everyone else, but their detection and understanding of emotions is weak. With weak and valued Fe, LIIs need clear, openly expressed emotions in order to be confident about them. They are not able to easily pick up on subtle cues and emotional body language the way that EIIs can. The LII may also be more likely to accidentally offend someone because they are not as aware of how their words and actions may impact the emotions of others. EIIs are also more sensitive and more easily hurt than LIIs, who are less likely to care what people think of them.

Using romantic attraction as an example, the LII is the kind of person who could be around someone for years and have no idea that the person was romantically interested in them. In contrast, the EII would have picked up on that a long time ago, because the EII is highly in tune with subtle cues and body language that give away emotions. Also, with valued Fi, the EII can often understand feelings without words or open expression. In contrast, the LII, with weak ethical functions and valued Fe, needs and prefers open, clear emotional expression. Without that, they may have no idea how another person feels or can only determine it with great difficulty. This is why LIIs are compatible with high Fe users - types like ESEs and SEIs are emotionally expressive and thus easier for the LII to understand.

Also, the EII may be more protective and secretive of their feelings than the LII. The EII is aware of their feelings and emotional reactions, but may be hesitant to make them known. In contrast, the LII may be more willing to express their feelings when prompted, but is less likely to identify what they are to begin with.

As for Quadra values, Delta emphasizes the individual unique characteristics that make us different from each other, while Alpha emphasizes the ways that we are all the same and would prefer to eliminate those differences. Democratic (Alpha and Gamma) vs. Aristocratic (Delta and Beta). Asking yourself which of those resonates more with you could further help differentiate between EII and LII.

So, I hope this helps. Both of them can appear similar on the outside, both are very reserved and analytical, but the EII understands human behavior and emotions much more easily than the LII, who may struggle in that area.

Based on your results, I think the 4 fix in your tritype combined with your Big Five result of RLUAI makes EII seem more likely, as "limbic" types are more sensitive, more easily hurt and more aware of their emotions and emotional reactions. This corresponds more with EII than LII. Also, the way that you described the process of typing yourself sounds more like an Fi/Te approach - you are searching for information (Te) and determining whether or not you can personally relate to it/share the same values (Fi). LIIs would likely take a more organized, impersonal approach of learning the personality system in depth first and then deciding where they fit within that system.

[bongaboi]

Penrith: 2023 NRL Premiers

Panthers superstar Nathan Cleary has produced the finest performance of his career to lead the premiers to a remarkable 26-24 triumph over the Broncos in an epic decider at Accor Stadium.

Trailing by 16 points after an Ezra Mam hat-trick had put the Broncos on track for their first title in 17 years, Cleary took the game by the scruff of the neck to ensure the Panthers would emulate the Eels of 1981-82-83 with a three-peat.

Cleary put Moses Leota over for a try with 17 minutes to play and then came up with a 40-20 before scoring the final try in the 77th minute to leave the Broncos shellshocked and the Panthers faithful in raptures.

The champion No.7 then capped his night by becoming just the third player to win the Clive Churchill Medal for a second time, joining Brad Clyde and Billy Slater in that exclusive club.

In a frantic opening it was Broncos centre Herbie Farnworth coming up with an early error to hand the Panthers field position but a brilliant bomb defusal by Kotoni Staggs helped his team come away.

Broncos hooker Billy Walters then produced a mammoth 40-20 kick out of dummy half but the opportunity was lost when the ball was spun left and Jesse Arthars slipped and went into touch.

When Selwyn Cobbo dropped the ball deep in his own territory the Broncos again found themselves under the pump but their defence again stood strong until a poor play-the-ball by Staggs in the 16th minute invited the Panthers into the red zone and first points followed in bizarre fashion.

A short dropout by Adam Reynolds in the 18th minute was batted back by Farnworth and rather than his Broncos teammates collecting the ball it was Panthers hooker Mitch Kenny who pounced for his first try of the season. Stephen Crichton converted to give the premiers a 6-0 lead.

When Reece Walsh was caught in goal and Reynolds' dropout failed to go 10 metres, the Panthers extended their lead to 8-0 courtesy of a Cleary penalty goal.

Come the 39th minute and the Broncos struck back when Thomas Flegler powered over from close range having only returned to the field three minutes after passing a head injury assessment. Reynolds converted to make the half-time score 8-6 to the Panthers.

On the back of a couple of enormous charges from Flegler the Broncos made the ideal start to the second half when Mam split the Panthers open and raced 50 metres to score wide out. Reynolds converted to give the Broncos a 12-8 lead.

After Panthers five-eighth Jarome Luai left the field holding his shoulder in the 52nd minute the Broncos extended their lead through a second try for Mam, who put some fancy footwork on Isaah Yeo and Cleary and raced away to make it 18-8 to Kevin Walters' men.

Two minutes later Mam had a hat-trick after Walsh sliced through and found the No.6 in support as the Broncos turned the game on its head with a stunning burst.

Trailing by 16 points the Panthers hit back when Cleary found a hole and set up Leota for a try in the 63rd minute before the champion No.7 came up with a 40-20 to set up another opportunity but a superb last-ditch tackle by Kobe Hetherington on Leota kept Brisbane's line intact.

A mistake by Pat Carrigan then opened the door for the Panthers again and Crichton made it four tries in four consecutive grand finals and the premiers were back in business, trailing 24-20.

When Reynolds put a dropout out on the full in the 72nd minute the Panthers had a shot at levelling up but Cobbo plucked a Crichton kick out of the air and the danger was averted.

With the crowd of 81,947 at fever pitch the Panthers remarkably hit the front 26-24 when Cleary took the line on from 10 metres out and put the ball down for the four-pointer that capped the greatest night of his career.

The Panthers' comeback from 16 points down was the biggest in grand final history, eclipsing the Storm's effort to come from 14-0 down to win the 1999 decider against the Dragons.

Match Snapshot Broncos prop Thomas Flegler left the field in the 23rd minute for a HIA which he passed and returned to the field in the 36th minute. Panthers hooker Mitch Kenny's first-half try was just the second of his 83-game career. Broncos prop Payne Haas had six runs for 70 metres and made 22 tackles in a powerhouse opening stint of 36 minutes. Panthers prop James Fisher-Harris had 11 runs for 95 metres and broke six tackles in his opening 33-minute stint. He finished with 153 metres and eight tackle breaks. The Panthers completed 18 of 19 sets in the opening half compared to 13 of 21 by the Broncos. The champions finished the night with an incredible 37 of 38 sets completed at 97 per cent.

Panthers fullback Dylan Edwards was immense with 296 running metres and six tackle breaks. Broncos centre Kotoni Staggs played his 100th NRL game. Panthers skipper Isaah Yeo left the field in the 57th minute for a HIA and was followed by back-rower Scott Sorensen in the 59th minute. Both men passed and were able to return. Panthers halfback Nathan Cleary produced a 40-20 kick in the 65th minute. Panthers centre Stephen Crichton has scored a try in four consecutive grand finals. Broncos centre Herbie Farnworth ran for 179 metres and had eight tackle breaks. The Panthers have won their past nine finals matches.

Plays of the Game Having steadied the ship in the shadow of half-time with a try to Thomas Flegler, the Broncos hit the front in the 45th minute when Ezra Mam produced one of the great grand final tries. Mam took the ball on halfway and left Lindsay Smith and Tago in his wake with some dazzling footwork before out-pacing Dylan Edwards on the run to the line. The 20-year-old then added a second and a third in the space to complete a hat-trick in the space of 10 sizzling minutes.

What They Said "I've never felt so under the pump in a game as we were in that second half tonight. I thought the Broncos deserved to be in the lead but over the course of the last few years we have built enough belief that when we get our game on, good things will happen, but I was a little worried midway through the second half. One thing I never doubt is the boys' ability to keep fighting and there was just enough time to make them get nervous. I can't remember the last time we had to come back like that and win. The 2020 grand final comes to mind. We ran out of time that night but tonight was pretty amazing. I thought Nathan looked really clear and the lessons he has learned gave him the clarity to be able to go 'now it is backs to the wall, now I'm going to go after it'." - Panthers coach Ivan Cleary

"There's no emotion in the sheds, it's very quiet. It's hard to get your head around what actually happened. I feel for all the players in there that gave so much but it wasn't enough in the end. I think the whole stadium thought we had done enough [when Ezra scored his hat-trick]. Right now it's a pretty empty feeling. I watched the AFL grand final yesterday and thought that's not a nice way to lose [for the Lions] and here we are sitting here in the same situation. That second period there, for 20 minutes, that's the Broncos that I know and that's where we'll get to, we'll do that for 80, but we're not there yet. But when we do we'll win premierships and that's what it's about. We're not there yet but we're a lot closer now than we were 12 months ago." - Broncos coach Kevin Walters

What's Next A host of stars from both sides will front in the Pacific Championship Tests which kick off on October 14 with the Kangaroos facing Samoa in Townsville. For those not playing internationals there's a well-earned break before the 2024 pre-season launches in November.

[thelovebudllc]

Lindsay Lohan’s Baby Luai Shows off His Beautiful Curly Hair

Life is good for Lindsay Lohan’s baby Luai. The 21-month-old has been enjoying the beautiful spring weather with his parents, and we can’t help but admire his long, curly locks in new pictures with his dad Bader Shammas. The Freaky Friday alum posted a photo carousel of things she’s been up to, captioned, “Lately 🫶✈️🛝😊💕💙” Among the pictures of Lohan (and her gorgeous skin!) are pictures of her…

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THE SEA EAGLE

NO MONKEY BUSINESS!!!

It’s been a long time between drinks for the Sea Eagle, having somewhat lost interest and then venturing o/s for an extended holiday, but alas he is back and it is pleasing to see Manly well entrenched in the Top 8 and looking to mount a challenge in September/October.

Recap – Round 12 Manly 26 def FCWR Storm 20

Good to get a win against the filthy cheating wrestling rorters.

Recap – Round 13 Bye

Recap – Round 14 Penrith Panthers 32 def Manly 22

A respectable effort against the 3 times premiers at Penrith Park.

Recap – Round 15 Manly 30 def Dragons 14

The Dragons are hopeless so this was expected.

Recap – Round 16 Rabbits 14 def Manly 0

Why is this shit even played at origin time?

Recap – Round 17 Bye

Recap – Round 18 Manly 21 def Cowboys 20

A good win in Townsville against a bogey team also vying for the Top 8.

Recap – Round 19 Manly 44 def Knights 6

A solid win at home but the Knights are hopeless so this was expected.

Recap – Round 20 Manly 38 def Titans 8

Manly are starting to gain some momentum but again at home this win was expected and the Titans are hopeless.

Recap – Round 21 Roosters 34 def Manly 30

A respectable performance against a highly rated Roosters outfit.

Recap – Round 22 Bye

Round 23 Manly 46 def Canberra Raider 24

Coming off last weeks bye, Manly were a little rusty in the early part of this game and when milestone man Josh Papaliiii crossed after 10 minutes they were on the wrong side of the scoreboard against a Raiders team desperate for a win to keep their slim finals hopes alive.

Minutes later, Tommy Turbo hit back and scores were even. In the Sea Eagles absence it is understood Tommy has been building up nicely and long suffering supporters can only hope that he stays on the field for the remainder of the season.

Things weren’t looking good for Manly when ex-junior and now Raider Kaeo Weekes crossed, but any joy for the Raiders was short-lived.

In the blink of and eye tries to the other Tommy (Talau), Ethan Bullemor, Cherry Baby and Lehi Hopoate and effectively the game was gassed.  Lehi Hoapate looks a likely prospect. The son of former Manly great/madmen, John Hoppa, young Lehi is nimble, athletic, solid under the high ball, not likely to run off to a Mormon mission, has no known criminal record and does not seem to possess any propensity to insert one of his fingers into the rectum of an opposing player.

Manly eventually ran out convincing winners, which is pleasing against the Raiders in Canberra, but some late defensive lapses are concerning. If they are to compete with the competition heavy weights come finals times, these lapses will lead to an early exit from the September action and this is something that coach Seibold must address.

Next week, its back to Brookie to take on the Warriors. Notwithstanding the Warriors are shot in season 2024 they are unpredictable and dangerous and Manly will need to be switched on to ensure a win and sure up their first appearance in finals since 2021.

Haumole Olakau'atu – Sent off in Origin II

In what might be a world first, Manly powerhouse Haumole Olakau'atu unfairly dropped for NSW Origin III, managed to get himself a 2 week suspension for involving himself in an on field fight between Chery Baby and NSW 5/8 Jarome Luai, that then degenerated into blues winger Brian To’o being surrounded by up to 10 Queenslanders.

Olakau’atu later declared after the game he was simply “helping a brother out”. Although he later accepted in the press that it was a poor decision.

The Sea Eagle response to this entire debacle was the proverbial FFS.

Someone needs to tell young Haumole Olakau'atu, that when you are wearing a suit and not in the starting team, your cannot go on the field of play. Moreover, it is not acceptable to run onto the field of play and involve yourself in an on field brawl between those players fortunate enough to make the starting 17.

Whilst this is  rugby league 101 stuff, it would appear that the Manly think tank will now need to re-educate their players about some of these fundamentals of the game.

The Olympic Sized Embarrassment

Despite some amazing athletic feats (particularly those with Aussie Gold) these Olympics have been an embarrassment from go to woe. The opening ceremony was well documented debacle featuring a drag queen take on the last supper, thus managing to not only offend Christian groups worldwide, but set the tone for what was to come.

 Suggestions that former QLD Premier and NRL Chairman/Director of Embarrassment, Peter Beattie was involved in the coordination of this event cannot be confirmed, but the Sea Eagle wont rule it out.

In both the triathlon and distance swimming elite athletes were forced to swim in little more than a glorified sewer. The Seine at the best of times is a canal and to describe it as a river is a stretch. Despite the best efforts of organiser and an estimated $2.3 billion spend the canal still presented in a shitty brown colour and a number of athletes came down with illnesses immediately following their respective events.

The featherweight women’s gold medal boxing match was between Algerian Imane Khelif and China’s Lin Yu-ting, can only be described as an Olympic embarrassment.

Both competitors were disqualified at the 2023 World Championships for failing gender eligibility tests, but both are now remarkably competing at Paris 2024 because somehow, having been declared not to be women, the IOC felt that they were.

Imane Khelif won the gold, and there can be no doubt that the Olympics and boxing in general were the winners in this one.

The Sea Eagle would however like to acknowledge these guys. Not sure how they went in their respective events but they win Gold for their names if for nothing else.

And these guys did win Gold !!!!

We also had hockey player Tom Craig hung out to dry for allegedly trying to buy an unidentified white powder (suggested to be cocaine) off some dodgy bloke in the backstreets. As far as the Sea Eagle is concern this is a non-event and given that the hockey team had already been knocked out who cares.  Poor old Tom was publicly admonished, kicked out of the village and sent home in disgrace, but who could blame him, coke is relatively cheap in France and he was trying to take advantage of this price disparity in a time of a cost of living crisis.

And just when things couldn’t get any worse, we have this debacle. Aussie Breaker (why the fuck is this even an Olympic sport) known only as Raygun performs what can only be described an embarrassment to the sport (WTF) of Breaking, the Olympics, her country and her family. The Sea Eagle questions how this was even allowed and how did this person get to represent our country. Say what you like about Breaking as an Olympic sport, but surely this person is not the best that we could come up with.

Whilst Paris presents well on the TV the reality is very different. Having been there in the past month the Sea Eagle can report first hand what a shithole it is when you go beyond the usual tourist boundaries. A trip into the suburbs (more than about 5km away) reveals a ghetto like appearance, and definitely one to be avoided after dark. Other major cities in France are no better and arguably worse. Once great cites such as Lyon, Marseilles and Avignon are no longer recognisable having been overrun by undesirables and the Sea Eagle’s advice would be to avoid these places if possible.

NRL Supremo Peter V’Landys

Watching NRL Chairman Peter V’Landys take on NSW upper house lightweights (personal opinion) Mark Latham and Animal Justice Party member Emma Hurst, was a thing to behold this week.

Emma Hurst and Mark Latham, with every possible advantage via the protection of parliamentary privilege, attempted to win the battle against V’Landys, and failed dismally. It was something to behold.

Mr V’Landys is pure rugby league. From that viewpoint alone, the contest was over before it even began.

Mr V’Landys ate both of them up and spat them out (personal opinion).

In a statement to The Sydney Morning Herald, Mr V’landys called on Mark Latham to repeat the allegations he made against Mr V’Landys outside of parliament, insisting he had always remained at arm’s length during steward inquiries and there was zero evidence for his [Latham’s] baseless attacks.

“There is no doubt Mr Latham is running an agenda for some very wealthy breeders who don’t wish to be held to account for animal welfare,” V’landys said.

“…everything he is saying is completely and utterly rubbish.”

The NSW Premier Chris Minns also weighed in and said Latham’s accusations were “disgraceful.”

“Mark Latham is currently being sued for defamation for things he said outside of Parliament, so he’s taken his attacks inside Parliament, where he can’t be sued,” Mr Minns said. “It is the definition of the ‘Coward’s Castle’.”

Ouch.

Thankfully he (Mr V’Landys) is running  rugby league and not some latte sipping celebration of softness.

Return of Stench of the Bear

The North Sydney Bears have confirmed their return to NRL as Western Bears, playing out of Perth, according to news reports.

It has been more than 25 years since they last played in the competition, and an agreement to resurrect the team Phoenix like from the ashes, as the NRL’s 18th team, has apparently been reached.

The North Sydney Bears lost their NRL licence in 1999, but they  are expected to return as the competition’s 18th team in the coming years.

The team, which will be based out of Western Australia, is expected to join the NRL in 2027.

Their submission still needs to be finalised ahead of the August 14 deadline, but it looks almost certain to be ratified (apparently).

The Western Bears will wear the old North Sydney colours, according to 7NEWS Sydney’s Andrew McKinlay, and could play at least one token home game at their spiritual home in New South Wales (North Sydney Oval), which would likely be against arch rivals Manly.

Sea Eagle Comment:

Since 1947 when Manly joined the competition, Manly have won 8 premierships to the Bears none.

The Bears have brought the C back into choking and have turned losing the unlosable, and utter hopelessness, into an art form.

The Sea Egale cannot wait for their return, and the opportunity to critically examine and ridicule Manly’s most detested rival.

As is being suggested, the Western Bears will likely have one home game in Sydney against Manly at North Sydney Oval. This will be a must see event.

Of course nothing official has been heard from the NRL about this.

The Sea Eagle believes that the Bears have more than sufficient capability of ballsing up their so called certainty of readmission to the NRL, as the new 18th team.

Whether you think you can or you think you can’t, you’re right.

Henry Ford

THE SEA EAGLE

[themomsandthecity]

Lindsay Lohan References "Mean Girls" While Showing Off Her Postpartum Body

Lindsay Lohan is definitely a cool mom. On Aug. 2, the actor posted on Instagram to express gratitude for her body after welcoming her first child last month. "I am so proud of what this body was able to accomplish during these months of pregnancy and now, recovery," she captioned a mirror selfie. "Having a baby is the greatest joy in the world!" Lohan showed off her postpartum glow and "OOTD," posing in a blue ribbed tank top and gray Frida Mom postpartum underwear. "Because I'm not a regular mom, I'm a postpartum mom," she added as a nod to the iconic "Mean Girls" quote. Lohan and husband Bader Shammas confirmed the birth of their first baby, a son named Luai, on July 17. The two were reportedly "over the moon in love," with Lohan's mom saying she couldn't stop smiling at the thought of meeting her first grandchild. "It's incredible. We're just so excited," Dina Lohan told People back in March following the couple's pregnancy announcement. "It's just such a beautiful thing for my child! And I love babies. Who doesn't?" Leading up to Luai's birth, Lohan kept fans updated about her pregnancy, sharing sporadic photos of her growing belly on social media. The 37-year-old star also embraced her changing body by wearing a bump-baring, stomach-cutout dress for the June cover of Allure. Now, just a few weeks after giving birth, Lohan seems to have a whole new appreciation for her body and everything it's helped her do. Read on to see the new mom looking radiant in her "Mean Girls"-inspired postpartum update. Related: Keke Palmer Rejects "Unrealistic" Body Standards Following Postpartum Weight Loss View this post on Instagram A post shared by Lindsay Lohan (@lindsaylohan) https://www.popsugar.com/family/lindsay-lohan-postpartum-body-49242661?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=tumblr

[amirblogerov]

Syrian authorities prepare targeted program to help victims of fires

Syrian Minister of Social Affairs and Labor Luay al-Munajid announced the launch of a new program to help victims of fires in the province of Latakia, as well as in other regions affected by natural disasters. In the near future, the heads of municipalities will have to prepare lists of families left without housing, household plots and sources of income as a result of fires, as well as those who need expensive medical rehabilitation. After that, the victims will have to be distributed to temporary accommodation centers and provide them with targeted assistance. In addition, the Russian Center for the Reconciliation of Warring Parties will soon hold several humanitarian actions for the victims, providing them with food and essential goods.

[thehollowprince]

I'm thinking of that scene where Nico and Luai are staring at each other across the crowd while they song is playing and I keep laughing because it reminds me of a joke I heard years ago. The song, not the scene!

The joke was about a breakup and the song was used as "now your just somebody that I used to blow."

Which... it fits, but... inappropriate, especially given the circumstances.

[ayellowcurtain]

It’s been a while soooo… maybe hurt Marti with protective Gio and Nicco?

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It’s late at night, and Martino is getting used to getting little to no sleep every night. He’ll never admit sleeping alone is hard but sleeping alone is hard. And as time passes and he can’t force himself to sleep, his brain starts playing tricks on him, wondering if Nico is alone too, if he’s awake with someone else…

Martino grunts, adjusting his pillow so he can sort of sit up a little bit, pushing one foot out of the bed to cool down a little bit. He hates to overthink evertyhing but he can’t help it, so he’s trying to find a way to change that, distracting himself every time he starts thinking stupid scenarios.

He tries the boy's group text but nobody replies. Even Elia Santini is asleep and you’re awake…

He knows one more person that can have sleeping problems too. He stares at his bedroom ceiling, thinking about what to say that won’t tell Nico that he was missing him instantly, but that can start a normal conversation that won’t end being about their break up or Luai.

Before he can think of something, his phone vibrates in his hand, and Martino looks at it so fast he needs to hold it tighter to be able to see who’s sending him the messages.

He smiles to himself when he sees Nico’s name, and he clicks to open the first message, but there’s no text, just a link. And of course Marti hears it right away. He’ll never admit it but he can’t sleep well when he’s not home. Nico’s old grandma's place felt like home already and so everything else is just…not it.

He smiles to himself after hearing that soft, giggly, excited voice talk about proposing to his someone and Martino properly sits on the bed and plays it again. And again, and again, and again until he gets too excited, too awake, too in love to leave Nico on read.

To Ni: I can’t believe you

He types after reading the message under the radio part Nico sent him, explaining how Nico finally got the recording of that day and had to send it to Martino. The bubbles appear under his message instantly and he fixes his hair like Nico can see him.

To Martino: I always mean my words ;)

And what are you doing awake? Don’t you have class tomorrow?

To Ni: I do, you woke me with your texts!

He teases, the few seconds Nico takes to type already feeling like too long of a wait.

To Martino: Liar. An earthquake can happen under our bed and you won’t wake up

To Ni: An earthquake happening UNDER our bed, huh?

To Martino: No? 😉

Martino laughs, shaking his head. It’s such a Nico thing to use both old man fake faces and emojis depending on the inflection of what he means. And, to make it more stupid, Martino learned how ;) and the same emoji do not mean the same thing in the Niccolò’s language.

To Martino: You’re so stupid

<33

Martino stares at the screen, not sure what to reply. It just a stupid heart, not even a real emoji and that’s what makes it worst. Only Nico does these things that can make Martino feel so much with so little. He keeps trying to find the perfect response and he notices it’s been a few minutes, and he wonders if he missed the small window he had of replying and being answered right away. Maybe Nico fell asleep.

To Ni: What are you doing?

He decides to ask just to keep the conversation going. Even if Nico fell asleep, he’ll know tomorrow that Martino was still talking, trying to reach out in one way or another.

To Martino: What do you mean? Texting you

To Ni: You were taking too long to reply…

To Martino: What do you think I was doing?

To Ni: Nothing…

Martino stares at the too bright of a screen, Nico’s name, and his number so close, just one press away from actually hearing his soft voice again. It gets even softer and even more soothing late at night. Martino thinks it’s the best remedy he can have right now if sleeping together is not an option. So he calls, and waits impatiently until Nico picks up a second later, his words already slipping out of him.

“I hate this.”

“This what?” Nico asks, and Martino can hear the tiny smile in his voice, and how comfortable he probably is, already lying in bed too, probably watching some weird, old movie.

“Not talking, not being together. This. I’m sure we went from strangers to lovers so this in between is not good for me.”

“I hate it too. But there’s only so much I can do when you decide you want to be stubborn.”

Martino sighs, dropping his phone against his mattress, frustrated. He knows he’s being unreasonable but even then he wishes Nico would understand what he means or feels, anything! He grabs the phone back and puts it against his ear because even sharing silence with Nico feels better than not having any contact with him.

“I love you. And nothing compares to you. I told you a million times, Marti. I don’t know what else I can do.”

“Change your past, I guess,” Martino exhales his thoughts, tired of not moving anywhere with yet another conversation.

“Can’t do that but I would, probably, if it meant you would be back home already.”

“You’ll never understand how it feels because I never had someone before you. It was the once in a lifetime for me and I’m the second best for you.”

Marti throws himself back on his pillow, rolling his eyes at himself for still being so sensitive about Luai. They’ve talked, they’re friendly(ish) to each other. He knows he’ll never be completely fine with the thought of Nico having another love before he appeared but he needs to find a way to be more comfortable with a loss he couldn’t control.

“Marti.” Even if he’s (endearingly) annoyed at Martino, hearing Nico say his name will always give Martino goosebumps, will always make him smile like a ten year old girl. “I never asked him to marry me. I never took him to Milan, I never had sex with him-“ Marti stops listening midsentence to write and send Nico, too selfconscious and afraid to say it.

But you wish you had sex with him.

Nico goes quiet for a second, and Marti assumes from the little ruffling that he hears on the other side that Nico read the message and it’s now moving in bed too. “That’s not how I meant it, and you were the one asking.”

“I never spent days and nights and days and nights smiling because he talked to me at school.”

Nico goes quiet again and Martino closes his eyes, hoping he’s not about to say he needs to hang up and go to bed.

“I don’t wanna talk about Luai. I wanna talk about you. And me. I wanna talk about renting a place in Bracciano with you because I’m sure Gio is getting sick of us using his place like it’s ours. And then we’ll go to this new place and spend a weekend together. Doesn’t need to mean together together but just spending time around each other because I miss you. We could go on late afternoon walks because I know there’s no way you’ll wake up to see the sunrise with me…” Nico laughs softly and Martino smiles, feeling his whole body warm up with that scenario, and the comfort that Nico makes him feel just by existing and being the way he is.

“I would try to wake up that early. For you.”

They stay in silence for another minute, and Martino starts wanting to actually get up and go wherever Nico is right now.

“You’re fascinating to me, Marti.”

“Really?”

“Hmhm.” Nico replies in agreement, and Martino shakes his head. He’s so far from fascinating. Martino is pretty sure he’s the grumpiest, most boring guy there is. It’s really annoying to be inside his head forever. And he curses under his breath how fucked up the world is to have such an actual fascinating human as Nico struggle so much with himself.

“What are you doing tomorrow after class?” He asks quietly, biting his nails, trying to be brave for once. He wishes he could say how much he loves Nico but he’s also sure he doesn’t have to say it now.

“If I had anything planned, I’m about to cancel if you’re wanting to hang out.”

They both laugh, and Martino covers his eyes, deciding to just fucking go for it.

“We could go to Milan…”

“Milan?”

“Yes…”

“Okay. We can go to Milan.”

[revengeisalwaysanoption]

31, Nicotino

Martino should have known this would happen, when he bought Nico a smartphone for his birthday. That, eventually, he'd sign up on Instagram and use it to share his art. And that was just fine, but then they boys heard about it and Luchino got into his head that he had to be Nico's agent - since I Contrabbandieri di Porri were still waiting for their big hit - and that the views on his profile would benefit from showing some 'work in progress' videos.

Marti was quite certain that he'd say that his creative process was something too intimate to be shared, that part of uNreal99 's charm was their anonymity  and laugh Luca's proposal off. Except he didn't. He listened intently, nodding along and saying that he would consider it as long as his boyfriend was okay with it. A statament which, of course, hit a nerve and had Marti laugh bitterly.

"Now you make it sound like you need my permission to do things, Ni." He had snapped, in a biting tone.

"It's not that." Nico had clarified, reaching out to stroke his knuckles soothingly. "It just wouldn't feel right doing things that could upset you, if I can help it. You know that you always come first, right?"

"Awww, you guys." Luchino had cut in, trying to placate his friend as well. "Forget I've even asked if it's gonna 'cause a rift between you guys. Federica would kill me if she found out I was responsible for Martinico - Rames, Nicotino, however you want to call this beautiful union of yours - splitting up over this."

"Lu. Luchì. Calm down. You too, Nico. We're not even having an argument, here. Of course I'm okay with it. If anything, it's you two suggesting that I wouldn't as if I were some kind of jealous freak..."

It doesn't bother bother him at all, really. They are all just nicknames on a screen, with no chance on getting their dirty little hands on his boyfriend in real life. Plus, the raunchiest comments are things like 'your biggest fan since day one' , 'the true work of art is you' , 'this world is lucky to have so much beauty in it, and you certainly do your part' all coming from the same account that always ends their messages with a 'kisses from N.' The only one Nico never fails to reply to, with a rose and heart.

Well, that does bother him a little. Not too much, honestly. He's just curious about all this flirting since, well, Nico never fails to mention in the captions to his photos or in his videos that he's got a boyfriend. Why they keep on stalking his profile, then, liking every post? Why is Ni being so nice to them? Does he need to step in and tell this person to leave him alone?

"Who's this nadia.morriconi44 who liked your post on instagram? Who liked all of your posts, really, and keeps sending you kisses in the comments?" He asks one day, casually, over lunch.

"And what about it? Are you jealous?" Nico teases him a bit, not letting him answer to that as he goes on "I do admit she tends to go a bit overboard with the compliments, but that's how she is. She is married and, besides, I'm way too young for her. "

Okay, so that '44' in her nickname is her age?

"As if that had ever stopped people from being stalkers. Or creeps. She wouldn't be the first woman in her forties hitting on a man in his twenties... And why are you talking as if you know her personally..." He doesn't, does he?

What if she's someone he got to meet through his parents?

"Because I do, Marti. I can call her right now, and ask her to lay off the praise." Nico doesn't even need to dial the number, he has it saved on his phone. What the... "I'm not sure she'd read my reply on Instagram, or look at Directs. She barely even opens Whatsapp. She's worse than me, when it comes to technology... Nonna? Hi, it's me Nico. Yeah, yeah I'm good. I'm just calling because Marti has seen all your likes and comments on my posts and wants you to stop stalking me."

No-nonna? Nadia Morriconi is Nico's grandma? From which side, exactly? What's with all those pictures from art galleries and clubs from every corner of the world... Isn't she, like, nearly eighty or something? Why does it even matter? How is he supposed to face her, whenever they will finally have a chance to meet in person? And no, Nico can't put her on speaker. He needs to run away and hide, cursing his stupid possessiveness. She probably thinks her sweet Niccolò should kick him out and find someone better. Somebody who trusts him and doesn't see him as a serial cheater, always ready to have another man or woman on the side.

"Martino, dear. I'm sorry." Why is she the one apologizing. It doesn't make sense. He should be the one... "Nico is my only grandson and I'm so proud of him that I tend to step over the line sometimes, and make a little uncomfortable with my compliments. Besides, I didn't realize how it'd look from your side. No need to apologize, I get it. You're talking to someone who can't stand to hear 'Carlotta' because that's the name of his first girlfriend. Which, for the record, still flirts with him - as if he hasn't been married to ME for more than fifty years   - and he's just too naive and keeps saying she's just being polite. Sounds familiar, doesn't it?"

It sure does. Comforting, even.

"He still keeps in touch with Maddalena and Luai, can you believe? Sure, they are both going out with other people at the moment, but between you and me... And don't get me started on how people look at him, even though they know he's with him. There's this guy from Foggia, at his Uni, which Nico claims to be straight but..."  That gets him a well earned pinch on his thigh from Niccolò.

"Well, when you two are done gossiping about me let me know."  He pouts, pretending not to be amused by those two teaming up against him.

"Will do, Ni. Now, Nadia, where was I..."

[niccolofares]

Skam Italia really could’ve had Martino go to see Dr. Roberto Spera (the school psychologist) and ignore everything he said but instead they had him really take his words to heart and it’s what motivated him to lean on Gio and tell him of his struggles.

They could’ve left it at that but no, once the boy squad found out that Nico had BPD, an illness none of them really understood they decided to go talk to him and get advice from someone who actually knows how that MI presents. They had no clue that Marti had been to see him before but they knew he was qualified to speak on the subject and offer insight to Marti. 

Even in season 4, a season that’s not focused on Marti, the moment that the boys found out that he had broken up with Nico what do they do?? They take him Dr. Spera, Yes, the scene serves to tell us about Luai and Nico’s history and the fall out of what happened between them but there was other ways they could’ve shown this. I’m just so happy that they decided to show us multiple times that talking to a psychologist can be helpful.