#Hollywood Undead fan fiction

[allhailhu4l]

Incoming personal vent in 3... 2... 1...

So someone on Wattpad DM'd me saying:

"Why do you write about Charlie Scene and Johnny 3 Tears as a couple? They're both straight and they will never do that in real life?!"

*deep inhales* Yes. That's why it's called everyone say it with me: FAN. FICTION.

I am nearly certain that this band don't hook up with each other. Lesson of the day: if you don't like what I write by all means there's a back button or a red x to click on. Go find another story to read. Your negativity is not needed.

Don't drag me down Karen.

Btw if J3T and Charlie are straight... then what the fuck is this:

And this

Charlie and J3T...

The cutest pairing ever.

Change my mind.

[legallybrunettedotcom]

BUFFY READING LIST

As promised @possession1981 and I have compiled a list of Buffy the Vampire Slayer (and Angel) related academic text and books. I think this is a good starting point for both a long time fan and for someone just getting into the show, or just someone interested in vampire lore. I have included several books about the vampire lore and myth in general as well. Most of these are available online.

BOOKS

Fighting the Forces: What's at Stake in Buffy the Vampire Slayer; edited by Rhonda V. Wilcox & David Lavery

Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Philosophy - Fear and Trembling in Sunnydale by James B. South

Buffy Goes Dark: Essays on the Final Two Seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer on Television, edited by Lynne Y. Edwards, Elizabeth L. Rambo & James B. South

Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Myth, Metaphor and Morality by Mark Field

Televised Morality: The Case of Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Gregory Stevenson

Undead TV: Essays on Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Elana Levine

The Aesthetics of Culture in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Matthew Pateman

Girls Who Bite Back: Witches, Mutants, Slayers and Freaks by Emily Pohl-Weary

Why Buffy Matters: The Art of Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Ronda Wilcox

Into Every Generation a Slayer Is Born: How Buffy Staked Our Hearts by Evan Ross Katz

The Lure of the Vampire: Gender, Fiction, and Fandom from Bram Stoker to Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Milly Williamson

Blood Relations: Chosen Families in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel by Jes Battis

Sex and the Slayer: A Gender Studies Primer for the Buffy Fan by Lorna Jowett

Diseases of the Head: Essays on the Horrors of Speculative Philosophy; edited by Matt Rosen (chapter 2 Death of Horror)

Public Privates: Feminist Geographies of Mediated Spaces by Marcia R. England (chapter 1 Welcome to the Hellmouth: Paradoxical Spaces in Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

Open Graves, Open Minds: Representations of Vampires and the Undead From the Enlightenment to the Present Day; edited by Sam George and Bill Hughes (chapter 8 ‘I feel strong. I feel different’: transformations, vampires and language in Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

The Contemporary Television Series; edited by Michael Hammond and Lucy Mazdon (chapter 9 Television, Horror and Everyday Life in Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

Joss Whedon and Race: Critical Essays; edited by Mary Ellen Iatropoulos and Lowery A. Woodall III

Buffy and the Heroine's Journey: Vampire Slayer as Feminine Chosen One by Valerie Estelle Frankel

The Existential Joss Whedon: Evil and Human Freedom in Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Firefly and Serenity by J. Michael Richardson and J. Douglas Rabb

Buffy the Vampire Slayer 20 Years of Slaying: The Watcher's Guide Authorized by Christopher Golden

Reading the Vampire Slayer: The Complete, Unofficial Guide to 'Buffy' and 'Angel' by Roz Kaveney

Hollywood Vampire: The Unnoficial Guide to Angel by Keith Topping

Buffy the Vampire Slayer: The Monster Book by Christopher Golden

Slayer Slang: A Buffy the Vampire Slayer Lexicon by Michael Adams

What Would Buffy Do? The Vampire Slayer as Spiritual Guide by Jana Riess

ARTICLES, PAPERS ETC.

Bibliographic Good vs. Evil in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by GraceAnne A. DeCandido

Undead Letters: Searches and Researches in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by William Wandless

Weaponised information: The role of information and metaphor in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Jacob Ericson

Buffy, Dark Romance and Female Horror Fans by Lorna Jowett

My Vampire Boyfriend: Postfeminism, "Perfect" Masculinity, and the Contemporary Appeal of Paranormal Romance by Ananya Mukherjea

Buffy, The Vampire Slayer as Spectacular Allegory: A Diagnostic Critique by Douglas Kellner

"Buffy the Vampire Slayer": Technology, Mysticism, and the Constructed Body by Sara Raffel

When Horror Becomes Human: Living Conditions in "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" by Jeroen Gerrits

Post-Vampire: The Politics of Drinking Humans and Animals in "Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Twilight", and "True Blood" by Laura Wright

Cops, Teachers, and Vampire Slayers: Buffy as Street-Level Bureaucrat by Andrea E. Mayo

"Not Like Other Men"?: The Vampire Body in Joss Whedon's "Angel" by Lorna Jowett

Buffy the Vampire Slayer and the Domestic Church: Revisioning Family and the Common Good by Reid B. Locklin

“Buffy vs. Dracula”’s Use of Count Famous (Not drawing “crazy conclusions about the unholy prince”) by Tara Elliott

A Little Less Ritual and a Little More Fun: The Modern Vampire in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Stacey Abbott

Undressing the Vampire: An Investigation of the Fashion of Sunnydale’s Vampires by Robbie Dale

"And Yet": The Limits of Buffy Feminism by Renee St. Louis & Miriam Riggs

Meet the Cullens: Family, Romance and Female Agency in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Twilight by Kirsten Stevens

Bliss and Time: Death, Drugs, and Posthumanism in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Rob Cover

That Girl: Bella, Buffy, and the Feminist Ethics of Choice in Twilight and Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Catherine Coker

A Slayer Comes to Town: An Essay on Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Scott Westerfeld 

Undead Objects of a “Queer Gaze” : A Visual Approach to Buffy’s Vampires Using Lacan’s Extended RSI Model by Marcus Recht

When You Kiss Me, I Want to Die: Gothic Relationships and Identity on Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Ananya Mukherjeea

Necrophilia and SM: The Deviant Side of Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Terry L. Spaise

Queering the Bitch: Spike, Transgression and Erotic Empowerment by Dee Amy-Chinn

“I Want To Be A Macho Man”: Examining Rape Culture, Adolescent Female Sexuality, and the Destabilization of Gender Binaries in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Angelica De Vido

Staking Her Claim: Buffy the Vampire Slayer as Transgressive Woman Warrior by Frances H. Early

Actualizing Abjection: Drusilla, the Whedonversees’ Queen of Queerness by Anthony Stepniak

“Life Isn’t A Story”: Xander, Andrew and Queer Disavowal in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Steven Greenwood

S/He’s a Rebel: The James Dean Trope in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Kathryn Hill

“Once More, with Feeling”: Emotional Self-Discipline in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Gwynnee Kennedy and Jennifer Dworshack-Kinter

“The Hardest Thing in This World Is To Live In It”: Identity and Mental Health in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Alex Fixler

"Love's Bitch But Man Enough to Admit It": Spikes Hybridized Gender by Arwen Spicer

Negotiations After Hegemony: Buffy and Gender by Franklin D. Worrell

Double Trouble: Gothic Shadows and Self-Discovery in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Elizabeth Gilliland

'What If I'm Still There? What If I Never Left That Clinic?': Faërian Drama in Buffy's "Normal Again" by Janet Brennan Croft

Not Gay Enough So You’d Notice: Poaching Fuffy by Jennifer DeRoss

Throwing Like A Slayer: A Phenomenology of Gender Hybridity and Female Resilience in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Debra Jackson

“You Can’t Charge Innocent People for Saving Their Lives!” Work in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Matt Davies

Ambiguity and Sexuality in Buffy the Vampire Slayer: A Sartrean Analysis by Vivien Burr

Imagining the Family: Representations of Alternative Lifestyles in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Vivien Burr and Christine Jarvis

Working-Class Hero? Fighting Neoliberal Precarity in Buffy’s Sixth Season by Michelle Maloney-Mangold

A Corpse by Any Other Name: Romancing the Language of the Body in Mary Shelley's Frankenstein for the Adam Storyline in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Amber P. Hodge

Sensibility Gone Mad: Or, Drusilla, Buffy and the (D)evolution of the Heroine of Sensibility by Claire Knowles

"It's good to be me": Buffy's Resistance to Renaming by Janet Brennan Croft

Death as a Gift in J.R.R. Tolkien’s Work and Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Gaelle Abalea

“All Torment, Trouble, Wonder, and Amazement Inhabits Here": The Vicissitudes of Technology in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by James B. South

Staking Her Colonial Claim: Colonial Discourses, Assimilation, Soul-making, and Ass-kicking in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Jessica Hautsch

“I Run To Death”: Renaissance Sensibilities in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Christine Jarvis

Dressed To Kill: Fashion and Leadership in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Christine Jarvis and Don Adams

Queer Eye Of That Vampire Guy: Spike and the Aesthetics of Camp by Cynthea Masson and Marni Stanley

“Sounds Like Kinky Business To Me”: Subtextual and Textual Representations of Erotic Power in Buffyverse by Lewis Call

“Did Anyone Ever Explain to You What ‘Secret Identity’ Means?”: Race and Displacement in Buffy and Dark Angel  by Cynthia Fuchs

“It’s About Power”: Buffy, Foucault, and the Quest for Self by Julie Sloan Brannon

Why We Love the Monsters: How Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter, and Buffy the Vampire Slayer Wound Up Dating the Enemy by Hilary M. Leon

Why We Can’t Spike Spike?: Moral Themes in Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Richard Greene and Wayne Yuen

Buffy, the Scooby Gang, and Monstrous Authority: BtVS and the Subversion of Authority by Daniel A. Clark & P. Andrew Miller

Are Vampires Evil?: Categorizations of Vampires, and Angelus and Spike as the Immoral and the Amoral by Gert Magnusson

BOOKS ABOUT VAMPIRE LORE AND MYTH IN GENERAL

The Vampire Lectures by Laurence A. Rickels 

Our Vampires, Ourselves by Nina Auerbach

Vampires, Burial, and Death: Folklore and Reality by Paul Barber

The Secret History of Vampires: Their Multiple Forms and Hidden Purposes by Claude Lecouteux

The Vampire Cinema by David Pirie

The Living and the Undead: Slaying Vampires, Exterminating Zombies by Gregory A. Waller

Vampire Forensics: Uncovering the Origins of an Enduring Legend by Mark Jenkins

Slayers and Their Vampires: A Cultural History of Killing the Dead by Bruce A. McClelland

The History and Folklore of Vampires: The Stories and Legends Behind the Mythical Beings by Charles River Editors

Encyclopedia of Vampire Mythology by Theresa Bane

Vampires of Lore: Traits and Modern Misconceptions by A. P. Sylvia

The Vampire: A New History by Nick Groom

Vampyres: Genesis and Resurrection: from Count Dracula to Vampirella by Christopher Frayling

Race in the Vampire Narrative by U. Melissa Anyiwo

Vampires, Race, and Transnational Hollywoods by Dale Hudson

[chinomiko]

hi! i know it must be kinga boring for you recive questions about castiel bc ppl are obsessed ober him for years but like the other person who asked you a few days ago, i follow you (and ply mcl) for like 10 years and ever since day one my fav boy has been tiel. till this day at the age of 22 he's my favorite and my comfort boy so i joke that he's not a fictional character anymore for me and that i know him personally at this point lol

with that being said, i bet you can imagine that over the years i've been elaborating his personality beyond what the game gives us but he's your boy, you created him therefore you know him and your word is canon, so i'd like to ask a few stuff!! nothing too big, dont worry but here we go.

tiel is an amazing songwriter and since he's very emotional not very good at express it (he does it a lot better now that he's an adult 🥹) i bet his lyricism is very deep and poetic so i have this headcanon that he at first wouldn't like taylor swift because obviously lol but then he payed attention to her lyrics and ends up basically being a swiftie since he likes her writing a lot. what you think about that?

and what kind of music crowstorm sings? like there are any bands that you listen and think "hey this would be in a crowstorm album!" (i have a playlist with this name btw lol). im probably wrong on this one but since this is my fav band i like to think that catfish and the bottlemen are the irl crowstorm, musically speaking

and the last one: another thing that gives me so much comfort is the lystiel friendship. not having present parents, being so closed off i know that lysander is such an important presence on tiel's life because he was basically the only close person he had (specially after the debrah fiasco); if lys didnt had taken the farm and went to college and bla bla bla do you think he would still be part of the band with castiel? im not sure if im mixing the canon with a fanfic i read a while ago (lol) but the band was more of a fun thing to lys, right? he liked writing most (i always imagined him getting into a literature degree or something like this). i also like to think that he helps tiel with lyrics at times, even if he's out of the band (in my head the canon is that they are best friends and pretty close till this day, i pretend lys never left our lives just like armin)

anyways sorry for this big ask 😭 i dont even know if you will read it all but if you do, thank you! and dont feel like you have to answer, i know its too much its just that mcl is my hyperfixation till this day like for real, i have a fanfic that i write still and i even plan on making it into a book sometime. except from the main characters (who is my oc) all the characters will be based on the game's ones :)

ilysm take care and stay hydrated!!

Hellow !

Aww thank you so much and for all your love for Castiel ^^

What a long ask, I'll try to answer in order.

Castiel being a swiftie. No sorry, I don't think he would be. If candy likes her, I'm pretty sure he would try to listen. Also he is an open minded person for sure, so I'm sure he would be curious to listen and study what all the hype is about, it could also help as some sort of far away inspiration, but I don't see him being a fan.

What kind of songs Crowstorm sings This is hard to answer because my musical knowledge is pretty limited and I'm sure I would miss on lot of potential groups or singers that would fit well. And it would require too much research time to have a real detailed and clear answer, but I still did check a bit and here is a little list of songs/groups that I think would have a fitting vibe for Crowstorm

City of the dead - Hollywood Undead The worst in me - bad omens Paranoid - I prevail Trauma Just pretend - Bad omens Ice Nine Kills - A grave mistake Catfish and the bottlemen sounds nice but I think its a bit too soft for what I imagine for Crowstorm.

What is his voice like I think something similar to this (not necessarily the song itself, just the voice. )

bonus, I think this song is so so fitting for Castiel's breakup song, I love it. Dial Tone - Catch your breath

Castiel and Lys friendship. It was'nt mentionned much in UL/LL because I didnt wish to bring too much drama by mentioning Lys when he was not there for the players, but of course Lys and Cast always kept in touch. It is very clearly mentionned in Lys' AL that they keep in touch, that Lys helps Castiel write songs and Cast also like to come to his farm to have a break and spend time together. You should play it if you havent, you'll have a good chunk of Cast and Lys friendship :) However yeah I can confirm that Lys would not like to do it serisouly and professionally, but he'll be all the way around to support and help Cast.

[rosewaterconley]

hate that star trek writers pretend they're writing hard sf when the main races in their setting are basically just analogues for elves, orcs, goblins and undead & the original show was a dumbass swashbuckling adventure where half the featured planets were some variation of reused hollywood backlot, wizard shit or the wild west. as a fan of both hard SF and space fantasy, please for the love of god let star trek be a dumb fantasy show again it's so bad at being hard science fiction

[ctommyisnt]

1:A song you like with a color in the title

OKAY my first thought was blistere in the sun by Violent femmes but i only just now realized its violent not violet. anyway. Violet by Wild Party!!!! One of my FAVORITE songs for sure. Could listen to it forever

2:A song you like with a number in the title

Second child restless child by the oh hellos (does this count? yes. it does). My favorite song by this band and it makes me feel so FREE and EXCITED and HOPEFUL.

3:A song that reminds you of summertime

I HAVE TOO MANY!!! summer is my favorite season and i have so many good memories of dancing in my neighborhood taking three hour walks just listening to music i loved (i wasnt allwoed to listen to my own music or wear earbuds in my house so it was my only chance to listen to music that wasnt christian or broadway) If i had to choose ONE though it would probably be talk too much by COIN. i would play this on repeat and just DANCE in the middle of the street.

4:A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about

Hmmm this ones hard. I luckily dont have any songs associated with people but whenever i hear about eurovision i get a bad taste in my mouth so we're going with that.

5:A song that needs to be played LOUD

Already answered this but slingshot by good kid! If i want to go more mainstream it's gotta be I love it, that is the ultimate clubbing song and makes me feel so cool

6:A song that makes you want to dance

Arhghh i already used Talk too much so ill have to go with dance with me by sir, please. Typical but cmon man

7:A song to drive to

I only really listen to music while driving (i NEED to buy a speaker) but Heart of a Dancer makes me feel SO cool and i always go at least 20 over the speed limit when listening to this on the highway.

8:A song about drugs or alcohol

Uhhh? I don't listen to lyrics OH WAIT bullet by hollywood undead. I fucking loved that song when i was sixteen which if you know the song you know what i was like back then LOL

9:A song that makes you happy

Most songs but also Kaleidoscope by a great big world. THIS is a summer camp prologue montage music type beat but UGH it always makes me so happy. I think its been on almost every playlist ive made this year (i make my playlist by seasons so this is a good cold winter song AND summer song)

10:A song that makes you sad

Anything by Everybody Worries about Owen, Obsessed with his Denton lake album that shit was my depression music for a year. Not a big fan of his newer music.

11:A song that you never get tired of

Shawshank Demo by the toyston club, its been one of my top played songs for like three years and i have it in almost every playlist.

12:A song from your preteen years

uhhh i cant do shawshank or talk too much again so i think OH WAIT nothign by bruno major. I was so sad over this and would listen to it over and over again just imagining myself dancing to this song with my fictional or irl crushes. I was cringe but i was free and those daydreams kept me alive for those years.

13:One of your favorite 80’s songs

UPTOWN GIRL BY BILLY JOELLLLLL hes such a guy and i want to be the uptown girl so bad. or everybody wants to rule the world thats a CLASSIC

14:A song that you would love played at your wedding

Im doing two for this one because one of them is Marry You by bruno marrs which will be played as my partner and i walk down the aisle after the ceremony and everyone cheers and throws flowers. My other one is Cinderella by Steven Curtis Chapman because thats going to be my father daughter dance if he still loves me when i get married.

15:A song that is a cover by another artist

FROM THE START. BY GOOD KID. this one one of my FAVORITE songs right now and i have screamed along to it at karaoke before. Amazing song

16:One of your favorite classical songs

Anything my sisters play on the piano but i Do Not have a distinction because there is not universe in which i can make out a distinct classical song.

17:A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke

LITTLE TALKS BY OF MONSTERS AND MEN!!! this song is SO fun and id love to sing this a drink and a half in with my friends OH OR THAT TICK TICK BOOM SONG ive done duets to that with my sisters before.

18:A song from the year that you were born

I cant NOT say american idiot by greenday like cmon. Are you gonna be my girl by the jets AND mr brightside also came out htat year.

19:A song that makes you think about life

............. Maybe I was boring BUT ALSO. hello my old heart iwasplanningonkillingmyselftothissong BUT its not a very nostalgic 'i got through this shit' song

20:A song that has many meanings to you

I have a playlist called 'Nothing is right and your looking for yourself in the suburbs but cant find it' which sounds metaphorical but was actually a very literal thing i used to do as a teen, spending hours walking around my neighborhood listening to this while trying to figure out who i was. Its my ultimate existencial crisis playlist and it's just the Maybe I was Boring thirteen minute demo cut ten seperate times. I play it whenever I feel lost and dissociative. It usually helps but it also reminds me of dark times.

21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title

natalie by bruno mars that song is SO fun WAIT NO grace by the hatchetman this song goes crazy

22:A song that moves you forward

Shy by Saint Blonde! Its very hopeful and gives me 'this is just the start of a great day/month/summer/year' you need to listen to it.

23:A song that you think everybody should listen to

You were perfect & im sorry by mickey darling!! I just saw one of his concerts and MAN this song goes crazy. it tells a story and really delves into this guy and just ADSJFASLKDASLDK

24:A song by a band you wish were still together

Sobbing. Great Lake Drifters. They have 7 monthly listeners and havent done anything since 2015 OH MY GOD I JUST LOOKED THEM UP THEY HAVE A NEW SONG???? WHAT THE FUCK???????????? EVERYONE GO LISTEN TO IT RIGHT NOW my favorite song by them is verbal chess

25:A song by an artist no longer living

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont recall any artists ever. is elton john dead? I like that song im still standing but only the taron edgerton sing cover.

26:A song that makes you want to fall in love

Lucky girl by fazerdaze makes me SO upset because i WANT To be a lucky girl and listen to this song while walking down the street with my lover but nOOOoooo i CANT. BECAUSE I DONT HAVE A LOVER. someday.

27:A song that breaks your heart

Saline solution by wilbur soot was also one of my depression songs and i just. arghgjh reminds me of sad times. I cant listen to it anymore without a sinking feeling in my gut.

28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love

i dont know who autoheart is or what he looks like but i want him to fuck me. lent by

29:A song that you remember from your childhood

Again, i didnt listen to music much as a kid because it was just the christian stuff my parents played but my most nostalgic one would be See, what a morning by Keith and Kristyn getty. The song tastes like swedish pancakes drowning in butter and syrup while the sun beats through the kitchen window, dappled by the vines. It's so visual to me and i always mourn my childhood when my mom plays it.

30:A song that reminds you of yourself

Scrawny by the wallows is the song i want to embody. I genuiknely want people to hear that song and be like 'yeah thats nells, thats her' But right now maybe Drifting by good kid? i dont pay attention to lyrics but this one is NICE

I love my songs and cherish them deeply so this took a long time. I love questoins. PLEASE LISTEN TO ANY OF THESE music is so intigral to my life and i dont listen to a lot so yeah. I also only like like three genres of music so if you like one of these youll like them all LOL

[saltynemo]

There are 3 types of people in this world...

Tyler Joseph (TØP): "he must have forgot to close his door"

Danny Murillo (HU): "who left the door open?"

Brendon Urie (P!ATD): "HAVE YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF CLOSING THE DAMN DOOR?"

[coldeternalarchive]

Matt’s Winter

Matt’s Winter Russian Winter Reimagined Matt/George 1/15 In the close darkness, Matt cowered though no one could see him.   The room had heat, which was damn sight better than some of the run down, flea bag, bargain basement rooms they  had endured during the tour.  However, it was three to a room.  This wouldn’t have been such a problem if two of them hadn’t decided to fuck.  They knew he was there, assuming he was asleep but whether he was or not they really did not care.  

This was all Jorel’s idea but Aron had hardly put up a fight.  Now in the darkness, as Aron panted and whined and rustling noises were heard above the wheezing of the ancient heater in the corner, Jorel was going into great ranting detail of what he was doing to Aron and how good he was at it.   The problem was that just a week before Matt had been the one with Aron, huddled up in the van, keeping each other warm, exploring the body of the other with full consent and curiosity.   But then they had been found out by Jorel and Aron had ran off threatening to quit the band, Jorel had ran after him and they had ended up kissing and now Matt was out in the cold, literally and figuratively. Matt sank deeper in the covers, pulling the pillow over his springy curls but it did nothing to muffle Jorel’s voice or the fluttering panting breath of Aron.  Matt didn’t need the light on, he had seen that look on Aron’s face just before he buried it in Matt’s hair, driving into him as he came.  Now Aron was the one getting driven and obviously enjoying it, laying beneath Jorel’s stronger, more demanding body.  Part of Matt wanted to touch himself, part of him long for the guts to  the short, blackout expanse of room and join them, but every bit of energy was being used to keep his sobs silent because what Aron was doing was breaking his heart. “I can’t believe you waste your time with him when you could have been with me from the beginning.  He’s pathetic.  He’s such a whiny emo fuck.”  Jorel declared and Aron responded with an overwhelmed grunt.  “He’s the biggest pussy I’ve ever met. Seriously, I cannot stand the dude, I just…..um….fuck..”:  Jorel sucked in his breath and Aron cried out sharply.  Jorel mumbled an apology before starting a droning litany again. Matt must have zoned out then because the next thing he knew the room around him was quiet and his sobs seemed to amplify and echo around him.  The bed across the room was motionless and quiet. “Matt?!”   The voice belonged to Aron. Oh my god, what the fuck!?  What have I done?!  matt gulped at the air as the thought came to him and he began to shake in panic.  Maybe they’re asleep.  Maybe . I’m dreaming.  Oh god please let them be asleep! The lamp next to the other bed turned on and light erupted like a blow torch through the dark room.  Jorel and Aron both sat up in the bed, staring at him, shocked and embarrassed. “Uh….Matt?” It was Aron who spoke up, the guilt in his voice almost glowingly visible. “You heard all that?” Like a rocket fired into space, Matt sprang up from the bed, head down, praying his hair would hide the tears on this face.  Not bothering to put on the rest of his clothes, his only mission was to grab the keys from Jorel’s side of the dresser, as it had been his turn to drive the RV.  As he grabbed for them a splinter bit into his finger and he cried out, unable to keep everything in an instant longer and ran, sobbing out of the room and through the parking lot.   Seconds later there he was, his bare feet slapping and the asphalt that felt like an icy sticker patch beneath his shoeless feet, the wind whipping his legs raw, bits of sleet pelting him like rocks.  He had not heard the storm blow in, having concentrated so hard on Aron and Jorel, and the adrenalin carried him as far as the RV.   He managed to open the door and close and lock it behind him before he fell inside, wet and shaking.  He lay on the floor for what seemed like a long time, sobbing and trying to catch his breath before pulling himself up into the closest seat and curling up as best he could, shivering. It seemed like an hour or more before Aron appeared outside the door, holding the hood of his parka tightly around his ears and beating on the window.  Even with the coat he was shivering. “Matt!!!  Open up!  Come on back in, it’s freezing out here!” Matt had a million arguments about how wrong Jorel was, how perfect he and Aron were together and how unfairly he was being treated, but what came out was a strangled “GO AWAY, I HATE YOU!!” that dissolved into choking sobs. “Matt, I’m serious!  I’m sorry!  Open the door!  You’re gonna get sick out here!” Inside, Matt covered his face with his hands and refused to look in Aron’s direction. “I mean ir!  I said I was sorry, it was a stupid thing to do!  Now open up before we both freeze to death!” Matt refused to answer, Jorel’s words echoing in his ears, blotting out the wind and rain outside.   Aron beat on the door a while longer before cursing Matt and stomping back to his room.  Matt wrapped his arms around himself. He hadn’t planned on sleeping but after a while the adrenaline wore off and the chill worked its way into his muscles and down to his bones and he lay here shaking, cursing both Aron and Jorel until his eyes closed.  He slept fitfully with only cold slivers of dreams stabbing his consciousness.  When the sun came up Matt snuck b ack to the room, grabbed his bags and ran back to the RV, opened the door and stuffed the keys in the ignitions, plopping himself in the back like nothing had ever happened.   Attached to the RV was one of the last VW buses that still ran. Dylan and his father had restored it together.  It held most of their equipment and everyone rode in the RV itself.   He sat and watched as slowly everyone exited their rooms and shuffle out, throwing their bags inside.  The keys were in the ignition waiting for Jorel and he and Aron boarded last.  By that time Matt was safely tucked in the back, as far into a corner as he could get, laying practically on Jordon’s gig bag.  About sixty miles out his muscles began to twitch and ache from phantom pains.  He fished out a bottle of water from behind all the beer and whiskey in the fridge, downed it and then nursed a can of cola for the rest of the drive.  He closed his eyes and shuddered into himself like a turtle in it’s shell until the end of the ride.  The chills set in as they loaded out and he did his best to do his share but when he nearly dropped an amp on Dylan’s foot, Dylan yelled at him and he shrank back apologizing.  He must have looked as bad as he felt because Dylan backed off and left him alone almost immediately.  Matt did his best to play it off but his throat was already aching and it hurt to talk. He got through the gig with no memory beyond the struggle to remain upright.  The last thing he remembered was the show being over, sweating inside his hoodie and yet still freezing.  He was thinking he needed to take the hoodie off because it was wet but then wouldn’t that make him even colder?  Suddenly he was dreaming, but the thing was he didn’t remember going to sleep. He was walking and then……...nothing….a dream...about being a grocery store, buying a salad in a huge salad bar that went on for miles.  The dream stopped and started again and he could hear voices, some voices he almost recognized, some he did not at all. (more to come)

[comicbookddr]

do you have any favorite fan fiction story’s and also how you did find out about fanfiction as well and knowing about it existing?

sav: OH BUDDY. YOU'VE UNEARTHED MY DARK PAST. but, to keep it brief: how i found out about fanfic? imagine little me (12y/o or so) on quotev. really into youtubers and hamilton the musical at the time. ive grown past then,,,, i'm a changed man. as for fanfic stories, there's too many to list!! i love a lot of fanfic stories, but mostly from other fandoms unfortunately :(

shay: uhh long story short i was into a band called hollywood undead as a 11/12yr old and i discovered deviantart. the fic that ignited it all was a demon au of the band dudes which turned into smut and thats what baby me thought was normal :") now im quite grossed out with rpf or smut unless its for lols. ANYWAYS i love so many fics!!! they're mainly my hero aca tho,,,,

steff: I loved reading original stories on wattpad a lot... I'm still not ready to unearth my traumatic fandom past quite yet. Take that as however you want to lol.

If you want to hear our full answers then make sure to check out the next episode of our podcast!

[ocean-moonlight]

I got tagged by @eykonto thank you so much for this! I always loved doing them xD

Name/nickname: Kevin Alexander, Kev

Gender: Male

Height: I’m a hobbit ;(

Time: like right now? Or what my favorite time is??? Rn it’s 1 am

Birthday: 9th April

Favorite band: it is impossible to choose one so here are some of my faves; Skillet, Linkin Park, Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, Fall Out Boy, Hollywood Undead, Shinedown

Favorite solo artist: Eminem

Song stuck in head: Wu Ji

Last movie: Wolfwalkers (and it actually made me cry woah)

Last show: The Untamed

When I created the blog: I don’t remember!! It’s a really long time ago, maybe 2012? Or even before that, I’m too much of a noob still to find out where I can check xD

What I post: I post about Attack on Titan, Red dead redemption, The Untamed, usually anything that I’m a fan of.

Other blog: I do got some but I’m not going to share them

Following: around 200

Why I chose my url: I chose it because of my favorite ship in snk, tho I might change it to my instagram name due to me posting so many rdr screenshots.

Lucky number: 15

Followers: 300+ thank you all so much 🥺

Average hours of sleep: I try to get 6-8 hours but lately my sleep schedule has been very fucked up

Instruments: none 😨 I tried to learn guitar but n o p e

What I’m wearing: White and black singlet and baggy dark green pants👏🏼

Dream Job: never work at all lmfao. Nah I’m happy with what I work as and with now.

Favorite food: Taco 🤤

Favorite song: I’ve got two, Call me by Shinedown and Whispers in the dark by Skillet

Last book I read: Treasure Island !

Top 3 fictional universes I would live in:

1. Red Dead Redemption

2. The Untamed

3. Black Sails

Now I’m gonna tag:

@kailifawnreaper @coldmorte @micahs-kitty @zemxem @penguin-floof

[forestinfire]

tag game

answer 20 questions and tag 20 blogs! thank you @dekaythepunk for tagging me! :)

name: chris pronouns: she/her zodiac sign: leo/virgo? have no idea height: 1.72m. time: 11.16 am birthday: 23 august nationality: russian fave bands/groups: kraftklub, bad omens, zero 9:36, hollywood undead, casper, callejon, northlane, while she sleeps, enter shikari, architects, cane hill, caliban, bastille, waterparks, and many more ;) fave solo artists: eh let it be kummer, im not sure if casper and zero are solo artists last show you binged: the falcon and the winter soldier when you made your blog: 2015 why you chose your url: wanted something not related to any band/song (later i figured out taa have song called forest fire ._.) following count: 362 follower count: 3709 average sleep hrs: 6-7 hours i guess? last thing you googled: kraftklub casper other/side blogs: https://wrongdestination.tumblr.com/ lucky number: ??? instrument: meh currently wearing: a white tee and black leggings dream trip: umm maybe norway? fave food: pasta! fav song: currently its probably fan von dir and hallo nacht by kraftklub top 3 fictional universes: mcu, dbh, ? im too lazy to think

tagging anyone who wants to do this bc too many of blog im following are inactive

[allhailhu4l]

As i am writing chapter 12 of my HU fan fiction this song has been on repeat 😂 I think I may have an obsession with this band and I think I may need help????? (But they so good tho)

[vespiiqueen]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last 10 people who reblogged something from you (if you want !! 💛💖)

Wow I rambled a lot with this but i can't add cuts bc I'm on mobile rn DHSISHSJ sorry :"))))

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1. Ik Ik "haha how cringe are you" of me to say, but honestly? Homestuck. Homestuck helped me in a time of need and when i so desperately wanted something to latch onto. Finally, I caved into my friends telling me to read it-- and it's been a blast!! The epilogues / hs^2 make me feel kinda sad though, because so much of what I loved about the original was yeeted through the nine circles of hell and into the trash. I love Y/ffany's (I call her Yippi tho) design, the art is really pretty at times, Harry is a major dork, I LIVE for seeing Vrissy bc honestly?? Her design is 10/10, very early 2000s emo style and I also live for that. Tavros is cute and a nerd and I think that's swell!

But in terms of story and how any of this happens, it makes me sad to see it happen. If Vriska could return as Vrissy, why not OTHER beta trolls? Where's my Eridan fish man, writers?? Give me the boy or perish by my fury.

2. Also super "haha how cringe are you" but,,, murder cats (Warriors), esp the early 2005-2015 amvs and stuff. I remember watching Flightfootwarrior's "I Will Not Bow" Scourge amv for HOurs and having no clue what was happening, but all these edgy kitties were KITTIES! It's introduced me to a lot of music I still listen to to this very day (Imagine Dragons, Young/the entirety of Hollywood Undead, Breaking Benjamin). And yknow what?? This new arc is absolute chaos, but in the good way.

I'm an "OG Fan". I prefer the first arc, The Prophecies Begin, to almost any of the other arcs. I just could never get into the other arcs-- not to say I haven't read them, I HAVE and the Fire Scene was probably one of my favorite moments beside grumpy Jaypaw, god complex Lionblaze, and fear the gods Hollypaw. I thought the build-up for it was SUPER satisfying. Gray Wing is my baby and I fully embellish in the Gray Wing is Silverpelt theory.

This new arc is definitely something new for the universe. While I didn't read aVoS (but I may do that if i can find the files for it), and so I don't know the major events of it other than what I've seen M.A.P.'s (Multi-Animator Projects, for clarification,,, bc unfortunately that term is also something disgusting). There's fucking cat possession and all the Clans questioning their belief system, yo. Shit be on fire.

Also the Imposter is 100% Ashfur, that's canon now, yeah??? Also im sorry but fuck Root x Bristle that's the dumbest shit I have ever seen. Give me Root x Shadow or face the wrath of my dragon plushies.

RiverClan is my Clan and my gov assigned warrior name is Fireshell 🌟🌟

3. As much as I hate the author,,,,, Harry Potter. It's been a major part of my life for as long as I can remember. I can never really remember why, but I've always just loved it- the movies, the books, the extra little merch that would pop up in my local Walmart. Of course my favorite character is Draco Malfoy. I could go on and on and ON about how I think his character arc was SHIT and JKR didn't have the balls to make him a confident gay man that was always implied through the text (at least, my lesbian ass thought it was implied but i may just be projecting, idk). I could ramble about Draco for HOURS and what I think his character SHOULD have been and how his parents are horrible (more specifically, Lucius bc Narcissa [?] Actually showed a few good moments), and a child should never have to pay for their parents sins.

Oh noo, Draco's a villain because he's a victim of major abuse and peer pressure? He's a villain because a literal child can be horrible and they'll always always always stay as a horrible little fiend?? Fuck that. He's a child.

Unlike manchild grease pan Snape, who was a racist piece of shit and shouldn't have became a fucking school teacher but it's okay because he was ~~~in love~~~. No, fuck you, he was a creep. James Potter n Co may have been a little posh bitch to you, Snape, but that's no fucking excuse to continue to bluntly be a little cunt all the way into adulthood. You're an adult who flatly changed your PATRONUS to imitate Lily's. You have no excuse. And Harry went and named his child after you LIKE JESUS CHRIST, DID RON'S SISTER NOT HAVE A SAY IN THE NAMES TOO?????

I also fully adore the idea that Muggles can run into Hogwarts and their patronus can 100% be a made up, fantasy creature. Imagine you learn the patronus spell and suddenly fucking ARCEUS comes from your wand. Imagine learning the spell and CHTULU (i did not spell that right but im so tired) comes from your wand-- an entire ass fucking Lovecraftian, Eldrith horror is just the embodiment of you. What if it was a fucking Homestuck character like Vriska? How fucking METAL would that be?? Hskajssowjjsjs get on it fandom.

4. Hee hee very evident by my url but Pokemon is another major thing of mine. While vespiquen isn't my favorite (that title goes to Hydreigon), it is definitely up there!

I've ALWAYS enjoyed the idea of Pokemon. You run around, training up these fight monsters and collecting them. I remember playing my sister's Ruby version on her flip-up Gameboy. I couldn't even read but I ran around catching god only knows how many of the same pokemon wherever she was. Apparently, I had fought for hours in the same area and leveled her Blaziken up to lvl 50 something and left her lvl 30s in the dust LMAO.

I got my first game when it was Pearl/Diamond. It was Pearl, and it still holds a very fond place in my heart. I could barely read, I could barely write-- I had named my Turtwig something along the lines of "MmorpHy" and my player boy "ZbsibJ". Yes I remember the names slightly. I really didn't get far-- I barely got to the first gym but I was just so happy to play it.

I eventually lost the game, as a 5 year old would do, but I can still vividly remember what was happening when the game arrived. I had just came back from the dentist and was quite tired from fighting the dentist bc I was super scared. Mom suddenly handed me a box and said it was mine-- my overseas (at that time) dad had bought me Pearl and my sister Diamond, because I lost my shit about it when he visited one time.

Well, tdlr, I played it for about five minutes while struggling to stay awake against the loopy gas they made me take. I fell asleep listening to Twinleaf Town's soundtrack. Every time I play a rom of Pearl and I get to where the player's house fades in and I hear that first tune of the song, I get a huge smile on my face and cry-- as.. Weird as it sounds.

A few years later, I had gotten Pokemon Black bc I liked Reshiram on the cover. Now, this one I could actually READ when playing, but I don't remember a lot of things about it. I probably lost this one too, as a 8/9 year old would do. I DO remember, I chose Snivy and my sister chose Tepig (hrmm there's a theme here of grass/fire goin on......) and vibing to the music. I was so amazed by the sprites moving, I just kept getting into encounters to see the sprites move (oh boy, no one tell younger 7-9 y/o me about Zelda......oh wait....)

Playing Pokemon NOW, as a 17 year old """gifted""" chick, I stil have very fond memories. I recently beat Pokemon Black again and GOD the OTS SLAPS. I fucking adore the soundtrack-- the track that plays when you battle a trainer, the low health dings being turned into a legit song that also slaps, the battle! gym leader themes-- and oh my gOd, the legendary theme is amazing? It really tells you just how glorious these pokemon are supposed to be. It's not intimidating like Groudon/Kyroge/Rayquaza's themes. It's not action packed like Palkia/Dialga's is, it's not filled with tension like Giratina/Arceus's is-- but it radiates the GLORY that the beasts portray. And I live for that. (Also, Kyurem's version is my favorite because it glitches in the beginning and that's rly cool)

P/D/P and BW/BW2's stories, imo, are some of the greatest ones. Yeahhh, US/USUM's is cool and I haven't played XY nor SwSh-- but the ones I can find memorable are PDP and BW/BW2. I love N. I love Barry. They're my sons. Ghetsis is fucking terrifying, Cyrus needs a hug. Giratina scared the piss out of me when I was younger, which was NOT helped by Giratina and The Sky Warrior.

I think my favorite movies are the gen 4 ones. The Rise of Darkrai having a tear-jerking theme for such a mysterious pokemon (i still tear up when i hear Ocarion), Giratina being spiteful is a mood and Shaymin was cute, Arceus being angry is also a mood. Yeah, Pokemon 4Ever made me cry my eyes out over Celebi, Mewtwo Returns made me again cry because Mewtwo accepting who he is, I remember how vastly different the BW movies are-

I just. I have a lot of memories with the series, even if Gamefreak and Nintendo kinda do the series dirty a lot (your top-grossing thing and you made That monstrosity for the Switch? How dare you.). It's comforting to be stressed and pull up my roms for the games and to play them. Mystery Dungeon is incredibly fun to play, Pokemon Ranger is really fun with the concept (Shadows of Almia continues to kick my ass to this very day and FUCK the Jungle Relic, I hate the Water Challenge fucking gyarados bullshit). I remember the pokemon I got for MD (I got Time, my sis got Darkness) was Mudkip, if that is any help.

I love my little fictional pixel monsters.

5. Yup, someone told tiny 7-9 y/o me about console games. The legend of Zelda. My first Zelda game was Twilight Princess on the Wii and BOY did I play the fucking SHIT out of that game.

Honestly, looking back and looking at playthroughs now-- I still love TP. Twilight Princess is still one of my top favorite Zelda games-- yes, even after playing OoT, Majora's Mask, Wind Waker, Skyward Sword, the anniversary four swords edition for the DS where you could play by yourself (Nintendo pls bring that back, I don't have friends to play it with ;-;), Phantom Hourglass- ect.

Something about Twilight Princess grabbed me by the head and yeeted me into the world. I can remember playing it for hours with little to no breaks. I, a tiny 9 y/o, had gotten the hang of the controllers and managed to get past the tutorial quite easily. And then, I was launched into the game and I wasn't stopping for NOTHING. Mom and Dad would have to force me to save and get off to go and eat dinner. THAT sucked.

I had done everything on my own up until the first temple, the forest temple. Not where/when you saved the dumb kid, but when you were saving the spirit's light. Theeeeeeennn I got stuck on the fucking Forest Temple for deadass six months straight. I'd play for hours, running around in circles, unable to figure out where to go, and because I didn't grasp the temple's purpose of being that way- I'd get angry and get off. It wasn't until dad looked up a walkthrough and talked me through what I was supposed to do that I learned how to get through temples.

I had gotten to the last little fight with Ganondorf before the Wii broke and i could no longer play. Despite the Wii being broke and we got rid of it, I was ADAMANT on keeping the game, and I kept that game for YEARS. It was an original copy out of a sealed box, and I eventually lost it when I left it accidentally at my now ex-friend's house.

She had a Wii and I went "hey I have a Wii game!" And I brought my Zelda over. Worst fucking choice of my goddamn life. Mom called me to come home and said I couldn't sleep over like the original plan was, and that was it. My ex-friend stashed my Zelda and I never saw it again. And, even if I wanted to-- I couldn't get it back, which makes me upset. We had a BAD falling out. She likely doesn't even remember it's there, or sold it to the local game junkie kid who buys ALL games.

But I still love the game. Midna was amazing, and I loved how snarky she was and she has a very cute design! The game's OST is fucking phenomenal. Midna's Desperate Hour makes me cry bc goddamn it really sells how serious that situation is. I love Hyrule Field's theme in this game. I love the Twilight Realm's song. Zant was fucking hilariously scary. Ganondorf's design in this game scared the piss out of me when I was younger.

Midna and this game's Link and Zelda are def my favorites. Yeah yeah, Sheik is cool and all I Guess but dhsushwishs Midna holds the special place in my heart. She was totally my gay awakening BUT

For other game antagonists, I adore Ghirahim-- let's go you funky little queer-coded villain. Skull Kid was great, I love the entire dynamic of him. Prankster lost soul stumbles upon Majora's Mask and the mask makes him act out due to powers-- which, I actually took very heavy inspiration from for one of my OCs. The moon falling to Hyrule was a fucking terrifying looming threat.

But the game series holds a place, and I've yet to be able to play BoTW-- although, I'm fairly certain I'll like it. The playthroughs I've watched of it are all fairly decent! I just. Gotta save up enough money to buy it haha.

Dang guess I gotta go watch a Twilight Princess playthrough again.

Honorable Mentions:

Avatar: the Last Airbender, specifically Book 3

my OCs definitely make me happy, they're my children and I'd ramble A LOT longer if given the chance WHEEZE

My friends, but I didn't add them here bc it's more fictional stuff, I presume

Baking. I love to bake cupcakes.

Painting is fun. I'm an artist and goddammit im going to use painting as an excuse to make a mess.

Fire. I rly like fire, down to a pyromaniac level. However, i hate the fires that happened to my home town, the Great Smokey Fires of 2016-- THAT pissed me off. How dare you burn mountain landscapes to the ground. Perish.

History. I'm a history nerd.

I'm also a science nerd.

But fuck math, I cannot comprehend math to save my life.

For some reason, I rly like learning how the human body works??? like did you know, organs are actually sticky when touched by a bare hand?? Did you?? How fucking cool is that.

Bakugan. I love Bakugan, esp the DS game. I love my Darkus Leonidas. Give me back the online world, you peasants-- I want my Darkus Dragonoid. (Also fuck all my friends from when I was in kindergarten- my theory that Alice was Masquerade was somewhat correct.)

[hiiggsmonaghan]

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Are you fuckin’ kidding me--?

Alright, I’ll answer them ALL. 

1. Name: Higgs Monaghan Silver/Silvio

2. Nationality: Canadian/Acadian

3. Age: 22

4. Birthday: July 19th 

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign): Cancer

6. Gender: cis male

7. Sexuality: Gay

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself):  This will have to wait until a special reveal. (Future cosplay things.)

9. What do you/did you study?: ... Does Egyptian history count?

10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have?: [Nervous laughter] I have no idea what I’d like to do for a job. 

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11. Your birth order: First child

12. How many siblings do you have?: 1 “real” sibling, but so many siblings by bond.

13. Do you have good relations with your family?: Biological family? Absolutely not. Except for two of my cousins. They are cool.

14. How many friends do you have?: Too many that it’s obnoxious. [Just kidding, I appreciate you all.]

15. Your relationship status: Taken/Engaged

16. What do you look for in a SO?: Someone who can kick my ass. [Who can handle my anger outbursts]

17. Do you have a crush?: No. 

18. When did you have your first kiss?: When I was 14. It was forced and was a terrible experience. 

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands?: Meaningful ones, funny enough.

20. What are your deal breakers?: Overly clingy, too loud, not respectful of my music choices

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21. How was your day?: Cold. Snowstorm happened today.

22. Favourite food & drink: Pizzas/cheeseburgers || Strawberry slushie with tapioca pearls/orange juice

23. What position do you sleep in?: Fetal position. [Hahahah... ha.]

24. What was your last dream about?: Cannot remember.

25. Your fears: The ocean [drowning], deep forests.. uhh... There are others but I cannot think of it at the moment

26. Your dreams: To be on my goddamn motorcycle, livin’ a good life without my mental illness in the way.

27. Your goals: See above.

28. Any pets?: Not yet! Planin’ to get a black cat soon!

29. What are your hobbies?: Music and readin’

30. Any cool places in your area?: Pfft, no. It’s so fuckin’ boring here.

31. What was your last awkward situation?: I was at Tim Horton’s and there was a baby cryin’ behind me so I looked over at it and played... peek-a-boo with them. It was...weird. But at least the baby shut up. The mother didn’t do shit to make the baby stop cryin’ so.. Great Parenting.

32. What is your last regret?: Well too many to really talk about but I’ll go with the funny route and my last regret was not goin’ to Burger King yesterday and eatin’ salad instead of a burger. 

33. Language/s you can speak: English

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.): Not really. It’s all just whatever for me.

35. Have any quirks?: I bite my nails often... I pretend to conduct music while it is playing... uh...???

36. Your pet peeves: Everything.

37. Ideal vacation: Anywhere away from North America.

38. Any scars?: Many. 

39. What does your last text message say?: “Nah”

40. Last 5 things from your search history: Twitter, Vargskelethor’s twitch, Cloud Strife, YouTube, FF7 remake release date

41. What's your [device] background?: RK900 from Detroit Become Human

42. What do you daydream about?: Usually having super strength and throwing people whom bother me across the world or just... punchin’ them. 

43. Describe your dream home: A  simple house, really. Nothin’ too fancy. Just the idea of havin’ my own house? Even if it isn’t that big or anythin’... That is a dream for me. Oh, and I want it painted black. Hah.

44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion: I’d say I’m atheist but... I do believe in God. I AM God. :)

45. Your personality type:  ISTP-T

46. The most dangerous thing you've done: [Looks at the list of dangerous things I have done] ... There are too many

47. Are you happy with your current life?: At the moment? Yeah. There are things I am still angry about but it’s... fine.

48. Some things you've tried in your life: Smoking. Drawing. Singing. Writing. Playing the guitar. ???

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49. What does your wardrobe consist of?: Black and reds. 

50. Favourite colour to wear?: Black.

51. How would you describe your style?: Goth/punk

52. Are you happy with your current looks?: Eh.. Not really but it’s all I got.

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be?: Grow. Damn. Facial. Hair. Holy FUCK.

54. Any tattoos or piercings?: Snake bites. But I took one out so only one lip piercing now. And tattoos? Soon. Very soon. [Gonna be Higgs’ themed, baby.]

55. Do you get complimented often?: No and when I do I make it Stop. I hate it. Never compliment me. 

56. Favourite aesthetic?: Black/gold aesthetics as of late.

57. A popular trend that you dislike: Everything. I hate them all.

- [FINALLY THE ONES I WANTED, JESUS CHRIST]

58. Songs you're currently obsessed with?:  Allesfresser by LINDEMANN 

It’s a great song to listen to for me because I just punch my punching bag to this song. Makes my anger just... go away. It’s fuckin’ nice.

59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like: .... Let’s Dance by David Bowie

I am a new fan of David Bowie. It just literally started in July or late June. I’m the typical metal head but for some reason Bowie just caught my ear? I dunno, man.

60. Favourite genre?: METAL. Well, Power Metal. I love all sorts of metal except for like.. most death metal/black metal. It is too much for me sometimes. But yeah, if yall are into metal... I’m all ears. I love talkin’ about metal.

61. Favourite artist/band/genre?: Well I already spoke about my favorite genre. For favorite bands? God... Uh.. I have a list here of favorite bands/musicians. Check it out if you’re interested. 

62. Hated popular songs/artists?: Honestly? I’m gonna be one of those guys and say pretty much everything on the radio these days. I don’t like pop/rap and all the most popular stuff. Turning the radio on is ear torture these days. Except for the rock channel, that one is okay most of the time.

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5:

1 - System of a Down’s Chop Suey in the Style of Ghost by Ten Second Songs

This guy is simply AMAZING. If yall haven’t already, you NEED to check out his channel. He is wicked talented and he has different styles for different songs. Like for example, Metallica’s Enter Sandman in the style of David Bowie. It’s amazing. 

Check him out. His YouTube is Ten Second Songs.

2 - City by Hollywood Undead

This one just gives me my inner Higgs’ vibes. That is really all I can say.

3 - Mein Teil by Rammstein

4 - Cars by Fear Factory

5 -  龍が如く極 - Turning Point [From Yakuza Kiwami]

Yeah, hi. Yakuza fan here. Do I have to say any more? 

64. Can you sing or play any instruments?: I can kind of sing, [very badly, mind you] and sort of play the guitar. I’m tryin’ to learn Come as You Are by Nirvana at the moment... but that’s about it

65. Do you like karaoke?: 

.... Yes. My inner Nishiki in me just cannot lie about this.

66. Own any albums?: Absolutely. I am a firm believer in albums rather than just buying them digitally. I love having an actual copy in my hands rather just on the computer. 

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations?: Not really. I only listen to the rock station.

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68. Favourite movie/series?: Star Wars.

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc: Uhhh... I don’t know

70. Your fictional crush/es: Sam Fuckin’ Porter Bridges, General Hux, RK900...

71. Which fictional character is you?: [Chuckles nervously] 

Higgs Monaghan-- 

Too many to write down. I’ll just pass myself the trouble.

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so: Eh not really. Only like.. Gavin/RK900 [Reed900] and General Hux/Kylo Ren [Kylux/Huxlo]

73. Favourite greek god?: Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh? I don’t know?

74. A legend from where you live that you like: None.

75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist?: I’m gonna be cheesy and say all of my friends because it’s true. I love my friends art.

76. Can you share your other social media?: Yeah sure. My twitter is @hiiggsmonaghan

77. Favourite youtubers?: Markiplier, Jacksepticeye... Streamers: Vargskelethor and Vinesauce

78. Favourite platform?: Tumblr and Twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet?: .. Too long

80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite?: Ones I have PLAYED that are my favorite: Pokemon, Devil May Cry, Final Fantasy XV, Yakuza 0/Kiwami. 

I also have a lot a games I love that I just watched. Like a lot of Legend of Zelda games and of course Death Stranding!

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts): Anything really by William Blake. I guess that really isn’t a “book” but.. all I really read are poems, Shakespearean plays and Egyptian history books.

82. Do you play board/card games?: No

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema?: No

84. Favourite holiday: Halloween

85. Are you into dramas?: Not really.

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86. Would you use death note, if you had one?: ABSOLUTELY. And I do have one. Well... a replica. Not the real one of course.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to?: Get rid of the racists, rapists, pedos and homo/trans phobes. The world would just be more pleasant to live in, yeah?

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse?: Probably. Because I stay inside a lot anyway.

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be?: A demon because I am that fuckin’ edgy.

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death?: VOID OUT, BITCH. Uh, I don’t know. 

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick?: I did change my name so I am happy with it. 

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week?: Uh.. No one. Can that be an option?

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo: The devil smiling one I guess?

94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true

1. I am in a poly relationship while I am also engaged.

2. I have a knife collection

3.I still used an mp3 instead of using my phone for music

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95. Cold or hot?: ... Cold because you can get warm with blankets and sweaters while if you are hot, it’s damn impossible to not be hot.

96. Be a hero or be a villain?: Hero in my eyes, but to all of you I’m the villain for some DAMN reason.

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme?: Sing I guess. Imagine singing in metal. Holy SHIT

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time?: CONTROLLING TIME.

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?: Immune to everything. I’m sick of being sick.

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And there you have it. I’m... fuckin’ DONE. This took literal HOURS, ANON. I hope yall read through this.

[noisymusicpeach]

I've decided to start writing some hollywood undead fan fiction/stories

Becuse Why not

But I have no idea on wich site to post any suggestions ?

[kingsbridgelibraryteens]

Middle School Monday: Monstrous: The Lore, Gore, and Science Behind Your Favorite Monsters by Carlyn Beccia 

This book takes a deep dive on eight famous monsters that are fictional, but which were also inspired by real people, creatures, and historical events. Each chapter explores the monster’s fictional history, but then takes off in all different directions that readers might not expect. For example, the chapter on Frankenstein’s monster includes the real history of trying to reanimate corpses, how and why Mary Shelly wrote her novel, and famous mad scientists. The chapter on Dracula includes the history of vampires in Hollywood, and how to tell the difference between the dead and the undead. The chapter on zombies includes the items that should be in your zombie preparedness kit. The chapter on werewolves includes real shape-shifting creatures. The stories themselves, plus the awesome and eye-catching illustrations, will draw curious readers like moths to a flame.

Give this book to kids, teens, and even adults who are fans of monsters (and monster books), history, science, and truth that is stranger than fiction!

[coldeternalarchive]

Matt’s Winter 4

Matt’s Winter 4/15 Matt/George

Matt took off walking, not waiting to see if Jorel or Aron were coming after him.  That was the good thing about winter in California, it was cool enough but not freezing.  The weather had just  enough  bite to spur him on to walk faster.  He walked as far as the closest bus stop and caught a bus home.

George.  What the actual hell?  George had said nothing at all to him and hell, he had assumed George had kicked him out of the band.  He hadn’t even spoken to George since he’d been back.  Maybe he should change that?  What if it was playing right into what Aron wanted?  Why was it Aron’s fucking business anyway?  As soon as he got home he showered and tried to forget everything.  It wasn’t easy.  In fact it wasn’t happening at all. He lay in bed thinking of George and Aron and Aron with Jorel.  He had not really thought of George much, George was usually loud and pushy, or just loud in general, but...he had his moments he supposed.  He couldn’t imagine what George saw in him. The blowhard Irish dude hadn’t said much to him on that tour and had stuck mainly with Dylan and Jordon.  Still he had watched him kiss Jordon once and it seemed…..nice?  He guessed.  He liked George’s lips, and the more he thought of them the nicer they seemed.  Aron had called George “FIsh lips” once and down deep Matt got the feeling Aron and George really didn’t like each other much.  So why was Aron trying to set them up?  Wondering this he fell asleep. When Matt made it to the kitchen the next day, his parents were rushing around in a happy state he had not seen them in in quite a while.  One of his father’s wealthier colleagues was retiring and had invited everyone he knew on a free trip to Vegas to max out his expense account one last time.   They were getting packed and chatting about all the shows they wanted to see and buffets they wanted to try.   By the afternoon they had left him some money for food, told him to only drive if he needed to (even though he assured them his  head was fine) and had left for the airport. Matt put back a little of the money for it’s intended purpose and then went straight to the liquor store.   He wanted something cheap that would do the job fast and decided on Irish Whiskey and cheap grape wine that was more alcohol than anything.  He went back to his room, put on the tv and began to drink.  He drank through The Today Show, he drank through Wheel of Fortune and by the time Judge Judy came on he was actually enjoying himself quite a bit and decided to slow down a bit.  He ordered a pizza, ate and went back to drinking.  He thought of Aron, he thought of Jorel.  He thought of how great it would be if both of them just ceased to exist.    He dreamed of packing his things and going to a new place where no one knew him and no one had formed some fucked up opinion of him already. By the time the five o’clock news came on he decided he needed to see George.  He needed to see if what Aron had said was true.  If there was even a shred of truth to it all, he had to find out.   He took the longest route he could, knowing full well he was too drunk to drive and not giving a shit either way.   He avoided the freeways and cruised down back streets and alleys, barely dodging trash cans and a few kids who were still playing outside and not inside with an Xbox. Finally he lurched up to curb outside George’s house.  He managed to navigate the sidewalk well enough but forgot about the front porch step and fell forward into the door. “What the hell?!” was the angry, muffled response from inside.  The door opened before Matt could right himself and he fell into George despite the fact that his mind was telling his limbs desperately to move, move, move! “What----!?  Oh, hey….”  George grabbed his shoulders.  “You okay?”  He squinted. Just came by to say hello was what Matt said in his mind.  “....Jello…” was what came out. “Um…...okay….you should come in.”   George helped him inside the small house.  “Sit down.” “I um….I….we hadn’t….um...talk?”  Matt managed. “I’m gonna get you some water.  Sit tight.” “Mmm..kay..”  The couch Matt was sitting on had belonged to George’s grandmother.  It was burnt orange and easily the ugliest thing Matt had ever seen.  It always felt like he was sitting on a giant dead muppet. George brought him a glass of ice water from the tap and Matt sipped it cautiously, trying so hard to make his mouth form the words in his head. “I’m ….sorry….about the tour….we hadn’t…..I wanted to see you…”  He managed before taking another drink. “Dude, don’t worry about that.  Aside from drunk, how are you?” Matt shrugged. George eyed him.  “Wanna do a line?  I could at least understand you a bit better.” Everything in Matt told him he did not want to do this and yet his lips parted and said “Sure” George grinned and disappeared momentarily.  He returned with a the smallest ziploc bag Matt sshad ever seen, carefully measured out some white powder and handed it and a straw to Matt.  Matt closed his eyes and recalled every movie he’d ever watched on such things and imitated as best he could.  Instantly his sinuses began to burn and it felt like he had swallowed sand and gravel or possibly Ajax.  A second later he was no longer clouded, he was alert enough to know he did not want anymore.   “Nope gotta do the other side too.”  George laughed, pointing his other nostril.   Matt did what he was told and the burning transferred itself to the other side of his face. “.....holy shit.” George just laughed and did some himself before carefully setting the small compact (where the hell did he get a make up compact anyway?) on the scratched up wooden coffee table.. “I….I got in a fight with Aron and went to sleep in the RV and… that’s when I got sick and I didn’t want to tell anyone because I didn’t want to be babied, because Jorel said I was a big baby anyway and I got sick and I swear I didn’t mean to pass out, and  it cost us the tour.  I am so sorry, dude!  Do you hate me?” “You could have died!  You scared the fucking hell out of me! No I don’t hate you.  I’m just glad you’re okay!” “Really?”  Matt slid a little closer.  “Aron….um...said you stayed with me in the hospital.” “Yeah I’m fucking sorry I got us kicked out.  I don’t like prissy bitches in uniform telling me what to do.” “Those were nurses, George.” “So?” “So I thought you fucking abandoned me!!!  I had no idea where I was and I thought you kicked me out of the band and just ditched me somewhere!!”  Matt yelled, the outburst taking him by surprise as much as George.  “I sat on that bus for nine hours thinking I had no friends and that I deserved being left in a hospital in the middle of fucking nowhere!!” “No, no!!”  George scooted closer.  “We were there the whole time, we were just downstairs, I guess we didn’t think to get word to you.  Dylan said you attacked him---” “Oh fuck him!!” George chuckled.  “It’s okay, it’s over now.” Matt leaned closer. “George, are you….do you...you don’t hate me do you?I”” “Of course not.”   Matt leaned forward. “Is there anything you need to tell me?” George frowned. “Um no I don’t think so.  We didn’t make any money really on the tour, just barely had enough to get us back home. If we’d made any I’d give it to you.  You can ask the others, nobody got anything.” “That’s not what I meant!  Aron said….  Aron said you…” “I what?” “That you wanted...to get with me.” “He what!?  When did he say that?”  George was instantly hostile and in Matt’s mind that’s all the proof he needed that Aron was lying. “FUCK!!”  Matt jumped from the couch.  “Fucking Aron!  I fucking hate him!  He told me to come here!  He told me to ask you and he knew!  He fucking knew it wasn’t true!  He just wanted me to make a fool of myself, him and Jorel---!!!” “Matt, it’s okay, Aron has a big mouth---!” Matt wasn’t listening, he was heading for the door. “I’m sorry!  I’m sorry I barged in and ruined your night!!  You could have done anything else instead of babysitting me.  Everything Jorel said was right!! FUCK!  I am so stupid! ” “Hey!!”  George grabbed his arm and it made him jump.  “You’re not going anywhere.  You were fucked up enough when you came here and I just made it worse.  You’re not going back out.  Come on over the crash room.” The crash room was a modified closet that George had attempted to make into an extra bedroom with a lamp and mattress on the floor for when any friend was too drunk to drive home.  The mattress smelled like vomit but most of the time if you slept there you were too drunk to notice, at least until in the morning. Matt panicked, George had a vice grip on his arm.  He wasn’t sure how mad George was or what he was going to do but he knew he was the cause and it was all Aron’s fault  Worse, he knew he had to do what George said because he was in no state to fight him.  What was George going to do to him?  How mad was he?    As all this went through his head, he burst into tears. “Come on, man.  Lay down.  I’m gonna get you some water.  Gimmie your keys.”  George didn’t wait, but pulled them from his pocket, the movement like a bolt of fear straight through Matt’s already overstimulated brain. “Jorel was right….I didn’t deserve Aron, he deserved better…...you  all did, you should have left me….I’ve ruined the tour….you should have left me behind...I’m so sorry...”  He mumbled to himself as George walked him the short distance and held his arm as he lowered himself on the mattress. “Dude, I know it’s hard but you need to sleep.  Just lay down, okay?  Stare at the ceiling, talk yourself down….I’ll be up anyway.  I’ll stay up with you.” Matt wasn’t listening as he lay down on the mattress.  Things were popping into his head faster and faster and he had no idea that those things weren’t staying in his head but coming straight out of his mouth. “I should have stayed on the bus.  I should never have come back here.  Jorel was right about everything.  Why did I even try?  I shouldn’t have come home.  No one wants me here and I ruin everything…….tomorrow I’m going home….get some things and leave…they’ll never find my body...mom and dad are in Vegas, they’ll never know...I can leave a note saying we’re back on tour...they won’t even think to question it….why did I come back?  Why didn’t I just keep going?   Why did I listen to Aron?   Why did I go over there?  I should have never came here.  Everyone hates me, everyone will be so happy when I’m so stupid, I should have known he was lying.  Why the fuck would you care about me?  Why did I have to wake up?  Why couldn’t I have died and saved everyone the trouble?!  I wanna go back!  I wanna die!!!.” He babbled to himself until he fell asleep, not realizing George was just a few feet away the whole time. He had no idea what time it was when he woke up again. There was light coming in the windows and he felt like he had swallowed a sandbox.   He sat up on the mattress and blinked.   There, across the room, Aron sat staring at him.  He jumped up but before he could even open his mouth or form a rational thought, Aron was already speaking. “George said you were talking about killing yourself..because of me..” “Get out the way.”  Forgetting he did not have his keys, Matt aimed himself at the door. “NO!!  George said you were going to go straight home and kill yourself!!”   Aron stepped in front of him, standing in between him and the door.   “Get away from me you fucking liar!!” Matt tried to sidestep him but George’s vocal counterpart was just as quick and moved once again between him and the door.  Without thinking further Matt pulled back and punched Aron so hard he dropped to the floor.    Aron popped back up, rubbing a hand over his injured mouth, but annoyingly staying put and Matt was just about to clock him again when suddenly he was face to face with the floor, the wind knocked out of him.  It took him a full minute to catch his breath and realize George had tackled him. “Johnny what the hell?!”  He blurted out, not thinking, just reacting.  It was then he felt something locking tight around his wrists. “Don’t worry, I got his keys and he ain’t going anywhere.” Were those handcuffs?  When did George get handcuffs and what was George going to do with him now?  The panic was rising again even worse and he fought against George but was clearly going nowhere.  From what he could see of the floor, Aron’s shoes were firmly planted and he wasn’t going anywhere either.  Oh god, what are they going to do to me?! “Dude, don't hurt him.”  He heard Aron say. “I’m not, I’m just going to keep him from leaving until he calms down…..Or hurting himself or punching me like he did you.   You okay?” Aron sighed and his sneakers stayed where they were.. “Thanks for coming out so fast.”  That voice belonged to George. “....Yeah…”  Aron answered, sounding like he regretted it.  “Sure you don’t want me to stay?” “Well as much as I’d love to watch him punch you again…” George started to laugh.   “I got it from here.” Aron sighed again. “Okay, just don’t let him do anything.”   His sneakers turned and walked from Matt’s line of vision. “Don’t worry, he’s not going anywhere until he calms down”  Then the ground moved and Matt grunted as George pulled him to his feet and walked him into his own bedroom. Matt’s heartbeat in his own chest was now so fast it was painful and rushed in his ears like a tidal wave. “What the fuck are you doing?!”   His voice came back to him in a yelp. “You’re gonna lay down here until you calm down and then we are going to talk.”  George dumped him on the bed, not exactly gently, and took off Matt’s shoes and socks.  “Want some water?” “Let me go you fucking pervert!! Get me out of these damn cuffs!!  I’m sorry for what I said, all right?” “I don’t care what you say to me, you’re not getting up until you’ve calmed down and stopped talking about killing yourself.” “It’s none of your fucking business if I wanna kill myself.”  Matt sat up, defiantly. George leaned down quickly, his nose nearly touching Matt’ “It is my fucking business because you’re my god damned friend, okay?  We’re gonna talk later.  Lay down and go back to sleep!”  George growled and pushed him backwards, hard enough that Matt’s head hit the metal bed frame and momentarily he was knocked senseless.   George didn’t seem to notice and stomped from the room, closing the door behind him. He lay on the unmade bed, heart thundering in his ears.  If he craned his neck he could see the slanted shadows the venetian blinds cast on the walls.  His head pounded and he closed his eyes thinking of the last time he had felt like this: small, trapped, cornered and helpless.  It was in the RV after running from the room, after Aron and Jorel…….Aron and Jorel……  I’ve been played again….they’re going to tell everyone.  I was going to kill myself. I SHOULD HAVE! I can never show my face again….. Not knowing how long he’d slept, if at all, Matt woke to find the house silent and himself still bound.  He cleared his throat and found  it was scratchy and dry as it had been  before.  He wondered absently if he could get up and duck his head under a dripping faucet but it seemed like too monumental a task.   Had  George left the air conditioner on?   He didn’t hear it but suddenly the room seemed freezing.  He reached for the bedspread, grabbed it in his shackled hands and then rolled over, trying to make a human burrito of himself as best he could.  It was still cold but at least it was something.  He thought of getting up and somehow trying to walk home with his hands cuffed behind him but he was just too tired. An ice cold hand on his face woke him up with a start. “Holy shit, you’re burning up!!!”  It was George’s voice but it was too hard to open his eyes to look at him. “I’m so sorry.  I left and…..lost track of time, forgot you were tied up…..shit!!”   George’s hands were shaking as they sought his through the covers and suddenly with a click the handcuffs were pulled off him and his hands fell at his sides. You left me to go score, you fucking asshole, that’s why you lost track of time! The thought barely formed in Matt’s mind before it was gone. “I’m cold….”  He managed, pulling the bedding around him once more and pressing himself hard against the mattress for warmth. “I’m so sorry.” George repeated.  “I’m going to get you some aspirin.” Matt wrapped his arms around himself and fell asleep under the mess of covers he’d gathered around himself. He didn’t remember a thing until he was forced up from the deep waters of unconsciousness by George pushing something to his lips.  Matt opened his eyes and saw a bottle of purple liquid with a squeeze top. Don’t drink it, it’s poison!  He hates you!   Everything would have been fine if you hadn’t opened your big mouth about how he wanted to fuck you.  He tied you up and now that you’re weak he’s going to feed you poison and watch you die!!! “No, please…..please don’t…”  Matt twisted his face away. “You have to drink something!  You’re sick!  I don’t know where your folks are.  I don’t know how to help you if you won’t take any aspirin for your fever!!”   George was clearly distraught but it was lost on  Matt. It has to be poison, it’s purple, nothing else is purple!  You made him mad and now he’s going to kill you!! You’re weak and you’re cold and you can’t fight back!  You shouldn’t have hit Aron.  He and  Aron and Jorel are all in it together “I’m sorry!!”  Matt sobbed.  “Don’t make me!” “Dude, I’m not going to hurt you!  It’s Gatorade for god’s sake!  You want water instead? You have to drink something, you’ve been laying there for two days and I’ve been a complete asshole.  Please drink something or I’m gonna have to take you to the hospital again.” Something had changed in George’s voice and Matt started calm down, the voices in his head going silent.- Water sounded good.  He nodded. “All I have is aspirin.  I’m gonna go borrow some money.   I’m going to take care of you.” Matt was shaking so hard with chills he had to have help taking the aspirin and drank almost half the bottle of water before sliding back in bed and shuddering as he pulled the covers over him once more. (more to come)