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#I CAN FEEL THE HYPERFIXATION TAKING OVER
audible301 · 8 months
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Tempted to straight up start a ghost blog…
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heymacy · 30 days
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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder
╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher
#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies#(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless#shamelessnet#shamelessedit#ian gallagher#cameron monaghan#*macygifs#bipolar disorder#hello pals how are we doin#i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags#and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation#that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day#world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder#which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life#while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life#and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines#over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful#i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended#hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles#world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder#and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all#it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen#so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it#i promise#anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder#go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives
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kyouka-supremacy · 6 months
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I think we should just bring back Wungo Wednesday and start a fandom collective anime rewatch
#Because otherwise I can feel I won't last much longer#Because like. The last two hyperfixations of mine ended the moment I started feeling like there wasn't any new content#And two days ago in one day I started a new manga a new book and rewatching a favourite show#Whereas I hadn't started anything new in the two years ever since I got into bsd. Which makes it NOT a good sign#But the bsd anime has now ended for one month and 25 days and that's the last time the plot actually moved forward.#And if I counted right. The manga took 4 chapters (that is chapters 110-111) to adapt 6 minutes#That means it's going to take another 12 months (18 minutes left to adapt. that's 12 more chapters) to catch up with the anime#Yeah I'm not. sticking around this long with nothing new to see I'm sorry#Best case scenario I take a one year hiatus but that doesn't make it sound likely that I'll be back#And I know it's fresh news as early as this morning that author said they were introducing a new character but like.#They also said they finished writing this arc like. One year and half ago if I remember correctly?#And we still have yet to see the end of i t so...#That is to say. I'll probably be starting an anime rewatch starting next Wednesday. I've been meaning to do it for a while anyway#I don't want to leave the fandom I like the one chapter a month format#On the positive news I still have a queue of original posts that spans over ten months#And I was meaning to start the reblogs queue too in these days. So there's that#random rambles
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junk-jester · 24 days
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Kinda tempted to play In Stars and Time.
Haven't had any existential crises or a good cry in a while, so a time loop indie rpg seems like the perfect outlet for that sorta thing, based on what I've heard about it while naturally trying to avoid spoilers. 👍 /j
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sapphossidechick · 11 months
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dni if you:
are the leader of a revolution, are a member of a revolution, are the marble lover of liberty, are someone else’s one true satellite, are a chief, a guide, a center, or a skeptic, have a pun for a name, are part of a group that has a pun for a name, can draw from memory a silkworm moth, are the only person in your friend group with a first name, make fans, are a gay but unlucky fellow, really like Poland, waste three thousand francs a year, like to look at your tongue in the mirror, or have joined a club you’re not even interested in for one person
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queerxqueen · 5 months
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oh my god my parksborn era was when I ventured onto fandom twitter. i have no record of it on this account, never even posted fic promo. why does this feel so tragic to me??? a loss of personal fandom history on par with the library of alexandria possibly
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silenthillbunni · 3 months
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#i hate being in pain like this#bc it completely takes over my life. like im incapable of thinking of anything else#im incapable of relaxing or enjoying anything. i cant do important things. cant do anything else but sit still nd be in pain#it just renders me completely useless and makes me stop functioning properly#im just a hopeless mess made of anxiety nd sadness. idk why but i just hyperfixate on it and i cant 'let go' or relax or not think abt it#idk how other ppl do it.... i wish i wasnt like this bc it's awful. it's like the only thing that exist nd ever will exist is this pain 4evr#im dramatic i know but ​it genuinely feels like my entire life is over and i'll ever know is pain nd nothing will ever get better again#im so caught up in it i cant see anything else but my pain. i cant think of the future bc do i have one?? i dont know#im just not feeling good at all. and everything feels bleak and depressing and i dont want it :((#i cant have any fun or nice moments at all and im just tired of life#i feel so fkn stressed abt all the things i need to do nd all my responsibilities and idk how i'll do them when im in this pain#i just hope it can calm down soon i just want it to be a little bit easier just a little bit#getting thru each day now is so fkn hard i barely sleep but when i do i wish i never wake up#i hate everything and it feels like my future is fucked#which makes me wanna die!! but it also makes me sad bc there is actually sm i want to live for#i dont want it all to be ruined bc i want to try to live!!!! :(#and yess im know im being dramatic but i cant help it. im weak nd im terrible at dealing w pain nd issues#im not a strong person who can withstand everything nd finds ways to live either way. maybe it's bc my will to live isnt that strong#idk. i just hate this i want it to be over. it's taking over my life nd idk how to still function like this
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zombsbian · 7 months
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woa,, , ,, ,,,,, many thoughts on f&c finale word vomit incoming,,,, the body horror in ep 9 was unexpected but maybe my favorite part especially with the lich,, , ,, ,,,,, shermy and beth got me excited i love that theyre rebels against gibbon also fucked up that jakes grandson is a fascist wad THE BUS SCENE WAS REALLY GOOD im not ever going to get over "you were a wonderful experience" "you were everything" thats gonna haunt me forever,,,,,,, cake was so right that nothing will top baby world i'll never get enough of baby finn i'd watch another 10 eps just abt him being trained but pepbut tank
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bougiebutchbitch · 10 months
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comic concept from popular fandom that loads of people are interested in: this does not bring joy
comic concept from far less popular fandom that WAY fewer people are interested in: this one brings joy?????
why, brain. every time.
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siena-sevenwits · 10 months
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#I've spent the past week organizing in the play's wake - sorting and laundering huge numbers of costumes#some to return to those they belong to and some to come home to my costume storage room which had become chaotic over the last few#months#so a complete spring cleaning for the storage room became part of my task list too. Now the play's been over for a week#and the emails are starting to come in from admin about next year. As some of you know I did a lot of discernment this semester#about what next year should look like and I have decided a mix of continuity is best. I won't be working for my 'main' schoolboard anymore#but I will continue to teach and direct for the one program in the city (the one I did the play for) and possibly with a new home school#enrichment program that may go ahead this year if there are sufficient numbers. Otherwise I am going to spend a semester#tutoring and running workshops f I can get it off the ground. Then we'll see.#Anyway - admin wants me to get new syllabi in to them within a month's time so my thoughts are all in that direction!#I get to teach 19th/20th century Canadian history to the middle schoolers and Late Antique/Medieval Church History to the high schoolers!#Also direct another play and do a humanities course centred around an epic in the spring (the last couple of years we've done Iliad and#Odyssey - they want Aeneid this year but I am trying to talk them into another option. The Aeneid is valuable but I am not sure it's the#time or place with this group of students. The result of all this is that I am spending far too much time doing Internet research for ideas#and then taking breaks on tumblr - which isn't good for my eyes or mental health. What with the play and end of term#I fear I've been out of the reading habit. I'm still hyperfixating on the Book of Romans so there's that at least#but I lost the novel I was in the middle of and am not feeling so motivating with out books. It's a proper reading slump! I need a kickstar#of sorts. Feel free to yell at me that I should pick up a book!
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kurolini909 · 13 days
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Just finished The Legacy of Yangchen yesterday...
I'm.
I'm not okay.
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its-your-mind · 2 years
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Finally working my way through C3, and let me just say (and I am aware that I am preaching to the choir) Ashton is an absolute icon and I am both envious of and in love with them.
Like?? This little can of whoop-ass carries a hammer around that just says FUCK OFF. He is the Most Gender Ever, but also gives absolutely No Shits whatsoever about gender. They looked at the rules, said “fuck that” and walked away.
Which is how they approach most rules. Tbh absolute icon. Any social rule or general guideline that doesn’t make sense just gets thrown the fuck out the window.
This motherfucker cares not one tiny little bit what anyone thinks of them. But!! That doesn’t stop him from forming connections to new people so fast! But also they think trust is bullshit! He throws himself into danger to save people he’s only known for like six days!
His brain is just There. He is incredibly fucked up from some past event and has been repaired by glass and gold. They simply do not acknowledge this ever.
He’s like, REALLY good at talking to people who exist in the same layer of society as him, but is absolute bullshit at lying and bribing Anyone at Any Point. He knows how to use thieves tools and can Pass Without A Trace, but is like… So Aggressively Not A Rogue
Their best friends are a therapy robot, a hopeful musician, and some tinkerer. All of them Can And Will fuck you up.
I just love this funky little earth genasi they are an Icon but also so so SO fucked up but in all the best ways. I am So Ready to be emotionally wrecked by them. FUCK I’m excited for this campaign
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violetwolfraven · 4 months
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God I hate Pinterest and I really need to stop reading the comments on literally any post on there
I just saw someone straight up say they’re afraid that show fans who haven’t read the books are going to take over and dominate the fandom and they’re afraid that their memories of the books are going to get overridden by memories of the show because of new show fans, and that’s a good reason to gatekeep.
Like okay, just say you’re a party pooper and go home.
Yeah this is about Percy Jackson but I’m not gonna tag it as that cause I don’t wanna get hunted for sport
#i say this as someone who read the books repeatedly as a kid#like was full on autistic hyperfixated on these books and would read one book in 2 days#and when i finished blood of olympus i would start back over and read from the lightning thief#i’m not exaggerating when i say i think i read each book at least 12 times#these books were so very important to me and i would not be the person i am today without them#and i have zero sympathy for people who want to gatekeep the story from people who didn’t read the books#like sorry i have real problems#and what exactly do you think you’re accomplishing beyond making someone’s day a little worse?#acting like there’s some pure pristine way to experience the story? give me a break#you can love one version of this story and let other people love another version#it took me a while to see that because i was a teenager who liked being angry but that includes the movies too#do i like the movies? not really#but there are people who do and in the end i don’t gain anything by shaming them#god there are some people who treat popular book series like the fucking bible#like it’s some moral crusade they have to go on to defend them from heretics who like the wrong version of the story#grow up and let people enjoy things#*this rant is not aimed at the children saying shit like this#*y’all will grow up and hopefully be more mature about what hills are worth dying on#*this is for the grown ass adults who act like it’s their sacred duty to shit on any changes made from the books#*and if it offends you then you probably need to take a step back and look at why you feel so threatened by other people enjoying things
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leafytaffy · 1 year
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What to do when you want to enjoy this media that also means a whole lot to you but are hesitant because of this huge drama surrounding the creators that made more than 50% of the fandom dip
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hemipteran · 1 year
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somewhere along the way we got so fucked up that it’s literally tedious and difficult to imagine a better future for ourselves. do u know how sad that is. everyone should make a little dream collage or smthing I think that would make things better. draw ur ideal house n garden and what perfection looks like to u good shit like that. Ideas, dreams, love n hope are the currency the future is built on babey . Like literally. U have no idea
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sortarapunzel · 1 year
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clawing at the walls every time i come across a new sansûkh song. this time maybe by half alive
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