#I LOVE YOU BABEH ^3^

[mimimarilynart]

Happy New Year 2023!!! For my bae @toastedbuckwheat <33333333333

[siixkiing]

Have the urge to draw some cute ship babehs — like or comment if you’d like a babeh? Have some already planned.

[triona-tribblescore]

I love your baby Mikey and Donny adventures so much!

Thank you uvu <3

His Ninpo seems to be stronger as a babeh for some reason

[turnertable]

I’m suffering the post-concert blues from a festival I didn’t even physically attend, only through a TV (Glastonbury of course!) and was wondering if I could put in a request for just some general fluff between Alex and the reader after his show with the monkeys at glasto this year? Maybe reader being just extremely proud and some tired but cute as fuck fluffiness. I’m not great with actually putting my ideas into words and describing them, sorry! Hope you understand what I’m on about <3

written by meee, first fic. sorry if it's shit

warnings: none, just silly sick Alex fluff

word count: 2k

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Sick Day at Glastonbury

(Alex Turner x Reader) (the car era !)

(gif credit to @alexturner )

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The final chords of R U Mine? buzzed across the field of Worthy Farm, Somerset and Alex finally breathed out after all the excitement of the Glastonbury Festival. "Third time's a charm." Alex said under his breath as he did his bows and blew the kisses like usual, turning to his bandmates to leave the stage with a smile. His voice was on the brink of collapse but the attention was enough to make him want to do it all over again.

At the side of the stage, stood her. His pride and joy, the one person he needed to prove himself worthy to still, to impress. Even with the mirrorball right there, somehow she glowed brighter. Y/N could hardly contain her excitement as she cheered him on at this final hurrah, like she hadn't been screaming his name after every song as a measure of her pride in the band. The anticipation of seeing each other again was magnetic and it only took a few steps.

As the Monkeys left the stage, Y/N offered a soft smile and congratulations to Jamie, Matt and Nick, her voice hoarse from the screaming which the boys could understand and offered her hugs before running off to their girls desperately. Y/N loved Alex to the ends of the earth but dating a lead singer did mean you were left at the side of the stage the longest because he was always the one to cue the lights to go down, this was almost a game to see how long he'd take at each gig she attended. Eventually, Alex got off the stage and smiled so wide at the sight of her, running over and picking her up excitedly.

"Babeh!" He chuckled a bit at his excitement as she clung to him. "We did it!" His voice was getting hoarse since he was supposed to be on vocal rest. Y/N pulled him for a kiss to shut him up which Alex of course didn't mind, it was the only polite way to keep him quiet.

She got down and looked at him like he was a god, noticing his messy hair after and giggling. "Al, you look like a lion" She tried to tame it slightly but it was too far gone plus he looked too cute to try to amend perfection. He smiled back like she was an angel before him and shrugged.

"You seem t' like it tho.." Alex hummed as he wrapped an arm around her waist, attempting to lead her backstage so they could both rest after all the raucous. She smiled and looked down, nodding, "perhaps…" as she followed Alex back to the dressing room, letting him rub her side as the crowd became quieter and quieter.

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Alex opened the door and held it for Y/N, "Ladies first, me love." Y/N slightly swooned at his gentlemanly moves. Even if she was used to his actions, the looks and gravitas of Alex Turner would forever be a shock of her system. She waltzed in and essentially fell onto the sofa from the exhaustion of jumping around for 2 hours, making Alex chuckle softly at the sight.

"You ok, babeh?" He sat on the arm of the chair, coughing as his voice squeaks due to the laryngitis he was facing; frankly the fact he even went out on stage was a feat for only the best. Y/N offered him a sympathetic look and a nod, mumbling out a small "tired." with a whine.

As they shared a moment of mutual sympathy, Alex attempted to pull Y/N to sit up gently so she could lay in his lap from the sofa as he rested his voice, just so she knew that he was there for her, even if he couldn't say it. Y/N complied and Alex's hand found it's way into her hair to softly stroke it as he looked down at her with awe and love. She was his, the muse in every word he wrote, the light of his life. He just hoped she knew it.

Y/N shut her eyes and hummed to herself to fill the silence of where Alex's words would usually occupy, much to his joy. Everything felt perfect in this moment. If the festival hadn't felt like a milestone, this comedown was a haven well deserved. Alex's gaze never left her face, studying it like it was the first time he'd ever seen it: tender touches traced her jaw and cheek. This made Y/N giggle slightly, remaining serene amazingly.

"Alexander, that tickles." One of her eyes opened up for a second to see his reaction with a sweet smile. What voice Alex had left was a breathy, squeaky mess so to avoid being compared to his younger self, he offered a cheeky shrug and a poke on the cheek. Y/N noticed and thought to herself: "Do you want some tea?" She tried to sit up as she voiced her concern for him.

This wasn't just an offer of a beverage and the pair of them knew that: Y/N wanted to look after a very sickly Alex. Being the man of the relationship, he had been handling laryngitis "well" or in actuality, he hadn't been able to have a smoke for a week and lay on the tour bus bunk for hours at a time. However this was not a usual Alex is ill situation, it was Glastonbury and a continuing tour after it: there was little time for reluctance nor resistance to being looked after for Alex. He nodded and let her go to the kettle as he sat on the sofa silently, putting his feet up which Y/N smiled at softly as she turned back to look at him, exchanging a look of "it'll be ok baby".

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On the table that housed the kettle, also sat the record player which Alex always requested on the rider: a man who loved his profession didn't cover it. If Alex wasn't performing, the 8 track or gramophone filled the fleeting seconds until the next time he was on stage. Naturally Y/N got the record from before the show back on, much to Alex's enjoyment as he hummed out as if to say "good job" and leaned his head back. Y/N leaned against the table as the kettle boiled, watching her boyfriend relax and grinning to herself at the sight of Alex Turner relaxing for once in his busy life.

"You good?" Y/N joked, checking he was alright since this was odd for her to see. Alex offered her a thumbs up and a stupid smile, making Y/N actually laugh and narrow her eyes at his need to one-up her joke. Alex's wide smile and her genuine chuckle was rudely interrupted by the click of the kettle going off, leading them to both jump at it which only prompted another soft laugh and gaze between them. Y/N turned back to the table to make their tea, making sure to do it perfectly for Alex, he only deserves the best.

"Now I know it's not beer or the best rolled, organic cigarette but… I think I make a good cuppa." Y/N said all cutely as she set the drink down on the coffee table in front of the sofa. Alex smiled softly and sat up, gazing at her with such a grateful look. No words were needed for Y/N to understand how much Alex loved her and appreciated this. She scurried off to get her tea and came to sit with him, leaning on his shoulder to stay close to him and holding her cup in her hands to stay warm.

"I don't know if you need to hear this because I think the crowd said it for you.." Y/N whispered to him as she continued, "but I'm so fucking proud of you, there's no band that could do that 3 times that well as the monkeys…" Alex immediately turned to her and kissed her temple with need after that reassurance, not being able to thank her vocally. Y/N lit up and sipped her tea before cuddling into him more and sighing. "I'm glad I'm here, to watch you do this…" Y/N just gushed on and on about the band and himself, not quite finding the words specifically but talking like she couldn't ever stop praising him.

Alex's smile felt permanent as far as he was concerned, just the way she made him feel was like a drug and he was so ready to be able to talk properly again so he could tell her that but alas, here he was, non verbal with tea in his hands and a sore throat. "I love ya." Alex squeaked out and blushed slightly, "Sorry luv, it's like we're back int boardwalk, aye?" He continued into the joke to hide the disdain he had for his voice right now.

Y/N smiled brightly and shrugged, "I'd still kiss 20 year old Alex, don't you worry. His voice was cute too…but don't let him out just to talk to me. Vocal rest, Turner." She scolded him slightly but it was all in the name of love and wanting him well again. Alex nodded and smirked at the comment, looking her up and down to be funny, making Y/N tap him softly. "Behave yourself, not like that." Alex was content with that answer and sipped his own drink, listening to the music that filled the room.

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As cups drained and cuddles were exchanged, Alex and Y/N's eyes became heavy with warmth and comfort; "Do we need to go back to the hotel?" Y/N mumbled out, followed by a yawn. Alex hummed in response as he nodded with shut eyes. Stretching and leaving Alex's arms, Y/N giggled slightly, "are we that old now where we won't even enjoy Glastonbury after hours?", causing Alex to crack up a bit. Alex looked at her and shrugged like "yeah and what about it?, the smug persona hadn't left since the last time they were at the festival, just it wasn't to get a girl but in fact, a bed to sleep in with the love of his life.

"Back in a sec." Y/N got up and went to leave to find Steve or anyone from the crew to get the pair of them a ride to the hotel. It was a benefit of dating a rockstar, she got what she wanted with more included but honestly Alex's needs were shared right now. Once the ride was confirmed, she returned to Alex and packed their stuff they desperately needed, anything that the crew wouldn't be able to get them later. Alex came to help and yawned as they waited for the knock on the door to leave. His hand found its way to her waist again, it was his way of keeping her safe within the feeling of fame; plus he knew she liked it. She smiled up at him and rubbed her eyes as the knock came at the door as the cue to go.

They snuck out of the dressing room and out of the back to their security, trying to be as inconspicuous as possible in this massive festival where Alex was already under a lot of pressure. If he was seen ill and half asleep, the NME would have it on the website in an hour. They stayed hidden, heads down and walking fast to that car on the other side of the festival. Luckily, the paps only caught what they couldn't see as the pair stepped into the car and sped off to their hotel.

Alex sighed out and looked over at Y/N who was already looking at him. That knowing gaze was unstoppable at that point. It took a lot to get the rockstar away from the music but for Y/N, the golden boy of Glastonbury Festival would call it a night.

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[missamyrisa2]

miss amy, how would you tickle edge a transmasc cutie with a hyper sensitive t dick?

Ooooh absolutely with the feather my tough guyyyyyy~ there is noooothing more satisfying that seeing a tough cookie crumble with the humble feather ~ and I love for it to be not like a special tickle feather always at my side or something, but the feather I find on my casual stroll to come tickle you. Because that's justttt how easy it is for me to break you down to those lovely silly squeaky giggles. This soft grey little feather I found as I skipped about with sparkly thoughts of how I'm gonna wreck you today. Ahh yes, open up for Amyyyyy. I'm gonna tickle those thighs with my wiggly fingers and kissy lips until you do. I know I know you're a big strong fighter and I'm gonna gitchy all that fight outta you.

Whattttt you don't like my squeaky tease voice? Sorry grumpy pants, Amy's gotta get you all squirmy and silly mmhmm. Oh and speaking of pants! I'll just be taking these. Nope nope, these are mine now. You won't be needing these. And the boxer shorts, yep, make with the shorts. No? I'll be taking them don't you worry. I have my perfect feather for you and I may be girlyyyyy but I'm not above wrestling a skittish fella like youuuu down with my squeezing spidery fingers. Mmmhmm coochie coooo cutie pie. Yes yes you're a tough snickerdoodle that's why you're squirming so much. Tickles don't bother you huhhhh~ not on your sides not on your little tush~! Yeah roll around then, do your tumble, come on boyyyyy. Anddd nope, you're not going anywhere I've got your hipssss I've got your sides and now I'm gonna get those giggles~!

Mmhm and let's just see I'll hold your shorts like soooo and you can squirm and struggle all you like darling as I tickle your belly belly and thighs~ the more you struggle the more you lose your little cute boyshorts! Ooope ooope! look at thatttt. Ahhh ah ahhhh naughty naughty thing I see youuuuu~! I see your royal button tough guy! Now just relax and cooperate with me. Why, yes. This is gonna tickle. It's gonna tickle tickle so much, for your information. Don't get all dramatic ~ just pay attention to me and what I do to your body. Now we start with the feather tip riiiiight down hereee and upp up uppp we goooooo ~ my myyyy such squeaks! Such squirms! I thought you were a tough guy huh? So tough so rough so beastly huh. Yeah you don't crumble for a sweet lil feather and a squeaky girly girl nooooo. Only the toughest stuff for you, baby. And the feather goes upppp and uppp and oooh what's gonna happen? What's gonna happen huhhhh? Is your cute rod gonna get tickled? Yeahhh?

Are we going into architecture? Did you just change majors? Because I seeeee some erecting going on~! Maybe we're going camping. You really wanna show me how you pitch a tent yeahhh? Look at you buck! Look at you go! It's just a feather. Yeahhh just a feather going upppp and downnn and up and downnn your button. Such sounds for such a tough pumpernickel yeahhh. Are you a giggle loaf? I think sooo I think you liiike being tickled down here with my dainty feather yesss. Just that tickly tip, tickling your tip? My myyyy looook at how hard that's getting~! Yes I know, you're a hard case huhhh. Not so tough are we? Oooh but still so defiant and you knowww what I do with defiant tough guys?

Whyyy I kissss and kisss and kisss until you're nothing but a needy giggly mess of course! We'll get alll those grumpies kissed out and feathered out oh yesss we will yes we will ~ Aww sensitive? A little sensitive? Poor babeh. Poor tough cookie. Sorry babyyyy but your ticklemama's got you and she's not letting you go ~ so you just crumble alll you like and I'll snuggle you to me and you can writhe and fall apart on me while I hold you like so, across your waist and keep this feather feather going up and down your adorable dicky dick while I kissy kissss your neck and get allll those lovely lovely sounds outta youu ~<3

[n4talia-chaparro]

i can see my last ask cheered you up a little! but yeah i'm happy you're doing positive agere rep! i'm not a little, or an agere, but i think it's really fitting for the au. smol babeh sneedly in a scary horror setting. the contrast is weirdly fitting imo. anyone who says its 'haRmIng MinORs' is genuinely braindead. fuck those guys, sneedly's epic. -🌀anon

OMGGG FACTTSS I LOVE WRITING LITTLE CHARACTERS- IDK IF ANYONE WANT MORE REPRESENTATION IN THE AU- FUCK THE T.H MEMBER AND ANTI AGERE-

LITLLE / REGRESSOR SNEEDLY RULES !!

MY SILLY SON-- MY CHONKY 3-WEEK-OLD KITTEN-CODED CHILD AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME FROM DRAWING HIM !!!! ‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣🗣

[paperlovesadness]

I saw the Arctic Monkeys live... Almost two weeks ago now (crazy) and it did in fact take me this long to recover enough to write this. So here's some thoughts:

❄️🧊🐒🐒🐒🐒🧊❄️

Well first of all - context - it was a festival. And really not only was it a festival - it was my first festival. And not only was it my first festival - it was really my first live show of a band I cared for and listened to and specifically came to see. (I'm not a babeh nor a babby - I just listen to a lot of dead & retired musicians and AM was my first chance at a live gig that I really wanted to see). So this was like... Super special of an experience to me.

more context: I stood... Many many hours in the spot I secured almost as soon as I walked onto the festival grounds. And therefore saw them from second row. Up close. And... I'd do it again in a heartbeat (but it definitely isn't for everyone and please don't take this as advice and listen to what you yourself know about your body's limits).

🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶

✨Thoughts & feelings & observations✨ :

I've been fully validated in my love for TBHC & The Car.

I can now confidently say that I adore them as albums and also that they are show stealers to me personally in their live versions. They absolutely hold up live.

Listen - yes - the heavier more traditional rock albums full-on destroy live - and I definitely would've cried if I didn't get to hear the classics at my show. I jumped and screamed the lyrics and danced and played out the lyrics. But the songs I got from TBHC and TC? They HIT the most, emotionally.

Maybe it's because both of these albums are in my top 3 of the Monkeys albums in general - or maybe it's because Alex just resonates with them more currently therefore being able to emotionally invest more into them and then that coming across and affecting me. I don't know. I think it's both. And when Sculptures came around... PHEW

Which brings me to: Sculptures like absolutely destroyed me the most of the whole setlist -and I definitely wasn't expecting it.

It's not even my favorite song on The Car (though of course it is up there. And it also was the biggest WOW SHOCK for me on my first album listen). But something about his voice during that song. The emotions. The instrumentals. And the echo they had over all of it... Jeez, it was all just very intense.

Four out of Five.

Not a complete fan of the new arrangement... Because I worship TBHC in it's original form - but even so - that song still slaps in any form. And you best believe I was out there screaming all the verses like there's no tomorrow. It hurt my teeny tiny heart that this is now the lone setlist survivor off TBHC. But that just made me clutch it even harder and fully give myself to the moment. (TBHC we will avenge you!)

I think I just straight up dissociated at Do I Wanna Know.

Maybe I'm a basic bitch of a fan - but I WORSHIP that song and riff - and It was just such a symbol for me of getting to see them live. I imagined the moment he enters with his beautiful 12-string vox SO many times. And when the time came I just sort of... I didn't know what to do with myself. I sang along and tried focusing and registering it all - but it was too much; too much pressure on myself too - so my mind just seemingly floated away.

Generally the whole thing was such a hugely important event for me that I had trouble registering it as real and felt a bit "mind-floaty" through it all - but that memory is just THE BLURRIEST of them all. So you can say it's an intense experience witnessing that classic live 😂

Witnessing the whole process live made me realize just how exhausted the whole gang must be.

The night before I - of course - scoured all social media for info about their arrival and set up - and so I saw all the little info about them flying in, their bus and their equipment truck arriving, all that. Then I got a report from how the soundcheck went around noon. And since I stood 7 hours in my secured spot I also saw the entire setup process with so many roadies running around. Allll that contex kind of... Gave me a good feel for the time that goes into this. Time and work and travel - all of that for a 1,5 hour live show - and then on they go to the next. Let's please appreciate artists and understand when they do seem a little off. Touring seems like an energetic nightmare (and especially for introverts).

Speaking of roadies... I wasn't building too many expectations stage design-wise. And the EFFORT surprised me so positively.

So basically - I knew Glasto had the mirroball and all the bells and whistles. But we weren't as important of a festival. So there was no way of knowing. I truly full on expected a bare stage. For months I'd watch clips of their other shows and think "ah. Too bad we don't get the mirroball moment". I came to terms with it months in advance - and then when someone posted a blurry photo of the mirroball showing up I was in shock. I love how much this whole team cares. It isn't a simple task driving all these props around and setting them up - the ball, the ring, the lights, the curtains in the themed Car color palette. I very much wouldn't blame them for having a "light" version for festivals in particular - when the roadies have like 30-45 minutes to set everything up right after the previous act ends. But no - there's a vision and they stick to it consequently and they don't differentiate between types of shows. No compromises - 100% of what they've got. It's honestly just beautiful to me.

Alex was... So mobile.

He fully pranced around that stage in his little heeled boots (!!!) doing his little gags and knocking over microphone stands with the cord of his guitar. He made sure to cover the whole stage and acknowledge all sides of the crowd - and come back and give us all attention a few times throughout the show. And I love him for it.

Alex is completely mesmerizing.

Okay - I say that as a person who's completely in love with his mind and talent (and... the packaging... ain't bad 👀) - so I get I'm not a very reliable source. But guys... That kid is magic (I say as if he's not 9 years older than me) (he's still babygirl though) He just is. He grabs your attention with his energy and doesn't let go until you've let him out of your sight (not of your own accord). Disappears behind that curtain.

I tried checking up on the other boys through the show - Nick managed to hide at an angle that kept him pretty invisible to me, unfortunately :c. Matt was killing it - and I loved noticing how Jamie just... Sways back and forth. But listen - even when I meant to look towards them more during the show - my brain just completely didn't allow it.

(And yeah. I get that's the role of the frontman. But... Guess the thing is he just does it so well. It didn't come naturally to him - as we know. It takes a lot out of him probably each time. But the energy is just there. And he could stand all night long and just sing and I'd still be mystified).

I already fangirled internally like crazy when I saw their guitars being set up and tuned.

And then during the show - I caught myself guessing what songs they were gonna play based on the guitars Alex was picking up. And just being weirdly proud of myself.

Also... The Epiphone Coronet looks so tiny live? I don't know. But it seemed that way - and isn't a tiny guitar for a tiny kitten just the cutest thing?

I missed my moment 😪.

Which really wasn't too big of a potential moment - but between songs people would shout titles of songs they want to play - and you know. It was usually AM or maybe FWN stuff. And during one of those moments I felt an overwhelming urge to shout "Perfect Sense". You know... To show that fans are indeed also excited about the actual album this tour is about. I ended up deciding against it - and literally like two seconds later Alex picks up his acouie and announces Perfect Sense. I sensed that. I could've had Alex Turner knowing I sensed that. But alas. I ended up just enjoying it in peace 🥲.

I won't take any interaction-themed slander.

I feel like people who are used to a lot of band interactions often speak ill of Alex and think he's an ungrateful frontman. Which - well first of all is bullshit because I don't believe artists need to be saying a word - it's the music you pay for. But secondly - he may not be saying much - but the energy he exudes and the sincere way he says things... Well it says it all. I feel like you have to be there to feel that energy and understand - but to me it was palpable that he was grateful for the enthusiasm, happy to perform and generally very emotionally invested in everything he was doing.

And then he thanked us and sent kisses our way multiple times too. And called us a beautiful audience (stop it Alexander! We're blushing!)

His shennanigans!

He seemed very happy to have a runway to get onto and use for his bowling shtick (I feel like he immediately got excited seeing that stage at soundcheck probably when he realized he could use it in that way).

There were no birds around to control - but there was the weather. So he did in fact ask the skies to "turn up that wind machine" as it started blowing and made him look like a vision during Sculptures (guys, truly. Sculptures live is insane. I'll repeat it forever). (🎶 Those words don't mean a thing where I come from, but I'll sing them forever 🎶) (I'm sorry, I had to).

All the little over-the-top faces he makes to enact the lyrics are a bit too adorable and almost made my heart burst.

Like... The "wah wah" crying one at "I feel the tears are coming on"? What a geek.

(but then also... Who hurt you 👀 it definitely makes Body Paint seem even more bitter and like it's a jab at someone).

And then - if you've made it here - one last thing I'll share with you - a very important screenshot of my notes app where I quickly started scribbling my fleeting thoughts in the days following the show:

And I think that's the best way to sum up what one feels seeing the Man the Legend the Genius the Poet Alexander Turner in the flesh for the very first time.

[arudan]

KND COMMUNITY QUESTIONS CHALLENGE

1: when did you start watching the show?

I was 7

2: favorite season?

Season 4 babeh!!

3: favorite episode?

OP Maurice

4: hated episode?

OP Butt. Episode made me uncomfortable

5: favorite character?

Nigel motha hyukin Uno

6: did you cry when you watch OP INTERVIEWS?

YES AND I REFUSE TO SEE OT AGAIN ILL SOB

7: funniest moment?

Operation point the car scene took me out LOL

8: saddest moment?

When Maurice was “decommissioned”

9: favorite KND artist?

Oh god I gotta choose one? ;-; Danishi is say

10: favorite canon KND ship?

2/5 hellerrr

11: favorite headcanon KND ship?

1/4!!!!!

12: what’s one thing you love about the fandom?

The amount of fans and diverse there is! Doesn’t matter what’s going on we always get together!

13: what’s one thing you hate about the fandom?

Oh god uh….this will cause some controversy but I wish some fans/artists would quit trying to act like their opinions are facts compared to the shows actual facts.

14: do you wish there were more die hard KND fans in the fandom?

I’d say a bit more would be totally rad.

15: when did you start drawing KND art?

Oh er end of 2017? That’s when my art skills started to solidify a bit.

16: how old were you when you started drawing KND art?

22

17: how old are you now and are you still drawing KND art?

;-; 28

18: what’s one thing you wish would stop in the fandom?

Oh um…another controversial question….well I guess I wish fans/artists would stop judging others of what they draw when I seen/caught some drawing some disturbing art. I don’t care what you draw just don’t be judging others because that’s some hypocrisy right there.(unless you draw pron then imma instantly block you if I see any of that in this fandom)

19: quick pick your favorite 2x4? Splanker I think it’s called

20: what’s your Codename? 1995

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[dirtbagfag]

YALL I BETTER NOT GET DMs ABT THIS POST i s2g im fine but i just need to be able to write this out to the void where it won’t burden anyone specific and dump on them, and also where mandated reporters cannot use it in a medical setting to keep me from going home bc none of the psych wards close to me have accommodations for wheelchairs and severe degrees of chronic pain . sorry but ye >_<

Tw for suicide and grief and shit. it’s just everything man, it’s EVERYTHING !!!! ToT

i dont know. i dont knoooow aaaah!!! idk how i woke up after 4 overdose attempts this past week and didnt even go to the hospital. nothin nada fuck all babey. off balance and feeling heady ? FUCK YEs??? But jesus christ i guess now our only hope is renal failure as a complication later down the line (JOKING). Lol. maybe idk. well ive sort of come to the conclusion that if 100 pills of diclofenac on tuesday followed by 48 bendadryl tablets the next night PLUS every thing we took on Monday night and monday morning with alcohol isnt enough to due meh in~ well BABEH~~ maybe it’s just not my time >_< also my entire outlook on grief has changed drastically in those 3 days. like i get it now i understand a bit better than any other attempt ive made in relation to friends who were successful in their suicides that sometimes everything is too much and hurts too bad and sometimes the only way to stop that hurt and those aches and that pain is to apologize to those around you that love you and . be like. hey im sorry that my peace has to come at the expense of your grief but i CANT do this. </3

[stepswowdsen]

【Magi】 Judar in hanfu 🖤❤️🐈‍⬛

Doodles

Speedpaint

Intro Rambles

Judar skrunkly (rough colour draft) 🖤❤️🐈‍⬛

Judar Speedpaint 🖤❤️🐈‍⬛

Music: Mass Destruction (Persona 3 - Battle Theme)

Original time: 16 minutes

Sped up by 8x

It's just me filling in the base colours for now

Judar Colour Edit

Btw the colour edit of the Magi anime's Judar concept arts were done by me! The purple toned one, specifically. It has nice colours...

I love using teal/cool toned black + red combo in my arts 💗 So I used more blue tones instead

I like doing colour edits cuz it helps me harmonize colours and see how colours work together on the actual design itself. Love playing around with colours

I do love the teal toned black hair the Magi anime uses for him, but I tend to shift colours by saturating the colours more (shifting to cooler tones and saturating reds)

When I refine and redraw the rest of the drawing, I'll redraw the hair and clothes and add more patterns onto the clothes

Misc Rambles

Didn't feel like starting a new sketch so I'm just playing around with rough colour drafts. I think teal/cool toned black + red combo looks so nice!

I want to do more rough coloured sketches 🙏

Like the Douman doodle WIP turned out super nice. I think doing rough colour drafts is nice cuz I get to play around with colours

Also, I actually recorded me filling in the rough base colours through OBS, which is a free software that records monitor footage and streams well

But the video editor program I'm using, OpenShot, is usually ok but it's so doodoo with speeding up clips, it constantly stutters and skips frames so I'm gonna have to find a better free video editor first before I post it

It's been a long time since I recorded something!

Wanna doodle JuAli again soon… I miss them 🥺🖤❤️💛

Speaking of which, I haven't seen KuroEne fanarts with Kuroha's Manga Route 2 design, so I will deliver 🫡 Hopefully soon

Oh another thing I forgot to mention

I love using saturated red and hot pink~ Technically if you eyedrop pick the colour, the colour of the red ru (top of the hanfu) is red~ish hot pink. But cuz of the contrast against the cool colours, the teal/cool toned black daxiushan (coat jacket), the colour reads as red

I love picking colours. Sketching and picking colours are my fave part of the art process

Persona 3: OST

I love Lotus Juice and Yumi Kawamura's voices!!!

Recorded this last night as an excuse to shill my fave Persona OST~~

Lotus Juice (P3's main rapper) and Yumi Kawamura (P3's main singer) are my fave singers!!! I love P3's OST sm

Mass Destruction is my fave P3 track

Yumi's "Ooh yeah~ Baby, baby~ Dada-dada!" It's so catchy!!!

A song with singing parts that are just "Ooh yeah, baby baby, dada-dada~~" sounds amazing

Yumi has a very unique voice quality and really strong singing voice. I love how Yumi's "Dada-dada" sounds like "Dada-dadao" and "Baby, baby" sounds like "Babeh, babeh"

Art Rambles

I love picking colours 🥰 My fave part of the art process is sketching and picking colours

I use CSP's Oil Paint Flat Brush to line! I've been using CSP since 2016. The first thing I drew on CSP was a KuroEne comic page attempt on CSP back in 2016

It's a free brush. CSP updated the Oil Paint brush with a new one so you can find CSP's old brushes on the CSP Assets store

Ever since 2022, I prefer using textured brushes to sketch/line compared to soft opaque brushes and hard pen brushes

Makes it easier to control line weights for me

This brush has a flat edge so the newer Oil Paint brush makes it easier to draw sharper lines, but I have better control over this brush and I'm just used to it. It works with my art style well. I love weighted inky brushes.

Also dawg I just realized that I recorded Display Capture on OBS so it shows my tablet's button presses on screen and me opening folders and files oops 😭

I'll record just the CSP window next time with Window Capture

I downloaded ShotCut, a free video editor this morning and it's already better than OpenShot tbh. It can speed up the video without stuttering and skipping frames, and has more features too

If I was filling in the base colours for real, I'd use a hard brush to fill in the base colours (cuz as you can see in the video, the Oil Paint brush is slightly translucent so it'll create lighter spots and won't fill in the base colours completely)

So I duplicated the layers multiple times. Since it's just a rough sketch, I filled in the base colours manually since it's fine for it to be messy. I'm just getting an idea of colours so it doesn't need to be clean

But if it was more refined with a cleaner refined sketch/lineart, then I'd use lasso tool and magic wand by selecting the outside of the lines and inverting the selection

I like using the old Oil Paint Flat brush for sketching and lining, but just keep in mind it has a flat edge (so if you need something that makes sharper lines use the new Oil Paint Flat brush) and it can't blend for shading/rendering.

[cosmic-ships]

🎀 (We're already besties but still! <3 ), 💖, 🌼, 🌠, 📷, 🌙, 💙, 💘, 🎼, 💟, 🌟, ☀️,

🎀 - I consider you a friend already! (WELL I SHOULD HOPE SO AFTER 20+ YRS LOL)

💖 - I have a platonic/QP crush on you! (HAH GAY! <3 )

🌼 - We do talk, and I’m glad we do! (ME TOO!!! It's always so much fun talking with you because I can scream and be annoying and you're like "hell yeah!" LOL)

🌠 - I think we have a lot in common! (you're god damn right we do! about to have one more in common huehuehuehue *slowly drags hux on screen* LOL)

📷 - You have a nice aesthetic! (I believe the word you were looking for was "dumpster" /j dlkjfdslkjf)

🌙 - You have a good sense of humour! (IT'S THE TRAUMA BABEH! dlkfjdslfkjdslfk)

💙 - I think you’re cool! (WELL SO ARE YOU! )

💘 - I think you’re cute! (NOPE ILLEGAL!)

🎼 - I think you’re talented! (NU UH U)

💟 - I love you! (I LOVE YOU TOO! /super fucking gayly)

🌟 - You make me happy! (YOU MAKE ME HAPPY TOOOOO~!)

☀️ - You inspire me! (WHERE THE FUCK-- *LOOKS BEHIND BOTH MY SHOULDERS* WHERE TF YA'LL GETTING THIS INSPO FROM!? IT CAN'T FUGGIN BE ME IM CONFUSED AS HELL! /lh /half-joking)

[ngemil]

SIGNS OF AGING: LOVE-HATE ON FOOD

Aside from having wrinkles around your face or neck as a common sign of aging, i have my own signs based on what i consume. Here you go;

KACANG MERAH

Produk alam berupa kacang-kacangan adalah makanan terfavorit orang tua, apalagi babeh gue penggemar berat kacang rebus. Sebaliknya gue yang kala itu masih kanak-kanak dan remaja amat benci sama makanan berbahan kacang gini, kecuali selai kacang sih.

Gue orangnya suka sebel kalo ibu udah masak sop kacang merah (Brenabon) gitu karena teksturnya lembek, campuran kuah manis gurih, mana kacangnya banyak pula. Ih kapan abisnya sih, GAK SUKA!

Menurut gue tanda-tanda udah memasuki usia tua juga dilihat dari apa yang dimakan. Yang dulunya dibenci, sekarang dicintai. Semenjak usia 23 tahunan gue perlahan malah menyukai hidangan kacang rebus, topping kacang di martabak atau donat, juga pasta kacang merah beuh! Endul poll.

Roti kacang merah buatan Holland Bakery adalah kudapan yang pertama kalinya pula gue amat nikmati di tiap gigitannya selain si Danish Coklatnya.

"Sama roti kacang merahnya satu mbak," kata gue dengan lantangnya.

Widih, beneran udah tua. Bisa-bisanya mulai demen kacang merah.

UBI

Sudah diceritakan di tulisan sebelumnya bahwa ubi adalah penemuan terhebat dalam hidup gue. Ubi juga makanan yang paling gue nolak sewaktu bocil dulu, apalagi tiap ibu bikin candil kolak itu cuman seneng bantu bulet-buletinnya doang tapi makannya mah ogah. Aneh rasanya.

Oh, ternyata sekarang malah kecanduan nyemilin ubi. Kalau ke warung lagi dilema jajan, gue selalu mengikutsertakan ubi ke dalam pilihan itu. Udah murah, banyak, sehat pula.

BUBUR JENANG

Yhaa, bubur jenang yang isiannya campur delima, candil, bubur sumsum, ketan putih, ketan hitam ditambah siraman gula aren juga terkini jadi santapan favorit gue kalau lagi jalan-jalan.

Jajanan tradisional ini makin gue menua baru menyadari kalau yang beginian lebih baik daripada terlalu banyak nyemilin coklat. Soal gulanya sih kayanya sama-sama tinggi ya, cuman lebih ngenyangin aja gitu bubur jenang mah.

AWUG

Selain bubur jenang, gue juga suka ama yang namanya awug. Enak banget sih ini siapa penemunya?? Padet, gurih, manis apalagi dimakan panas-panas baru banget dikukus surga sekali. Cuman sayangnya ini harus turun gunung dulu kalo mau beli.

KEMBANG TAHU

A traditional silky pudding. Much way healthier. Jenis makanan langka, susah banget nemunya di sini kudu nyari ke daerah yang rame sama orang. Seporsi biasanya 5k tapi yang termahal pernah gue beli adalah 20k, di pinggir jalan deket kampus lho.

But gapapa, duit yang gue keluarin terbayarkan sama enaknya si puding tahu dan kuah jahe joss panas banget ke badan. Mau bikin sendiri di rumah cuman susah banget nemu susu kedelai.

SEKOTENG

Pokoknya yang jahe-jahean gini sekarang lidah, mulut, dan badan gue udah bisa nolerir. Gak ngerasa kepedesan lagi, justru malah seneng yang pedes banget.

Sekoteng tuh luar biasa nikmat apalagi pas cuaca dingin poll, duh penyelamat. Seporsinya masih murah, biasanya ada potongan simping (favorit banget), roti, delima, sama kacang udahannya disiram kental manis. Tak peduli berapa banyak gula dari kuah jahe sama SKM-nya, tapi lezat. Sungguh.

LOTEK

Dihhh sayur mayur was a BIG NO for me. Tapi setelah beberapa kali nyoba ampun sedep juga ya sayuran dicampur bumbu pecel sedikit pedesnya tuh <3 Kadang gue makannya dicampur nasi juga atau dimakan gitu aja berasa salad.

MARTABAK

Keluarga gue sedari dulu demen beli martabak manis dan asin, cuman seinget guesih dulu gak pernah turut berbahagia menyantap makanan tinggi kalori ini. Entah kenapa bawaannya eneg tiap makan yang asin atau manis. Ndak suka, deh.

Waduh kalau di masa kini beda lagi ceritanya, bahkan selalu milih jajan martabak juga kalau lagi pengen manis-manis. Martabak asin daging ayam tetap pemenangnya, dan martabak manis topping coklat kacang juga tiada tandingan. Gak perlu martabak premium pake seabreg mentega wisman, gue lebih demen martabak murah blueband yang harganya 20k. Malah lebih enak loh.

Udah, segitu aja signs of aging berdasarkan makanan. Kira-kira bakal demen apalagi, ya?

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[andr0medafallen]

Ok I’m back and I have baby fever (maybe it’s just because I’m ovulating, sorry if that’s tmi) but anyway: Jamie Tartt and a baby. That’s all I’ve been able to think about for DAYS. Idk something about seeing him interacting with his mom just made my brain go: baby. He’s babygirl but also just imagining him with a baby has made me insane in a good way. Also the way he says baby (babeh) makes me laugh. Like I’m not able to articulate my thoughts very well because I’m so obsessed with this idea.

That’s all, love you, thanks for putting up with me <3

Omg, bbgorl, are we synced?

Nooo literally cause I hadn't yet considered this, but I think he would be the cutest with a lil kiddo. I mean, can you imagine him, Mr. bbgirl himself with an actual baby girl? He would be the sweetest, I know he would.

He would be so careful and gentle with her, and he would make it his own personal mission to make her smile whenever he possibly could. Whenever she wakes up crying, he's up to go check on her, not letting you get out of bed when he knows how hard you work every day.

When she's old enough to go to games, he loves it when you take her to the home games, partially because he loves to go say hi at the end of the first half, and partially because he loves to show her off to the team. They like to roll their eyes and tease in the locker room, but they love her too.

I think at first he might be a little bit nervous about being a Dad because of his own experiences with his father, but you always insist that there isn't a soul who could be doing a better job than he is.

And I know we're talking about babies, but I just know he would be the most supportive ever as she grows up. He never pressures her into anything, but he's always there at anything she has going on, camera in hand. He probably takes up scrapbooking.

[thisisthe-way]

Pass the happy! When you receive this, list 5 things that make you happy and send this to 10 of the last people in your notifications ✨

Ooh! Okay, let’s see…

1. My best friend. That girl is the biggest blessing in my life, a gift from God and one of the nerdiest people I know. I luh her.

2. My kitteh. She’s a punk but she’s also teh sweetest babeh and I love her.

3. Din Djarin. Just—lmao. The end.

4. Writing. FanFiction, original stuff, anything really. The lyric from the Hamilton song: “I’ll write my way out” <— that. Anytime I’m feeling a certain type of way, I write. It’s always been the most therapeutic thing for me since I was a teenager.

@senkodoll

@hatemeonyourownbehalf

@planatt

@the-goddess-of-lorien

@shooting-a-star-at-the-moon

@oh-word-thats-crazy

@mereann

@khiquil

@midnight-raven

@aia-prima-raufton

[mimimarilynart]

Happy birthday to my love @toastedbuckwheat \^O^/ <333333333

Can’t believe another year has gone by already!! Wanted to do a seasons themed quadriptych but but decided to just pick 4 out of our many many AU’s with these two *3* (sorry to all babies in other universes, I will get around to drawing everyone sooner or later I promise sdfghjkl)

Hope this will be better year for bae and that we can finally escape away for a bit from everything. Love you so so much my dearest and I can’t be thankful enough for having you in my life every single day ;W; *BIG HUGS AND KISSES*

[missamyrisa2]

What are your thoughts on smothering someone under your feet while you tickle them to bits?

😳💜~ Flustered Sub

Ooooh~ if I know feet overload your circuits you're going to be in sooo much trouble ~ see, with my long legs which are soo teasingly visible in my tiny shorts and long arms I have quite the advantage for this particular scenario, because I can bend around you and do things like ~ oooh, I dunnno~~~ raspberry your bouncy belly while my toes tease at your ears, lightly grazing and giving you a foretaste of the feast to come~ because then I'm going to stand over you, smirking and going "ooooh~ what's gonna happen? What's gonna happen?" cooing down as my feet hover over your blushing face. "Aww, do the feet do it? Yeahh? The feet? Riight here? Right there? Noo? Yeahhh? Say ittt ~ say you love feeeet~ mmhmm you love these wiggly toes and my big wide soles ~ I think you gotta say itttt~ don't lie now that's just gonna make it worse~!" and I'll bend over, attacking your ribs with my wiggly fingers on one leg while the other foot is grazing over your nose and mouth. I can't help but giggle and snicker at the sensation and the situation ~ it makes me want to tickle you more to punish ~ I kneel over your upper body and let my toes rest on your face while I mercilessly squeeze and rub your sides, leaning down to let my hair taunt your belly, my feet squeezing your cheeks from either side. "Aww pooor babeh ~ stuck between my feets and sooo helpless and ticklish! Are you my ticklish babehhhh?~" I lean back and grin at your blushing face, shifting to a new position as I lay back over your body on my back, my big toes dipping into your underarms to taunt and tickle while I reach up and start gliding my nails on your soles. "Coochie coooo my blushy darling. That's itttt ~ get all wiggly squiggly under your tickle mama ~ I'm gonna bury you in these silly feet of mine~" I stretch my legs up and laugh wickedly as I start bullying your face, my soles pressing and rubbing around, toes flexing and wiggling at your forehead. "Mmmhmm. Gasp it all out. Gasps are allowed. Ooh? Moans? Moans are allowed too. But let's upgrade those moans and get some ~~ gigglemoans up in heree~" I keep dancing on your face while I skitter my nails under your toes and over your soles, taking full advantage of my long length as I lay upon you and overwhelm your form.

How long did it last? You couldn't possibly guess ~ all you know is your gasping helplessness as I stand over you, hands on my hips ~ the look of loving contempt~ my flower shaped belt buckle glinting in the light as that one extra taunt before I step forward and glide my big toe over your quivering lips. "Now let's see some suckling my helpless darling~ suck it nice or I'll tickle you until you cry for your tickle mama~<3"