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kirexa · 7 months
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Is it normal to be able to barely remember anything from more than 4 years ago except REALLY important things or did I accidentally buy the Mentally Ill & Traumatized DLC?
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inazuma-fulgur · 1 year
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Bigger, longer videos and essays are something we see disappearing and becoming unpopular more and more with "technological advances" of social media or just about anything.
Fast consumption without thinking, before you even get the chance to log off the next think gets shoved into your face
And like without thinking is something I wanna get at. If everything around you is short and flat and mostly self contained, impossible to compare to other things, impossible to utilize in other contexts and to compare other things amongst each other with. Basically if no nuanced, bigger picture thought and appropriate analytical skill get shown and taught to anyone anymore we will become unable or maybe just too distracted to critique anything in a meaningful way.
If nothing is connected anymore and everything becomes a unique completely individual occurrence there are no trends to criticize.
Even if things aren't unique that doesn't matter much if that is the only way someone can judge and understand the world, so they're unable to find trends and systematic issues. Because those concepts don't exist on short form content platforms.
#content#do I have to say vine was problematic#vine ig itself wasn't problematic but it opened the door for a lot of bad#the ''good'' thing about yt or smth in comparison is that even if encouraged to make content of some length#it isn't impossible to go into depth. and arguably the demand is there. i remember being stuck with 10 min#videos once that was good for the algorithm. or when it was the longer the better#rn we have a focus on feels like both 10 min for midroll adds and 20-25 min for being a good length#but generally all sorts of lengths are searched for among users. but YouTube like everyone else is captivated#by tiktok and saw other social media sites copy them. so now shorts have been doing the best for channels for a few years now#really. if you wanna get big on YouTube upload shorts. they will recommend anything as long as it is a short#as a glitch hunter and speedrun collaborater I've uploaded some weird and context less vids.#for honestly no reason that to share most of them unlisted. but the few that are listed the shorts ones always do better.#even if they're so abstract as to be useless to anyone not hardcore into golden sun 3. while most of the less cryptic videos don't#get any attention#because shorts are about looking weird enough to be interesting for long enough to count as a view#not about creating anything#basically if something only gets views as a short it means it's shit or YouTube hates what content type you do#the first you should feel personally insulted by and start doing other creative work instead of producing#the second you should also feel personally offended by and burn down youtube headquarters* as a result#*in minecraft
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citruslllad · 2 years
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Before anything else, if you have the means, please consider donating to https://www.curesarcoma.org/ or going to Techno's official merch site to buy some merch, in which all sale funds will be donated to it and supporting Tdchno's family as well.
When I first saw Technoblade's channel when he focused on Bedwars content back in.. probably 2017, he had 300k and I barely paid him any mind. Thought he was a stuck up, famous jerk. Years later with the boom of Minecraft returning, I'd never realized he was such a sweet, hilarious guy just going out there and making people happy.
When he got cancer, I told my friends to calm down- that he'd be fine; it was a tumor, something that could be removed. I was really just trying to reassure myself. I didn't want to lose the man that made me feel comfortable in my own skin being loud, slightly obnoxious and intensely ADHD. I'm still in shock, and as I drew this the reality that he's gone kept hitting me and I'd have to pause, hold back tears. Even now it still hasn't fully hit me yet.
I can't imagine what his close friends and family are going through right now. I'm not afraid to say I bawled my eyes out when I watched the actual update video, and I cried even harder when I heard his dad's voice crack. I can only wish him and his family a safe, calm grieving. And for everyone else, viewers and fans and artists and everyone, I repeat what my last post says:
Your grief for him is real. Your pain for him is real. Please do not snoop or act like you were buddy buddy, but other than that, please know you are allowed to grieve him. He was a beloved icon in this community, and he will always be remembered as a legend.
And just like legends do, in everyone's hearts and minds, Technoblade will never die. I love you guys, and he did too. Take care of yourselves.
Rest in peace, Technoblade.
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jezabatlovesbats · 10 months
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Like I said already, I graduated high school this year. So naturally, because I'm somehow both lazy and busy at the same time, I don't draw anything for the occasion like I wanted to until the literal DAY before I start college. (Yeah, I'm not joking- my first day of college is tomorrow.)
Just because I've come this far since I joined Wattpad as a 7th grader doesn't mean I know how I did it. Oh, wait- yes I do. I do know. I guess I don't know my own brain. Anyway, it's because I had, and still do, a burning desire to reach out to you and tell you about all the silly little stuff I had on my mind. I also wanted to get to know people all around the cyber world who liked the same stuff I liked. (I hope I can find someone who does in my art college.) I wanted y'all to know that Unikitty and Minecraft: Story Mode were (and still are) my two most favorite things ever. For months, I begged my parents for it, and I eventually got it for Christmas. Over the years, I've come to like more shows, games and movies. I even realized that I liked doing musical theater, too. Since I joined Wattpad, I've expanded my posting to DeviantArt, this site, YouTube, and more.  I've probably told you all of this many times before, but I say it for a reason.
As I also said already, high school was as fun of an experience as it was... interesting. I couldn't finish my freshman year, and I missed my entire sophomore year, and if you survived 2020, you probably know why. I still passed, though. I think that junior and senior year made up for that. I was in the school musical both of those years, I got to attend my first prom junior year, and I went to Thespian Fest senior year.
Maybe the real high school experience was the friends we made along the way, as I've joked. But I wanted to surround myself with people I could get together with. As SpongeBob said, "I only want to hang out with my friends." And I did, 'cause we made every day the best day ever, especially the night we graduated. (The trampoline park we went to afterwards had some killer chicken tenders!) I took one of my friends to see Elemental before she went out of state for her college. I still keep in touch with a lot of them. Still, I'm really gonna miss everyone, and I wish them luck in their future endeavors.
As soon as school let out, my family took me on a trip to celebrate the fact that I graduated, and I made a video about it. You can watch it on my channel if you'd like.
But, I digress! There are a bunch of people here who I've just gotta show my gratitude for. You guys are part of why I keep going in life.
For @joyseer24, @agent-egg, @sundove88, and @pinkiemeowstic89, some of the earliest people I remember interacting with me.
For @erin-the-epic and @clg-artisa, who never fail to put a smile on my face.
(Also, special thanks to all the Unikitty fans here and on YouTube who called me out on my BS back in 2021.)
To @nevaehjwilliamsvaeh, a fan of Mao Mao and Six. I always love seeing you in my notifications!
@pocketlad, thank you for being my lad.
For @federthenotsogreat. It's nice to have a fellow Mario & Luigi fan to chat with.
@generalfoxy21, thanks for liking my posts and tagging me in your picrews.
To my fellow lovers of WALL-E: @cosmo-naute, @ohthewhomanity, and @defineshitposting. Computer, define friendship- the love that we shared.
For folks like @hazed-miner, @tailsofairies, and @milliemakesmistakes. Thanks to all of you cube kids for liking my Minecraft: Story Mode stuff.
To @choupiee. Anybody who likes both Unikitty and MC:SM stuff is a friend in my book.
There are also more Unikitty fans I have to thank, including @glitzycatart, @passionatepinkkittynew, @lizatheeddsworldaddict, @theunikingdom, and @doomlordsbutfunni.
@keith-neil, thank you for your Unitober challenge! I had a great time participating!
@askthechronoverse, I've got you to thank for liking my posts, reblogging them, and asking questions on the Big Bright World blog. And, thanks for keeping the Unikitty and Lego Movie fandoms alive. It's come to the point where I consider you a true friend, Fabri.
And to all my other watchers who weren't mentioned here, thank you for watching me and sticking by me. I don't know how to end this, so I'm gonna say that life is weird. 
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This is the Ask Amber Anything blog! I have many AUs!
Im your Host 642spaghettiprincess or as many call me, Allison!
You may ask us all! And there are new ones constantly being added / edited.
This site may contain mature comics (16+)
Current Status: Available 🤩
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Here is the content I make
(Smiling critters based)
And depending on your interests you can ask these ones!
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(Limbo AU)
Limbo AU, is the main AU. This is the after affects from when player visited playco!
Many of whom here, are spirits that cannot rest. They are forever trapped behind a TV screen, in Carebear lot.
They all live together like one giant family, since most of them are orphaned children without parents.
Monster Critters (They are the mascots that children would see all the time. Smaller than the bigger bodies, but less scary looking.)
Cannon Critters (Cannon, or Bigger bodies Critters, also mainly trying to stay Cannon with the actual game, are the big ones we saw in chapter 3.)
Smiling Critters (Cartoon, loving, tiny critters on TV that you would see.)
Plush Critters (Baby stuffed critters, a group of them that still follow Cannon Catnap around after death.)
Critter Kids (Fan children of the Smiling critters, AMBER even, they are scrapped designs of the animated series that will never release.)
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These are also other AUs that I have made, revolving around other games or Smiling critters in general.
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PlayCraft: Smiling critters X Minecraft
Fairy Critters: Smiling Critters X Gem fairies
Angry Critters: Smiling critters X Angrybirds
Berry Crawler AU: A apocalyptic state with human versions of the critters that need to survive without eating produce and water, since eating or drinking it will make you affected.
Forgotten Life AU (NEW) We are playing in the eyes of a pregnant woman that doesn't know who she is, nor how she got to Playco factory, but she is solving clues of who she is. The others remember her, but she doesn't remember them.
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And I also am a huge fan of Indie horror! If you have any questions about a random video game, ask me questions about it!
I will do prompts and comics of your favorite ships! (Even if it's not Cannon to my AU, I have a shipping series)
Also, if your dubbing any of my comics on YouTube, ask me first! I will 100% say yes if you just ask. (Also please credit me and send me a link to the vid, I would love to see it and spam it on Tumblr and credit you! Win = win for the both of us! 🤩
And I also have my own book series!
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dreamtydraw · 15 hours
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hello i saw the post im asking something uhm uh do you play minecraft? -💚
Hiiii ( new anon ? Green ? Green anon ? )
You actualy unlocked a very funny story.
When I was a kid i was very fan of animation, video games, power rangers and pokemon ( aka all the stuff girls my ages weren’t doing cause at the time playground games were still very gendered where I was ). And there was one boy who also liked Pokemon, Power Ranger, and animation, so little child me was like « omg that means I like him ! »
So I tried to hang out with him and this little child was obssessed with Minecraft ( at a time where Minecraft wasn’t that popular outside of online spaces ). He was reaaaally fan, he later on even bought the books and everything Minecraft-related. I only had PC games that were either online sites (Club Penguin, Animal Jam or Girl Go game ) and that was it so I didn’t understand what was so passioning about Minecraft.
Fast forward, one girl snitched that I liked him, and this bright little boy decided to ask me during craft time, in the middle of the class in front of everyone « Is it true that you have a crush on me? »
Ofc I was 8 my answer was « noooooooooo…. »
And this little deepshit said « oh cool, because you’re ugly. )
So i slapped him.
From that detail i hated Minecraft cause of this boy and never played until this year when i saw someone had the game installed on one of the school pc. I tried to play and had two classmate giving me instructions, one telling me good infos the other trying to kill me. It was a nice moment and i remember being chased by a polar bear ???
So I like mine craft, but not that much.
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waywardsalt · 1 year
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ok since tears of the kingdom is coming out like. insanely soon i figured i’ll just dump how i’ve been feeling abt it here. i wont tag for them and i dont intend to share any but because i have been actively seeking out spoilers i will vaguely reference them here so… idk really long musings on this game and my feelings abt it
(im just writing this out mostly for myself since i really kind of just. want to really figure out how i feel about this)
i… am not excited for totk?
i’ve figured out a bit ago that my severely waning interest in botw and general anxiety and discontent surrounding totk is just that… these games arent for me. i dont enjoy open world games with half a million things for you to do like it’s basically a sandbox. i struggle to really enjoy singleplayer minecraft. the space stage in spore gives me genuine anxiety, both when i played it as a kid and again when i reached it as an adult.
botw and totk are not games for me, and that’s cool. i’ve figured that out.
so why am i getting so damn anxious about this new game?
i am getting totk- not entirely of my own volition, i live with someone who is very genuinely excited for it, so it’s pre-ordered digitally on our switch. i am going to play it and complete it at least once.
the gameplay and world of botw never really got to me, and even what snippets of gameplay i see for totk dont really entice me. it just makes me anxious to think about the sheer amount of new stuff i’ll be dropped in the middle of and how i really dont care about this version of link or zelda or anyone else in botw’s hyrule
and some of the story spoiler stuff and general direction this game is going in has me just worried that the zelda series is moving away from what it used to be into an entirely new direction, that being a direction that it seems like i wont enjoy as much as everyone else seems to
so then i guess my main worry outside of totk is that i just end up struggling to really feel connected to the rest of the community about this? being a contrarian is fun until everyone is enjoying something you for some reason can’t get yourself to
i dont have a lot of hope in the story of totk to harken back to… ANYTHING of worth that past games have built up and made to be so important and interesting. hype is a dangerous thing for a not-yet-released game, and while i think the insane amount of speculation and theories and hype around totk will cause a lot of people to be disappointed with the final story, i dunno if i really wouldve liked it even if the story actually piqued my interest
maybe totk’s gameplay will really hook me. maybe i’ll enjoy the massive open world and gmod-ass gimmicks. but what ive seen of the story makes me less interested and the snippets of gameplay i see just make me remember how bored i now am with botw
at the end of the day this is just a video game with tags on this site i can blacklist and videos i can ignore and lore i can brush aside because at this point loz canon is a suggestion more than anything
i just cant shake the discomfort of once again being an outlier as everyone i see loses their mind about this new game while i just feel overwhelmed by it. i have played botw for a long time and have long since worn it out. i played age of calamity to completion and have not touched it or cared for it beyond the music since. i am not excited about totk and i feel like i am in the wrong due to my opinion
#salty talks#kinda personal? just angsting abt totk and being a lil negative abt it#at this point im not expecting it to blow me away. i no longer have fun playing botw. i do not care for the story or characters#this if anything is to soothe my nerves and is for the sake of my own wellbeing to articulate how i feel about this#it is cool to like. put your feelings into words. this is a lot more eloquent than ‘i miss linebeck’#it feels kinda selfish to bitch abt a game thats not out yet and complain abt it not seeming enjoyable to me#but it looks like a genuinely good game. but its not for me. and thats what im ruminating on here#like i love linear stories games that limit you and fun little gimmicks and characters with complex arcs and all that#i played a little bit of skyward sword earlier and was finishing up the cistern dungeon and was so delighted to see the main statue lowered#i love the dungeons with gimmicks that flip everything around and force you to really think abour your next move#im excited to reach the water temple in oot again to swim around and tinker with the water level#i cant wait to finish oot and move onto mm and its wonderful gameplay and areas#id love to revisit albw and get back to playing ph (and maybe finishing triforce heroes idk abt that one i just want the linebeck outfit)#i played botw for like ten minutes a few weeks ago and then put it away without a second thought#so. if anyone wanted to know how i feel abt totk. its a bit alienating#i might blacklist every variation of ze/ink tbh. sayonara you weeaboo shits and your bland fucking milquetoast ship thats kinda irritating#i may delete this bc it errs on the side of being too personal but i really just need to write this stuff downh#anyways. going back to writing my thing abt my oc n linebeck hanging out and being gay
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svturn-exe · 1 year
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collection of some tmc-related dreams i've had just bc i'm not sure i posted abt most of them:
(long post! there's a lot)
#1: a dream where crewdela were filming more live action stuff for vol. 5, but for some reason andrew long was just comically tall. and no one seemed to notice how freakishly tall he was except for ty, who just kept getting progressively more and more freaked out the longer they went on filming without acknowledging it everyone else kept being like 'ty? are you okay dude? you need to sit down or something' and ty wa sjust like dO YUONOT SEE???!!?!?! and andrew just kept getting taller until i woke up #2: dream where mark and cesar were like. in a fantasy au? but specifically a fate: the cursed king-esque dungeon crawler, and they were making their way through a dungoen maze level. mark had ice magic and cesar had fire magic they killed a giant snake beast with their inexplicable magic powers which caused a portal to spawn and when they went through it they ended up in a place that looks suspiciously like the lobby of my apartment building but with more plants, and apparently they lived there but then i woke up #3: dream numero tres i was watching a youtube video on a site that kinda Looks like dark mode youtube but still clearly isn't in a way that i legitimately cannot describe . eldritch ass not-youtube. anyway it was a video mr. kister made for tmc. it was in black & white and was showing a bunch of like. statues and stuff in what vaguely looked like a severely overgrown garden and someone in the dream universe found out where the video was filmed and released the location in the form of a weird arg puzzle . and then suddenly jonah is driving an 18-wheeler to go find it, despite my headcanon that he fucking Cannot Drive. bc jonah's smart and they figured out the puzzle :] but also the implications of . tmc as a series existing in the tmc world ????? wild. anyway jonah gets to the like. statue garden and was just wandering around looking at all the statues n stuff that were in alex's video but then there's an alternate that i can't remember what it looked like . so jonah gets back in the truck and starts driving away, and i tihnk this is the part where my unconscious mind remembered my headcanons about jonah's driving ability bc suddenly their driving is really shit and while jonah is still driving and the alt is still chasing him jonah just ?? inexplicably starts growing dragon features. like scales n shit?? and they're in the middle of this like weird fuckin . non-euclidian maze ass highway tunnel system when suddenly the dotp rolls up and detains both jonah and the alternate
but it's not all bad bc the dotp jail or whatever the fuck looks suspiciously like a fancy cushy hotel room and jonah's like :( Man. but at least they're comfy and the alternate is also just in the same roo m and bc they have both been Hotel Jailed jonah and the alt are now friends? despite the alt trying to murder him like 20 minutes ago then adam shows up and fuckin like. from the outside of the building just removes the window? somehow? like bro just picks it up like a minecraft enderman and takes it out of the wall. and then i woke up
#4: in this dream i was stuck in a game that was apparently supposed to be VR? with a bunch of other people as well. and we were all in a like. big school gym essentially and one of the walls had doors to other rooms and a tent. and all the rooms + the tent were like. sports themed and one was like a big locker room. & me and all the other mfs there were in various sports uniforms. i was in a baseball uniform & had a bat in the gym with us was a like. slow-moving alien slug beast that would kill you if it touched you and that's apparently the game we were supposed to be playing . i spent most of the dream hiding in the tent with 2 other people. the tent was soccer-themed and had that green plastic turf shit on the floor but in the middle was just a fuckin like . 2ft x 2ft x2ft metal pyramid. and after a while me and the other 2 guys started getting nervous bc the tent flap was like. kinda flimsy and wasn't rly staying up super well. and at some point cesar came by and started trying to fix the tent flap for us bc he's a polite young man but despite his efforts the fuckin slug showed up anyway and we all had to skedaddle. so we went through a door in the side of the tent which for some reaosn was just a normal ass door? like the wall was still flimsy tent material but the door was still attached somehow and that door led to the big locker room. i don't know where the others went but dream me's first instinct was to get off the ground and climb on top of the lockers so i could see clearly if the slug was coming after me, which it was so i leaned over the side of the lockers started poking the slug with the bat. and it started like. ungulating and vibrating and making weird noises so i wa slike ok it's time to fucking leave. climbed down off the lockers and ran back out into the main gym area, n as i'm leaving the locker room i hear a fuckin like. tiger roar. and then i woke up, so i guess i'll never know what was up with that slug but i think dream me pissed it off and inadvertently doomed everyone there #5: i was a pokemon trainer but also jonah? and i was challenging a like. little pseudo-gym/dojo thing being run out of a small school locker room with TVs all over the walls. there were four ladies lined up on the walls and one standing at the end of the room and they were all wearing kimonos.
and as i/jonah go thru and pokemon battle them they kept saying shit abt like. how the prize for beating them all is a 'tv tag'. whatever that is. and one of them said smth like 'give your flareon a tv tag and it'll evolve' which ????????? idk what that meaNS . forbidden flareon evo i got through the first four battles and like. you know how in pokemon some npcs get all pissy at you for beating them? the fifth lady was basically being like that even tho i hadn't fought her yet. and the tv behind her turned on and started displaying static and a like. pink blob started emerging from it and immediately dream me/jonah knew. i had been bamboozled. THIS is tv tag. which in the dream made perfect sense to me somehow like what else could a giant pink blob emerging from a tv be . duh.
so i ran and ducked into a classroom and quickly explained the situation to the teacher and was just hiding out of view of the window in the door like how you do in active shooter drills hashtag america. but eventually i had to go bc tv tag is High Stakes apparently. as in if the blob catches me it will kill me, and this is just something i just knew Instinctually so i ducked out of the room and to the stairs so i would get up on the school's roof, and it's apparently not a very big school building because the roof is level with the roofs of the surrounding houses. so dream me/jonah started doing high stakes parkour across the roofs to make some distance away from the school before the giant blob could notice i was no longer in the building i somehow got down off the rooftops (i don't actually remember how? i'm just going to assume i fuckin tumbled off) and run into a nearby forest, where i start fuckin galloping down the dirt path on all fours like a majestic creature. it was actually a really cool feeling despite the horrifying circumstances like it was really fun eventually i/jonah come up on a house in the woods and decided to ask if i could hide out there bc i was tired and apparently gordon ramsay lives there. so i tried explaining the situation to him and, like any sane person, he asked if i was high on drugs. but then he spotted the pink blob emerging from around a bend in the dirt road and was like oh fuck. get inside Now so i crammed myself into a closet in the upstairs bedroom and mr ramsay started stacking the surplus of backpacks he just had for some reason in front of me to hide me from view. and i don't remember how but suddenly i'm in a shed? and the wooden doors of the shed started slowly opening and dream me/jonah was like. shaking and crying. and for some reason the giant pink blob had turned into shmorp's alt mark and he was just levitating there in the open door. but he also apparently came to his senses and started acting all apologetic then he started levitating me off the ground and we were both just floating around outside while he started telling me abt how his powers came from the moon? for some reason. then i was suddenly on a planet from spore and was holding a big tupperware container, and my only objective was to wander the surface of the planet and find weapons that wer eon the floor and put them in the tupperware. and then i woke up
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hornerkristoffersen · 2 years
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Technoblade, Minecraft YouTuber Watched by Millions, Died at the Age of 23 after a Year-long Battle With Cancer
Minecraft YouTuber Technoblade has died at the age of 23 following a year-long battle against cancer, his family announced on Friday.
In a YouTube video titled "so long geeks", the father of the creator of the content shared a final message from his son to his viewers.
"Hello everyone, Technoblade is here," began the message. "If you're looking at this. I am dead."
In the video, Technoblade, who has kept his identity secret, revealed that his real name was Alex. Technoblade thanked his fans for their support, purchasing merchandise and channel memberships and joked that his siblings were "going to college."
"If I could have another hundred lives, I believe Technoblade would be my choice again. They were the best years of my life. I hope you enjoyed my writing, and that you found it humorous. I wish you an extended and prosperous life.
Technoblade has amassed almost 11 million YouTube subscribers and 3.7million Twitter followers in less than 10 years. He shared his love for Minecraft which allows players to create virtual worlds from blocks and create their own stories. He went public with his cancer diagnosis back in August 2021, telling his followers in a video of himself playing the game that he sought medical help after experiencing discomfort in his arm, which initially thought was a an injury caused by repetitive stress from gaming.
Technoblade's father has said that Technoblade sent his last message eight hours before his death. Technoblade's father, who was unable to hold back tears, said that Technoblade was "the most remarkable child" anyone could ever wish for. He added: "I miss Technoblade."
The video that has been watched more than 19 million times, concluded with a statement from Technoblade's family, which included the following: "This past year had a lot of rough spots for our son, who was fighting stage four cancer. He didn't whine and continued to use his famous strategic mind to overcome what he thought were impossible odds. My son's determination on this journey was an inspiration to all of us who had the opportunity to walk it with. Thank you for sharing his journey through it all and for doing the work he loved to do for his beloved fans."
Social media has been flooded with tributes from fans, celebrities and fellow gamers.
YouTuber Ted Nivison remembered him as: "Effortlessly funny. Endlessly talented. It's gone too quickly. Rest easy Technoblade.
TECHNOBLADE
TommyInnit, another popular YouTuber wrote on Twitter: "Technoblade, a legendary figure. From being a massive fan, to becoming one of his closest friends, I cannot even begin to describe how grateful I am to have been in his life. He's making plans in heaven how to defeat God I'm sure of it.
In a statement sent to CNN, Sarcoma Foundation of America honored Technoblade by expressing "deepest condolences to his family."
Brandi Felser CEO of the charity, said in the statement: "Technoblade rallied his supporters to raise over $500,000 up to date to support research into sarcoma. This enabled SFA to grant research grants in Technoblade's name. Through these efforts, he leaves his legacy that will affect generations to come."
Felser said that Technoblade will be honored by the organization's Courage Award, an annual award that is given to those who inspire others "to bring hope and a better future for the community of sarcoma patients" in the course of this year.
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joynerroth · 2 years
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The Minecraft Timeline
The story of Minecraft sounds like a great film script. Notch as the protagonist genius programmer, who came from an underdog (indie) position was the only person to change the game industry by just doing what he loved. And he earned plenty of money along the way. And even more money when he got fed up with it all and sold Minecraft. Perhaps a film is unnecessary, since it's all well documented. The story is known to many people. It is partly because a lot of it was recorded online. Thus we have forums, blogs, websites, posts, tweets and YouTube videos. What we do not have is a beautiful graphic timeline depicting the history (until now).I heard about Minecraft sometime in 2010. I started to be more interested in Minecraft and its creator. Because it was a wonderful story. One computer and one man revolutionized the world. My favorite kinda story! I remember being amazed when Notch participated in a game-coding contest and livecaught the entire thing. This was a moment that I still love to this day. (Mind you, this link is a simplified version of the entire thing. It ran for 48 hours. This guy was something else! The amazing world of game creation unfolded right before your eyes. It was way too fast for it all however it gave an excellent understanding of what it takes to create a game. Only him and his computer with Java IDE Eclipse and Paint.net. These are the same tools he used to create Minecraft. (I later discovered through that contest that there are many competent programmers like him. Not every programmer is a gold miner. However, many of them like Notch and others, aren't because of this.
Minecraft is a unique story and I decided to create one.
These are a few of the most interesting things about this timeline.
- Notch began working on Minecraft just few weeks prior to when the start of his new job at jAlbum. It's the same software that this site is using! It took a full year of development before he finally quit his 'real' job to focus on Minecraft. It was estimated that around 20.000 copies had been sold by the time. The game was in its alpha stage. It was promising to say the least. The second half of 2010 was insane, as was the first half of 2011. They created the company around Minecraft: Mojang, hired a lot of people, released a lot of changes to the game, released an additional game (completely different), talked with Valve and even organized MineCon and even faced an unjustified lawsuit to their name, and amidst all that they sold millions of copies of Minecraft! A number of important Minecraft events appear to have occurred on June 1, few years in a row (also Notch's Birthday).
The Minecraft story is far from ending. Minecraft is obviously alive and making records. However, Notch and Minecraft were at one point part of the same narrative, but are now moving in distinct timelines.
Whatever happens the story of Minecraft will always be an inspiring story and the impact it had on the entertainment and gaming industry will be remembered for many years to come. HYPEDPVP That makes it even more special that through the marvels of Youtube we have this 2009 video.
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Minecraft Mods let you Disable Mojang's Controversial Chat Reporting Feature.
Minecraft: Java Edition's latest update included a brand new player reporting tool, which allows players to submit "inappropriate chat messages or risky behavior" for moderators to look over. While it appears to be a good idea from afar but a lot of Minecraft players aren't thrilled that it's now extending to private servers.
Because it's Minecraft players are able to change what they don't love. Mods are available to remove messages from your profile. dk571.com
There are a few mods that seem to do it successfully. No Chat Reports by Aizistral apparently "strips cryptographic signatures" that link the messages you send to your Minecraft account, and supports the Forge and Fabric modding APIs. NoEnryption by Doclic does the same thing for Minecraft Spigot server software, and No Chat Reports by TechnicallyCoded, also for Spigot, says it's "currently the only plugin that can fully replicate the vanilla behavior" and can be used with multiple languages.
These mods are, of course, used at your own risk. They are able to be used on the server and client side. However, if you install them on the server side, other servers might block your access to join in the event that they decide to enforce secure profiles. This is fine, and means you shouldn't be able to make use of these mods to harassing people who need the security moderation can offer.
Although it's reasonable to have Mojang manage their game's community however, it's natural for players to be anxious about their private spaces being subjected to moderation. Moderation teams don't always succeed and players are worried about being removed from their servers due to comments that aren't relevant to the context. Even if the moderation team was infallible, I also don't think it's unreasonable for a group of players to decide to opt-out of moderation, with fully understanding what that entails.
Mojang received feedback from players after the update was made available to test. They stated that Mojang Studios recognizes that private servers can operate independently, and that a lot of them utilize their independence to develop incredible Minecraft innovations that enhance their community. "But it has always been the situation that Minecraft servers of any scale must follow the rules described in the EULA as well as the Commercial Usage Guidelines, and our Community Standards. Every player should have the security of a secure Minecraft experience, regardless of where they decide to play.
Mojang also released this funny video about Minecraft being modified in a funny way by a boss.
While Mojang may claim that players have always had to comply with "Community Standards" however, it's worth remembering that one of Minecraft's most notorious servers is 2b2t. It's a notoriously lawless anarchy site that is that is known for its vulgarity trolling, swastikas, and much more. It's a horrible place. I wouldn't want to play there. I'm sure Mojang would prefer it to not exist. But it's also significant in terms of culture since it was included in the Design/Play/Disrupt show at London's Victoria and Albert Museum.
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what exactly IS the hermatix?
HERMATRIX: A Complete Summary (so far)
So the hermatrix is an ARG (alternate reality game) that has been going on in Doc and Ren’s videos since the start of season 8. What this means is that Doc and Ren have been slowly dropping hints and clues in their videos for the fans to solve, creating a bit of a storyline and leading to various websites, other people, and at one point even a Minecraft server. I’m going to use this opportunity to summarize everything that’s happened in the ARG so far. Heads up, it is VERY long.
First off, Doc’s episode 1. He kicked off all the weird ARG stuff with the cursed chunk (a chunk that somehow had EIGHT spawners in it) and the strange book that gave him instructions for it. A hidden QR code on the side of a spawner at the end of the video takes you to the hermatrix website, which will be crucial for solving things. It asks for a code. Using clues from Ren’s video, we figured out the code was #FFFFFF8; putting this into the website gave us a set Minecraft coordinates that led under Xisuma’s s8 base, with the page titled “Lucy.”
After this, a terminal appeared on the website, but it said we needed to log in to access it. Using morse code clues from Doc and Ren’s episode 2s along with some other clues, we figure out that the login is guest:GOATMAN! Which gives us access to the terminal. Using the command /help in the terminal gave you a list of commands that do various things. A little later on, a message appeared on the terminal for something called the “Hermitheus Defense Array” (HDA), prompting us for a password to access it.
(Edit: something I’ve forgotten to mention is that the terminal is specifically called grumbot.terminal, complete with a little picture of grumbot in the corner. Grumbot was Grian and Mumbo’s robot AI in season 7, who was kind of like their child, constructed to help Mumbo win the position of Mayor. Mumbo lost the campaign, so Grian stuck Grumbot in a false reality where Mumbo won the campaign so he wouldn’t be sad. The grumbot thing has generally been brushed off as a fun callback to s7, but it might have a bit more significance now that we’ve got the whole simulation theory going around.)
With the coordinates leading under X’s base, and “Lucy” being the designation for the pink axolotl in Minecraft’s game files, Doc, Ren, and Xisuma get together and travel to the exact coordinates listed on the site. They find a cave with a lake inside, with several axolotls. Lava begins pouring from the ceiling and the trio scramble to save all the axolotls, who are all named singular letters. Using clues found earlier (a goat named “Vigenere” and a parrot named “Cipher”) we figured out we needed to run the axolotl letters through the vigenere cipher, which gave us the word “ASTEROID”.
Putting “ASTEROID” in as the HDA password sent us to an asteroid game; you’re a little arrow that shoots bullets, and asteroids are coming at you. Hitting asteroids with your bullets split them into smaller asteroids until you get rid of them completely. In the top right corner there was an obnoxiously high number (like 300000 or something? I don’t remember) and every time you hit an asteroid, the number would go down. This number was global, meaning that it would be a group effort to get it to zero. With the help of a lot of people, a score multiplier, and automated bots, we eventually did it, and got the word “THUNDERSTRUCK.”
When you input this in the main website (not the terminal, the regular one), it lead you to a Minecraft world download, which gave you some pretty wack stuff. A giant structure (that looked similar to their mechanical spidery builds on hermitcraft) with a glass aquarium at the top, housing a single pink axolotl. Inside the body of it, there’s a lectern with a book titled “...”, along with some weird hanging lanterns. It says, “To wake from slumber... choose a side.” Here are some pictures of the build, all taken from the r/hermitcraft discord:
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Doc and Ren then recreate this build on hermitcraft. It gets struck by lightning, changing the axolotl at the top from pink to blue. Inside they find a book, which gave them a set of coordinates and the phrase “The New my save the Old.” (It’s probably supposed to be may.) They get Gem and Pearl (the “new”, since they’re the newest additions to hermitcraft) and go through a series of puzzle rooms; the main thing of note is that they find a book that says “defrag.hermatrix.net”, along with a date and time. The link turns out to be the address to a Minecraft server that fans can log into, but only for a limited time.
On said Minecraft server, people are spawned in with various unbreakable tools, an elytra, and infinite ender pearls and rockets. Everyone on the server had to dig down, until they hit bedrock and found an ender portal. The more they dug, the more eyes would fill in the portal, until it was complete. In the end, there was another strange spidery build (or “power node”).
The hermatrix ARG took a long break here, like a month or two. The moon got big. Doc claimed it had nothing to do with him, but then we got his most recent upload: episode 24.
A part of the moon crash-landed into Doc and Ren’s chicken coop. The piece of moon rock was named “/delete hermatrix-V8.simul”. Ren placed it on an altar, and he and Doc noticed a strange beeping coming from it. This turned out to be morse code, spelling out “WAKE UP” repeatedly; It doesn’t seem to do anything on the website. We are currently awaiting Ren’s video to see what other clues we can find. These clues specifically seem to lend itself to hermitcraft8 possibly being a simulation? Hence why everyone is using unreality tags.
That’s it so far! I’ll reblog this post with updates as they come. If you want to help solve, I recommend joining the r/hermitcraft discord, where there are designated channels for solving it :]
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for everyone's sake i'm putting this under a readmore lmao
I posted 86 times in 2022
That's 50 more posts than 2021!
65 posts created (76%)
21 posts reblogged (24%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@citruslllad
@dontmineit
@pearlescentmoo
@cli-art
@hoax-the-ghost
I tagged 85 of my posts in 2022
Only 1% of my posts had no tags
#jays art - 44 posts
#reblog - 17 posts
#1k - 16 posts
#asks - 16 posts
#self rb - 12 posts
#subway boss emmet - 12 posts
#pokemon - 11 posts
#2k - 11 posts
#rottmnt - 11 posts
#mcyt - 10 posts
Longest Tag: 140 characters
#flash is the statement giver just bc of the fact that i've interacted w/ them the most out of all of them and i know how to replicate them b
My Top Posts in 2022:
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i barely remember anything from watching tmnt 2012 (i was like 9) BUT. i absolutely peg 2012 raph as a secret theatre kid
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Before anything else, if you have the means, please consider donating to https://www.curesarcoma.org/ or going to Techno's official merch site to buy some merch, in which all sale funds will be donated to it and supporting Techno's family as well.
When I first saw Technoblade's channel when he focused on Bedwars content back in.. probably 2017, he had 300k and I barely paid him any mind. Thought he was a stuck up, famous jerk. Years later with the boom of Minecraft returning, I'd never realized he was such a sweet, hilarious guy just going out there and making people happy.
When he got cancer, I told my friends to calm down- that he'd be fine; it was a tumor, something that could be removed. I was really just trying to reassure myself. I didn't want to lose the man that made me feel comfortable in my own skin being loud, slightly obnoxious and intensely ADHD. I'm still in shock, and as I drew this the reality that he's gone kept hitting me and I'd have to pause, hold back tears. Even now it still hasn't fully hit me yet.
I can't imagine what his close friends and family are going through right now. I'm not afraid to say I bawled my eyes out when I watched the actual update video, and I cried even harder when I heard his dad's voice crack. I can only wish him and his family a safe, calm grieving. And for everyone else, viewers and fans and artists and everyone, I repeat what my last post says:
Your grief for him is real. Your pain for him is real. Please do not snoop or act like you were buddy buddy, but other than that, please know you are allowed to grieve him. He was a beloved icon in this community, and he will always be remembered as a legend.
And just like legends do, in everyone's hearts and minds, Technoblade will never die. I love you guys, and he did too. Take care of yourselves.
Rest in peace, Technoblade.
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goncharov was actually cracked for the pearl necklace scene. the vulnerability in that moment and when they HELD HANDS??? scorsese did NOT hold back dear fucking god
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the first time i've ever even heard dream's name was on this popular tumblr post about the pride donation scandal. must have had a couple tens of thousands of notes. since i wasn't at all interested in like minecraft or gaming i just thought to myself "what a dick" and scrolled on. and then half a year later i fall into a dream hole, read up on him and find out he actually donated a fuck ton of money and nothing in that post was true. stuff like that is infuriating once you know the actual truth
there was another post that got big early in june of someone saying Dream over worked and under paid his animators. every single part of it was lies by someone who was a temporary freelancer who did one thing on the music video and only worked for the head animator 0 contact with Dream. the head animator had to clear it all up but the misinfo post got 10x the notes. people on tumblr see any negative post and slam reblog
I remember this one post talking about sourcing etc that got really big and no one seemed to notice how many of the links were rick rolls. like and most posts that get big have ZERO sources. or the one about jesus being trans or fucking gay pirates of the carribbean. people on this site are the definition of believing everything they read online
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feuilly and gavroche thoughts
i was talking about this with @a-rose-remembered and i wanted to make a post about this because omg
imma put this in a modern setting because it gives me more room to work with
-anyway, they're sort of cut from the same cloth. feuilly had parents that couldn't care for him and he got put into the foster care system. gavroche's parents don't care for him and the only reason he isn't in the foster care system is because he can evade them really well
-they're both alone, in some way, shape, or form
-anyway, my modern feuilly works construction with bahorel. one day he's working a site and taking a smoke break when this kid is just sort of walking through a very unsafe construction site with a backpack and- mind you, it's a tuesday mid-morning and this kid should absolutely be in school
-so feuilly stops him and he's like "hey aren't you supposed to be at school?" and the kid just fires back "hey i thought you were supposed to be the generation that stopped smoking"
-and he's taken SO ABACK because im sorry, what? this kid is like, eleven. jesus.
-feuilly scowls but he sort of gives him a look like "aren't you worried about your parents when the school calls?" the kid just shakes his head and says that his parents don't care about him- as long as he's out of the house he doesn't get hurt
-this stops being mildly funny to feuilly and he's sort of given flashbacks to his own childhood- not going home because he was scared of his mom and skipping school and not doing homework when he was in the foster system. this greasy little kid in the minecraft creeper hoodie reminds him of himself
-he asks if there's anyone else he can go to and the kid says that no, his sister is at work and his other sister is at school. feuilly can't exactly take off work- he needs the money- but he also can't expect some random little kid to feel safe staying at a stranger's apartment. plus... feuilly's apartment has a stained popcorn ceiling and his bed is a frameless-mattress in the corner of his room. his apartment is not a home, it's a Watering Hole.
-he tells bahorel to tell his boss that he'll be back in twenty and he walks the kid to a nearby library and buys him a pastry on the way there before telling him to take care of himself and heading back to work
-a couple weeks later, he sees the same kid. the greasy hair, the stained minecraft creeper hoodie, the backpack that seems twice as big as he is. this time, he's not working. he's in the middle of getting his usual friday night dinner, kebab and a beer from the doner shop across the street from his house
-feuilly stops and asks if he's alright and the kid kind of gives him a look before recognizing him and saying that he's waiting for his dad's friend to pick him up. feuilly asks how long he's been waiting. gavroche asks for the time, feuilly tells him it's about 8:30 at night, and gavroche shrugs and says that it's been about five hours then
-feuilly is torn. he would really just kill to get his usual takeout order and watch a documentary in his Watering Hole with his pet snake chillin on his lap but this is also a kid who needs help. this is him as a kid, who needed help and never felt like he really got any
-so he offers to get him dinner if he hasn't already eaten and sacrifices his usual comforting friday night to dine inside the shop with the kid. he learns that his name is gavroche, he has two older siblings, and he likes lizards and bugs and video games. gavroche eats his own order of fries and feuilly pushes his own side of fries towards him and feels relieved when he takes them and eats that too. gavroche is funny for a kid- he's really blunt and self aware, but he's also just a kid. he tells feuilly about minecraft stuff and fnaf stuff and fortnite stuff and feuilly is just kind of nodding along and listening until a giant guy that gavroche refers to in passing as gueulemer comes and murmurs something about gavroche's dad. gavroche hops off his seat with his huge backpack and thanks feuilly for dinner before leaving with this terrifying, huge-ass dude.
-feuilly doesn't see him for a while after that. he continues living his truth and surviving in his beloved Watering Hole and cooing to his pet snake like she's the love of his life (bc she is) and goes about the rest of his life
-it's november when he's invited to enjoras's friend's party. he doesn't really know many of enjolras's friends. he knows jp and he knows bahorel and he knows enjolras, but that's about it. he ends up mildly enjoying himself and cracking open a couple brewskis because hey! it's friday, baby!
-enjolras's friend's friend marius opens the door and there's a mildly disheveled young woman who apologizes and says that she didn't have anywhere to bring them. marius is kind of like "who's them?" but then she steps aside and there's a teenage girl and-
-gavroche points to feuilly from across the room in recognition of sorts and feuilly comes over closer to dap him up and ask him how he's been. the young woman is kind of confused but then gavroche explains that this is his friend who buys him food when they see each other and feuilly is half panicked because he doesn't want her to think he's some weird pervert but his heart is also melting bc the kid called him his friend. feuilly is thought of as a friend.
-surprisingly enough the young woman pulls feuilly into a quick hug and thanks him for being kind enough and he learns that her name is eponine and the other girl is azelma. eponine's moved out of the house and azelma stays with her but gavroche couldn't come because he can't be legally emancipated until he's 16.
-he also finds out that eponine is harbouring him over the weekend because things aren't great at his house right now and he needed somewhere safe to stay. the two talk a lot together during the party and find that they've had similar backgrounds. they both come from substance abuse households, only feuilly's parents were jailed and he got out when he was seven. eponine's been stuck in that life up to the present, unable to completely detach herself with gavroche still stuck there. she couldn't in good conscience do it.
-feuilly offers to help her out if she ever needs it. he also knows it's kind of a weird offer from someone she's only met once. and he doesn't mention the Watering Hole situation- maybe he can get a bed frame or at least a couch better than the one he has now (feuilly dragged it off the street)
-eponine accepts gratefully, though. she explains that she isn't making a ton of money at the moment (they're both college drop-outs. twinsiess again!) and can pay eventually, but feuilly just sort of waves her off and says that he doesn't need any of her money (his Watering Hole would say otherwise, but cmon guys let him be nice)
-gavroche likes hanging out with feuilly. he gets convinced to go to school because it's easier to hear it coming from someone who understands. feuilly helps him with his history and english homework, they struggle together over science, and gavroche schools feuilly when he even mentions tutoring him in math. feuilly is honestly glad- he hasn't done classroom math in years.
-they go to the park a lot. feuilly played football in school and gavroche really really wants to be a football star when he's "ancient like feuilly" (fuck this kid- feuilly's not even 28). he can't afford the gear that the school says he needs so he's never been able to play, but he says he watches football with his dad and his friends all the time bc that's when it's not scary to be around them
-feuilly teaches him how to play goalie, let's him borrow his gear (even though it's all a bit too big), and invites his own friends to come play a couple games with them. it gets a lot of gap-toothed grins from gavroche
-he also befriends eponine and helps her when help is needed. she's never fixed a leaky sink on her own, so feuilly brings his tools and teaches her and azelma and gav. feuilly cannot cook for shit- he lives off of frozen meals and takeout, so eponine teaches him basic cooking skills and talks to him about food options that are cheap. they help each other out a lot. when it comes from someone in a similar situation, it doens't feel patronizing and they appreciate that about each other
-feuilly is also really big on video games, just like gavroche, and teaches him how to play some oldies. they play zelda games together and the original super mario 64 and stuff that feuilly's been collecting from second-hand stores over the years
-he also makes sure that they three of them have enough stuff for winter. he goes to another second-hand store and helps gavroche and azelma find better puffy jackets than they already have and maybe a rubik's cube. and maybe a bop-it. and maybe a-
-eponine also comes over for a lot of wine nights. the two make soup together and split a bottle of two-euro rose and sink into feuilly's shitty couch and sigh because oh my god. right?
-gavroche is also a little pain in feuilly's ass sometimes. when feuilly smokes at home, he makes gagging and choking noises and pretends to die on the floor until feuilly puts it out. it kinda makes feuilly grind his teeth in aggravation, but he knows the kid is trying to be helpful
-when feuilly's power gets cut in the middle of winter, he gets the privilege of staying over at eponine's. gavroche is psyched bc omg sleepover! he sleeps on her pull-out couch with him, clung around him like a baby bear
-feuilly isn't sure if he feels like a big brother or a dad, but either way it makes his grinch heart feel warm
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My personal Pros and Cons of my ADHD
Pros
-noticing all the little details and appreciating them in the fullest
-Emotional Dysregulation, because when I get a new plant, or find that one oddly shaped metal marble I lost a while ago, I am so excited it’s pathetic, but I love that feeling of pure joy.
-hyperfixation of the week/day/hour (i know some people describe it differently, let me be pls) . I usually switch between art mediums, and/or a few video games/social media sites. for example, I’ve been on tumblr for 3 hours as i write this, after not touching it for, i think a month?
-nuerodivergent friends. They’re just better.
-the ability to completely drown myself in information to ignore reality. Is it healthy? no. But i simply cannot handle another existiential crissi rn, so i will instead play minecraft while listening to alt rock playlists on youtube because getting spotify sounds like a lot of work.
-my ability to retain absolutely useless information, from either my, or my other nuerodivergent friends hyperfixations/special interests. I can explain to you in terrible formatting if it’s out loud, the evolution, history, training, anatomy and roles of the horse in our world, and how ao3 works, and what makes or breaks a fanfiction.
-Object Impermanence. When i literally hide myself a treat or surprise and forget about it, then get so excited when i do find/discover it again. I hide google questions, and/or song lyrics in my tabs :) its so fun. Also, hiding away stressors. Again, healthy? no, but i don’t feel like having anxiety all day, so whatever.
-Emotional Dysregulation, again. I can switch from sad or angry to happy and excited/content in a few seconds. It’s also great for getting my siblings out of their funk. ex., my sister is mad at me. I make a silly voice repeating what she said or cross my eyes at her. she laughs, then we can talk and have constructive conversation about why she shouldn’t get that upset about me “cutting off her reading time” when we share a room and I want to sleep, and know that she will be very tired tomorrow if she doesn’t also go to sleep. (We have this conversation almost every single night, i’m not even joking)
Cons
-Emotional Dysregulation. When i get upset, I’m Upset. Like, big time, ruining friendships and familial ties if i let it get out of hand, Upset. Yeah.
-Time Blindness. Constantly late, or early, or under or over estimating the amount of time it takes to do a thing, not eating til 4 because you forgot but you also should just wait til dinner, but now its 9 and I still haven’t eaten-
-Executive Dysfunction. I can’t do the things needed to function. Don’t have the mental energy to explain this one, so google it i guess? There’s a whole checklist of things you need to be able to do to function, and i can do like, three on a good day.
-Sleeping Trouble. People with adhd have trouble falling asleep, staying asleep, and waking up. So, sleeping trouble. So I’m constantly tired.
-Internal Clock is SLIGHTLY OFF. Nuerotypicals have that normal sleep schedule. Adhd ers have it shifted forward by, i think, 2, 3 hours. So we go to sleep later, and wake up later, and that’s the only way to get a healthy amount of sleep. My entire family also eats dinner super late, which might be because we’re weird, but I suspect the inner clock thing cuz we all got adhd.
-Object Impermanance. I hid my math homework one time. I failed that class. 
-Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. Never trying, or starting cuz I’m so terrified to get a bad reaction. Constantly masking around certain people to appeal to the few of my Nuerotypical friends. Or, y’know, majority of my extended family. They’re ableist. and homophobic. And transphobic. And racist. and sexist. The list goes on, but, yeah. Never coming out to them! :D
-Masking. It’s exhausting and I can only handle so much of it.
-Not Masking around nuerotypicals. The shoot down after finally revealing my true thoughts, urges, feelings, stims, etc. just sucks. Super disheartening. 
-Squirrel or shiny jokes when they’re made by people without adhd. Yes, I do get distracted by squirrels, and shiny things, and dice. Stop pointing it out, and/or putting me into yet another box of your labeling. 
-saying that I’m lazy, worthless, or a disaster when really it’s not helping. I already have that internal monologue, you adding to it and giving it some truth/extra ammunition is not. helping.
-Emotional Dysregulation. Again, because mood swings. like, I’m trying to be rightfully angry with you. Stop making me laugh with you’re silly faces or pointing out of a weird face someone made in a picture you took. 
-the stigma about the hyperactive subtype. I’m inattentive. I have No Energy. Ever. Sometimes i have restlessness, but there is still no energy. Stop portraying me as bouncing off the walls, especially with caffeine. Caffeine just catches my body speed up to my brain speed, settling me down a bit, at least mentally. 
-people not getting when i say I’m overstimulated, or need some time alone to process or re-energize, and following me, or continuing to do the overstimulating thing. I will literally. lose. my. mind.
-when people shut me down after I share something that is really important to me, or make fun of me for liking something an “abnormal” amount. Flashbacks to overnight camp, when whenever I said anything about horses, they said I had to do five squats, and when i got really excited about discussing the differences in riding styles/types with another person who really liked horses, but rode english, they said that it was obnoxious, when i was just.. excited to finally find someone to talk to and who felt the same way after, basically, years and years of no one getting it or wanting to listen or talking with me about the thing. To this day I don’t discuss horses with anyone, cuz it hurts so much remembering that, and the fear of it happening again is still there. 
-seeing other people be ashamed about their adhd and hesitant to mention until i talk, like, super openly about having it, in like, the first 5 minutes of knowing each other. It just.. hurts.
-I’m super empathetic, not in a way that’s helpful though. Like, wincing, or limping myself because I saw you drop something on your foot, and am imagining it so vividly that it feels like it happened to me. Reading a fic about abuse or depression, and it hitting too hard and hurting me almost physically, and on a personal level because I simply cannot handle it. Feeling someone else’s pain so vividly that i can’t comfort or help them in any way, because I am so preoccupied with  feeling their pain. 
-never being able to finish things without starting something else. All the WIPs in my google docs, istg, i will be driven insane by it. 
(y’know, this was kinda fun. As a rant, but also as a way for me to identify things about myself and my adhd that i like. Like, I know its so much shorter, but I have a hard time with positive self affirmation, so it was kinda nice. I might do it again, but just the pros part cuz the cons are kinda depressing ngl.)
(OH, Y’all should reblog with your own personal pros added on! You can add cons if you’d like to :) I’m just interested in seeing how your experiences/feeling differ from mine :) )
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