I write something like this every year. In all honesty it's hard for me to talk about Chester. I think about him every single day. It's now been six years without him, and it still doesn't feel real that he's gone. I still don't know how to cope with it. I still can't think about him for too long without crying.
Chester has been such an important figure in my life for as long as I can remember. I was raised on Linkin Park. They will forever be one of my favorite bands even if some songs are too painful to listen to now. My own mental health journey has been difficult. I'd be lying if I claimed to be doing totally fine, but I live each day trying to honor Chester's memory and make him proud. He's a big part of the reason I am who I am, and he's a big part of the reason that I'm still here today.
If you see this, please give someone you love a hug. Tell them you care about them. Cherish the moments you have with the people that matter. Listen to your favorite artist and keep them in your mind for a while. Do something nice for yourself. We all owe it to ourselves to allow some kindness in our lives. In words that Chester once sang, "when life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind".
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i’m running around in sr2 rn doing random side stuff and i just heard a piece of NPC dialogue i don’t think i’ve heard before
“Whatever happened to that nice boy you used to hang around? I think he became the chief of police?”
……..TROY? was he really known as a “nice boy” that we hung around?😭
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1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!
2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr
3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!
overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!
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Listen the may Mays are fun and all but I'm probably just going to skim the rest and not read the third book (esp when it's just going to be Violet saving Xaden)
The first book was fun albeit brain candy but IF is all the stuff I had issues with FW times ten. The fact that I could see someone turning venin for Inntinnsic powers a mile away before the book even came out is just depressing.
I will die on this hill: the only reason I was even wrong on who it was was because my theory has a consistent logic to it whereas it being Xaden is just for the emotional gut punch with no real merit. (Sure you may say sacrifice but turning yourself into a nuclear bomb for the pussy is the opposite of sacrifice)
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they call u danger bc being near you puts my. um. fuck what was it. braincells in danger!! red is cringe and a terrible color and you should be dragged around the floor of a children’s hospital, except then they’d have to wash the floor bc you smell so bad that it made the floor smell bad by association. fuck you
ES EM AYCH. the things people will say on anon sometimes.
i'm only answering this to clear up this common misconception i keep seeing around the color red. the color red actually symbolizes more positive things than it does negative things. literally just take a look at the wikipedia page for the color red and you'll see that the color red actually symbolizes a lot of good stuff.
just take a look at this image:
you should really look into color theory. like just take a look at this post that explains it perfectly. i also want to add some things about this image.
number one, while it may seem like there are a balanced number of positive and negative traits, the truth is, some of those negatives are actually subjective.
like, lust isn't even that bad!!! shaming people for their sexual interests is inherently misogynistic and helps perpetuate the restrictive ideals of the patriarchy. we should be embracing sexuality, not limiting it.
anger is also a subjective trait. while anger used to enact violence is bad, anger by itself is not inherently a negative trait, and shouldn't be treated as such. people have been weaponizing anger to other historically marginalized groups. anger is not a bad thing
also, while dominance can be bad, it's also not inherently negative. we should stop shaming people for the consensual acts they choose to do in the privacy of their own homes with a CONSENTING partner just because the word 'dominant' or 'submissive' have wrongfully gained a negative connotation.
and don't even get me started on 'stress' or 'alert.' having a small amount of stress or being alert aren't bad things and can actually be beneficial. just take a look at this article which explains the subject in more depth.
so, anon, maybe you should educate yourself before you start sending messages. being all "high and mighty" on your throne of lies. next time you post, make sure to do your research. maybe in the future it'll prevent you from beinf so hateful.
(and by the way im not even smelly like wtf where did you even hear that. not that i care but like its not even true so you shouldnt be saying that. like its so rude to just assume you have no idea whats going on in my life and like i dont care or anything but you should try and be more thoughtfulf in the future and stop saying lies bc like i dont even smell. like seriously where did you even hear that)
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