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creativebrainrot · 1 year

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so usually when i post any kinda personal text post its venting and i feel bad about that cause like ive made so much positive progress too. so im gonna share how happy i am about all that shit for once (vent posts help though and i wont mute myself on my own blog because ive held my tongue for long enough in my lifetime.)

couple of months ago i forced myself to reach out. it was just a post asking about any gw2blr discords or guild, but jesus christ did the thought of posting that scare me. i drafted it like three times.

then i made myself post it before i went to bed. "whatever happens, happens." and i got help. i got an invite a server and pointed towards a guild. (i never actually asked about the guild. at the moment, being the person to dm someone still causes my brain to seize up. im working on it, and its ONLY Being The One to Start to conversation. chatting with people in dms is not the actual issue.)

then, I Forced myself to talk and introduce myself to the few people online when i joined the server. I was frightened to accept but i remembered some invites close after 24 hours and i didnt want to deal with explaining i needed another one because i was too anxious to accept the first.

and since then ive been able to take steps forward without any of my worst experiences happening again. I love that discord server. I finally have a friend group for the actual first time in my life. no one has been rude or mean or brushed me off or ignored me like i was fucking petrified would repeat.

I was right all along. only that person treated me like that. my dad was right all along. the most innocuous, normal shit can really change someone's day, or life.

Now it hurts to slip backwards into habits of assuming ill be thrown away or ignored- silence isnt a weapon anymore, my words arent twisted into the worst possible interpretation. no more interagations, no more demands to justify myself, no more feeling like i have to justify EVERY SENTENCE I say.

no more making myself be quiet and invisible out of fear alone.

so next step forward is getting over my fear that the simple act of Being the person to Start a private conversation is an invitation to be slapped away. To be brushed off again.

I'm finally fucking free and i dont worry ANY WHERE NEAR as much as i used to, im so fucking free and i cant wait to move forward.

I can finally be myself. I am finally happy.

#the discord im talking about is Slei's #He has no fuckin clue how much fear & anxiety i pushed through just to introduce myself #fox and silv legit have no fucking idea how much they helped out by treating me like a regular personlmao #i have had. a life. boy have i.#I finally look forward to tomorrow after 21 years of wondering and begging #hoping the pain would end #and im so fucking happy i did #hoping was the best thing i ever fucking did #and i cant wait to see what tomorrow brings #I am finally happy #rotthoughts

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2ducks-agoose · 10 months

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I don’t think people understand how happy art makes artists. I am a young artist who is taking a major class at my high school. It is my first year that I can actually have art everyday. That fact just makes me so fucking happy. I get to do something I love to be apart of my schooling. I can just relax and make art. And I just create. And on top of getting to take art IN SCHOOL, I GET TO MAKE THINGS I ENJOY! My class lets me do different mediums and discover what I like to do. I get to paint and sculpt and draw. THIS JUST MAKES ME WANT TO CRY. I am so happy I get to do all of this. I can make and let my emotions out and tell all my stories through my art. That makes me so fucking JOYOUS. The thought of never doing this again makes me so sad. I don’t think people understand how miserable I would be with ever getting to do this every day. I have been sad without doing art. I haven’t gotten to do art for a while now it’s making my life so miserable and stressed. The fact that I CAN do it now makes me just happy. I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m just, Happy.

#I love my art so much #I love my art class #I am so FUCKING JOYFUL i get to do this everyday #I can be me in my creations #nothing can compare to that #no other art #no other person/thing can take my emotion away from my art #that will make my art my art #it shows my humanity #and my feelings #and all of this is in my art #that I can do everyday #I am finally happy #art

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ruporas · 21 days

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it's time to go, my love (ID in alt)

#vashwood #trigun maximum spoilers #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #ruporas art #been in a very bad Art rut lately... the fatigue is finally catching up so i turned to my very trusty muses #to bring me somewhere. somehow its vol 10 i always return to. though i thnk this is the first time im posting v10 art #i have so many in my drafts but this vol always made me emotional. It's been a year now so my emotions #They've cleared up. Somewhat.#i think i just delusioned myself into a place where ww is always alive bc i draw him well and healthy all the time. his death is such an #essential part to the narrative though... i'll never be able to run from it completely :']. anyway. im not too sure how to elaborate my #Thoughts on this one but i am quite Happy with the blueness of it all.

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sushirens · 3 months

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after years of waiting, we finally got a new irl zits pic to turn into a weezer meme, who cheered.

#impulsesv #hermitcraft #hermitblr #skizzleman #tangotek #zedaph #zedaphplays #sushi’s faves #i am so proud of how fast i made this at work thats why it looks busted #but we finally got an updated zits pic im so happy <3

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spielzeugkaiser · 19 days

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[MASTERPOST] Being a witcher is not always easy - but what is, really? Still, Geralt feels bad that Jaskier is now living through something he never wanted him to experience again. (What is a spielzeugkaiser post if there isn't hurt/comfort, honestly-)

#NOW we are back - hehe #the witcher #geraskier #jaskier #geralt of rivia #bear!jaskier #geralt is ready to attacc #he protecc #I am aiming for my old update scheudle of thursdays and sundays! we will see if that works but for the next two weeks I have stuff prepared #but little things!!#I don't want to stress myself #i'm just happy to be drawing again #finally feeling like me!!#why is it that I come back on pride month with implied homophobia and why does that feel on brand

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tatck · 5 months

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Issue 2 Vagabond Comic Part 4/?

Style change! And I am giving the middle finger to backgrounds.

Ko-Fi - ISSUE 1 START - PREVIOUS - ALL CHAPTERS - NEXT

#eggman #sonic fanart #metal sonic #amy rose #sonic the hedgehog #stvh #my doodles #vagabond au #sonic au #Sonic fan comic #stvh!comic #dont look too closely at the bgs 😬 i am too lazy for them #not ship #i feel like im gonna have to tag this comic with that lest i be misunderstood #doing my epic gamer move of posting at 3am again ✌#i'm very happy eggman i can finally show off what eggman is like now #i hope i can do my idea of him justice and that he isn't seen as too far off as an eggman

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colourofmagic · 2 months

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captain sunshine and the best backliner in ncaa exy ☀️

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lilybug-02 · 7 months

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Wow. That could not have turned out worse.

Part 23 || First || Previous || Next

--Full Series--

This comic will be on Holiday Hiatus this December and January! While on a cliffhanger? What a scam! >:/

#Chara finally realizes something is wrong....very wrong #And you get to see little Chara for all of 2 drawings. wow. You guys are so spoiled uwu #Asriel and Chara bbfs #finally out of that darn tootin' Darkworld! WE'VE BEEN THERE FOR 2 YEARS!!!#LORE TIME LORE TIME. I know Chara is very vague about it but player-human relationships are very personal.#it can be hard to talk about them if you've been possessed yourself. especially with some stigmas around it #chara just wanted a glass of water. why you gotta do this to em #I am so so so happy to get here #the full excitement has faded since I first thought up this scene but It's still one hell of an accomplishment #YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA how many times I reworked this and how many rough drafts I've thrown out the window because of it.#tbh. I may post the 10+ rough pages that will never see the light of day #Im glad I didnt go through with that scrapped plot bc It was too many unneeded pages. I've learned to start condensing in a better way #I am also planning on showing off my Patreon soon :) so I'll be posting complete scrapped story lines over there #deltarune chara timeline #deltarune #utdr #deltarune chara timeline comic #art #my art #bread #chara #asriel #saloon darkworld #darkworld #deltarune au #college chara #college asriel

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months

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Flagrant Favourism.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #jiang fengmian #This comic has been sitting on the back burner for months and I am thrilled to finally release it out into the wild.#Does it completely interrupt the tone that the last two comics set? Yeah it does.#There's an mpreg joke coming tomorrow so look forwards to that as well <3 Welcome to my comedy blog.#I really love thinking about the complicated nature of Jiang Fengmian's relationship with wwx! It has so many incredible layers #He is the son of two people he was close with! Two people who died and their remaining legacy-#-is this talented boy near your own son's age. How do you not desire to raise him to be happy and content?#JFM grieves every time he sees WWX and replaces that feeling with a compensatory affection. Where else can those feelings go?#JFM does not see wwx as a servant nor a son. He sees him as a reminder - as a replacement for a horrible hole in his heart.

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hinamie · 21 days

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took 3 tries but i think i am finally free of korra plagiarism in yuuji's water tribe design

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #itadori yuuji #yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk atla!au #lmhs #timelapse #atla!au: design #atla!au: art #this au's power....literally ws like I Do Not Have Time To Draw today and yet . here he is #I think water tribe clothing leans symmetrical thus me fiddling w his lower hem a bunch ghgjhfgsdf #i love u asymmetry but we must make sacrifices ive spent too long bashing my head in over how to fix this design #i simply could not in good conscience have him cosplaying korra . i think their time in th water tribe is too important #n when the time comes fr me to illustrate fr th later chapters i want to . u kno.#actually be Happy with th design GJHFGS #and i am !!!! finally !!!!#i think i managed 2 accomplish my goal of keeping his short sleeves n armbands while Not making it look like walmart korra #long suffering sigh yuuji Why Do You Fight Back :(#megumi voice whatever !!!!#my un-korrification mission ws a success in my eyes and thats all that matters

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keeps-ache · 1 year

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overgrowth and languor

[recommended you click and zoom] (alt versions below)

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #eyestrain #HI i am So kinda proud of this actually #still can't tell if it looks nice but!!!#//click and zoom piece again !! i was starting to think i had just given up on ever doing that again hvbhs #//!!!!#so happy i've finally finished it yay!!!#ik i used to average like working 2 days on a piece at one point but i was not nonstop-working on those so lol #//tried something with the background!!#and the inks!!#drew a cat which is very swag!!#the colours are a WHOLE new thing and i love colours that are yellow on the wheel but brown on the canvas!!#REALLY love the blue one (i wanted to have a night version and that's close enough :D)!!#i like the little orange painting in the background (a LOT)!!#overall i am changing my verdict and saying Yeah i AM happy with this lol #//but yeah gonna go post on artstreet now lol :3

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hayden-christensen · 11 months

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'It's been really heartwarming I can't really sort of tell you what it means to me but so much, you know. I mean this is for the fans so to have their support is just huge.' — Hayden Christensen on fan reception to his return to Star Wars.

#hayden christensen #hchristensenedit #haydenchristensenedit #swcastedit #sw cast #kenobi press #starwarsblr #usershale #*mine #*2023 #*gifs #2k #IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I GIFFED HIM OMFGGGG #I've wanted to for ages but never found the time bc I was too busy making so many eras sets lmao thank god taylor's on a break rn #anyway !#I am very happy that hayden finally gets to play clone wars era anakin which he very much deserves to

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aru-art · 11 months

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