#I am not thriving

[esperantoauthor]

My mental health is hanging by a thread and that thread is episodes of Taskmaster.

[julesnichols]

Other Snowpiercer highlights include Wilford claiming that the arm freezing death ports were meant as an idle threat and being like What The Actual Fuck about Melanie using them as the rulebook said to. This is why allistics need to be more clear when they write shit like that to tell their autistic second in commands that it is Not meant literally

[placeinthemiddleofnowhere]

Guess who was informed literally right now that they have a job interview (with a task to complete) tomorrow 🙃 recruiters are insane

[no-entry-access]

The bread doesn’t match, there’s sand in the tomatoes, and I want to cry:

[thecrackedamethyst]

Have you guys heard of pathological demand avoidance (PDA)? I have. Now.

It’s a “profile of autism” (I don’t know what that means) where any kind of “demand” that’s placed on you--from other people, your environment, society, your own god damn body--causes you anxiety and you enter fight/flight mode. Like for everything. So you avoid everything demanded of you so you don’t feel constantly anxious.

and OH MY GOD Let me tell you when I say that this diagnosis (?) fits me like a glove? Like, to a T??? Like. *screams*. I check all the boxes. 

It explains everything in my entire life. Why I can’t open my mail. Why I just let veggies rot in my fridge. Why I can’ draw my cards. Why every time I decide on a Project I can’t work on it. Why I can’t answer emails. Why I get uncontrollably pissed when someone tells me “you need to do this right now”. Why I can’t get out of bed in the morning. Why I can’t go to bed at night. Why I hate baking! Why my house is falling apart around me and I am doing absolutely nothing to fix it. Why I just won’t go to the bathroom even though I need to.

Like ADHD wasn’t quite right, and classic autism wasn’t quite right, and nothing was quite right...and this easily removes like, I dunno, 4 other things I’ve diagnosed myself with???

Anyways. It’s super interesting to examine and it’s fascinating to look back at my life and suddenly understand why I struggle with what I do, and what actually is a struggle not just me being...lazy and stubborn, I guess? I now feel both exalted and filled with despair. 

[i-want-to-be-spaghettified]

i have officially hit a new low

(crying into a bowl of flavourless instant noodles while watching math videos that still don’t make sense the night before my exam)

[thehours2002]

little girl friendships!!!

[bnha-more-like-bnh-gay]

Mina, after having pulled a muscle: I’m getting my flexibility back :D

Kaminari, not wanting her to hurt herself: you need to chill

Mina: >:( I need it

Kaminari: you don’t need it?!

Mina: BITCH

Kaminari:

Mina: I don’t trust men, I need to be able to kick them in the head

Kaminari: Jesus Christ on a stick, my dude

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I’m doing so bad today

[icedmetaltea]

Still pissed off I can't get a body pillow that's Sun on one side and Moon on the other >:c

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

Hi

[kattheneeko]

Somebody please motivate me to start AND finish my Cat Noir cosplay because I’ve been procrastinating for months and it’s due for the end of March. I am making it from scratch, including the boots. I am not thriving.

[bunches-of-lilacs]

thriving haha

[pokimoko]

I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.

[no-entry-access]

I am one minor inconvenience away from crying