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arty-tardigrade · 3 months

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I feel like Max needs a break from the Camp Campbell chaos every now and then just so he doesn't go completely insane.

#camp camp #camp camp fanart #camp camp max #camp camp david #camp camp neil #camp camp nikki #the smol angery floof #painting this one gave me a shockingly low amount of grief #like it went well #usually my pieces come out kicking and screaming but this one was actually rather nice to me which I appreciated #sorry to the nurf preston dolph and Gwen fans; I wanted to include them but had no space #they're off having a good time together with the platypus #please appreciate Nerris's glasses I don't know why or how but I feel like I cooked with them; please agree with me #also yes david is doing the 'how to talk to short people' squat #tumblr is definitely going to nerf (or should I say nurf lmao) the quality of this one but such is life on this hellsite

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shuploc · 3 months

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Ai art?

Are you fucking joking?

Sorry, no, it is not and I find it so disrespectful you would even think to ask that. I have not and will NEVER touch anything AI related ever in my life, I think it's so utterly pointless and destructive and it frankly makes me wanna kill myself.

So no, it is not and never will be, and you can safely hold that to me for the rest of my existence. I really hope this is the last time someone asks me this.

#I really really hate to have to be that way' but my god #crazy how spending all this time teaching myself how to draw for literally decades-#and now people might just look at my stuff and shrug and go “well' that's cool' but a computer probably made that so I don't care”#not to bring it up again or whatever' but I have legitimately not been this depressed in ages since ai became mainstream #I hope it completely gets wiped off the face of the earth #I frankly do not care what it could/might be useful for #it's so exploitative and toxic and it completely ruins the fun of being a creative in every single way possible #good grief.#sorry lmao #but yeah' fuck no' and please just go through my stuff or my art tag and have a look yourself next time first before asking #that would be lovely

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callisteios · 9 months

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I have a new uquiz for you, go on a pilgrimage with me. discover who you are.

#don't you want to go on a nice medieval pilgrimage?#don't you want to rest a little? answer some questions? learn something about yourself?#this was originally a pentiment medieval quiz and now it's this #it's pretty good imo though. i had a lot of fun researching it #yes there really is a biblio. ill write it up soon but its parts of the pentiment biblio plus some stuff i found myself #really thank you to everyone who made pentiment. you know how sometimes you find a piece of art at exactly the right time?#well i discovered pentiment just as my interests perfectly intersected with it. (those interests being history historiography and grief)#have fun etc. tag your results #that's always great #quiz #uquiz #pentiment #medieval #mine #sorry for being absent for a bit. holidays kind of suck #sorry abbie i couldnt fit the saw bathroom in thisone. i couldn't think of a way to do it naturally #i listened to SAVED! and SINNER GET READY the entire time i was writing this so yeah there's a ref. sue me

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tierracottas · 1 year

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made something for the bear! so deeply enamored with the whole show :•)

#so much that i scavenged for cooking magazines at 4 in the morning #which very funnily. is such sydcarmy behavior #i don't know i could probably do an entire essay on what captivates me so much about the show it's just so so good #and of course it captures family and passion and grief so well #and connection!!!! connection #i think i also watched this at a very fitting time #needless to say it goes in my favorites hehe #i want to make scene redraws sometime as well but yes #the bear #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #sydcarmy #jeremy allen white #ayo edebiri #the bear fx #collage #art

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oh-katsuki · 10 months

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yk when someone dies and you just have to... sit with it.. and you're like... how do i tell people something is wrong. how do i tell people who never met them or knew them or spoke to them that something happened. and it feels selfish somehow to even talk about it out loud but at the same time for some reason you feel like you have to. like somehow you're telling a lie or being disrespectful or being self-indulgent. when the reality is that you just don't want to be alone in grief. but they didn't know them and even after saying something, you're alone anyway.

#i don't even know what to do with myself #for some reason #talking abt it here feels less intrusive than calling a friend and talking about it #but it still feels selfish for some reason #even though i know i just need to find a way to process #and i can't help but be like.. well i won't tell anyone because what if it's a mistake?#what if she's fine? and at home somewhere or in her kitchen singing?#or practicing for her next show #idk grief is weird #and i hate that i'll have to go to another friend's funeral.#tw: grief #tw: death #vent #personal

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everypanelofizuku · 2 months

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Chapter 83 - Loss

#boku no hero academia #deku #izuku midoriya #bnha #my hero academia #the loss. the grief. the fear. the defeat. the genuine fucking tragedy in his face #the raw emotion #the scream that probably threw out his voice #the terror #there's so much to this panel #the blur effect on it to really drive home how hard he's screaming in pure genuine anguish #he failed. he couldn't save someone.#and that someone is... the person he genuinely cares about the most (besides y'know his mom)#that's his friend. that's his best fucking friend they grew up together.#imagine. imagine seeing the person you grew up with being taken away by villains.#you don't know what they're going to do to him #for all he knows they're going to KILL him. they don't know why they took katsuki yet.#for all he knows? they could be about to make katsuki into a nomu.#you just know all the possibilities are playing through his head so fast right now and all he can do right now is just... scream #it's the uncertainty. he doesn't know if he's ever going to see katsuki again.#and... he's sixteen.#he's a kid #he's a kid and he just watched his oldest friend. the person who he knows best and who knows him best.#get taken away from him by genuine actual murderers.#sure. they fight a lot. and they butt heads. and they don't really get along perfectly well at this point in their lives.#but the years before (and the years after)? they're friends who care about each other. and they still care about each other now.#even if katsuki doesn't want to admit that we know it's true from all the other shit he does #and now izuku is there. thinking that there's a chance that the last time he ever would see katsuki again was right then in that moment.#and you just have to sit back... and go... fuck. man. he's a child.#i genuinely almost hit tag limit on this post sorry guys KJDHJKH

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scpaesthetics · 3 months

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SCP Aesthetics: 7361 (requested by anon, written by @mrmeltingpoint)

SCP-7361 has attempted to convince personnel to free it by promising to assist them with personal its not an act i want to help you matters. Do not speak to SCP-7361.

(red, grief, rage)

#scp #scp foundation #scp aesthetics #death ///#7361 #this one is interesting! i was expecting it to be a manipulative computer program that preys on grief #i wish it was a little longer (not something i say often)#but i think it could have used more buildup #IM ALIVE #thank you everyone for well wishes!!!#i am simply an Old Man #i don't know if i'll be back to 2/week but i'm trying to get back to weekly!!!#try to do stretches. stay limber. don't be like me #suicide imagery ///#also big ol suicide tw on this #the gun imagery really caught me off guard and kind of put me off the article

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feluka · 2 months

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you get home past 10 ONCE and your parents never ever let you hear the end of it

#'if YOU had a daughter would you accept this behaviour from her??'#bro if my feelings were so fragile that i'd need to control an adult woman's every movement then i'd kms. get help <3 #i didn't say that i said 'well i'm not a misogynist' so he tried to backtrack #and say that it has nothing to do with gender and that he worries about my brother too #yeah but you don't give him grief when he comes home at 4am!! or doesn't come home for days even!!

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wonder-worker · 6 months

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"[Elizabeth Woodville's] piety as queen seems to have been broadly conventional for a fifteenth-century royal, encompassing pilgrimages, membership of various fraternities, a particular devotion to her name saint, notable generosity to the Carthusians, and the foundation of a chantry at Westminster after her son was born there. ['On other occasions she supported planned religious foundations in London, […] made generous gifts to Eton College, and petitioned the pope to extend the circumstances in which indulgences could be acquired by observing the feast of the Visitation']. One possible indicator of a more personal, and more sophisticated, thread in her piety is a book of Hours of the Guardian Angel which Sutton and Visser-Fuchs have argued was commissioned for her, very possibly at her request."

-J.L. Laynesmith, "Elizabeth Woodville: The Knight's Widow", "Later Plantagenet and Wars of the Roses Consorts: Power, Influence, Dynasty"

#historicwomendaily #elizabeth woodville #my post #friendly reminder that there's nothing indicating that Elizabeth was exceptionally pious or that her piety was 'beyond purely conventional'#(something first claimed by Anne Crawford who simultaneously claimed that Elizabeth was 'grasping and totally lacking in scruple' so...)#EW's piety as queen may have stood out compared to former 15th century predecessors and definitely stood out compared to her husband #but her actions in themselves were not especially novel or 'beyond normal' and by themselves don't indicate unusual piety on her part #As Laynesmith's more recent research observes they seem to have been 'broadly conventional'#A conclusion arrived at Derek Neal as well who also points out that in general queens and elite noblewomen simply had wider means #of 'visible material expression of [their] personal devotion' - and also emphasizes how we should look at their wider circumstances #to understand their actions (eg: the death of Elizabeth's son George in 1479 as a motivating factor)#It's nice that we know a bit about Elizabeth's more personal piety - for eg she seems to have developed an attachment to Westminster Abbey #It's possible her (outward) piety increased across her queenship - she undertook most of her religious projects in later years #But again - none of them indicate the *level* of her piety (ie: they don't indicate that she was beyond conventionally pious)#By 1475 it seems that contemporaries identified Cecily Neville as the most personally devout from the Yorkist family #(though Elizabeth and even Cecily's sons were far greater patrons)#I think people also assume this because of her retirement to Westminster post 1485 #which doesn't work because 1) we don't actually know when she retired? as Laynesmith says there is no actual evidence for the traditional #date of 12 February 1487 #2) she had very secular reasons for retiring (grief over the death of her children? her lack of dower lands or estates which most other #widows had? her options were very limited; choosing to reside in the abbey is not particularly surprising. it's a massive and unneeded jump #to claim that it was motivated solely by piety (especially because it wasn't a complete 'retirement' in the way people assume it was)#I think historians have a habit of using her piety as a GOTCHA!' point against her vilification - which is a flawed and stupid argument #Elizabeth could be the most pious individual in the world and still be the pantomime villain Ricardians/Yorkists claim she was #They're not mutually exclusive; this line of thinking is useless #I think this also stems from the fact that we simply know very little about Elizabeth as an individual (ie: her hobbies/interests)#certainly far less than we do for other prominent women Margaret of Anjou; Elizabeth of York;; Cecily Neville or Margaret Beaufort #and I think rather than emphasizing that gap of knowledge her historians merely try to fill it up with 'she was pious!'#which is ... an incredibly lackluster take. I think it's better to just acknowledge that we don't know much about this historical figure #ie: I do wish that her piety and patronage was emphasized more yes. but it shouldn't flip too far to the other side either.

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greeneyed-thestral · 1 year

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#reblog if you believe balin K N E W #he looks at him like 'bilbo you don't need to tell me anything ok..? i may be old but these eyes still work quite well'#'and he felt the same about you dear lad'#bilbo can't even verbalize his feelings and thoughts -- he can just nod in silence and hide his grief behind a smile #i don't know if you've ever found yourself in a situation in which you want to confess everything but something inside you stops you #it's like you're on a cliff and you can foresee how everything is going to change if you do so your body and brain pull you back #it's a fine line between wanting to get caught and still being scared of not being able to take those words back once said #this is exactly what it looks and feels like -- and bilbo realises sometimes you don't have to say anything 'cause everyone knows #the hobbit #hobbit #bilbo #bilbo baggins #thorin #thorin oakenshield #bilbo/thorin #thorin/bilbo #bilbo x thorin #thorin x bilbo #bagginshield #martin freeman #richard armitage #the battle of the five armies #battle of the five armies #botfa

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skunkes · 4 months

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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day #how they're already memories since moments pass so fast #everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever #and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed #it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily #so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day #ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been #the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief #and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately #id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again #like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night #one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys #i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i #hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day

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simplepotatofarmer · 1 year

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i knew it. 'until i end up dead' is going to be my new favorite song. the pain and fear when you lose someone, how real the end suddenly becomes. but you keep living because it will be alright. there's comfort in that. techno would be proud. i'm proud. thanks, dream and technodad.

#i said this on twitter but when techno passed i was terrified that i would die #that other people i loved would die #i felt like if someone as strong as technoblade... well. it was hard to process.#so the lyrics to this song are really comforting in a way i can't really articulate #like despite all that fear and uncertainty and grief. you can be alright and you can go on.#one day it'll all end. but it's what you do with the time you have.#i don't feel so scared anymore.#loyal talks about stuff and things #uieud

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longagoitwastuesday · 11 days

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Kusakabe, dear, you're too beautiful to be saying that kind of stuff

#jjk spoilers #All the prettiest characters were brought back from apparent death #Nobara was okay and it's true that when I read the lawyer's and Kusakabe's fights against Sukuna I thought it was being kept vague #but to pull a Nobara with all of them... idk #No one stays dead here except for the people who actually care for the kids and by that I mean 'including Yuuji'#kinda lowkey bitter about it #Don't get me wrong I like the characters and also they're super pretty but idk It makes death feel cheap? And the high stakes kinda fake?#Choso Gojo and Nanami actual only characters who died apparently #Well. Poor Itadori #And Kusukabe goes and runs his mouth that way in front of the kid. He is not entirely wrong but also he very much is #And yes he also says 'don't worry it's not for you to feel guilty over anything you're just kids' but also he did very much say that thing #about it all being Gojo's fault for not killing Itadori. In front of Itadori who feels guilty for that precisely #and in front of Megumi who asked Gojo to spare him and also went through the experience of Sukuna using his body as well #So Kusukabe's reassurance about them just being kids and not to feel guilty falls a bit empty #It does feel in character but man it truly makes one appreciate the way Gojo and Nanami dealt with the kids a lot more haha #Ui Ui seems like a dear #Anyway... this chapter felt a bit lame for the most part for me? I like the idea of the characters discussing the could have/would have #and feeling guilt and helplessness over their choices but the way it was done felt a bit lame and without any real emotional punch #It felt more like an explanation to the reader in an awkward way. And there's a lot of empty chat about guilt and grief #without any of the characters really giving off a grieving air about everything and everyone they've lost #And this is precisely what I felt was going to happen with this manga's writing haha #I truly don't understand this kind of writing choices. Contrary to some other shonen writers this author did seem to have the potential #to write this kind of thing well besides the worldbuilding and powers and fight stuff. It's truly a pity. It so breaks my heart #And still this is considered one of the good shonens. Well. WELL haha #I do think shonen can be good! I just think it falls almost always even when there's potential into bery shallow writing #I don't know. Maybe I should read that one Alchemist manga #I've been repeatedly told that one's good and it does seem like it doesn't do... this. But I find the art style so not to my linking #I wish I had never gotten into JJK for real for real. I absolutely adore it. I always end up frustrated. It could be so good. Genuinely good #And yet it's just okay in a sort of forgettable way. What a pity #Everything good ever is present but it never dares do anything to fully explore what it sets. It just does the typical shonen stuff

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years

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[ID: a digital illustration of Luz and Hunter from the owl house. Luz sits on the right with her hand on hunter's shoulder. Hunter sits on the left facing Luz. They're both in their designs from the end of Thanks to Them. Hunter has his eyes closed and is crying with a pained expression, while Luz looks on with tears in her eyes. The background is dark and the scene is dimly lit. The second image is a variation on the first image where a spectral version of flapjack sits on hunter's shoulder and Manny's hand in on Luz's shoulder. End ID]

Felt like posting something devious today. Do you think they'll ever talk about what they've lost? Bond over it? Mourn??? Grieve????

#the owl house #toh #hunter toh #luz noceda #hunter noceda #flapjack toh #(BARELY i did not put the effort into that bird that i should've)#manny noceda #(also barely but I feel like it's more obvious here)#i sketched this out months ago when TTT first aired but the lines were giving me trouble and i shelved it #until now when i really just wanted to finish something but wasn't happy with any of my sketches #it was inspired by the interview dana did where she said grief would be a major theme of season 3 #both bc it scared me and also bc it made me start thinking ''hm okay. which characters are grieving rn and how might they interact?''#my money's still on darius if hunter does get to talk through some of his grief in the next few eps #(just to tie a nice bow on their relationship and maybe dicuss the previous gg a bit more and flesh darius' motives out)#but like. luz is his sister. grief is sooo central to her arc as well it's like. even if they don't get time in canon #(which is understandable. they do not have a lot of time rn for extended fanfic-esque character exploration conversations)#but that doesn't mean i can't rotate the idea in my mind at terminal velocity until i get sick #i would apologize for not posting festive art at this time of year rn BUT YKNOW WHAT. I'VE HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF HOLIDAY SEASONS #THIS COUNTS AS FESTIVE FOR ME!#it's getting better this year though. slowly #anyway this piece isn't perfect and there's a few bits I'm not happy w/ that i could've spent more time on #but to my own credit i pushed myself to use reference and do a (albeit simple) pose I don't normally do!#so props to me in that sense #anyway happy holidays! think abt these devastatingly sad children with me please!

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askblueandviolet · 7 months

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...was that your fault?

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #lmk mayor #monkie kid mayor #blue and violet #this man is like... somehow at the very brink of breaking down and somehow has yet to reach that point #but I hope I hope it is clear that Mayor is on the brink of exploding #their passiveness is very very bery fragile amd strained #almost non-existent #only because their grasp of their emotions is just so weak #they do not understand themselves #funny how that works because Ling liked to wear their emotions on their sleeve #Ling is familiar with themselves... kind of #and Mayor is the opposite #anyways hahahaha anon why are you victim blaming Mayor #not that I don't like that #I actually find this hilarious #the spiral of self blaming... the bargaining aspect of grief... I really should have written more about that before we got up to this point #oh well it does not matter #because Mayor still has plenty of time after this to blame themselves for everything that happened in the series itself

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bhaalspawnshitposting · 11 months

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Ketheric Thorm is one of my all-time favorite villains in any piece of media. I just can't hate him. I've loved so hard, and had death take those loved ones from me, and I know the feeling of being willing to do anything to bring her back.

There's a Fall Out Boy quote I really love that I think sums up Ketheric's character so well,

"For you, I'd burn this city down just to show you the lights"

He is utterly devoted, not to his gods, but to his daughter. Selune didn't protect them, Shar couldn't make him forget them, but Myrkul promised Isobel back. And to Ketheric, that was enough. Damn his morals, damn the lives of everyone else in this plane and the next. For his daughter, any price is worth it.

And for an evil man, I can't think of a more noble cause.

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