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bookishbroadwayandblind · 9 months ago
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I'm doing Inktober but TID-themed!! I wish I could do more fandoms but my braincells only have room for Jem (and I guess the others are pretty cool too LOL) but I'm always open for prompts and suggestions for other fandoms as well; I've read sooo many books friends haha! But yeah, come check out my ao3 at WistfulWhimsy and read day one which features some very sad introspection about the (imo) often-overlooked childhood trauma of Jem Carstairs. And let me know where I can find your Inktober if you're doing one!
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thatsitso · 4 months ago
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Stained glass project I did in school
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northstarscowboyhat · 2 months ago
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Outlaws in the Wild East ⋆。°✩
(AKA, The Habanero origin comic!)
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almondcroissantsandink · 10 months ago
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watching gravity falls for the first time at the request of my little sister and i just watched a tale of two stans and CRIED
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benevolentcannibal · 5 months ago
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Straw Heart Alliance Clash
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sun-marie · 7 months ago
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So the other day this post by @/carabas hit me like a truck, and I really wanted to explore how Lydia and Lucanis resolve that. I really like the idea that a part of her isn't fully convinced Lucanis being alive isn't more of Solas's mind magic, until Solas leaves after binding himself to the fade and Lucanis is still here. She'd braced herself to find that he was truly gone after defeating Solas, only to turn and see he's right by her side, still here <3
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ttec77 · 9 months ago
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Characters I've drawn so far in modern clothes
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hellsquills · 9 months ago
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Disclaimer: I know about the duffle bag Filbrick threw at him, but you can ignore that if you want
My thoughts below the cut! (this turned into a whole ass fic lmao)
Edit: timeline here!!
My personal headcanon is that Filbrick is as much of a coward as he is of an asshole. Therefore, he wouldn't have kicked Stan when he did in canon. Probably not for a while after that.
However, he does try to send him to military school. He keeps talking about how this kid needs to learn discipline and respect, and if he's not gonna bring money to the house, then he should at least bring some honor to his family.
Stan obviously does NOT want to go. Not only because it's a pointless war ("what've the vietnamese done to us anyways?") but because he remembers his mother's face when Shermie got drafted and he will NOT make her go through that hell again. Also, he doesn't wanna die!!!! Hello?????
He talks it out over the phone with Ford, who's obviously just as against it as he is. He tells Stan that, if he gets into a PhD program, he could skip military. Stan laughs in his face. It'd be easier to jump off the plane without a parachute.
And so, he comes up with a plan. When he goes to take his physical, he tries his best to botch it. If he is bad enough, if it looks like he can't do it, maybe he won't have to. Unfortunately, the recruiters are far too used to this by now, and they don't buy it. Stan goes home with a recruitment letter hidden in his jacket.
Everything goes downhill after that. He runs away from home, changes his name several times, does some crime here and there... The military is after him, and it doesn't take rejection kindly.
Stan stays out of contact with his family for a few years. He can't risk getting them involved in this mess. They don't deserve it. So he just leaves, without saying a word, in the middle of the night. No phone calls, no notes, nothing. Not even he knows where he's going. But if it just looks like he abandoned them, maybe they'll hate him. That will make them sound more believable with the police. They aren't covering for him, because they genuinely have no idea where he is. It's the best way to keep them safe.
In that time, Ford doesn't stop looking for him. He finds him every once in a while, but only his phone number, and he knows that could give away his brother's location and get the family in trouble. So, against his deepest instincts, he doesn't call.
One, three, five, seven years pass. Stan has been around almost all the country, and is genuinely considering leaving it. Maybe going to Mexico, or Colombia. Those sound nice. Maybe they'll be nicer to him.
He's passing his time and thinking about this in a small town restaurant in wherever he's in (somewhere he's not banned from, yet), when a family enters. He doesn't make eye contact, but he can't help but stare at them: a man and a woman, probably in their 50s, with 7 kids; one must be older than him, the second one around his age, the third one a little younger, the fourth one a teenager, and the last three between 10 and 15, no more. Except for the last three, they're all taller than him, even the mother, and they have various degrees of blond hair. Their clothes (overalls and plastic boots) suggest they must work in one of the farms he's seen around the state. They don't wear any accessories, except for the glasses that the father and four of the kids have. They're talking loudly and laughing. They look exhausted from a morning of hard work. They seem happy. They... look nothing like his family, and yet, he can't help but think about it.
He can't help the sob that comes to his throat. It's loud and messy from trying to suppress it, which obviously makes it worse. He covers his mouth immediately, and at that point he notices the tears that have run down his cheeks. "Great", he thinks, "that will make it easier to hide, for sure".
He doesn't move. He wants to escape, but that will draw even more attention to him, and he hasn't even paid for the food yet (normally he'd leave without paying, but the old waitress was kind enough to give him some extra food when she saw how little he ordered). He settles for not moving, lowering his head and covering his face, hoping that no one heard (unlikely) or cared (very likely).
"Ya'lright, son?"
The voice startles him. I wasn't very deep, but it was close enough to send his body into immediate danger mode. He looks up at the man towering over him, who's standing in front of him at a prudential distance.
"Y-Yeah, yeah, no worries."
He hates how broken his voice sounds. He's spent more than enough time sweet-talking his way out of trouble, he should be better at this by now. The man looks about as convinced by it as he is himself.
" 'lright then. Can I help ya?"
Damn villagers and their welcoming demeanor. If he wasn't a wanted man, he would appreciate it. But right now, it couldn't be worse timing.
"Come get ya food, kids!" The waitress' yell yanks him out of his thoughts.
"No", he blurts out, and he turns to the man. Least he can do is show him some respect and look him in the eyes. "I'm fine, thank you."
The man smiles lightly and nods. "Okay. Welcome to the town."
Stan watches as the man goes back to his table. He wishes he had been more polite, the guy was just worrying about him, but he can't afford it. They already know his face, he can't risk anyone else recognizing him-
"Sweet Mother of God almighty."
Stan turns to his right. One of the kids, the one about his age, is looking at him like he just grew a second head. He's frozen in place, his eyes wide as plates behind thick glasses. He doesn't say a word, and it's getting increasingly unnerving. Was the bruising on his face still visible? Maybe it's more apparent in broad daylight than in the shitty light that last motel had in the bathroom.
"I'm sorry, I- Can I ask your name?"
The fuck?
"No", answers Stan. Considering how nice his dad was, this guy is pretty rude.
"Son, leave him alone." The mother seems to have manners too, good to know.
The guy does pretty much the opposite. He comes closer to him, until he's right in his path, blocking his exit. That can't be good. Stan feels trapped.
"Are you Stanley Pines?"
Well, that's about it.
Stan tries his best to stay still. This guy doesn't look like a cop, not even an undercover one. But he knows his real name, so maybe someone in his family or friends works in the police; or worse, in the military.
"Listen man, I don't know who you're talking about, but that isn't my name. See?" He reaches for his wallet. He pulls out an ID, with a very clear Jackson Cage on it. He makes a mental note to change it soon, just in case his hunch is right and this guy has connections. "Now, if you excuse me, I'd like to pay for my food and leave. Move."
Stan is already on his feet, but the guy hasn't moved. Stan looks him up and down, trying to appear threatening despite his face probably still being a little red from before. He also gauges how feasible it'd be to escape if things turned bad; the dude is taller than him, sure, but he's also as thin as a toothpick, and by the anxious look on his face, he doesn't seem eager for a fight. The real problem would be evading the restaurant's staff and the other costumers, which include eight carbon copies of the guy in front of him. Probably better to try to de-escalate the situation.
"I- I can't let you leave. Please. I know who you are."
This man is making it really difficult to believe he's not a cop.
"No, you don't. I'm new in town. Move."
"Listen, I-"
"Move out of my way."
"I know your brother."
The words are like a bullet between his eyebrows.
"You look just like him-"
Against his better judgement, he quickly grabs he guy and pins him to the wood in between the booth benches, arm to his throat. If he knows Ford, he knows too much. God he just wanted to have lunch.
The commotion is immediate. He doesn't break eye contact with the guy who's grabbing his arm, whose strength is frankly surprising. He can hear, however, the screams from the dad and the siblings, as well as a couple of gasps from the other costumers. This is not going to go well, but fuck that. He's escaped worse.
"Stop!", the guy shouts as he keeps Stan's forearm from blocking his airway. "Don't hurt him! Don't get closer!"
It takes Stan a second to process what he said. The first part, sure, who wouldn't shout 'stop' when you're being attacked? But the second half doesn't make sense. Is he protecting him? The attacker?
Whatever it is, it works. The family stops in their tracks, still very ready to attack if needed. Out of the corner of his eye, he can see the three younger kids moving closer to their mother. For a split second, he feels a pang of remorse for the scene he just caused.
"Hang up the phone, Clarisse, it's okay. Please."
Stan looks in the direction the guy was talking to. Right behind him, the waitress reluctantly puts the phone down.
He looks back at the guy. He looks a little shaken up, probably from the impact his back (and his head?) made with the wooden plank, but he doesn't look scared. He almost looks... sympathetic? Stan is confused as hell.
"I know who you are", the guy whispers, low enough for Stan to hear alone. "You're Stanley Pines, and you have a brother named Stanford. I know him, okay? He's my friend. I met him a few years ago in a quantum physics congress and we've been talking ever since. He told me about his family in New Jersey, and about you. About how he hasn't seen you in years, and how he was trying to find you, to no avail."
Stan is gradually loosening his grip on the guy's neck, who takes a deep breath. He should know better, but- shit, hearing that Ford was looking for him was not what he expected. Even if he doesn't know yet if this guy is lying out of his ass, it's enough to make him doubt.
"I know you were called to Vietnam. He told me. I spent a week with him in his place when he found out, he was unconsollable. When you ran away, he called me. He knew what it meant for you and he thought he'd never see you again, whether you got caught or not. All because of that stupid war." Stan is now trembling a little, he knows it. This guy must know it too, with how close they are. If he stays here any longer he'll break down, but he can't move. Anything to hear his brother's name a little longer. "I know what it's like. Three of my cousins were drafted last year, and I know at least one of them won't be coming back home. Please... let me help you."
Stan meets his eyes. They're green and brown-ish, not unlike the immense fields he's seen in his last journey, the one that led him to this town. With the years, he's learned not to trust beautiful eyes, because they are better at hiding. These ones, however, seem serene and honest, just like his words, and he can't help but believing them. This guy, whoever the fuck he is, knows just about enough.
Stan lowers his right arm. The guy still has his hand on it, but this time is much less defensive and much more comforting. He doesn't complain.
"My name's Fiddleford McGucket, and I'm gonna help you find your brother."
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Essentially, after this Fidds calls Ford as if nothing happened (per Stan's request, since he's still paranoid about the police tracking his calls) and asks him to come to Tennessee. Ford argues that he's very busy and all, but Fidds convinces him in the end.
Obviously the twins have a dual breakdown and cry their heart out. In this AU they're much less emotionally constipated lol
Ford tells Stan that he's gonna build a house in a small town in Oregon as a part of his research, and asks him to move in with him once it's finished. Stan, of course, accepts.
In the meantime, Stan stays in the McGucket farm and helps them out as a way of laying low. He has a great relationship with his family, and they're very proud of him for what he did (i believe that the McGuckets are hippies at heart, and they're VERY anti-war, especially when it already took three of them)
I don't know how much of the canon storyline would this AU follow, but it's pretty much your average Mystery Trio AU with some different backstory
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pinesheep-png · 4 months ago
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Someone get this man a pool floaty.
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iamhereinthebg · 3 months ago
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Let's talk about the clock keepers boundary!
(warning: spoilers until chapter 124!!)
I've had some guess on where they could be from so let's look at what we have in the manga for now. I will keep things on surface level for the most part but it's just some things I noticed!
The first mention of the town is in chapter 111, where we finally have a view on their boundary.
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A lot of fans already guessed from their clothes that they were not from Japan, this panel definitely confirms it and even points more precizely to a European country, mostly Western Europe. And also a country where Winter with snow exist.
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It's also not an English speaking country, since Akane cannot understand the language and we know he has english classes at school.
Now there are several things we can look at to have more clues!
First, the architecture.
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This type of house is called Timbered framed houses. It’s important to note that the roofs on those houses are really really sharp here. Which means theywere built for snow, so it can slide off the roofs more easily. The trees are also pines, something that can be found in a lot of Europe. (wood was needed to be able to create houses made of wood/with visible Framework( Little note: I know Italy was a guess for a lot of person because of the link to Pinocchio, but Italy main material for houses is stone not wood. And it is also not known for its winter.)
Here we can also see bricks which is something more associated to countries like Germany, Belgium or the Nertherlands, we don't have the colors so we can't guess from which minerals it was made for now.
But we have even more informations when we look at chapter 124!
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The bridge and tower may be inspired by a fortified city, something that you could find A LOT in Western Europe during the middle age, not a lot of cities still have their entire walls but you can still see it if you go into old medieval towns. We can also see something that looks like a Belfry on several panels. Towers used mostly to indicate each passing hour of the day (may be a campanile or a bell tower (the difference is wether it's linked to religion or not basically)
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Second! Let's do a little bit of clock making history!
I won't go into details, but there are some countries to point for this. England, The Netherlands and Germany. We already took out England before and we can easily erase Nertherlands from the list with the next step (my favorite one).
The food! I already had my suspicions confirmed with this bonus art from volume 22.
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First of all, they have tea which is not something that was in Europe before the XVII century. But let's look at the sweets they have here.
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Chocolates which look close to Belgian chocolate ( I say Belgian but other countries' chocolate is pretty close to it) , Christstollen Cake, and Spiztbuden.
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We have even more to look at with the new chapter! And they confirm that it's indeed a stollen cake.
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With all these foods it's now pretty obvious which area the clock keepers are inspired from.
Stollen cakes are German cakes, ginger cookies are from Germany too. I will also add that there is a chance the crescent moon cookies are VanilleKipferl. We have another panel showing Sausages and bread. Only the Almond is something not typical from Germany but which clearly was all over Western Europe with trades.
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Their city already looked like the 'perfect christmas city' you can see in movies, inspired by German culture. And they also mention Mulled Wine which is THE beverage to take in any chritmas market in Europe.
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Chritmas markets are inspired and coming from Germany first, but I wanna point something more.
My main guess was, Nuremberg, the city where the ancestor of the pocket watch was created, the Nuremberg Egg. It's also a Fortified city and it has forests around it. It's also known for its Ginger cookies!
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So Germany would be a great pic, but the more I think about it the more I can also see the link to another region: Alsace.
Alsace is a region from France right now BUT it's a mixt of german and french culture (I will not make a history lesson but it is a place that always switched between France and Germany basically, now it's French).
All the food mentionned before are also made in the Alsace region!
It's situated in the Vosges, a chain of mountains known to have a lot of forets of pines and which is known to have villages like this:
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Which were also the main inspirations for movies like Howl's moving castle for example. You can see the similarities between the artchitectures
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The first ever Chritmas Market was in Strasbourg, the capital of Alsace, when it was German and it spread accross Europe after.
I will now look at something I usually don't do because I exclude Aus from canon but it's just a funny thing to point out.
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This au shows a snow town inspired by ginger bread houses. I just find it funny because Aoi is shown as a baker, with bread (which are not baguette I think, it's way larger here) but with some croissant on her table (disclaimer: Croissant are not french at first, this form here is, but it's from Austria otherwise) And Kako clearly has something similar to a Wine bottle in his hands. This au is the only one featuring them, was given with their volumes and the vibes are really similar to their boundary.
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I would say no matter what it's definitely closer to German culture but I wanted to point out this region which is known for it's Christmas season and its typical houses.
I will mostly say that it's an inspiration from this region of Europe, I don't know if a real country is the reference for it since we don't even know where tbhk takes place, but it's always funny to look at those things :DD
Little bonus:
In a more messy note, the clothes. I put them at the end because besides their hats, I had no idea how to describe it, since it seems pretty typical of what people could wear in winter.
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I did the research in the other way, to look for German and Alsacian clothing to see if it match and it kinda does but I don't think it's speficific to this region. The girls wear classic white Charlotte and big clothes with layers for Winter.
The clock keepers clothes are different, it looks like a mixt of Japanese and western European clothing (especially from england).
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Their main outfits for Akane and Kako really just look like a typical waistcoast/costume you can find in the XIXth century in Europe and Mirai's seems more inspired by a mixt of a Kimono with several layers(she also has sandals and frills) and a coat? The little knots Kako and Akane have on their coats look like something inspired from Mizuhiki knots too (I actually saw a costume with those exact same knots in a museum but I didn't take a picture rip)
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So I would say they probably changed slowly their attire when they arrived in Japan, we don't know since how many times they are here, but we know that what is happening in the deeper place of the boundary is linked to memories previous to their arrival. According to their origin I think we can say that it's pretty sure they arrived after the Meiji/during the Meiji Era in Japan (1868/1912), since it's a this time Japan mostly imported Western culture (for clothing here, the first contact was before this. And note: it was mostly rich people who dressed like this). And If we look at some others dates like the things they are eating, used to have or even their clothes, I would say it's more probably the Meiji Era and not in the XVs.
Another note is that their clocks have the numbers written in japanese on it (in the og version but it maye just be so it's readable for the japanese readers? idk if it's a choice or not).
I haven't searched much on their clothes but it was still something I wanted to note here ^^
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vesna-v-irkutske · 4 months ago
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According to Nikita in the story "Dismembered PugachOva on Wait for Me (a TV program he called shit in one of the songs)": "In general, Fuckinnefor causes a horrifying image in people with his long dick and fucking ugly chest. There was some shit on his chest, his bones were sticking out, and there was some kind of hump! He also has a fucking ugly curved spine, even though Fuckinnefor looks normal in clothes."
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odd-chips · 13 days ago
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So I've been teasing this character in my tags/posts for a while, and she's finally hereeee. Anyways WHOOPS, another self indulgent Lethal Company character who is basically the Wario version of [Cap'n]!
Meet Echo and her crewmates: Orion (goggle'd circle-shaped one), Spade (short one with big arms), and Guy (shapely GNC one). Being the opposite of Cap'n's crew, they're all men EXCEPT for Echo!
At first, she started out as a grown woman having a one-sided, very pathetic beef with Cap'n, but she evolved into an angry teenager who projects all of her issues onto someone who literally doesn't know she exists (and subsequently does something horrible to herself to rectify this weird beef). Did it work? Well no, come on, look at her, now she's even worse GOKJDFMKDF
And when I say "one-sided", I mean it. Genuinely Cap'n doesn't know who she is, like, at all. I think the first time they meet will be the inevitable werewolf fight between the two of them when things get out of hand.
Anyways I love the kidnapper fox, but alas, she was too swag for this world, RIP to a real one that lasted a month and a half. u_u)!!
#artists on tumblr#lethal company#lethal company oc#kidnapper fox#lethal company kidnapper fox#werecreature#werekidnapper fox#<- like 'wereyeless dog' this is a terrible - but immediately informative - name#kidnapper werefox#<- what I'll be calling her ass lol#capn tag#echo tag#my draws#sfw#blood cw#this is going to slowly be trickled onto twitter because I can't crosspost normally ever I guess GUIKHJFD tho to be fair to me I'm bulk#posting here cause I want Echo up SOMEWHERE before ArtFight starts. Genuinely this has been in my drafts for months. the delay was because#I couldn't settle on a name for them. They were just 'werefox' 'goggles' 'the grabberrrrr' and 'breasting boobily' in the meantime#in any case maybe if I post about her enough zeekers will hear my plea and add the kidnapper fox into lethal company again...#cause unforchies I have grown attached to this stupid thang. :(#anyways I REALLY need to post about Cap'n more so I can infect the LC community with the urge to make more werecreatures#I HUNGER!! I need werebunker spiders. I need werethumpers. I need werebrackens especially (cause that's ALMOST what cap'n was)#I need were... (spins wheel) old birds. don't ask me how that works. I don't know man. I don't do robots. I'm not a robot guy??#ALSO I HAVEN'T PLAYED THE V70 UPDATE CAUSE LITERALLY THE DAY AFTER I STEPPED ON A PLANE FOR MY VACATION THE UPDATE WAS RELEASED...#(RATTLES THE BARS OF MY CAGE) I AM NOT KIDDING. I LANDED MAY 30TH. BOOM. UPDATE MAY 31ST. MY GAMING COMPUTER'S NOT HERE ZEEKERS!!!#in any case thank you for reading my rambly tags ilu mwah mwah#(ps: I dooo have an idea for one (1) more character with zero connection to these guys that tackles ANOTHER favorite trope of mine)#(hopefully I won't expand on them at all and they just remain a one-off character concept. We'll see. Cap'n was that way too lmfao)
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born-to-lose · 7 days ago
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All you wrong music opinion havers....
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almondcroissantsandink · 2 months ago
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celestial body
(guys i'm still at the restaurant and the doors are locked)
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lightlysources · 3 months ago
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If tumblr shuts down, an indie roleplayers network to find your rp partners elsewhere
So, I want us, as a community, to be prepared in case this site shuts down. Is it going to shut down? We don't know. The staff layoffs, according to people who have worked on tumblr previously, seem to indicate that something is happening with management, which could be them selling the site, or wanting to shut it down. (sources: x, x.)
Maybe (probably?) the site will continue to exist and the list never needs to be utilised. But at least I personally would feel a lot better about every "oh no tumblr will shut down" rumour if I knew I could find my rp partners elsewhere. I've long since made backup accounts on pillowfort (and cohost before they shut down), but currently the most viable options seem to be wafrn and goblin. @leneemusing has tested out wafrn here. I had no trouble with account creation on any of these sites.
I've made a form here, for any indie roleplayer to submit their tumblr username and a backup account link.
A .doc with the list is here.
Reblog to spread the word, send me an ask if you have questions, etc.
I don't have any rules for this - any indie roleplayer can have their information on the list. Some further thoughts under the readmore.
First of all, if you're early, I know you can tell who I am in the rpc by the urls that are on the list lol. I block a lot of people from my rp blogs (though not from my resource blog). If you've blocked me, or I've blocked you, you can still use the list. I'm not going to care! Similarly, it doesn't matter here, whether our roleplay rules match, what content your write and whether I agree with it, if you've had a callout posted about you, etc. I'm not going to look into any of that with the list, I'm only going to make sure the links you provide work. This is a list for people to find each other in the case of tumblr shutting down. I don't feel like it's my place to restrict who can be on that list.
Why not discord? I won't include discord handles because I think a part of the indie rpc relies on us being on a social site. How would we find people? Use memes or aesthetic posts? Discord servers are not public spaces the way tumblr is. If you want to host a similar list for people's discord handles, you can. You can copy and paste from my list/form to do it if you like, even.
If tumblr does shut down, and therefore this post no longer exists, I will probably make a discord server only for the purpose of maintaining the list, though. It would not be a server for socialising - I don't have the spoons to admin that, and those already exist.
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side-quest-girl · 7 days ago
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What if we reframed LG's actions as a desperate person doing, albeit to an extreme (and in an unhealthy way), what we have seen him and CXS do for so many others-- an attempt to process grief and regrets while visiting, but not altering, the past.
What if he took it too far, and dived too deep. What if he went in with the surface intention of never breaking his own rules (even the 12 hour one), even if deep down he probably knew it was a bad idea. Too raw, too personal, too addicting. Too soon. And what if he's gone through every picture like a mad man, going earlier and earlier, trying, not to save CXS (he knows he can't, shouldn't), but to extend his time with him as much as he can. 12 hours at a time.
But then, he gets to the last photo. The earliest. The day they met and LG's final chance to be with CXS as himself. And it's... too much. The little restraint LG has had with all the previous photos, back when he knew there were more pictures, more memories, to lose himself into, disappears. The dam breaks, and he lets himself drown. Lets himself go. Decides, even if overstaying his welcome means disappearing into the waves of time, forever drowning and trapped and unable to return to the present, that's okay. Because he doesn't have a present to return to. Not really, not one he can live in.
And so, he stays. Overstays the 12 hours and feels the last remnant he has of his CXS, the gold in his eyes, drain away. But that's okay, because to his slight surprise he doesn't drain away with it, and he now has something so much better than a remnant with him. CXS himself. One who doesn't remember him, remember them, sure. But a CXS that's alive and happy and that LG can finally have for more than 12 hours again.
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And still, he broke one rule. He overstayed his dive. But he still remembers the other, more important one. Carved into his soul from all the times he and CXS had repeated it, he knows. Past or future, let them be.
And he will. He tries (and fails) to put the inevitable future out of his mind, and focuses on maintaining the past, step by step. And it kills him to do it, but he does. Because how can he not? The past must be preserved. Their future (their damned, heartbreaking future) must be preserved.
But then...
Despite doing everything in his power to keep things the same...
Things change.
LG knows it's his fault. The little missteps here and there have had a cascading effect (at least, he thinks that's the case... it's not like there's another meddling time traveler, is there?) and now everything is spiraling from fate's destined path. He's screwed up so much now. He could, should leave now and pray things return to how they were before, that time repairs itself from all his changes, somehow. But it's not just the small things. Nodes have changed. You can't turn back from that. And... oh, right, he can't go back now anyways. The gold is gone from him now, and he's trapped. And it's a terrifying feeling.... everything is changing from how it should be, and LG can't escape all the glaring reminders of just how badly he messed up, but...
It's actually a relief, deep down. Because the timeline is already unraveled, the future already undone. And now LG finally, finally has permission to do the one thing he could not justify doing in all the 12 hour dives before. LG can finally deliberately make changes. He no longer has to settle for letting himself drown in the unmovable tides of time, only to love and love and lose again, unable to do anything but watch and know. Now, LG can swim. He take take action.
Now, Lu Guang, can try to save Cheng Xiaoshi.
Because time has already changed. Nodes have already changed. There is no future to protect anymore. Just a person. Him.
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