#I feel like this is a cool piece tho so I wanna share it:)

[egoistars]

HIIII I just saw your post about your event and thought I'll be silly and request smthing ^_^ ok sooo first time meeting ness ! 😯 (one shot or hc whichever you feel more comfy writing! <3) have a great dayyy (⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠) ♪

ACADEMICALLY SMART BUT EXTREMELY STUPID alexis ness

aka. how u meet ness aka academic rivals to lovers but ness dont gaf bc hes just trying to #play #ball

you meet him at quite a young age and share a few things in common

ill fitting school uniforms and the wandering eyes of any child

while you find yourself fascinated by the numbers written on your teacher's chalkboard, ness is folding dinosaurs and stars on pieces of scrap paper, mumbling to himself

you didn't mind him and he didn't mind you

you guys were classmates and that was that

but then middle school came around and you started acting like you had a stick up your ass 24/7 as long as ness was around

like wtf that mf almost never studies why is he at the top of your class...

suddenly you get distracted in classes because you're focused on drawing mini ness figures with fat x's covering his face and devil horns

ness sees this one day after your notebook fell to the ground and at first is like omg!!! cute drawing of me as a fantasy creature but then he was like wait what the fuck why do they have it out for me????

he barely thought about you until then but apparently you've developed a passionate hatred for him just because he scores higher grades

he still has no clue

you are FUMING

so you start studying even more if that's even possible

while you go to your schools library to bust your ass in the textbooks ness goes outside with a ball he managed to shove into his bag and starts kicking it around

ness: :D ball!!!! no school!!! ball :D

you: KILL YOURSELF KILL YOURSELF KILL YOURSELF KILL YOURSELF

after one particularly hard test that you flopped (it was like an 80% be serious) you caved in and asked ness with help studying

he looked at the material and was like man idk it just makes sense

little boy thought you were going to punt him into hell like he does with his football

him, terrified out of his mind and just wanting to go to his football club meeting, sits down and looks at the material

you show him your notes and he quickly explains it but is running late on time

he gives you his number and says hes going to text you help

you went home that day like ???? that dude lied to me he isnt sending me shit ??? before it clicked

he does not text you because he does not have your number... he gave you his number...

so you swallow your pride and shoot him a message, begging for help a second time in the same day and on his end, he laughs at you a little but offers to call

you guys work on the subject for a good couple hours and before you hang up, you offer to study together for future exams because he's admittedly a good teacher

ness is trying to find a way to say "no thanks i don't care about school good luck tho XD ROFL LOLLLLL" but then he realizes that it's going to make his parents trust him a little more

he accepts and you guys go to the library together once a week

he finds that you're actually kind of funny and cool and not just a human bomb that's plotting his death

he tries to be slick about offering to meet more often

"oh... this unit is a lot more difficult than the last one.... you wanna heh.... come back tomorrow? *gulp*"

"ok"

"WOOOO"

one day ness told you he was going to try out for bastard munchen and you somewhat knew of them because of ness going on tangents about football

you supported him on it, not realizing it would cut down your weekly meetings

suddenly there was an alexis-shaped-hole in your chest but you didn't want to admit it to him

and for alexis, there was a you-shaped-hole in his chest that he tried to fill by training with kaiser and the rest of bastard munchen

yes, the team was filled with dicks, but none of them had the same foul personality you had!!

texts dvery day checking up on each other but it was nothing like hanging out in person

calls were better but still not the same

as soon as he heard about his first off day, he called you and asked to hang out

you tried to be nonchalant about it but who were you kidding both of you guys wanted to see each other again

although the directions of life the two of you were headed towards were almost polar opposites, being reunited at a stupid library table for the first time in months was all that mattered

[plastic-flowerx]

EXCORIATION HAND

April 2024

Cast silicone, acrylic paint, human hair

Artist statement/reflection under the cut

TW: skin picking, self-injurious behavior

My newest piece for my mold making class. This piece is about dermatillomania (or excoriation disorder), a compulsive skin picking disorder. I’ve experienced dermatillomania since I was a kid, it’s waxed and waned throughout my life as I’ve tried over and over again to stop, but I always get pulled back into the habit when life gets stressful and I crave the physical comfort of carving away at my own skin with my fingernails. It’s strange that this self-injurious behavior provides such a comfort, isn’t it?

I’ve felt so much shame about this habit. I remember being a kid and wondering what was wrong with me, if I was the only person in the world who did this. To present this work for critique in class today was to directly engage with the shame and guilt I feel about this compulsion. I have tried to hide it for so long, but today I spoke about it openly in front of my peers. It felt good to face the shame head on. Although I am not proud of this behavior, it is a part of me, a facet of my lived experience that I deserve to speak about candidly, and I am proud of myself for doing so.

When working with silicone, I found that this compulsion pulled me to pick at this replica of my hand. The rubbery material can be torn apart in a way that is so satisfying to my brain. So I let myself pick, carving craters into the faux-flesh, a visual exaggeration of the way I treat my own cuticles and scalp.

The hair ‘growing’ from under the fingernails provides a connection to the scalp, the primary victim of my dermatillomania. At times, my picking has resulted in small bald patches on my head. Because of this, the hair is meant to express a desire to grow away from this habit, to let my follicles grow again where I once tore them out.

[mercymermaid]

dark remains dark remains dark remains dark remains (spoiler alert)

my live reaction + ramble

GRIHERFGIUSEFHIUSVRIUGFESBUIVIUBGBIUVBVBJV

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first off, live reaction, copy and pasted:

DARK REMAINNSS IGHGHGHGHGHGHRUTHGHFHFHF

okay they changed the actor for lizzy but that’s okay that’s okay

a little off-put by the voice-over for the stuff between songs but that’s okay

MATPAT SONG MATPAT SONG HE SINGS AFTON SINGS I’M OSIDBGGJKFKHHKJHGKUDFHGKUBHKUFDBHFKDBJDNKJDBNKJDNJ

“… or you can marinate to death in a trash can. Not even I can make that sound cool.”

GLITCHTRAP ISN’T INDESCTRUCTIBLE RAAAAAG

also the afton angst is wild not him singing about how insane he is

PUPPET TO THE RESCUE AUGHHHHH I MISSED POOKIE

“UNCLE WILLIAM REALLY LIKES RABBITS” THINK LIZZY TIHKN HONEY

also rip alexandra we loved you o7

i love just how non-canon this entire mess is this is an entirely different fnaf universe like dsaf

like alexandra and eggs (miyh and gz) sharing the Benedict last name, lizzy (wol) being afton’s niece but also being siblings with eggs, this is all such a web (of lies) i love itttt

afton being a psycho >>>>> “furry, one eye, RAAGAGAHAHAGFGDHEHAHSGD-👹”

LET’S GO SECOND CHAINSAW DEATH WOOOHOOOOOOOOO

NOOOO YOU CANNOT LEAVE ME ON THAT CLIFFHANGER FUCKT YOTURHUIUGIUBIRSLTgzre

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anyway now my after-thoughts

dark remains (the song) actually slaps, i am so so glad they finally let matpat go true theater kid and actually sing (although his acting is genuinely amazing, he in actually one of my favorite aftons) (I’VE RUN ALL OUT OF PATIENCE TO TAKE IT ON THE CHIN, SO NOW THE WORLD IS PAYING FOR MY SINS is a banger fucking lie)

his part jumpscared me because he was the last person i expected to sing, also he sings a lot lower than i thought he would

still cackling about how he’s still on board considering that this is literally as divergent from actual fnaf as something like dsaf, but that’s the magic of it, it’s completely it’s own story

i didn’t really like how random encounters did voice overs for some of the speaking scenes but then the others weren’t voice overs? i liked it voice over-less but be consistent 🙏🙏

i really hope they bring back older characters for the last few parts, i wanna see eggs (cg5), nate, mark, and aj/purple guy in one room (yes eggs and aj are dead but it’s fnaf let’s be so honest)

actually speaking of the timeline is so confusing - is blood and tears and everything after that a prequel to the original fnaf musical? because isn’t the pizzeria burnt down and the animatronics work at the news place? i feel like this has been mentioned before and i’m stupid enough to forget (if this is true, we’re not getting any aj, nate, or mark content as their characters)

that would make aj’s death the second chainsaw death rather than the board director’s death

okay yeah no everything being a prequel would make sense since bb dies as well in the original musical, same with springtrap (btw poor guy didn’t deserve to be marinated #justiceforspringtrap)

the interview with alexandra was actually so sick she genuinely looks so asylumy, rest in pieces bro (i need to rewatch monster in your head)

lizzy bonding with bb tho 🫶🫶 wait until she sees what happens to him in the musical

that technician disguise was extremely realistic guys you guys are awesome (pls don’t hang yourself)

also the fucking “are you ready for freddy” and the stuff we’d pull with fnaf movie memes was amazing

that cliffhanger wants me dead and i’m not forgiving random encounters until they release the next part

time to go rewatch all the musicals and also the bloopers because those are the best thing on earth

[kxmikomrade]

🍁˖࿐ Artist! S/O - Isagi, Bachira, Reo, Sae

╰┈➤Hcs of them with an Artistic S/O!! Genre: Fluff and crack Gn!reader or Any gender Warnings: Swearing, Not proof read bcs im lazy, idk wat else but lmk if theres anything else Waiter's Note: OH LOOK WHO FINALLY PULLED THIS OUTTA THEIR DRAFTS AFTER A WHOLE ASS 5 MONTHS LMAOO I HOPE U GUYS ENJOY <33 Reqs Open as usual!! Masterlists

Now Playing: An Art Gallery Could Never Be As Unique As You

Very VERY VERYYYY fascinated on what you do, he thinks it's really cool

He canonly likes art too so let him join in!!

Draw him in any way like even a small doodle and he WILL COMBUST

He decorated his wall infront of his desk with your drawings and doodles, other things like custom keychains, origami, glass paintings are on his desk so he can see it everyday when he wakes up 🥹🥹

Study dates with you two often end up in drawing-cuddling sessions

Starting with studying so you can both pass your exams to you two beside eachother, legs tangled under the kotatsu table while you both lay on your stomachs, drawing whatever you felt like drawing 🫶

Let's just hope that you both pass your exams 😭😭

When you have art block or you feel stressed, he offers to take you out to a walk (yk he loves those esp with you)

It may seem kinda annoying at first but trust me, it does WONDERS

YOUR WORKS ARE DISPLAYED THROUGHOUT THE ISAGI HOUSEHOLD ✨

His parents like your creations too but they ALWAYS remind you whenever you come over that it's okay to take breaks and do other things 🥹💖

He's not rich by all means, but he's willing to spend his money to get you supplies u want

When he got the letter for blue lock, you both agreed to meet at a park at night and you talked things through, promising to work hard and improve while you both are separated

Whenever the topic of art or s/o comes in, he just ends up talking everyones ear off in blue lock and the question was just from a truth or dare game😭

Whether or not you got recognized for your art and got more commissions/promotions or quit art to start something new that interests you, he's supportive just as you are for him 🫶

HE LOVES ART, AND YOUR AN ARTIST?? MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN

Introduces you to his mom <33 you both share tips and tricks and now she's like your teacher ITS SO CUTE

But Meguru gets pretty pouty if you just sit there beside his mom talking about art related things all day 😭

If you let him lay down on your lap and give him occasional kisses then he'll be able to sit still for a while longer

You gave him a bee-themed soccer ball you painted once and he ALWAYS has it on his bed so he can fall asleep hugging it 🥹

He doesn't play with it tho, atleast not outdoors bcs he doesn't wanna ruin it 😭💖

Painting with him and his mom if she isn't busy!!

He always plays around and puts paint on your face, his mom scolds him for it LMAOO

Don't take him to art museums pls 😭😭 HAVE YOU SEEN HOW HE WAS IN THE LIGHT NOVEL?? you both would get in trouble just because he was bored 💀

BRAGS TO EVERYONE AND ANYONE IN BLUE LOCK ABOUT YOU THAT THEY LITERALLY KNOW YOU AND EVERY SINGLE ART PIECE YOU HAVE DONE BEFORE EVEN MEETING YOU OR SEEING THEM 💀💀😭

Has tried to eat paint before 🧍‍♂️Much worse if you paint food then bro might try it again 💀💀💀

You sit on a bench nearby and draw while he practices, it's relaxing, just watch out for the ball 😭💀

Oh boy

Id say for a FACT that you were broke until you started dating him unless you have really cheap materials or you're just really good at saving

Yk how art materials and art school is so ridiculously expensive?? Well, your LOVELY boyfriend here has it all covered

Mans literally already bought a whole art shop 💀

Its not like it's anything new *looks at art big art studio*

PLEASE get a frying pan and smack some sense into this man's head bcs he was just about to buy his way into getting your art showcased in an art gallery/convention

He might, MIGHT stop if you use his own words against him. Like the whole 'i want to carve my own future' thing

Lets be fr, he won't stop, the most he could do is stop bribing his way to get your art showcased

Bby supports you alot tho :((

He just admires how much effort you're able to put in each work

When art block kicks in, he'll take you to go to expensive art galleries or to wherever the Mona Lisa is currently being showcased at

Just drag him out and tell him u wanna learn soccer 😭 it's honestly more fun than roaming around an art gallery

Paint him with his parents and they'll already start planning your marriage 💀😭

Bro when collage comes along, then your tuition fees and apartment bills are already paid like??? I wonder how 🤔

PLS DRAW HIM AND SHOW HIM THAT THERE ARE OTHER WAYS TO EXPRESS LOVE OTHER THAN MONEY SPENDING BCS HE'LL ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND WITH ALL THE TIME, EFFORT AND SKILL YOU PUT IN

He DEFINITELY frames all the drawings/paintings you give him. No buts

Let's be fr, he probably has a room in his house filled with your creations 🧍‍♂️

I'm pretty sure that blue lock allows anything to be brought unless it's a phone or something (because they'll have to earn it back) so Reo brought this photo album/journal decorated by you and/or your drawings

AND YK THOSE MINI PRINTERS??? HE BROUGHT ONE TOO SO WHENEVER YOU SEND A NEW ARTWORK, HE PRINTS IT 😭😭

Talks Nagi's ear off every time 💀

Supportive bank in general 👍 jkjk pls don't use him just for money or I will come for your eyeballs 🤗

Sae is pretty chill compared to his hardcore emo brother like did you see that one panel where he wanted to go home in the middle of a game while applying lotion???

He doesn't seem like the type to check social media often too so I hc that he draws after practices when he gets home to cool down for the night yk

I can definitely see him drawing his favorite characters from Chibi Maruko-chan whenever he feels stressed or has a bad day because of his stupid teammates who play like headless chickens 🙄(his words not mine)

So like when YOU came in, it's like he's surrounded by comfort when you two draw in silence while listening to your shared playlist 🌼

drawing fanarts for him that you wanna show off to everyone since he's beautiful and he's even more beautiful in your artstyle <33

he doesnt know about it tho because thats too embarrassing

rin follows you on that account with his private acc LMAOOOOOO

LISTEN. IMAGINE DRAWING HIM WITH HIS YEE YEE LOOKIN ASS BANGS AND TEASING HIM ABOUT IT HAHAHSHAHA

you secretly sent one to Rin for funsies once and he sent you a pic of Sae when he was young back, now you both have this sketchy deal thing going on that Sae doesnt know SHIT about

dw tho, both your mouths are sealed because now you got Rin to approve of you

If you live with him abroad, then your apartment/house is FILLED with notes/drawings/sketches/paintings/origamis, etc. im not exaggerating at ALL.

Imagine those cute and decorated fridges but make it the ENTIRE house

You both just slap some sticky note on walls, tables, chairs, cabinets, shelves, counters and draw on it,and neither of you clean them up, you just leave it there 😭😭

it comes off when it comes off ig 🤷

If you dont live with him abroad, then you guys have a minecraft server you both share thats literally FILLED with builds. Somehow, Sae's RIDICULOUSLY fast at learning these things and now hes an architect 🧍‍♂️

Also those cooperative drawing websites/games?? yeah, you both have them OFTEN, like, every night other than when hes like SUPER tired

just stick to screenshoting him and drawing on his face

He buys you anything you need/want too and theres basically no stopping him 🤷🤷

Tagging: @inariezaki

[1341 words]

[riverm00ndraws]

All of the Fool doodles I could find in my textbooks (which I dare to share lol). He's one of @venomous-qwille 's characters and I absolutely love him. ♥︎

I will ramble a little bit about the fic and characters because I have no one to talk about it and I wanna share my toughts, it starts under the cut.

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Firstly I love all the characters but my absolut favorite is Fool (as you can see lol). Firstly because he's like from Europe and (suprise!) I am from there too.. like.. from Europe. Sedondly his design is just so cool!! And I just love him, I cannot put it into words, I just love him.

I dont know how was everyone with Sol, but I absolutely trusted him until chapter 7... dont ask how or why, I just tought hes grumpy and thats all, or something. Ofc my mind changed after chapter 7. I still like him tho...

I had so many suspicion towards Sunspot, like I didnt really liked him. I was waiting when he will snap and show his, dunno, "evil side"(?)... ofc my mind about him got changed in chapter 7. Hes cute and kind. (Looks like I am horrible in judging people lol)

Misuta is just so sweet. Hes such a bookworm (lovingly). ♡♡

Clip.. i had so much mixed feelings for him. At the begining of chapter 8 I was like "ooh, you are funny, I start to like you.. (Fool, you may have a rival)". He is really funny and I was so okay with him... until at the end of the chapter. I was reading it on the bus to my way home and I was mentally screaming at him that what did he do and why?! Oh my god I am angry, excited and I dont even know what I feel. Im happy because he got out, well.. from the phone and stuff but I am angry because why Fool?! Noooo!

Also a two toughts live rent free in my head. Like in chapter 8 Fool cannot use the chainsaw because its like a weapon and now for almost two days I keep thinking, what if he spin his rays really fast... he.. he could cut up the three into pieces..

The second is that I know myself that I would, without hesitation, use the first opportunity to say "dont be foolish" to Fool.

Thats all thank you for reading bye

[narsh-potatoes]

Never apologize for rambling abt your OCs on my post. I love y ou (and HOHHH THAT SOUNDS SO INTERSETING I'M LOOKING)

OKAY COOL FUCK YEAH THANKS

im using you as an excuse to talk about my very own home-grown blorbos now

So!!!!!!!!! i literally only have half of a design for the two of these ocs, i've only drawn one of them ONCE and i don't count it cuz i wanna redesign him COMPLETELY (that piece is not even canon, i had to do that for a class so i put stuff in there that doesn't even belong to the type of story it is </3), i've written for the two of them a couple times but im not even sure THAT'S canon anymore

(here's the art in case you don't wanna click on a link)

i think the writing might still be canon tho, i do still kinda like a lot of the stuff it went over with that. N E WAYS.

basically there's this pair of witches (they don't. really have. names. oops. they did but i don't like them anymore) who enlisted and then eventually rose to the top of fighting this war/apocalypse/encroaching disaster that has been ongoing for a LONG time. like, they're at the end of the world but turns out the end of the world is a hell of a lot slower than anyone imagined. they've been fighting it for a long time (and it does involve actual fighting? like i like to think that this apocalypse acts more as like. locust swarm but the bugs are big big buggy boys that hates you hates you hates you and eats the magic out of the world)

and the first (we'll call him A) is the one who rose up in the ranks to be best of the best very quickly, because his kind of magic is very powerful and was critically effective in the fight. and the second guy (we'll call him B) is kind of. worst of the best. SORT OF. he was best of the best because he fought alongside A and B's brand of magic explicitly deals with the bond the two of them shared. (i call it bonds magic cuz i can't think of something better for now) (yes it's power of friendship) (there more to that but whatever) it was IMMENSELY powerful!!! not moreso than A's magic, but still!! very powerful!!! so B rose up because A pulled him up (not entirely true!!! but you get the point. nuance)

BUT THEN. sometime after they had been in the war for a long ass time, A leaves. either from shame, either he's disillusioned, something happened, he won't say. and just kind of. leaves B behind. who still is very much part of the war and won't say anything to sway A's mind because he cares too much about what he thinks

years later, B's still part of the war/doom effort. and magic in the world has kind of deteriorated so much that it's. honestly kind of hard to come across a solid magic user these days. they still teach them and still get people to join the effort, but compared to the older days, it's a lot less. people can learn magic, everyone can, but it's hard to get like. a professional, someone who has unlocked the higher abilities of magic. people like A or B.

speaking of! yeah. B is still part of the war effort. and it's NOW at the period of time where he's the worst of the best, but he's the only one they've got. they still keep him around because who else is there, really, and also he can still utilize the powerful bond magic he made way back when with A, so he's still very powerful but it's just. different. ya know? he's standing in the shadow of just the IDEA of A, and he's not even here anymore. and it's not filled with resentment, never. never resentment. he could never tarnish that. it's only ever love. and looking up to A. it didn't feel like he cast a shadow because to B, to him, he only ever cast light.

but also. A left. left him. alone.

so he's dealing with that in a perfectly reasonable manner (not thinking about it)

meanwhile A has decided to live a pastoral life away from the apocalypse and is totally not repressing his issues either. <3.

and like!!! the council or whatever that's in charge of all the witches is like "hey. B. you know your way cooler friend? you still keep in touch right?" and sends him off to go find A again after all these years to bring him back to the war and there's a whole mess of meeting again and having to meet with all the things you left unsaid, and all the everything and OOUAOUGHFF it's a whole mess.

anyways i want to make this a comic but also i kind of need to. yknow. design and draw the comic if i want to make the comic. so like. rage.

[writers-get-biters]

hii! i have a bunch of questions. i tried to trim down the list a bit, i hope it's not too many :p feel free to skip any!!

☕ - what is switching like for you?

🪐 - what is headspace like for you?

🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress?

🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things?

💬 - free space!! tell me about something! (if you want :3)

omg hello!

we love answering questions abt our plurality so dw at all :]

"☕ - what is switching like for you?"

we have varying ideas/theories/experiences of it (some of which contradict), but generally switching feels a lot more like 'becoming' each other than fully letting someone else 'take over' in an external-to-the-current-fronter way if that makes sense bc of our mediple[flux]ness & our particular type of quoiconsciousness. most of us like switching quite a bit bc it feels validating and good to experience our plurality at its most obvious(?). we don't really [someone is saying "sometimes" but i cant remember the last time one of us recognized it] experience any of the "common symptoms" of switching like headaches or similar, so we usually know by a shift in beliefs (especially those abt our plurality [such as how distinct we are or what consciousness label is "correct"]) and identity and sometimes behaviors/instincts(?) (we have a few people who are the "main selfshippers" so if we're suddenly in the mood for that we can narrow it down to them).

"🪐 - what is headspace like for you?"

it's quite cool imo! we're between a dreamway & gateway system, and we've had/have been working on our headspace since we were like 8/9/10 maybe? though back then it was just like the thing that we used to connect our daydreams and stuff, like we had this street with all these doors and different doors led to different daydreams and stuff. later, it expanded beyond that to become a whole fantasy world/planet. it's pretty unique bc instead of the different lands/continents being on the central planet, theyre actually on the ring made of natural glass around the central planet. we have 15 realms/layers that appear as different lands/continents embedded in the ring.

aside from the physical structure of our innerworld, they also work in ways unlike shared reality [supposedly] does. events can happen there that are not considered "canon" or blur the line between "canon" and "noncanon." most of the time, the headspace itself tries to adhere to "canon," sometimes causing small timeloops in order to nudge us towards it. [almost?] all of the ceters [<- the term we prefer to headmates/alters/etc; sysmates is also fine tho] can still remember "noncanon" events though. 3 of the lands are uniquely/inherently fuzzy wrt "canon" in a way none of us are sure of quite yet.

we also have developed some understanding of the history of this world. the planet was created when two smaller moons that were essentially made of geodes/gemstones [let's say theyre called "derse" and "prospit" ;) ] crashed into each other causing them to merge and create rings of sand and larger landmasses around them. i believe this happened due to some sort of explosion of one of the planets the moons were circling, so the whole area was very hot. after the collision, though, the temperature dropped rapidly, causing the glass ring to form with the lands inside. we also have many tales about how people began to appear here, which i'll simplify as "there was a rock that burst open into a tree and when the first leaf fell, it broke into many tiny pieces which became people."

there's a lot more we could say lol, but we wanna answer the rest of the questions :] feel free 2 ask more abt it if u(&) wanna know more!

"🌧️ - how does the system cope with stress?"

um. not well? we find that we usually naturally become less distinct in stressful situations and have a much harder time communicating. trying to combat this by focusing more on our plurality generally helps with stress i think but the degree to which it does varies and usually depends on how big the stressor. ("we shld probs work on our coping skills ngl.." "i don't even know what coping is..." "um,,,,, thats not good.")

"🎁 - have you ever bought your alters/headmates things?"

sorta! our financial situation is a bit complicated rn bc we're a dependant, so we usually ask for things rather than buy it. when we ask for things, we (usually?) want it for everyone's usage, but it often has like associations with certain ceters. sometimes the association is with whoever asked for it, but other times it's intended for someone else to use, even if anyone who fronts is welcome to it. recently, jake got a book that was mostly intended for helix to read, but it's been mostly me in front for a few days now so ive been reading it.

"💬 - free space!! tell me about something! (if you want :3)"

ooh...

ok i dont know so ill j show off a draft of what our planet looks like and the flag we made for our system!

planet draft:

it's only a draft but it gives an idea of what it looks like. the lands arent visible in this one though :/

we're gonna put our personal system flag under the cut bc it's very much eyestrain! also, thank you(&) for asking stuff!

cw: eyestrain!

:)

thank you(&) so much for the questions! we had a lot of fun answering them!

[shouldhavestayedawayfromhere]

A few days ago I found an "old" notebook in my drawer (forgotten since 2022). I used to write down my spiritual & personal insights in there. I found a few gold pieces I wanna share because damn?? Okay some of it feels "cringe" now but that's normal right, cringe culture is dead.

People want you to believe they are happy; because then you'll get jealous; and you will think you need what they have in order to be happy. But you only need yourself; and they only need themselves. We would all be so happy if we stopped comparing our happiness to others'.

Seriously this is such a cool quote. I probably felt like a little philosopher writing that. Tho I would now probably change the part of people wanting you to believe they're "happy". I don't think most people are out there lying about being happy. But certainly about other things sometimes. But it's still very apparent for me, also in the occult community.

Being on here and getting an insight on other people's practices is so cool, but it can tempt me (and I'm sure I'm not the only one) to feel bad about my own practice. I tend to feel like I'm not doing enough, or I wanna do everything all at once. Like I could be doing this and that and everything, and I take my own craft so much for granted that I don't even see what cool and unique things I do myself. So it's nice to see I already considered this two years ago.

It is poor spiritual hygiene to give everyone access to you. Access to you is a privilege. You gotta treat it like it's golden.

This one is a quote from a tiktok I saw I think, but it's so real. From this one I can tell that I definitely grew in that area since writing down this quote.

You stopped showing me love and affection; and I said it was okay; because I loved myself and thought it was you.

Seriously that's such a raw line. I opened the book and saw this line and I was gagged. I know who this was about but fr— this was true so many times??? Every single one of my "close friends" in my past was just an idolized person inside my head. I made myself feel appreciated and gave them credit for it. This is by the way the same reason I used believe in the Christian God. It was the same concept to me. I'd help myself and then give credit to someone else. I hope we're all done doing that.

You will find someone who is right for you and aligns with you once the time has come. And the time will come once you don't need anyone anymore to hold you up, because you can do it yourself.

This was something I took away from a meditation with mother Isis, who was the first deity I've ever tried working with. I don't anymore, but I still value her and I'm thankful for her introducing me to deity work. This is definitely something that became true for me. I found my person. I found multiple people, actually. And Isis was right – I don't need them to hold me up. I can do that myself now. But I'm grateful for those people in my life that don't need me to depend on them in order to be a good friend to me. It's really beautiful to see the things I once hoped for became reality in such a short time.

Love yourselves, ave Satan! 🫶

[itsascreambaby96]

hi! Dunno if you accept these kind of asks just wanted to say that I think Chad loves to watch Animes. Like the pokemon pj's? Yeah he definitely watches Animes. Dunno which ones tho. So if you wanna elaborate on that that would be cool! Thank you!

How have I not thought of that?! Of course! Like he probably doesn't tell many people cause he doesn't want people to think he is a nerd or something but he does enjoy it!

He definitely sometimes watches old Pokémon episodes when he feels down and just needs some comfort.

Also I feel like he watches basic Animes like One Piece or Demon Slayer perhaps.

I feel like he and Ethan bond over their shared interest with Animes. Ethan will show him some more variety🤭

Chad will absolutely lose it if his girlfriend would wear a Sailor Moon or other Sailor Guardian outfit. He definitely had a crush on one of them if not all🤭

[callsign-rogueone]

Okay, here’s my $0.02 about the Sweetheart poly fic thing. I’m not able to keep things short to save my life, so thanks in advance for reading this lol.

Sweetheart has these vulnerabilities and insecurities that she’s not willing to let most people see. She’s built up walls and puts on a mask to guard herself. It took months of being consistent, of Ridoc chipping away at her “armor”, and then the realization that he saw through the steely facade to her “soft heart” from the beginning for her to be willing to let him in.

That hasn’t happened with Sawyer. And though I have no doubt you have the skills to create a scenario where we can believe she’s willing to let him in too, I’m not sure that him just stumbling in and joining them would work for her.

And even if you build up the trust between her and Sawyer and make him prove himself, I kind of feel like Ridoc is just her person. Like he’s the only one that fits with her just right, and their little relationship needs to be protected at all costs. Like adding someone else to the mix would detract from how rare and genuine it was for Ridoc to see *her*.

Also, just as a side note, with the part where Sawyer’s like, “God, he’s always like this *eyeroll, eyeroll, eyeroll*” it gave me more of a Garrick with Violet vibe. Like he approves of her and would even be friendly with her, but he’s just glad his bestie found the right girl.

Obviously I trust you, and if you do end up writing it with Sweetheart, I’m still going to love it. But those are just my thoughts. I’m all for a poly fic, and that even fits well for Ridoc and Sawyer. But based on what we’ve seen of Sweetheart so far, I don’t know that it fits “her”.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to recruit some more Garrick girlies so we can win the other poll. There’s enough Liam content out there already.

Ridoc is just her person. Like he’s the only one that fits with her just right, and their little relationship needs to be protected at all costs. Like adding someone else to the mix would detract from how rare and genuine it was for Ridoc to see *her*.

I wanna call off the vote now omg. like that's it, I'm convinced. you're so right.

I was originally thinking it could be a cool dynamic to have this seemingly cold and un-affectionate girl with two smiley idiots (using that word affectionately lmao) absolutely in love with her and everyone else is just like. how did that happen. but the problem there is that she'd have to trust Sawyer enough to let him see her vulnerable, let alone to touch her (she isn't very touchy at all, something she's going to have to work through with Ri as their relationship progresses).

I like the comparison you made of Sweetheart and Sawyer to Vi and Garrick -- they're chill, they'll protect each other if needed, but that's kinda it (and of course, both boys are going to lightly make fun of their bro for simping, but like you said, at the end of the day they're just glad he has someone).

I definitely want to develop Sweetheart's friendships with the rest of the gang in future chapters. She's kinda the extra one in the marked group, not having a bestie or a partner, so down the line as she becomes more comfortable with Ridoc, she's going to become part of their gang and get pulled into their shenanigans, wether she wants to be or not lol

Now I just have to find a good petname for the boys to use for reader in the other fic... how do we feel about princess? they certainly take very good care of her... maybe that's too corny tho. idk.

Garrick's only three votes behind Liam in the bonded-dragons poll right now, (four days to go!) but even if he doesn't come out on top, I still have two spicy pieces for him in the works: him with angel and the sunflowers (during what was I made for?), and one with a different reader (teaser here 👀)

genuinely, thank you for sharing your thoughts ❤️ it's just me in my room with my laptop coming up with this stuff late at night, so it's really nice to have someone else's perspective as well (as 2am Liz doesn't always think things through).

[i-am-beckyu]

AHHHH IM SO HAPPY YOU ENJOYED THE CONCERT IM SO JEALOUS BUT REALLY HAPPY FOR YOUUU!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY! totally deserved, i hope you had a good birthday season :D <3 <3

also happy halloween! trick or treat? :3

THANK YOUUUUUUUUU IT WAS FLIPPEN AMAZING AND JUST MY GOSH I SO WANNA GO AGAIN! WAS AN AMAZING NIGHT!!!!! HALF ALIVE IN CONCERT IS A MUST SEE!!!!

and now I'm gonna ramble about it in full under the cut :3

Okay okay okay so like the whole thing was just wonderful and considering the last music concert I saw live was when I was like 9, this was a HUGE experience!

So like I went with my dad (cause obviously he is my best choice lol) and I kinda know how he'll be late and all the rest if you say it starts at a certain time. So obviously I told him the concert started at 7:30pm, when in reality the doors opened at 7:30pm.

If there is one thing you should 100% do when going to a concert it is get there early cause we arrived at like 6:45pm and by the time the doors opened we were in the front 1/4 of the line that stretched ALLLLLL the way down the street. And I don't know if this happens at other places, but like I got this cool smiley face stamp to go in but other people got like the wrist band so I don't know what that really meant but it was cool regardless lol.

But anyways, cause we were so early, we got in before it got super packed so I had a choice of where I wanted to be cause the whole place was a mosh pit basically. BUT! There was this little upstairs loft bit that you could watch from the balcony and it had seating!!!

Now tbh I love my dad but I didn't want to go stand in the mosh pit the whole night by myself and knew he was just gonna sit at the back cause he had no idea who Half Alive was but I wanted to be with him.

So I absolutely SCORED when we got two chairs in the balcony bit, right in the middle!! This lady was sitting in a seat with one next to her free and it turned out she was the manager of the band opening the show which was so cool to meet and chat with her and she said she wasn't staying and gave us her seat and the spare one. Bless her TwT.

I got to sit the whole night without my legs getting sore, had THE best viewing spot with no one in front of me AND could get pics and vids without having to worry about the video cause it just balanced on the balcony bit so I could enjoy the show too!

Like yes I know I could have been in the mosh pit, but for me it was so much better to be where I was cause I got to share the moment with my Dad! (who had ear plugs in the whole time from all the screaming fans lol but he thoroughly enjoyed the night even tho he had no idea what to expect)

And now of course the actual performance

OH MY GOSH IT WAS CRAZY! HALF ALIVE IN PERSON IS JUST AN ABSOLUTE AMAZING EXPERIENCE AND I SO WISH I HAD GOTTEN THE VIP TREATMENT LIKE MAN I LOVED IT!!!!

Like you know how sometimes seeing bands live vs their music sounds different cause of like auto tune and stuff like that? WELL THERE WAS NONE OF THAT HERE! IT WAS ALL RAW VOCALS AND JUST MIND BLOWING!!! I AM SOOOOOOO HAPPY I HAVE THE CLIPS AND BITS THAT I DO CAUSE LIKE AHHHHHH I AM IN LOVE WITH IT!!!

They didn't perform every song obviously but like there were bits and pieces of sings in some bits and like the way they performed each number and getting ready in between was flawless. Like it all flowed seamlessly into the next song and just AHH THEY ARE PROFESSIONALS I ADORE I ADORE I ADORE!!! And I loved that while this was their conditions of a Punk tour, we still got to hear older songs like Still Feel and Creature live too. (I would have died if they didn't perform creature I swear and it was the last song of the night and I just felt so happy hearing my fav song ever live. It was such a special moment)

And then my gosh if you've seen like the clips they've shared of the performances like nah man. They don't hold up to actually being there. The dancers were flippen INSANE!!!! Like just yessssssss! They absolutely slayed and it looked like they were having so much fun! It was awesome!!!!!

Oh and at one stage of the night (cause in perfect aussie fashion) we did our usual chant of Aussie aussie aussie oi oi oi and it was so funny seeing their faces cause they had no idea what was going on lol. I loved it.

Now if you follow half alive you'll also notice in their posts that none of them were wearing any shoes that night and you're probably wondering why. Answer: The theatre just said no with the dancers having any shoes cause the stage was carpeted. Do I understand this? Nope. But it happened lol. So we got socked feet all night.

Now of course I also got merch :3 And this is where that stamp thingy comes into play cause like at the start, being up stairs a guy came and called us and said: Who wants merch and then ushered us all down to get merch lol. I skipped such a long line I felt a lil bad but like: I got here early and I was lucky lol. So now I have a very expensive tshirt, but I love it lol. Did I take a pic of it? NOPE! I forgot lol but I can always share it later <3

I'm pretty sure a whole lot of other stuff also happened but this post is already pretty long lol. Overall you can tell I had an amazing time and I highly recommend to anyone to go see your fav bands live if you can cause it is such a special experience and you won't regret it. Being able to see Half Alive is easily one of my top fav experiences of all time so yes. I had a great time <3

[dragonsoftheeast]

i was tagged by @stannisfactions! You're so cool, thanks for thinking of me.

How many works do you have on AO3?

29. I really wanna bring it up to an even 30 tho.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

220,728

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Hotd right now, though sometimes I think about adding more to Glory and Gore, my vikings AU

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Fire Made Flesh, Colors in the Night Sky, Millenia, second son, not born but raised

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to! Sometimes I take a while, but I'm always ready to talk about my stories! And I love to hide loads of internal references and wordplay in what I write, so when people pick up on them, I get so excited! I also like to hear how people are thinking about characters and if anything's affected them!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Definitely Heart Strings gah. Fire Made Flesh may rival it when it's done tho, since it still is the story of the Dance.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

deserving has a pretty happy ending, I think- more satisfying than the canon one, if I do say so myself.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

A couple times, all on Helaemond fics. But that's what you get in such a big fandom, I'd never written for such a conflict heavy fandom before.

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Not really. I'm not really comfortable doing that.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I've not written a crossover yet- however, I do have a Pacific Rim HoTD fusion somewhere in drafts.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Honestly not sure. This relates to the next question, but I once got asked about a translation and then never heard back so I ended up wondering if it got stolen.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Hopefully, I got Glory and Gore translated into Russian! From the question above.

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

No- tbh I'm not sure I would be good at it. I'm open to trying, though, and I'm always willing to share ideas.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

I've never written for them, only a poem in high school, but Hector and Andromache from the Iliad. I've just read the Emily Wilson translation and...they hurt me but I've always loved them.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Probably Millennia. I had such plans for them, but TVD burned bright and fast as a fandom for me.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I love my writing voice, I think I change my style up a lot depending on the piece itself, but I always have to like the rhythm of it in my head before I'm good with it. I think I'm fairly good at worldbuilding too, though of course with that some things are weighed with more interest than others.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Probably increasing tension. I always wanna jump into the resolution and the confrontation! But then I'm like, noooo I gotta provide context and I have to work backwards. ugh.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Anyone who's read me probably knows I love to do it! Only conlangs though, with a natural language that's a little beyond me since there is an actual sense of what "feels right." But I love me some HV dialogue, it gives me such a cool

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Percy Jackson!

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

Right now it's a tie between dropping glasses just to hear them break and delicate in every way but one. They're not my epics but I think I just wrote some of my most beautiful language in them.

Some of you guys might have done this already but I'll tag @emilykaldwen, @carladuquette (I think you've returned to fic!), @volvaaslaug, @lavandorhaze, @qyburnsghost, @appletreeduty

[strxwberriiwithchocolate]

hello, i saw your additions to @ correctproseka'@ HPD an headcanon

and i saw you mentioned have a psych hyperfixation

so would you mind rambling to me about hpd and what it entails as well as how it effects you

(you can say no! please say no if your not comfortable! and if you are comfortable sharing please dont share anything that would potentially put you in harms way. i wanna be able to understand hpd bc i really liked the headcanon and wanna incorporate it into a piece of writing but if sharing your experiences is uncomfy or would put you at risk then of course i understand and would be happy with just an explanation of what hpd is)

-🌸

I definitely would! thx for asking!

hpd sucks fucking balls. it makes me feel so shitty when I don't get attention I need and it gets even worse when you're an introvert with social anxiety. hpd is an attention seeking disorder and it isn't fun to have. Sometimes I feel the need to sexualize myself cause I feel like the best attention is a sexual one even tho I have strict parents and I'm a minor. hpd has people called attention people/atps who you value attention the most from. pwhpd would do anything to get that atp's attention. When it comes to my atp, sometimes I even feel envy because she's so much better than me and I wish that I could be her, making me want more attention from her. hpd also gives me really shallow emotions so one tiny thing could set me off + I get excited too easily. Oh fuck forgot one of my least fav symptoms. the easily influenced. to get attention, you need people to agree with you. What better way to get that agreement than changing your opinion to match people? For example, when I see something that I'm like "oh that's cool!" and see people commenting on how much it sucks, I start hating it. Or whenever someone asks me what I want to do, I tell them I don't know even though I do know and want to do what they like more. Another of my least favorite symptoms I get is the amount of envy I feel. Whenever my friend gets more attention than me, I get so fucking pissed and I feel bad for getting pissed but god, if only that attention went to me not them..

yeah thars pretty much it. hoped my experience helped your understanding of hpd. everyone is different and doesn't experience symptoms the same.

[herlittlebunnyboy]

So I thought about your post, the one who asks your followers to tell you about the book/movie/poem that changed our lives. And the thing with life changing art in my life is that it’s often not that great. Like I can talk your ear off about postmodernist Polish paintings and the queer film theory but the fact of the matter is that the media that often resonates the most with me is considered sub par. And I actually don’t mind it, but I do find it interesting.

First a disclaimer: there will be spoilers for the book, but it did come out in 1999 so I feel that’s fair. Second I will only write about it, not the poem or the movie because unfortunately I’m incapable of being concise. The book that absolutely changed my life is a cliche classic, piece de resistance of 2010 tumblr - “The perks of being wallflower”. I’m not sure if you’re familiar with it, but if not it’s an epistolary novel in which the main character (who gives himself a pseudonym Charlie) writes to the mysterious person who is just described as someone who “is kind” and “does the right thing”. There is A LOT of amazing quotes and heartbreaking and inspiring parts of the book (it did help that my group of friends very much identified with the characters and got up to similar shenanigans), but the thing that changed my life is this. Throughout the book we figure out there is something wrong with Charlie, we don’t know what but we can sense that something happened that he doesn’t wanna tell this mystery person, something horrible. Eventually we find out it was CSA. Charlie loves the person who hurt him, fights with himself to reconcile the image of the person as a good, hurt individual and as an abuser. When I read this book I was 16teen and wouldn’t admit to myself how bad the things that happened to me were, because the people who did them weren’t some kind of monsters, hiding in dark alleys or under my bed. They were asking about school while eating dinner with me and letting me pick music while we drove. I thought they could either be good or bad and I didn’t think I could survive giving up on them. It made me realize that people can be good and bad and complicated and sometimes we need to hold all of this at the same time. My favorite quote from the book tho is this: “We accept the love we think we deserve”. I’ve been repeating this to myself for the last 12 years.

This! This is the honesty and openness that this world desperately needs. And I don't know why but when you said followers in the beginning I laughed, that's such a foreign feeling/concept to me, I'd much rather consider all the cool people on here as friends.

Now to dive into this I love the sentiment of "the thing with life changing art in my life is that it's often not that great", it really doesn't have to be, I feel like if you are solely judging your change and progress off of the high notes you are missing at least half of the notes. Lol as for not being concise, we have talked to each other enough to know we both lack conciseness, but that's okay. As for the book, I have heard of it before but never read it or experienced the other forms of it, so I will definitely add this to my reading list. I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who constantly equates people and places from books to people and things in my real life.

I won't go too far into your past or story as we have talked off the center stage, but like always, I appreciate you opening up to me ❤️‍🩹. The duality of man is a concept that each and every person has to come to terms with eventually and can be a shocking idea or thought to wrestle with, especially with the ones we hold close and love. It's not hard to imagine a stranger with a complicated goodness and badness but to realize that parents, kids, or siblings can and do have this inner turmoil and struggle with the good and bad inside them can be eye opening.

As always, thank you for sharing insights into your life and thoughts with me, I really appreciate you.

[quinloki]

okay so for my fave it's actually none of the boys I usually scream about in your askbox but instead... it's Nami. She has been probably my all time favorite character since way back in the day 20 ish years ago when I first started to watch one piece. What I love about her is that she's gone through sooo much bad stuff and she just keeps going on. She has a kind heart to those who deserve it, and is ruthless to those that don't. I also love that while she's not a super duper strong fighter, she shows other strengths. She's smart but still likes to look cute and take care of herself. Also love when she cries for others, it's really nice to see a character that has emotions sometimes but is still a totally cool character the rest of the time.

I don't self ship only bc she's probably too good for me (I'd let her rob me tho)

I legit used to have basically a Nami shrine for figures just because she just has so many amazing ones. I cut back but she definitely has the most on my shelf.

Though I have to say, my favorite thing about having her as my fave is the look on guys' faces when I tell them that. I can always feel them trying to sus out if I just think she's cool or if I wanna date her. One guy told me once 'ah yes every man's waifu' and I was like nah she's mine and the look on his face was priceless.

(To talk about some of the boys quick, Ace was one of my early faves bc he was a cutie but also so sweet. Law my teenage self really liked the emo vibes, but I've grown to like him more for his smarts *and his shitty attitude LOL*. Marco I love his demeanor and how he's lost so much but he still faces the world and does what he can. He's so loyal too.)

Thank you for letting me rant about my faves!!!

\o/ Thank you for sharing so much!

That's really sweet about Nami (I love the shoutout to the boys at the end, but let's be fair, this was about the navigator!)

Everyone on the crew has certainly Seen Some Shit™ and been through even more than that. I think that Luffy not only brings them together, but also kind of helps them in heal. (And helping them heal helps Luffy, in my opinion).

But I do love how much Nami, of all the crew, changes. She has no trust, no space for friendship to the point that she alienated her entire town. She loathes Pirates, and then becomes one - I think when she left with Luffy and the others, at least at first, she didn't consider herself a pirate, but more like a navigator with an unsavory crew.

Her story has certainly been an interesting one.

Thank you again for sharing, I'd love to see pictures of your shrine if you don't mind sharing them =3

Tell me why your favorite character is your favorite

[jerirose]

mhm I totally get what you mean. and like, (and this is just my personal feelings so no not speaking for anyone else) I’ve kind of let go of interaction worries just because it personally was stressing me out. but that doesn’t mean everyone else can do that or that it’s easy for other people, this is just my experience. like i absolutely understand what you mean bc I can’t believe ppl like the chan gfx I made I didn’t go into it with any expectations but I know I would’ve worried about it being good a bit too if no one had seen it at all. nowadays it’s just super hard with algos but I’m holding a place for things to get easier (idk how but) I wanna be hopeful maybe that sound silly to some tho. I used to feel that way about my writing too, like I want ppl to see how cool it is so it’s hard when you share it and see that other ppl didn’t feel the same and left a pretty lifeless like on it with nothing else. I don’t think I’m making much sense but I hope this may be able to come across somehow.

It's funny because as a Streamer I had to do the exact same. I'm on the smaller side of streamers and our viewer numbers fluctuate like no one's business, you have to learn to not pay too much attention too it because you should stream to 3 people like you would to 300 people. You just need to be 'on' and so you learn that numbers don't mean a thing and they shouldn't matter.

I WISH I could apply that to my art, but I guess more of me in a way goes into my art? So maybe that (with a sprinkle of artistic trauma) is why I find it so much more difficult to do it as an artist. I go into painting my pieces without expectations of interactions, ever. I paint them for me first and foremost - what has really truly only kicked off this "does no one like it" is one of Elon Fuckfaces updates to Twitter which shows you (and everyone else) how many people have SEEN your post vs. interactions with it and oh fucking hell that fucks you over so much, cause now it's easier to compare interactions to your peers (and even if they may have more followers than you, it still hits harder)

You are making perfect sense! Likes are extremely disheartening on this platform too when you learn how empty they are in terms of helping boost your work (tho they are appreciated, thank you! Just... It's a reblogging website, innit??)