#I get really defensive of the hellsite in this one

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 225

Inside Man/Kill the Moon

“Inside Man”

Plot Description: Sam and Castiel set out on a mission to find a cure for the Mark of Cain, and Crowley’s relationship with Rowena is put to the rest

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: No one died

Goddammit, let Bobby rest!! He earned that

(Cut to 24 hours earlier)

It’s a good thing the brothers know each other like that because Sam wanting to go off to some other city to see a foreign film on their off day is not convincing me as the viewer. How that convinced Dean, I don’t know

If we want to get…….oh. It wasn’t “if we want to get rid of the Mark, we have to get rid of Dean” it’s “it’s we have to get back in cahoots with Metatron”

Crowley, can you KNOCK?!

She looks stunning in purple…the costumers have been so wonderful to me

She’s got herself a lil boy toy…maybe. Or she made up a boy toy to cover up her real motives, which is even funnier

Cas isn’t allowed in heaven?!

🥹Hannah🥹 it does make me sad to see them opposing each other though

How do you break Metatron out of jail……….oh. That’s why they need Bobby, I bet

“You can be damned AND a conscientious worker” man, you don’t HAVE to be though

How does Dean have that many people in his phone? No offense, man

Sam’s :/ yet undeterred face when faced with a billion “No trespassing” and “keep out” signs

I love sasstiel. “And you’re….what ARE you?” “…I’m an angel” “that…no you can’t be” “why not?”

This psychic calling Metatron a creepy hobbit lookin fellow. It honestly made me laugh out loud in the break room

Dean…now you’re just being mean. There’s hustling someone at pool and then there’s taking that kid’s watch that his dad gave him. Yeah he’s an asshole college kid, but damn

There is no rest for Bobby…

She dressed up so nicely to go try to kill Dean, and she’s so unrepentantly evil. Fuck, I love her so much.

Ewwww…the structure of heaven is really…terrible. It’s all sterile hallways with alphabetized rooms where every individual person gets their version of heaven. It’s not what it should be

GIRLIE!!! You literally cut yourself up and blamed Dean to get Crowley to turn on him. And I love how she absolutely cuts Crowley to the core with her words

Omg a revolt of all the Robert and Roberto and Roberta Singers that Bobby broke out of their respective heavens

That was such a funny action movie sequence. Cas jumping into the portal to heaven and sliding through the door

“Dean has given up” “And you idjits haven’t.” “Would you?” “Hell no” Cas and Bobby deserved more screen time together

God, this sit down talk between Dean and Crowley…they ARE friends. They’re somehow still friends

I hate Metatron as much as the next guy (and the next guys have called him a creepy hobbit and a fraggle, so…) but him calling Cas Asstiel will never not be funny

YES, CAS! “You’re gonna be MY punching bag”

I promise I still hate him but he gets so many funny lines. How much time did he spend thinking about

I am…so damn impressed with Sam and Cas’s plan. They just STOLE METATRON’S GRACE AND THEN SAM SHOT HIM IN THE LEG just to get the leverage they need

I want her to burn it all down. I appreciate that Crowley is choosing himself, and it’s great for him…but I want her to go ballistic, just completely of the deep end with rage. I need it like air

I’m not lying when I say that Bobby telling Sam in a letter that he’s a good man, one of the best, and he’s damn proud of him is making me tear up. With all the doubts that Sam’s had that he’s a good person, that he’s not just cursed…

“Kill the Moon”

Plot Description: The Doctor and Clara crash land on the Moon to find a world of horror

This…only takes place 26 years from RIGHT NOW. 2014 was such an optimistic time. Y’all really thought we’d be going to the moon again? I wish I could believe that. PEOPLE? On the MOON?!

Please tell me that the astronaut that was in the cold open with Clara is a future Courtney Woods! (I love that she’s back in the post opening credits scene, so THAT is what I’m holding out hope for)

Oh…not future Courtney…present Courtney is on the moon

“One small thing for a thing. One enormous thing for a thingything” honestly, I’m not mad at her. First girl on the moon and those are her first words on the surface? Love it for her

The shuttle says United States, WHY does everyone still have an accent from across the pond? The TARDIS doesn’t need to translate it. They’re all speaking English

WHY ARE THERE SPIDERWEBS IN THE ABANDONED SHELTER?!?! WHO BROUGHT SPIDERS TO THE MOON????

Nooooooooo. No I don’t like whatever’s living here

THAT IS A HUGE AND GROSS SPIDER. This is also the worst soundscape I’ve ever experienced. It’s the amplified sound of weird skittering and then IT ECHOES BECAUSE WHY NOT

Courtney Woods 2024. I don’t care that she’s not American, in the face of great danger (a giant spider) she was cool calm collected enough to do what needed to be done (all purpose cleaner it to death. Kills 99.9% of all germs. I guess huge spiders count, too)

THAT WAS A MOON GERM?!?! No. I refuse to accept it. Why? I hate it

I also don’t like knowing what the twist is. I know I’ve said it before but so much of the Moffat era is depends on not knowing the twist

Courtney is an ICON. She retches in the TARDIS, which sends her a little off the rails because the Doctor then tells her she’s not special, so Clara tries to get the Doctor to just take that statement back, but that’s not good enough for him, he needs to make the statement untrue, she has to be special now, so he takes her to the FREAKING MOON where she becomes a sort of hero because no one knew how to kill the giant spider looking germs, and the second she’s sent to the TARDIS for her own safety, what does she do? POST PICTURES OF HER TRIP TO TUMBLR

I need to know…ok, the actress playing the astronaut was 47 when this was filmed. If we take that age and make it her character’s age in this episode, that means this character is 47 in 2049. She is 21 today. She was 12 when this episode aired…do not come into my hellsite and tell me “my granny used to post things on tumblr” Your granny MAY very well be here for all I know, but don’t pretend you weren’t, too. YOU ARE NOT THAT FAR IN THE FUTURE. You signed up on your 13th birthday in 2015. I cannot let this go. “Courtney’s posting stuff to tumblr, doesn’t that know where you are?” “I don’t know, I’m not a historian” BITCH. WHAT. STOP THIS BLASPHEMY RIGHT NOW

Oof, now we’ve entered the part of the episode that’s gonna make me mad but not in a fun way.

The optimism that we could have a female president by the time 2049 rolls around…..

You can’t expect someone with an amount of Time Lord DNA to go kill hitler if they were in 1930s Germany?? Really??? Have you forgotten your wife so soon?

So they’re letting Earth democratically vote whether or not to blow up the moon, which is an egg, by whether or not they turn out their lights. Lights out on earth means lights out for the moon. It’s not even a close vote (but I’ve now had the ending spoiled for me and I’m not happy about it)

And then Clara decides on her own that ALL OF EARTH’s decision wasn’t as important as her own feelings on the matter. And to make matters worse, she gets justified in her actions by the narrative because everything worked out anyway no harm done

Is that really what we should be doing though? I’m not saying checking out our own space neighborhood wouldn’t be interesting but every time in this rewatch when they mention some human colony out in space somewhere…like, SHOULD WE BE COLONIZING SPACE THOUGH?! And it’s gonna last FOREVER?!

Wait. Pausing how much this episode makes me mad to say Courtney ACTUALLY becomes president of the United States?!

Ok but honestly, how much DID the Doctor know? Because if he knew that it would all work out and how humanity starts to travel to the stars because of this day and didn’t let them make an INFORMED DECISION, that’s…I can understand why Clara is so upset with him right now. She took the fate of humanity in her own hands and didn’t know how it would shake out, but the Doctor might have and he just fucking vanished. She has every right to be furious with him

She will never look at the moon the same way again

[autistic-ben-tennyson]

In Defense of Vegans

I can’t believe I have to make this but after seeing how posts like the above still get thousands of notes I’m going to. While there are critiques of militant veganism I agree with as a former vegan, some people need to chill out. What’s aggravating about most people here is how much they hate vegans but less in the alt right conservative fashion and more under a guise of faux progressivism. All nuance is thrown out and people treat the vegan debate as a false binary of either eat local, humane meat or child slave soy.

I’ll start by saying I was a lot more anti vegan when I first got on this hellsite. Reblogging anti-vegan posts and picking occasional fights with vegans. I was a lot angrier and was letting off steam as someone who was a former vegan who had a hard time with it. Same with religion, I was a lot more anti religion when starting my blog due to anger at evangelicals. Being able to recognize how it just wasn’t my cup of tea has caused me to let go of a lot of that anger. I wasn’t happy doing it but that’s not a damnation of veganism or vegans.

What irritates me about how most treat vegans is that it’s often reacting to a stereotype or strawman of vegans rather than actually engaging with them. All these posts about how vegans are destroying the environment with their child slave quinoa, cashews and plastic leather, when being a vegan doesn’t require using that stuff. A lot of them are smarter than given credit for and do research what they buy. Many do eat local produce and use hand me down wool or leather. They aren’t just buying every hipster product labeled vegan. Vegans are forced to be put on the defensive and what should be a conversation about how no food is really ethical in this capitalist society turns into a shouting match and “no you” regarding who’s more “cruelty free”.

I can understand having beef with militants if you have faced bigotry such as racism or ableism from animal rights activists. But some people really are quick to hate vegans and justify it as woke or leftist. Sometimes, people won’t even check the source before reblogging it, like the video of that problematic new age hippie, appropriating Pacific Islander culture, claiming veganism is colonialism.

I think a lot of vegans get hate for being the wrong kind of neurodivergent in some peoples eyes. Many, including myself, do have hyper empathy and are swayed by emotional arguments such as documentaries such as Earthlings. They make one small mistake and everyone treats them as if they’re the worst even if they do apologize for it like @sobadpink here in the replies. Many of them do have trauma from the cruelty towards animals they’ve seen which is treated with little sensitivity by people who claim to be allies to those who are neurodivergent and/or have faced abuse or PTSD. While white PETA types need to be called out, many famous civil rights leaders have been vegan/vegetarian like Cesar Chavez or Corretta Scott King and people do a disservice by treating it as solely a white man’s ideology.

Being a vegan isn’t easy and a lot of people’s anger here is fairly reasonable in my opinion. Many are ostracized by their families, can hardly find any food while on the go and struggle with people not understanding or refusing to understand them. Correcting misinformation from vegans is one thing and then there’s just being a jerk about it. A lot of anti vegan people here are the latter. You can say it’s self inflicted but many do think they’re doing a good thing, even if the meat industry is more complicated than just “vote with your dollar”. I would be a bit defensive myself if people treated me like a racist, ableist colonizer who hates migrant workers the moment I mentioned what I eat for lunch.

Call me a bleeding heart or ARA if you want but I think a lot of vegans here deserve more charity than they’ve been given. It’s like this site, when it comes to this issue, is stuck in 2015 as I’ve seen vegans try to explain their side, offer different perspectives and correct misconceptions but nope, another post about slave labor quinoa or plastic wool gets made every week and gets thousands of uncritical notes. People claim those posts aren’t about shaming vegans but that’s sure not how they come off as. Even a lot of the big “anti vegan” blogs here have admitted they went a bit too far and have mellowed out. I don’t agree with everything hardcore vegans have done or said and I can understand why some who’ve been hurt by them may dislike vegans but I think tumblr is way too harsh and intolerant of vegans despite claiming to be the leftist weirdo safe space.

[luminantjess]

2024 CE Incident Report

Background

There was a whole damn calendar year where things happened, what the hell.

Impact

The stated goals for 2024 CE were, in order:

lol I have ADHD

and I didn’t write them down

fuck me I have no idea

Good job me! But I did start to explore polyamory, at the suggestion and encouragement of my lovely wife, which has led me to amazing partners, greater fulfillment in my life, and made my wife and I even closer than before! (If you don't know: that's close).

And I joined this hellsite, which has surprisingly been a good call. I've met more trans people here than anywhere else!

Going Forward

Screw looking back. Time is an illusion. What will happen has happened. In 2025 CE I will have already completed the following goals:

Take more lewd pictures and videos. I really enjoy showing off for people!

Stop being so defensive and cagey about being an enthusiastic sub! I’m still a switch, I still love to give some girls what they so desperately need, but it’s time to lean in to being a submissive little slut instead of mildly ashamed of it.

Get involved in my local queer scene more. There’s events happening literally blocks from me. Social anxiety can choke on it, I'm going.

Check out the local BDSM scene. One of my partners has a Mistress, and I’m not sure if that’s something I want but it's a thought I can't seem to put down. So, guess it's time for some exploration!

Continue my polyamory journey. There’s still a lot of mono stuff (jealousy chiefly, but there's a bunch of others) for me to fully unlearn, and it’s not always easy, but it’s something I want to put real effort into.

There's some other tech and career related stuff, but those are the important highlights.

This ends the 2024 CE Incident Report. Please consider the incident closed, and email your Zone's Tech Director with any questions.

[depressedbagpipe]

one of my new year's resolution was to fully come back to this hellsite again. i know i disappeared somewhere in march, but in my defense, my life got a bit too... much? i guess. and i barely had time to even sit down and write all the stories i promised myself i'd bring back to life. so, as a way to commit a bit more, at least until i get busy enough that i disappear again, I'll be trying to write and post more one-shots, if anything to keep the few readers that i still got :(

so, because i've been playing hogwarts legacy lately, and i don't really feel like coming up with an entire original story because that's already the point of the game, i guess I'll be writing some one-shots with my fave boys (because I'm basic and fell in love with Sebastian and Garreth as soon as i saw them) SO IF YOU'RE INTERESTED IN READING THAT LET ME KNOW WHILE I WORK ON THE OTHER FICS TOO AND GETTING MY LIFE TOGETHER OKAY BYE LOVE Y'ALL

[1doesnotsimplyhavejust1fandam]

Idea for a tv show that only works if it’s a tv show. The first season: it’s set up like any typical crime show, doesn’t matter what level of law enforcement, just that the main storylines of episodes weave between the cases and LEOs’ lives, nothing too unusual, but maybe a few of them have family members who work in the legal system (magistrates, public defenders, juvenile advocates, etc.). The trailer and all the episodes, at least at first, present the show as a pretty typical crime show. Then you hit the midseason finale, and the trailer for 1b is the vaguest video you’ve ever watched in your life. You’re curious, so you turn into the midseason premiere, and you’re hit with wall to wall legal cases, instead of the investigations of 1a. But the characters are all from the pilot episode, including the offender, witnesses, investigative officers, and one (or more) of that family members who work in the legal system. Basically, the show brought back characters from the pilot so that you could watch the trial play out, months after you first met the characters. And sure, some irl trials take longer to get to on the docket than others (years as opposed to months), but we’re going for a basic timing effect here. You’re an audience member, but you’re experiencing the trial as if you were involved in the investigation or the crime yourself. You may not have spent months thinking about the outcome of a trial (at in season 1, bc let’s face it, this show would be ground zero for some HARDCORE parasocial relationships), but you’re still caught up in the reminders of that time period in the show and in real life, just on a smaller scale than the characters.

SVU (and probably other shows in the L&O universe, I’ve never seen them though) do something similar where the second half of the same episode is the trial part of the case, but I think it would be really cool to have the case play out across an actual reasonable timeline irl too! And if the show were renewed, people would likely assume the second half of the second season would do the same thing, and would be waiting for the trial of offenders or victims they liked in particular. Just think about the Twitter (and hellsite) chaos this would bring, there would be people talking about the cases and trials like they’re real, trying to argue for the prosecution, or come up with the defense’s playbook. And if we really wanted a plot twist, there would be a case every season where the defendant really IS not guilty (and I don’t just mean in a “the prosecution couldn’t stick the landing,” I mean, don’t get too up in arms over the LEOs being the best at their fictional jobs, because they’re getting the wrong person for a crime once a season, and the audience is actually going to see it! There’s so little of that in the world, where the show tells the audience that yeah, the LEOs WERE wrong, and real criminal might get away with it! Could go either way after that, another investigative episode for the same case in the next season (with matching episode numbers with the original case episode, of course), or absolutely nothing else about the case, because sometimes, the ambiguity is what makes the story so compelling. Argue it over online!

[ninjapotatohead]

I'm just going to get this out of the way...

All you ever do is ignore the obvious and just flat out insult people who were never in the wrong with a dumb meme. (I mean, memes are funny, but not your's)

People have different opinions on comics and the games and that's okay. You can't just be a hardass to Sonic fans who like media or characters you don't like.

Like, I follow people who don't like Sonamy but do I bash on them because of that? Uhhh, no. I don't. Because I respect other people's different opinions, despite the fact it's not like mine.

You, however, do not. And that is sad.

Also?? I am convinced you are homophobic, because I just noticed you didn't bring up the fact Tangle and Whisper are a thing now. Knowing you, I should've known that that was the case.

Sorry for being honest, I guess, but you're probably the most butthurt person in this hellsite. I didn't make my blog just to see your dumb posts about you criticising fans and people who work at SEGA who are doing their job.

If your life is based on constantly ignoring valid points or looking at the negative side of things in the fandom or being snarky and rude to people who just simply disagree with you, there's a good reason why a lot of people block you.

I hate to disappoint you, but unfortunately, you're an asshole.

I tried so hard not to get in your way, but your posts have been bothering me every time I look up Sonic's name because I want to see funny posts, cool fanart and all that awesome jazz.

You are just one of those people who drains out all the fun and makes fun of the fandom for simply ENJOYING stuff that you don't.

I want you to understand that. I'm not here to attack, I'm just telling you how you make me feel.

You're the living embodiment of the No Fun Allowed panel from the Archie comics, and I don't think that you'll change for the better anytime soon.

Also, don't even think about responding with a meme or your usual: "I have no idea what the hell your talking about, therefore I'm right. Checkmate."

Cause that just proves you don't care.

I know you're reading this, but choose to think I'm wrong. I know, but I'm posting this to you anyways because maybe someday, you'll reconsider how you act towards certain people.

Or maybe you won't, and I'm certain at the second option.

Really sorry, but you're just not a good person.

Either leave the fandom or grow up, which ever comes last.

Credit where it's due, you're not being a punk-ass and going Anonymous. That said, your claims are full of more holes than a fine Swiss cheese.

• "All you do is ignore the obvious and insult people who were never in the wrong..."

You're making shit up. Have you SEEN the sorts of things I get in my inbox? Oh wait, of course you (supposedly) haven't. That would require admitting that the other side of a coin exists, and that these people you claim are "innocent"... simply aren't. The only ones "ignoring the obvious" are the jackasses who make shit up about the games they never played.

• "Memes are funny, but not your's"

There's no apostrophe in "yours". Next!

• "People have different opinions on the games and comics, and that's okay."

No shit, Sherlock. You say that, yet, whenever someone (ie folks like myself, @darklightheart, @crusherthedoctor, or @aquillis-main) lists any and all grievances or problems said comic has from our perspective (with reason), the fandom takes a defensive stance almost immediately and swarms our inboxes with their own brand of unsavory behavior... but said fans are "innocent" according to you, right?

• "Also, I'm convinced you're homophobic because I just noticed you didn't bring up the fact that Tangle & Whisper are a thing now."

Did you break your back and pull every single muscle in your body or something, because that's a goddamn massive leap of logic you just made based on literally nothing.

• "...you're probably the most butthurt person on this hellsite."

• "I didn't make my blog just to see you criticizing fans and people at SEGA who are doing their jobs."

No, you made your blog to cry your way into people's inboxes about people not doing it enough.

• "If your life is based on constantly ignoring valid points and looking at the negative side of things in the fandom..."

Like those so-called "innocent fans" who blow up the inboxes of multiple users on this site to do that very thing? Yeah, no. Try harder.

• "...your posts have been bothering me every time I look up Sonic's name..."

Translation:

• "I'm not here to attack..."

Could've fooled me.

• "...I'm posting this to you because maybe someday, you'll reconsider how you act towards certain people."

So, what you're saying is the next time soy boy stans like you bombard the inboxes of myself and other users for the express purpose of trying to silence other people's opinions, we're supposed to just acquiesce? Yeah no, you're living in a bubble.

• "Really sorry, but you're just not a good person."

[redwineconversation]

in re harsh truths

I don't like getting involved in this sort of stuff but this is also really getting on my last nerves.

There is only one group of supporters who have a documented history of:

impersonating individuals, whether it be on a social media platform, on the hellsite known as the L-Chat, or just outright catfishing (???)

harassing players who leave the club

stalking players on social media

stalking and harassing the family members of a player, to the point of actually traveling to another country to do so

violating basic boundaries

inability to grasp human decency.

And I think we all know which group of supporters it is, and it's not Lyon.

Now I get it, Arsenal fans have never grasped the concept of critical thinking before, so really to expect them to display any of it now is on me. I should have known better than for them to even suspect that just because invasive behavior is the norm for them, it might not be for supporters of other clubs.

I don't know why that Dutch troll whose name is (_____) and who works (__ _ __________) has a complete and utter meltdown every time Ellie Carpenter commits the crime of humanity that is breathing. I don't know she continuously promotes the narrative that Danielle van de Donk must have cheated, despite written evidence by their darling Beth Mead stating otherwise.

I also, for the life of me, do not understand why (_____) cares so much about players she so openly dislikes. It requires time and effort that could so easily be spent elsewhere. It's not that hard.

It's genuinely infuriating to me that Arsenal fans seem to think that because they exhibit so much invasive behavior it is seen as the norm amongst them, that they seem to think other supporters act the same way. When called out on it, there's immediate defensive behavior, and it turns into a "well, you have no fans!" competition of handbag throwing.

Like Jesus Christ guys. Look at some of the shit you Arsenal fans deem acceptable behavior. Ask yourselves why you seem to think impersonating people is something that should be given a pass. The truth is, you know what you're doing is wrong. But you don't want to pretend that you are alone in displaying this gross behavior and so you pretend to be other fans doing the same just to manipulate the reality that, well, people see Arsenal fans exactly for what they are.

Arsenal fans have the reputation they do for a reason. Maybe they can focus on trying to change that rather than harassing my club's players or impersonating people on social media platforms.

[simcardiac-arrested]

Mr. Cream Simcardiac-Arrested has recently made a number of fellow users very, very angry, including me. However, as anger serves no function in a successful rebuttal, I will simply state objectively that Miss Simcardiac-Arrested doesn’t perceive that anything is wrong with them. Consider this ask not as a monologue but rather as a joint effort between anon and mutual. Together we shall fight for what is right. Together we shall improve the living conditions of the most vulnerable in our society-the sick, the old, the disabled, the unemployed, and our youth—all of whose lives are made miserable by Mx. Cream Simcardiac-Arrested. And together we shall show principle, gumption, verve, and nerve. If you want a better opportunity to get a job, raise a family in a safe neighborhood, have a better chance at a good education, and lower the taxes on the money you earn, then I ask that you help me justify condemnation, constructive criticism, and ridicule of Mrs. Simcardiac-Arrested and its louche canards. Doing so will at least prove that he will do anything to prevent us from critiquing her doctrinaire magic-bullet explanations. Don’t magic-bullet explanations that aim to till the flagitious side of the nonrepresentationalism garden deserve—and in some sense, require—abundant critique and evaluation? That’s why I propose that we strike in self-defense a blow that will free this hellsite from the deleterious effects of Ms. Simcardiac-Arrested’s larcenous, querulous adages, mainly because we have a problem, and we need to solve it. I mean really solve it—not put a Band-Aid on it, not empty it in the Garbage Wastes, not look the other way. I propose we start by building a new understanding that can transport us to tomorrow as that will get people thinking about how far too many people look the other way when they see Mr. Simcardiac-Arrested impinging upon our dash. We need to be better than that. We can be better than that. And we can start by using evidence-based arguments when discussing issues with Mrs. Simcardiac-Arrested. Mr. Simcardiac-Arrested is able to argue only from emotionalism. They doesn’t argue from a logical, linear point of view. Hence, by taking on Mr. Simcardiac-Arrested at her false premises one can easily demonstrate that we find among narrow and uneducated minds the belief that his fraternity of otiose, cankered gadflies is a colony of heaven called to obey God by taking away our sense of community and leaving us morally adrift. This belief is due to a basic confusion that can be cleared up simply by stating that I correctly predicted that Miss Simcardiac-Arrested would shake belief in all existing institutions through the systematic perversion of both contemporary and historical facts. Alas, I didn’t think they’d do that so effectively—or so soon. All of this once again proves the old saying that there is no reason to fund a vast web of snitty, gruesome sectarians, temeritous, voluble vocabularians, and the most quixotic weirdos you’ll ever see and there is every reason not to. SENT.

thank you for this randomly generated anon complaint i will be putting it on my wall

[afniel]

I don't even look at DNIs farther than if you have one and I happen to see it, I probably just won't talk to you. Or I'll completely ignore it anyway because I may glance at it but I don't know most of the abbreviations in it, which is common.

But honestly most of the time I don't even check because what a fucking pain in the ass. I literally don't even do fandom shit so 99% of what I've seen is like, moon language for people who aren't me and seem to have lost all sense of perspective. (Yes yes I know why have I been on the Blue Fandom Hellsite for almost a decade if I don't fandom, shh. It's fine.)

And it's incredibly presumptuous. I'm not gonna go read sometimes blog to see if I'm allowed to reblog something funny. I'm definitely going to not reblog if it's got a hideous banner in the post, but it's nothing to do with what's on the banner and more the fact that it's invariably hideous and amounts to "don't talk to me if I don't like you but you have to figure out if this applies to you" and like. Buddy. I'm not putting any more thought into this than "hehe I click button on post." Maybe you should try also not caring, it's great.

It's literally just performative bullshit. There's that really good post going around about reasonable boundaries being "if you do X, I'll do Y" and not "you can't do X" type statements. "If you're an asshole at me, I'll block you" is reasonable. "You can't talk to me if you're an asshole" isn't. That just isn't how boundaries work. It's not an order you give to other people, because you do not get to order other people around. It's a defensive reaction you exercise as needed. DNIs as they're being done now are literally toxic behavior.

oh hey, someone put that thing i was mad about yesterday into words!

[herleaf]

RULES AND ABOUT

ABOUT THE MUN: First thing's first, let me introduce myself. My name is Shannon and I have been roleplaying on this hellsite since 2011. I've been through many blogs, one such including a Clara Oswald that I made after Rings of Akhatan aired on television. Only recently did I decide to raise back the mantle as I missed writing on tumblr and was watching the new Doctor Who and realized how much I missed writing in the fandom and writing as Clara specifically, so here I am. I am 28 and I use she/her/hers pronouns.

RULES, PROPER.

CANON COMPLIANT?: I write Clara as multiple things, being both in canon and out. I want to write Clara in multiple universes, so I welcome crossovers, be them having Clara visit your world or you being put with the Doctor! The TARDIS is great for being a bridge between worlds, and thankfully we have many TARDIS here.

REPLY TIMES: I am a full-time worker who is also acting in my free time. I am auditioning and filming on multiple sets in my free time and paid time off. I also am married and am trying to be better at having a social life outside of the internet so please do not expect fast replies. I am bad at either writing things super fast and hitting reply immediately, or I am trying to make a mold of my body on the couch and don't want to move. I try to queue things so there is that but I like replying to things and getting more things up.

SPEAKING OF WRITING, I am very bad at writing small things. Apparently I held back from writing for so long that whenever I begin a reply my brain decides I need to have at least 500 words minimum with no double spaces. Please never feel like you need to match length. I use small text and icons and do not care how you write or what your style is. If anything is hard for you to read on my page please let me know and I'll do my best to change things for our replies, but my default is small text, long replies, and icons that keep moving down my writing because where is Clara emoting the specific icon? It's a very detailed process.

SHIPPING: So, you know the joke about characters being boiled down to seeming like they're constant flirts? Like, you need to spritz them with water like a cat who is doing something bad? Yeah, that's not really what it is like here. Clara is a flirt always but, depending on verse and timeline wise, she might be more subdued about it. Flirting can be a coping mechanism and a defense, especially if it is post Danny. I feel like Clara absolutely uses flirting and romantic encounters as ways to numb the pain and to get information that is needed. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I AM FORCING A SHIP. Please note, over everything, I ship chemistry. If it so happens I have chemistry with a lot of writers, so be it, but I want it to be natural. Shipping doesn't have to mean romantic, it can be any number of relationship type things. Give Clara platonic friends, one-sided romances, etc. I just want to write and expand Clara's universe.

SPEAKING IF SHIPPING, WHAT ABOUT SMUT: I don’t write it. I don’t judge people who do but I have never been good at writing it and it makes me uncomfortable so for my own personal reasons I have decided that I will not write it. I will write what leads up to it and am happy doing fade to black and then picking up the next morning. Thank you for understanding and if anything, I’m happy talking over IM or something to decide if le hanky panky was like… good or not? So I can have the character act accordingly? Because it’s not great and mind blowing every time and I like discussing because maybe that’ll affect our story but also maybe not.

This blog is selective, but not fully mutuals only. If there is anything I missed, I will add it here.

Thank you for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 329

The Rupture

Guess who couldn’t find and wasn’t going to put a lot of effort into finding her Blu-ray player remote. This girl!

“The Rupture”

Plot Description: with their defenses crumbling, Sam, Dean, Castiel, and Rowena take bold steps to send the spirits back to hell—but their efforts come at a high price

(See? Effort comes at a price, and I wasn’t willing to pay it to, what, watch Sherlock??)

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: no one died but Rowena is convinced they all will

I can’t believe we’re still doing this. This town hasn’t been saved? It’s been two episodes and we’re in the third…younger Sam and Dean would be so disappointed. I’m also getting bad vibes from the summary…I feel like one named character in it isn’t making it out of this episode alive, and Cas doesn’t get sent to superhell for another 15 episodes

Rowena’s really sure of her abilities, and that makes me so worried. She’s wearing a beautiful gown and she’s surrounded by the Winchesters, an angel, and a demon. What could go wrong?? <—so much sarcasm in that question

I LOATHE how pathetic they’ve made my girl ever since she came back from the last time Lucifer killed her. She’s no longer the vibrant yet heartless witch who was constantly conning the king of hell. Now, her magic only works sometimes and she just feels hopeless all the time

Man, I do kind of wonder what I’d feel about Chuck on a rewatch now. I never got this far, never even made it to the god reveal

Dean’s the only one trying to actually do something

I can’t believe they’re bringing back talking about Lilith. How many times will I say that this season? It’s a nostalgia tour within this grander nostalgia tour

I LIKE Belphegor but I still don’t trust him

This isn’t a good plan, but it does seem to be the only one they’ve got

We’re checking in on Ketch in the hospital when there are more interesting — I take it back, the hot demon who hates Belphegor is here.

Bye Ketch. There’s no coming back from getting your heart ripped out of your chest, right? I don’t think he got the same spell Rowena used to keep herself alive

When did Dean read [fandom redacted]?? Especially to know the name of the owl that dies in said series

Man, I wish gojo had said some shit like that to sukuna about taking HIS son’s form and wearing it like a jacket (maybe he did, I’m not at all caught up on jjk)

We’re gonna get—nope, we are NOT gonna get Cas singing in enochian :/

What’s their beef? Is it just a power struggle between these two demons? Guess we’ll never know what she wanted but Belphegor wanted to do more than rule hell, he wanted to become the next god. I knew not to trust him, but man, he’s a fun villain at least. It’s been some time since we had that

JESUS, CASTIEL. You burned Belphegor to a fucking crisp LITERALLY

The real Rowena would NEVER have sacrificed herself like this. She was always self-serving. She didn’t need to change 😭

I should be sad but I’m just angry about this

The juxtaposition of this scene between her and Sam with what’s going on between Dean and Cas would be interesting if I weren’t so put off by Rowena sacrificing herself yet saying she doesn’t care about any of them.

Fuck this show.

Ah, back in the bunker. At least we’re out of that town, I guess

Why are we so worked up about Ketch dying? We didn’t like him, guys.

Ah, fuck you, Dean. You weren’t there. You weren’t with Cas in Hell. You didn’t see him have to burn the body of the kid who was like a son to him all by himself.

Oh Castiel, you shouldn’t be alone, sweetie. I get it. I really really do, but don’t do this 😭

Guess who found the remote immediately after finishing the episode. THIS GIRL

[philosophicalparadox]

It's been said before - many many many times on this hellsite - YOU can only control what YOU do on here. YOU have every right to block someone for any reason or no reason. That is within YOUR control and YOU have a right to exercise it.

What you DO NOT have a right to do is come into MY BLOG / INBOX and tell ME what I can not do ON MY OWN BLOG.

Look, if someone wants to block me or anyone else for the content or tone of their blog, fine. That's their prerogative. I don't have a issue with that. I've blocked people that show up through my mutuals that have content I would rather not see. (Which is a very small list but it exists) I get that. That's fine. They're just controlling their online experience.

But trying to control other users content is flagrantly abusive. It is being a bully. It is being a compltete dickwad. An asshole. A jerk.

The IRONY is that 99% of these umbrella-termed Anti's claim to be doing this in their own self defense. But that is not how defense works. Attacking other people doesn't protect you, it just starts needless shitty drama that I don't want to be a part of. That no one really wants to be a part of except the narcissists that start this crap and then use the drama THEY CREATED to cry victim. For brownie points.

Anyway my point is that I will not engage. I've played those games waaaaay too many times out of ignorance. The best defense is simply to ignore them. They're like toddlers getting into trouble and throwing fits because they want attention. Aggressive, abusive Antis are exactly the same. Stop, Block and move on.

That being said, I WILL file these interactions under Harrassment and report them accordingly, BECAUSE THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT IT IS.

And even if you just want to block them, I think it's a good idea to report harrassment on these people anyway, because if enough people being bothered by the same person do, there might eventually be some resolution.

To Cap: Block with no mercy, report bullies as Harassment, and DONT FEED THE TROLLS (or Narcs). I do not know where they keep coming from, but they're certainly not welcome around here.

[caparrucia]

You're way more charitable than I am, though I fundamentally do not disagree with your analysis of why people do this.

But my general (uncharitable) take is that tumblr has taught people how to sound authoritative, and that sounding authoritative comes with really neat perks in this clout-based ecosystem (oh, tumblr users like to thumb their nose at twitter as a clout chasing hellscape but I'd like to remind everyone that at least on twitter most clout chasers are doing it with their legal name attached, here we just pretend to have HIV for fandom brownie points, and some other quaint totally non-clout-chasing behaviors).

To wit, I vividly remember a rather popular, well-known user in this hellsite going down a rabbit hole of investigating soy sauce under the pretense of doing A Journalism about it, and then getting lambasted to hell and back because it Wasn't, Actually, A Journalism, it was intellectual curiosity and a private individual's navel gazing and why are you all so mad at me, I was just liveblogging my research using a journalistic tone and not correcting people when they pointed out that's what I was doing and what do you mean that leads people to believe I'm speaking facts and not speculation?

And to be clear, I do not think this person was doing it on purpose. That's why I'm not naming them. I'm not trying to start a(nother) round of dogpiling and harassment, which someone with that many followers is more than likely to attract because this is tumblr, home of the "acceptable target means no amount of harassment is overblown, regardless of what the original offense was." I don't think they were being malicious. They were literally just sharing their research as they found it, but they shared it in the Tumblr Voice, and the Tumblr Voice is inherently authoritative.

People like to say text doesn't carry tone, but I'm pretty sure in the last twenty years, netizens have created various registers and tones to convey information. And sounding authoritative gives you clout. People will follow you and treat you like you're the fucking news, if you adopt a certain style. Because this is the piss on the poor website and no one bothers to doublecheck before reblogging. No one fact checks sources before parroting assertions and disseminating misinformation.

At some point, actively, consciously lying is indistinguishable from genuinely believing something untrue while still widely distributing it. And I think that's what the OP of the tags you're replying to is missing: speculation is a private thing. Conjecture. Wild guessing. Those are things you do in private, to yourself or to your friends, but without exposing you to larger public circles to critique. Because you don't know enough to know if you're right, by definition, and therefore you're risking being wrong. You lose that defense when you post into a public space - for the umpteenth time, yes, social media is a public space, yes, even here in tumblr dot com - because now you're making an assertion. You're asserting your speculation, even if you don't have any strong backing for it. That's even worse, really, than outright lying. That's just being irresponsible.

Tags' OP seems to be determined to look at that behavior favorably, but the point is there's no difference, as far as misinformation spread. And given how bombastic and attention-grabbing that post was? Yeah, that's shitty fucking behavior.

I saw these tags on my post about Mangione, and I thought they were really interesting, and want to talk about them:

(not tagging the poster b/c I don't know if they want the attention)

I obviously disagree with them about the OP of that post intentionally lying, but I do think they are describing a real and common path that many people fall down. I seriously considered whether I thought the OP of that post fell into this category, until I gathered sufficient evidence to convince me that they were lying. (Also to be clear - it's fine that the tagger disagrees with me. People can look at the same evidence and come to different conclusions.)

But these tags made me think: under what circumstances is it accurate and useful to describe as lying the act of repeating speculation as truth?

Because I think in scenarios like the original posts about Mangione I was responding to, it could arguably still be accurate and useful to say that OP was lying.

Because when we are talking about intentional deception in the spreading of misinformation, there are two layers. The first layer is the facts themselves. The tagger is arguing that the OP of the Mangione post may have honestly believed the false information they posted was true. And I disagree on that point, but I also think there is a second layer of the lie. Because the OP was presenting themselves as a reliable source of information, as someone who had facts underlying their assertions.

To take this away from social media for a moment, consider the following example: As a 6 year old in Ms. B's classroom, I hear another student speculate that, 'because it's such a nice day, I bet Ms. B will let us leave lunch and go right to recess!' And I take what they say as truth, get really excited, and tell all my classmates, 'Ms. B said we can leave lunch and go right to recess!'

And then the whole class gets in trouble for leaving lunch and going right to recess without permission.

Now, this is a pretty understandable misunderstanding, especially for a six year old. But i would still get in trouble, and all of my classmates would rightly feel lied to, because I pretended I had a source I did not have - I deceived them by leading them to believe I had heard Ms. B say we could leave lunch. The fact that I really believed she was going to let us do that is almost irrelevant.

And I expect people, by the time they are old enough to share information on social media - especially when they are sharing information presented as news, as facts that inform our understanding of the world in important ways - to understand that it's not okay to pretend that you authoritatively know something and remove the context of your (much less authoritative) source. Even if you genuinely believe the underlying facts you tell other people.

It's why I didn't call all the people in the comments misreporting the holding of Vega liars. I think they were wrong - dangerously wrong - but I think there is something fundamentally different in saying, 'Update! SCOTUS confirms you no longer have to be read your Miranda rights!' vs, 'I think SCOTUS said you don't need to be read your Miranda rights anymore and why I think that.'

Because I don't think we get to have it both ways. On the one hand, we cut people slack for repeating and sharing misinformation, because people (unfortunately but understandably) trust what they see in their social media feed. But if we do that, I think we need to also hold people responsible for the fact that when we put stuff in our own feeds - especially when we originate a claim on a new platform, or in a way that divorces the claim from its sources - other people are going to believe us.

And I feel like, in many circumstances, it will be worth highlighting the deliberateness of that act. Because people are making deliberate choices that make misinformation work. And maybe they are making those choices because we are socialized to seeing that choice as reasonable, the default even. But I question whether we change things for the better if we are not willing to point out that this is a deliberate choice (and we can change and better different, better, choices).

But I also don't think there is one single right answer. (And I absolutely have no expertise in reliable methods of fighting misinformation.) I think it's an interesting question, and may depend a lot on how you define lies, and the utility you think calling something a lie has. I am genuinely interested in other people's thoughts on this. :)

[pagesfromthevoid]

I feel like you’ve had a long week

False God | m.m. | 11

Matt Murdock x Avenger!reader

Word Count: 3.0k

Warnings: Language. Violence. Death of a character

Author’s Note: It really has been yet here we are. I have a three day weekend and part 11, just for you. I’m sorry for the confusion and mess from last night. Tumblr is a hellsite but I’ll never leave. Codependency ftw

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“You know,” she called out as she ducked down, avoiding a swift swing from Pelegrín’s bat. Her leg shot out as she dropped, slamming into his ankle and throwing him off balance. “When I said I wanted to go on a real date, this isn’t what I meant.”

Matt was preoccupied with another HYDRA goon, picking him up and slamming him into the ground. “This isn’t romantic to you?”

“I was thinking roses and wine,” she countered, snatching the bat and swinging it into Pelegrín’s head as he tried to get up. “Maybe flowers. A nice dress and a suit.”

“I’ll keep that in mind for Valentine’s Day.”

Another HYDRA agent charged at him and threw him off balance. Matt tried to grapple with him, this one being slightly stronger than the last. Noticing this, she ran over and grabbed the man from behind, arms wrapped around his neck. The tasers on her wrists sparked up, filling the air with electricity that Matt could feel was stronger than an average self defense tool. The agent was down, with her standing up straight. She huffed some, catching her breath.

“So they definitely know we’re here —“

“What made it obvious?” He cut her off, but there was a grin on his face.

She rolled her eyes. “Well? What now? We can’t wait; they’re going to get away.”

“They’re not going to get away,” he promised, making his way to the opposite side of the building.

She followed at his heels, listening in on what he heard. Fisk and Crown were both exiting the party, surrounded by armed guards. She peered over the edge of the roof, watching with narrowed eyes as they got into separate vehicles.

“Let’s split up. I’ll go after Crown —“

“Absolutely not.” He quickly warned, turning to her and grabbing her arm to keep her in place. She looked up at him, frowning deeply. “We do this together or not at all. You understand me?”

“Matt —“

“Stop arguing or go home.”

She stared up at the mask that covered his eyes, unable to get a read on what he was feeling. His mind was racing, determining each coming step with or without her. What move he’d make if she wasn’t there. They worked well together in the last few minutes, taking down the HYDRA agents without too much blood spilled (theirs, at least). She wasn’t about to go home now.

“Fine,” she finally caved. “What are we gonna do then?”

“I’ll deal with Fisk later; we’ll follow Crown tonight.”

She looked back over the rooftop, watching the SUVs drive off and away from one another. Deep down, she knew that Matt wanted to go after Fisk. That the kingpin was the real target for him. But he was choosing Crown for her sake; for her revenge.

“Let me catch up, I want to make sure Pepper is okay,” she finally said. Matt hesitated, but his attention was still on Crown’s car as it got further away. Unable to focus on her heart beat faltering in her lie. “It’s fine. I promise.”

Nothing else needed to be said as Matt took off. She stood behind for a moment, watching him go. He was doing this for her. She supposed it was time to do something for him.

When he was far enough away, she took off after Fisk’s car. Matt might not want to be a killer, but she never said she wasn’t.

She fully intended to show the bastard how far she was really willing to go for Matt Murdock.

*****

By the time Matt realized she wasn’t coming, it was too late. He was lurking in the shadows, watching as Crown and his men load several cases into a truck, orders to get whatever it was out of the city immediately. Matt couldn’t risk losing this opportunity to go chase her down; he’d have to deal with it later. Now, he had to deal with whatever this psychopath was handling.

Snatching one of the movers into the shadows with him, Matt knocked him out and moved on to the next. Picking them off piece by piece until it was just Crown, realizing he was found. Matt could hear the fear in his pulse; like a trapped, feral animal on its last leg. Matt emerged from the shadows, holding his batons in both hands. As Crown tried to get into the van to take off, but he screamed out when one of the batons bashed into the window and shattered it.

“I think you and I need to officially meet, Crown,” Matt growled practically, stepping towards the doctor slowly. Dangerously.

“I-I haven’t done anything —“

��You didn’t hire a fake therapist to manipulate a retired Avenger? Then have that therapist killed? You didn’t attempt to kidnap that same Avenger?” Matt’s fists clenched at his sides, one gripping his other baton tight. “Because that seems like you did quite a bit.”

“You wouldn’t understand; she’s a fiend herself. You saw what happened in Germany,” Crown argued, putting his hands up. “It was Fisk, anyway! He wanted her to help him! She’d make such an essential tool —“

Matt’s fist suddenly hit the side of the van as he punched it, right next to the scientist’s head. “She is a person.” He snapped, grabbing the man by the collar of his shirt and hoisting him into the air. “What does Fisk want with her?”

Crown started to panic, fighting against Matt’s grip but he wasn’t strong enough. The pleading and bargaining started now. “She has such unique abilities! He wanted me to recreate them but I lost my records! With her blood, I could test it and remake it!”

Matt threw him to the ground, pointing the baton at him. “You touch her, and you will answer to me.”

“She’s an Avenger. Why is she sending you to fight her battles?” Crown sneered, but his resolve was too far broken to be anything more than a pathetic man. “You have no idea who you’re —“

A gun cocked from a rooftop suddenly. A new heartbeat was heard, and the smell of blood lingered in the air. Before Matt could fully process what was happening, though, a gunshot rang out and struck Crown through the skull. Matt practically fell back, shock and confusion flooding his senses as the gunman took off.

Crown was dead. Very dead; the copper tinged air was so much stronger now as the blood was splattered against the truck.

*****

On the other side of town, Fisk was meeting with Madam Gao in a warehouse, with James Wesley close behind. She sat in the rafters, staring down at the three criminals with disdain and annoyance, waiting for her move. Their thoughts were easily controlled, unable to see her as she’d erased her presence from the room.

She wasn’t a violent woman. Not necessarily, at least. She did what she had to get her target. It’s what SHIELD taught her; what Natasha had taught her. But she was very different from her vigilante boyfriend. Where he drew the line, she was willing to cross it.

Maybe this was the worst decision she could have made. Maybe this was a stupid way to give back to the good things Matt had given her.

But she was elbow deep in his rib cage the other night because of this man. And if there was a God, he’d forgive her for what she was going to do to this monster below her. Matt would forgive her too; he’d have to.

Wesley stepped aside for a moment, taking a call. It was short. To the point. When he returned, she could see he was in minor distress.

“Crown is dead,” he said, addressing both crime lords.

It felt like her heart stopped for a moment. Their thoughts faltered in response, returning to normal.

Crown was dead. Did Matt actually do it? Did he go through with it, after spending so long refusing to cross that line? The thought of him being a killer for her suddenly overwhelmed her with fear; she had killed before. Willingly or unwillingly, she was already a killer. Matt wasn’t. Matt was good; devout.

He wasn’t a killer.

But she was about to add another name to her growing list.

“Was it our friend in the mask? Or the Avenger?” Fisk demanded, looking at his assistant with a weary expression.

“A single gunshot wound to the head; it could have been either of them. Or anyone else, for that matter. Crown had many enemies.”

Fisk nodded, looking back down at Gao, who seemed disinterested in the whole ordeal. The woman murmured something in Chinese, looking around the empty warehouse. It was hard to make out, since she didn’t speak the language herself. Then, in clean English, she stated:

“We are being watching, Wilson.”

Standing up straight in the rafters, she peered down at the three of them as they followed Gao’s gaze to her. Wesley drew his gun but Fisk put his hand out, a warning to lower the weapon. Gao watched curiously as his lap dog obeyed. Fisk stepped forward, as if he were diplomatic and willing to bargain.

She wasn’t.

“I was hoping we would meet under better circumstances,” Fisk announced into the darkness that surrounded her. “Wesley, escort Madam Gao out, please.”

“I can’t imagine meeting you any other way,” she admitted, arms crossing over her chest. She didn’t want either of them; she wanted Fisk. “An empty warehouse seems to be your favorite place to hide.”

Fisk let out a chuckle. And for a moment, she truly thought it was sincere. “You’ll have to understand why we hold our meetings in such places.”

“I don’t have to understand anything you do,” she countered, clicking the buttons at her wrists. The tasers sparked up; the only light in the dark space. It illuminated her figure in a blue glow; flickering ominously as she watched him. “You hurt someone very important to me. You’ve hurt so many people that are important to me. It’s time for you to be hurt too.”

Fisk looked around, motioning to the empty space. “Who did I hurt that matters to you? The lawyer, what was his name? Murdock? I don’t believe I’ve touched him. I’ve only met him once before.”

“No, you’re right. You didn’t hurt him,” she admitted, raising her hands up. Hiding his identity was the key to this conversation. “You hurt my friend, though. You’ve certainly met him. He hits hard. But I hit harder.”

Before Fisk could respond, she launched herself into the air, hands outstretched to grab him. When her nails met his skin, he screamed out, grabbing her. The electricity from her tasers was doing nothing, barely even affecting him, as she dug her nails into his skin on his face. He tried grabbing her, but she wrapped her legs around his neck, tightening around him as she began to punch and claw her way at him.

“I’m going to do what the Devil of Hell’s Kitchen can’t,” she swore at him as Fisk gripped her calves and started to yank her away from him, prying her away from his windpipe. “I’m going to fucking end you.”

Fisk finally got a good hold on her legs and pulled her off him. She yelled out as he threw her to the ground. Matt had said Fisk was strong; but she was stronger. She had to be. While he had thrown her, she’d landed on her feet, sliding her heels against the floor. Fisk was clearly done playing the sophisticated role as he charged at her, but instead of avoiding him, she ran straight to him.

The two collided with a rather painful crash, with her throwing all her weight at him as hard as she could. He was surprised; she was far more willing to die than he anticipated. However, it didn’t matter as he grabbed her by the throat and held her in the air.

“You stupid,” she hissed, beginning to attack again. A hit to the right side of his face. “Arrogant,” another to his jaw. “Pathetic excuse,” one more to the left side of his face. “Of a fucking man!” She beat him with her fists as hard as she could but even with the blood she was drawing, he seemed unphased.

“You could have lived your life with ease, but vigilantism just doesn’t leave your system, does it?” He demanded, hand crushing her windpipe like she had and tried to fight him. Her hands clawed as his, tasers sparking but not doing anything. “Heroes —you think you know what’s best but you never do. Your friend in the mask should have known better too.”

With the weight she had left, she swung herself and kicked Fisk full force with the heels of her boots, forcing him to drop her. The oxygen was quick to the return, though she needed a moment to recoup from his attack. Glass shattered around them suddenly, and she looked up at Matt ran through, his batons slicing through the air and hitting Fisk in the ribs.

“Are you out of your goddamn mind?” He demanded as she charged Fisk once again, the other man thrown off by both their attacks.

She didn’t respond to Matt’s question as she roundhouse kicked Fisk in the face. However, he grabbed her by the ankle and pulled her down, slamming her head into the concrete. Fisk grabbed her by her hair, yanking her back up, and released a barrage of punches into her face. It was Matt’s turn to attack, tackling Fisk as the bastard attempted to crush her under his hits. Matt took the brunt of his attacks now, being thrown off as she fell back into the ground.

Police sirens rang around them as Fisk pulled away from Matt, his fists bloodied once more from beating him senseless. He threw Matt to the ground and wiped his hands carefully with his handkerchief. With the police coming, Fisk sauntered away from the scene, leaving the two masked heroes gasping in pain.

Matt was the first to get up, hearing the police approaching. He stood, ignoring the ache in his bones, and hurried to pick her up, carrying her in his arms. Her pulse was slow and her breathing shallow; there was absolutely a concussion that was going to effect her as he carried her out of the warehouse and back home.

*****

She woke with an abrupt start, pushing herself up out of the bed quickly. The pounding in her skull was overwhelming as she suddenly got dizzy, unable to sit up straight so quickly. Matt had been laying in the bed beside her, keeping track of her heart rate and breathing. Much like how Matt came home the other night, she was in a daze of missing memories and anger.

Pressing a hand to her forehead, trying to alleviate any pressure, she looked up at him. His face was empty of emotion, though she knew he was angry. He had every right to be.

“I’m sorry,” was all she could really muster up to say, hand pressing into her eye now to get rid of the headache.

“You went after Fisk, even after I explicitly told you not to.”

“I did.”

“You lied to me.”

“I did.”

“He almost killed you.”

“He didn’t.”

There was a long, tense silence as they both considered what happened tonight. What they had done; well, what she had done.

“Did you kill Crown?” She asked, squinting to see him.

Matt shook his head, taking a deep breath and letting it out in frustration. “No. Someone else did.”

“Remind me to thank them.”

“We agreed on no killing —“

“You agreed to that,” she quickly corrected, dropping her hands to the sheets. “I never did. Not with this. Crown tortured me for years. Fisk keeps almost killing you. They both deserve to die. Crown got what was coming to him. Fisk will too.”

Matt stared at her blankly, throating bobbing as he swallowed down his argument. He wasn’t able to formulate one; not one that wouldn’t end up hurting them both even more, anyway. He understood that need she had; the want for revenge. He had it himself. That incessant itch to cross the line and blur that boundary between hero and anti-hero.

But neither of them needed to do that to succeed; to stop Fisk. Whoever killed Crown tonight was a new problem to handle later on.

“I want you to come with me to church tomorrow,” he finally said, taking her hands. Her knuckles were swollen and bruised; he could smell the blood under her nails and skin.

She watched as he ran his fingers over hers, frowning. “I don’t think that will help me like it helps you, Matt.”

“But it’ll help me if you go.”

Another pause before she nodded, reaching up to touch his cheek lightly. “Anything to help you, then.”

Anything indeed.

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An Honest Guide to Tumblr for Twitter Refugees (Part 0)

So I had posted Part 1 first, covering basic technical aspects like configuring your Tumblr settings and customizing your Tumblr. And while I was writing my draft for Part 2, I realized that all these “How to use Tumblr” guides are pretty much useless if you don’t even know what the heck Tumblr is and why you should even use it… Thus, I’m just gonna go ahead and talk about that first.

So, what the heck is Tumblr?

I’ve mentioned this in Part 1: Tumblr is a blogging platform. The name “tumblr” comes from the word “tumblelog.” But this definition is just putting things simply.

I’d like to define Tumblr as your own personal corner in the internet. What it really is depends on how you use it. This blog where I’m posting this guide is a blog I use for the multiple fandoms I’m in. Here, I talk about the latest anime episodes, reblog gifs, and sometimes post theories and analyses. My dashboard, then, is full of users who are in the same fandoms as me, and the posts I see most often are those about anime and manga.

Fandom is just one Tumblr use-case. You can customize your Tumblr experience to however you want it to be.

If you’re a writer, you can join the writeblr community and post about your WIPs. You can also follow other writers and talk about their WIPs.

If you’re an artist, you can check out the #artists on tumblr tag and see what other artists are making.

If you’re a developer, you can try making your own Tumblr themes and even join coding challenges.

If you like science stuff, check out the #science side of tumblr.

And if you want to wax poetic about your latest hyperfixation, you can start an fyeah blog. You can go as wild as you want, and people won’t cringe and call you weird for it.

Great! So now I can start posting and joining the x/y/z communities on Tumblr, right?

Not yet. I mean, you can, of course; there’s no hard rule for it. But I advise against jumping right into things.

Someone posted about this before, but I couldn't find that post anymore, so I'll just say it again: Before starting anything here on Tumblr, it's best you spend a few days just lurking around.

Don't make an intro post, don't rush to advertise your blog, and don't start begging for followers yet (the number of followers don’t even matter here). Just lurk. Observe. See how the veteran Tumblr users are doing things and learn from them.

This has been said many times before, but please leave your Twitter habits out the door. Tumblr culture and etiquette is not something you can learn overnight, so it’s wise to just watch first.

Familiarize yourself with the Tumblr terminology. Like, what does “meta” mean? What are ask/tag games? What does it mean when a user says they’re “tracking tags”? There are many other terms, and although it’s not necessary to learn them, you’ll enjoy Tumblr more if you know what they are.

Oh, by the way, it’s called reblog, not retweet. God forbid you call them retweets. And no, adding content to a reblog is not the same as quote tweeting. (I’ll talk more about this in Part 2 or 3 of this guide.)

Why should I listen to you? I’m gonna treat this place like Twitter, fuck you

You don’t have to listen to me at all. But I’m telling you, if you treat this place like Twitter, you’re just inviting hate and ridicule upon yourself. As much as Tumblr users like to call this place hellsite and complain about how it’s always broken, we are oddly very defensive of it. We do not want it to become a Twitter 2.0.

Is Tumblr right for me?

As long as you’re not a brand always trying to sell us stuff or a celebrity only using the platform to promote their show/album/movie, then yes, you are welcome here.

To enjoy Tumblr, you have to treat it like a place where you just hang out and have fun and not just another platform to get sales or followers or to chase clout. That just doesn’t work here. There’s a reason why @/neil-gaiman is Tumblr’s most beloved celebrity, and that’s because he understands this.

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can you plz infodump about your ocs?? so new people to your blog can understand them

Hey, anon? I hope you know that this ask is the best one I’ve gotten in all my 3 1/2 years on this hellsite, so thank you!! You really don’t need to know about my OCs to follow this blog cause a) I post once in a blue moon nowadays, and b) it’s rarely about my OCs, BUT SINCE YOU ASKED-

K, so, my main OCs are Suiren and Midori, sisters who just so happen to be Ghazan and Ming-Hua’s daughters. They were 7 and 4 respectively when their parents were imprisoned for trying to kidnap Korra, which led to them being placed in the ‘care’ of Ghazan’s older sister, Haya. What happens to them after that? Well, you’d have to be more specific, since I have about a trillion different AUs featuring them. The two most important ones (aka the ones written down) are:

1. Seeds of the Red Lotus. The very first fic I wrote about them, which I... haven’t updated in two years. It currently stands at 5 chapters BUT I am in the process of rewriting and continuing it. The basic concept is that the girls grow up in utter misery under Haya’s iron fist, and in a desperate attempt to get enough money to leave and live a happy, comfortable life somewhere else, Suiren becomes an assassin at the bright old age of 17. Fast forward 6 years, and Team Avatar, unable to take down the Earth Empire on their own, hire her to kill Kuvira

2. Under the Oak’s Shade. A rather self indulgent AU written as a form of catharsis and spiritual healing. Six months into living with Haya, the girls are taken in by Zhi, a cranky lesbian with a bad sense of direction/P’Li’s firebending teacher from the Red Lotus/my friend @katkastrofa‘s OC from her fic Lost and Found (which, unlike the multichaps I write, is complete and you should go read it immediately). Once I pull myself together to actually figure out how the next instalment in the series should go, this will, most likely, eventually become a Red Lotus Korra AU, which I’m definitely looking forward to writing.

Now that the basics are out of the way, let’s get to actual infodumping about my two precious cinnamon rolls. Most of this info is from SotRL-verse, as that is the main story I’ve got about them, so keep that in mind

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Suiren:

23 years old as of 174 AG. Master waterbender and deadly assassin. Cold, calculating and precise in everything she does, leaving no room for error. Takes no shit from anyone, is fiercely defensive and independent, and is the last person to ever accept any help or charity. Confident in her abilities and borderline cocky at times, a lot of which is a front. Extremely short tempered, nihilistic, cynical and high strung, not willing to let anyone get close enough to her to see her hidden vulnerabilities

She wasn’t always like this. A long time ago, back before she lost her parents, she was much, much softer, kinder and more gentle. Her parents called her their little water lily, and the nickname suited her well. However, P’Li’s nickname for her was ‘my little firecracker’, so she very much still had quite a temper even back then. Overall, she was a happy little girl with bright eyes and a mischievous smile who was determined to excel in her waterbending lessons. She was Ming-Hua’s pride and joy. 16 years of taking the brunt of Haya’s anger to shield her sister, as well as destroying the part of herself that wouldn’t let her mindlessly do the bidding of whoever paid her, changed her, perhaps irreversibly.

Her old life still haunts her, though. Genetics played a cruel joke on her – the silky black hair reaching below her waist, the angular features, the prominent cheekbones, the (relatively) short height – it all serves to make her see her mother every single time she glances in the mirror. Being just like her mother was something she once aspired to, but now follows her like a curse. Even the things she got from her dad, dark skin and golden brown eyes, don’t help, and just make her look like Haya, especially when she’s angry

There is another side to her that no one but Midori gets to see. She may not be as soft as sixteen years ago, but she is still capable of love and gentleness. She loves her sister more than anything else in life, has already killed and would die for her. She is very protective of Midori (though often to a fault). She hugs her tight and kisses her forehead and cheeks, quietly sings her (their mother’s) lullabies as she calms her down from a nightmare, heals any and all her wounds, tells her stories of their parents, always puts her first no matter how pained and exhausted she herself is... In short, Suiren took on the role of a self sacrificing parent a long time ago and has played it well

Suiren is a distinguished lesbian but can’t keep a partner longer than a few weeks. Girls fawn all over her, but once they see past the pretty face and confident demeanour and notice everything wrong with her, they run (which only serves to make Suiren’s abandonment issues worse). She has taken to sticking to one night stands when she needs an outlet for her frustrations, convinced she will never have, and isn’t deserving of, a long lasting, loving relationship

She struggles severely with her mental health, constantly plagued by what she has done. She tries to limit her sleep to avoid nightmares that she knows will come and represses all emotions except for anger as that is the safest to latch onto and channel into killing. She is almost always on edge and feels pressure mounting with every single day. Very prone to overstimulation when it comes to noise, light and people. The only times she ever relaxes (or, at least, pretends to) is when she’s alone with Midori or with Lotus, her pet sabertooth moose lion.

To sum up: the poor girl is a vessel for my trauma and deserves a 30 hour nap, a hug, a warm blanket, the whole world and her parents back

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Midori:

20 years old as of 174 AG. Earthbender, though not very good at it. She discovered her earthbending only a few months before losing her parents, and had no one to teach her since then. She is naturally kindhearted and hardworking, always trying to help out where she can and seem useful. Quiet and anxious, she prefers to stick to the background and draw as little attention to herself as possible (which is in fact a defence mechanism against Haya’s treatment of her but, y’know, let’s not get into that rn)

Sixteen years ago, Midori was a bright and happy little girl, wanting nothing more than for everyone around her to be happy as well. Always full of energy, she could talk and ramble for hours about anything that crossed her mind. Just as mischievous as her sister, she knew she was the baby of the family and could get away with anything, though to her credit, she didn’t abuse that much. Her parents called her their little Seedling, the youngest of them all so full of potential and eager to grow and make her parents proud. P’Li often called her a cuddlebug for her affectionate nature (am I stealing that from Kat’s fic bc it made me scream into my pillow for five minutes straight? Maybe. You can’t prove anything).

In present age, she’s a lot more similar to her childhood self than Suiren is. She doesn’t talk that much anymore, if at all, and her happiness is often clouded by the harsh world around her, but some of that cheerfulness still shines through, especially when she’s alone with Suiren or with Tenzin’s kids. The energy once used for rambling and chasing butterflies and racing with her sister is now almost always redirected into chores and housework, though if Suiren offered, she’d gladly race her again (and probably win tbh, her legs are longer and Renny prefers faster methods than running)

She doesn’t remember her parents well, and their faces have blurred beyond recognition in her mind. It’s why her appearance doesn’t affect her as much as Renny’s own does her. She’s not a carbon copy of either of her parents like Suiren is, she’s more of an even mix. She knows what Suiren had told her, that she has their mother’s eyes and their father’s nose, but can’t piece anything together in her head. She keeps her hair, as dark and silky as Suiren’s, though thicker, at shoulder length, a bit uneven in places as she cuts it herself. As a child, Ghazan would tie her hair into twin pigtails every morning and she never let anyone else do it. She hasn’t styled her hair in any way since she took those pigtails out before going to bed the night their parents left

A disaster bisexual, proven by the fact that out of all people in the world, she falls for Opal Beifong. You know, the step sister of the woman Midori’s sister has to kill (or die trying), and the daughter of the woman who killed Midori’s beloved auntie P’Li. Yeah, tough case. Anyway, turns out, there is a limited supply of Ghazan’s charm in his genetic code and it all got passed down to Renny, because ‘Dori herself turns into an awkward mess whenever the opportunity to flirt arises. It’s fine though, Opal still finds her adorable. Also she probably had a small crush on Bolin when they first met, but that was because he was one of the only people her age to be nice to her and she got over it quickly

Remember how I said she was quiet and anxious? Yeah, understatement of the century. Her anxiety follows her around throughout her day and is the driving force behind all of her decisions. Many things, from raised voices to passive aggressiveness to bad moods to unfinished housework, can trigger it. When it does, she clams up and curls in on herself, but tries her best to deescalate or rectify the situation. She’s also very sensitive to any kind of conflict, even when she’s not part of it. Midori also worries a lot for Suiren while she’s away on missions, as she knows she’ll completely fall apart if something were to happen to Renny. She has nightmares about it often, almost every night that Suiren is not there. Little does she know, Suiren has similar worries over losing her.

Another big thing is her major inferiority complex. She looks at her big sister and sees someone who has always been talented, powerful and capable. Someone who can do so many things without even breaking a sweat. Someone who has girls fawning all over her. And then ‘Dori looks at herself and sees none of those things. She doesn’t hate Suiren for it, not at all, but tiny inklings of disdain sometimes take form. She tries hard to ignore it, but often can do nothing but listen to those thoughts swirl around in her head.

In summary: An anxious mess of a girl who is in desperate need of a proper support system and someone (*cough* Opal *cough*) who could assure her that she is enough and that it doesn’t matter if she isn’t like her sister, she’s perfect just the way she is

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If you want me to elaborate on any of this (and this goes for everyone, not just anon) my askbox is always open and my desire to infodump about my precious traumatised babies never wavers