#I just need my mom to open the door.
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"don't count on the fucking woodsman- I'm sorry I cursed I'm sorry I cursed I'm sorry I cursed" OH YLFA MY BELOVED
#I just need my mom to open the door.#I'm gonna sob#'everything normal everything's back to normal everyone's happy'#oh ylfa sweetie#THE MONSTROUSNESS OF YOUNG WOMEN#d20#d20 neverafter#she huffed and puffed.......
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My family has such a special ability to stress me out so bad
#my mom had a minor foot surgery a weekish ago#shes fine but she cant drive herself#she asked me to take her to wallgreens#ok. my sister came for some reason. why ?? just to annoy me#my mom had to critique my driving#my sister is asking for coffee all covert like so as to not ask in front of me but is still obviously asking in front of me#they are talking so much its getting on my nerves. i said im gonna sit in the car for a minute before i go inside#my dad came out???#bc i texted him earlier that i wanted to watch dw#so he told me he's ready to watch it whenever i am#ok. why didnt he just text me#i opened the car door to talk to him#the fricking alarm went off#and i dropped the key under the seat#when i put the key in he was like you could've just turned it on you didn't need to start it#ok!!!!!!!!!#i want to scream!!!!!!!!!#and nothing even that bad happened!!!!!!!!#im still sitting in car . 🙂
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honestly, its so funny that i ended up moving back to florida right as hurricane season hits
as if i dont have enough trauma from this god forsaken state
#shut up airi#last year i got flung across my moms yard at like 4 am bc my dog desperately needed to go out lmao#i opened the door and the wind said hey bitch and just YEET#my dog was fine tho took a nice piss and trotted his way back inside with no problems#me on the other hand - missed a tree by like a centimeter#my brother and his gf were too busy laughing at me to help me it was a good time
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need to explode into a million little pieces rightright now
#need an hour with no people but i'm at home#i ruined my own life a little bit and i think i can't take ceramics next year#and i've been teary about it for an hour but i can't let any of the stress out in any way so it's just growing in me#and my dad wants me to make something for my mom in my room with the door closed#but my mom thinks i'm cleaning so she keeps telling me to open the door#i'm going to be sick#kindling
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#1st my sister was passive aggressive bc i was boiling pasta when she wanted to make her dinner#so she slammed stuff nd chopped veggies aggressively#nd i felt my heart rate spike nd my body go tense nd i always get clumsy nd drop things nd hurt myself when i get that way#but they think i deserve feeling awful bc of mistakes in the past so i cant ask them to stop#i've been walking around w lots of heavy things nd im barely keeping it together#nd i got so mad bc she wouldnt stop so i started slamming the cabinets nd then left when i was done#then my mom nd other sister got home nd i just wanted to ask my mom smth#when i open my door my other sister goes 'omfg already?'#'immediately when we get home i never get a break. it's almost disgusting'#i just got so.. i realized how pathetic nd childish i am so i just went into my room#but then apparently my sister said to mom that *i* was the only one being passive aggressive#so she comes in to talk when i was having my dinner so i said that i plz just wnna eat my dinner#she didnt know nd she's never cared but i wanted to hurt myself so badly i was struggling not to#but then she started screaming at me for being childish nd passive aggressive nd that i never do anything#she left my room. she still talks to my sisters so i know it's onlg me shes sick of#idk.. today is bad bc i cant talk to her nd i dont have ANYONE else to talk to im all alone#and now i barely even wanna go outside my room bc apparently my family thinks i wnna mess w them just for going to the bathroom lmao#i hate myself so much. im so pathetic. im 25yrs old living at home being a burden#nd im just a pathetic nd childish person. i 'need' to talk nd vent nd rant nd#like if i buy some things i have these need to like do a mini haul or if i get books from the library#i wnna show my mom what books i got#it's so childish. i do feel bad for my mom to have to deal w me nd my annoying personality#why cant i jusy be normal. no wonder why i can never keep friends or my family doesnt wnna talk to me. everything abt me fkn sucks#anyway im just feeling so bad and so alone bc my moms mad at me so now i have no one to talk to
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somehow these current roommates we have are the worst that ive known yet and last semester we literally had a girl who smoked cigs IN her bedroom. list of grievances below lol
#first of all they turn all the lights on all the time. the other day i was hanging out in the living room w one light on bc it was light#enough outside thru the windows and one of them walked in and flipped another light on automatically. then walked through#the living room right to her bedroom... girl youre not even using this room and i was clearly fine with the light level??#they always have all 3 kitchen lights on when they cook and dont turn them off plus none of them have lamps#they all use the Big LED Ceiling Light in their bedrooms which is baffling to us#they dont know how to organize the kitchen and they took up so many of the cabinets with bullshit. like 3 pans here a few plates there#we have like 4 cabinets worth of food and even more of pots and pans and shit bc this is everything we own#and we cant afford to use disposable everything like some of them do#theyre always leaving the fridge open while they cook too and i have to physically hold myself back from becoming my mom#and yelling at them to close the fridge when theyre not actively getting smth out of it!! like theyll stand there cooking and have it open#for 2 minutes straight#theres only room for one water filter pitcher in the fridge and one of them brought a big one which is nice but theyre always forgetting to#refill it which defeats the purpose of even having it#and they always somehow start cooking right when we decide we need to eat#one of them sent this long sort of condescending post abt ants and how it stresses him out when the kitchen is messy so we all need to clean#more and try harder to keep ants away as if 1) ants care at all abt dishes in the sink or stains on the stove and 2) as if the ants will#stop coming around if theres no food out in this building where there are notoriously always ants even on the 4th floor#(we are ground floor this time) and 3) as if he isn't one of the people leaving food around and not taking the trash out#nobody responded to it in the groupchat lmao bc he sounds like a fucking cop!! and is dating an rotc guy??? and also is a streamer or just#likes to play games on vc with friends bc hes always very loudly doing that#but obviously we have sex all the time so we're at a sort of loud noise stalemate where neither of us can complain abt the other#to be clear this is in no way the absolute worst situation theyre nice enough people and havent reported us for anything (they both work for#student housing -_-) and generally things go okay in the apartment#but like. ive never been this annoyed this often with any other roommates#ALSO someone spilled soy sauce all over our designated level of the fridge door where we had all our little bottles of stuff#but also a carton a Paper Carton of milk and a pack of butter standing upright which soaked up the soy sauce and for several days#even after id cleaned the bottom of the carton the best i could i swore it tasted like soy sauce from it soaking into the bottom or smth#but it's still all over everything in there bc it was so much it like. pooled in there and splattered on everything#like. u see that happen u clean it up wtf.??#anyway i just felt like i needed to complain and see if im being silly or if these things really are so annoying
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Thank god I just remembered I needed to charge my noise cancelling headphones 😰 cant imagine how bad tonight would be without em
I think I'm gonna put my earplugs in and my headphones over them bc I'm having a DAY with fucking unwanted noise today 😩
#marquilla#what reminded me was mom rummaging in the freezer and the sound was so skin crawling and LOUD bc it's 'fuck you autistic freaks! day!' today#and my noise threshold is now gone bc there has been one too many sounds already :(#also im just in a bad mood bc no adhd meds today (i have like 1 pill left... to last 7 days... i need a hannukah type miracle)#anyway FGM kept making announcements on the walkie like 30 til opening guys get those pallets off the floor. 10 til opening get the pallets.#3 min guys. okay doors are open. and by the time he said doors are open i was ready to hit the button on my walkie and scream NO ONE CARES#and lose my job so im having THAT kind of day
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#everything is just 10x harder than it needs to be#1st the paint was bad#so i bought new paint#repainted only it was way too hot/humid the day my mom picked to help me#so it was super difficult#then she insisted on cleaning the carpet#bc 'you won't be happy otherwise'#went over them like 3x with the machine & multiple products#completely saturating them & making them migraine-inducing#so i kept the door shut & windows open while i ran fans to dry it#only now it all stinks like wet dog & perfume#and my ac unit keeps fucking up#and it's really fucking hot & humid#and i could just cry#i've slept maybe 3hrs#and all this fucking room swap shit was supposed to be done before my stepdad got back#& it fucking won't be bc he shows up TOMORROW & my new bedroom smells like someone tried to put flowery deodorizer on a hot wet dog#i'm gonna fucking cry#i have no idea what to do#all i wanted to do was vacuum in there & move in#but no my mom just HAD to complicate it#and now I'M the one who's fucked
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god sometimes i wish the whole "you wouldn't say/do that to a physically disabled person" lie that certain mentally ill people say was true bc i fucking WISH i could use "I'm in a wheelchair" as a gotcha for people being ableist against me. unfortunately,
#so my psych that I'm dropping the SECOND i get a new (better) one#like that whole facility. they DO have telehealth/video appointments#but they fucking?????? make the PATIENT DRIVE TO THE BUILDING FOR THE APPOINTMENT#WHILE THE DOCTOR IS AT FUCKING HOME. WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO GO INTO HER OFFICE WHEN SHE'S NOT EVEN THERE?????#like it's actually fucking ridiculous AND they NEVER get interpreters when requested AND they ONLY allow to schedule by PHONE#like- my Deaf mother literally physically cannot communicate with them because they refuse to speak to a video phone interpreter#or let her talk to them in person or via email. it actually pisses me off so fucking much#and like. most doctors offices. if you're late they give you 15 minutes before they declare you a no show and cancel#that place gives FIVE MINUTES. i walked in SIX MINUTES LATE one day and BEGGED them to just let me do the appointment#and they still refused#so i was out of meds for like. two weeks. anyway#the last straw was the last TWO times i went i was in my wheelchair#and the doors. open inwards to the rooms#so they closed me in the room for the appointment#and i PHYSICALLY COULDN'T GET OUT because i COULDN'T OPEN THE DOOR because there wasn't enough wheelchair space#and i had to frantically text my mom to let me out and SHE GOT IN TROUBLE FOR IT when i was SOBBING#bc i had tried genuinely screaming at the top of my lungs for someone to let me out of the room but nobody fucking heard me#and the second time i told the nurse 'HEY I CAN'T GET OUT OF HERE WITH MY CHAIR' and she was like 'don't worry I'll come get you'#she never did. i had to get my mom again#not fucking going back there ever again they've only ever pissed me off more with every single interaction#oh also they only let you schedule new appointments after they SEND YOU A LETTER SAYING YOU CAN CALL TO SCHEDULE NOW#if you call before then they DON'T LET YOU#and they give literally fucking 3-5 day later appointments when I've requested SEVERAL times I NEED A TWO WEEK NOTICE FOR WORK#also they don't give a shit about cutting you off your medicine cold turkey and not refilling it until several requests later#fuck that place. i hope every good doctor there finds a better job and the building gets abandoned and crumbles to the ground.
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my mom always finds the exact time I'm taking my (very much allowed) early afternoon quick nap and then assumes I'm spending the whole day sleeping instead of working.
#wrenfea.exe#also its not like i have a ton of shit to do its the second day#im getting my stuff done so???#i cant set boundaries with her because she gets so fucking angry#i told everyone to leave me alone when im working and txt me if you need something#but my mom just randomly opens my door to check on me
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Remind me to at some point do something about that ficlet i have knocking around in my head where ulixes surprise-visits steban at his mom's place during semester break and steban gets extremely flustered about it
#posts by me#this would be early in their friendship#they met each other in the last semester and instantly clicked but it's all still new. uli hasn't even realized he has a crush yet#he's staying with his parents and they're distant and disinterested and he misses talking to his new friend#and hey steban did give him his family's address ''for emergencies'' and urgently needing to talk theory is an emergency!!#so he heads to villalobos. has the door opened by steban's mom. all very yes hello can my friend come out to play#he's led out back to a little community garden that some people in the apartment block manage together#steban's there helping out bc he's on break. he's in his oldest shittiest gardening clothes. there's dirt on his hands#and mud on his bare feet. uli looks at him in the sunlight and thinks ooohh. i am IN LOVE with you#then steban sees him and is like OH NO. he's not supposed to see me without my nice academic getup#now he'll think [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype]#and meanwhile uli's thinking wow he is the most beautiful being to ever exist i want to be communist lovers with him#cue uli sitting in the kitchen with lemonade while steban has a whispered argument with his mom outside#all ''muuuums why did you just let him IN HERE i'm not even properly DRESSED'' and his mom is all oh you want to impress the boy huh?#you want to look nice for the boy? 😏#and steban (blushing) is like i want the boy to take me SERIOUSLY as an ACADEMIC#like... this is firstie steban. he's still grappling with the whole 'poor kid in a college environment' thing#he hasn't yet learned to simply own it. he's probably trying to suppress his accent when he's on campus. and uli might even be middle class#(!!!)#and like he's not Ashamed of where he's from. his family's great. he... doesn't Hate being mesque. he's not sure yet how it all squares w#his brand-new communist beliefs. where he belongs and what he defines himself as#but he knows this: he does kinda want to impress ulixes. it just feels right to have him around#so he's just very very flustered and confused and trying to act nonchalant about it#steban's mom after fighting tooth and nail for it eventually gets uli to call her by her first name
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#(( ooc. ))#venting tw#negativity tw#in a prime example of damned if you do damned if you don't.... its been heavy snowing for the past couple days.#no one else has shoveled. neither our deck / sidewalk or our elderly neighbors.#i just did it. bc we got like 8 inches of the heavy wet stuff. it was bad enough i could barely push the front door open.#so i shoveled our deck and walk. and then i went over and shoveled our neighbor's. bc it needed to be done. its a safety risk otherwise.#and once i got back inside husband yelled at me 'WHAT THE ACTUAL SHIT? YOU SHOVELED??'#bc i strained my back a couple days ago. but nobody else was doing it. and it needed to get done.#and the passive aggressive remarks were starting up from mil about the amount of snow building up#so... to recap. i hurt. and i shoveled. bc no one else was going to.#and now husband is pissed at me for shoveling. even tho he wasnt going to. and his mom was getting pissed bc it wasnt getting done.#another prime example also of how im the one making everything work around here...
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me: *specifically checks the box on amazon to have my packages delivered NOT on Sunday because no one should be out delivering amazon packages on a Sunday OR New Year's Eve and tomorrow happens to be both*
amazon: okay but...
me: don't
amazon: what if we just...
me: don't you dare-
amazon: deliver it on Sunday anyway because we're morons losers a monopoly the absolute Worst Like That?
me: *screams*
#amazon#I hate them#I hardly ever order from them these days but I wanted to buy a book and support the author at least a LITTLE#if nothing else with a review#so I bought it from amazon and now this is happening#I'm not even going to BE AT MY HOUSE for most of tomorrow#because we're delivering a kitten and we'll be driving roughly 6 hours round trip!#amazon is the Worst#do not support them if you can help it they are AWFUL and they force postal workers (aka my mom)#to be at work at SIX IN THE MORNING (6am)#just so they can open the door to let the amazon driver into the post office WHY#I could go on about how awful they are but I need to go to bed#rant#monopolies
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i life is fucking falling apart out of nowhere and i dont know what to do sbout it
#im so so fucking tired and stressed and angry and upset and i cant do anything#my cat is hurt and in pain and we cant even get her to eat even though she hasnt eaten in days#but i dont know what to do about it when she refuses to eat#and weve spent over $600 on her medical care so far and we already dont have lots of money to waste#and its all our fault snd its all MY fault for letting her leave the house#but i cant DO anything about it because even now my mom leaves the doors and windows wide open for the cats to go out snd get themselves#killed because she just doesnt fucking care and i cant DO anything about it i cant keep them safe on my own#i dont even know if shes going yo survive this or if shes gonna have long lasting effects forever#and now my computer keeps bluescreening repeatedly and im not good enough with computers to know how to fix it#and im too fucking stupid to follow instructions and i dont know what to DO#and im scared my computer is gonna die for real and then whats gonna be of me#im spending so much money more money than i even have to pay for this computer#and its one of the only good things i have in my stupid fucking life right now and i cant do anything as i watch it bluescreen#im fucking scared and stressed and anxious and i cant fucking do this#whatever sorry. rant over i just needed to talk
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wailing wailing rent to smithereens How do people pack without wanting to fucking implode into a miserable pile of goop
#all it does is make me feel fucking stupid#and Frivolous#because it’s so easy for everyone around me and meanwhile i’m racking my brain trying to figure out which dress to chuck#and i don’t usually feel frivolous but also it’s hard not to when you’re almost in tears trying to decide between shirts#but also presentation is super important to me!!#so i can’t decide if i’m being stupid about this or not#and meanwhile all i get from family is ‘you need to pack less’#you think i don’t know that????#i’m trying but i don’t know how !!!#i just don’t know!!!!#and the sonboy keeps knocking my meds into the toilet#because i don’t know or remember that the door’s open#and he’s already ruined like a week’s worth of prescription medications!!!#and my mom keeps saying ‘well why doesn’t this make you remember to close the door/toilet’#hi i have multiple mental illnesses that fuck with my memory and habit forming#you think i Like this happening?? because i don’t!! i don’t !!!!!#brb weeping in a corner#idk what to do and i just feel so dumb#medic's log
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the world is evil and mean to me (couldnt sleep last night i pulled an all nighter hi myles)
this is so sad i hope this means youll sleep incredibly tonight ...... is this the day we fall asleep at a normal time..
#asks#i woke up just now. i wouldve woken up 2 hours ago but my mom opened my door at 9 am and it woke me up a littlw#and that meant i needed to sleep until 2 pm to make up for 20 seconds of lost sleep. obviously#the world IS evil and mean. im almost out of bagels
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