#I know it was taking up a lot of my time and energy but I didn’t realize how much it influenced the time I was not doing it as well

[pyrrhiccomedy]

If you have the time, I have a physics question that has been breaking my brain. What exactly is energy?

I've tried so hard to wrap my head around it but even all the engineering dads of youtube can't make me understand.

The thing with physics is that the simpler something is, the harder it is to put it into words. Energy is almost as simple as it gets. The textbook definition of energy is just "the capacity for something to move against a force," but that's not satisfying, because it's too simple. So let's try something else.

Think back to the Big Bang. What was the Big Bang made of?

Particles, right? Just a lot of particles. We didn't even have hydrogen yet, that would take about 400,000 years. In fact for the first few microseconds, we didn't even have protons and neutrons and electrons, we just had quarks and gluons. The stuff of the Big Bang - the stuff you could touch - was just particles.

Where did those particles go?

You know: into stuff. Everything around you is made of those particles. I mean, by weight, less than 1% of all matter in the universe is solid stuff, but you get it, right? The planets and the stars and dark matter and black holes and penguins and sunflowers and you and me are all made out of those particles.

But the Big Bang wasn't just "a bunch of particles." "A bunch of particles" would just...sit there. If the singularity behind the Big Bang was just a bunch of particles, it would just be, like, a marble, or a block of tofu. It wouldn't have done anything.

Part of the difficulty of understanding energy is that we thought it was a substance for so long. Like, from the time when fire was put into the same category as earth, wind, and and water as one of the classical elements, up until, like, the 1850s. And talking about it like it's a substance and thinking about it like it's a substance is a tough habit to break. But it's not a substance. The Big Bang WAS only "made of" those particles. There wasn't anything else there. Physically it was just particles.

Those particles just had personal qualities. Like having a charming personality, and a good sense of humor. Intangible qualities. Two of them, specifically.

Their qualities were hot and fast. And hot is just fast but small! So really they only had one quality: an absolutely fucking stupid amount of FAST.

We've already covered where the particles went. That's all the stuff you see when you look around.

So where did the fast go?

That's energy. The single personal intangible quality possessed by the particles at the moment of the Big Bang. And energy can never be created or destroyed, right? So the fast isn't gone. All of the particles had fast, and so when they spread out, they took the fast with them, as they turned into atoms and chemicals and stuff.

All of the energy in the universe is just the fastness from that single moment of ignition, transforming and transforming into different expressions of motion.

Hope this helps.

[circesastro]

Circe's Astro Observation #3

Note: I am not professional astrologer so please take these observations with a grain of salt. These are just my own observations, ideas, thoughts and theories. This is just for entertainment purposes. Also, please be respectful of my observations! It is perfectly understandable to not resonate with some of my personal observations but please do not leave any disrespectful comments! Without further ado, enjoy!

**All photos are from Pinterest**

MASTERLIST

✿ Aries Mars tend to have a quick reaction or just move very fast

✿ Men with Sagittarius placements tend to have a very active lifestyle. Also they LOVE to spend time in nature/outdoors 😭. Most of their hobbies include skydiving, hiking, camping, etc.

✿ Individuals with Virgo placements hate having leftover food sit in their fridge…

✿ Also, individuals with Cancer suns always seems so calm? Whether it’s true or not is a whole other story but they always seem like the shy and quiet upon first impression…ex: Ateez’s San, Seventeen’s Wonwoo, NCT’s Taeyong, etc.

✿ Virgos tend to do a lot of editing/proofreading before submitting anything (if they could change it afterwards, they would too)

✿ Sagittarius Mars on the other hand are on a whole other level of competitiveness like they’re out for blood…there’s Yuqi from G-idle, Gunwook from ZB1 and even Li Chen…. if you can't tell just watch running man china and you'll know what I'm talking about 🤣

✿ Remember the time when Seok Matthew (Cancer Mars) won an arm wrestling match with Kim Donghyun (6th best UFC Wrestler who participated in Physical 100/ Virgo Mars) but lost to Gunwook (Sagittarius Mars)? Yeah, out for blood

✿ I noticed that in many idol groups, idols with libra placements tend to get popular and praised for the way they act/their mannerisms and charisma…there’s something fresh and unique that they bring to the table that the audience loves (Ex: BTS’s Jimin, Aespa’s Ningning, Gidle’s Yuqi, NMixx’s Lily, SKZ’s Bang Chan, Monsta X’s Joohoney, P1Harmony’s Keeho, Shinee’s Key, etc.)

✿ There’s two types of Scorpio mars— 1) Relies on their strength and drive to get through things (ex: BTS’s Jungkook, Ateez’s San & Seventeen’s Dino) and then there’s 2) One who relies on their mentality and emotional strength to get through things (ex: BTS’s Jimin and Seventeen’s Jeonghan)

✿ You know what is funny? Cancer mars won't get into a physical fight but they are strong??? Their strength is kind of unexpected because they don’t use it all that much.

✿ Aries placement tend to have the type of beauty that captures people’s attention first (ex: Hyunjin of SKZ have an Aries Mars, Karina of Aespa is an Aries Sun + Venus, Mingyu of SVT is an Aries Sun + Venus, Lisa of BlackPink is a Aries Stellium, Jackson Wang is an Aries Sun + Venus, Asa + Ahyeon of BabyMonster is an Aries Sun + Mercury, Cha Eunwoo is an Aries Stellium, Ryujin of ITZY is an Aries stellium, etc.)

✿ Leo placements and their hyperfocus on their hair is so real like my mom is a Leo sun and she always say to take care of your hair, my brother is a Leo Venus and he would always style his hair and use multiple different products before leaving the house and my friend is a Leo Venus and she would change hairstyle every other month….

✿ Pisces Mars women make excellent "gold diggers". I think its because they easily play into people's fantasies. (Ex. Sheraseven, Lauren Sanchez, and my aunt in law 💀.) Also they have this intuition to knowing what it is that the other desires so it may come easier for them to play into the "ideal woman" but before you know it you're trapped...point is I think they can easily bag up a provider.

✿ Pisces Mars women in general seems like the ideal fantasy women. I also notice that their "mask" slips easily but they make it up just as quick. They are the type of people to play a persona/character so well that they eventually end up embodying that energy. (Ex. Marilyn Monroe, Paris Hilton, Im Yoona) Not saying that they are fake, I am just saying that these people often make others fall in love with their personas.

✿ Adding on to the previous statement pisces mars can make great manifestors and I think they will benefit a lot from Law of Assumption. Congratulations 🥳🎉.

✿ This might as well become a pisces mars (both men and women) post but i think its a great deal of delusion + intuition + acting that pisces mars end up manifesting their dream life. (quite literally delulu until it becomes trululu...)

MASTERLIST

[wannabelife]

SEVENTEEN'S IDEAL TYPE

seungcheol: i think cheol is attracted to people who give off a big aura, walking chin up kinda of look, but have actually a soft spot for him. he likes the reserved and independent people who are willing to get out of their comfort zone for him. because he's an intense lover and will treat you whenever he gets the chance, so you have to accept it and get used to it.

jeonghan: i think the best word is someone easy-going. as we all know, this man will tease the out of this person and play around a lot, so he likes it when that someone can play along or even tease him back. maybe he might like to be able to make you shy as he's a bit flirty, so that be something who attracts him in the early point of meeting.

joshua: really, just someone who wants to be with him, he likes to be wanted. i don't think he needs much, just love and attention. if you're interested in him, that's already enough. and i think he's attracted to the cute look, that looks like summer.

junhui: i think he likes people younger than him. he likes to take care of that someone, who can hear him attentively and seek advice from. also, someone who is a friend first than a partner. maybe friends to lovers type of romance, he needs to feel safe in the relationship and will provide the same.

soonyoung: you gotta be intresting my friend, dont get this man bored... he might be attracted to people who can teach him new things and are knowledgeable. more than just the person, he's also enamored by the feelings, the thrill that being with someone can have, he needs that to keep a relationship for a long time. someone who is always trying new things with him.

wonwoo: he likes independent people, someone smart and successful. someone who he can have deep conversations with and talk about their similar interests (in books, for example). someone who is introverted like him and prefers to do things just as two and sometimes at home.

jihoon: i think he likes someone who is quiet as him but not so introverted, someone who can also make him go out of his comfort zone without pushing too hard. take him to new places, new interests, and people.

seokmin: someone cute and bubbly. i think he likes people like him, who match his energy. he's like a happy pill, and someone different could make him feel down. he needs to always have dates, go out every weekend with that someone. dating him is really like living life with him, he will drag you around and expect the same from you.

mingyu: female fatale type of energy, who looks classy, independent, and sexy. he likes people who look powerful, who can talk work with him or even make money together. someone who likes to travel and go out a lot, he wants to do that with them.

minghao: i think he likes people who are opposite of him, someone energetic and sociable. but also respect his space and won't drain him out with it. someone who can talk, and he just listens.

seungkwan: he likes the cute and submissive look. he likes to feel important and treat you, especially financially; to be able to shower you with gifts, dinner nights, travels, and so on. someone who can look dependent on him, but also someone who is able to put him in place when needed and is always willing/not afraid to talk it out.

vernon: someone who he can have long talks with, who have a lot of interests and can share with him and do the same for him. i think he's attracted to people who look sexy and hot, and is smart and witty. and you must love music, he needs you to go in concerts with him.

chan: i think he's attracted to the hot looks and people smaller than him but looks taller (personality aspect). someone who is interested in him, he likes the attention and the praise. someone funny who can joke around with him and who he can be able to make laugh too, so basically, same humor.

[dinodaweeb]

Saving You Again | one-shot

Miguel O’Hara X M!Reader

Summary: You’re a scientist who’s always in the wrong situation at the wrong time. Lucky your neighborhood (grumpy) spider-man is here to save the day.

Nueva York, 2099.

The towering skyscrapers and neon lights painted a vibrant picture of the future, but inside the sleek halls of Alchemax, things were as chaotic as ever.

“Not again,” Miguel muttered to himself as alarms blared through the building. He raced down the corridors, already knowing who was responsible.

You.

As he reached the lab, he found you surrounded by an enormous pile of ash and smoke, frantically trying to shut down an overloading machine.

“Move!” Miguel barked, shoving you aside with surprising gentleness before his hands flew over the controls, quickly stabilizing the system.

You looked up at him with a sheepish grin. “Thanks, Spider-man! Luckily you are bigger nerd than me.”

Miguel sighed, giving you a glare. “That’s not what matters.”

Despite his stern words, there was a softness in his eyes. This wasn’t the first time he’d had to save you from one of your own experiments. In fact, it had become a regular occurrence.

A bit too regular.

“Seriously, [Name],” Miguel continued, his tone exasperated yet affectionate. You got in trouble enough times Spider-man knew your name! (Or maybe it was on your name tag.)

“One of these days, you’re going to blow up the entire lab.”

You laughed, scratching the back of your head. “But then you wouldn’t have anything to do.”

Miguel rolled his eyes, but he couldn’t help the smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Let’s just move you to a safer position.”

As he escorted you out of the lab, you slapped his shoulder with enthusiasm. Despite his gruff exterior, Spider-man always seemed to be there for you, protecting you from your own recklessness.

“Yo, Spidey! Next time we meet if you save me again we should go out to eat.”

The masked man stared at you, shook his head, and pinched the bridge of his nose. You thought that meant no but his reply was a tiny whisper.

“Sure.”

.—🕷️—.

The second time it happened, you were in the middle of recalibrating a plasma conduit. One wrong move sent the entire system into overdrive, and the containment field started to fail.

“Ahh! Fucking run guys!” you screamed, dodging a burst of energy.

The other scientists on your lab team dashed out of the room, exiting the building. You turned to leave but then spotted your manga comic you had been reading and didn’t finish.

You’re not wasting a good ten bucks of illustration and hot men!

A blast of power was hit in your direction but something grabbed your waist pulling backwards. You watched your manga obliterate right in front of your eyes.

Damn.

Spider-man appeared almost instantly, his enhanced reflexes allowing him to shut down the conduit before it could explode. He turned to you, a mix of frustration and relief in his eyes.

At least, you thought so. He kinda had a masked on.

“Seriously?” he huffed, his tone tired, like he just wanted to flop down on the couch on Young Sheldon or something. “How do you keep getting into these situations?”

You cracked a nervous smile. “Luck? I mean I’m a scientist, c’mon!”

He sighed, shaking his head. “You need to be more careful.”

This dude seemed to sigh a lot around you.

You looked up at him, your eyes meeting his. “Wanna grab an early dinner now?”

Miguel hesitated, his mask concealing his expression but not the uncertainty in his body language. After a brief pause, he nodded. “Alright, fine..but understand that you don’t need to repay me. This is my job.”

Your eyes lit up, and you couldn’t help but grin. “I know a great place that sells empanadas just a few blocks from here. And hey, can’t I just take you somewhere and call it a date?”

Spider-man chuckled softly, the sound muffled by his mask. (But you sure it was a laugh.) “Yes, I suppose? Let’s get the carne ones though.”

The fact that you were walking next to a superhero, it felt like a fever dream. You chatted about trivial things, from your favorite manga series to the latest advancements in tech.

(Not sure, if it’s allowed to be leaked but since it’s Spider-Man it’s okay.)

When you finally reached the restaurant. Spider-Man removed his mask just enough to eat, revealing a sharp jawline and striking features. It was a rare sight, one that made you appreciate the man behind the Spider-man persona even more.

Woah. Was that fangs? ᡣ𐭩

Hot.

“Wow, you look…ho— cool!” you spoke, giving him a feral grin.

He rolled his eyes but couldn’t suppress a smile. “Yeah, well, don’t get used to it.”

As you both dug into your food, the conversation flowed effortlessly. Despite his gruff exterior, Miguel had a dry sense of humor that you found endearing. He told you stories of his past escapades, and you shared some of your own, albeit less heroic, adventures.

Like the time you ate cookies that had marijuana by accident and thought you were going to die.

After finishing your meal, the two of you walked back towards Alchemax, the city lights reflecting off the sleek surfaces of the buildings. There was a comfortable silence between you, a mutual understanding that didn’t require words.

“Thanks for dinner,” Miguel said, his tone softer than usual. “And seriously, try to stay out of trouble.”

You nodded, giving him a playful salute. “Yes, sir. No more exploding labs.” A small grin forming on your lips. “No promises though.”

He gave you a lingering look, as if trying to gauge your sincerity, before finally nodding.

“Take care.”

[ghostofhyuck]

NCT Dream and summer days with them. 

Mark Lee

Probably would prefer indoors during the summer but he's very up for a treat! He doesn't mind going for a short mart run just to buy ingredients for a cool treat like watermelon punch or bingsu! He'll volunteer to cut the watermelon and would probably stare at it for minute before cutting it. The watermelon slices were a bit imperfect and i feel like mark would take a bite while slicing it and even giving you some who's busy mixing the sparkling water, yogurt drink, and ice. It'll be refreshing date for you two and you two find the homemade treat delicious!

Huang Renjun

Oh my sweet summer boy, Renjun will live during summer. He loves summer and the flowers blooming! He'll love being outdoors just enjoying the bearable sun at a suitable hour and if it becomes harsh, he'll find a place underneath the shade of a tree. There could be a hammock that's big enough for you two to sleep and snuggle! He finds it serene and quiet especially when he has you by his side! He's also the type to pick a flower and just hands it to you or maybe tuck it behind your ear!

Lee Jeno

Summer days with Jeno can be a free time. As a homebody, he would probably enjoy the day indoors due to the unbearable heat. But when the sun is slowly setting, Jeno will have the energy to go out. So he drags you to ride bikes with him on a late-afternoon. Yes, those marathon-type of cycling, he'll do that with you. </3 but would probably slow down so that you can catch up with his pace. You two will stop by the Han River, buy drinks and snacks and just watch the sun set beautifully. 

Lee Donghyuck

Our lovely fullsun, summer days with Haechan means taking a dip into the beach! You two would love to go out and have your skin get tan underneath the sun, putting sunblock on each other's backs, and just racing your ways toward the clear, cold water of the sea. You two will play around the water and just stay there until both of your hands get wrinkled. He'll also the type to push you into the waters when your dipping your feet into the water, so you get revenge by dragging him towards the water too! Also would love to watch the sunset while you two dry yourselves.

Na Jaemin

I feel like Jaemin would prefer indoors but make it fancy, so staycation it is! He'll find a cozy place where you two can enjoy a peaceful and quiet summer. You two will drive your way there, drop by to buy some groceries, and enjoy the serene summer. If it's a beach front, you two will go out to take pictures, but you two will probably spend the whole day inside, underneath the cool air-conditioner, and during night, that's when you two will take a dip into the pool! 

Zhong Chenle

Chenle would love the idea of having a picnic during summer. The weather's nice, there aren't any bugs or insect, and he gets to spend it with you! <3 He wants to be prepared for the picnic, even buying a picnic basket so that the mood is there, it's either you two made sandwich and cooked food for the picnic OR you two just ordered food and have it delivered. Either way, you two had a lot of fun, and you two would probably take a nap if you two placed the mat underneath the shade of a tree. 

Park Jisung

Summer days with Jisung meant you two try something new like camping! It's not literally just the two of you, but your family always do camping, that's why you brought your boyfriend with you. He'll help setting the tent, even with the cooking. Would probably be amazed by the food prepared and when it's night time, he'll make smores with you. <3 you two probably had your alone time when you two decided to go to the nearby lake and stargaze because you know how much your boyfriend loves the universe. <3

[permanentswaps]

Family Game Night Part 5 – 5 Years On

Read Part 1, Part 3, and Part 4 by @viceversa-666. Someone let me know if they find Part 2.

It’s been about five years since I won Family Game Night—or Family Game Week, really. A lot has changed since then, and I’ve definitely grown up. Let me bring you up to speed.

First off, I adapted to Tanner's life quicker than anyone expected. Looking back, I realize how immature I sounded when I made my decision to stay in Tanner’s body because of a guy I’d just met. But within a year, I managed to get all the knowledge and experience a 19-year-old should have. I hit the books, worked on my social skills, and even picked up Tanner’s old hobbies like skateboarding and skiing. Tanner had planned to take a gap year anyway, so the timing actually worked out perfectly - I was right on track to start college.

Kyle and I didn’t last long. He dumped me a few months after the swap. It turns out that knowing the truth about my original age and my immaturity at the start was a bit too much for him. It must have been bizarre dating someone who was technically still learning the ropes of adulthood. My good looks weren’t enough to keep him around, I guess. But honestly, I think its for the best. Now that he's gone, there's really nobody outside my family that knows my secret. For everyone else, I've always been Tanner.

---

The next family reunion happened just two weeks before I was set to head off to college. I was super anxious leading up to it since my family had been discussing the swap back basically all year. But I also knew that there was no way I could go back to my old body, not after I'd gotten a taste of Tanner's life - and especially not right before I was experience the true freedom of college life.

I still remember the first night with all of us there together. The entire family gathered in the living room, their expressions a mix of anticipation and apprehension. Uncle Paul, still in Aunt Tamra’s body, held the stone in his hands, ready to initiate the swap.

As he began the ritual, I felt a tingling sensation but nothing more. The room shimmered with energy, and then, one by one, everyone began to revert to their original bodies. Grandpa Jim cheered as he regained his old form, Josh stumbled awkwardly as he returned to his own, and my parents embraced as they returned to their bodies.

But Tanner, now in my old body, stood there, looking dazed and a little pale. I suppressed a triumphant grin as the ritual ended, leaving Tanner stuck in my old form.

“W-what happened?” Tanner stammered, his eyes wide with confusion. “Why am I still... here?”

Feigning concern, I shrugged. “I don’t know,” I said, trying to appear as baffled as everyone else. “Maybe the stone’s power ran out?”

Tanner glanced down at his new body, his expression a mix of shock and resignation. I could see the wheels turning in his mind, trying to comprehend what had just happened. I almost felt a little bit bad for him - but hey, at least he was human again.

Uncle Paul, now back in his own body, frowned at the stone. “I’ll have to look into this,” he said, but there was a hint of resignation in his voice.

As the confusion settled, I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror, and a smug smile crept across my face. You see, unbeknownst to the family, this was all a part of my plan. In the week before to the reunion, I had gotten a tattoo of a rune that would prevent the stones magic from working on me. I wasn't sure if it would work, but now I was certain this body would be mine forever.

---

With the reunion chaos behind me, I headed off to college. I threw myself into so many new actvities, joining the university’s rugby team and hitting the gym religiously. Tanner’s body, already athletic, transformed into a chiseled masterpiece under my relentless workouts.

But the real turning point was my solo spring break trip to Spain that first year. I had decided to go on a whim to practice my Spanish and stayed at a cool youth hostel in Madrid. There I quickly made friends with a group of international travelers.

One night, after a day of exploring the city, we decided to go clubbing. That’s where I met Alejandro. And damn, just thinking about him still brings a smile to my face.

He was leaning against the counter at El Tigre, one of the popular clubs. Tall, dark, and ridiculously handsome, his deep brown eyes met mine across the room, and he gave me this slow, knowing smile.

“¿Quieres unirte a nosotros?” he asked, his voice smooth like silk.

“Claro,” I replied, squeezing into the space beside him. I told him I was from the U.S., here for spring break, and he shared stories about growing up in Seville before moving to Madrid.

By the time the night was winding down, we were outside, standing under the warm glow of the streetlights. “¿Te gustaría venir a mi apartamento?” he asked, his eyes glinting with a mix of mischief and invitation.

“Me encantaría,” I said, trying to keep my voice steady even as my heart raced.

We walked to his place, a cozy flat with a balcony overlooking the bustling streets. He poured us both a glass of wine, and we talked some more, but the air was electric with anticipation. When he leaned in to kiss me, it was like fireworks. His lips were soft, insistent, and I could feel his hands exploring, pulling me closer.

“Estás seguro de esto?” he whispered, his breath hot against my neck.

“Completamente,” I replied, my voice barely above a whisper.

We moved to his bedroom, where things quickly heated up. Alejandro was patient and attentive, making sure I was comfortable with every step. His touch was confident yet gentle, and he knew exactly how to build up the anticipation until I was practically begging for him.

When he finally entered me, it was intense—almost overwhelming. The mix of pleasure and slight pain as he stretched me out was new, but he moved slowly, giving me time to adjust. His rhythm was steady, his breath ragged as he whispered encouragements in my ear.

“Eres increíble,” he murmured, his voice husky with desire. “Me encanta cómo te sientes.”

“No pares,” I gasped, gripping his shoulders as he drove into me, the pleasure building to an almost unbearable peak.

It was an experience I’ll never forget. Alejandro knew exactly how to push my buttons, and when I finally came, it was like every nerve in my body lit up. He followed soon after, collapsing beside me with a satisfied grin. “Eso fue... increíble,” he said, pulling me close.

---

Back in the U.S., I found myself eager to recreate that intense pleasure I felt with Alejandro. I started hooking up with all the straight guys on campus who couldn’t get enough of me. It became a thrilling game, pushing boundaries and breaking down their barriers. I discovered a new, exhilarating role for myself: the power bottom. I loved being in control of the encounter from underneath, driving them wild while they thought they were the ones dominating.

My first conquest was Mike, a straight guy from the football team. After a late-night party, he stumbled into my room, a mix of alcohol and curiosity driving him. “I’ve never done this before,” he muttered, almost to himself.

“Don’t worry,” I replied, pulling him closer. “Just go with the flow.” As he entered me, I arched back, controlling the depth and rhythm, making him realize that I was the one setting the pace. His powerful thrusts drove me to cry out in pleasure, and it was clear that he quickly got addicted to the sensation. After that, he became one of my regulars on the roster.

The gym locker room became another frequent meeting place. One afternoon, after a heavy workout, I found myself alone with Kevin, a bodybuilder with a cocky attitude. He’d always made snide comments about gay guys, but there was a hidden desire in his eyes.

“You ever wonder what it’s like?” I asked, casually dropping my towel.

He hesitated, then nodded. “Yeah, I guess.” That was all the invitation I needed. I guided him into one of the private showers. As he took me hard and fast, I used my legs to control the angle, ensuring every thrust hit just right.

Frat parties became hunting grounds. I’d catch the eye of a guy who had one too many drinks and wanted to explore his curiosities. A smirk here, a lingering touch there, and soon we’d find ourselves sneaking off to a secluded corner or back to my place. One guy, Tom, a frat president, couldn’t get enough. “You’re amazing,” he panted one night, unable to resist the way I moved beneath him, meeting every thrust with a moan of pleasure.

Even study sessions turned into opportunities. I had a fling with Matt, a straight-A student, who found himself drawn to me despite his initial reluctance. “This is crazy,” he’d whisper, his breath hot on my neck as we tangled in the sheets.

“Just let go,” I’d murmur back, wrapping my legs around his waist, controlling the depth and rhythm of his thrusts. The mix of his studious nature and the raw physicality of our encounters was a heady combination.

---

After years of seducing just about every eligible guy on campus, graduation meant it was finally time for a change. Now, having just landed in New York City a few weeks ago, I can already tell this place will be my ultimate playground.

New York pulses with a raw, seductive energy that I can’t get enough of. Every corner and street promises electrifying encounters, and I’m savoring every tantalizing moment. The best part? I’m already turning heads everywhere I go.

As I strut down Fifth Avenue, reflections of myself flash by in the polished store windows. I catch men’s gazes trailing over my sculpted body—of course, they do. With my muscles cut like stone, my style sharp, and my aura oozing sexual confidence, how could they resist?

The attention is intoxicating, coming from all kinds of guys: the gym hunks flaunting their tank tops and protein shakes, the sleek businessmen in their tailored suits, and the artsy hipsters with their effortlessly cool vibes. Each subtle, lingering look fuels my desire, sending a thrilling shiver through me as I revel in their barely concealed lust.

On my way back to my new apartment, I admire my reflection in a storefront window, the city’s lights casting a seductive glow on my perfectly chiseled physique. My lips curl into a sultry smirk, feeling the magnetic allure of Tanner’s body, now my own. I flex an arm, relishing the ripple of muscles beneath my shirt, a testament to my raw sexual appeal.

Just then, a group of guys saunters by, their eyes hungrily raking over my form. One of them, a smoldering hipster with a beanie and tight jeans, nudges his friend and whispers something, their eyes full of desire.

As they walk away, I turn back to my reflection, a wicked grin spreading across my lips. “Tanner, you didn’t know how hot this body could be,” I murmur to myself, the thrill of possession sparking a fire within me. “Now it’s mine, and I’m going to use it to its full potential.”

My heart races with excitement as I continue down the street, my every step a promise of the pleasure to come. “I’m so glad I decided to take this body forever. This is just the beginning of the fun.”

[0310s]

gently, by your side | jaehyun

members: myung jaehyun x gender neutral reader

genre: college au, angst, comfort, best friends! to ???, more platonic stuff in this one

tags/warnings: extensive discussions of mental health and chronic/mental illness, y/n is not okay. :(

summary: jaehyun finds you after a bad week.

wc: 2.7k

a/n: this fic’s title comes from this lovely song. as someone who’s struggled with both chronic and mental illness, it really takes someone strong and amazing to keep on going, despite everything. most of the dialogue in this comes from my own musings and experiences with mental health. i wrote this for a dear mutual of mine! i hope better days will come for you soon, whenever that may be. meanwhile, i hope this gives you comfort when things are tough! sending lots of love <3 

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5 days ago 1:28 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

(y/n) we haven’t seen each other in such a loooong time imy :(( i mean i KNOW it’s just been a couple of days since we last hung out but still!!!!!!! when are we seeing each other again !!!! tell me ur schedule QUICK !!!!

4 days ago 6:33 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

heeeeyyyyyyyyy (with the intention to hang out) heeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy heeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyy reply to meeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! tell me when ur free pls i miss u :((

3 days ago 11:58 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

hey i didn’t see u at the party today i thought u said u were going last week!!!  also i asked around and people said they haven’t seen u around recently??? and they don’t know what ur up to

2 days ago 2:05 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

heeeyyyy ?????????? did i do smth?????  or are u just really busy w school and work idk either way pls just let me know :(( i won’t bother u if ur rlllyyy busy

10:35 PM sorry if i’m being annoying btw

Yesterday  11:32 PM 🐶 cutie puppy

ok i thought about it reaaaaaallly hard and i don’t think i’ve done anything to make u mad or upset w me??? well aside from that time last last week that u got mad at me for accidentally messing w ur computer and deleting ur work files WHICH IM LIKE REALLY SORRY FOR but i fixed it!!!!! i thought we were good alrd!!! are u still mad at me 4 that ?

1:00 AM (y/n)?

1:28 AM idk  i thought i was ur best friend :(( did smth change???

2:47 AM pls pls reply :(( i know we can talk this out i don’t want us to not be ok

Today  3:00 PM 🐶 cutie puppy i’m coming over.

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Sitting up from your bed, your heart thuds in anxiety as you quickly scroll through your chat history with Jaehyun. Your eyes hurt and your brain feels especially foggy, like you’re looking at the world through a particularly cloudy lens. How long did you sleep? The last thing you recall was working on your assignments last night, then choosing to sleep instead when you got overwhelmed. Even then, you slept fitfully. You remember setting an alarm at 9 AM today to continue working, but even as you sat at your desk, you couldn’t type a single sentence on your laptop. Everything felt muddled and it was as if you couldn’t understand anything at all. Even the cups of coffee you drank in desperation was of no use keeping you alert; all it did was make you palpitate.

Then you gave up, went back to bed, and you’re here now. Checking the chat timestamps, you realize you haven’t replied to Jaehyun’s messages in almost a week, which has never happened before—you talk almost everyday, even multiple times a day. Jaehyun’s last message was at 3 PM, when he said he’d come over. One look at your screen shows you it’s already 3:20. If you’ve memorized his schedule right, it takes your best friend thirty minutes to get to your dorm from his Fundamental Maths class. That means you have ten more minutes to get your shit together and clean your mess of a room. 

But right when you’ve mustered the energy to stand up, you hear a series of knocks on your door. That can’t be— “(Y/n), open up, I know you’re in there!” Jaehyun’s voice echoes from outside the door. “I asked your dormmate and she said you haven’t left your room since yesterday, so there’s no use pretending!” Shit, shit, shit! You immediately spring up and hastily fold your blankets and organize your desk, throwing away stray food wrappers and plastic cups. You open your blinds to let some air in, and the bright sunlight makes your head throb even more. 

On your way to the door, you spot yourself in the mirror. There’s no other word for it—you look like utter shit. Your eyebags are dark and prominent, your hair disheveled from tossing and turning in your sleep. You look horrendous, but Jaehyun is persistently knocking on your door, so you have no choice but to fix yourself up as fast as you can. You splash water on your face and smoothen down your hair and open the door—then there’s Jaehyun in all his glory. Your heart clenches seeing him; he looks as handsome as always, his bangs fluffy and soft and his letterman jacket fashionably oversized. He looks nothing like you in your ratty T-shirt with coffee stains and pajama shorts. His hand is halfway raised, positioned to knock at your door (he could and would probably do it all day if he had to). Upon seeing you, he blurts out: “Did I do something?”

Instead of answering him, you open your door wider as an invitation, and Jaehyun takes the hint, stepping into your dorm. Once the door is shut, Jaehyun peers at your messy room and remarks, “Wow. When was the last time you cleaned up? You’re usually not like this.”

You know he didn’t mean it like that, but his comment stings at you all the same. “Sorry, Jaehyun,” you snap, “not everyone can be at 200% energy all the time like you.” At his hurt expression, you backtrack. “Sorry, that was really rude of me.”

“It-It’s fine,” Jaehyun replies confusedly. Then he looks straight at you, eyes pleading. He’s picking at the stray thread hanging from his jacket, a habit you’ve come to known is something he does when he’s nervous. “You know what, I thought about it. For days, really, if I did anything that would make you mad and ignore me. But I couldn’t come up with anything at all. I was really worried when you didn’t reply to me for days on end, especially when we talk everyday. So if I did something, can—can you just tell me? I just want us to be okay.”

Your throat closes up and your heart pounds even faster, making you feel dizzy. You have no idea how to answer him, when all he’s ever seen of you is the perfect student who does everything right, who’s smart and good at what they do without any flaws or exceptions. How would he react if he saw you for who you really were?

The words can’t form in your mouth, and out of frustration at yourself, you tear up. Jaehyun notices this, eyes widening in worry, “(y/n), baby, no, no,” and pulls you into his arms. Almost instantly, the tears cascade down your face and sobs wrack your body. You feel pathetic crying in your best friend’s arms, but Jaehyun just soothes a hand up and down your back as you break down. His other arm is wrapped around your shoulders, and it feels like your anchor when you’re drowning in all your troubles. “It’s okay, it’s okay,” he says in a hushed tone, “let it all out.” You grip his jacket even tighter as you bury your face in his chest. 

When was the last time you’ve ever been hugged like this? The last time you’ve ever been truly vulnerable to anyone without that mask of perfection you often don? The last time you felt safe just being yourself? You have no idea. All you know that is in the circle of Jaehyun’s arms, you want to be small and imperfect and yourself just this once.

After your cries die down, Jaehyun clears his throat. “I’m sorry,” he whispers. “I don’t know what it is I did, but I’m so sorry for hurting you.”

“It’s not you, Jaehyun,” your voice is muffled by both your sniffles and Jaehyun’s chest. You don’t want Jaehyun to get the wrong idea that he’s hurt you in some way because of how broken he sounds thinking he’s done something to make you sad. “It’s just. Me.”

“You? What do you mean?” Jaehyun leads you into your room from the doorway. He’s holding your hand and doesn’t let go even when you both settle at the edge of your bed. His palm is warm and his grip loose enough in case you want to let go; you don’t. While you muster up the courage to speak, your best friend just sits there, waiting patiently. “It’s okay, whatever you say, I’m not going anywhere.” You don’t know that for sure, but him saying that makes you want to be truthful just this once, damn the consequences.

You take a deep breath, focusing on your intertwined fingers. You’re too scared to look at his face because you don’t want to see his reaction. “Jaehyun, what kind of person do you think people see me as?”

“Well…” He takes a moment to think about it. “Someone smart, talented, and who gets stuff done?”

In turn, you let out an resigned exhale. “Well, that’s the image I project. Of someone who’s perfect… someone who does things effortlessly. People think it comes easy to me. But it doesn’t. When people tell me that I didn’t need much effort to get to where I am now, I feel undermined. When I express I’m having a hard time, people brush it off and think I’m just overreacting. Because they think I’m perfect all the time. But honestly…? That’s the farthest thing from the truth."

Glancing up from your hands, you scan your room—your desk is a mess of papers and assignments that you have yet to get to. You can’t tell when the last time you spent time being actually productive when what you’ve been is fatigued out of your mind. When you try to sit at your desk and work, all you feel is difficulty concentrating and processing work and readings. Sleep has also proven to be elusive—no matter how long you lie in bed, you never feel well-rested. Simple actions and decisions require so much energy from you that you undeniably lack. You also constantly compare yourself to others, whom things like these come natural to them. But you’ve kept these feelings of yours secret for a long time—you’re utterly terrified that you’d be undermined for being useless and overly sensitive.   

“(Y/n)?” Jaehyun squeezes your hand, and you turn to meet his eyes. His eyes are sincere and kind. “I-I know I may not be the most empathic person, but I promise I’ll hear you out without judging you. I want to be here for you… and I hope you’ll let me. Please?” 

At this, you spill everything you’ve been feeling the past weeks—months, even—to Jaehyun. You stumble over your words and your breath gets caught in your throat, but he’s there to pat your back and to encourage you to keep going. Without you knowing, tears make their way down your face once again, and Jaehyun uses his other hand to gently brush them away. “It just gets so hard that I want to just. Give everything up. I don’t know what the use of trying so hard is when I see how other people don’t need this much effort to do even the most basic of tasks. It’s just so… unfair.”

When you’re finished with your rant, you don’t know what to expect from Jaehyun—but you’re stunned to see him crying. He’s sniffling and wiping at his eyes furiously. “Why…” You have no idea what he’s about to say, but you brace yourself for the worst. “Why didn’t you tell me any of this?” he whispers brokenly. “I didn’t know you were having such a difficult time. I feel like such a shitty friend for not even noticing. I’m sorry, (y/n).” Jaehyun’s eyes fill with tears and he starts “I… I thought we were best friends.” The best friends tell each other everything goes unsaid, but you know exactly what he meant.

“I…” You feel awful now for making Jaehyun cry. “You’re just. You just naturally have all this limitless energy. You’re…” Normal. Not like me. “I don’t know how if you were going to take me seriously if I told you what I was going through… There were times I’d see you, and I’d be so disappointed in myself for not being like you. And I was so scared that if I did tell you, I’d be letting you down.”

Jaehyun’s expression grows more miserable at this. “I-I’m sorry, (y/n), I never meant to make you feel unheard. And I never meant for it to feel like you couldn’t tell me about these things.” 

“It-It’s not your fault, Jaehyun,” you protest, but he shakes his head, obviously disappointed in himself.

“No, (y/n), I’m supposed to be your best friend. How stupid can I be if I can’t notice when you’re having a hard time? I didn’t even stop to ask how you’ve been doing because you seemed to be doing fine. But I should’ve known better. I shouldn’t have taken things at face value. I’m such an idiot,” Jaehyun berates himself. “I’m so, so sorry.” 

At his sincere apology, you can’t help but admit it to yourself—you desperately needed Jaehyun’s support as your best friend, but you were too scared to ask for it. And honestly? You felt immensely lonely without his words and presence to comfort you. 

“(Y/n), I hope you know that I see how hard you work. I know your sleepless nights and how much effort you put into every single thing you do. Despite everything you’re going through, you’re always trying to be better than the person you were yesterday, and it’s something I truly admire about you. But I hope you know it’s okay to be imperfect and flawed and to not be okay. I want to be here on your good and bad days. I just wish I could’ve been more vocal about this earlier… I’ve really taken you for granted, huh?” Jaehyun sighs wetly, taking your hand in both of his. He’s still crying; you both are, actually. What a silly pair the two of you make. 

“Thank you for trusting me and sharing all of this. It literally means the world to me,” Jaehyun rambles. “I promise I’ll be a better friend to you, someone you feel safe opening up to about anything, whether that be your achievements or your struggles. And (y/n), if it’s not too much to ask… Could I ask you to be more honest with me in the future?” He stares at you imploringly. “I don’t want you to think you have to go through all of this alone. I want to be here for you the same way you’ve always been there for me… Okay?”

“....Okay. Okay, I’ll try,” you respond softly. “Thank you, Jaehyun. I… I’ve never told anyone about this before. But thank you so much for just listening, and not judging, and accepting me for me…” While you appreciate Jaehyun’s presence at this moment, a new wave of fatigue washes over you with all this emotional vulnerability and talking. “Jaehyun… I’m still feeling really tired, so I might go back to sleep. Sorry, I know you came all the way here to see me, but here I am being shit company,” you apologize regretfully.

“Oh! That’s okay. I’ll see you tomorrow?” Jaehyun stands up from your bed to leave. When your fingers slip from each other, you feel an acute loss of warmth—both in your hands and in your heart. He makes his way to the door, slipping on his shoes, and your heart sinks. There’s something you badly want to ask of Jaehyun, but you’re too much of a coward to tell him what you truly want. You don’t want to be on your own right now, but you’d probably be asking too much of him. Accepting your fate, you settle in bed, attempting to take a nap so restless you’re sure will be of no help to your exhaustion.

However, Jaehyun himself stops in the doorway. He turns back around, a distraught look on his face. “(Y/n)... I don’t want to assume, but are you sure you want to be alone right now?” he begins. “I mean, we just had this really heavy talk. Can… Can I keep you company? I promise I’m great at cuddles—that’s what all my other friends say anyway when I annoy them with my hugs.”

When you nod, that’s all it takes for Jaehyun to shuck off his shoes, strip his jacket, and climb into bed with you. With your ear against his steady heartbeat and his comforting arm around you, you’re asleep in no time. It’s the best you’ve ever slept in months.

[mrsnottt]

-I've only ever loved you!

pairing: theo nott x fem!reader

Summary: where you and theo cross the boundaries of friendship.

warnings:slight mentions of smut near the end but purely fluff

note: I don't speak much English and i'm a first time writer let me know how I could improve pls!

It was a common occurrence for the group of slytherins to gather in the common room after a dreadful day of classses.

The boys had all gathered around the firepit. Mattheo,Lorenzo and Draco on the couch complaining about the last Quidditch game against Gryfinndor. Theo and Blaise sat side by side on their lounge chairs sharing a cigarette amongst themselves.

As you packed your bag and got ready to leave your final lesson your path was blocked by Cormac McLaggen “hey y/n are you still into that dumb slytherin or you going to take me up on my previous offer” it had taken a lot of energy to not punch him then and there.

“Cormac we’re never going to be a thing get over it” just as he was about to retaliate Pansy had thankfully interrupted him by pushing you into the direction of the door and showing him the finger.Once we were out of sight she began to ramble on “What a dick it’s been what 3 years ,come on, everyone can tell you and Theo are infatuated with each other”

“pansy come on it’s not like that” you didnt know why you still insisted when you knew she knew you better then yourself “yeah yeah why else have you been single your whole life?” you just rolled your eyes not in the mood to have the same repetitive conversation.

It's not that you didn’t like Theo it’s just you thought it was too good to be true.While you had been single he had managed to be seen at different parties with different girls and a part of your heart would break each time while you waited for your turn.

“Okay i’ll stop talking but will you tell him what happened and how McLeery will not stop bugging you” that had made you chuckle but it stopped when you thought about how Mclaggen had followed you around school during fifth year begging you to date him until Theo found out and had beaten him black and blue and he didn't stop until Mattheo and Lorenzo had dragged him away from the boy that became limp on the floor with blood everywhere. You shiver as you recalled the memories “I think i’ll refrain from telling him this time”

Y/N and Pansy had just returned to the common room from the final class of the day.

As you and pansy went down the stairs towards the boys you looked up and were met with theo’s eyes and he beckoned you over to sit with him as we made our way over you felt pansy nudge you and you looked over to see her wiggling her eyebrows teasing you.

You couldn't blame me for my feelings for the Italian boy with the hypnotising eyes, we had met during first year and have been inseparable since. We were probably the closest to each other amongst the group, we had been with each other through ups and downs and found comfort within each other.

As you made your way over to Theo he discarded his cigarette on the ashtray. You had gone to sit on the armchair but he snaked an arm around your waist and moved you over to sit on his lap "that's better amore mio" he then started playing with the ends of your hair while focusing on his conversation with Blaise.

As you turned around to face the other boys and pansy while trying to appear unfazed which was harder then it looked especially with Theo rubbing circles on your inner thighs causing butterflies to appear in your tummy.

You gave pansy a knowing look once you saw her move over to cuddle with Blaise. Apart of you felt quite jealous of how easy it was for your friends to form relationships but of course the other part of you felt joyful for your friends.

You began to relax in his arms and lay your head on the side of his neck until a trail of goosebumps began to form on your neck from Theo whispering “Are you feeling okay?You don't look well,my love” with the soft gaze in his eyes when he looked at you it was hard to not give in but you just nodded “I just had a long day and had double DADA lessons with Snape."

Theo looked at you unconvinced but he seemed to have let it go “Do you want to take a nap in my dorm and then we can hang out with them later” he knew you so well you gently nodded,now feeling more tired at the thought of sleeping.

He tapped on your thigh to alert you to stand up as he took you by the hand informing the group we were going for a nap. You refused to look back avoiding Pansys knowing look.

As he led you up the stairs to his dorm and brought you into the room with his hand still intertwined with yours.The room that was usually resided by Mattheo and Lorenzo now empty Theo had now gotten comfortable on his bed whilst you took of your shoes.

Theo spread out his arms inviting you into his embrace,you gladly joined him. After a few moments of silence Theo began to play with your hair and you glanced up to him to find him already looking at you “You know you don't have to hide what your feeling Amore mio”he let out a sigh“I know but i just don’t want to stir the pot or anything” He gave you a look which meant ‘stop playing or i’ll found out myself’ which caused you to reluctantly spill.

“It’s just i’ve been single my whole life and now i’m not sure if i’m destined to face unrequited love for the rest of my life and i feel like everyone’s gained some experience including you who has a a different girl each party and i feel like I'm missing out” you let out a breathe you didn’t know you were holding from your rant.

You felt like a weight was taken of your shoulders you glanced up again to see what he was thinking “principessa ,I truly wish you could see yourself the way i see you and how worthy and valuable you are,none of those girls compare to you and those excuses of a men don't even deserve to breathe the same oxygen as you."and with that he left a kiss on your forehead

Even though you felt flustered you couldn’t believed the words that come out of his mouth in absolute awe your gaze dropped down to his lips as he licked it and your words had began to spill out of your mouth “Would you ever love me more than a friend?" he looked taken aback and started to shift which made you regret your words instantly "I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable I don't know why I said that" you started to remove yourself from his hold in a panic over the possibility of ruining your friendship before he pushed you back onto the bed, held you by the waist to secure you in place and connected your lips together with him on top of you.

His soft,pinkish lips against yours as you both fought for dominance he gently bit your lower lip.It felt as if your lips perfectly fit together and you knew it was going to be your new addiction. You both separated gasping for air "ti amo così tanto mio tesoro"(I love you so much my darling) you gazed up at him unable to speak you felt like you were in a trance"I love you so much I can’t even explain it in words but I know I only want you for the rest of my life and you heal different pieces of my heart each time I lay eyes on you" you couldn't even fathom the things he was saying it had all felt surreal.

"I love you too ragazzo carino" (pretty boy) you replied leaning up to give him another peck on his lips "does that mean your finally mine Bella ragazza?" (pretty girl) you chuckled you felt like the stars and moon had aligned "of course,its not like I haven't been longing for you since third year"at the confirmation he had been waiting for Theo tugged you closer to him on top of you giving you another kiss that should be written in the books.

The kiss began to heat up and become more passionate ,full of emotion, he tugged on the hemline of your shirt taking it off. His fingers crawling slowly upwards,stopping at your sternum.

You interrupted the kiss before it could go further "At least Mclaggen will finally leave me alone"Theo let out a groan at the mention of the boy "ugh principessa why would you mention him"you giggled as he rolled his eye out of annoyance "That bastard won't be able to touch you with a ten-foot pole"you felt yourself get turned on at his sudden anger "why don't you show him who I belong to?"

Theo grinned at the idea and continued his previous actions displaying his love for you all over your body.

The thought of a nap being long-forgotten..

[is-the-snake-video-cute]

Here's an odd one for you. Is there any science or methodology behind, for lack of a better term, "snake charisma?"

Phantom has a very curious passive talent: people seem to like him. Even people who profess to be uncomfortable around, or even terrified of, snakes. I've observed this phenomenon with both friends and family, as well as total strangers (like contractors who come to my house to fix/set up something). I'm always respectful of peoples' fears and phobias and never push anyone to go farther than they're comfortable with, and the boys always stay in their tanks unless otherwise requested. But somehow, people seem drawn to Phantom and willing to ask questions, take pictures, or even attempt to pet him. And among people who like snakes, he's a superstar! For his vet visits all the vet techs want to stop in and visit him. It's crazy!

I thought maybe this was just a ball python thing at first. Ball pythons are pretty docile and have silly little :3 faces so maybe they come across as more approachable. But I've noticed this same trend doesn't happen with my other bp Latte.

I haven't really noticed any significant behavioral differences between the two that might make Phantom seem more approachable than Latte. Phantom is more social and adventurous, but most people wouldn't know that right away if they're nervous about even getting near the snake tanks. So I'm wondering if there's something else at work here. Have you ever seen this phenomenon with your snakes? I know you do programs and have ambassador snakes so I'm curious if there's some kind of trait or trend for this.

I'm not familiar with any relevant research here, but some snakes just have very likable personalities!

Charisma (for lack of a better word!) is something that I need to consider for my ambassadors, and a lot of the time I find it ties into traits like being more social and confident. I think we often underestimate how much people and animals can pick up on each other's energy, and some snakes are more put off by a nervous person touching them than others, and sometimes people will feel better holding a snake that is behaving very calmly.

With my sweet bp Miriam, people will very often describe her as "friendly" even before they touch her, just from something about her demeanor and the way she moves. It's hard to describe, because snakes aren't very emotive animals, but I think people just can really pick up on the vibes!

[the-anime-enthusiast]

pls shoto / hawks type of women

MHA CHARACTERS TYPE IN WOMEN

#2 Keigo Takami - Hawks

KEIGO TAKAMI - PHYSICAL

He likes his women a lil shorter 😌🫶 Like 5'2 - 5-6 buuutt will GLADLY take on a model height baddie ANY DAY OF THE WEEK "what's the point of wings if I can't use them to fly up and kiss you??" 🤧

AN ABSOLUTE ASS MAN he loves the legs, the butt, all of it and in between but besides be a total tweaker for a nice ass he has a special place in his heart for boobs 🫶 specifically b-c cups though 🌚 he doesn't know why but he likes a smaller size 😉

Siren eyes are his ULTIMATE WEAKNESS something about someone who looks so intense and like they're about to eat him alive bc hes so fucking annoying GETS BRO GOING 🤩 He can tease you all day any day but if you act like he's just another guy to you HE WILL CHASE YOU TO THE ENDS OF THE DAMN EARTH ‼️‼️

Sucker for dimples 😌 Loves to see some chubby cheeks with the cutest dimples 🫡 AND SMILE LINES OMFGGG 😍😍😍🙏🙏🙏 he doesn't even know what it is about them but it makes his heart SKIP A BEAT

He LUVS a sun kissed skin look 🌞 like a slightly tanned face with some redness left over from a sunburn, freckles starting to pop up everywhere HE LOVES IT 💥💥💥

Short and stout or tall and skinny he loves it all 🫡🫡🫡 Bro is NOT PICKY 😭 As long as ur face cute hell love you until hell freezes OVVVERRR BRO 🌚🌚🌚

KEIGO TAKAMI - MENTAL

Literally just someone he can vibe with 🙂‍↕️ If you match energy he will worship you like THE AIR HE BREATHES 😍 Just someone laid back and chill but also can have a fub time and a positive outlook on the future "pessimists are my worst enemy" was once scratched from an interview 🌚

While he loves an optimist and like minded folk realism is the most important thing he could ask for -- Someone who understands his job and the things he has to do 💯 (this stems a lot from the twice incident which i will touch on at the end of this)

Can we all admit he's fs got mommy issues ✋ he would die for a lady who will hold him in her arms at the end of the day and just let him exist in the peace and quiet of his home with her 🙂‍↔️

SMART WOMEN 😍 he loves someone smart, youre working to get ur PhD? SMASH‼️ A teacher ?? SMASH‼️ Literally any job or skill that requires emotional strength and a BIG BRAIN and he's weak in the knees 🤭

KEIGO TAKAMI - RANDOM

Blissfully unaware people who will lounge in bed all day reading a magazine then running up to him as he gets home from work peppering him will kisses is like a very specific want of his - 😭 bro just wants someone to love him fr ✊😔

Has a weird thing for teachers -💀 Anytime a girl is like "Oh yeah I never told you? I'm a Pre-K teacher!' his eye twitches and he feels like he's going insane 😶‍🌫️ (in the best way possible)

You're the only person he's ever told this or would let do this to him - but give him back scratches at the base of his wings AND HE EVAPORATES 🫠🫠

NERDS 💯💯💯 A secret fangirl???? He's never living it down. EVER. He'll bring you home limited edition, u released, ect ect merch for, not only him, but ALL THE TOP HEROES bc he gets first dibs from being so high in the charts 😌

Going of off nerds again, IF YOU CORRECT HIM ON SOMETHING (literally anything...it's concerning) HE GETS SOOO HOT AND BOTHERED he's never been able to figure out why but being out in his place by someone so intellectually advance does something to him 🧍‍♀️

THATS THE POST!! (but here's some end credits and comments rq 😉)

About the twice situation, although he recognizes what he did was wrong, he doesn't regret it, because it truly changed the tide and outcome of the war, and he needs someone who sees that and defends him whole heartedly ✋

ANYWAYS I HAD SO MUCH FUN DOING THIS REQUEST ‼️ I've never been a huge fan of hawks so it was SO much fun coming up with stuff and diving more into his character ‼️‼️ I hope y'all enjoy 😉

also...idk if y'all can tell... but I NEED HIM AND FUYUMI TO BECOME A THING PLEASE HORIKOSHI ID GIVE YOU MY LIFE (the head cannons have nothing to do with that shit it's all separate it just happens to line up VERY well) 😍

BYYEEEE THANKYOU ‼️

[atzaurora]

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𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒆: imagine (smut/suggestive)

𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑: dating !!poly!relationship!!

.ᐟ.ᐟ𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔.ᐟ.ᐟ: 18+/smut/suggestive content, MDNI!!! poly!relationship, gang bang, small mommy kink

𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚: Y/n is a little stressed with all the comeback schedules so her boyfriends make sure she can 'relax' for a little while.

𝒘/𝒄: 1.730

𝒂/𝒏: because the last ot8 fic was very well received here's another one! please leave feedback or requests!!

here's my 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕!

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Ateez's new album was out and being promoted like crazy. Performance here, content there, a lot to do at this time. You were quite stressed and came home late every day, having to work a lot at the company. Your boyfriends started to notice how you were exhausted and on low energy the whole time.

"자기 (baby), are you home already?" San's voice echoed through the house when you closed the door behind you. "Yes! I'm here!" you replied instantly, setting down your bag and putting your shoes away.

San came to the front door, hugging you tightly, nuzzling his face in your neck. "How are you, love?" he mumbles, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek.

"I'm good, I didn't have as much to do today as the past few days." you smile, walking into the kitchen, behind the counter to make yourself some dinner. "did you guys eat already?" San nods his head, leaning on the opposite side of the counter, watching you. "Woo made some food, wasn't as good as yours, but eatable." San laughs.

You chuckle "good. my babies need to eat a lot with all of the work for the comeback." San gets up, walking around the counter on your side. For a few minutes he just stands behind you, watching you making some food for yourself. Then you feel two big, strong arms wrap around your waist, soft lips caressing your neck softly. You let out a small gasp as soon as you feel his body against your own. "you know..." San begins, mumbling the words into your neck "We could help you release a little of the stress"

You feel a smirk creep onto your face, knowing exactly what he was referring to. You nod "Oh, I'm sure you have your ways." He chuckles, spinning you around by your waist. Once you're facing him, he presses your body against the kitchen counter. He grabs your thighs, easily picking you up, your legs immediately wrapping around his waist. He walks over to his bedroom, stopping shortly next to the living room and letting a "guys, we gotta help our girl out a little" echo through the room.

He softly lays you down on the bed, not backing away an inch, staying right above you, peppering your face with kisses. It doesn't take long till everyone is gathered in San's room, sitting down beside the two of you. "Aw, our little kitten needs us, I see.." Seonghwa whispers teasingly, stroking over your stomach down to your thighs. You close your eyes, a desperate look covering your face, desire filling you up already at his touch. Yunho laughs a little when he sees the look already on your face, tho they haven't even started yet.

"San, do us the favour." Jongho cocks his head at San, motioning him to undress you. San understands him immediately, taking off your pants quite fast. You knew he wanted this as much as you did right now. "Sweetheart, relax. We'll make you feel good, alright?" Yeosang whispered into your ear, pressing a few kisses to your cheek, his fingers gazing over your hand reassuringly.

You lay sprawled on the bed, your body trembling with excitement, as the eight handsome faces surround you like a living, breathing bouquet of desire. They all look so eager, so hungry for you, and your heart swells with love and lust as they each claim a piece of your soul with their eyes.

San starts by peeling off your shirt, revealing the lacy black bra that's been hidden beneath your work clothes all day. The others watch intently, licking their lips as they wait for their turn. "Mommy, you're so beautiful," Jongho murmurs, his voice a warm caress against your skin as he leans in to kiss your collarbone. The pet name sends a jolt of electricity down your spine, making your nipples pebble under the fabric. He wasn't the most noticeable during a group 'session' but the nicknames he spat out once in a while, always had you weak.

Seonghwa wastes no time in unclipping your bra, the fabric falling away to expose your breasts to their eager eyes. He cups one gently, his thumb flicking over the sensitive peak. "Look at these pretty things," he whispers, his voice hoarse with desire. "They're all ours tonight." His words are met with a chorus of approving murmurs, and your body responds eagerly, arching into his touch. You wanted him, so badly, him, everyone, inside you, deep.

Yeosang slides down the bed, planting soft kisses along your stomach, his hands skimming over your thighs. "You're so responsive," he praises, his eyes shining with admiration. His mouth reaches your panties, and with a gentle tug, he exposes your wetness to the cool air. The scent of your arousal fills the room, and the tension ratchets up another notch. You can feel a strong sigh leave his mouth, the air hitting your wet folds, making your eyes roll back once more. You squeeze Seonghwa's arm, you were still holding onto somehow.

Wooyoung sidles up next to you, his hand sneaking around to grip your hip. "Let us love you, mommy, make you feel just right," he says, his voice a seductive purr. He leans in to claim your mouth in a deep, passionate kiss, his tongue dancing with yours as you moan into his mouth. His teeth graze your bottom lip, a brand of possession that makes you squirm with pleasure. He moves his lips away from your mouth, onto your neck, sucking, biting, licking. Your head starts to fill with fog, your mind going completely blank as his lips are on your skin. Your hands reach behind his head, tugging on his hair, your nails leaving a few marks on his back as well. "gorgeous." he breathes out, catching his breath again after he was satisfied with the red and purple mark he had left on you.

Yeosang's mouth descends on your clit, bringing you back to reality, only now making you realize his face was stuffed between your thighs already, your body bucks upwards, and you can't help but let out a loud moan. The vibrations of your voice seem to resonate through the room, spurring the others into action. Mingi takes your left nipple into his mouth, his teeth grazing the sensitive flesh, while Hongjoong kisses his way down your right arm, leaving a trail of open-mouthed kisses along the way. "Oh~ captain—" you groan, his kisses on your skin made you feel some type of way only he could. "You like this princess?" he asks sloppy, his open-mouthed kisses making a trail of salvia hang out of his mouth. He looked incredibly good, almost too good to handle, especially with the others pleasing you at the same time. All you could do was nod in response. "Good girl" he grins, getting back to his kisses.

The bed shifts as the others move into place, eager to worship your body. Yunho slides two of his long and slim fingers inside you, curling it just right to make your eyes roll back. "So wet for us," he whispers, his breath hot against your ear. You whimper, your legs spreading wider to accommodate him. He pumps his fingers in and out. Yeosang's tongue never leaving your cunt, working its magic as well. The pleasure of Yunho's amazing fingers all stuffed in you and Yeosang's tip of his tongue flicking over your folds was enough to make you cum already after a few minutes. "Well done, love" Mingi praises you, kissing your forehead, while Yunho's fingers slip outside of your hole, leaving an empty feeling and Yeosang licking you clean.

The empty feeling doesn't last long tho. As you look around you see all of your boyfriends were already halfway undressed, except for Seonghwa. His erection was already clearly standing up straight to his stomach. He lifts your body a little, shifting under you, to slide in from there. The sensation of fullness starts to build as Seonghwa presses into you from behind, his thick cock filling you up as Jongho decides to massage your breasts once more. Meanwhile, Mingi watches with a hungry gaze, stroking himself in time with Seonghwa's thrusts. You can feel the weight of his stare, adding to the intensity of the moment. "fuck, you're so beautiful." He groans next to you, his hands moving faster up and down his cock, chasing his own high while he watches you get fucked by Seonghwa.

Hongjoong kisses down your neck, leaving a trail of hickeys next to the ones Wooyoung already made as he goes, while Jongho and Wooyoung play with your breasts, their hands teasing and pinching until you're panting with need. You don't even know what to focus on at this point. Exposed chest here, dick there, and not to forget their pretty faces and loving gazes all over you. Now, San, not to be outdone, kisses along your inner thigh, his tongue tracing patterns that make your skin tingle. You let out a loud whimper, your body feels like it's on fire, the sensations overwhelming in the best possible way. You're not sure how much more you can take, but somehow, you know they'll never let you break. They're with you, inside you, all of them, in a symphony of love and lust that resonates through every fiber of your being.

They praise you, whisper sweet nothings, and call you their queen, their goddess, their mommy. You don't last long anymore with Seonghwa deeply buried inside of you, the others sucking on your skin, pleasing you, pleasing themselves. You sense a big wave of pleasure wash over you, emptying yourself onto his dick. Not long after feeling his load shoot inside you as well. He is panting heavily underneath you. Your breathing matches his and your bodies rise and fall at the same time, your fingers grasping the sheets tightly.

"you were amazing, kitty." he pants, slowly slipping out of you, making you whimper. You turn your head towards Mingi when you hear a loud groan escaping his mouth. The cause being his own hands, which helped him reach his climax all while watching you. Jongho releases his mouth from your breast, leaving a few soft kisses along your face. "feeling better now?" he asks. "Definitely" you respond, still a little out of breath.

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[coco-hun]

AllMight Thots

Allmight x reader ( A little nsfw)

Allmight was the perfect man. Never letting you get groceries alone, always has a hand on the lower part of your back for protection, so emotionally available what more could you want?

Well.. when a man so gentle with you those thoughts of a more mature relationship develop in your mind, what if your big strong man felt a little pissed off today? Villains coming up the masses, students get hurt a lot easier equaling more paperwork, and he didn't take out the trash and do the dishes so now you his pretty little darling is nagging him; his resolve slipping each word as you parade your thick ass around his penthouse.

" And then you couldn't even clean the kitchen a little Tohi? Like I understand it early but-"

" Do you ever shut the hell up dear?" His body now relaxed but, the tense is thick.

Getting up from the couch and pouring himself a smooth glass of whiskey, only a little shot before he downs it and turns his blue eyes towards your confused frame. Stalking towards you slowly you back away now hitting the counter his body traps you in as filthy words flew out his mouth

"The hell am I asking you that for? Even with my hand over than filthy mouth you still can't shut up. But maybe I need to reinforce some old rules into you hm?"

" N-no I was just set back a few minutes cause of these dishes and-"

" Dear, I'm going to say this as respectfully as I can at this moment, but I don't give a fuck about those dishes. What I seem to care about is what your safeword for the next few hours?"

And that your gentleman of a husband said for the next few hours as he degrades every little thing about with his hips pushing against your ass your body up and down, an arm around your throat tightening every time he forces another thick glob of cum in your guts. Without fail maneuvering your body in every position he feels will set you straight he pushes and pushes your body to feel his cock; every inch, vein, and the tip scrapping against your walls draws heaps and heaps of moan from your pretty throat

" Take it- ah fuck TAKE IT"

Moans and pleas for him to slow down go unheard as he pushes deep inside you, your thighs now creamy and wet wraps around his hips and your one thrust away from the verge of passing out when you feel warm again, another load falls into like nothing, that is when he pulls out and a waterfall of cum gushes out that poor pussy of yours. Too bad for you because he wasn't done yet baby

" Can't have none of this leaking hm dear? I still got a few more loads to fill but your pussy filled quite nicely"

Looking up at him you gulp as his thick cock lays upon those chubby cheeks of yours, precum oozing from the tip onto your nose

" Open up darling, you've still got two more holes but as your husband and not some fuck buddy, I let you suckle on this till your energy up"

What a gentle man he is.

A.N: ( I don't know abt yall but why smut is easier to write than fluffy ideas? But tell me if this is good because I got some ideas and remember I love yall!)

[vanillesprincess]

how to fix being "ugly" once and for all

hello loves! I have just discovered Mae Alice Suzuki's youtube channel and I fear it is already changing my life!

I was watching her video and I decided to take a few notes so that I could make a blog post and read her tips whenever I needed it + share them

In the video, Mae explains how to stop being "ugly", and become a more beautiful person. Being "ugly" is not only about physical looks. First of all, I personally believe no one is actually ugly, but everyone has the potential, the right and the capability of reaching the best version of themselves!

Being "ugly" is about not feeling beautiful mentally, and it affects our physical body, environment and behavior. If you hate yourself, hate other people, engage in useless drama and you're always complaining about life and others, this might be for you.

Dear, you have to realize than if instead of improving yourself, you keep hating others... this is going against you. Beautiful people have a beautiful personality, first of all. This is what makes them beautiful.

the body attracts and reflects the ugly vibes, desperation, hatred you put out in the world

if you are convinced that you are ugly, you're realizing that assumption. this is no magic: if you're convinced of it, you probably will never even consider yourself potentially beautiful, you won't consider your body worthy of care, and you will never improve

So... time to change!

In order to change reality, you need to change your thoughts, which will help changing your habits.

Change your "I AM" mindset and speech: don't absorb negative energy of others and do not put out negative energy

Branding yourself as beautiful: you are BEAUTIFUL. own it. most people are not born ugly or beautiful, but people "brand" themselves as ugly or beautiful. believe you're beautiful and ACT LIKE IT!

Caring about yourself: this involves hygiene, diet. it's easy and simple. this is the basis

Own your natural self: think that you're beautiful, own it, and you will become beautiful without implementing unnatural change that is not authentic for you. being unnatural means you are insecure and afraid of yourself. the beauty standards change all the time, so you only actually need to be authentic and take care of yourself. this also means you will naturally become confident

Understand what works best for you: a lot of people that are attractive don't appear like so because they do not know what works best for them, they wear whatever is trendy even when it doesn't make them feel good by reflecting their personal style. Use, consume and wear what makes you feel good + fits you

You just need to learn: learn how to put make up on in strategic points, learn your best angles for pics, what works best for your body and face shapes

most importantly, looks are not everything. if you are not attracted to yourself, doesn't mean that people don't find you pretty. you just need to appreciate yourself more, really!

[breakfastteatime]

Today's Fallen Order request is 'Small' for @foolinapril

Jaro would not say he forgets how small children are. It is simply that he so rarely encounters them that he has no need to recollect how tiny both they and their furnishings are. He has had apprentices before, certainly, but never one so young and therefore so small. Tiny, actually, would be more accurate. This youngling, Cal Kestis, is quite literally pocket-sized. Given what the Council has asked Jaro to take Cal into, he may very well place the child in a pocket to keep him safe.

The boy says goodbye to his clanmates, accepts a few clumsy hugs, waves one final time, and joins Jaro. His lightsaber swings on his hip, the hilt nearly as long as his leg. He has a tiny carryall that likely only carries a few changes of clothes. Jedi, after all, do not have possessions. That’s alright. They will need to stop by the quartermaster to pick up the necessary supplies a growing Padawan will require.

And Cal must grow. Fast.

The boy stares up (and up) at Jaro, gamely trying to mask the tears shimmering in his eyes. “I’m ready, Master Tapal.” His voice is so small it sounds like the squeak of the Temple mice.

Nodding, Jaro leads the way out of the youngling dorms. Cal’s footsteps pitter patter rapidly behind him, and Jaro remembers he must slow his pace for such a small pair of legs. He should review standard Human growth patterns. He knows enough to recognise Cal will be small for some time yet, and even fully grown, he will be significantly shorter than Jaro.

It is early morning and the Temple’s corridors are quieter than ever. So many Jedi are absent, called into service for the GAR. Jaro and Cal will only evade that fate for a few short months as they adjust to their new partnership.

They reach their shared quarters. Jaro opens the door and shows Cal in. They enter his chambers. Cal looks around wide-eyed. Jaro took care to requisition new furniture to avoid the likelihood of triggering Cal’s psychometry. A desk, a chair, and a rather tall cabin bed. Cal’s clan master, Petra Entola, told him Cal liked high places.

Yes, they have much to do in these few short months.

“Do you like it, Padawan?”

“Yes, Master,” Cal says, placing his bag upon the floor. “I’ve never had my own room before.” And then he shrugs. “Not that I remember anyway. I like it.”

There is, however, a slight buzz of confusion in the air.

“You are certain?”

“Uh huh!”

He sounds cheery enough. Jaro gives Cal a brief tour (there isn’t much to see beyond a common living space, a small kitchen, a refresher that must seem very large to Cal, and Jaro’s own room. They leave again shortly after the tour to gather supplies from the quartermaster, stop in the mess hall for breakfast, and then take a walk around the Room of a Thousand Fountains. After lunch, they meditate together and Jaro allows the boy to burn off some nervous energy in the dojo. As expected, Cal warms up as the day goes on and finds lots of questions to ask, all of which Jaro is happy to answer.

By the end of the long day, Cal yawns and drags his feet all the way back to their quarters. He is surprisingly efficient in the refresher, and is soon clad in pyjamas, rubbing his eyes, and off to bed.

Jaro has just made himself some tea when he hears a rather distinct crash. Rushing to his Padawan’s room, he finds Cal safely on his bed…

His desk, however, has tipped over and hit the floor face first.

“What happened?”

“Oh, I didn’t see a ladder so I figured this was a challenge!” Cal says brightly.

“A challenge?”

“Yeah – how to get into bed. So, I stood on the desk and jumped, except the desk kinda… fell.”

Suddenly, the morning’s brief hint of confusion makes perfect sense.

“Tomorrow, we will find a ladder,” Jaro says.

[sebastiannewai]

Drunk Tiger | ksy

✿ hoshi x reader

✿ fluff

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You’re at home, curled up with a book, when your phone buzzes on the coffee table. It’s a text from Jeonghan. "Hey y/n, Hoshi had a bit too much to drink. He keeps saying he wants you to pick him up and no one else. Can you come get him?"

You smile, shaking your head fondly. Of course, He would only want you to pick him up. You grab your keys and head out the door, a sense of warmth spreading through you as you drive to the bar.

When you arrive, you spot Jeonghan waiting outside, his face lighting up when he sees you. "Thanks for coming, y/n . He's inside, being… well, Hoshi."

You laugh, nodding. "No problem. I'll take it from here."

Inside, you find Hoshi at a table, his head resting on his arms. When he sees you, his face lights up like a child. "y/n!" he shouts, stumbling to his feet. He nearly trips over the chair, but you catch him just in time.

"Hey there,love" you say. "Let's get you home, okay?"

He nods vigorously, a goofy grin on his face. "Only if you’re coming with me."

You chuckle, guiding him towards the door. "Of course I am."

The members stepped in to help, guiding and supporting him to get him in the car and to make sure he's buckled in securely. "Take care of him, Y/n".

"Always do" you reply, smiling as you maneuver him into the passenger seat of your car.

On the drive home, he is so full of energy. He insists on singing along to every song on the radio, even though he doesnt know the words. At one point, he grabs your hand and kisses it.

"y/n, did you know I love you?" he says, his words slurring slightly.

You squeeze his hand gently. "Yeah, I know and I love you too."

When you finally pull into your driveway, He tries to get out of the car on his own but nearly faceplants into the grass. You catch him again just in time, laughing as you help him to his feet.

"Careful there." you say, guiding him to the front door.

Inside, you help him to the couch, where he slumps down with a dramatic sigh. "This couch is so comfy. Did you know that?"

You laugh, nodding. "Yes, I know. Let’s get you some water."

You head to the kitchen, but when you return, you find him attempting to dance. His moves are clumsy and uncoordinated but he looks so cute. He sees you watching and grins. "Dance with me, y/n!"

You shake your head, chuckling. "Maybe another time, love. Let’s get you to bed."

In the bedroom, He flops onto the bed, snuggling into the pillows with a sigh. You smile, sitting beside him and stroking his hair. Just as you think he’s about to fall asleep, he suddenly sits up. "Wait! I need to tell you something important!"

You lean in, curious. "What is it, love?"

He takes a deep breath, his expression serious. "I... I think I might be a tiger."

You can’t help but laugh. "A tiger? Really?"

He nods vigorously, eyes wide. "Yes! Watch this." He then raises his hands, curling his fingers into claws,and lets out a soft, surprisingly adorable rawr. "See? Horanghae!!"

You chuckle. "You’re the most adorable tiger I’ve ever seen."

He grins, looking incredibly proud of himself. "Tigers need lots of naps, you know."

You kiss his forehead. "I love you, my tiger. Now, get some rest."

As he drifts off to sleep, you can't help but smile. You know there's nowhere else you'd rather be.

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Thank u so muchie <3

all likes and reblogs are greatly appreciated! :')

[shakespearean-dream]

TW!!! — blood, scarring and mild body horror ahead 🥲

benny’s turn!

before i start i wanna clarify i hesitated a bit on posting this because lovely mutual @vor-leser just posted his benny interpretation (go look at it and follow him btw), and idk if we like mind melded or smth but our human benny’s are super similar LOL. i damn near scrapped the whole thing out of fear someone would get mad at me but i Would Not be able to start over and get this done ever so this is as good as we’re gonna get. 😭 my apologies niko love u /p

this has been like a full 7 days in the making 😭😭 the art block that i felt coming on while doing ellen and ted hit me like an optimus prime sized semi truck this week along with a depressive episode so i definitely appreciate that happening and i am not upset about it at all! /s i’m totally good so don’t worry or anything /gen, mental health is just weird and i also wanted to explain the gap in my posts 😔

i do not know how to feel about this drawing if i’m so fr with you; i’m proud of myself for AM-ified benny cause i think i got the slowly rotting from the inside out primal freak energy down pretty good, but on the other hand this feels kinda empty?? i usually have a lot more commentary squished in here but i think my brain’s a little fried 🤦‍♂️ i love drawing me some beautiful buff men though so drawing normal ben was familiar territory. however his wack ass haircut i gave him is his punishment for being a PRICK!!! go sit in the corner and think about ur actions benjamin.

like ted n the rest of the sillies i’m not straying too far from canon with his personality, he’s an ass and a murderer and a hella smart dickhead who desperately needs to be punished by the universe (thank you for that one AM). hot take i did not like his “redemption arc” in his game scenario and i don’t think with how he was throughout the entirety of his life (and also throughout the game, main example his inner dialogue) he would actually go out of his way to help the kid because he means it??? n prove he changed to the guys he killed cause he means it??? i dunno maybe AM torturing him made him have a main character “omg i’ve been in the wrong this whole time!!1” moment like the game suggests i’m just not buying it 💀 i’m sure it’s just cause bennys scenario couldn’t be too long and they couldn’t fully flesh him out which i won’t fault the game makers for. i’m a steven universe fan, i know what time constrictions can do to a plot and redemption arc 😭 looking at you white diamond…

his wife n kids are up top and they’re kinda neat to me— i was considering the hc that part of the reason manya (his canon wife) left him is because she realized she was a lesbian which would be funny as fuck considering benny’s also One Of Them Queers 😭. i think during the brief times he was home and able to parent his daughters they got really scared and tired of him, one because he’s just a very threatening powerful and overbearing man, but also because i feel like he would’ve been on their ASS about everything. grades, extracurriculars, friends, wardrobe, this guy was micromanaging his family to an annoying extreme (ofc because of his perfectionist complex). he probably loved manya and the kids in his own weird way, but it was more contractual to him than any real personal relationship. maybe he inherited that from his own parents?? i doubt he ever talked to them after he moved out.

that’s about the end of my thoughts on this fucker. 🥲 funny storyyyy i just remembered i have laundry to finish so im gonna go do that, lord help me. thank you for reading all this if you did!!!!! we’re over halfway through so who do yall want next? wanna save AM or nimdok for last? i’ll see u guys later :]]]