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silverskye · 4 months

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I really want to make friends online and just talk about our interests. I don't care if we have things in common. I want someone who can just message or email the most silly memes or just say "hey this song reminded me of you". Random messages. I don't care if you don't answer me for months bc I guarantee you that I will be ecstatic to see your message months or years later. You messages are NEVER late. They're just rescheduled.

#rambles #I miss having online friends #everyone has a busy life and I know life gets in the way #I am so used to keeping tomyswlf that I think I am low-key lonely

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pr0grammed-elegance · 2 years

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I really wanna make cool online friends but I feel I’m not in depth in any fandoms enough to meet people on here 😭

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cosmicescapade · 10 months

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I'm trying to post more on here but I feel like I've forgotten how to make internet friends

#i miss having online friends #how do i integrate myself please #i only ever posted in quotev back in middle school and that went up in flames lol

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bylrndgm · 2 months

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JULIE AND THE PHANTOMS (2020) // JULIE E OS FANTASMAS (2011) 1.01 - Wake Up // 1.01 - Enfrentando Fantasmas -> Julie meets the Band.

#julie and the phantoms #julie e os fantasmas #jatp #mine #mine:gif #storytime: when i was in middle school i found myself to be obsessed with julie e os fantasmas (jeof)#and by watching it i have learned some words in portoguese which - later in my life - i have always wanted to learn better #besides that - in middle school i used to wear julie's iconic side ponytail !! i was THE biggest jeof fan like EVER #i used to watch it with my little sister and i would pretend i had some ghosts friends as well - popping out of my stereo (lol)#so... flash forward to 2020. i can't recall HOW i found out about jatp... it's just that i have heard of it and i was like hold on...#does this have to do anything with jeof? so i was super intrigued and watched the pilot and YES!! a brand new up-to-date remake #of my favorite tv show as a kid LIKE WOW. and idk i thought it was somehow underground as the og one ... saw NO ONE talking about it online #until up recently when i got back on tumblr (actually 2 years ago) and i saw there was this LIVELY community of people appreaciating this #show AS MUCH as i was appreciating the og as a youngster.#goes without saying that it was so surprising to me and it healed parts of me that i didn't think needed to be healed. wow. just wow.#i have never posted content for these two bad boys #mostly bcs i was salty that jatp was canceled (ugh) until now!! i hope you enjoyyyyy #ALSO i remember as a kid i was watching jeof on tv right? but i had missed some episodes so i remember LMAO going online and there was this #website (like a random person's own website) that was hosting all of the episodes. my very first experience with streaming series online

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lastdivantruther · 10 months

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soukoku headcanons

#i miss drawing so much #soukoku #dazai x chuuya #dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #bungou stray dogs #bsd fanart #my art #not me changing artstyle every week #this idea was born from me and my friend's cooking habits #dazai follows the recipes he finds online and they're exactly what the recipe says #they're good as long as the recipe is correct #chuuya glances at different recipes if it's something he hadn't cooked before then just goes for whetever image appeared in his head #they had to eat a lot of disgusting food when they were both at mafia and it was chuuya's turn to cook #(i don't think mori who's not-have-a-problem-with-encouraging-kids-using-firearms was paying them enough to eat out)#so yeah #adult chuuya has a characteristic tint in his cooking and dazai is a big fan of it #i haven't touched a dictionary to write all this

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meeaatt · 3 months

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i want more friends but im scared of making new friends this is heinous

#i miss having online friends but im so nervyyyyy uggghhhhhggghfghh its scary

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fleouriarts · 1 year

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feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #hmfcu #riley savage #graydon weaver #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #furry #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)'#NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one”#or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it”#sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

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puppyeared · 11 months

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if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

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pigeonstab · 2 months

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Grieving my old phone rn. I got so attached :(

We changed the screen like three times instead of getting a new one cause I just couldn't let it go. Rip old phone you will be missed o7

#It's dumb but I get so attached to my phones #like this thing is always with me in my pocket #it's where I have my little tumblr people #it's where I have a connection to dumb videos that make me laugh #and cool information #and science facts #and fandom #and access to the whole world #and It's like... this little box has all my intrests and friends in it #and I'm gonna miss the old one eve' if I still have all those things #maybe that's chronically online of me

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sangcreole · 1 month

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#not my place to say because i have no clue what's happening and don't involve myself in any of this but like.#it really does make the fandom experience worse when the only thing people are absorbed in is drama.#i feel very isolated from everyone rn and it's making it very hard to be online #no matter where you stand it's isolating and it sucks. feels like everyone is bonding over gossip that i truly Do Not Care About #and i'm just. sadtoad.jpeg #(not that i don't care about my friends getting bullied or anything!!!)#(this isn't even a vague this is about fandom issues that have Always Existed)#(it just feels like i stay in my lane and anytime i veer out of it i'm bombarded with crazy bullshit LOL)#i miss my friends and my rp partners and i just asfdajdgfasvjd i'm having a hard time being here rn #anyway if you made it to the end of this vent this is all to say: SORRY I'M NOT WRITING AND SORRY I'M NOT ON DISCORD LMAO #tua s4 ruined my life and now i'm trying to get away from vagueposts and bullshit and i just. I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE IT i'm sorry #*【 ❛I'm not the spirit of any age. ❜ 】 ➤ OOC

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vineboom-sfx · 5 months

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Sometimes I hate being such a bitter person because now I can’t fully tell when someone is being normal or being spiteful.

Relatively recently someone who had been a friend of mine prior to drama related issues refollowed me, and it scared the shit out of me. They had unfollowed me without telling me why, blocking me in everything, and at the time I was okay with that- they’re an adult and they’re trying to save face. Now though, it feels wrong. I understand why you did it, but I don’t understand why you’re coming back now- and without saying anything. There was no explanation, and it almost feels self serving- but I don’t want to think poorly of this person for no reason. It sucks to not know if someone you were close to wants to hurt you or not, and what sucks more is that this is how I feel about everyone.

#stfu Ambrose no one cares #I miss having close online friends and feeling safe around them #I havnt felt safe around anyone even irl in years #how do I trust someone when they don’t even explain themselves #vent #personal vent

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bunnihearted · 7 months

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#i've decided that after i've recovered from surgery i want a glow up!!!#i want to make an effort to try to feel better nd not be so miserable all the time. it's so draining nd soul sucking :<#nd some things i wanna do is start better habits such as journaling nd reading a chapter every morning #meditate/do mindfulness every evening. do a full body stretch routine once a day. go to the gym 3-5 times a week.#ofc daily walks in nature (i've missed that sm). spending time w my cat nd dog. getting better at studying a little bit every day #i might even bleach my hair nd dye it... i just wanna dye it one last time then im done T-T #smth im unsure of is my diet. i have no idea what i can eat nd atm im so hungry but im scared of eating. so i'll have to figure that out #nd then try to meet up w my old high school friend every now nd again #try to keep asking for help from the personality disorder psychiatric clinic... or try to get online therapy maybe???#i just wanna feel better nd *do* smth so these r some of the thinngs i wanna try to do to feel better :3 #hopefully i'll feel better soon nd recover as swiftly as possible so i can start wanting to do these things #oh and also!! wanna try to revive my interests. such as writing more nd taking photos nd such

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steakout-05 · 2 months

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i think there is a very special category of "most dense mfer in the world" for people irl who somehow misgender me (and continue to misgender me) despite me wearing multiple layers of men's clothing, cutting my hair short, not shaving, binding my chest and wearing a very visible and big he/him pin on my bag. disrespectfully: how the actual hell did you fuck up that badly.

#like surely you can take a hint as to what gender expression i'm going for. surely.#at this point they have to be doing it on purpose. there's no way you can look at someone who is obviously presenting as masc this much and #-be like ''eerrmmm are u a she'' on accident. no way #unless they think i'm butch??? but also like???? the pronoun pin????? the trans pin?????? HELLO??????????#is there some kind of secret sauce these people are picking up that i don't know about or something. am i missing something #because there's no fucking way i could be missing anything with a literal he/him pin #are people just like.... not being very perceptive????#it happens online too??? somehow??????#my pronouns are one of the only immediate pieces of information someone could get from me online. how the actual fuck.#i'm gonna have to put my pronouns in my username in online games at this point 😭#i'm convinced cis people don't know how to take a hint or something. in any situation #i'm kidding...... or am i?#but seriously though it's as if i gotta hold up a giant sign that says ''I'M A MAN I GO BY HE/HIM'' just to be gendered correctly #it's especially annoying when people continue to misgender me after hearing my voice cause like. i know it's not the lowest voice-#-in the world but SURELY you can decipher something from someone who's on his way to sounding like australian critikal #it's also confusing because i pass to all my friends. and yet. strangers somehow don't get it.#(maybe that's why my friends are my friends and the strangers aren't /jjjjjjjj)#anyway yeah. very annoying #trans #transgender #transmasc #trans man #transphobia #trans issues

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graysongraysoff · 1 month

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unfortunately my therapist was like (and i'm paraphrasing) "hey looking for fulfilment in online spaces and only talking to the same handful of long-distance friends every single day clearly isn't working out for you so maybe we take a break from that and do something that is NOT writing or roleplaying or video games and we do it OUTSIDE of your apartment" which like she's right but it's not at all what i wanted to hear 😔

#'i miss when i could hang out in my room all day without speaking to a soul finishing novels in a span of hours and writing just for me'#'i miss having tons of online friends and rping and writing with them and feeling like we were all equally obsessed'#and then my therapist was like 'maybe instead of repeatedly banging your head against the wall trying to make things like they used to be #trying something totally new would cause less despair'#like maybe but that's scary and i don't wanna

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frecklystars · 14 days

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i have felt absolutely nothing for any of my F/Os lately and idk if coming back online will help. ive been offline since April just queueing literally everything and occasionally coming online if i need to vent and then deleting it and going offline again. my situation really drained me of all of my energy, constantly feeling unsafe and unable to self ship really hurt me. feeling unsafe both irl and with my F/Os really hurts me and i cannot emphasize how damaging it is to feel so unsafe all the time so consistently for 2 years. but im trying so hard to figure out how to bounce back bc my depression is so severe if im not self shipping. so. what do i do here

idk how to uh, reignite a hyperfixation that's 99% gone. genuinely, what do you do if youre autistic and your special interest of one year is fading out? i dont want to replace it with something else + im so depressed i cannot replace it with something else if i tried. i just wanna feel better with my ryan F/Os again even if it's just a little bit. just enough to keep me going

what do i even do? stream a movie night? take ryan character drawing requests/commissions? roleplay with friends who have offered to make F/O accounts interact with this blog? uhhh... man i dont know. ive watched all of ryan's movies except his older ones, and those aren't going to reignite my hyperfixation since i don't have any new characters to self ship with there

its 6am im just rambling into the void and i havent slept. i just wanted to vent 😭 ill delete this later

#i doooo not want my barbie hyperfixation to leave me so. uh #i know i keep saying 'yeah ill come back online' but dude. i HATE it here #i genuinely hate this hellsite after everything ive been put through #but i am so SO NUMB that i just. dont. care anymore what happens to me #and i'll take feeling numb over feeling intense crippling fear any day. my god i cannot function when im this scared.#vent #delete later #sorry to new followers who have no idea what im talking about. disregard this #i am rarely online but my queue posts 24/7 and i havent opened my inbox in 4 months #or dms. i dont know if i will ever open my dms actually im sorry theyre all just sitting there #my brain is going to explode #i queued an answer to one (1) inbox ask and i havent read the rest yet im sorry #i genuinely hate being here but i also miss self shipping and i miss my friends #i dont know what to do

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jichanxo · 3 months

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how it started:

how it's going:

#jitxt #my stuff #proud owner of This Specific Photo of Kimura Takuya #not to conflate the two bc my enjoyment of yagami and kimutaku are connected but separate #but obviously it would be bs to pretend i would've been interested in smap without playing judgment #truthfully i was eyeing a magazine too but i don't like investing money/shelf space into an interest unless i'm certain it's here to stay #unfortunately kimura takuya is still only a recent interest so. something small like this is fine #though i might have to get a bromide holder to keep him safe... i know there's an aus run business that sells idol goods like that...#anyway uhhhh first picture context for those who might've missed my lore earlier:#is that post-JE pre-LJ. i didn't really care for yagami. lmao.#i saw yagami fans and it seemed like they were having fun but i genuinely didn't understand their affection for him #and so getting through LJ and starting to like yagami i was like WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME #thinking “lol look at his lame flat ass (affectionate)” and then going “WHAT. WHAT WAS THAT.”#<- girl who realised that she sounded exactly like the yagami fans online #and so i wrestled with it for a while #and bc i was talking in my friend's discord server about my experience with LJ i have this golden screenshot #of the day i finally gave in. pretty sure i'd been looking at pictures of yagami and kimutaku for like an hour beforehand lol #AND MY MESSAGES AFTERWARDS WERE STILL DRIPPING WITH COPE ABOUT IT #said something along the lines of. that i thought they tried way too hard to make yagami seem cool #and then followed it by saying i felt genuinely upset thinking about how i could never be on a date with him #THE DENIAL IS CRAZY... JUST SAY YOU LIKE HIM #anyway i've long accepted my fate but it's still funny to think about #jichan is asked to leave the fandom for needing to play 2 games to start liking yagami #meanwhile my sister's opinion on him hasn't changed at all. “he's alright” <- real quote about yagami from days ago #anyhow that's one of the main reasons i'm playing JE. so i can reevaluate that game with fresh eyes/new perspective #excuse my impromptu storytime. but i guess this whole post is about landmark moments in Jichan Liking Yagami so it's not entirely unfitting #i like yagami takayuki 👍 and now i like kimura takuya too 👍#gave this photo a goodnight kiss last night btw

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