#I mostly sketch in class so :P

[mu3las]

wasn't able to make an actual drawing for Nishiki's bday yesterday, but I have a bunch of sketches I've made of him, so I thought I'd share those at least (these are all class doodles :P)

[heartz4levi]

do you have any general relationship hcs for till? (fluff) i love ur works btw!!! specially ur hyuna ones <33

you're my dahlia, tulips and daisies !

☆ thinking abt till relationship hcs . . .

☆ till (alnst) ,, gn reader . . established relationship ,, mostly just the things till does to express his love for reader ,, no further warnings. my tummy hurt while i was writing this also anon ure so sweet ily /p.

at the start of your relationship, till would struggle to properly express his love for you. he'd be too nervous to hold your hand, so he'd just interlace your pinkies, turning his head the other way while a deep, crimson hue adorns his features.

it's the small actions that speak volumes with him. till won't be clingy and overly affectionate, he won't shower you with compliments and words of praise every waking moment, he won't take you out on grandiose dates.

rather, he will never stray from your side, usually keeping his arm pressed up against yours when you're next to eachother. like the artist he is, till will stare at you endlessly one day while you're rambling on about something just so he can memorize every little detail on your face, sketching portraits of you in his free time.

will he show said portraits to you? not at first, no. if you find them, he'll be pretty flustered but will ultimately admit that yes, those are drawings of you, because you mean a lot to him and give him enough artistic fuel to last for weeks on end. when he does begin to show you the portraits, it'll be like a pet bringing you a completely useless trinket as a token of affection.

except this isn't a useless trinket. it's solid evidence of how much till loves you, how much time he has and will continue to dedicate to you. when writing new songs, you'll be the focus of multiple pieces, every lyric enunciating just how precious you are, how many positive aspects you bring into his otherwise dull, gloomy life.

till has tried to prepare food for you a couple of times. the first time, he wanted to surprise you with something other than his artistic skills, but ended up failing horribly as he cannot stand the precision it takes to bake some darn muffins, especially the kind he knows you like. the second time, he decided to cook instead of bake. you looked particularly tired and he really wanted to wipe that fatigue off of your face.

and so till tried to cook a meal that is just as easy to prepare as it is satiating and energizing. the end result was.. odd. the presentation wasn't the greatest, it didn't taste raw but it was a little bit too crispy for your liking. regardless, you ate every last bite of it and told him that "it's the thought that counts, but how about you leave the cooking to me, okay?"

despite your attempt at sounding kind, till still sulked afterwards. baking and cooking are not his strong suit, so he'll stick to the talents he is aware of, as per your request.

till has mixed feelings when it comes to dates. like previously mentioned, he won't take you on any grandiose ones — even if it may be to your liking, it's too much for him, as much as he'd love to make you happy. but he will take you on simpler dates every once in a while, something that won't immediately drain his social battery but will be fun for the both of you.

such as — picnics in secluded areas with jaw–dropping views, try out one pottery class to create new additions for the shared space you live in, go to a café with a smaller amount of daily visitors and a calm atmosphere, or you two might stay home and enjoy a movie night.

till will say "i love you" every night before falling asleep in eachother's arms, appreciate you in his own subtle ways and watch the rest of the world burn, himself included, if it meant that you would be safe.

[pastel-medic]

My name is Xed/Pastel ^v^ (He/Xe/They)! I am 25 years old and any other art accts will likely have the username pastelxapple if you want to find me on other platforms!

Medicsona:

Mercenary Intros

Full Refs:

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Blog intro, tags, & rules ⬇️

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Tags:

#my art (or #xed art) - My art tag! You can find my artwork directly with this tag 🐍✨

#ask box - All replies to my inbox are tagged with this! It comprises mostly of Q&As of my mercs or other characters, art requests, and other questions!

#roulette class au (or #tf2 roulette class au) - This is the tag for my TF2 AU, the Roulette Class AU! The long and short of it is I swapped all of the mercenaries' classes and there's major differences in the lore.

#quixote - My gentlesurgery ship tag! So not to confuse my ship with RED Medic and VLT Spy from the usual gentlesurgery ship you can find their content separate from that with this tag!

#medic brothers - This tag is specifically for my Medic Brothers (Fritz and Ludwig), so any art and lore for them are tagged with this!

#lore crumbs 🍰 - Small pieces of art and/or posts about my ocs or AUs! 👏🏼✨ I try to tag posts with any info or headcanons about my characters/AUs ^^

#shortcake medic - Tag used for any art I make of my Medicsona, Shortcake Medic! 🍰💖

#tsu art - (or #twin art) - Art tag for my twin's artwork 🦊 (@/hoshi-tsubasa )! I love sharing her work and she deserves more praise for it! ^v^✨ Yes she is a furry so be kind!!!

#moot art 💖 - Art tag for my artist mutuals! I love to share their work so I keep this tagged to their stuff so I can find it again (cuz I'm dumb and don't wanna scroll through reblogs for eternity)

#other artists (or #reblog) - This is the tag I use when I reblog other amazing artists' work!

General Info:

I've technically been in the TF2 community for more than 6 years but I just recently got back into it as of 2024!

Pr0shipper/“problematic” accounts DNI!!! I will block you >:(((

@/hoshi-tsubasa is my twin! Her art is just as incredible so go check her out too if you'd like! She also draws TF2 stuff here and there, plus she has some TF2 merch you can check out on her redbubble!

My main ship is Gentlesurgery, which I draw quite a lot! If that ship is not your cup of tea I kindly suggest to be polite and just move on, harassment and hate will not be tolerated here. I also have other favorite TF2 ships that I don't have listed above in the "Meet The Artist" template that I may draw from time to time! However, please be mindful that I don't really draw HeavyMedic (Red Oktoberfest), MedicScout (Quickfix/Blunt Trauma), or SniperScout (SpeedingBullet) ships, as those are not ships I'm particularly fond of compared to others (MedicScout cuz as a passionate MedicSpy shipper it just feels uncomfy for me) ;3; very sorry! (ALSO ABSOLUTELY NO SPYSCOUT GET OUT OF HERE WITH THAT DISGUSTING STUFF) I do like most TF2 ships tho (I especially love all Spy ships)! 💖

Please be aware I likely will not draw nsfw! There may be suggestive art tho from time to time :3c Some things will be tagged with tw if needed!

Also please do not tag my art with ship tags unless I have them put under my art! I am not comfortable with certain dynamics being labeled as ships, especially if the dynamic is not meant to be in any form romantic/sexual ;;

My hyperfixations do shift so I may hop from one media to another or draw crossovers! I will usually post my other non-TF2 art on my instagram, but all TF2 content will be here!

In addition, please be aware I have ADHD and an alter system (DID), so please note that I may go silent with posts every once in a while. My mental health is not a subject I care to make front and center here, so I prefer any questions or topics of such be kept private! Thank you! 💖

If you can I encourage you to reblog my artwork if you like it! Traction on tumblr is very different than on other social sites like twitter and tiktok, so it would mean a lot to me if you could share my art! 🥺💌 I'm deeply humbled if you enjoy my content, thank you!

Ask Box Rules:

This is a 16+ ask blog, so if you wanna ask me or my version of the mercs something pls feel free! Anon questions will be turned on and off from time to time, but if people completely abuse it or things get out of hand I will shut them off permanently ;3; Also please respect that there's a limit for how much you can ask of me, I won't consistently draw the same thing over and over if it's asked for like more than 3 times (especially by the same person)!

Also, if I do not respond to your ask, it may be because I am either uncomfortable with the ask, am unsure how to respond, or simply do not feel that it is an ask that needs to be posted. I am also NOT an rp blog so I will not respond to rp-like asks. Please respect this, thank you!

Please be respectful! I have major anxiety and communication/socializing is difficult for me, so I may not engage in conversations much ;0; I do get super nervous with parasocial behavior!!! I will do my best to respond to my inbox so please be patient with me 💌

Fanart/Art Rules:

Art Trades are for mutuals only! I rarely do them but think they're fun! Also will only do an art trade if the level of art quality and skill is the similar to my own, thank you! 💖

This isn't entirely an art request blog but depending on the question in the ask box I might doodle something if I'm interested enough! 🍰✨ I don't really draw ship requests often tho! ;3; Might do some that I like but depends!

I don't mind fanart! If you'd like to make fanart for me please tag me so I can see your lovely work! However pls don't draw my ocs or version (aus included) of the mercs inappropriately or in ships I otherwise am not comfortable with, as they already have pre-established relationships ;; Also please do not misinterpret/take creative liberties with my Medicsona (Shortcake Medic) specifically, as he is my personal sona and I am more sensitive about art of him! He is not an oc, he is a sona, so I am uncomfortable with misinterpretations and/or nsfw art of him. If you are unsure about anything please ask me first, I am very firm and particular about him! Thank you!!! 💖🍰

If you want to use my art as a profile pic please ask me first!!! DO NOT REPOST OR EDIT MY ARTWORK!!!!

[strlitetheatre]

🗣️🗣️ I MISS PAULKINS !!!!!

the emma was rlly quickly + roughly sketched during my 15 min break in class in my notebook, the paul im p sure i did in the train that same day but obvs had more time to focus on + refine

[ and if u squint u can see the ghost of my cat paul agenda ]

but some physical hcs for paulkins below if anyone cares :pp

reblogs appreciated n encouraged !! /nf

emma has a sharp facial structure/face overall, but certain facial features are softer – her eyes, the tip of her nose, the curve of her brow bone. her nose is more sloped and she doesnt have a strong cupids bow. her hair is pretty wavy and when its down it reaches her mid back, but she has layers so she kinda needs that triple bun situation to keep it all in check ( even tho despite that she has So many flyaways bc she doesnt rlly care that much, she only does enough to not get told off for it ) ( even tho ZOEY isnt told anything abt her hair being down. whatever ). her jawline is more angular and her chin gives her side profile a v nice shape. i also think she has rlly nice eyelashes and prefers to use pencil eyeliner because its easier n quicker for her to apply and it doesnt cause her as much issues when it smudges in comparison to liquid eyeliner.

paul has a much rounder face, but certain sharper features – his brow bone, the curve of his ears, the arch of his nose, his cupids bow. he has full cheeks and always looks mildly upset/uncomfortable, thats just his resting face. he usually tries to present himself as professionally as possible but his hair doesnt often cooperate with the products he tries to use and tends to fall over his forehead superman-style. he has semi-noticeable dark circles from a few too many sleepless nights in highschool and post-secondary that he just cant seem to get rid of ( i hc hes a super early sleeper and riser, and he doesnt nap often so he kinda just hopes theyll miraculously go away one day ). he doesnt work out as much as he wants to but he also isnt too bothered by that – hes kinda squishy but thats like, the last thing he thinks about a lot the time ( but since he works a mostly stationary desk job he does try to get some movement in when he gets the chance ).

[pascalcampion]

I am doing an online class in February with Galleria Roja. Its three days ( 3 times 6 hours). I'll be breaking down how I approach my sketches of the days, the stories, the art and give tips on how to think about certain things. If any of you are interested, here is a link to the class https://lagaleriaroja.com/en/producto/online-illustration-workshop-with-pascal-campion/

One thing I want to point out. I am not the best teacher in the world. In fact, I might be closer to the other end. I am saying this so people understand that this class won't transform them into artists they are not. It will mostly give you an insight into A way of approaching stories in visual form, composition, shapes, light, etc etc. After that, it's up to each artist individually to make it their own. I AM passionate about art in general though so I can get a little carried away when I get into explaining why I do certain things and make certain decisions. So, if you're interested in the why and the how, please, join us. I would be very happy to meet you. P

[solarpunkani]

Solar Powered Community Fridges - Concept Art

So one of my grad school classes is a 8 week long group project to essentially come up with an artistic solution to a problem. Of course, my pitch was solarpunk in nature, and my group actually really liked it! Basically, the concept is to design a series of solar panel-powered community fridges, to help address food insecurity and build community in different areas without having to rely on a specific host building to provide power. What better time to show my concept art than Solarpunk Aesthetic Week?

Originally, I was just drawing up ideas with what usually comes to mind when I imagine fridges--upright fridges. Here's my concept art!

In these sketches, my main concern was imagining how these fridges would fit into the community alongside their power sources--I didn't want them to be too bulky, but I also wanted them to be available for easy access. I also figured they'd need shelter for the fridge's longevity, as well as to protect any users from the element. It'd also be nice to have them alongside other mutual aid sources like little free pantries, little free libraries, the like. One of my favorite designs is the sheltered community space on page 2, with the fridge, the seat, the pantry, and the library all in one protected structure with solar panels on the top. Having a table near the community fridge would also be nice to give people a place to rest as well.

However, around this time, I started trying to find out just how big of a solar panel would be needed to power a fridge like this, and the results were... a bit discouraging. Until! I was informed that chest freezers use way less energy to keep cool--cool air sinks, so opening an upright fridge releases most of the cold air that's been building up and makes the machine work harder to keep cool, whereas a chest fridge doesn't lose nearly as much cold air. In addition, some people have converted chest freezers into chest refrigerators for as little as ~$30 USD. Due to the insulation in a chest freezer, converted chest fridges use way less energy than their upright counterparts to keep cool, making it way more feasible to power them with solar.

So of course, I had to get to drawing again!

Since I'd already concepted a variety of structures for upright fridges, for the chest fridges I mostly focused on their design and possible convenience/accessibility concerns I had been worried about, one of the main being having to reach inside vertically instead of horizontally--several of my family members have difficulty bending, so I was worried having a chest fridge would make things more difficult for others like them. There are likely other ways to address this concern that I haven't thought of, but for now I've concepted putting a grabber tool inside of every fridge so people with trouble bending can still get things. How well it'd work in reality, I'm not sure...

Buuut these are my concepts so far! I hope you like them, I hope they're cool? Let me know what you think! I think these would be cool to have in a solarpunk future--whether they're entirely possible today or will have to wait until a somewhat-distant, 'solar panels can generate more energy with less size and fridges are also way more energy efficient' future I can't say, but it's cool to think about!

[Image 1: Pencil sketches of refrigerators connected to solar power. The annotations on them are as follows. An arrow points to a magnet caddy on the freezer door with markers and stickers, saying "Markers + labels for dating donations". An arrow points to a battery-structure at the base of a solar panel system saying "Doubles as charging station for phones & stuff". An arrow points to a slanted roof structure over a fridge saying "Bus stop-esque structure." An arrow points at a glass door grocery store-style fridge saying "any kind of fridge, any size."

Image 2: Pencil sketches of refrigerators connected to solar power. The annotations on them are as follows. An arrow points to a fridge under a slanted roof structure, saying "Paintings on the fridge itself." Over a portion of a brick wall is written "Murals can be on accompanying walls or on the shelter structure for the fridge." An arrow points to a wheel-mounted solar panel saying "solar panel". A community space is named at the top "The Free Community Space: Open 24/7" An arrow points to the outside wall of a community space structure saying "mural on outer walls". Items inside are labeled 'Freedge, Little free Library, Seeds, Pantry'. An arrow points to a couch, saying "Maybe a bench instead?" Written on the inner wall is "mural inside." An arrow pointing at the space says "Community built space w/ lights, solar panels, little free library, freedge, seed library, little free pantry, couch (???). Solar battery stored behind or on top. Plastic magnet door to protect from elements? Like those magnet curtains?"

Image 3: Pencil sketches of refrigerators connected to solar power. The annotations on them are as follows. An arrow points to a slanted structure over a mini fridge, saying "Solar panel on roof?" Another arrow points to the side saying "Chalkboard paint--anyone can art here." Underneath says "variety of sizes/energy needs mean wider availability". At the top of a curved shelter on a pole is written "solar panel", along the sloping sides is "curved solar panels" and "Or solar voltaic glass?" On the underside of the structure is a label saying "Could be in a park or smth (something)". An arrow points to a box at the base of the structure, saying "charging station" and another arrow labels a table and chairs.

Image 4: Pencil sketches of refrigerators connected to solar power. The annotations on them are as follows. Along the top of a slightly-curved roof structure is an arrow saying "curved solar panel roof. renogy curved 4ft x 2ft for example". To the side of the roof is written "4 panels each side, 0.45 kWh x 8 = 3.6 kWh/h". A chest fridge is labeled "converted chest fridge", and a glass-front box is labeled "Old cabinet/case now Little Free Library". A box sitting between them is labeled "I hear car batteries are good solar storage for cheaper?" A standalone chest fridge has the following labels: "Could paint on fridge exterior" "solar panel on top of fridge?" "most chest freezers are 22-28 in wide &24-38 or 54-68 in long. The longest wattage panel needed would be ~50 in long & ~26 in wide"

Image 5: Pencil sketches of refrigerators connected to solar power. The annotations on them are as follows. The inside of an open lid has an arrow pointing to a grabber object saying "Grabber for accessibility for those w/ trouble bending". A label points at a strap fastened to the inside of the lid saying "straps to help shorter people pull the lid closed." A variety of arrows point to a drawing of an open, decorated chest fridge saying the following: "Counter-balanced lid" "Baskets/crates for storage -> can slide or be removed to access underneath" "Murals on front & sides (not back)" ]

[cheswirls]

ta da!!! :D super codependent magic au early concepts for part 1!!!

i wrote let me / for you this year and used a set of three designs at different pts of the story for my illustration class this semester. to go along with each part's concept art is one fully painted illustration.

here's the in depth analysis to go along w p1 and then here is the fic itself on ao3 :)

design notes below the cut! these aren't the final versions but they're p close tbh. p1 illo + final concepts will be out along with p2's whenever i get around to finishing that section of the fic!

for ace: most of ace's initial concepts and early changes were done on pen and paper!! his i already had planned and didn't undergo a lot of change so the only thing of note from these first digital drafts to the final is color correction.

i also drew ace's hair wildly different with every new sketch bc he's not supposed ot have a single hair model to go off of for p1 - aside from it being the longest at this stage (it gets shorter thru p2 and p3 to contrast sabo's getting longer!!) it's meant to be got-out-of-bed messy and unpredictable.

for sabo: gee wow. with the second set (v2) i was focused on color and so some design elements were left out for simplicity/time's sake (cinched waist, pants seam+pocket). i did a split accent color also for time' sake but when i found the color combo i liked i went make to solid (v3).

lots of changes made in v3 and final bc i felt like it wasn't "fancy" enough for a sabo design! not illustrated great here but i added a collar attached to the lining of the hood @ the stitching of it to the body of the jacket. instead of being a split hood that closes w drawstrings, it now buttons together in front! the magic cloak also gets upgraded to shiny accents and in the final vers ends up with ornate swirly motifs meant to mimic lace :) v3 is also where i finally created a galaxy swatch to use from now on (it's p colorful but i used an edge of mostly cool colors for v3 and then saturated it w a sorta dark blue+periwinkle overlay to further this)

i altered the height of the boots between v2 and v3 bc i decided to used the knee height for the p2 sabo design! no notes on the last 2 of sabo's bc i submitted like a full written page of notes w each design update lmaooo n im not sharing those when i can jus type the impt stuff here. all of the clothing folds for sabo and ace are rough traces of pictures jus for practice so i could quickly get a feel of what i needed to do to portray what i liked best :)

[recurring-polynya]

Writing/Art Update 10.2.2024

I finished a fanfic. Was it the one I was working on last week, the one I said I really hoped I would get done? It was not. It's fine. I mentioned last week that I had just had a little spark of inspiration and I decided to write down the parts I was thinking about before I forgot them, and then it was just easier to finish the thing off. It's for a prompt that's earlier in the week, anyway. Anyway, it's mostly done, at least. It could use another editing pass, but I think it might benefit from sitting a little before I do that.

(All of this pertains to the Celebrate Bleach event that is happening next week, btw)

As far as art goes, the day I'm working on is a two-part art thing (with a possible two-part bonus, but that could be later, if I run out of time). I finished the first part, and I've done the sketch for the second part. A thing I struggle with in my art is how much I want to finish a given piece. I kinda have to make the decision around the lining stage, whether I just want to do a sketchy b&w piece, or if I want to go whole hog and color it. In the case of the one I just finished, I thought it would look better colored, and then part way through that, realized that if I was going to do that, I needed a background, too. I am really not very good at full backgrounds, and I think they tend to make my pieces look worse, overall. In retrospect, I really think I would have been better off to do this one in b&w (the background would have been ok if I had just left it sketchier but trying to do lighting and crap is where it fell down). On the other hand, I guess I am never going to get better at environmental backgrounds if I don't practice, but UGGGGGGGGHHHHH. I was going to color part 2 in the same style, but with a more abstract background, but I did some scribbly coloring on it because I was trying to get a sense of the values, and I kinda like it and am tempted to make it more casual, even if they don't match. Will I probably end up doing it both ways? We'll see!! (I am so, so, so jealous of people with loose coloring styles, but it always looks like shit when I try, idk idk)

I am still hoping for 3 art days + 2 fanfic days. I think the fanfic should only take one more day of work to finish up. I am debating trying to squeeze one more in there, but I am feeling less fond of the last idea I had, and maybe it's better to just call it and move onto a little in love. I did start my a little in love getting-ready-to-get-ready activities, namely, re-reading Pride and Prejudice. (This happened because I forgot to download Animorphs #11 to my Kindle and I needed something to read at my kid's taekwondo class and I already had P&P loaded but MAYBE I SHOULD JUST TAKE IT AS A SIGN)

[metakirya]

An invitation to ask? Don't mind if I do! Let's see... What kinda music do you like? What's the fandom you keep coming back to to draw fanart of? Got any OCs you like to put in varied situations?

1) its difficult to describe what kind of music i like so here's my playlist on yt! it's mostly vocaloid/utau covers but i also have other funky stuff like a few oingo boingo songs, a few lady gaga songs, game fan songs, some random mashups ect! Oh and shout out to LISA THE PAINFUL OST FR💯💯🔥 i fucking love this shit, i've been listening to it while drawing recently, and i also LOVE so DAMN much the gambling man song from the overtones!!

2) sadly i don't think i have fandoms like this lmao😭 well, technically, i draw fanart most of the time but i don't stick with a fandom long and/or get attached to it enough to draw fanart stuff once my hyperfixation on it has passed, but if I think really hard about it I think it would be kirby? maybe?? i love kirby with all my heart especially meta knight and it's fun to sketch him and kirby in my notebooks in class once in a hundred years :P and i like to draw adachi rei from utau!! i don't draw her much but more often than kirby fanart that's for sure ahaha

3) oh god yes. yes i have. surely i have ocs i like to put in varied situations and can't stop thinking about. they've so fucked up my brain that i can't live a day without thinking about them.

here they are... MITOPOD

in two words, pod (laundry-capsule-girl) is a stereotypical tsundere but she's a bitch and hot tempered just because of who she is, not because she can be easily flustered by mitosi, but like yeah she's tsundere. and absolute girlboss. she comes from a rich family and can live a life of leisure.

mitosi, on the other hand, is a drug addicted pocky-girl who works at a nuclear power plant. she's poor because she spends all of her money on drags and glue and lives in a shitty one-bedroom apartment.

they are kind of like konata and kagami from lucky star but i've never seen lucky star ahaha but like yeah

they are my main main ocs and they are just so dear to my heart i can't even describe how much i love them (well simply because english is not my native language lol)

[marshmallowprotection]

hi! id love a romantic matchup!!^_^

starting with personality, id say im probably an ambivert. it really depends on who im with though! i like my alone time a lot, but at the same time i love to hang out and do fun stuff with my friends!! my parents have told me that i can be witty a lot of the time, and i do agree that i like to tease people from time to time. my friends always describe me as nice and righteous?? i guess?? they always call me smart, too, which makes sense since im in a couple ap and honors classes.. i love learning when i have a good teacher lolol ! id like to say im organized and all that stuff, but im the biggest procrastinator lol . i try to get stuff donr as soon as i can but like,, i dont want to :P my personality type is infp !

onto hobbies and interests, i love to draw, mostly sketch, both digitally and traditionally. i like to write as well, with books and essays and poetry ^_^ i loove poetry, and id say that ties with philosophy and (idk the right word) but like. just overall deep talks(i love those, especially late at night). i like to read, and im so curious about space and the universe, ive been meaning to research it! i like both cats and dogs.. honestly i dont know who i would pick if i had to choose. more fandoms wise... i like a lot of things! obviously what im most interested in rn is mm, but undertale and ohshc will always hold special places in my heart! I ALMOST FORGOT, but i love to make stuff!! charms and cards and anything i can make at home, i love to see peoples reactions when they get them:)

id say my love language is physical touch from both sides, i love to be next to the people i love, even if its just simple touches. i also love quality time, and thinking that my partner will love me no matter what

physical appearance, i just have brown hair and blue eyes, pretty typical lol ! i love to create patterns on my nails myself, and i do put on makeup very often, just simple eyeliner and slight eyeshadow, nothing major. i always get compliments on how pretty my hair is, its just long and straight and i try to brush it the best i can before it gets tangled lol . people also tell me i have a nice nose, so!

(i feel like ive written too much lolol) i dont know exactly what i want to do with the rest of my life yet, i know im knterested in the study of the human mind, so ive been considering psychology the most. still not sure though!

thank you!!! >_<

I match you with...

Jumin!

Spending quality time and sharing intimate words with another person is your love language. You're looking for somebody who understands you for you. Somebody who knows what it feels like to want to be seen, and who better to be your partner than Jumin Han? He has spent his entire life looking for somebody who wants to spend time with him just because they think he's an interesting person to be around, not because they want to be around him for his money.

You're looking for a connection with another person who makes you feel comfortable and passionate at the same time. The best thing you can do with him is work on your art while you share time together in the living quarters. Imagine that, you’ve strewn your legs across his lap and you’re drawing Elizabeth, chuckling at the remark he made about the novel he’s reading. What more could you want? 

He's the kind of partner you want if you value communication more than anything. He gets it, and you don't have to worry about anything getting lost in the middle. 

[isuggestwishcraft]

Oc? 👀

YOU FOOL, YOU ACTIVATED MY TRAP CARD !!! NOW ALL OF THE TUMBLR WILL KNOW I HAVE NO ARTISTIC TALENT!!!!!!!

On the serious note, thank you. Now, i can

1. Lok, a guy with amnesia

Appearance

I do not have a full ref of him because i cant draw coherent pictures as a reference.

Heres his colored floating head and a bunch of sketches i did in class with a pen and was still motivated to draw

And a silly little stickman rendition in that style i use in comics sometimes

Personality

Surprisingly good leader

A little cocky at times, but does know how to gain leverage against strong opponents

Does, in fact, like fighting. Weapon of preference is a sword, although he's also proficient in any object that can be used as weapon

Relies a lot on his reflexes though, sometimes maybe too much, which is a byproduct of the fact that his body knows more than he ever will.

Moderately caring person, although cannot pass by someone in distress without feeling a little guilty

Would die to save friend. Had died to save a friend. The world died for him to save a friend.

His teeth are not for show. Do not threaten what is his.

Story

His story is just as incoherent as are my attempts to give him full ref, only thing time it's intentional.

The premise is such: he wakes up in a world he only particularly recognises (but it feels Extremely off) with little memory of who he is, what he's supposed to do or go. The story itself is a journey to uncover his previous life, find his forgotten friends while gaining new ones, and discover the secrets of the world he inhabits!

What actually happens to him (as the story goes) is that he has a panic attack shortly after waking up, - because he doesn't even remember his own name! - fights a Big and Deadly Bird™ with his bare hands, face-plants in a mud puddle, has another panic attack after seeing his face in a river, kills some monsters with his teeth, dies, tears more monsters with the tools he scrapped from nothing and dies again. Yes, in that exact order. And it's not even the end of his first week here.

He's... Going through it

As of his ✨ mysterious backstory ✨.... It's incomplete :p

And by incomplete i mean that i have some bare bones structure of it, but its still mostly just... In the air. Because i love him as a blank slate that Knows something he Possibly Shouldn't (like craftsmanship, weapon usage, farming, ect.) that are so integrated in his muscle memory that it's literally so freaky actually. Man freak

Meta stuff

His appearance and general plot of his journey is actually based on a minecraft youtuber and his modded-mc-with-plot series that i watched at the time of creation. However, unlike the guy that won't allow his character to have any magnitude of personality and reflection of the inflicted trauma all his shenanigans surely caused, i'm rerouting the story Completely south of what actually happened there.

Although it is still happening minecraft, yes. Live with that.

Also, i classify my ocs in my head as siblings, from oldest (created earlier) to youngest (created later), and Lok is the fifth and the youngest in the family.

2. Enais "Ena" Crovn, girl that can survive Armageddon

Appearance

Imagine a generic long haired girl oc of a 11 years old that thought foxes and wings were cool, and you have basically Ena imagined fully

As you can tell.... This one is from 2017? Ish??

These ones are obviously new-er, although they are still entirely incomplete

I do not have Any new references of her except these rough sketches, and she needs Tremendous redesign because Generic Girl White Dress no longer fits, although not much have really changed with her design through the years

Design pending.

Personality

Honestly one of the least traumatised people out there. She's just living her life man.

She's just Just Some Guy.

Positive person, sometimes soft-spoken. Thinking if Fluttershy had to deliver mail instead of caring for animals, although, obviously, not to that extreme

Good with kids

Can fight but really, REALLY would rather just deliver mail, thank you very much

Loves flying

Story

Entirely unknown. Little me had at least 2 different stories for this gal, one of which was that she's an undertale-esque monster that just happened to look deceptively human and works as a mailman for the entire underground, the other being that she was a Freak Experiment of her insane scientist mother that sew wings and fox ears on her and gave her trauma

Surprisingly, the mailman (mailwoman?) one was the first one i actually came up with myself (while the Trauma route was influenced by a lot of gore mlp edits yt recommended me a lot around that time) and even there she was still cool and, by design, in genocide run would still fight the player somewhere in snowdin. So i think i will go with that one

Meta stuff

She IS actually second least traumatised oc i have. As per my ocs family tree, she's also the oldest - in fact, the very first to ever be made, so her knowledge of children comes from wrangling some ptsd and hyperactivity havers in the lot

There's actually third, secret backstory she has, which includes utdr multiverses we all know about. Although she still delivers mail there, she's actually the very same person who sends the asks to askboxes for character to receive through the entire multiverse, and she Is quite strong - because some universes are WILD and very much deadly and it was a necessity to learn to protect herself; which means she can survive anything under any circumstances.

Little me was based af for coming up with this

It is only two for now because i had not expected for it to take So Much Fucking Time to type out this little bits. Ugh

I need to make a list

[toomanyfandomsorkinafs]

So, it's been about 2 days since I last rambled at you, so I'm back to ramble some more!

Alright, so- first things first, I had an event I was catering at Saturday (the last one before the weddings we are doing) and I met the prettiest person there, like they were just so, so pretty. Me, being the socially awkward person I am, left my post a total of three times (I had permission to do so) to talk to them, and tried my best to flirt (I mostly compliment the work they they had for sale and bought myself a very pretty necklace from them). Now, you may be thinking that this is where the pretty person story ends- but you'd be wrong! I happen to have their business card and (now that I have money from my job) I can get more things from them... but I have to send an email, and that's hard. However, if I want to see pretty person again, it must be done, so wish me luck as I'm sending it tomorrow to see about getting my hands on some more jewelry and that one painting that I liked so much.

Then I had work the next day, because of course I did, and it was a fairy busy day. Nothing interesting happened at work, but I did end up lining that redraw I did for one of my DF pictures and, well, I think my lining skills need some work as I feel that the picture isn't as good once it is lined, but I have to line it so I can colour it. However, it has now been coloured (I just need a white gel pen for some touch ups to Xander [curse his white hair and the bleeding my alcohol markers do] and add eye shines and then it will be finished.)

Fun fact about me- Monday is my favourite day of the week. That probably sounds very strange considering most people hate Monday as it is the start of the work week, but for me it is my one official day off (I occasionally have Tuesdays off as well, but that one is hit or miss), so I get to spend my day doing nothing... well, I go shopping for food, but that's about it.

Alright, this has gone on long enough I think. I'll end the ramble here, though feel free to stop by my blog and ramble to me if you so desire.

Love you <3 /p

YAY MORE RAMBLES!!!

Also YOOOOOOOO!!!! Do update everything that happeneds with this pretty person(Your so much braver then me. I can’t talk to people. I make friends with children cause their dumb and I’m the most friendly out of everyone so like yeah.)

OH?! YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THATS SICK(me when I make a sketch so lovely then I start to colour and it just ruins it)

I always say that Saturday’s my least favourite day cause where I’m from, if a big event is happening, it always gets pushed to Friday, Saturday or Sunday cause most people have jobs from like 7:30/8:00am-4/5pm Monday to Friday/Saturday (Sunday is free sometimes cause the island is full of religious people) And Saturday’s also when I do practice for musicals/piano class

-Kina

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Modern au but aesop is in his room dying while playing carameldansen

Unfortunately in this modern au he shares a room with Joseph

[sinisterfilth]

GOT ROBBED AND WAS HOSPITALIZED

I wasn't able to get on here and explain what has happened in the last month? (Dunno, stress blocks memories and gives me bad dissociation)

But basically while i was in bed in a very serious depressive episode with a severe case of arthritis, meaning that i couldn't get up and i barely could walk to the bathroom (which lead to 2 infections but that comes later) i wasn't able to check up on my "friend" which i allowed her to stay in one of the rooms that i want to rent with the condition that they (her boyfriend and her) would fix the roof and paint the water damage and just divide payments and once that was done i would get the contract and they would have to actually pay rent) but they were blasting music all day, they did damage to property, inbited dodgy people, robbed me, used my things my vlothes, and on top of that i realized they were smoking meth all day long (no shame if they're addicts, i was addicted to benzos and opiates so can't judge) but they were not allowed to do it here and bring stuff here cause again, there were two rooms i wanted to rent

Anyways, i ended up trying to kms and then i went back to get hospitalized again for two severe infections.

They stole cards and i got the money back and got one back from one bank, the money on the other is giving me a headavhe but i recovered the card as well, but when my family got involved they all scurried away and robbed me, glasses clothes etc, never fixed anything, mostly destroyed and now I'm struggling w money

My partner Lost her job and i get the sick leave money way too late and it's not enough for all the procedures and legal matters i gotta do

My commission prices have changed since i was underselling my art p much and I'll work on my commission sheet today but basically:

Sketches: 15 USD

Grey color simple: 30 USD

Full color simple: 60 USD

Full color full detail: 80 USD

Background and extra character 5+ or 10+

I also accept donations which would help me so much since my hands are still pretty stuff and I'm in constant pain, but giving me work makes me feel not useless, and i can also show off the improvement from all the art classes on Udemy my partner paid for! Please help

[readmorepoets]

1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 8 ?? <33

thank you kenna for asking i love you <3 please tell me any books you're interested in reading as well

1. What are 2-5 already published fiction books you think you want to read in 2023?

bestiary by k ming chang because i was supposed to read it before 2022 ended. i'll list some that intimidate me most: rebecca, wuthering heights, p&p, go tell it on the mountain. DO NOT speak to me about whale weekly i'm so annoyed by how behind i am i'm two seconds away from giving up

2. What are 2-5 already published nonfiction books you think you want to read in 2023?

underland by robert mcfarlane 2023 is your year. h is for hawk by helen mcdonald 2023 is your year. women race & class 2023 is your year. why be happy when you could be normal 2023 is your year. they can't kill us until they kill us 2023 is your year.

3. Any poetry on your TBR? yes all the poetry i couldn’t get to this year: tommy pico (feed), donika kelly (bestiary), louise gluck (1962-2020), anne carson (autobiography of red), ocean vuong (time is a mother). it would be cool to attempt homer?

5. What 2023 new releases are you most looking forward to?

ALECTO THE NINTH OCTOBER 10TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (edit: NOT confirmed date but goodreads has it like that!) a day of fallen night by samantha shannon, chlorine by jade song, HOPEFULLY my favorite thing is monsters pt 2 by emil ferris and death valley by melissa broder. jenny odell has a new book coming but i'm afraid </3

6. Do you have any conceptual reading goals? E.g., I plan to read books on food history.

mostly i want to read the books that i've been meaning to read for years and years. even though i know i'm not gonna stick to it 100% i've got a list of priority books and a lot of them i've been wanting to read for at least 5 years or even more. i really wanna give all of those books a chance... this is a cop-out answer to a good question. i feel like i'm missing out on a lot! i want to strengthen my foundations be it in fiction or theory. and foundations usually come from older texts so that’s where i’m kinda directing myself. like i have a book entirely about genetics on the list cause that’s the basis for everything right and that's what i want to do for all of my interests read like, texts that will build me foundations for the rest

8. Are there any reading challenges you want to try? have not found a challenge where i like all the prompts (and if i'm doing a challenge i would like to do all the prompts RIGHT) so i had sketched out one of my own where i mixed and matched mostly from the popsugar challenge and ended with like 35 prompts but i'm not sure if i'll stick to it!

[dourpeep]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CTuWYf_Bkdz/?utm_medium=copy_link (albedo)

https://www.instagram.com/p/CT11mFzBrnd/?utm_medium=copy_link (kazu and scara)

https://www.instagram.com/p/CUAIuz5lbX9/?utm_medium=copy_link (xiao)

here ya go :D. hopefully my asks go through hehe -kitkat anon

Hello kitkat! It's been a while :DDD

I hope you are doing well <3

I know it says high school au, but think of this as part of the college au nodnod! Have a few short drabbles about the boys and how they pine after you hehe

Albedo OTL I love him sm smmmm I actually have a jean jacket that color that's big on me so seeing him in a jean jacket,,,ehe just casual wear in general- espec. because I usually doodle him wearing sweaters and stuff so a tshirt and jean jacket...so big brain

You sit a few seats away from him in Chemistry and it's clear to you and your classmates that Albedo is something of a genius.

He's always interacting in class, raising his hand, asking questions with a slight tilt to his head, scribbling notes in his notebook. Little do you know, the scribbles are mostly sketches of things that've caught his attention throughout the day. One such being a side-profile of you. It's pretty obvious that you stare at him. Of course it's natural for you to occupy a little bit of his thoughts.

Why do you stare, for one?

There's a slight smile on your lips, and he now wonders just what it is that makes you smile and...maybe he can find a way to inspire one as well.

He blinks, out of his reverie, and looks back at the board to see the new topic, returning to his notetaking while the thought of you lingers in the background. It's silly, yes, to think of such things, but he can't help but be intrigued by you. Tapping his pencil against the line pages, he remembers that the cafe close by started advertising a few new desserts.

Surely, it'd be worth the chance to get to know you better.

Kazuha and Scaramouche?? They're fantastic too aaaaa and I love the little labels besides them ahaha makes me think of that one Anti-Romantic, which I think fits them both well (Scaramouche due to his backstory, Kazuha due to his desire to find out more about visions before anything else) so yeah!

These two are unlikely friends, not just with their personalities, but also with the fact that Scaramouche doesn't give anyone a second glance while Kazuha steals hearts left and right.

Though, one thing is certain. They share similar interests.

You.

By some coincidence, you've managed to catch their eyes. Whether it's the way you handled some situation with ease--quick and decisive--the sound of your laugh, the way that your hand curls around a drink-warmed paper cup, whatever it was was enough.

You have singlehandedly managed to chip away at the iciness surrounding Scara, his eyes automatically scanning his surroundings the moment he steps out of class in hopes that you might be passing by.

But even with his feelings, he has trouble with expressing them. Some afternoon, he approaches you, throat bobbing and eyes flicking to you and back to the tree just over your shoulder. Was...was it always so hard to just say how you feel??

Kazuha on the other hand has seen you pass by his usual spot settled beneath a tree. There have been times where he muses out loud to himself, noticing the way that you seem to stop and listen once in a while, and it's something that he's come to appreciate.

After all, one thing he values is the ability to just stop and take a moment to appreciate all that is around you. These little moments are ones that he looks forward to dearly. Next time, he'll invite you to sit with him.

Maybe you might inspire a few verses.

Now...the difficulty lies in their realization of each other's feelings for you. Luckily (though, perhaps not so luckily), neither are willing to lay down their metaphorical weapons, and intend to make their feelings known to you.

Who would you choose :3c

And Xiao!! The gentle sweetie who looks like a bad boy- ahhh yesyesyes please.

Xiao would be the quiet kid in class that people end up assuming is a troublemaker because he seldom talks or answers questions but after school he stops by a certain alleyway to check on this little stray cat.

It's incredibly antsy and shy, hissing and scratching whenever he comes close (you notice that he has scratches along his knuckles and fingers, everyone assumes he gets in fights despite the lack of bruises), but he's there without fail with some food and water.

One day when you're tagging along with him after classes (you're project partners, after all), he stops and you can't help but stare wide-eyed at the kitten. Though you can't come too close, he gazes at it, expression soft, telling you how once it warms up to him he plans on adopting it.

By the time that the month has passed, you've become somewhat good friends--you learn that he plays guitar, that helps at one of the local shops often because the owner is a kind old woman, Xiao often insisting to do the work so she can rest. He's kind, selfless.

When the little cat ends up warming up to you too, he offers for you to visit so they don't have to miss you. You don't miss the slight tinge of red on his cheeks and ears.

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I love it all

My boyssss OTL OTL