#I should really get some sleep now

[mochacat09]

I had to find some way to deal with my Malleus brain rot and here it is "I'll always love you"

1) This was cross posted on ao3 2) Forgive me if this is terrible but its literally 4/bout to be 5 a.m. rn so I'm blaming it on my not getting any sleep --------------------------------------------------- "Tsunotaro? What's wrong? Did something happen?" Yuu asked as the dragon fae nuzzled deeper to the crook of their neck. Yuu could feel what they guess was a little smile bloom onto their neck from the nickname they insisted on using. It was hard to see his face as Yuu's back was on his chest so it was mainly just an assumption.

Malleus replied but, whatever he said was lost in a sea of his mumbling as he held onto Yuu's waist tighter with one hand and held Yuu's hand with his other. It's not like Yuu would mind more attention from their boyfriend but he was acting strange. 

When Malleus had entered Ramshackle dorm, like he always did when he knew Yuu was home, he had greeted them half heartily and he couldn't even muster a smile like he usually did with his lover. In fact Malleus had sat on a completely different couch instead of immediately sitting with Yuu like he normally did. Malleus took every chance he could to get the prefect's affection so why now was he being so wary of them?

Malleus pouted but it wasn't the annoyed cute pout he did... It was in an almost sad way. He didn't look particularly upset with Yuu so, maybe something had happened during class? 

It had taken a good amount of coaxing just to get him curled up around the prefect like he was now. Yuu couldn't help but be worried about their partner and how quiet they've been. Malleus was always a quiet guy sure but never this quiet. Especially around Yuu!

Since Yuu's back was on Malleus' chest they did the next best thing. Gently, so he wouldn't be startled by the sudden movement, Yuu lifted their hands that were interlock with the others and brought it to their lips.

They left feather like kisses on Malleus' hand as he looked up with curiosity at what they were doing. Now that they've gotten his attention they turned themselves around to look at him.

"Is something bothering you? Or someone? Because if someone's bothering you know I won't hesitate to-" Yuu started only to get cut off by a deep chuckle that sent the good kind of shivers down their spine every time they heard it.

Malleus had been amused at how quickly his lover was to declare their worries for him. Yuu wasn't a violent person unless truly aggravated. To know they'd fight for him, no matter how much he'd certainly discourage it, made him fell warm inside. He felt safe and reassured that his worries were all part of his head messing with him.

"My dear there is nothing to worry about. It's just some insignificant thoughts I had putting a damper in my mood."

"Well what were you thinking about that made you this upset? You could barely look at me when you'd walk in. I was starting to think I did something," Yuu chuckled a little finishing off their sentence.

"You'd never do anything wrong," Malleus quickly reassured them that it wasn't their doing, "It was simply me over thinking. I just... I just guess I was scared when I thought you didn't want to spend you lunch with me. I was worried you were growing tried of me, or scared. There are so many things said about me that I wouldn't blame you if you've become wary of me. I wouldn't blame you if you'd leave me out of fear... because to everyone I'm a dangerous monster. That's all I'll ever be to anyone..." 

Malleus never thought that he could lay all his insecurities out in the open so easily but with Yuu it was almost too easy how they made him spill his thoughts.

"You're no monster. You're my beautifully majestic Tsunotaro," They booped his noise catching him off guard, "Who has all these things people seem to fear about him, from his horns to his scales he likes to keep tucked away, " Their fingers lifted part of his sleeve up to reveal dazzling obsidian scales, "It's really all just small pieces that make up my beautiful fae. Things I simply adore about him!"

He just stared at them as he tried to compose his thoughts. They like his scales! And his horns! Yuu had even referred to Malleus as their beautiful fae. He couldn't be happier. He gave a small peck to their forehead before laying his forehead on theirs.

"And me? Scared of you? I've been through five overblots! You're like a kitten who's always curled up in my lap compared to that! You couldn't get rid of me if you tried prying me off of you," they laughed heartily.

"Splendid because I have no intentions of letting you go," Malleus stated proudly with a hand on his chest. As he finished his words Yuu tenderly cups his cheek in their hand, which he instinctively leaning into, allowing himself to close his eyes and relax in the company of his lover.

Yuu had murmured something that if he were not a fae would have been impossible to hear.

"I'm sorry if I made you feel like I didn't want to hang out with you. I was in a hurry. But, remember this ok? No matter what I'll always love you!"

[bookrat]

Pretty sure my little man has a case of abundism affecting the marble tabby coat under all those white splotches

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

hey guys just doodling the guy again (i am booed offstage)

[verraising]

i am short of breath standing next to you. i am out of my depth at this altitude. -♡-

[ra-vio]

semester is almost over. im dying

[deus-ex-mona]

looking on at the ✨hype✨ about last stage like

[keeps-ache]

HEY

[yohankang]

i had the best morning walk today 😭💖

[tomwambsmilk]

It's 100% true that the Roy siblings did not choose to be Logan's children and Tom and Greg and the old guard did choose to work for him so their relationships to Logan are fundamentally different, and the degree of culpability they bear for their own moral degradation is also wildly different. But workplace emotional abuse is also very real and omnipresent in the way Logan treats the people who work for him. And one of the impacts of workplace emotional abuse is creating an extreme attachment to the abuser and becoming less cognizant and even defensive of their abuse towards yourself and others, and in cases where the emotional abuse is institutionalized and systemic it can also create a strong aversion to leaving because your whole sense of personal identity becomes wrapped up in the organization and so being forced to leave can cause an intense psychological crisis. I don't think the situation of working for Logan is at all equivalent to being his child but I also think that it's a bit misguided to imply that Tom and Gerri and Frank and Karl are operating from a place of pure rationality without any undue psychological influences when they make the choice to stay with and support Logan

[coquelicoq]

Natsume: You didn't sleep a wink last night. Why not go and grab a few now? Natori [sparkling]: I'm just fine. It takes more than sleep deprivation to dull my dazzling self, so don't you worry your fussy little head. Natsume [concerned]: Nonsense like that is exactly what someone suffering from sleep deprivation would say! Sensei: Oh really? Has he been sleep-deprived every day of his life?

so i've been watching the natsume dub -

[quietwingsinthesky]

if there was a torchwood/spn crossover, jack would get shot in the head so much. i know he already dies a lot, but he’s going to die so many times during this crossover. keeps getting bullets unloaded into him. they stab him with silver and steel and copper and none of it keeps him down. he’s gonna get squirted with borax and that one’s not gonna kill him but it is going to ruin his coat, which is materially worse for him.

[arthur-r]

hello new self portrait just dropped which means this is officially what i look like now

[amrv-5]

survived Badly (argh) but going to work on fic for as long as I continue to enjoy doing so then switch over -- see if I can find somewhere to watch The 400 Blows and probably cry forever and dehydrate and feel soooo sad and then feel better after. Thank you French New Wave

[sonchop]

okay, now I have a really important question

do you have any film adaptations of Homer's Iliad and/or Odyssey that you really enjoyed watching?

I mean, I got really curious and I've already watched 4 of them (3 about the Trojan War and 1 about the Odyssey, but there are actually quite a lot of them) so this is

Odyssey (1973)

and Troy (2004)

these two are kind of legendary to me cause I watched them a long time ago and now i've only reviewed them (i think they're pretty good btw i really like them)

but the series Troy: Fall of a City (2018)

kinda disappointed me(( i mean it's still not bad and there are plenty of good moments but as for me that was.. a little boring?? idk but compared to others i liked it less (just my opinion)

Oh and also there's Helen of Troy (2003)

also pretty good. i mean i really like it but i have so much questions, especially to Achilles there, like wtf dude what happened to you (and there is also no Patroclus... at least i hope that he's alive)

sooo they all retell the story with a lot of details changed, and that's okay, BUT now i just can't stop thinking about some series that would be more about the Greeks (or at least equally), and where we could see a little more events from their side and more of their interactions, see gods, their interactions and how they were helping their favs, see how cool is Diomedes, see Menelaus but as a good guy, Elena's drama, not only related to Paris but about the desire to return to her husband and daughter, but at the same time the desire to stay in Troy with Paris (Aphrodite helps with this), more Homer's "canon" events and events after the Iliad, such as the battle with the Amazons, the death of Achilles and the death of Ajax, Philoctetes and the bow of Hercules, Neoptolemus and finally the Trojan horse…

and then there might be something like s2 with the events of the Odyssey and the stories of other kings about returning home and what happened to them while Odysseus was trying to return home.

i mean... just imagine it.

and yeah

do you have any film adaptations of Homer's Iliad and/or Odyssey that you really enjoyed watching?

this question is still there (•⁠ᴗ⁠•)

[twilightarcade]

that's a weird dog

[floral-hex]

ayyyyyyy I set up an appointment for medication this Friday (telemedicine but whatever) and I get to see my former therapist again later this month. I’m kind of excited. More than kind of. Little sad, but I’m lonely and want to talk to someone. He’s a real cool dude. I’m a little worried to trauma dump the last 6 months on him, but whatever, it beats sitting there for an hour feeling like I’m wasting his time and struggling to think of things to say. dang dang dang, I’m excited.