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gabbasposts · 8 months

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>How they’d react to you loosing both romantic and platonic feelings after knowing you liked them<

Star Wars: Skywalker Men, specifically the original boys.

Warnings: angst, language (I think 💀), +18 even though this has no nsfw, I plan to write for that in the future so yeah lol (also gifs aren’t mine, I just wanted a nice sky gif because I’m talking about my favorite Skywalkers, and I wanted gifs of them that kinda showed how they’d feel towards the situation lol)

A/n: My first official post on this blog (which is funny considering I’ve had it for so long lol) but just a heads up, I’m now just entering my Star Wars phase so I’m going to be honest, I’m a little clueless 💀 ofc like any fanfic writer who wants to write good shit, I fact check as best as I can, but if things aren’t correct or seem off, I’m open to criticism lol

Anakin:

At first he’s relieved…

He already is romantically involved with Padme, and he doesn’t want someone sabotaging his relationship and making things complicated because they feel the need to declare their love for him when it’s obvious he doesn’t feel the same way about them.

And you of all people should know (especially if you were super close to him) that he’d never feel that way to anyone other than Padme, yet alone you…

It’s bad enough Padme seems to be becoming restless with his new ideals, and his methods when it comes to wanting to keep her safe… the last thing he needs is for her to gain a reason to cut him off for good.

All because of a witless misunderstanding, from someone he never even looked at that way to begin with.

Yes, he’s told you things he’s never told Padme before… things he now regrets considering it’s not obvious you view him in a light that you think he also sees you in, but isn’t that what friends do?

He won’t immediately go off on you… he still respects you (again, most likely because you know shit he doesn’t want others knowing 🤡) in a sense, but at the end of the day, he puts his foot down before you can even get in a retort.

You are a friend.

Padme is his lover, and soon to be mother of his child.

Nothing would change with that…

He begins to ignore you.

Wanting to see if you’d understand his message at first.

If you push him, still wanting him to realize your feelings for him, let’s just say… your officially no longer a friend, and he isn’t above doing things to both silent you (because he doesn’t want Padme finding out you had feelings because your already a friend and he works closely with you) but he’d make you understand you’ve fucked up with him.

If you back away after his harsh, solid, and honest reaction towards the fact he would never feel the same way, he’d calm down, happy you understood you place at his side.

He first notices your sudden indifference to him when your suddenly able to be in a room with him in it, and your eyes can suddenly meet his.

They don’t hold the hurt, or embarrassment that was easy to both sense with the force, as well as read on your face and in your body language.

And he’s happy about it. Things can finally return to normal… or so he thought.

That’s when your behavior towards him changes full fledged as well…

Fights with Obi that you usually would come to his defense and try to back him up (not just selfishly because you liked him) factually, and in calmer tone than he typically wouldn’t be able to muster when Obi would bring him to that point of anger… suddenly became you acting like you weren’t in the same room.

Sometimes you didn’t even go the full mile of pretending to be preoccupied with something else like dealing with your light-saber, or suddenly checking your map… you’d just stand there, starring at him once Obi put his foot down on something, a stoic and indifferent facial expression on your face.

When he’d confront you about it, you’d simply state you were loyal to the Jedi order and your previous actions were more or less caused by your irrational feelings towards him…

This would one, sadden him because in his mind, realizes now that you weren’t doing those things because you were a genuine friend who wanted to support him when he needed it, you were simply hoping he’d realize your effort, and develop the same feelings you had towards him.

And it would anger him because how could you be so dumb to think he would ever return your feelings when he was clearly and so obviously in-love with Padme?

You were able to throw away your moral code even if there was a possibility that you didn’t agree with him on things, all out of the hope that there was a small chance he liked you back, and he’d view it as romantic devotion to him…

You’d go against your Jedi way which yes, he knew he had no right to be judging when it came to that considering he went against every Jedi rule just to be with Padme, but he at least had a good reason.

You on the other hand didn’t… again, he didn’t return your feelings so why would you risk everything you built up in terms of working towards receiving your Jedi title, only to sabotage it for someone who didn’t like you?

This ultimately leads to a fight.

However, if your truly over him and even show shame to even liking him to the point you tell him it was a weird phase or something, then the chances of a fight will probably be lowered weirdly.

He understands phases… he also understands putting hope into someone, praying they’d realize your potential and worth and while he doesn’t respect you did so hoping he’d understand or even leave Padme for you, he can relate.

Just don’t expect him not to be bitter towards you for it.

No he didn’t like you, but he thought you were his friend.

You were there for him when master Yoda told him he was too emotional and he needed to learn to center his emotions, you were there for him to mediate fights with Obi, another person he had considered a friend up until the point he got harsher with his actions and words and utter refusal to see that Anakin would do anything to protect Padme, as well as his genuine views and methods… it was too much.

While he didn’t love you the way you wanted, it felt like a loss he could’ve still had some control over.

Maybe if he hadn’t felt comfortable enough to go soft around you… maybe if he hadn’t showed his true colors, colors that not even Obi-wan had gotten to see…

Only naturally, he starts to dislike you.

When your fighting an enemy together, you better pray you can hold your own because he purposely doesn’t stick near you.

Luke:

Like his father, he’s relieved at first. (but that also depends on how you take it…)

If your calm about it, (at least calm enough to hold up a front in front of him until you can be alone) he’ll smile sadly, realizing that even if you take it the “right” way, you’re still probably disappointed by it.

After all, pouring your heart out to those you wish to love and have love returned to you isn’t something you just up and recover from immediately.

He’ll ultimately try to find a way to excuse himself in a kind matter… only because it’s undoubtedly awkward as hell to just up and kick start a new conversation after that.

Of course he’s not going to just up and ditch you without making sure nothing is going to change between you two platonically.

That’s the difference between him and his dad 💀 (but then again, Anakin still has a bit of a better reason to distance himself and not try to salvage the friendship. After all,the woman he’s with is having his kids and he loves her deeply, something he’s shared and told you most likely if you two were hella close, but still)

After some time apart, (maybe sleeping on it, or say you confessed to him before he had to depart to somewhere else) the next time you’d see him, he’d greet you normally and would pay close attention to your demeanor even though he’d be doing his best and acting as if nothing has changed between you two since your confession.

When he notices your smiles seemed more strain, and you tend to seem hyper focused on your task rather than acknowledging him when he enters a room like usual, ultimately he becomes saddened by it, but he won’t confront you… yet.

He’d try to hang out with you like you two would typically do after training or a hard mission, and would joke and ask you how you were doing, but when he realizes your not as actively doing the same back, and your actions not words don’t seem as genuine, that’s when he grows frustrated.

He’ll begin to give you distance… wanting to see if you’d take the bait and try to see what’s wrong due to distance usually not being his thing.

He’s lost people he loved before and while his love for you isn’t romantic, he still loves you and wants you in his life.

He wants you too, to realize that your getting rid of a solid friendship just because he doesn’t return you feelings… he has put his life on the line to protect you before, and even now while your acting this way, he’d do so again with out a second thought because the way he cares for you is deep… he wants you to realize that.

He hopes you will…

But ultimately, the only thing he gets from you is maybe a small smile if your walking past one another, or a nod of acknowledgment when you two are in the same places.

Finally he’d confront you, growing both saddened and slightly annoyed.

“I still want us to be friends… were your feelings always just… a crush you had on me?”

Surely you wanted to be platonic with him before anything else…

How you respond ultimately is what makes or breaks him when it comes to how he feels about you.

If you tell him you started developing feelings towards the midst of your friendship, he holds a slither of hope that he might be able to convince you to be his friend again by reminding you of the times you had before you developed feelings.

If you tell him you always had feelings for him, prior to formally becoming friends… as much as it pains him, he knows that there is no chance of ever returning back to having a normal friendship with one another… because at the end of the day, it’s clear you always saw a prospect of him realizing your feelings for him, and not that of simply wanting to be friends.

He’d nod, smiling sadly and apologize for not feeling the same way… but not before thanking you for being his friend.

Because at the end of the day, even if the friendship was one sided, he enjoyed your company and he’d miss the memories you two shared.

IF you take it badly… (example: “But… I thought because we were so close, you maybe saw something in me too…”, “What? No, all the things we’ve done together… they didn’t mean anything?” Etc, you know… the delusional route 💀)

That’s when his frustration rises.

As calmly and carefully as he can (because still, he wants to see if he can salvage the friendship) he’ll explain to you that the moments that you took as romantic were always platonic for him.

That it isn’t fair that your punishing him by pretending you not only never had feelings for him, but that you never cared for him to begin with by acting like he simply was another acquaintance you worked with instead of someone you already established both a friendship and memories with.

He’s shared some of his most intimate moments and thoughts with you… his secrets, as did you.

And he’s risked his life for you and even though you were acting as if you didn’t know him now… he still would if you were in trouble… he loved you.

…Just not in the way you clearly wanted.

It might escalate into an argument.

With him defending his right to not be entitled to loving you the way you clearly wanted, and you still trying to prove you always looked at him in a loving manner that you wanted him to realize.

Ultimately there’s only one route that follows after this, and that’s the end of your friendship as you both know it.

It’s sad… and he’ll always miss you as you do him… but one thing you should know about him, and should’ve always known about him even once you had managed to escape acquaintance field with him, is that he would always and had always remained true to his feelings.

And he would until the day he died even if he missed you badly… as a friend.

#anakin skywalker #star wars anakin #anakin skywalker x reader #luke skywalker #star wars luke skywalker #luke skywalker x reader #star wars #angst #I made this while drunk as hell because I always get in my feelings and want sad shit when I’m drunk for some reason 💀#skywalker family #also first post lol #gabbasdumbthoughts #I love skywalker men lol

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