Summer’s a Knife - Chapter 2
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You don’t respond, silence in the air as you both catch your breath.
“I’ve got no use for sex that sounds straight out of a porno.” Van lifts his head, and you flinch at the intensity in his eyes. “I’d rather it be fucking real. No bullshit. If you’re having a good time, sure, say it. But if you’re not, say that too.”
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Almost three months later, Van McCann is back in L.A. and ready to take you up on that dinner date
Word count: ~15k
Chapter Two
April 2019
By the time you’ve pulled into the Whole Foods parking lot, having squeezed through afternoon traffic, you’re at your wits end. Work had consisted of eight tedious hours fixing someone else’s mistakes instead of working on your own projects, and you’re already dreading the hit your paycheck is about to take from this grocery shopping.
Your phone buzzes on the passenger seat next to you, no doubt Mary offering up some positivity in response to the giant work rant you’d just texted her. You already roll your eyes before you’ve picked up the phone and pressed your fingerprint to the sensor.
Hey. It’s Van x
The gray bubble on your screen catches you off guard. You’d saved Van’s number months ago, his contact info at the top of the conversation reading “Van San Diego”. Thinking about how long ago your trip feels makes the whole thing seem even more surreal.
You gape at your screen for way too long, heart pounding, before you respond with a Hi!
After you’ve hit send, you panic over responding too fast. You let the car continue to run for the sake of air conditioning and you don’t let your screen lock, waiting anxiously for Van’s next message. When one doesn’t come after ten minutes you resign to cutting the ignition, finally facing the fact you’ve got shopping to do.
You can’t stop checking your phone as you roll your cart through the aisles, careful not to let your eyes wander to any items that aren’t on your list. You’re carefully examining the label on an overpriced pasta sauce when you hear the buzz of your phone against the cart. You almost drop the jar in your hand.
I know it’s been a while but I’m finally back in la. Still up for that dinner?
As you’re reading the indication that he’s typing starts, sending a shot of adrenaline through you.
No worries if not just let me know x
You screenshot his messages immediately and forward them to Mary for her opinion. Predictably, she hadn’t responded to your rant, but sends an OMG the second you show her the screenshot.
Have you messaged him back ?! she sends in response to your I knowww!!!
Nooo I don’t wanna look too eager you tap excitedly to her. You’re jolted back to reality when another cart suddenly bumps into yours.
“Sorry,” You apologize, quickly steering your cart away. You say it purely for the sake of politeness, even though you’re almost positive you weren’t in the way and the person could have rolled by without jostling all your things. All of your mundane worries are pushed to the back of your mind. You’re finally getting that promised dinner date with Van!
The rest of your shopping trip is as chaotic as your brain feels. Between lightning-fast exchanges with Mary about what you’ll say and when you’ll say it you haphazardly scrap together the rest of your list. You’re sure you’re forgetting something as you send it down the conveyor belt to the cashier, but you’re too frazzled to care. The only thing that matters at this point is getting home, cracking open the bottle of wine you’d purchased (on impulse, unfortunately) and accepting Van’s invitation.
And you do just that. Upon getting home you only put away your fresh items, leaving the rest to sit on the floor in their bags. It’s not the best practice, but it’s necessary after the day you’ve had. You pour a generous amount of wine into a regular glass, not caring enough to fish out a wine glass, and change out of your work wardrobe and into your most worn-in sweats. Only after you’ve plopped down onto the couch and taken a swallow of wine to calm your nerves do you allow yourself to respond: We could totally do dinner! When?
You feel slightly remorseful for leaving Van without a response for almost two hours. You chew the inside of your cheek as you berate yourself for it.
What works best for you? I’m here for the next two weeks and free most nights
You consider his response. Most of the time it feels like you’re the only person in L.A. that’s free most nights. Is he not the partying type? He seems like he would be, considering the way he went straight to the bar after his show in January.
Does tomorrow work? You send. It feels a bit off to schedule something so soon, but tomorrow’s Friday, and you wouldn’t have to worry about staying out late considering you’ve got no work Saturday. Plus, the longer you wait the more likely things are to be packed into Van’s schedule. And, you remind yourself, this dinner is more than two months in the making.
Another text from Van interrupts the churning thoughts in your head. Tomorrow’s ace, he says first, and then another message: I’ll pick you up followed by a third: What time?
You exchange a few more messages, setting up a time and making sure he has your address. Once the logistics are worked out, Van sends Look forward to it x and that feels like a good note to end the conversation on. You melt into your couch cushions and down the rest of your wine with a sigh.
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If yesterday felt like a long workday, then today feels like it’s lasting an eternity.
You try to burn though time texting Mary, attempting to cut down on your getting ready time by verbally planning your outfit in advance. Still, the minutes seem to tick by at a snail’s pace. You try to get some work done and catch yourself repeatedly screwing up your spreadsheet with typos. Even triple-checking everything you enter doesn’t seem to eat up any time. You visit the water cooler too much, and pee repeatedly as a result. Eventually, somehow, you make it to 5, slinging your bag over your shoulder and murmuring quick goodbyes as you dash out of the office.
When you get home you’re laser focused. You tackle showering first, the task made longer with all of the shaving that needed to be done, followed by the slippery process of moisturizing every inch of your skin. It takes up more time than you’d like, but in San Diego you’d been completely unprepared for a hookup. This time you wanted to be ready.
Van sends a heading over text just as you’d finished blow drying and styling your hair. You get dressed, then, layering the outfit you and Mary had agreed on over a matching black lace bra and panty set. They were at the bottom of your underwear drawer, crumpled and forgotten, tags still intact. As you clip away the tags you hope out loud to yourself in the kitchen that they still fit, and sigh in relief when you’re able to shimmy the set on.
Maybe it’s the traffic, or maybe Van lied about when he was leaving, but by the time he texts that he’s arrived you’re waiting for him on the couch, having managed to get your makeup routine done just in time. The house is in complete disarray from your rush, and you cringe to yourself as you get a look at the tornado you’ve caused before you shut the door, locking it securely, and turning to seek out Van’s car.
There’s a black Range Rover pulled up on the street, the only car on the block running right now. You can see the dim blue light of Van’s phone screen through the tint of the windows, and as you approach you can see his silhouette.
He looks up when you tug open the car door, sliding into the front passenger seat.
You’re pleased when his face lights up. A part of you had almost been expecting that he’d rethink his attraction to you now that there was no post-show adrenaline or late night beers to cloud his judgement.
“Hello,” He laughs, “Long time no see!”
He’s just as charismatic as you remember him, your nerves easing as you make yourself comfortable. The crisp lace underneath your clothes is stiff and itchy, and you wiggle around as discretely as possible.
“Hey,” You greet him. “It feels like it’s been forever.”
Van nods, kicking the car into gear. “You’re telling me. Been a busy couple months.”
You hum in sympathy even if you can’t relate. Your busiest times of the year were summer- when most of your coworkers went on extended vacations and you were responsible for making up their work- and the holidays, when you had to coordinate trips home to see your family.
“You look amazing, by the way,” Van says, managing a quick glance over at you with a smile.
“Aw, thanks,” You murmur, chronically awkward at receiving compliments. “You look great, too.”
“Ah, stop. Makin’ me blush, love,” he jokes, and you can’t help but giggle at his sarcasm. It’s strange how familiar he feels, the result of just one night.
“So.” You peer out of the windows, looking for any hint of where you were headed. “What do you have planned?”
“Got a reservation for eight at this really nice place, dunno if you’ve ever heard of it.” Van stumbles over some sort of French pronunciation. “We’ve had a couple of dinners there with label people and it’s always class.”
“Sounds lovely,” You tell him. You’ve never heard of the place, but then again your Los Angeles friend group was lacking any musicians making a big break, let alone getting invited to dinner with Capitol Records staff. “Never heard of it.”
“You’ll like it,” Van says confidently.
You glance over at the clock on the dashboard display. It’s set to 24-hour time, so you pick up your phone instead of mentally trying to calculate it.
“How far away is it?” You ask nervously. It’s dangerously close to eight.
“Not too far,” Van shrugs, but he’s driving into the tail end of stop-and-go traffic. You try to swallow down your anxiety.
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Finding a parking spot is a pain in the ass, but eventually Van’s maneuvered his car into one of the parallel spots lining the sidewalk.
By the time you two are out of the car, crossing the street to the restaurant, it’s almost ten minutes after your reservation time. Van seems oblivious to this, breezily strutting into the place, holding the door for you as usual. He’s whistling absentmindedly, and you wonder if it’s one of his own songs. He keeps whistling until you two approach the podium in the lobby.
“Reservation name?” The hostess asks, turning the pages in the binder in front of her.
“McCann.”
The hostess takes a second to look over her pages before she motions. “Right this way.”
There’s no mention of the fact you guys are late as she opens a door on the wall behind the podium, leading you two into the dining area. It’s a stark contrast from the drab, dim decor of the small lobby area. The floors are glossy white, almost shiny enough to reflect your face back to you, and although there are some larger tables most of them are the quintessential small, circular two-seaters with silky white tablecloths draped over them. The walls are dark in typical L.A. style, but covered in windows that frame the courtyard outside, lanterns glowing and candlelit outdoor tables visible.
Almost everyone is in black tie attire, and you feel self-consciousness broil in your stomach as the hostess leads you and Van to to your own small table. You’re curious if there’s other celebrities here, but you’re too afraid of looking like an outsider by trying to peek at people as you pass by. You keep your eyes on the back of Van’s head instead, examining where his hair parts on his scalp.
You’re waved to your assigned table with the assurance that someone will be with you shortly before the hostess sees herself back to the front room. In the time you’ve paused to listen to her words Van’s already ahead of you, pulling out one of the covered chairs and motioning for you to sit.
“You know you don’t have to do that,” You tell him as you sit in the seat he’s designated for you. He takes his own seat opposite you.
“Does it offend you?” Van asks, and you watch his brow crease in concern.
“No!” You’re quick to assure him. “I’m not offended, or anything like that. I’m just saying, I won’t tell everyone this was the worst date of my life just because you didn’t pull the chair out or hold the door.”
Van laughs, the worry easing out of his expression. “S’ just a force of habit. It’s more trouble for me to stop at this point in my life than it is to just keep doing it.”
You nod in understanding before reaching for the menu and searching for the drinks.
“Do you know what you’re drinking?” Van asks after a small stretch of silence where you’re both looking at your respective menus.
“What are you drinking?” You answer his question with a question, eager to be able to gauge the most appropriate choice for yourself. The drink menu is long and most of the items seem hard to pronounce, and despite knowing Van intimately you’ve still got first date jitters. Not to mention, you were on a budget.
“I usually get this wine,” Van tells you, using his index finger to point it out for you on your menu. “M’not gonna drink too much considering I’m drivin’, but it goes great with the lobster.”
You hum as you read over the tiny italics font describing the wine. “Sounds good,” You say finally, “I’ll have it with you.”
“I’ll get us a bottle, then.”
You swallow hard when you read the price listed for the entire bottle, but manage to stifle any worries. You’ve waited 3 months for this date, there can’t be any real harm in one luxurious dinner. And the cost of the bottle divided into two wasn’t so outrageous.
“Perfect.” You close your menu, decision made.
By the time the server has taken your wine order, returned with chilled glasses and doled out servings to each of you, and delivered a fresh bread basket and dinner menus, your stomach is grumbling and you’re eager to scour through the menu and figure out what you’re having.
“God, I’m starving,” You sigh, buttering a warm bread roll. In your ravenous state you bite off more than you can politely chew, but thankfully Van doesn’t notice as he’s taking a peek at his phone.
“Same.” He was listening even in his distracted state, and as soon as he sets his phone back down he reaches for his own roll.
“So…” You start, flipping open your menu to (surprise) even more expensive, french-titled meals. “What’s good here?”
“The lobster,” Van laughs. “It’s the only thing I’ve had here. Had it once and kept craving it forever.”
He must be able to sense that answer doesn’t satisfy you, because he opens his own menu. “Bondy loves the roast. Says it’s one of the best he’s ever had.”
“Not a huge fan of roast,” You tell Van, but flip the pages until you find the meal he’s talking about. “Who’s Bondy?” The name sounds familiar, and in your head you replay the encounter you had outside of Van’s hotel room in San Diego. Was Bondy the one stuck behind the luggage?
“Johnny Bond, he’s our guitar player. Goes by Bondy.”
“Ah. Who’s the one with the…?” You trail off, but motion with your hands around your head to convey the thick head of curls you remember from that night.
“That’s Benji. Our bassist.”
“Benji,” You repeat quietly to yourself. The name doesn’t ring a bell, but the hair does.
“He likes the roast chicken,” Van suggests. “But he’s not allowed to say it’s the best because my mum makes a mean roast chicken and it’s deffo the best.”
“That sounds good. I’m gonna get that.” You try not to openly cringe at the price.
Van opens his mouth to speak, but from the way he’s looking over your shoulder you know the server’s returned to take down your orders.
“There’s Bob, too,” Van says unprovoked when you two are alone again. “He’s easy to pick out. Wears glasses.”
Your brain can connect the dots there: A man with glasses hidden away behind a drumset in the few photos you’d seen on google.
“Is he drums?” You’re hesitant in case you’re wrong, but Van perks up so you know you’ve got it right.
“He is.” Van takes a drink from his wine glass.
There’s a pause in conversation. You try to wrack your brain for a topic, but your knowledge of his band is shaky and not trivia-proof.
“Are you guys close?” Seems like a safe enough question to ask.
“Me ‘n Bob?”
“Everyone,” You elaborate, lacing your fingers together. “Are you guys, like, at each other’s throats?”
“Nah. They’re my best mates. I’ve known Bob and Benji since we were younger, in school. Used to play on the same footie team and all’a that. Bondy didn’t come into the picture until we were a bit older but I’d heard of him before. Thought he was crazy talented, couldn’t believe he actually wanted to join us. Everyone’s massively talented, really. Wouldn’t be the same without them.”
You drink in the reverence in his voice as he talks about his friends.
“I was just with ‘em today, actually. Been at the studio for most of the day.”
“Well, that’s good that you guys get along.” You offer him a smile which he returns.
“You’re telling me. Couldn’t imagine if things went sour. Having fights over guitar riffs and drumbeats all day.”
You try to picture Van angry and fail. “What do you do in the studio?”
“We’re putting the finishing touches on our next album. It’s due out at the end of the month.”
“Oh, no way!” Your eyes widen in interest. “That’s really cool.”
Van grins. “Yeah, proper excited. Think it’s our best one yet.”
“So is that how you ended up in L.A.? Music?” As much as you’re trying to get a feel for Van, L.A. seems like the last place on earth he’d enjoy living. Considering his lack of social media presence or desire to pressure others into buying sponsored products, and the fact that the band definitely seems more popular in the U.K. than America, you can’t quite put a finger on his motives.
“Yeah. I lived in New York for a bit, when we first got signed, but ended up moving down here. L.A. is sort of the hub for the business end. I spend a good bit of time in London, but the weather down here is nice.”
“So nice,” You agree. The constant summer is worlds different than the unpredictable midwest climate you were raised in.
“Right?” Van beams. “We just spent a while at this place in Ireland, writing and doing most of the recording. And it was just absolute pouring rain everyday. So once we got outta there we thought why not enjoy some time in the sun?”
You chuckle in agreement, taking the first drink of your wine. It tastes better than you were anticipating, and the pleasant surprise must show on your face.
“It’s good, innit?” Van takes his own sip. “Not much of a wine guy, but this stuff…” He trails off, nodding in approval. “Anyway, enough about me. Been droning on for ages. You said you weren’t from L.A., right? How’d you end up here?”
It’s your turn to be interrupted by the server with fresh, hot meals in tow. There’s the momentary fuss of getting situated with food in front of you, and by the time you guys are settled again the question has slipped away as you two dig into your food.
“This is amazing,” You affirm after your first hot forkful of chicken and roasted vegetables. “Who said this was amazing? They were right.”
“Blakes,” Van replies through a mouthful of lobster.
“Blakes?” You stop your fork midair. “Who’s Blakes?”
Van is still chewing his food, so you hurry up and eat the piece of potato speared on your fork.
“Benji,” Van clarifies after he swallows. “Benji is Blakes.” He coughs around a sip of his drink when he must see the confusion on your face.
“His name is Benji Blakeway. Blakes is his nickname.”
The name attaches itself to the memory in your head. The c’mon, Blakes, from the guy in the hat rings through your mind.
“Who wears the hat?” You try to get the last puzzle piece in place. You’ve seen whoever it is on google, always wearing the same flat cap.
“Bondy.”
“Okay. So you, Bob, Bondy, Benji.”
Van nods, looking pleased, and you feel a sense of satisfaction spread through you.
“I forgot,” Van says suddenly, “You were just about to tell me how you ended up in L.A.”
“Oh, right.” You look down at your food. “Full disclosure, it’s really lame.”
When you look up, Van’s put his fork down, prepared to listen fully.
You have some wine to calm your nerves. You’ve finished your glass, so you procrastinate by pouring yourself some more.
“It’s just… really childish and impulsive.”
Van laughs. “You’re only making me more interested!”
You huff out a laugh at that. “So… I guess it all started in high school. Which I went to in Michigan, by the way. It’s um,” You gesture with your hand, “It’s the state that looks like a mitten. Close to Canada. Anyway, I had this boyfriend in high school, and senior year he broke up with me.” You laugh at yourself, bringing a hand to your forehead for a moment. “God, this sounds so dramatic. But when you’re in high school you think you’re going to last forever with someone, your first love and all that, y’know.”
Van seems amused. “How old were you?”
“Well I was like…” You scrunch your face up, thinking back, “14 when we first met, and we were close friends for a while, and then 15 when we actually started dating, and 18 when we broke up.”
“Right,” You plow on, “So, first love and all that good stuff. So we break up when we were 18, which honestly needed to happen. We just didn’t get along anymore but we were so comfortable being a couple by then, you know? We were different as adults, so naturally we break up, whatever. The point is I was fucking devastated.”
You take a deep breath, another drink, and try to prepare yourself to tell the rest of the story.
“So my best friend and I had always had it in our heads, I don’t even know why, that we wanted to come to L.A.”
“Mary?” Van cuts in.
“No, not Mary. I met Mary once I moved here.” You clear your throat, getting back on topic. “I think it’s because of the weather, honestly,” You laugh at your immaturity at that age. “We were so tired of Michigan winters. They’re fucking… cold. And my friend can sing, so naturally we’re thinking you get into L.A. and boom, you’re discovered.”
You gauge Van’s attention then. He’s still listening close.
“So after high school, we had both been saving up for what we thought was this imaginary sort of dream, but then I was broken up with, and depressed, and I kept seeing him everywhere because our town was kind of small, and so we decided… Let’s just pack up and leave!”
Van’s lips quirk up at that. “I was always the same way,” He interjects softly. “Small town thing. Your parents didn’t mind?”
“Well, I convinced them that UCLA was my dream school. So of course they couldn’t say much because I ended up being accepted into a really amazing school, and they had heard me talk about L.A. before. So we get here, and… y’know… Things just didn’t work out that way.”
“When do they ever?” Van jokes.
You nod in agreement around a quick bite of chicken. “Exactly!” You say, wiping the corners of your mouth with your napkin. “It costed so fucking much to live here, and we burned through our savings really fast, and… We ended up becoming even closer through that and we dated for a couple years, and I invested a lot of time into trying to get her discovered because we couldn’t afford rent, but then she got into the wrong group and was getting into cocaine, it was… Intense.”
Your palms are sweating from your admission, and you can’t get yourself to look Van in the eyes, heart racing.
“So… yeah. Thankfully I’ve made a lot of friends here- the right kind, not the cocaine kind- and I got a really nice internship through UCLA and found an okay job, and me and her went our separate ways. And that’s when I met Mary, and she grew up here so she was able to show me around, and we’ve been inseparable ever since.”
You can feel anxiety clenching in your chest while your admitted interest in women still hangs in the air. You wish it still wasn’t so nerve-wracking to come out, and maybe it wouldn’t be except for the fact you and Van seem to really hit it off, and you would hate for this to be a dealbreaker for him.
You finally manage to look away from where you’d been carefully inspecting a small stain you’d made on the tablecloth. Van’s leaned back from his plate, an easy smile spread over his face. His arms are crossed across his chest as he marvels at you.
“We’ve got more in common than I thought,” He says grinning. “We can both discuss our ex-girlfriends. Cheers.”
He reaches for his wine glass and you reach for yours too. If Van notices how your wine is trembling from the hand holding the glass, he doesn’t call out as you two clink your glasses together, relief starting to seep through you.
“I love that,” He remarks, still beaming. “Proper ‘escape the small town’ story. I wish mine was as interesting as yours.”
“You do not,” You roll your eyes good-naturedly. “Yours is better! You ended up actually getting discovered.”
“Lots of hard work, that’s all.” Van shrugs.
Van tells a few lighthearted stories about struggling to get discovered while you guys finish up your meals. True to his word, he stays light on the wine in preparation to drive, spacing out only two glasses the whole time you’ve been here. You’re not sure how many you’ve had, but you figure it can’t be that many. The only telltale signs that let you know you’ve got alcohol in your system are the flush in your cheeks, the way the lights seem to shine a bit softer, and the way you can feel your eyes drifting over Van dreamily.
When the waitress brings the check Van reaches for his back pocket immediately, procuring a card from his wallet.
“You didn’t have to do that,” You say, your eyes widening in shock. “I was gonna pay for mine.” The cost of the entire bottle of wine, combined with both of your dinners floats in your mind.
One side of Van’s mouth lifts in a confused half-smile. “I said I was taking you out for dinner, didn’t I? Dunno if it means the same thing here, but if I’m taking you out why would you pay?”
“I mean, I just… Didn’t want to assume, I guess.” It’s burned you before, dates gone wrong where the check gets split by surprise. “It’s happened before.”
Van snorts. “Sounds fucking awful.”
You nod, eyes wide. “It really was.”
Your mind flips through a few of your worst dates, interrupted only by Van’s card being returned, you two sent on your way.
Van starts humming when you two meander out of the restaurant and across the street to his car, sidling into the front seats.
“Should I take you back to yours?” He asks as he gets the car started. “Or we could go back to mine. Watch a film or somethin’.”
There’s silence in the car while Van checks his phone. You decide to look at yours, too, checking the time. The night is still young.
“Back to yours sounds nice.” The wine makes your voice soft, betrays the way your heart skips at the suggestion.
Van licks his lips, still typing something. He looks up finally. “Mine?”
“Yeah.”
He gets the car into gear, pulling out of the parking space. With a few taps on a screen in the center of the dashboard his phone is connected by bluetooth and music rings out through the car. You recognize it as the song he was humming minutes ago.
You drive in silence for most of the ride, all talked out from dinner, but your interest piques when Van turns the music down.
“Can I ask you a question?”
“Sure,” You say nervously. Your head tries to predict what’s coming next.
“The thing, with you and your ex. Was it a one time sort of deal? Or do you still play for both teams?”
You chew the inside of your cheek. “I still play for both. I’m bisexual.”
“Got it.”
“Why?” You feel yourself bristle. “Is it a problem?”
“Not at all,” Van shrugs, slowly turning the music back up. “Just wasn’t sure what to call it.”
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It takes about a half hour to get to Van’s, a journey that includes weaving through a winding, uphill street crammed with upscale homes. Van’s home is in a cluster at the top of the hill, and typing in the gate code reveals a long driveway up to a house surrounded by a tall thicket of bamboo.
“I love the bamboo,” You tell him as he pulls the car in front of the garage, but doesn’t bother to park it inside. “The worst part of living here is feeling like your neighbors are breathing down your neck.” When you step out of the car you soak the privacy in. You could easily be murdered with this level of seclusion, but the fact that you can still hear the bustling sounds of the city and a dog in the neighbor’s yard is reassuring.
“Totally agree,” Van tells you, jingling his keys, “It’s most of the reason I chose this place. Can sunbathe totally naked and not feel like everyone’s watching me.”
Although Van delivers the joke completely deadpan, you burst into laughter, and in the soft glow of the porch light you can see him smile.
“M’not kidding!” He insists, pointing a finger towards the sky as he gets the door unlocked, letting you in first. “There’s a patio upstairs perfect for getting some sun.”
Inside, his house is decorated eerily similar to the restaurant you’d just been at, with glossy white floors, dark painted walls, and soft lamplight.
“I’m gonna grab a beer,” Van says as he locks the front door and sets his keys on a small end table that’s covered in unopened mail. “You want anything?”
You think for a moment. “What do you have?”
“No idea, honestly,” Van snorts. He starts walking through the living room and you follow behind. He turns the corner to a dining area that looks pristine and untouched, and around another corner is the kitchen, all windows and clean appliances and glossy countertops. The only indications that anyone’s been in there are the few dirty dishes in the sink, the amazon prime packaging scattered on the kitchen island, and more than one unfinished mug of tea sitting on different surfaces.
The windows in the kitchen look out into the backyard, where you marvel at the sparkling blue in-ground pool and what looks like a hot tub.
The sound of the fridge opening tears your eyes away from the windows.
“I’ve got, uh,” Van holds the fridge door open wide, the sound of glass clinking as he pulls a bottle of beer from one of the side pockets. “Some Coke, Dr. Pepper, lemonade…” He lets go of the door to pick up a bottle of orange juice, which he inspects carefully. “Some orange juice. Dunno if it’s good, but if you wanted to risk it be my guest.” He offers you a sheepish smile. “Haven’t made it to the shop in forever.”
“Coke’s good,” You tell him, and he sets one of the red cans on the island.
Van shuts the fridge. “Do you want ice?”
“Nah,” You shrug him off, “The can is fine.”
You use the tab to crack open your can while Van rustles through a drawer until he can find a bottle opener, getting his beer open. You two gravitate back to the living room, Van taking a seat on the dark, plush sectional in the center of the room.
He sets his beer down on the coffee table, no coaster in sight, before shucking his shoes off and stretching his long legs across the short end of the L shape.
Taking your own shoes off buys you a moment of contemplation before you decide to sit down next to where he’s stretched out. There’s no space for you to stretch your legs out, but you’re comfortable folding them up on the couch with you, getting comfortable cross legged while Van procures the remote from somewhere, starting the TV up.
“Look at the moon,” You marvel quietly. The living room features an entire glass wall that leads to an outdoor patio, the moon and stars sending a white shimmering glow over the furniture.
Van doesn’t say anything, but when you turn your head to glance over at him he’s admiring it too before he meets your gaze. He still doesn’t speak, the moment doused in comfortable silence.
“Can I use this?” You ask him suddenly, your hand landing on a folded up blanket a few cushions away.
“Course.”
You unravel the blanket and lay it over your lap while Van gets Netflix going.
“What do you wanna watch?” He asks when prompted to pick a profile. There are only two on the screen; Van and mary. You smile to yourself at the fact he shares an account with his mom as he clicks his.
“Um,” You look over the options on the screen. “Are you in the middle of anything?”
“Not really. Caught up on just about everything in Ireland.”
Van starts absentmindedly flipping through the trending now category, previews playing automatically.
“Have you seen that?” You ask when he hovers over one of the titles. “I heard it’s supposed to be really, really good.”
Van lets the trailer play out, detailing what looks to be a plot about infatuation and stalking. You can tell you’re both interested by the silence that falls over you.
“Sound good?” Van gets up to switch the lights off. The room is shrouded in darkness, Netflix lighting up his silhouette as he gets settled on the couch again.
“Yeah,” You nod, “Let’s see if it lives up to the hype.”
You’re all too aware of your proximity to Van as the show starts. You can’t look over at him without him noticing considering it requires you to turn your head, but you can’t help but feel like you can sense his eyes on you. The result is you spending the first half sitting stiff as a board, paralyzed.
But the show lives up to it’s viral social media hype, and you soon become so engrossed that without really realizing it you’ve stretched your legs down the long side of the couch, your head coming to rest on the cushion you had been sitting on. Van passes you one of the throw pillows he’s been hogging, and when you elevate your head you’re so close you can hear his breathing.
The longer you watch, the more convinced you start to become that this date was all an elaborate plan devised by Van to kill you, and that he really did stalk you months ago in San Diego. Your mind wanders for two seconds, contemplating your current position on a stranger’s sofa, and suddenly the plot has taken a twist and the main character is having sex.
It’s almost like watching a sex scene with your parents in the room, although Van is anything but. You cringe as breathy moans ring out through the surround sound and you’re forced to watch a trainwreck of a scene where the the girl is getting fucked, hard, with her windows open, the stalker watching from the bushes across the street. It’s over quick, the character’s on-again-off-again boyfriend leaving as soon as the deed is done, but to your horror the scene only gets worse as the girl starts to hump a throw pillow in compensation for the orgasm she didn’t receive from her boyfriend, all the while the stalker starts jerking off in the bushes.
“Oh God,” You groan, turning your face to bury it in the throw pillow. “I literally can’t watch!”
Van chuckles as you listen to the rest of the scene play out.
“You’re missing it.” You can hear the delight in Van’s voice. “He’s about to blow his load right there on the street.”
“I wanna miss it,” You tell him, but still turn your head to peek at the screen. “Fucking creep.”
The ending of the scene is a crescendo of orgasms and moaning, the actress for the main character really laying it on porn-style for her big finale, while the stalker is abruptly interrupted by an oblivious woman asking him to hold the door, his orgasm incomplete.
“That was fucking creepy,” Van agrees. The episode isn’t done yet, but you can tell neither of you are paying attention to the remaining plot.
“Those windows are freaking me out,” You whine, gesturing to the windows that had previously brought you the view of the night sky, but that you’re now convinced have someone peeping through them.
Van heaves himself off of the couch. Before you can question him he’s crossed the room, pulling giant sheets of blinds down over the windows.
You sigh in relief, but it’s short lived. “But what if you’re the stalker?” You narrow your eyes at Van, who’s looking down at you as he heads back to his seat.
“I’m quite daft, then. Spending all this money on a wine-and-dine when I could’ve been outside your bedroom window for free.”
You make an exaggerated retching noise. Van laughs.
There’s a beat of silence, and then: “Is it really like that?”
You turn your head to peer up at him, propping your chin up on the overstuffed pillow. “Like what?”
“Like she did,” Van gestures towards the screen, “Where you fake it, and then the lad leaves, and you go back at it again.”
You frown as you ponder his question. “I’m sure for some girls it’s not.” Van’s eyes are trained on you, hanging onto your every word. “But as far as I know it usually goes something like that.”
“Pillow humping optional,” You add. “You can use your hand. Personally, I use a vibrator. Or the mood passes and you just go to sleep.”
You don’t know where this burst of boldness to talk about your sex life so openly came from, but Van looks a bit panicked as a result of it.
“And when we…” Van’s voice is low, and you watch his Adam’s apple bob as he swallows, his brows knitting together. “Did you…”
“That was genuine,” You reassure him, watching the relief wash over his face.
Van makes a noise in the back of his throat. “But you have? Before?”
“Faked it?”
Van nods.
It’s your turn to swallow. “Yeah. I have. Not with you. But yeah.”
“How, though?” Van scratches the back of his neck. “Y’know when you watch porn or somethin’ like that, you can tell they’re playing it up.”
You can feel a mischievous smile stretching across your face. “You sound curious.”
“I mean, kinda, yeah. And it’d be good to know. So you can’t fool me.” He offers a sheepish smile at his own joke.
“That would imply you need fooling,” You point out, your voice quiet. There’s no real need to whisper, but the heavy feeling of attraction that’s suddenly pressing down on you keeps you from speaking full volume, especially considering your proximity to Van.
Van doesn’t speak, only holds your gaze. He’s got the same look in his eye that he did outside of the hotel that night when he was openly checking you out. You do your best to match it, your mind quickly wrapping around a plan. Now was as good a time as any other to make your move.
“Well, I mean,” You break his gaze, looking around the room instead. “It ruins the magic if you know it’s fake.” You give an exaggerated sigh. “But for you, I’ll make an exception.”
You sit yourself upright, Van carefully watching your every move.
“We gotta set the scene, though,” You tell him, standing up from the couch and wriggling your pants down your legs. “Get yours off too,” You tell him.
Van doesn’t question it, getting down to his briefs and peeling off his socks after he watches you take off your own.
You originally planned to keep your shirt on, to leave something to Van’s imagination, but you catch him admiring your black lace underwear and can’t resist revealing the rest of the matching set.
“Just want it to feel as real as possible,” You’re as nonchalant as possible, your voice the only sound in the quiet room. You realize then that Van’s muted the TV.
“Right,” Van agrees, fumbling with the buttons lining the front of his shirt. There’s no other layers underneath, so he’s shirtless in no time. “Now what?”
You pretend to think about it only to drag his anticipation out a few moments longer. While you torment him your eyes drag up and down his body, drinking in the familiar sight.
“Say we’re doing something like this,” You murmur, stepping over to where he’s still stretched out. You slide a leg over his waist, and with the soft slide of skin and fabric you’re settled on his lap, mimicking a riding position. He’s hard in his underwear, pressing against you through the cotton of his underwear and the lace of yours.
“Like I’m riding you,” You clarify, shifting in Van’s lap. You feel him tense up beneath you.
“Put your hands here,” You prompt him, gently grabbing his wrists and bringing them to rest on your sides. His hands feel hesitant to make contact with you at first, but at your encouragement he holds onto your sides firmly.
“Now, the first step is build up.” Your voice stays low, like you’re trading secrets with him. “It’s not gonna be realistic without warning. Gotta spend some time doing something like this…” Without further ado you’re grinding against him through your underwear, his fingertips pressing into your flesh.
It’s been way too long since you’ve had the experience of feeling someone’s solid, warm body beneath you, since you’ve felt someone want you so bad. Your first couple of breathy moans don’t even feel fake as you relish in the warm friction, losing control for a beat when your hips jerk on their own accord. “Van, fuck.”
His fingers squeeze you.
“Yeah, like that.” You piggyback off of his enthusiasm. You let your hips apply more pressure to his, but as good as it feels there’s no dry humping that could soothe your ache. Van doesn’t have to know that, though, and you let another desperate sounding noise come up from the back of your throat. Van’s thighs twitch beneath you.
You had been holding onto Van’s waist to balance yourself, but suddenly you move one of your palms to his side and feel him jolt. You look at him then, your face contorting into a look of mild surprise.
“I’m close.” You say it as if you were caught off guard. Van looks like an even mix of seduced and stunned, and the way he’s looking at you makes you close your eyes, scrunch your face up. “I’m, uh,” You pant, “I’m gonna-”
Before you can get to the grand finale your body is knocked off balance, suddenly becoming pressed into the soft cushions.
“Fucking stop,” Van sounds pained as he kisses you, hard. Your body melts into the couch, the sweet and rare feeling of a plan going perfectly warming your body from the inside out. You moan into the kiss.
“I take it back,” He tells you before another bruising kiss. “I don’t wanna know what it sounds like.”
“How are you gonna know?” You push out between genuine gasps for air as Van starts kissing your neck. You arch into it.
“Tell me the truth,” He begs, resting his forehead against your shoulder. You can feel how clammy he is. “Please. Save that stuff for someone else. Tell me the truth.”
You don’t respond, silence in the air as you both catch your breath.
“I’ve got no use for sex that sounds straight out of a porno.” Van lifts his head, and you flinch at the intensity in his eyes. “I’d rather it be fucking real. No bullshit. If you’re having a good time, sure, say it. But if you’re not, say that too.”
It’s a rather serious take on something you’d thought was lighthearted. You’d never thought twice about faking orgasms. As far as you knew it was quite customary. You’d always figured the amount of times you’d done it had been on the lighter side, too. It’s not like you’d never had one, a fate some women seemed doomed to. But the way Van’s looking at you gives a sudden gravity to your actions.
“No bullshit,” You say firmly. You unwedge one of your hands from where it’s been pressed into the crack of the sofa, and offer Van your pinky.
Van’s intensity breaks as he smiles at the gesture. There’s a shift in his weight before he can get a hand free to loop his pinky finger with yours. “No bullshit.”
Then he’s kissing you again, your head forced back against the cushions of the couch, paralyzed between the furniture and his body. He tastes like the beer he’s been drinking and the butter he’d drenched his lobster in. It should be a bad combination, but it’s so uniquely Van you can’t complain. Not to mention he’s still at the top of your makeout leaderboard, a realization that brings your fingers into his hair.
“Show me your room,” You tell him when you break apart for air.
“It’s two floors up,” Van groans. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah,” You laugh at his hesitation to roll off of you.
“There’s a guest bedroom right there.” Van nods toward the end of the hall past the front door.
You consider for a moment. “With windows?” You ask finally. When Van nods, you crinkle your nose in distaste.
“Your room,” You insist, and he finally climbs off of you. As he clicks the TV off you make the sudden decision to grab for the throw blanket you’d been using, wrapping it around your body as if it was a towel.
“What?” You ask when you notice him staring at you in amusement. “It’s fucking cold in here. Don’t suppose you want me to put more clothes on.”
“Deffo not,” Van agrees, and leads the trek up the stairs.
Van’s bedroom is average size, a fact which catches you off guard. You hadn’t known what to expect based on the rest of the house, but besides the giant glass windows that panel the wall the bed faces (which Van covers immediately), and the luxurious attached bathroom, his room is quite ordinary. There’s a suitcase resting open on the floor, and Van has to move an acoustic guitar that was resting on the bed, but otherwise things seem clean. There’s an overfilled hamper in the corner, but you were pleased he owned a hamper at all.
As soon as the guitar is moved you join Van in getting under the covers, shedding your makeshift robe on the floor. The transition back into making out is seamless.
“I can show you for real,” You whisper, surprised to find your bold streak hasn’t run out.
Van makes what sounds like a confused noise in the back of his throat, his lips consumed with being pressed against yours, but as soon as you hook a leg over his waist and start shifting him onto his back he gets the hint.
“You want me to?” You ask him softly, although you’ve got a good feeling you already know the answer.
“Shit,” Van hisses when you slip a hand into his underwear, easing his dick out. “Yeah.”
It’s your first time getting a hand around him properly, and you relish in the weight of him against your palm, the way the head of him is already swollen, peeking out of his foreskin. You give him a few experimental tugs, only to be encouraged by a groan. As much as you want to continue, his briefs are getting in the way.
There’s a bit of clamoring while you two undress fully, but it doesn’t dampen the mood in the slightest.
“That’s better,” You murmur when you’re seated back on his thighs, hand wrapped around him again. You know you should stop, considering you’ve been teasing him for a while already, but the control you’ve got over him is too intoxicating, watching him clench and groan as you experiment with different strokes.
“Where do you keep the condoms?” You ask after keeping the pace with relentless, quick tugs until you felt like he was ready. The only sound in the room is the soft noise of his foreskin sliding over him, but it feels like it echoes.
“There,” Van pants, throwing his arm in a gesture towards one of the bedside tables. You shift slightly off of his lap, your clit pressing against the soft skin of his hip while you dig through the top drawer. The only light in the room is from the soft glow of the city against the blinds, but it’s just enough for you to be able to locate a foil packet before handing it off to Van.
After the ripping of the wrapper, the room falls silent except for the harsh noise of breathing. Van’s hands bump against you clumsily while he gets himself wrapped, and you try to match your breathing to his slow, deep breaths. You sound more worked up than him, your anxiety making your breaths shallow and harsh.
Van brushes one of his hands against your thigh while he withdraws his hands, signaling he’s done.
This time when you slip a hand around him you’re gentle, careful not to disturb the thin layer of latex you can feel stretched over him. “Ready?”
You’re already shifting into position, rearing up onto your knees and maneuvering above him. Waiting for the green light.
“Yeah,” Van chuckles. “Let’s have it.”
The room goes quiet again, Van waiting with baited breath as you position him. You swallow hard, trying to soothe the fluttering in your stomach as you start to lower down on him.
It’s unceremonious, a hushed and slow process. There’s no dramatic sinking down like there is in porn, no loud screams of pleasure. It’s a slow stretch as your body accommodates him, an active effort to keep your balance as you make small shifts to try different angles. There’s the occasional sharp breath, but you’re not sure if it’s from Van or if you’re doing it without meaning to.
There’s a collective sigh of relief when you’re fully seated, your thighs trembling against his from the stretch. You’re terribly out of practice with this, and you’re mentally kicking your past self for her confidence while your anxiety starts to prepare you for Van’s disappointment.
Your nerves and self-consciousness mix together to form a hot flush on your face, one you’re grateful Van can’t see. You make a last-ditch effort for a deep breath before you shift your hips, preparing to proceed.
You’d forgotten how good this was. Or maybe it wasn’t actually ever this good; maybe it’s just Van. But as soon as you get a pace going any nerves melt away, replaced instead with electricity that buzzes down your spine, through your hips. It zings it’s way across your thighs, making any discomfort worth it as you make sure to lower yourself completely every single time, feeling yourself fill up.
Van’s got a white knuckle grip on the sheets, but you’re barely noticing his reactions. It’s like you’re possessed, your body moving without your control as you chase the feeling. What feeling exactly, you’re not sure; there’s the friction of him sliding in and out of you, the feeling of fullness that punches you in the gut every time you lower down, and the white-hot spots you can get him to hit depending on the angle. They all mix together, heat and tingling and sparks that have you hunched over, hands pressed into his chest, your hips erratic.
Your thighs start to fail you, and when the ache becomes unbearable you settle for staying seated, keeping him fully inside of you as you shift around, feeling him rub against your walls. You clench experimentally, just to see if there’s a way to get him deeper, closer.
You’re only jolted from your own thoughts at the sound of Van moaning. It’s loud, the volume paired with the vulnerability of the sound startling you.
You look down at him then. He’s got his forearm thrown over his eyes, and his hair’s a mess against the mattress, having pushed the pillows awry without you noticing. His mouth opens, lips forming a silent shape before he finally chokes the word out: “Stop.”
His other hand is pressed against your thigh, although you don’t remember it being there. His fingers dig into your skin. “Stop,” He says again, voice strained.
Your hips slow, any pleasure in your entire body fizzling away in half of a second. Your self consciousness comes crashing down over you in one suffocating wave as you hold completely still, confused.
You must’ve fucked up. Must’ve read the situation wrong, not realized that Van wasn’t into it. Must’ve heard his moan wrong. Must’ve missed something important. You feel the sweat that’d been developing on your forehead go cold as you mentally search for your fatal mistake.
“Is something wrong?” You ask hesitantly. You’re still frozen, careful not to move a muscle while you await Van’s response.
“No,” Van chokes out. He lifts his arm from where it’s obscuring his face, running his hand through his hair instead. You can see his bicep flex as he pulls his own hair by the crown of his head. “You’re incredible, fuck. I can’t fucking stand this anymore. Switch me.”
His praise delivers an instant wave of relief, one that has you beaming down at him. He returns the smile weakly as you unseat yourself, plopping down on the soft mattress while he scrambles into the new position.
“Scared the shit out of me.” You don’t know why you admit it. Maybe your brain is too foggy for censors. “Thought I was doing horrible.”
“Nah, fuck that.” Van’s lining up again. “Could just feel you getting tired. Figured I could return the favor.”
He takes your cue from the way you open your thighs wider, shift your hips up to meet him. He slides in easily, and as the shock of the interruption fades away you can feel your orgasm coming back to the surface, just as strong as it’d been previously.
Van takes his favor-returning duties seriously, fucking you with all he’s got. It’s different from last time. You’ve already set the rules and he follows them meticulously: sudden thrusts in, followed by a torturous pause so you can fully appreciate him inside of you before a long, slow withdraw where you can feel every inch of him. It’s too much and not enough at the same time, and when you’re on the brink you haul him in with a hand on his jaw for a kiss, gasping for air against his open mouth.
Van comes first despite his heroic efforts to hold off. Your only warning is a few moments of loose hips before he’s cursing, his hand slapping the headboard as he clenches it, exhaling your name.
Your only response is to kiss him. His lips are soft and pliant, moving easily against yours now that any tension has leaked out of his body, and you slip a hand between your bodies, desperate to feel as relaxed as him.
“Don’t,” Van slurs. Your fingers had already started tight circles against your clit, but Van bumps your hand away. “Quit, lemme.”
“I can do it,” You huff, your desperation putting you on edge.
“I know you can.” You can hear the amusement in Van’s voice as he pulls out and ties off the condom, leaning over to deposit it in a trash can you didn’t know existed. “But m’not inept either.”
After another impatient huff from you, Van’s fingertips are pressed tight against your clit, working it in loose circles. He doesn’t linger too low and you’re grateful for that, already feeling the tenderness start to catch up to you. He’s careful and precise, hanging onto your every noise as he tries to get it right, and when he succeeds you reward him by calling out his name over, and over, and over.
To your surprise, you open your eyes to Van sticking the fingers he’d touched you with into his mouth without any hesitation.
Your eyes feel like they’re about to bug out of your head. “Why are you doing that?”
There’s a wet noise as Van’s lips release his fingers. “Needed to clean ‘em off.”
“You could’ve asked me to pass you something. The blanket’s right here.” You reach to the floor and grab the soft fabric, showing it to him for emphasis.
Van just looks at you quizzically, cocking his head. “Why would I wipe off on a blanket?”
“I just, y’know,” You flounder for an explanation, especially under Van’s gaze. “If you’re not into the taste, or something. I dunno.”
Van shrugs. “Into your taste just fine.”
You can’t keep the surprise off of your face. “Oh. Alright.”
“I’ll have to show you next time,” Van says with a joking wink before getting up, heading for the bathroom.
As soon as he’s turned his back you bury your face in nearest pillow, beaming into it. Next time.
You sit up straight when you hear the toilet flush, regaining your composure.
When Van comes back into the bedroom he immediately grabs for a pack of cigarettes and a lighter resting on the bedside table. He offers you the box, but this time you shake your head.
“Let’s see how these sheets look,” He says, cigarette bobbing loosely between his lips as he makes the few strides to the bedroom door, lifting the dimmer and illuminating the room.
It feels out of place to be naked with the lights on, and you reach over and grab the throw blanket off of the floor, wrapping it around yourself again as you stand to take your turn using the bathroom. You examine the sheets with Van, and they look no worse for wear except for a slight wet spot marking the spot on the bed where you’d came.
“Just that bit,” You acknowledge, gesturing to the spot. “Sorry.”
Van pulls the cigarette from his mouth, rolling his eyes playfully as he exhales smoke. “It’s nothin’. It’ll be dry in a few seconds. Go freshen up, love.”
Your cheeks heat up at the nickname, and you head for the en suite so Van doesn’t see.
“Do you need anything from downstairs?” You ask after you’ve taken your customary after-sex pee. “I gotta go get my clothes.”
Van’s perched on the remade bed, finishing off his cigarette in only his briefs. “You’re gonna put your clothes back on?”
“I mean, I gotta wear clothes in the Uber,” You joke.
“You don’t have to Uber home,” Van says, ashing the butt of his cigarette out in an ashtray. “I was gonna make us a fry up tomorrow.”
His britishness catches you off guard, and you laugh. “I have no idea what that is.”
“Oh, no way. It’s a big breakfast!” He gestures with his hands, “Eggs, bacon, sausage, the whole works! It’s fucking class. What d’ya say?”
You hold up your hands in playful surrender, even though it causes your blanket to sag. “I was only leaving because I didn’t know what you had going on! But that sounds good.”
You try not to read too much into how pleased Van looks at your agreement to stay.
“But I’ve still gotta go downstairs and get my bag,” You tell him, “So do you still need anything?”
“I’ll go with ya.” Van lights his second cigarette. “Could use a cup of tea.”
You two return to the mess you’ve made of the living room; throw pillows smushed from being under your bodies, clothes strewn on the floor, drinks lukewarm on the table now. Van takes your can of Coke and his empty beer bottle around the corner into the kitchen, while you gather up your clothes and purse before following him.
“Ugh, ready to take these things out,” You complain, fishing through your bag for the contact case you’d packed. You hadn’t wanted to assume Van would want you to stay over, but it was always best to be prepared.
“Take what out?” Van mumbles, turning to look at you from where he was standing over the stove babysitting a tea kettle.
“My contacts.” You open the case up on the island, not bothering to wash your hands before getting the dry lenses out easily with your finger, depositing them in the fresh solution you’d been sure to fill the case with. Van watches the whole spectacle curiously.
Even though your vision is blurry once you’re done sealing the case and putting it back in your bag, you can still see Van’s smirk.
“What?”
“Nothin’,” Van sing-songs, his voice going up an octave. “Seems like you came pretty prepared, s’all.”
You scoff. “I take a contact case with me everywhere, thank you very much,” You lie.
Van snorts. “With the liquid already in it?”
You blanch, caught. Van laughs in delight.
“Oh, shut up,” You huff. “How about you tell me about that breakfast you already planned for us, huh?” You make your way around the island to him, gently jabbing him in the stomach. He pokes you back. It’s tit-for-tat until you’re both laughing, interrupted only by the tea kettle coming to a boil.
By the time you’re back upstairs, Van nursing a warm mug of tea, your post-orgasm exhaustion is at its peak. It had taken all your strength to climb the two flights of stairs, and you don’t think twice about crawling into bed wearing only your underwear until you hear Van fussing with the closet door.
“Here,” He takes a plain black t-shirt off of a hanger, tossing it to you. You accept it graciously, slipping it on before tucking yourself under the sheets, eyelids heavy.
When Van slides into bed next to you he doesn’t seem ready to sleep, picking up his mug of tea instead.
“Jet lagged?” You ask, peering up at him from your spot nestled in his blankets. Everything smells deliciously like him, and you have to actively resist the urge to look like a creep that sniffs everything.
“Kinda,” Van smiles down at you. “Don’t sleep much in general, though. Always been quite hyper.”
His declaration doesn’t surprise you. Considering all the fidgeting, humming, toe-tapping, and fingertip drumming he seems to be doing every moment, you have no doubts about his boundless energy.
“Hm,” You murmur, yawning. “Well, lucky you.” You pat his leg under the blankets before flipping over.
You can’t help but imagine what it might be like to actually see Van tired. What it might be like for him to lay with you in bed, your body wrapped around his. With that on your mind, you doze off quick.
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You’re disoriented when you open your eyes, expecting to be in your own bedroom. Instead you’re greeted by the bright L.A. sunlight, the shades pulled across the window seemingly useless in filtering it out.
Van’s not in bed. There’s his mug from last night on the nightstand, and the blankets and pillows are ruffled, but the bathroom is clearly empty.
You’d totally forgotten to ask him for a phone charger last night, something you only remember when you go to check the time only to be greeted with an unresponsive screen.
You decide to climb out of bed and see if Van’s actually following through on his promise of breakfast. It’s foreign to you, wandering around a stranger’s house. You’re usually the type to roll back over and go to sleep until you know for sure other people are awake. You’ve never been the one to make yourself at home, using the kitchen or the television without permission. But considering Van doesn’t seem the type to head back to bed, this seemed like your best bet.
Midway down the first staircase you realize that you don’t have pants on. You could head back upstairs and grab your clothes but decide against it, praying Van’s not the type to have company at this time.
Thankfully Van’s right where you anticipated. You hear his singing ringing out through the living area before you’ve even turned the corner to the kitchen, along with the clatter of pots and pans. The acoustic guitar that had been resting on the bed last night is propped against the coffee table now. He must’ve been up for a while now.
“Hey,” You say softly when you round the corner. It’s only for Van’s benefit, so he’s not startled by your presence, but he doesn’t miss a beat in the song he’s singing, only grinning at you as he continues. You smile to yourself when his back is turned. Of course he’s not one to scare easily.
He’s definitely been to sleep, considering his pillow-mussed hair and the fact he’s still only in his underwear. You admire the way the muscles in his back flex as he scours through the fridge, procuring ingredients.
“What time is it?” You ask, peering around for any sort of microwave or oven clock.
“Half nine,” Van chirps, bumping the fridge door closed with his hip, a carton of eggs and a frozen pack of bacon in his hands.
“Oh.” You intertwine your fingers together. “So, uh. Is that, like, eight-thirty or nine-thirty…?”
“Nine-thirty,” Van elaborates. He glances at you over his shoulder from his position at the counter. “Do you not say that here?”
“I���ve never heard it,” You shrug. Van nods as he processes your answer.
“So, what are you making again?” You stop leaning on the island in favor of approaching the counter, looking over the various foods sitting out. “A stir fry?”
“Well, about that…” Van says sheepishly, opening the carton of eggs. “I was gonna do a whole fry up, but like I said, I haven’t been to the shops in forever. So how do you feel about just eggs, bacon, toast?”
“Sounds lovely,” You tell him, continuing to hover around him.
Van cracks whatever eggs are left in the carton into a mixing bowl, leaving the eggshells in the nearby sink.
“Do you need any help?” You ask, feeling terribly annoying while you just watch.
“Nah.” Van shrugs you off. “Just keep me company.”
“I’ll sit down, then, instead of being in your personal space.”
“You’re gonna sit all the way over there?” Van whines when you tug one of the island stools out to sit on.
“There’s no other place to sit!” You exclaim.
“Right here,” Van slaps his palm down on the counter.
“I don’t have pants on!” You insist. “I’m not gonna put my bare ass on your kitchen counters.”
“I need you over here!” Van argues. “I need someone to help supervise!”
“Then how about I pull the stool closer?” You start to drag your seat over the tile floor.
“Then it’ll just be in the way. Come sit up here and talk to me.”
You pretend to be inconvenienced by his request, sighing as you hoist yourself up on a section of counter not currently being used to prepare food. The marble is cold against the back of your thighs, and you cringe.
You watch Van diligently mix the eggs with some milk using a whisk. With the way his head’s bent, you can see how crooked the part of his hair has become from sleep.
“C’mere,” You gesture. Van looks up from what he’s doing.
“Your hair is driving me nuts,” You elaborate. When he’s looking up at you it’s even more unruly.
Van abandons the mixing bowl, setting it aside in favor of coming to stand in front of you.
“You don’t like my morning hair?” He teases. He lets you maneuver the angle of his head and stands there patiently as you start to pick at the strands.
“Love it,” You assure him, “But if I’m going to supervise I’ve got to make sure you look presentable.” Once his part is sitting correctly you comb your fingers through the ends, managing to get about half of them to lay uniformly. It’s an improvement. You pat his shoulder, satisfied.
When he looks up at you, your faces are awkwardly close.
“Thanks,” Van murmurs, and you watch the way his eyes dart down to your lips before flickering back up. Your hand still hasn’t left his shoulder.
“Yeah,” Is all you manage to say, any witty or funny remarks disintegrating on your tongue. You wait for an interruption, for Van to jerk away and remember the food he needs to tend to. But he doesn’t.
His lips press into yours instead. It’s the first time you guys have kissed without an impending sense of urgency. Van brings his hands up to rest on your waist, his fingertips fidgeting with the hem of your borrowed shirt. You sling your arms around his neck, tugging him closer, savoring every moment.
You spread your knees apart, making space for him to fit his hips between them, pleased to get him even closer.
Van pulls away to breathe and you rest your head on his shoulder, trying to hide your smile. It occurs to you when you turn your face and admire the long lines of his neck that you’ve never paid much attention to it.
You can feel Van melting into your arms as you start at his shoulder and mouthe your way up. You don’t intend to leave any marks, but that doesn’t stop you from letting your teeth graze him a couple times so you can hear the way he sucks the air through his teeth at the feeling. You can feel his pulse right at his jaw, and you press your lips there firmly for a moment, marveling at how his pulse skitters against his skin.
“Christ,” Van murmurs. Your lips curve into a smile where they’re pressed against him.
You’d planned to be done at his jaw, but curiosity gets the better of you and you let your lips travel higher, trying to feel for his pulse behind his ear. The ends of his hair tickle your nose as you search for it, but feeling his heart stutter again is worth it.
When Van can’t take anymore he turns his head, bringing his lips to yours. Your hand comes to rest on the side of the neck and you don’t know if you’re imagining it but Van seems to lean into it. You tense your fingertips, digging them into his skin just slightly, experimentally, and Van deepens the kiss.
You make a small, satisfied noise as you break away from him. “You don’t happen to keep condoms in your kitchen, do you?”
You’d been feeling Van get hard the entire time, but when he pulls away you marvel at how terrible he is at concealing his desire; his pupils are blown, there’s a fresh flush to his cheeks, and his chest is visibly rising with every breath.
“I don’t, no,” He runs his hand through his hair, successfully reversing your attempts to make him look presentable. “I’ll go grab one from my wallet.”
“Hurry,” You urge him, pleased at how quickly he turns to leave the kitchen. He’s still just as handsome from behind, and you marvel at how his briefs hug his ass before he spins, catching you.
“Stop ogling at me!” He teases. You stick your tongue out at him.
With Van gone, it’s just you and the abandoned mixing bowl of eggs alone in the kitchen. You take a deep breath, kick your legs out from the counter awkwardly, and count the seconds until he returns, condom in hand.
“Okay,” He sets the condom down on the counter, and loops his fingers into the waistband of your underwear. “Hips up,” He quips.
You obey, pressing your palms flat against the counter so you can get your hips into the air and Van can get your underwear down. Van tugs his own briefs down his legs easily, kicking them away. You watch them slide across the kitchen tile.
Van opens the condom, giving himself a few quick tugs in preparation to roll it on. At the sight of him you swallow nervously, the visual reminder bringing the ache between your legs to the forefront of your attention.
“Go easy on me, okay?” You laugh, but the slight waver of your voice betrays your nerves. Van’s too smart for any sugarcoating. His blue eyes snap up to meet your gaze, all seriousness, a silent questioning.
You give him a slight smile, crinkling your nose. “I’m sore.”
Realization dawns over him. “Gotcha,” He nods.
Van positions himself between your knees, using his hands on your hips to gently guide you to the edge of the counter.
“I feel like I’m gonna fall off,” You whine. Van only smiles, still looking down at your bodies.
“I need you right here at the edge,” He explains, letting go of you when he’s satisfied.
“You sound like an expert.” It’s a dangerous joke to make, something twisting at your stomach at the sudden thought of other girls having this same kind of morning with Van.
“Not even fucking close,” He assures you, and your stomach unknots.
He works on lining himself up, but you can tell the way your body is curved in order to have your arms wrapped around his shoulders is making an odd angle that’ll be uncomfortable.
“Don’t go yet,” You plead, suddenly desperate to try a different position. He stills, his eyes flickering to yours.
“This angle isn’t gonna work,” You answer his unspoken question. “I think I need to…”
You don’t finish the rest of your sentence, opting to carefully lean back instead. You have to bend your neck to fit under the cabinet, and push a knife block a little off to the side, but eventually your shoulders come to rest on the cool tile of the wall. It’s uncomfortable, to say the least, but it allows your hips to tilt back. Your hands grapple for the most comfortable way to keep yourself from slipping off of the edge of the marble.
Van looks amused. “You good?”
You nod.
“We don’t have to do it in here you know,” He gestures with his hand towards the exit to the kitchen. “I can lay you out on the couch or somethin’.”
“In here’s fine,” You insist. You’d never had kitchen sex before, and your curiosity about the experience was stronger than the ache in your neck.
Van playfully throws his hands up in surrender. “Okay then,” He laughs, before positioning your hips again and lining himself up for the second time. “You ready, then?”
With your eager nod Van slides in. He goes slow, his brow furrowed. You can tell he’s taking your request to be gentle to heart.
He’s careful not to bottom out, and from your position sitting back can see the restraint he’s exercising, how tight and rigid his body stays while he starts thrusting, shallow, slow.
It aches but only slightly, and it’s an incredible reminder of last night. Your hands scrabble against the countertop, desperate for anything to hold on to. They find nothing. There’s nothing you can do except hold as still as possible to keep your balance.
Van’s an absolute vision, the morning sun beaming through through the kitchen and making him glow. You watch the sweat glisten on his chest, the way he looks like he’s so lost in you he wants to close his eyes. He seems determined to keep them open, watching your every expression. You can see the muscles in his stomach flex with each movement, the angle of the sunlight creating a tiny shadow near his bellybutton. It’s too much. You close your eyes.
That only makes it worse, though, only forces you to focus solely on how the movement of him against you feels. You’re forced to lay there, completely still, the image of Van burned behind your eyelids. The pleasure is making you feel like you’re about to crawl out of your skin, and not having an outlet is driving you nuts. You slap your sweaty palm against the countertop. Van doesn’t even flinch.
“Holy shit,” You gasp, tipping your head back against the cool tile, finally opening your eyes to the bottom of the wooden cabinet. “I can’t fucking take this anymore,” You heave.
Van’s forced to stop thrusting when you manage to get your legs around his waist, bringing his hips flush against yours as you work your way back into the sitting position you were originally in before you had the idea to sit back. There’s the uncomfortable tickle in your stomach as the angle changes, and you hope things will work this way. At this point, anything feels better than laying there helplessly.
“Sorry,” You breathe, back to wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling him in for a sloppy yet gratifying kiss.
“Don’t be,” Van brings your lips together again. He’s got he slightest bit of stubble growing. It’s too light to be visible, but you feel the slight scratch of it against your lips and bring your palm up to rub your thumb over his jawline, feeling the hairs.
You keep your legs around Van’s waist but relax them enough so that he’s got room to move. He takes it as an invitation, starting to fuck into you again, and makes a noise low in his throat. You can’t decipher if it’s from pleasure or discomfort, but it sounds urgent.
“Okay?” You ask, craning your neck away from where you’d been examining his freckles in extreme detail, getting a full view of his face instead.
“Yeah.”
You raise your eyebrows at how strained his voice sounds.
Van runs his hand through his hair, the strands that hang near his forehead damp with sweat.
You’ve stopped watching his face, your eyes instead wandering to the top of his shoulder, the little freckles that pepper him there. You only see his expression out of your peripheral vision when he finally speaks, his voice low: “It’s fucking tight.”
He sounded hesitant to say it, as if worried you’d take offence, but instead you lean over to start kissing the freckles on his shoulder you’d just longingly gazed at. Your stomach lights up at the way he sounded, vulnerable and maybe shy, different from the ever-confident Van you’re used to. You hide your smile in his neck and breathe in his scent while you’re there.
You could already tell you wouldn’t be able to come in this new position, last night’s ache becoming slightly too pronounced, but you were more than happy to let Van keep going. You spend the time alternating between kissing him deeply and kissing his neck, and letting your hands wander over any bit of his skin you can reach. An orgasm almost sneaks up on you, your thighs tensing of their own accord, but Van gets there first. It’s the quietest he’s ever been, shaking through it breathlessly, head pressed into your neck, your fingers still playing with the ends of his hair, which looks almost blonde in the morning sun.
Van catches your cringe as he pulls out.
“Did it hurt?” He asks, voice rough.
“Nothing serious,” You assure him. “It was worth it.”
He ties the condom off and opens one of the cupboard doors below you, leaning over to deposit it in the trash.
It takes a second for your head to wrap around the way he sinks to his knees suddenly.
“What are you doing?” You sound more frantic than you’d meant to.
“You’re sensitive, yeah?” Van raises his eyebrows at you for confirmation. You nod, stunned to silence.
“This is about as gentle as it gets,” He shrugs. “As long as you’re good with it?”
“Um, yeah,” You stammer. “You could give it a try.”
It’s hard to form words correctly when Van’s face is right between your legs, looking at you in all your after-sex glory. You have to actively resist the urge to squirm away and cover yourself, your cheeks heating in self-consciousness.
If Van notices your discomfort he doesn’t show it, only looking pleased that you’ve given him permission.
You can’t stand watching him lean forward, opting instead to tip your head back towards the ceiling and squeeze your eyes shut, waiting for him to begin.
You tense up when you feel it. Van’s warm breath tickles you before you feel the wet slide of his tongue against you. You jolt. He gives a few more experimental licks, slow and languid, moving around, and your fingers tangle in his hair instinctually.
It’s not that you don’t want it. It’d be a lie to say you’ve never thought back on that night in San Diego and wondered absentmindedly about things taking a different turn in his hotel room. Your sleepy mind curiously twisting the events, wondering if he’d be any good at this.
But as curious as you were, the thing about head is it always just seemed to be a grand waste of time for you. On the very few occasions you’d been on the receiving end, the act had consisted of slimy, uncomfortable exploration with movements too inconsistent to get you anywhere. And worse, it was treated as a gift, one you were inevitably supposed to return. The lackluster results along with the heavy implications meant you tended to keep your distance.
But after some exploration Van seems locked in on his mission. You dare to peer down at him when you feel him start to find a rhythm, one that has your legs opening wider without your control. His eyes are squeezed shut, his nose brushing against you with every lick, and when he exhales hot air you can’t help but shiver.
You let go of his hair, your knuckles aching from your tight grip, but Van makes a noise. It’s too quiet for you to hear, but you jerk as you feel the vibrations against you, the message loud and clear. You rush to grab his hair again, flustered.
The better it starts to feel the more apparent it becomes that he’s in the wrong spot, a different area starting to throb for his attention. Without really thinking about it you use his hair to herd him to the other spot. He’s just licked firmly against it, your legs quivering, when he sits back on his knees.
“Done?” You ask, surprised to hear disappointment in your tone.
“Nah,” Van wipes at his mouth with the back of his hand. “Need a breath.”
Your shoulders sag with a relief you didn’t know you felt.
“How is it?” He croaks, peering up at you.
“Good,” You answer out of habit, before realizing how true it is. “Really, really good.”
“You like the spot I was in?” He inquires, gearing up to keep going. The way he sets his jaw in determination makes your mouth go dry.
“The one higher up,” You clarify, your voice only slightly above a whisper. “Yeah.”
And without further ado he’s back at it, resuming in exactly the same spot, a miracle that leaves you speechless.
There’s nothing unexpected about your orgasm. It’s a steady build, the pressure between your legs becoming more and more unbearable as Van’s tongue works firmly against you. He incorporates his lips in some mysterious way you’ve never experienced, and uses his palms to press your thighs open when you’re too clenched to keep them open yourself. He’s eager to please, treating any noises you let slip as feedback. You moan his name as praise and Van preens under the attention.
It’s a long descent back to Earth, your head spinning when it’s all over. The first thing you realize is that you’re awkwardly petting Van’s hair, smoothing your palms over the strands subconsciously. You pull your hands away as Van leans back, catching his breath.
“Sorry,” You murmur.
“Hm?” Van busies himself wiping his mouth. You can see his chin glistening from you.
Your head’s too foggy to clearly remember why you even said sorry, let alone explain it to Van. “I dunno,” You say instead.
“Can you pass me one of those?” Van asks, gesturing to a roll of paper towel that’s within arm’s reach of you. You rip away a few squares for him and pass them over.
“That went better than expected,” You confess breathlessly.
“Yeah?” Van cocks his head, looking amused. “Thought I wouldn’t be any good?”
“Not at all! I mean- that’s not what I meant,” You giggle, trying to find the right words somewhere in your haze. “I’m just surprised I came. It’s never happened from that.”
Van blinks at you. “No shit?”
“Yeah, I’ve never. Until now. But I don’t really let anyone do that. Swore it off a few years ago.”
“But you let me?”
“I mean, yeah,” You shrug. “I’ve never had anyone, like, want to. I’m not gonna beg for something useless.”
“Never had anyone want to?” Van looks stunned as he uses the edge of the counter to help himself off of his knees. “Who the fuck have you been with?”
It sounds hypothetical, so you don’t answer. Van shakes his head to himself as he leans over, washing his hands in the sink.
“We’ll have to do it again sometime. Properly. That angle was kind of shit.”
You smile. “I mean, I thought it was pretty nice.”
Van smiles too, sliding down the counter so he’s in front of you. He leans in for a kiss, and even though you can taste yourself on his lips you let him.
“It can be better. You just gotta gimme another chance,” He says playfully when you two separate.
He’s joking, but you can hear he’s being genuine underneath.
“I mean, if you want,” You shrug, indifferent.
“Oh, I want,” He assures you with a wink. “Anyway, are you still hungry?”
“I’m starving,” You groan. “But I really need to rinse off, if you don’t mind.”
“Course I don’t mind. I’ll set you up in the bathroom and then get breakfast going for real this time.”
He reaches down for his discarded briefs, slipping them on before leading you back up to his bedroom, getting the shower in the en suite going for you.
Once you’re done showering, smelling like all of Van’s products and wrapped in a giant, fluffy towel, you slip out of the bathroom and into Van’s room. You perch on the edge of his bed, reaching for your phone which has finally powered on with the help of a borrowed charger.
There’s a ton of texts from Mary, her curiosity growing the longer you haven’t responded. You listen closely for any sign of Van, but there’s silence. He’s still in the kitchen working on breakfast. You dial Mary’s number.
“Holy shit, finally!” Mary exclaims down the line. “How was last night?”
“I’m um,” You keep your voice low, still paranoid Van might come upstairs to check on you at any moment. “I’m still here.”
“No fucking way,” Mary hisses. “You stayed the night?”
“Yeah. But hey, listen, I don’t have too long, he’s making breakfast-”
“Breakfast?” Mary interrupts. “Like, what kind of breakfast? He can microwave oatmeal?”
You snort. “No, like a real breakfast! Eggs and stuff.”
“Shut the fuck up. I knew he was perfect the first night we met him!”
“Mary, listen!” You hiss. “I gotta tell you about what just happened!”
“This is gonna be good.”
“Oh, it’s better than good. He’s, like… Wow.”
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Undesirable Truth, Part 7
It didn’t take long for Metal to fly to Eggman’s new base. This one looked just like the old one I used to live in, only a few minor changes. For instance, the doors weren’t hydraulic anymore but had locks, magnetic if I recalled correctly, he had a few early blueprints for them in the works before I fled. As Metal landed in front of the doors that were slowly opening before us my heart started to race, now that I knew the truth, I’d be treated like a prisoner for sure. I looked behind us in hopes that my friends had followed behind, no sign of them. In a last-ditch effort, I put all my energy into thrashing and writhing as hard as I could to free myself from Metal’s grip. As a response he dug his sharp steel fingertips into the skin of my arm, I suppose he thought the pain would deter me. I tugged harder and tried to slip through his hold, I could feel the points of his claws tearing into my flesh. It was time for me to claw back! I reached up and tore at the exposed wiring on Metal’s shoulder and ripped it loose. His arm went limp and I made a run for it. He was quick to chase me down but I threw a rock at his chest, right where his battery should be, in hope of knocking it loose inside his shell. That, at the very least, slowed him down. I made it back into the forest we came from and ran the trail to the village. Metal shambled behind me methodically, not once taking his eyes off me. He had to move slowly or else risk shaking his battery completely free. He knew I would reach a dead end soon, but I had the strongest hope that I would reach my friends in time.
I ran as far as I could until I reached a cliff face, there was no way I could climb it before Metal reached me. I was done for. As I looked back at Metal, I noticed a spot of blood on the ground between us. Did that come from me? I glanced at my arm, Metal’s grip tore deep lines into my bicep, blood poured from the wounds freely. I looked back up at the top of the cliff, if I couldn’t reach my friends, I could at least leave them a clue. Metal clutched my shoulder, the tips of his fingers threatening to bite into my skin again as he dragged me away. I squeezed the blood from my wound and left as much of a trail as I could. I smacked my handprint on rocks and tree trunks the whole way. It was the most I could do, though it left me feeling queasy. My effect on Metal’s programming seemed to keep him from noticing my efforts, he did nothing to stop me. At least I had some luck.
When we got inside the base, Metal unceremoniously threw me forward and I stumbled and fell. All that work I put into piecing him together and this was all the thanks I got? There was blood all over my hands at this point, they were visibly shaking as I pushed myself up. Eggman was standing just ahead, ready to gloat.
“Try not to bleed so much, these are new floors.” He commented.
I glared back at him.
“You don’t want blood on your floors, but on your hands it’s just fine?” I retorted.
“Don’t be so dramatic. I improved your life!”
Two guard bots picked me up by the arms, the one on my left gripped my wounded arm tightly and I hissed in pain. Eggman chuckled and we started toward the holding cells.
“By the way,” He added, “I should thank you for putting Metal Sonic back together. If it wasn’t for your hard work, I would have never found you!”
I sighed and hung my head; this was all my fault. I should have listened to Knuckles and Sonic. My face betrayed me, I was too visibly troubled and the old man took great joy in it.
“Yes, that’s right. All thanks to you I was able to remote in to Metal Sonic’s operating system. Even when you betray me you’ve proven very useful.”
I spat at him and shouted,
“Shut up! I’ve had it with you and your lies! I won’t be here for long! I’ll escape again! Just you watch!”
He frowned and punched in the code to the holding cell.
“Hm, I see you picked up some bad habits from your new friends. No matter, the testing will start again soon and you’ll forget all about them.”
He was going to try again? Ice gripped my spine but my blood was boiling.
“You-! You won’t get the chance! I’d rather kill myself first!”
“That’s enough whining for now.”
When I was dumped into the holding cell, I dashed for the door but it slammed shut just before I could reach it. I pounded on it as hard as I could, shouting for him to let me out even after I knew he had left. I battered that door until my hands were bruised, just to keep myself from crying.
Eventually I ended up sitting against the door, waiting for a plan or a noise or some hope that I would be free. I started to wonder if this was going to be the end of my free life forever. I wondered if I was just going to forget again and start over as if nothing happened and believe the same lies that allowed fear to rule me. Pin-pricks of tears were forming in my eyes, I was trembling at the thought of going back to that experimentation table but I knew there was nothing I could do to stop it. I was trapped again, and the worst part was I knew help wouldn’t be here in time. I was the only help I had, and I was useless. I knew that if he went forward with his experiment again, my memory would be erased, and the old geezer would make extra sure that I never questioned him again. I scanned the room, looking for anything that could help me escape, but there was nothing. He made sure my cell was empty.
I thought that perhaps being dead was the better option. With the room empty it would be hard to implement anything quick and easy but if I was determined…
Did he ever think about ending it all too? Was this how Sonic felt when he was kept a prisoner? Sonic… My friends… The village during the spring festival. The smell of flowers and popcorn. All those kids playing and laughing. The fluffiness of the cotton candy. The light airy feeling of spending time with everyone under the cherry trees and the pastel pink flowers. Wasn’t that worth fighting for? And my friends… what would they think if I gave up on them like that? As if I didn’t have any faith in their rescue! What if they came to rescue me and found that I had…? No! I would not give up like this! There were other options, I just couldn’t see them yet! I would not lose myself like this now! And I was not going to give up hope, even if I lost my memories, I knew my friends would not give up on me!
I started pounding on the door again.
“Hey! I need medical attention!”
I had a very rough plan; it wasn’t much but if I could get the door to open, just once, maybe I could think of something else along the way. There was an observation window on the wall to my left, it was pitch black until a light came on from the room on the other side of the glass. The old man must have been watching the whole time.
“Now you suddenly remember you’re injured?” He asked over the intercom.
“You gonna let me bleed to death before you can start your precious experiment or am I gonna get some medical treatment?”
Eggman pressed a few buttons on the console in front of him. I watched intently, maybe he was calling a medic bot? Some time passed and nothing was happening, so I became impatient.
“Well?” I asked.
He scoffed, “You’ll survive.”
“The hell I will! You seein’ all this?” I waved my arms to display the bright red coating. A few drops flew from my hands and hit the glass.
“Enough! I’m far too busy to pamper you!”
“And what are you doing?”
“Preparing to wipe your memories again! What do you say to that?” He leaned forward with a menacing smile.
“Bullshit! You wouldn’t dare!” I was hoping I was right on this bluff.
“Wouldn’t I?” He continued to smile.
“What’s the vault passcode?”
His grin disappeared quickly, “…What?”
“The passcode. For the vault. You remember it?”
He was silent. I was on the money!
“That’s what I thought…” I smirked, “See, you can’t wipe my memories because I was too valuable a worker. I made sure to remember everything so you wouldn’t have to. And if that’s gone…” I shook my head.
“You little-! You impudent-!” he stammered, “How dare you make such an assumption! Of course I know the passcode! I-!”
“What is it then?” I interrupted.
He stuttered irritably, trying to find an answer.
I couldn’t help but snicker, “You can’t scare me anymore, old man! I have leverage now!”
“You most certainly DO NO-!”
“And the best part is you practically gave it to me!”
“You listen to me, you little welp! You may think you have the upper hand, but remember who’s actually pulling the strings! I can still finish my experiments without wiping your precious memories!”
I wasn’t totally convinced but I knew not to push my luck. I had made my point. Now it was time to negotiate. I crossed my arms while making sure to apply pressure on my wound to keep it from bleeding out further.
“Fair enough,” I said, “But how about some medical supplies? I need to bandage this up at the very least.”
“Fine.” Eggman huffed.
He pressed a button and a first aid kit dropped from a hatch in the ceiling of my cell, startling me. It would have been funny to suddenly see an object just randomly fall like that, but given the situation, I was too tense to notice. I used the kit to tend my arm and breathed a sigh of relief.
“There!” The old man griped. “You have your medical treatment. Now tell me that passcode.”
“Ah-ha! So you didn’t know it!”
“Just get it over with!” He shouted.
“Alright, alright, geez! Don’t go giving yourself a heart attack…” I thought back to the last time I had to enter it. “It was… ‘the dog off’ capital T, capital D, zero for the o in off and capital f’s.”
“That’s it?”
“I had a lot of things to do at the time! What more did you want?”
He grumbled and started to enter the password. Apparently, he had to go without any valuables for a while. I was getting curious.
“Is this really why you wanted me back so badly? So I could tell you passwords and stuff? Do you want to barter for the budgeting spreadsheet password next? The passcode to the furnace room? Or maybe a walkthrough on updating the server system?” I complained.
“Don’t be so foolish! I could reset any one of these passwords if I had the time… No, you’re more useful as a guinea-pig.”
“For what? What are you doing this for! You said so in the report, the experiment failed! What more could you possibly need from me?” I shouted.
He was quiet for a moment, then grunted. “So that’s where my file went. Alright, smarty-pants, your experiment did fail! But I’m planning on picking you apart to find out why.”
“What… were you trying to do?”
“You don’t need to worry about that.”
“The hell I do! It’s the entire reason I’m here! Can’t I at least know the reason why I’m in this mess in the first place?”
He refused to answer.
“I did so much for you!” I argued, “I wasted three years of my life! Don’t I at least get to know why?”
“…Well, since this information will die with you, I might as well. You must already be aware that Sonic and his friend Shadow have what are called super forms, correct? They like to use the chaos energy stored in the chaos emeralds to grant them unlimited power for a short period of time. I suspected that if a human gained an affinity for chaos energy, much like your animal friends, then that human could also use the chaos emeralds to attain a super form.”
“You… kidnapped me for that?! Why couldn’t you test that on yourself? Why drag me into this?”
“Chaos energy is dangerous. Humans can’t withstand the raw power for too long. That’s why I diluted it with water and pumped it through your body. You barely survived. It was quite fun to watch!”
I was too angry for words. He found this amusing and continued.
“Your transformation was an intriguing surprise! No doubt it will present an equally surprising answer when I cut you open and take a closer look. I would have done it sooner, but I needed to see just how long you would last in this new form. Too bad you had to go snooping around, I would’ve kept you alive longer if you hadn’t run away. But I suppose it was only a matter of time before you became useless to me anyway.”
I wanted to scream in anger. But I knew I had to play my cards right. I clung to my bargaining chip just a little tighter. What was the one thing he couldn’t do without?
“So hasty to kill me… I suppose you don’t need any other chaos emeralds?”
“That’s an interesting offer, provided you aren’t lying! But we can bargain later. I’ve got more pressing matters to deal with at the moment. I’d send Metal to keep you company but I still have to fix him after you and your friends ruined him!”
“You’re welcome! I left a few surprises for you in his operating system, have fun weeding those out!”
I watched as he left the observation room. Something was going on. I knew it. He wouldn’t have left so soon if there wasn’t trouble. That gave me some hope that my friends had made it here in time.
I looked down at the first aid kit. Not much to work with but perhaps it was enough to allow me to escape. I checked the inside: disinfectant, bandages, gaze, medical tape, a tourniquet and a small pair of scissors. I looked up at the ceiling it had come from. The hatch it had fallen from was just big enough I could fit through it. I looked at my hand, I was a cat, right? Perhaps I had claws? I flexed my fingers. Nope. I took the scissors and went to the door, maybe I could pick the lock? I didn’t know the first thing about picking locks and there wasn’t anything I could access from my side of the door. I looked at the window, it was too thick to smash open but I did notice that the window was small. It didn’t have a full view of the ceiling of the room. Now I had a plan.
Using the full length of the room to my advantage, I ran to the end, ran back toward the door and tried to run up the wall toward the ceiling so I could grab the one security camera in the room. On my first and second attempts I fell flat on my back. I went back to the end of the room again, this time I was going to make it. I was sure. I ran toward the security camera, planted one leg on the wall and used my momentum to spring as high as I could. I was able to grab onto the security camera, and used it to climb up into the corner between the observation window and the door. My tail waved back and forth frantically as I balanced precariously on the window ledge before it finally calmed down. I took a deep breath and waited. To anyone looking in, it would appear that I was gone.
It was a long wait. My arms and legs were extremely tired, when the door finally opened it was Orbot and Cubot in the doorway. He sent them to watch over me?
“How could she be gone?!” Cubot exclaimed.
In the old days, they were as much friends to me as Metal Sonic was. They were the ones that taught me how to work in the base and any time I had trouble I could go to them. They never ignored me. I felt a bit guilty for hiding from them. I knew that if I escaped from their watchful eyes, they would get the worst of Eggman’s temper. Orbot peered into the room,
“How ironic. For once, she vanishes and it’s the only time we wanted her to stay!”
I rolled my eyes; guilty feelings were gone. I jumped down and raced past them. They brought a company of guards with them but I was too fast to catch. I guess all that time with Sonic improved my speed. I ran as fast as I could toward the control room, I wanted to open the doors from there but the guards were on my tail. I weaved through labs and hallways, hiding just behind the dark corners, and lost them. There was so much rumbling in my heart, I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to scream or laugh. I never thought I’d get this far!
I decided to take my next few steps slow and figure out if there was a weapon I could grab before heading out. I crept into the room nearest me, this place seemed warmer than the others and was filled with a green glow. I peaked around the corner to find this lab was much bigger than the others. Eggman sat with his back toward the entrance, working away on something at his worktable. My first instinct was to turn and run in the other direction before he noticed my presence. Then my eyes caught sight of a glowing gem about the size of my fist contained in a power draining device. Is this what everyone called a chaos emerald? I carefully opened the lid of the machine, reached in and snatched the it. The stone felt warm and seemed to hum against my skin as I picked it up. Something like this in Eggman’s hands was too dangerous. I gripped gem tightly and picked up an empty box from the trash to hide the glowing when I entered the hallways. Just before I could step through the door, the old man cleared his throat. I froze, even my heart stopped moving for a second. I glance up, he hadn’t turned around yet. Now was my time to bolt. I took for the hallways as quickly as possible, making sure to serpentine through other labs before heading toward the control room.
I couldn’t find any weapons around the base that I understood enough to use, so I gave up and snuck up to the control room. The door was unlocked, I wasn’t sure if that was a bad sign, but the blood loss I suffered earlier was really wearing me down. I needed to get out soon. I tiptoed in and looked for the console that was in charge of security so I could unlock the front door. He rearranged all the consoles since I left. Typical. I picked the best bet and was about to log into it when I heard someone shout:
“WHERE IS SHE?”
I nearly jumped out of my skin! I panicked and thought Eggman found out I had taken the chaos emerald, but that voice… It wasn’t Eggman’s, so who was it?
“WHERE’S CHERRY BOMB? YOU BETTER NOT HAVE HURT HER OR YOU’LL HAVE TO ANSWER TO ME! AND MY FISTS!”
Knuckles?! I was flabbergasted. Did he know anything about stealth? I rushed out to the sound of his voice. I guess I didn’t need a weapon after all, just a very angry echidna.
The sound of carnage accompanied his shouting as it grew louder and louder. I was getting close. I ran past the cell I escaped and had to stop to catch my breath, it was getting harder to breathe and the air felt hot. I had to find Knuckles soon. I looked into the cell, he busted the door down and probably saw the blood I left behind. No wonder he was so pissed. I started to walk toward his screaming and found him amongst the wreckage of several guard bots.
“I KNOW SHE’S HERE SOM-!” He saw me, “Cherry!” He ran over and looked at my bandaged arm. “Are you okay? Did he do this to you?” He growled.
"I tried t’get... ‘way from Metal... Didn't work... Lost blood!" I couldn't catch my breath, and my head was starting to spin.
“I know you did. We followed your clues all the way here. Can you walk?”
I nodded and he started leading me back to the exit.
“Where i-… everyone?” I asked.
“We split up to look for you.” He pressed a button and spoke into a watch that Tails obviously made himself. “Guys, I found Cherry! We’re heading out right now!”
I heard Sonic’s voice respond.
“Great! We’ll meet you outside!”
“Is she okay?” Amy asked.
“She’s fine.” Knuckles answered.
“And I’ve got a chaos emerald with me!” I stated triumphantly, though a bit winded, and I lifted the box in my hand.
Knuckles looked at me in surprise, “You found a chaos emerald?!”
“I knew he had one in the base somewhere! Good work, Cherry!” Tails said through the watch.
I was beaming with pride. Knuckles looked back at me with a warm grin and hung up.
“You did good but we’d better get you out of here.”
If I wasn’t exhausted, I would’ve been in tears. I kept my hope this time and my friends were here to rescue me! It was a good thing they were here too; I was getting weaker and weaker. I had to focus all my energy on each step as I navigated my way around the devastation Knuckles had made. Knuckles ran far ahead of me before he even noticed I was falling behind.
“You gonna pick up the pace, grandma?” He asked.
I wanted to reply so badly but I was too busy trying to breathe. He marched over and scooped me up under his arm.
“Sorry, Tiny, but we don’t have time to waste!”
“P… Put me down! …I’m fine!” I panted.
“I’ll put you down when you stop wheezing!” He retorted.
By the time we got outside the others were all waiting for us on the edge of the forest. It was good to see their smiles again.
“I’m so glad you’re okay!” Amy exclaimed and hugged me tight. “When we saw that empty cell, we thought the worst!”
“Well maybe Amy was worried,” Knuckles muttered as Amy pulled me from his arms, “but I knew you were okay.”
“Yeah right, Knucklehead!” Sonic interjected, “You were charging ahead before we even knew where to go!”
“Yeah-! Well-! Maybe you just took too long!”
“Those sound like racing words! You up for one?”
“Guys!” Amy scolded, “The important thing is that we found Cherry and can bring her back home!”
Knuckles glared at Sonic, and Sonic sent Knuckles a confident smirk. Both silent promises that they would continue this later.
“Actually…” Tails commented, “Now that Metal Sonic knows where our home is, we’ll need to move as soon as possible.”
“Shouldn’t be too hard!” Sonic assured him, “I’ve already got a spot in mind!”
Knuckles nudged me, “You still got the chaos emerald?”
I handed him the box with a nod. I still wasn’t feeling well but it was relieving to at least have my hands empty at this point. Knuckles looked at me cautiously, he could tell I was having a hard time. He looked at the box and opened it. As soon as the lid to the box opened, I was hit with an overwhelming wave of pressure, all sound was muffled and my vision blurred to black as all sense of gravity left. I vaguely remember feeling the ground at my back before drifting off with the pulsing waves that distorted the entire world around me.
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