#I’m v v v proud of myself tbh

[rosicheeks]

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[foundfam2754]

S17e10 (finale!) live reactions!

Spoilers…obviously

- AHHH this is it!! finally! here. we. go.

- yeah they better not hurt my kiddos thank you very much

-I’m telling you NOW. this is all about Elias. He’s the center of the conspiracy. that’s been my theory since e1. if he didn’t say anything about GS, none of this would have started

- of course, Emily’s kidnapped again. That HAS be in Paget’s contract or something

- where are JJ and Luke?? boyf and bff up to no good again

- what did Emily do?? what’s she being judged for?

- I KNEW IT. THEY WERE GONNA DO FLASHBACKS AGAIN

- tbh this has to be the least scary time that’s she’s been “abducted and interrogated” lol

- I KNEW IT. My “Emily abduction count” was 4

- this is the “dramatic and cry-y” outfit for Pen!!

- I think my theory is right!! if you have been reading my reaction posts every week you’ll know I have a theory about this season:

that the underlying conspiracy of the season being that they’re (BAU and the gold stars) doing everything Elias wants them to do - and it was all to get him out of jail and to screw over the BAU, and it all started with Bailey’s “gold star” in 16x10. especially because the only way they can resolve it is by confiding in voit. because he knows everything and how everyone really feels. and everyone’s priorities

- lol elias’ cell looks like a college dorm

- I KNEW IT I WAS RIGHT ABOUT THE CONSPIRACY. - ELIAS. IS. THE. CENTER OF IT!!! I’m just so proud of myself

- OMG that’s not a spin I saw coming

- wait wait wait did I forget or did they JUST tell us about Emily’s sister

- aw man doug bailey’s such a good egg

- chaotic voit is so fucking funny

- also that’s a cool shot

- god doug bailey is *so* cute

- oh god - voit knew if bailey ended up on that wall, pete would fall into deeper into the conspiracy!! 🤯🤯

- BIT THROUGH HER TONGUE?

- how does emily end up being cool and such a bitch badass even when she’s in that much pain!??

- “Jenny?” ew

- “we can smell you later” HAHA

- haha I fucking love Tyler “thought experiment”

- “hey, Ty-Ty” “Lucas” I FUCKING LOVE CHAOTIC ELIAS

- oh my god Penelope, stay safe

- PEN PROTECTING TYLER!!! it actually threw him off, you could see his face, it’s the eye contact specifically that threw him off

- oh my god that’s horrifying

- this whole episode is the bau trying to throw Elias of and v/v

- oh god I forgot about emily

- is she about to say that she loved him? pls, I kinda liked them together

- also a lil inconsistency that bugs me; in 15x4, they said that you can never talk down a conspiracy theorist, a targeted individual - they just have to let them believe what they believe - so why is Em trying to convince them so hard, shouldn’t she profile them? idk

- wait I don’t get it, how does the board relate to the team coming?? wouldn’t they have booby trapped it either way? why does Luke dancing in a towel after his shower have anything to do with it??😂

- omg Luke

- OMG dave this is so smart

- Jade’s gonna do something isn’t she??

- I KNEW IT

- when is pen going to cry? im so unsure what kirsten’s insta post was about bc the ep is almost over

- “discretion is the better part of valor” - interesting

- wait are we getting profilers back?? now that she has more money

- Penelope’s house!!

- but also no more greencia pls

- pen and luke pls?? pls? pls. :(

- wuoh elias…

GREAT SEASON!!! but we deserved garvez

looking forward to 2026, when I can do these again :)

more to come as I reflect on the season, but thanks for sticking w me as I did these reactions!!

[goxjo]

Fic authors self rec!♡ When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love❤

oooooh I had to think about this lol. Fics are in order + don’t mind me dropping a little lore !!!

fight, flight, or fuck ┆ sukuna x vessel! reader

⟢ this was a little hard to write even though it’s only 2k something words because I branched out a little from my usual writing so I could go a little darker <3 tbh I’ve been wanting to write more of this genre too so I’m happy I was able to even kickstart that plan!!!

something borrowed ┆ groomsman! sakusa

⟢ my most well-loved fic I think 🥹🥹🥹 I always gush over the comments people leave on it and just??? I’m really not used to it lol. I wrote it 4 (?) years ago and then I rewrote n reposted it it when I got back from my 2 year hiatus lol (aka I’m v glad I came back)

come back to bed ┆ chrollo

⟢ my ultimate comfort fic with my comfort character <3 I find myself rereading it whenever I’m going through a bad case of rsd (bc come back to bed! chrollo will never hurt u and ‘ll always love u unconditionally) ++ this is posted on my personal blog <3

for better, for worse ┆ prince! bakugo

⟢ UNPUBLISHED!!! It’s a historical au wip currently sitting at 3.5k and it’s the fic that made me fall for this guy lol. I’d been working on this on and off for 3 years LOOOL which also really just tells u it took me that long to realize I like bakugo

resist me ┆ alpha! diluc

⟢ my longest (published) fic to date :’) also a fic that made me branch out just bc it was my first time posting a/b/o or anything that long for the matter <333 like I was so proud I jumped from my usual 2-3k to 8.8k !!

[transboysokka]

pls allow me to make a long life update ramble here bc im sick of irl people not understanding at all

I feel like I have a feel disconnected points to make

People like me aren’t meant to get bachelor’a degrees and we’re DAMN SURE not meant to get master’s

I’m 1000% just in survival mode right now and there’s theoretically a month left to go but idek if I’ll make it that long tbh

It has taken me YEARS to figure out a healthy/sustainable work-life balance that goes with my executive dysfunction but that’s NOT POSSIBLE working full time AND doing a degree

I’ve been feeling guilty for resting at all lately (and probably should) but yet if I don’t my health suffers majorly

It has always been hard for me to get simple things done, but now I can’t even THINK about simple necessary errands like walking to the supermarket or going to get a cell phone number or updating shit at the bank because ALL my energy goes to keeping me and my dog alive, keeping a job, and trying to stay in this program

I have delayed my transition by YEARS to pay for all this which was definitely the wrong call ughhhhh

I worked SO hard all of K-12 to get into a good university, when it came down to it didn’t even want to go, was too depressed to apply to hardly any, chose my best option still not knowing what I wanted to do but forced into it and forced to take out all of these loans when I didn’t even know what they meant.

Ended up never dealing with audhd shit, trauma shit, didn’t know what I was doing with my life, tried to get jobs to pay for school but couldn’t handle class and jobs at the same time so got more depressed until I stopped going to classes altogether and got kicked out

That would have been great for me tbh but I still didn’t know what else to do so I begged them to let me back in which they did and I ended up barely graduating with some pointless major I just chose to get me a degree. And also $80k of student debt I had no way to even comprehend knowing how to use

Didn’t know what to do after that either so I ended up in retail for a couple years before I got a random rare opportunity to get me out of there and doing what I always wanted

Well. I felt like I needed to make up for lost time degree-wise and ended up basically begging myself into this half-shitty program that culminates in this masters. I applied maybe five years ago, waited a little over two to start until I had money to pay for it (this is after fleeing the US and the 80k lmao) and somehow killed the first year of it.

I took another year and a half off trying to figure out the rest of the money which I eventually did and that’s how we end up here. I will hopefully have the degree in October but will still be paying for it the rest of the school year rip

So financially this sacrifice is obviously huge and on one hand I never thought I’d be able to do it so yay me and on the other hand I have NOT been able to pursue v v important trans stuff which I notice and deal with eVERY GODDAmn day thanks AND I will also probably not be able to make my every-18-month visit home next summer with my family which also gODDAMN SUCKS because family was EVERYTHING to me growing up and they’ve all forgotten it and probably think I have too but I miss those mfers so much and they would never buy a flight to come see me so.

ANYWAY yeah in undergrad I could NOT do a job and school at the same time so I’ve been proud of being able to handle it this time around but the last fourish months of this program are so intense and I am NOT handling it

Like I have done SO WELL up to now so I feel like I just GOTTA keep going but it’s SO HARD and I’m TOO STUPID and I’ve been told my whole life I’m not meant for higher education and now BOY DO I KNOW IT

I’m just trying to keep going. I order food and groceries to my house. I’m putting off super important errands and appointments as long as I can because I JUST CANT GET THERE I CANNOT WASTE SPOONS ON CELL PHONE PLANS RIGHT NOW I’m just trying to stay alive holy shit

I hate feeling so incompetent in my personal life especially because I’ve always put my professional life first out of like. Fear of losing it. and I KNOW this “laziness” is justified bc I’m spread so thin AND have executive dysfunction and a chronic illness but holy shit it still feels bad scoob. So fucking bad.

I think what I need to do is arrange time off work just to get this all sorted and finished but I’ve literally never taken a day off in my life so I’d feel bad and have MORE anxiety figuring out how to do it lololol ahhhhhhhh

[chososcamgirl]

im the same anon who asked for tips of freshmen year!! i started two days ago and i feel like it's been okay, i've only made one friend and i eat lunch by myself but i really like it cuz it's peaceful!! and also cuz i'm used to it from last year😭😭i remember i used to hate learning french last year but i actually love my new french teacher and i'm afraid to say french is probs gonna be my fav class of this semester..

OKAY ENOUGH OF ME YAPPING IM SORRY IF YOU HAVE TO READ THROUGH ALL OF THIS!!

hope you have a great day😋😋

OMG HII NONNIE <333

aw i’m so proud of u for making friends even if it’s just one! trust me there’s more to come😭 tbh i LOVED eating lunch by myself whenever i got the chance it is v therapeutic LOL but im glad u find it the same way <3 OKAY FRENCH ICON🔥🔥 i know ur eating that class up or rather manger (i had to look that up help)

UGH NEVER SICK OF U I LOVE READING THE ASKS U SEND/IN GENERAL!! i hope the school year turns out great and send me more updates my love!! <333

[midnightmoons28]

Super proud of myself for pushing myself to go to my barre class today. I usually go on Thursdays but this Thursday is ✨my birthday✨ so I made sure to do the Tuesday night class instead.

I did not feel as powerful and stable as last week and today kicked my butt (I almost threw up tbh) BUT I’m so proud of myself for sticking with it and my body is still so strong and capable. I’ll be v sore tomorrow but worth it!

[anachronistic-falsehood]

OOH THESE ARE CUTE !!!! 2, 6, 7 and 18 :]

2. what's your feel-good movie?

CORALINE!!!! coraline my beloved <3 movie i have rewatched the most in my life i think.

6. say three nice things about yourself (three physical and three non-physical).

AGH. curse u. god dammit. hmmm physical… well my t is doin some cool things!! I’M HAIRIER NOW!!! god i hope to be a bear someday <3 my voice is changing too!!! i actually LIKE the way it sounds now even tho it’s like cracking every other sentence I LOVE IT!!! non physical…. tbh i don’t have a lot 2 compliment myself on i think…. i am proud of my writing skills!!! and i enjoy writing v much so it’s something i’m ok with praising every once in a while :3 i think i’m a good writer

7. what color brings you peace?

BLUEEEE i love blue… blue my beloved…. the colour ever honestly

18. do you still love stuffed animals?

WHILE I WAS IN THE CITY IN WALMART TODAY I LITERALLY BOUGHT A NEW STUFFED ANIMAL I HAVE SO MANY AND I DONT NEED MORE BUT I WANT MORE. I WANT SOOO MANY. i have a shit ton sitting on my bed rn <3 i love them :3

[martianbugsbunny]

Martian’s Masterlist!

Figured it was about time I collected all of my fics into one area, will ofc be updating it as I write more. It’s sorted by ship, including wherefrom they originate, with a brief description of what type (one-shot, chapter fic, same-universe if I’m feeling saucy) and a short summary of what happens. V proud of myself for figuring out how to link these tbh, but if any of the links isn’t working for the love of Pete please let me know. Fics with more than one chapter will be linked to the first chapter because...logic.

For the tags, I have chosen to only use the ship names, not __ x __ format, for the sake of trying to keep the tags somewhat in hand. I have, however, tried to use what I’m aware of being the most popular/common names for ships, as well as the alternate ones I’ve seen for more niche stuff. Also tagged are the shipped characters. If I add new ships, I'll have to reblog bc of the tag limit.

*Hands you the rabbit hole* Have fun going down!

CaptainCroc/GoldenHook (Rumplestiltskin x Killian Jones {Once Upon A Time}):

Is This Love Persevering? (It Feels More Like The End of the World): One-shot. Established CaptainCroc mourning the loss of Baelfire. Canon-divergent for the sake of Rumple actually getting to attend his son’s funeral.

Who Makes You See Color: Chapter fic, 14 total. CaptainCroc soulmates AU where one person sees color earlier than the other. Extends from pre-Dark One era to the First Curse being broken.

The Truth Echoes Darkly: Short series; part 1 for The Truth Echoes Darkly. Echo Caves AU where instead of Emma, Hook confesses that he loves Rumple for maximum awkward.

The Echo Goes On: Short series; part 2 for The Truth Echoes Darkly. Back in Storybrooke, Rumple finds himself obsessed with Hook and realizes that he’s fallen in love as well.

My North Star: One-shot. Established CaptainCroc vow renewal, featuring Hook’s inner thoughts about how much he loves Rumple.

Better Than Blood: One-shot. Pretty racy, but the point is thinking about the poeticism of having sex with your ex-nemesis.

Cherik (Charles Xavier x Erik Lehnsherr {X-Men Movies}):

Sweetheart Will You Sleep With Me: One-shot. The night before they fight Shaw, Charles and Erik make the most of the little time they know they have left together and sleep in Charles’ room. Fluff, don’t get too excited by the title lol.

Baby While You’re At It: One-shot. Based on a Jessie Murph song. Angst with a happy ending. Charles is furious when Erik crashes a party at the school, so they have it out in the kitchen and get more-or-less back together by the end.

Espionage Husbands (Talos x Nick Fury {Captain Marvel/Secret Invasion}):

Locked In This Embrace: One-shot. Focuses on the forehead-touching scene from Episode 1, plus an original scene or two afterwards. Mostly Talos pining for Nick with a happy ending.

If You Are Gilgamesh And Did These Things: One-shot. Angst without a happy ending because the author was very upset and sad when Talos died. Nick is grieving Talos; Sonya isn’t helping.

Frankenwolf (Ruby Lucas x Victor Frankenstein {Once Upon A Time}):

Den of Blankets: One-shot. Ruby’s wolf instincts kick in during pregnancy and she builds a blanket-fort den. V fluff.

She Deserves To Have Your Name: One-shot (possibly same-universe as Den of Blankets). Victor has doubts about whether or not their child should have the name Frankenstein, but Ruby wouldn’t hear of anything else.

It’s Just A Dream: One-shot. Ruby has a nightmare spawned from her fears of being a bad parent; Victor comforts her.

As The Storm Blows Through: One-shot. Victor has anxiety during a storm because of what happened with Gerhardt, and Ruby comforts him.

Secret Admirers Are For The Subtle: One-shot. Victor anonymously sends Ruby flowers at the diner so he can drop by, “notice” them, and stick around to sketch them, all so he can spend time with Ruby. She’s on to him the entire time.

Blue Skies Smiling At Me: One-shot. Utterly fluffy beach fic. Ruby is having a good day relaxing with her friends, and it only gets better when her handsome husband joins them.

Frankenberry And The Fruit Brute: One-shot. Fun little Halloween fic where Ruby and Victor discover the General Mills cereals that match their fairytale identities.

Precursor To A Love Song: One-shot. Hyperion Heights AU where Ruby and Victor meet and feel an instant connection, even though they don’t know why. She’s a fashion designer and he’s a piano player/freelance artist. Potential springboard for a full chapter fic if I feel like it.

HatterHare (Mad Hatter x March Hare {Adventures In Wonderland}):

The First Kiss: One-shot. Just a fluffy lil idea about what their first kiss might’ve been like.

Every Bit Of You: One-shot. Projection’n’stuff about food issues basically.

Kalluzeb (Garazeb Orrelios x Alexsandr Kallus {Star Wars Rebels}):

Don’t You Know It’s Because He Loves You?: One-shot. Kallus discovers that Zeb is in love with him via a Lasat Honor Guard tradition.

To Convince You That I Love You: Chapter fic. Kallus does risky things to prove he would do anything for love of Zeb, or that he’s worthy of him, and ends up getting hurt. Angst with a happy ending, hurt/comfort.

Lokius (Loki x Mobius {Loki}):

The Man Of My Dreams And He’s Just Out Of Reach: One-shot (with a very long name lol). Mobius stands there across the street from Don’s house and misses Loki. Author was having some Feelings™.

Outlaw Queen (Regina Mills x Robin Hood {Once Upon A Time}):

A Slice Of Life: One-shot. Regina spends the day with her boys and thinks about how awesome it is to have them. V fluffy because the OQ family didn’t get enough of that.

Paxe/AxePaz (Paz Vizsla x Axe Woves {The Mandalorian}):

We Are Mandalorians: Our Love Must Be Forged: Chapter fic, 11 total. Axe and Paz slowly fall in love as they engage in the battle to retake Mandalore, more or less a fix-it for Paz dying in S3 canon.

PloKit (Plo Koon x Kit Fisto {Star Wars: the Clone Wars}):

Reader, Plo Married Him: One-shot. Plo and Kit share some quiet time just after their wedding.

The Tender Daily Ritual: One-shot. Basically just fluff; Kit helps Plo with lotioning his skin because it dries out in oxygen atmospheres.

Scogan (Scott Summers x Logan Howlett {X-Men Movies}):

Torn Between Love And Fear: One-shot. Scott wants to stay after sex and sleep in Logan’s room, but Logan is terrified of hurting him during a nightmare. Angst with a happy (and sort of spicy) ending.

You Scratch My Back, I’ll Scratch Yours: One-shot. Logan and Scott discover they have a mutual pain kink and indulge in it together for the first time. Incredibly spicy, I'm so proud of myself.

Spones (Spock x Dr. McCoy {Star Trek TOS}):

I Could Drink A Case Of You (I Would Still Be On My Feet): One-shot. Based on a Joni Mitchell song; angsty with a happy ending.

[quirefeast]

art summary for the new year— my very first one actually, I think?? ive done way more drawing and i feel proud about where i came from and what i plan for the future.

Reflection: I’ve pushed myself this year with a month long art challenge, taking a business course for my art, created a line of greeting cards and am making merch that I’ll soon be releasing in a store. Utilizing my experience from my previous employment as a UX/UI graphic designer really helped. My commission workflow is much more efficient now that I’m not working another job as well as doing comms at the same time. Also I like, actually learned how to take care of myself. It turns out pushing yourself to your limit all day every day creates burn out and actively hinders you in the long run? Shocker. I am more intentional about everything I do. I care about myself more than anyone now.

Accomplishments:

I’m doing comms again and it’s not making me want to explode!

Moved out of my house and didn’t die. It’s been really awesome being able to see my friends more often and to be present.

I have so many plans for things in the future; calendars, adoptables events, more art challenges, writing challenges. This is an accomplishment for me because, tbh, I never liked thinking about my future before. People that know me long enough have seen my journey and it was a turbulent one. I am much braver than I was before.

This year’s goals:

Set up a shop - v soon, i have supplies set up

Kofi membership - soon! i want it up this month

Make at least two comics, but especially one to debut to shortbox comic fair!! Because idk I just really want to

STREAM Jesus Christ ill do it soon. I’m just really shy I’ll get it done

Long term future goals:

Videogame videogame videogame. I at least want to be a part of making a VN in some capacity. I’m a bit disorganized, but if I really put my mind to it will happen.

Zine or anthology?

Children’s book! I have to start writing this and then actually making it and pitching it maybe but I have always wanted to make one like actually

Just make more original stuff.

I really truly want to get to know my community better. I struggle at socializing but I crave it deeply.

If you have gotten this far thank you for taking your time to care about me and support my work. I really appreciate everybody that has seen me get this far, and I hope you can look forward to my future endeavors as well.

[moonjxsung]

hi hi bb! how are you?

i’m so glad that you don’t mind my shinee commentary bc i also don’t know any shawols(or stays tbh, this is how i get my kpop fix)😭 onew is suchhhh a humble king, literally can’t believe that he got fanmail so soon as if he isn’t in one of the most successful kpop group ever. the first time i heard about shinee was in like 2010 or 2011 (which was very soon for PR tbh, aquí lo que había en ese momento era just reggaeton). and i was so baffled at the fact that nobody liked kpop here. so yeah onew, you’re the real deal!! i’m so happy that he’s getting the love he deserves💜and i can’t wait to see his comeback! i’m so excited! and the antique shop matching necklaces from Monterey☹️ that is so cute!! (idk if you already went but have fun!! and if you did, i hope you had fun!! Monterey sounds so nice!). i bet that he’ll be so grateful with your super care package! pls let me know what you send him!!!

i got my second iced coffee of the week💁🏻‍♀️ and a macadamia cookie, i was working on this very tedious assignment most of the day yesterday and after i finished i was like “treat yourself”. i’ve really been eating super terribly lately and i hate myself for it😭

your pc of the day!!! your bag!!! your chan sweater!! that’s soooo pretty! i love how they all match too! i forgot to get my pc of the day yesterday too. (i was at my bfs house and his little cousin/nephews were there and the younger one who’s 5 just comes up to me and asks “who’s this?” and i was like “lee know” and he’s just like “why do you have that there?” and i was like “good question bro, idek, it’s just fulfilling”.

i love you so much angel🫶🏻 i hope your weekend is going so great and you have time to relax as well!!

-🐈‍⬛

HI BABYYYYY I MISSED YOUUUUUU 🫶🫶🫶🫶

Can you BELIEVE how active Onew’s been this week and his company already arranged his first FANMEET??????? SCREAMINGGGGGGG I am beyond jealous of anyone who gets to go frfr ☹️ manifesting Shinee stuff in the US sooooo hard I literally have to see them before I die. Or I will simply die 😔 I’m still on the hunt for cute necklaces or keychains for us or something, but I DID get him the cutest little glass whale charm bc In the Whale is my favorite kpop song of allllll time and I’m so excited to mail it to him so that we have matching ones 😭 I LOOOOVE ONEW IM GOING INSANEEEE AHHHH I’ll keep you posted on the jewelry we get tho !!!!

I think the only thing that kept me going this whole week was the iced coffee trips tbh 🤕 it was such a WEEEEK……. But I’m so glad it’s finally Friday 👼 we’re having a streaming party for Ateez’s Coachella set tonight so we ordered so much food and baked cookies and dragged our Ateez pcs around everywhere like all week I am sooo excited !! Still so bummed I couldn’t see them at Coachella but I’m so proud of how far they’ve come and the setlist looks INSANEEE ahhhh Hongjoong my beloved 🫶

Pc pics just for you from today’s coffee run ofcccc 💖🫶 I love you sweet angel I hope you had the best week!!!!!!!!!!! Sending all my love as alwayssss (also your answer to your nephew is SO valid LMAOOOO Lee Know is indeed v fulfilling ‼️‼️)

[thenotsolittlelady]

Oh thank you very much for the tag @ghilegab hun <3

1. Are you named after anyone? I was named after my dad’s grandma Lina who he liked very much and who I’ve never met :>

2. When was the last time you cried? Awwh man, yesterday I think? Watched Turning Red with my parents and these movies always make me cry (or anything, really... I cry easily, alright??)

3. Do you have kids? No and I’d rather not, they’re just not for me :x

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? I think I do, but only around people close to me, or else I’d be scared the other person might misunderstand

5. What is the first thing you notice about a person? Oh boi, I’d probably say their outfit? Or hair, cause that’s what I’m most inscure about myself :x

6. What’s your eye color? Blue with a bit of green!

7. Scary movie or happy ending? Both depending on what mood I’m in! It has to be the right kind of scary movie tho, I don’t like these gory murder movies very much 

8. Any special talents? Man, I honstly don’t know, I’d say I’m just perfectly average, nothing special about me at all tbh

9. Where were you born? In a stupid town near my tiny village in the middle of nowhere in Germany (I don’t like it there very much)

10. What are your hobbies? Drawing, video games/live streaming, singing and playing the piano, D&D, writing (sorta) and some other shit that I (would) like to do but can’t because what even is motivation

11. Do you have any pets? Just one cat, a black one called Lucky. He’s barely home tho and spends a lot of time at my aunt’s house next door :c I honestly miss him a lot xD I would love to have more cats and also dogs and birds too ;; A ;;

12. What sports do you/have you played? I did kung fu for a bit and I like to dance (I suck at it tho xD ). I would love to do more but... motivation and also there’s nothing to do where I live

13. How tall are you? 172cm 

14. Favo(u)rite subject in school? I hated school, but if I had to choose... probably Latin. I loved all the stories about horny gods, and heroes roaming around for years after a war and stories of everyday people in ancient rome and greece. That was nice!

15. Dream Job? I honestly don’t know, I wish I had an answer, but instead I’m just here wasting my “potential” and being a failure🥲

Bonus: any significance to your blog’s name? Not really, it’s based on my usual username on the internet “LittleLadyLina” which I am not very proud of  So yeah, I’m just a little lady (or not so little I suppose)

Alright, tags! @airanke @enydaghoul @leaphia and @lemonmancer if you guys wanna do this! ; v ; And of course whoever is reading this and wants to answer some questions as well :>

[rosicheeks]

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[dreeamsbff]

Hi, Tommy! I hope you’re well 😊 I’ll admit, I’m kinda concerned for you… it sounds like Dream scares you a lot, but he still managed to convince you he’s your friend. Have you heard of the saying “friends aren’t scared of each other”? If Dream terrifies you, I genuinely don’t think he’s a very good friend 🥲 Leading on from that: apart from anything concerning Dream, how are you honestly feeling within yourself? If it’s less than positive, have you considered that perhaps Dream’s behaviour makes it worse rather than better, despite what he might say? I’m sorry if all this overwhelms you, but I just want to make sure you’re safe and happy. Keep holding on, Tommy, I promise things will get better! 💜

ELLO??? i'm v good, Dream stayed 15 minutes longer with metoday!!!!

wh. what are you tryna say by that??? OF COURSE, he's my friend- he STAYED when everyone esle had LEFT me!!! and he was patient w me even when I was acting up or being annoying- AND- and all he wantedto do was fix me so that i didn't bring ayn more problems!

UHM- i never thought of that before- are you 100% sure it's trye??? but- but Dream says it's just tough love and i need a healthy amount of fear to learn better whatever he wants me to. but I wish I could just... be friends w him WITHOUT being afraid of him every second- but i feel liek it's selfish and ungrateful of me, because he had done SO MUCH for me and all i still only feel scared and want to escape :(((

UHHH ITS NOT GREAT- I HATE ADN BLAME MYSELF ALL THE TIME and think that maybe JUST MAYBE if i wasn't as annoying in the beginning, Dream would've liked me more... i dont think he lieks me now and. when he's especially mad i often think he hates me- he keeps repeatimg he's my friend, so maybe theres nothing 2 worry about BUT STILL????

ughhhh i mean it's a possibility??? lately, i noticed that his rules got even more absurd and he punisged me for no reason at all??? and i noticed that every time the punishment is over, he presses on my wonds real hard and chuckles- I DONT INDERSTAND WHY- lmaybe he's just proud that i'm getting better??? I ADMIT IT IS PRETTY WEIRD But i dont think he does that because he's a bad person!!!! still, im starting to doubt his good intentions tbh- and it scares me. i'll have to look more into it because it seens really sketchy...

ohhh thank you, i realky hopd things get better soon!!

[harrylights]

2, 4, 5, 7, 17, 20 (i think these are the right ones i chose) just passin by to do my due diligence once again to do ask games for u

ty for beginning to repair the psychic damage caused by ur hilarious memes i’ll throw in an extra squishmallow on ur next paycheck 🙏🏻

2: where do I see myself living in 10 years? fuck, my brain struggles to conceptualize things that far in advance bc ten years ago i would never have thought my life would look like it does rn (both in good and bad ways ig lol) but prob somewhere similar to where i’m at currently but i doubt i’ll stay in my same city for that long tbh. just somewhere that has lots of nature and my friends and is by either the ocean or water of some kind and makes me feel at ease in the way that my hometown never did

4: has my aesthetic changed at all in the last year? OH BOY HAS IT EVER. i was only JUST starting to be on my masc shit, I think I’d just shaved my head this time last year but was still too afraid to let myself dress less femme-y, but in hindsight i see that phase as a necessary stepping stone to get to where i’m at now and i’m v grateful to be here. let’s see if i can find a pic real quick

(ok looking back on it i was more masc than i thought but still only baby steps etc. also yes i am supposed to be wearing glasses whenever i’m drawing/looking at a screen but i do that sm less than i used to that i…. forget)

5: what is smth I’m proud of? tbh for going to the dbt/cbt therapy group thing pretty much everyday, it was super helpful and i’m in a much better place now and have like structure in my life again lmao

7: do I have a favourite podcast? I haven’t listened to one in aaaages but i remember rly liking welcome to nightvale and also sadboyz or whatever w jarvis johnson but i’ve been taking an unintentional break from most media lately idk why

17: what song do I love dancing to? i have SO MANY but rn my main go to is tírame by genio

20: favourite fruit & vegetable? mangoes and cucumbers!! (i think cukes are technically fruit too but smd tbh)

fill my inbox asks

[daniellesimagines]

2022 Writing Evaluation

tagged by (but not really): @clumsyclifford

1. number of stories posted on ao3:  5 if u include a collab and a blurb :’)

2. word count posted for this year:  3,687 not including the collab

3. fandoms i wrote for:  set it off, the mentalist, the mandalorian, 5sos

4. pairings:  person x reader

5. story with the most kudos/bookmarks/comments:  drunk in love

6. work i’m most proud of (and why):  probably nowhere to go because it was my first collab and it was really fun to just write with someone in real time (part 1 linked but i didnt have anything to do with that one lmao i was recruited for part 2 onward)

7. work i’m least proud of (and why):  accidentally. it’s just not my favorite i guess. it feels very rushed even tho it wasnt and i was just forcing myself to write in the midst of having no desire to

8. share or describe a favorite review you received:  @seasonschange-butpeopledont getting excited about marcus made me so 🥺🥺🥺 u have no idea. even tho it didn’t do very well, i was so so happy it made someone else happy 

9. a time when writing was really, really hard:  baby girl i posted 5 “fics” this year. f i v e. in a y e a r.

10. a scene or character you wrote that surprised you:  i don’t know that anything was surprising necessarily??? i was more surprised that drunk in love did so well tbh 😅

11. a favorite excerpt of your writing:  not anything groundbreaking but “how hurt are we gonna get?” “yes” makes me laugh every time i think about it 😂😂

12. how did you grow as a writer this year?:  i didn’t honestly. like. at all. i wrOTE F I V E THINGS

13. how do you hope to grow next year?:  i can’t force myself to have motivation but i do hope to post a least a little more than 2022 :/

14. who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc)?:  @i-opened-the-chamber-of-secrets periodically sending well wishes even when i hadnt been posted for 4 months and it’s just nice to know that someone was still thinking of me and read whatever i posted no matter what it was or how long it’s been 🥺🥺 

15. anything from your real life show up in your writing this year?:  absolutely 0% lmao

16. any new wisdom you can share with other writers?:  you’re definitely gonna look back on stuff you wrote in the beginning and think it’s literally the worst thing you’ve ever read, but you’ll be able to look back and see how far you’ve come and how much you’ve improved!! (and just remember nothing you could write will ever be as bad as onision’s actual real life books)

17. any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year?:  my god i’m so excited for the rest of the in an instant series!! it’s so hard to write (more so than i originally thought), but i’m so excited to finally be able to show yall what i’ve been working on with it!!!

18. tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read:  @snugglyducklingbrewhouse @bxcketbarnes @seasonschange-butpeopledont @absurdthirst @musings-of-a-rose @bowerquinn

[gothedrals]

im so happy for u that ur doing better and v proud !! <3

thank you 🥺 I’m v proud of myself too tbh