ND culture is feeling rejection sensitivity about other people’s reactions to your (most likely ND) kids.
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System problems:
One alter hates the skull emoji bc it triggers aer RSD (long story)
A different alter likes the skull emoji bc he wears a skull mask in source and headspace 😭 (that’s me btw)
(/lighthearted, not vent)
—DG
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Some stuff inspired by @azrielfiend 's psa and directly correlated with @transgenderfivepebbles ' ideas!
ADHD Rivulet that isn't just owo sillay :D
I'm currently working on digital versions of these plus something else ;3
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by the way i just wanna make sure it's clear that i would 100% rather have my RSD triggered than have someone let me make them uncomfortable to protect my feelings. my disproportionate emotional response is not your responsibility. i dont want people to feel uncomfortable or upset because of me. me having ADHD and being sensitive is not an excuse for me to hurt you
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Adventures in object permanence and not fucking having any: Christmas edition
Husband's Xmas present came in the mail today. My afternoon plan had been to wrap presents, so I put it on the table to wrap first. So that was at like, 7am.
But by the afternoon, I had forgotten why it seemed to imoortant to wrap gifts - I still have time to mail them out to Kentucky, why was it such a big deal? I wanted to shower and make cookies instead so that's what I did.
Then Husband came home and squeaked and covered his eyes and that is when I remembered the three foot long box sitting unwrapped on the table I have been walking past since 7am. Which has ceased to exist to me until he said something.
At least I don't have to wrap it now???
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I feel as if, maybe, autistic people get hurt and confused and generally affected by ghosting more than anyone else, yet we are the ones who receive that treatment the most often
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i'm trying to inch my way towards a balanced pov in my blitzbee fic so its not always bee-centric/bee's pov when he meets w blitzy but gah damn is it hard. its so much more fascinating to explore blitzwing from an outside perspective (aka bee's pov) bc i'm not even sure he understands what hes thinking in that noggin of his. its hard to write that lol
also a lot of the meets tend to be actively initiated by bumblebee's actions so it makes it hard to get the context in if its in blitzwing's pov. and i don't like doing double povs like chapter 3 and 4, where the scene kind of repeats in both povs for said context. i only let that one slide bc it was a couple lines of dialogue that would repeat
i feel bad about it sometimes because i know we could use more blitzwing centric fics, but i'm trying to let the fic do what feels right for the pov and it just so happens to skew towards bee more. blitzwing's pov is more about him processing things, while bee is more about doing things. i can only hope as the fic progresses, itll figure itself out
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i have planned to write a pseudo-essay or some kind of detailed look at linebeck in phantom hourglass and how he can be interpreted as autistic but thats not going very well right now so here are some autistic linebeck headcanons
He has low empathy and as such has a hard time responding very well to emotional situations, but he can take advantage of his lower empathy in situations where empathy could make things harder, like tending to wounds or rationally handling emotionally-charged situations
His coat is a comfort object and he made it specifically to act as a very slight accommodation; it’s heavy and barely lets any light through it, and he can keep all kinds of little things in pockets sewn into the inner lining, but larger objects do make it more uncomfortable to wear at times. It’s mostly good to carry around things to fidget or stim with and can be helpful in trying to recover from overwhelming sensory experiences
He doesn’t usually stim in public, but taps his fingers on tables quickly and tends to rhythmically snap his fingers when excited, and on his ship is more vocal and more willing to stim, even if around others. One of his main stims that he’ll do for no particular reason is that he’ll hold his arm or back of his wrist/hand up to his nose and mouth for the smell.
He masks frequently to please people. His default mask is that arrogant and brave front he puts up for islanders and other he may come across. Usually, if that mask doesn’t work, he tends to double-down because it usually works and, in his experience, dropping the mask has usually gone badly (non masking he’s rude and blunt but more outwardly excited about adventure and his ship and all of that, i consider it where overseas in the game is when he usually isn’t masking. this shifts his arc to be about him learning to stop masking and feel comfortable being himself)
His special interests could include stuff related to treasure hunting but it could really range from stuff about adventuring or the ocean or engineering (relating to his ship) to stuff not at all touched in the game like music. He really enjoys music, listening to it, playing it, and writing it. He also enjoys and is fascinated by shellfish.
When busy or otherwise occupied, he doesn't usually notice when he's hungry. He doesn't have as much of a problem noticing thirst or exhaustion, but feeling hunger is a problem for him, and often leads to him going a long time without eating. On the other hand, he doesn't mind eating the same thing repeatedly and is perfectly fine with blander foods, so handling food supplies for when he'll be overseas for a long time is easy for him.
He knows he's autistic, he's known for a pretty long time, and he has books on it; he also knows that Link is autistic, but doesn't say anything about it and instead waits until someone else tells him. Until (and after, I suppose) Link actually learns that he's autistic Linebeck just makes sure to keep note of what accommodations he might need and if there are any textures or tastes or smells he can't stand. He doesn't have much of a problem helping out during sensory overloads, even soon after meeting him. It's more out of understanding how it feels to not have your needs met and a sort of solidarity rather than actual friendship.
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"I begin with a story of a miniscule failure..."
and I hope you will stick around
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When you're younger and grow up not understanding why you feel ostracized, and what you could possibly do to make it stop and find your place - that grief carries forward into life and I wanted to write about that. We find things that are our little corners, things we are good at that we can fall back on because at least we'll always have this - and what then when it seems maybe you aren't as good as you thought you were? Where does that corner you carved disappear?
I have trouble with memories, I have trouble with reading and registering, lately i have trouble with writing and without these i lose my sense of self and worth. And then I am forced to start over and over. It is a small but constant grief to me. Nevertheless, we shall persevere
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RSD culture is having an episode but mentally yelling that you aren't because you grew up being emotionally invalidated bc of your RSD and you refuse to acknowledge that your feelings aren't 100% true and rational to not 'become like the ones who hurt you'
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smoking when sad will almost always beat drinking while sad bc smoking will always atleast chill me out about maybe even let me think about stuff for clearly or not think about it at all whereas drinking while sad ? dangerous game. always the possibility of some good old self sabotage or just a bit of getting silly…
anyways omw for drinks rn while feeling like shit :3
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( sup. m'alive, just focusing on writing )
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Hug time! I can understand that feeling. ADD and RSD.
Hug time for sure!!! Thank you sm, you are so kind. 💕
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Having social anxiety is like going on a roller coaster, in the beginning it seems like it’ll be fun, then comes the, “I DONT WANT TO DO THIS I DONT WANT TO DO THIS I DONT WA-“ but you then begrudgingly go do it anyway. While you are on the roller coaster itself, you are so paralyzed with fear you don’t know if you like it or not. Then afterwards you think “wow that was so much fun, I should do it again!” And for a moment you genuinely think you might have liked it. Thennnn you vomit ten seconds later and never want to do it again.
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I'm tired of being some kinda fucking big scary boogeyman that everyone fucking hunts after when I'm literally just some traumatised autistic dude who gets scared of abandonment or might act stand offish
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