#I'd love to hear from you again!

[little-pup-pip]

Not a request!!!

Just wanted to say that I first came across your blog on my alt account, back when i was still really, really struggling with the fact that I regressed. I made the account that I'm posting this anon on to follow you because I didn't want agere stuff on my former main.

Honestly, your moodboards were (and still are!!) amazing to me!!! They're so very fun!!!!

You inspired me to start making my own!!! Trough this, I've also learned to accept my regression a bit better.

Now, I'm no longer in denial about it, and I've taken big big steps to that full acceptance and self-love!!! I'm understanding myself better and allow myself to just be who I am.

I know you don't know me, but I still wanted to say thank you for that. Thank you for inspiring me with your blog and your art, and giving that little push that I needed, even if you have no clue who I am :]

-🪐💫

Hello!! I had to hang onto this message for a little while before answering because its so nice! Reading it for the first time made me super emotional but reading it now makes me so so happy!! It's so amazing that you've been able to take the steps that you needed to feel better about yourself, and I'm so glad you're able to accept your regression now, friend!

I'm not sure that I did very much, but I am very happy that what I do was able to help you in any way! And you make your own moodboards now!! That's awesome! Anyway, thank you so much for your kind words!!

[agentark]

in the span of maybe an hour, clara oswald goes from, "I already know - don't say it." to, "people like you and me should say things to each other" and I'll never get over it

she literally gets pulled out of time the moment before her death and learns he's been clawing his way back to her for 4.5 BILLION years?? Just to save her??? I would also suddenly and urgently have words

[ikram1909]

Rodri gave an interview to AS and he talked about Gavi ☹️

[cerise-on-top]

I love the Against PDA Laswell/Valeria x Jealous fem reader! Thank you so much!

Kate Laswell x GN reader

After a bad marriage, Kate never thought she would have another chance for a relationship

Then 💥BOOM💥 reader appears in her life!

But there's a problem....

Kate and her Ex partner have a daughter (Kate LOVES her daughter)

But she doesn't like the reader...

No pressure, take your time 🫶 and take care

You're welcome! That was a lot of fun to write! I got a bit carried away on this one, so it's quite long, sorry about that! This idea was really cute, inspiration really struck me on that one! Thank you for requesting it! Thank you for requesting in general, especially for the girls! I love them, but it's a genuine shame they don't seem to get as much love as the guys!!

Reader is gn. Only thing I can think of is that Kate's daughter, Luna, was about to get abducted, but reader saved her, so nothing bad happens aside from that. Luna and reader get along later, though, because I'm a sucker for happy endings and want Laswell, reader and their daughter to have a lovely future together. Some parts are almost like a drabble, other parts are more headcanon-y.

Remarried!Laswell, her daughter and Reader

It’s one thing to have the love of your life leave, all the memories, the good and bad, the small trinkets here and there, even just a small dessert call upon feelings that are much better left behind, left in the dark where no one could find them. If only it was that easy. During spring cleanings, Kate would find something to remind her of her ex wife every time. A brooch with a sapphire in the middle, an old recipe book, the very first wooly hat Kate’s wife picked out for their daughter, Luna. It was tiny, bearing the motive of snowflakes on a pink background. And to think their daughter has long since grown out of it. Time really does pass, regardless of whether you’re enjoying the moment or wishing the past had never happened. A few years ago, Kate’s heart would have been torn upon finding it, slashed open to show the insides of a still beating and bleeding heart. But that was the past. She had always been a strong woman, she had no choice, after all.

It was her wife, who gave birth to Luna, and it shows. She took after her so much, from the color of her eyes, her height, even her nose was reminiscent of her ex wife. She was absolutely gorgeous in Kate’s eyes. Her little girl grew and grew, but no matter how old she was, that was still her little girl. While Kate may not get the chance to see her all that often, a few times a year at most, both of them are usually overjoyed when they do get to spend time with each other. Even at 14, when it’s almost embarrassing to be seen with your parents, her daughter couldn’t hide her growing smile whenever she saw her mother. It was familial love in its purest form.

And eventually, you came along. Beautiful you, who was patient and understanding towards Kate. Caring you, who wouldn’t rush her into something she wasn’t ready for just yet while listening to her every woe whenever the melancholy of her ex wife caught up with her. Dazzling you, who gave her another chance at romantic love, slowly mending the holes in her heart. It was a give and take, always: No matter what it was you gave Kate, she’d return it tenfold. You, in turn, would do so as well. A kiss would turn into a necklace bearing a genuine ruby, an intimate and loving night into a vacation on the mountains or the beach. It took a while, but eventually Kate was sure you were the one. Someone, who would never betray her, someone, who would stay by her side, even when the world would stand against her. She was willing to arrange the most dangerous of missions for her most trusted people if something would ever happen to you. Kate was capable of pulling just about any string, get a favorable outcome eventually.

But no matter what she did, Luna simply didn’t seem to approve of you.

It started off with a simple mention of you. First, a friend. Her daughter didn’t seem to mind. She was glad someone was able to make her mother smile again. But when it turned into something more, something more serious, she would frown. An annoyed quip, a passive-aggressive remark, it was evident that no matter what Kate would tell her about you, the latter would react negatively. Regardless of whether you tripped while taking out the trash or proposing to your then girlfriend.

It would take a while for you to actually meet her daughter, but when you did she seemed distant at best and annoyed at worst. Anger wasn’t the solution to anything, so you tried to engage in conversation with her, give her small gifts you thought she might like. Christmas, Easter, Halloween, her birthday, you never forgot about her. But no matter how much effort you put into slowly building a relationship with her, you were rejected. She had two parents, she didn’t need a third one. You knew Luna was Kate’s everything, which is why it hurt twice as much when she seemed to hate you. Afraid of making things potentially worse, you were unsure whether or not you should keep going, it seemed almost pointless. Even when Kate told her daughter to be nice to you, to give you a chance at the very least, it didn’t seem to help.

In a cruel turn of events, disaster has struck. You were tasked to escort Luna home, you and Kate did live together, after all. A young girl and her “parent” usually wasn't something many people would look at twice, it was among the most ordinary things. After dusk, when the sun was barely enveloping the world in its warm rays, three men walked in your direction. Maybe it was your gut feeling telling you to be more aware of your surroundings, maybe Kate had told you to be extra careful these days and nights. Either way, they stopped walking when the two of you got closer. By then, even Luna seemed to realize something awful was about to happen. Just as you were about to walk towards the other street, two of the men lunged out at you, going after her.

This wasn’t something that should have happened, so for a split second you froze before reacting, Luna screaming out already. Even though both of you were shocked, scared out of your mind as she was dragged away into the nearest alley, something within you sparked. You were hoping you’d never need them, but Kate had given you lessons on how to defend yourself if you ever needed to, and this time was as drastic as it could possibly be. Using your knowledge on martial arts, you were able to take one of them down as quickly as possible, having him writhe in pain on the ground, unable to compose himself anymore. The third guy advanced towards you, thinking you to be easy prey still. He was taken care of even more quickly than the first one, adrenaline coursing through you. Your legs carried you at a speed even the raging storms would envy, Luna looking back at you, yelling for help still. Her mother wasn’t around, you were the only safer person left, the only aid in a battle she likely would have never won on her own.

She struggled, resisted the creep to the best of her abilities, flailing, biting, screaming. It was enough to buy you time to get to her. As he turned to you, you jabbed your index and middle finger on the spot underneath the larynx. Curses escaped him as he released her, holding onto his throat while gagging. Barely put together, he stretched his arm backwards, an obvious attempt at hitting you, the perfect opening. In a swift motion, you deflected him, taking his arm instead while using your knee to kick him in the groin. A direct hit, leaving him incapable of doing much else aside from whining on the ground, making the most pathetic noises imaginable to man. It mattered not, Luna was more important than anything else. Despite being aware of her dislike for you, this was an exception: You grabbed her by the arm, dragging her out of the alley and to the nearest light post.

She was quaking, her eyes watery as she bit back tears. This was no moment to show weakness in front of you. As she bit her lip, the force was enough to make it bleed, she took a deep breath  while you looked her over, making sure she wasn’t injured. A few bruises would form from the rough treatment, but she’d be alright. You wanted to comfort her right now, tell her that she was safe, that you’d make sure not a single pig on this planet would harm her, but you couldn’t focus on that solely. What you had to do was make sure she’d get back home safely to her mother. Kate would kill you if something happened to her, or worse.

You hurried home, never letting go of her, your eyes darting around the streets. Barely anyone was out. Apologies and promises of safety, you spoke them all in a determined tone.

Luna looked at you as you pulled her along. Your touch wasn’t dreadful this time, it was far from detestable. Your hand was warm on her arm, your presence comforting. Maybe you weren’t such a horrible person to have around. And maybe, just maybe, you could keep Kate safe, too. Keep her happy, make sure she can smile forever, give her the solace you gave Luna just now. She wanted to stop, stand still and apologize for the treatment she had given you, it wasn’t fair. Not to you, not to her mother. But she kept going, her home perhaps a minute from where she currently was.

Only when the door fell closed behind you, after you locked it, could you finally take a breather. Luna was still shaken, but nowhere close to tears. Uneven breathing was all that plagued her, but she was finally safe again.

It was time to release her, apologizing for touching her without her consent. But for once, those eyes that seemed to show but resentment for you, they were tired. Although you had let go of her, it was her turn to hold your wrist, a small plea, almost silent, begging for you to not go just yet. It wasn’t your place to refuse and thus you gave her a nod, calming down from your own high. Your voice was so much more gentle than before. How was she feeling? Where was she hurt? Would she be alright?

There was barely a response, only one you could really understand.

You weren’t a monster, you weren’t going to drain the happiness from everyone she ever loved, Luna finally understood that. While your voice may have just barely reached you, she stood completely still for a few seconds before wrapping her arms around you, face buried in your shoulder. You were a good person, she was going to be okay. Everything was okay. She had her mothers and you.

A tight hug, you’d return it any day, looking to the corner of your eye as you noticed some movement there. It was Kate, shocked and worried, immediately rushing to her girl’s side, asking her what’s wrong. This wasn’t something Kate shouldn’t have known about, so with as much calmness as you could muster, you explained the situation to her. Luna carefully turned to her mother, Kate instinctively took her into her arms.

Sitting her down onto the couch, both of you stayed with her the entire night, even when she had fallen asleep. Small conversations sound through the living room. Kate couldn’t thank you enough. Her world was with her still, unscathed and mostly unharmed, because of your quick judgment and your capabilities. This was something she could never repay you for, even if you gave her an eternity of time. It was a rare sight to see Kate in any amount of disarray. She was of calm mind anytime, no matter what. Strong-willed, cunning, brave. Even she had her weaknesses.

But as concerned as she was during that night, she could notice a change in the atmosphere soon enough. Luna’s words weren’t malicious towards you anymore. A smile here, a chuckle there. When the suggestion of getting you a birthday present came, Kate was stunned for a moment. Her little girl and her spouse getting along, it seemed so far out. But any destination was reachable if you gave it enough time, if the circumstances were right. By no means would she ever wish anything horrible upon her girl, willing to kill those men in the same way a lion would kill its prey, but the situation had improved. Luna would ask about you, how you were doing, how the marriage was going, even giving you the present yourself. Almost shy, she handed it to you. You, too, seemed a bit surprised, but the scene was lovely. You and Luna finally got along. It was like something out of a pleasant dream. As you opened the present, your face glowing with glee, Kate, too, couldn’t help but smile. 

[frecklystars]

sorry for the long ass post but this has always my favorite scene in the entire film - for obvious reasons - and im so glad greta talked about it and the way she worded it made me laugh so hard i had tears in my eyes. haha... god. my boyfriend sobbing his eyes out over the metaphorical crusts on his patriarchy sandwich......

[deeva-arud]

I have returned to your askbox bearing gifts 🙌

(This was just supposed to be a doodle so forgive the messy linework and weird proportions 😅)

!!!!!!!!!!!!?!!!! ??????!??!??!?! WEEPING, PUNCHING THE FLOOR, BITING BRICKS, SOON I'LL BE ABLE TO MAKE A AQUEAKY SOUND ONLY DOGS CAN HEAR. I SWEAR I'VE BEEN TREMBLING FOR THE PAST 5 MINS IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE WHATTTTTT

A DOODLE??? MESSY LINEWORK???? WEIRD PROPORTIONS??? I FEEL LIKE I'VE JUST STARED AT THE SUN AND IT HAS BLINDED ME WITH ITS BEAUTY- Their faces, the hair, his phone case, Deeva's earrings........ her leaning on his shoulder........,......,,,.... OOUUUJHHHHHHHHHH MY HEART IS GONNA COMBUSTTT 🥺​😭​😭​😭​😭​😭​ I saw your art the other day and thought "THIS ART STYLE IS SOOO GOOD!!" AND NOW I'M BEING BLESSED WITH THIS MASTERPIECE???????? EXCUSE ME WHILE I GO CRY IN A CORNER. I can't be serious after all this screaming, but there really are not enough words to thank you for doing this, you didn't have to, and still you took part of your precious time to make this absolute adoable gift....... HOW COULD I NOT BE LOSING MY MIND OVER IT, THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUUU 😭​😭​😭​💕​💕​💕​💖​💗​💖​

[disco-lemonade-digital]

as is my usual way, once i'd started thinking about what i wanted to do for my Spoon Theory class (see my last post), i soon had more ideas than i knew what to do with. in fact, i'd originally wanted to lead a group about bullet journaling - something that personally kept me sane during my time in rehab - but i went so overboard during the planning stages, that i switched to Spoon Theory out of sheer self-preservation lmao.

but even then, i had to simplify the material i wanted to cover, and things inevitably got cut. a pair of those, were these planner/reflection pages.

the idea was that after explaining what Spoon Theory is, i'd then show ways that we could use it in our day-to-day lives; a daily scheduler and reflection log, i thought, would be a good way to visualize just that. and even though i didn't get to create and share them during that group, the idea has stuck with me ever since.

so i decided to hand-draw and -letter these for myself and others, in the hopes they could be of use to even more people than i would have been able to reach during my lil rehab stint 💌

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if you would like to own the set for personal use, follow this link right here. and for usage with clients/students, please purchase from this link instead.

thanks in advance to anyone who ends up buying, i truly hope these resources can be of use to you in some way!

[vinceaddams]

I sure do love to go to the thrift store and acquire things!! Today I got a broken (?) little wooden music box, a couple pieces of fabric (one dark pink cotton jacquard and one dark brown and gold sari silk) and also a plate with a picture of the Hartland covered bridge on it. That's the longest covered bridge in the world, and I've walked across it, and now I can eat sandwiches off it's monochromatic blue image.

[sincerely-sofie]

I'm not sure how weird of a question it would be to ask, or if it's one i should ask, but if you could choose to hallucinate one of them again without any kind of drawbacks just to talk with them, would you? And who would you talk to?

Not a weird question at all, and it's one I've actually asked myself a lot over the years! If I were able to hallucinate one of my old Brain Roommates™️ again, but without the intense anxiety that is required for me to hallucinate in the first place or the actual damage to my brain that hallucinations do, I'd be very, very interested in it. However, my answer for who I would speak to in this hypothetical scenario has changed throughout the years.

Originally, I wanted to talk to the Black Clock. He was the most consistently distressing hallucination, and was a sort of manifestation of my intense perfectionism and high standards for myself. I wanted to ask him if I was enough. It was a question that haunted me for years, and either answer scared me. If I was enough, then that meant I wasn't living up to my potential and that I was "sinful, irredeemable filth" according to the script I told myself back then. If I wasn't enough, then I didn't deserve anything good and I was an active blight on all that I loved, somehow. Nowadays I don't have anything to say to him. I'm enough for myself and I'm enough for God. The opinion of some misfiring synapses doesn't matter.

After that, I wanted to speak to the Red Woman. She expressed remorse after I found my first set of medications that partially stopped me from hallucinating, and she apologized for what she put me through and told me goodbye. I held her the night I took those medications while she cried and said she was scared to die. I never saw or heard from her again, at least as a hallucination. I wanted to tell her I forgave her and that I hoped she was okay, wherever she was. I don't have that same anxiety over the speculative mortality of the voices in my head anymore, so I wouldn't say I would want to talk to her again. There's not much point to it in my eyes. She hurt me and said she was sorry. That's a full sentence. I don't need to open it up for anything else.

Later on, I wanted to talk to the Lime Hands because, in a very bizarre exchange, he expressed to me he was depressed and didn't want to exist. I wanted to see if he was feeling any better, as strange as it was to ask that of a hallucination. Now, though, I hate that freak and make no apologies for what the dang thing put me through, and the only way I'd want to reunite with him is in some wonderland scenario where I could tangibly interact with him. And that's only because I'm punching that sucker's teeth in and breaking his pinky fingers.

As for the present day answer: If I were to choose any of my hallucinations to speak to without consequence, I think I'd like to speak to Doc Brown, or the Marigold Girl.

Doc Brown was the most cordial of the hallucinations and actually stepped in to advocate for me on occasion when the pain was really bad. I liked him a lot. He was a friend to me when I had very few people to talk to. We joked together and he gave me advice and words of comfort during some of the worst nights of my life. I think it'd be fun, in a very surreal way, to catch up with him— ask him how he's doing, how he's been, if he and the Marigold Girl are still buddies and if the Red Woman and him ever got over the hump of their flirtatious hatred for each other and actually became an item. It'd be a nice little send off to the guy. He was one of the first hallucinations I stopped experiencing, and his disappearance was very abrupt. I'd like to be able to say goodbye properly, thank him for his help, and smile and kindly say I hope I never see him again.

(also, the guy's whole shtick was anxiety over disease / contamination and the possibility of me infecting others with whatever bug I caught at the time. I stopped hallucinating him WAY before 2020 and I think he would lose his mind if I told him about COVID-19. That was his time to shine and he missed it. Poor thing.)

The Marigold Girl was a very difficult figure for me to handle when I was hallucinating. On the one hand, she was a lovely, if somewhat unsettling, little girl. She liked it when I read books and explained the plots to her. She always wanted to be held. She was scared of the dark. She adored my stuffed animals and would whisper to them while I was trying to sleep. I enjoyed being around her for the most part, but she was a very weepy hallucination, and the Black Clock would deal out punishment without fail whenever she cried— it was always my fault somehow, and so I suffered the consequences of her being a bit of a crybaby.

Looking back, I feel bad for her. She was a good kid, or at least as good of a kid as an unhealthy cocktail of neurochemicals in a weary brain can be. She once said she didn't want to cry all the time and wished she knew how to stop because I got in trouble because of it. I think it would be nice to comfort her and tell her it wasn't her fault that I'd be hurt. She couldn't control things anymore than I could back then.

I'd really like to show her the new stuffed animals I've collected over the years and read her one of the short stories I've written. I think she'd like Winter Came and Went if she didn't have to worry about the consequences of crying during the sad parts. She'd definitely enjoy Bibbidy Bee Goes to the Library. If possible, I'd like to ask what her favorite color is. I think she'd have a lot of fun answering, and I'd like being able to get to know this part of my psyche that was scared to let herself show any sadness for fear of hurting others with it.

[britneyshakespeare]

genuinely also curious from other ppl who have drawn from live models. whenever i talk about this experience ppl ask me if the models were all attractive and young and in-shape. in my figure drawing class only two of the regular models could somewhat fit that description. most of them were middle-aged or older people of ordinary (but diverse) proportions. like my experience may not be representative but i find it curious that ppl hear about modelling for a drawing class and wonder if that's like a hot 20-something job. it doesn't seem to be lol

[skunkg1rll]

im in love w him not only bc of who he is as a person nd how drawn i am to his personality, but also bc i feel like he's the only one who has ever wanted to see me. who i am, like deep down. he's the only one who i feel like i've ever connected with, in an easy nd genuine way. the only one who i feel has ever gotten me. he's the only one who's ever made me feel like we actually have a connection we're both in on, bc i havent had to pretend or put up a fake front for him bc he wanted the real image of me.

[candlebel]

I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.

[violetueur-archive]

SOOOOO HAPPY TO SEE YOU ON MY DASH AGAIN YIPPEE

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING MISSED YEEEEWWWW 💕💞💜💖

[faeriegirl]

ahhhh thank you for answering! i love all their designs + your recent explanation of the whole dev-kanna-jon triangle was so tasty. yes give us a man who loses it over a terrifying ancient entity !!

I'm so sorry for the late reply, but I just wanted to say thank you right back! 😊💖It makes me so happy that anyone likes my ocs at all, especially these ones, near and dear to me as they are <3

Jonathan really does have his work cut out for him, being tormented by the devil and a needy fallen angel~ but who needs sanity when you're in a bizarre love triangle!?

[cerise-on-top]

I'm FINALLY starting to work on my masterlists, and this is so intimidating 😭😭

It feels like such a big commitment somehow

Also, I'm literally so greatful that you reblog the things I write 🙏🙏🙏 it's nearly impossible to find shit on my blog so I'm going through yours 🫡

Idk what I'm doing tbh, just wanted to say hiii 👋

(Unrelated, but do you have any ideas for like. A nickname for me/my blog? Bc it feels weird to just send an anon message without saying who I am, even if you already recognize me)

Hello to you too! It's nice to hear from you :D

I know how you feel! Although I gotta say, I knew fairly early on that I wanted to continue writing for CoD, which is why I made my Masterlists early on ^^ Besides, I've written for other fandoms before, so I knew that I needed those masterlists or else no one would ever find any of my older works ever again! But yeah, it's a big committment because it kind of feels like you have to write for that fandom now if you already have those lists! But in the end it's sometimes just nice to go through your stuff and look at everything you've written! In my case, I've got a neatly organized Google Doc thingy that I've been using since November, with headlines and all, and sometimes I do like to reread some of my older stuff! Especially the things I've written for fun! Am I overtalking again? Sorry if I am, it's sort of become a habit of mine ^^

And you're more than welcome! I love the things you write! Plus I do wanna show some appreciation to my mutuals! I like it when people reblog my stuff and add their tags, so I wanna do the same for my mutuals too! I'm glad I am able to help you a bit, though ^^

I'm gonna be honest with you, the only nickname I can think of would be "Spooky/Spookie"! I'm actually a real moron, so I often read your URL as Gaz Spookie Bear! But I'm really unhelpful in that regard, sorry! I actually got my name because I took my favorite fruit (cherry) and translated it into another language (French)! I just found Cerise to be a beautiful word, which is why I use it as my name just about everywhere online! Maybe you can do something similar to that ^^

And you're not stupid at all! Sometimes you just need some time to think of a better idea! :>

[strayklds]

hi Em, this is the birthday anon from a few weeks ago!! i am the luckiest Stay ever, i just opened my copy of 5 Stars & my OOTD mini poster was of Han, ahhhh!!! then i pulled my bias line in the photocards: A ver of Chan, B of Seungmin, & the Target exclusive of Han 😭💓💓 no double sided ones or Lino, but this is actually my first Kpop album ever & i couldn't be happier??? i'm telling all my friends abt this. this is like. MAD luck 🍀 i'm shaking & my face is still warm. they look so good, i've been in love w/everything this comeback!

while setting out to buy the album, i felt i should trust my gut & also whatever copy the store employee handed to me. i had a good feeling abt everything & told myself that i would have been fine with anyone, but truthfully out of everyone i really wanted to get Han. then my heart was going to jump out of my chest when i saw him - twice! goodbye, goodnight, i feel insane 🙈🙊

(also tysm to you & your moots who shared recs w/me! i haven't finished checking them all out yet & picking which ones i like most since there's so much else going on, but i'm extremely grateful for how kind everyone's been! 💗💗)

omg hello!!! i hope you're doing well <3 i'm so happy to hear that you pulled your bias line thats so awesome!!!! (im lowkey jealous that you pulled a han but im so happy you got him at the same time😭😭) i'm sooooo happy you've been loving the album cause i have been too! what's your favorite song off of it so far? (for me it's probably collision...... i think.....)

& ofc! you're so welcome i'm glad you've gotten the chance to listen to some of the recs! skz discography is HUGEEE so i totally get that it's kind of overwhelming to go through it all hahah but taking your time with it is totally part of the fun! 🤍🤍🤍🤍