#I'll literally leave that group if they are always this toxic

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I wish to see how each of the 141 boys respond to their ex, reader, calling them for emotional support bc readers newest bf was toxic af

bonus points if 141 boys are still possessive over reader, but doesn't do anything besides telling reader to leave her toxic bf. OR ORRR he's possessive bc him and reader have been together for so long, who would know how to treat her better than him? He knows every little detail she cares about, every little action that makes her fall head over heels in an instant. Her toxic bf? He doesn't care to learn about those types of things, even if reader outright says it

EVEN MORE BONUS POINTS for smut to show reader what a quick fuck of satisfaction looks like vs genuine sex / love making

Apologies, Anon. This has been sitting in my inbox for…a while, but I’ve been thinking about it off and on since you’ve sent it in.

I’ll drop some HC’s about how this would go down but I absolutely want to explore this further as part of the Imagines & What If Series.

I'll tackle these separately and make them individual one-shots (with much more detail) once I wrap up the By the Belt prompt. But for now...enjoy my HC's (if you will) on what I think would go down in this scenario.

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Content & Warnings: suggestive themes (it's vague), brief mentions of protective/possessive behavior, canon-typical swearing

John Price

Breakup status: Strained (at first), but settled into friendship.

Absolutely hates texting, and you know if you need to reach him immediately, you have to call. Price isn’t an old man, he’s just the old man of the group, and would absolutely be tech literate but also super picky on how he communicates with people personally. It’s Price’s job to be calm, to be a leader, and pick up on things others don’t necessarily notice. So, Price would know you’re upset with your current boyfriend without you even having to spell it out. Besides, Price hates the guy, and knows he’s not worth even a lob of spit.

Plus, Price has been wanting to get back with you for ages. Now that the two of you are friends and have repaired whatever it is that separated the two of you in the first place, Price is looking to find a way to move in again, to slowly (or quickly) win you back, and now he has the opportunity.

Price insists on talking in person, and the moment the two of you are together, he makes the effort he knows you’re needing—because he wants you back, but also because he knows you better than your current boyfriend. Price doesn’t understand why you even gave the guy a chance, but he’ll do everything to get you back.

He would start with subtle indications eventually moving the conversation into past memories, reminiscing on happier times when you were his woman, and how that felt. It slowly devolves until you’re admitting first that you still miss him, and Price goes in for the kill, stating clearly that he still has feelings for you.

The final act is passionate, rough, and intense. Like an atom splitting, it is explosive.

Kyle “Gaz” Garrick

Breakup status: mutual (away all the time; hard to make it work)

When you call, on the verge of tears, needing to talk to someone, Gaz immediately knows something is wrong the moment he picks up. (Sorta like Price but more attuned emotionally to the situation).

I can see Gaz not being a fan of chatting for long periods on the phone, so you don’t even need to ask, Gaz will drop everything and come to you without you having to suggest it. In fact, Gaz picks up, realizes your upset, and immediately says he’s coming over.

When he arrives, it’s like the two of you have never been apart. It’s almost routine, completely natural the way the two of you come together. Gaz is very much about physical affection. He’s constantly touching you, comforting you, and saying sweet things that always make you melt.

Totally knows you need a distraction, and while you’re upset, you’re having a difficult time expressing yourself. When this happens, Gaz just shuts it down, guiding you toward distraction to help you calm down and ease your mind before probing to see if you want to return to the topic.

Once that happens, game over for boyfriend. He’s lost you to Gaz.

The reunification is absolutely passionate and soft. I will die on that hill.

John “Soap” MacTavish

Breakup status: Messy. (You cannot tell me Soap isn’t a hot mess. Our boy is a little too high energy at times.)

While the breakup between the two of you is messy, Soap has always been a “safe” person for you. So, when you call him to vent, you don’t realize that Soap immediately starts heading in your direction until he knocks on your door and the two of you stand there staring at each other, phones held up to your ears. It’s an impulsive decision on his end to come to you, but you don’t turn him away.

Like Simon, Soap would be forward in the way he addresses your concern and the issues—which is your shitty boyfriend who deserves to only be known as your ex. However, where Simon is more of a blunt “these are the facts” kind of communicator, Soap will go for the jugular, using harsher language about this “boyfriend.” He won’t be critical of you, but he will be overly critical of him, listing all the ways this idiot doesn’t deserve you. He might even grow a bit heated in tone and pitch, becoming creative with his slang, and his accent might thicken slightly especially if he’s going off.

But ultimately, Soap is defending you, and reiterates the need for you to stand up for yourself and get rid of this loser.

I don’t think anything passionate would happen in that moment. But I could also see Soap in the middle of him criticizing your toxic boyfriend, you shutting him up with a kiss. Now…that could easily go sideways with someone like Soap. He’s very much impulsive at times, and I think that would win out. Soap would totally kiss you back and not allow you to pull away from him again until you’re…satisfied.

Simon “Ghost” Riley

Breakup status: Tumultuous, eventually mellowing to mutual understanding afterward.

Would listen to you rant without interrupting. He would not ask any clarifying or follow up questions.

When you have it all out of your system, his response is simple: break up with him. Simon is direct—could even say blunt depending on the situation, and he would absolutely be that way in this scenario.

He makes it clear that you’re obviously not happy and that the relationship is making you miserable. He might even lay it out plainly, stating only the facts, sliding into that mindset when he’s in the field, thinking about all scenarios and problem-solving while doing so.

Internally, he’s absolutely ecstatic that your current boyfriend is a garbage heap of a human being. He will see this as an opportunity to slip right back into your life if he plays this right. Sure, the two of you aren’t together anymore, but he’s not over it. Simon is possessive and territorial to the core. Totally still considers you his.

Will absolutely make up a reason to come over, and it will likely fall under the “I’m looking out for you” or “trying to protect you from him” insisting that your boyfriend could escalate and he won’t allow you to potentially be in harm’s way.

When he arrives, Simon immediately turns soft and attentive in just the way you like. He gives you his full attention, doesn’t lecture, and offers plenty of physical touch.

The physical touches turn…well, I’ll save that for the full fic. But it is a reminder of how you’ve always been his and you just need to realize it.

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I can cheer you up

Katie McCabe x reader

Reader doesn't get invited when all her friends are going out and she's sad about it. Katie wants to cheer her up.

Warnings: smut, squirting

"Come here" Katie said to me. She noticed I was little down since I wasn't invited to hang out with my friends who I usually hang out with. It's always been like this. My friends hang out and 'accidentally' they always forget to invite me with them. Right now they are at a bar together but I was never invited. It hurts to know I'm just a second option.

I walked to my bed where Katie was laying with her arms open. I practically fell to her arms.

"What's wrong Baby?" Katie asked. I buried my head to her neck and didn't answer. Life is hard. I don't have many actual friends. I have a big friend group but they don't actually care about me. After college we have drifted apart. They talk shit about me behind my back and they don't really accept me being bi. I have made a lot new friends through Katie but it's not the same

Luckily Katie's presence makes me feel so much better. She takes care of me. She listens to me and actually cares about what I say and think.

I feel Katie's fingers making lazy patterns on my back as she holds me tight. She then moves her hand to my hair and massage's slowly my head. Then she finally rolls to her side so she is looking at me.

"Sweetie what's wrong?" She asks again.

"Ugh. I hate my friends. Once again they didn't invite me with them. Now I get to see all what they're doing through Snapchat." I said half annoyed half sad.

"Y/n why are you even friends with them. They are toxic and you should just drop them. You deserve so much better. Baby you deserve the fucking world. You are the most caring, honest, sweetest and loving girl I know and that's why I love you. You need to know your worth and not let others treat you this way. I don't wanna see you like this Sweet" Katie said.  Every word she said was said with honesty.

'God I love this girl'

"Thank you Macca. You always make me feel better. And I love you so much" I said and put my head on her chest so I could listen her heart beat.

"l think there is a way to make you feel even better" She said in a different tone. More flirty. I knew where she was going because her hand was wondering towards my pants.

"Oh is there? What is it?" I asked in the same tone and smirked.

"Maybe I'll show you if you are up for it?" Katie said asking for consent.

"Mhmm. Show me" I moaned when Katie sucked my neck slightly.

She covered my neck in kisses and little red marks that wouldn't stay for long. Then she rolled over so she was on top of me and she started to take my shirt off. She started leaving sloppy kisses to my chest. She then took my bra off and tossed it to somewhere in my room.

"God you are beautiful" She said and it made my heart rate speed. Every time she complimented me it game me butterflies.

"I wanna see you Katie" I said and started to take her shirt off. Her boobs are so fucking perfect.

"S...Shit" I whined when she started to suck my nipple slightly. She twirled her tongue around the bud.

After focusing on my boobs for a while she continued kissing me down my stomach. Her hands on my sides. She looked at me asking for consent to take my pants off. She would never do anything I'm not comfortable with. I nodded and she slid my pants and underwear off.

She was wearing only loose shorts so when she put her face down and ass up I got a perfect view off her ass. She started teasingly sucking and kissing my thighs. She did it for a while until I couldn't stand the throbbing between my legs.

"Please Katie. Please I need more" I pleaded. I needed to feel her lips on my clit.

"Anything for you Sweet" She said and started flicking her tongue on my clit. Bringing me immediate pleasure.

"Yes...Katie, Fuck" I moaned at her actions.

She uses her mouth so sensually. It quite literally could take you to heaven. How she flicks and swirls her tongue around my clit makes my eyes roll to the back of my head.

"Keep going Katie"

And she did. So sensually lapping my juices and circling my clit with her tongue. It brought tears to my eyes, I was feeling pure extasy.

l was already close. She sucked slightly my clit and then let it go with a pop. Instead she ran her tongue through my folds and trusted it inside me. I moaned in pleasure.

"Do you know how pretty you look. I'm actually kinda glad that your friends didn't invite you because now I get to do this to you" She said and suddenly stuck two of her fingers inside me. She started also sucking my clit again.

I threw my head back in pleasure and moaned loudly. Really hoping our neighbors won't complain. My walls clenched around her fingers and she knew that i was close. But suddenly she stopped her actions.

'What the hell'

"Before you complain about anything, you wanted to feel better, right?" Katie asked. I was really confused but nodded.

"Well after some edging your orgasm will feel even better. I promise" She said and kissed me passionately.

'Fuck she knows what she's doing'

She licked my bottom lip and I opened my mouth to her. Our tongues explored each others mouths. Suddenly I felt fingers at my clit again. I moaned in Katie's mouth.

She used her palm to stimulate my clit as she trusted three fingers inside me. I kept moaning to her mouth.

"Oh god...Katie please. I'm close" I said quickly between kisses.

She pulled away from my mouth and I was about to whine but then she sucked my clit. Her fingers where going an insane pace. I was on the edge of falling apart.

"God I won't be able to look this room the same. I'll be only thinking how sweet you taste and how pretty you look when I eat you out like this. And I definitely won't forget the sound that will leave your mouth in couple seconds" Katie said and then went back to assaulting my clit.

"Come for me baby. Fall apart. But don't be quiet, I wanna hear everything. I wanna hear how good I make you feel" Katie said and curled her fingers to my sweet spot.

And I came. Hard.

My legs shook around Katie's head as my mouth let animalistic sounds. I screamed Katie's name and my breathing was so rapid that my body probably thought that I was having a panic attack.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck" I yelled as I felt another wave of pleasure going through me. I felt liquid coming out of me. Katie was still thrusting her fingers in and out of me. The pleasure was something I have never felt before.

"Fuck Katie... More" I said. I surprised even myself for wanting more. My body was shaking from my last orgasm. Or orgasms. I'm pretty sure I came twice.

"Are you sure?" Katie asked and furrowed her eyebrows.

"YES" I yelled already coming. Katie didn't even have to do anything. She just guided me through my third orgasm of the night.

"Good baby, just like that"

After a while she slipped her fingers out of me and cleaned them with her mouth.

"Fuck baby. That was hot" Katie said as gave a kiss to my clit.

My breathing was now under control and I tried to roll me and Katie around but she stopped me.

"No sweet. This was about you. I wanted to make you feel better" Katie said and kissed me softly. I was actually thankful because I didn't know if I had any energy to do anything.

"Thank you Katie" I said sleepily.

"Of course. But now the important question. Are you feeling any better?" She asked and chuckled. She was now laying next to me.

"Definitely" I said and curled against her body.

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my blog was due for some Katie smut

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i'll show you different (Joel Miller x reader) part four

summary : Nathan barnes is wondering how he's gonna break the news to the woman he sworn to that she would be safer leaving to go home after someone in his office leaks her where abouts , joel and peach don't realise how much they have in common in away the moment that she was waiting for finally come one that tells her happiness doesn't last forever ....

warning: mentions of DV , toxic ex's to be honest this one is hella angsty , mutual pinning ( finally am i right? ) , there is a few light moments though .

( previous part)

He felt sick , walking back from  The meeting that never should be happening if someone just listened for once.   This wasn’t suppose to even be a possibility of happening and yet if the judge got his head out o his head out of his ass, he wouldn’t be walking to his office ready to tell a woman who went through hell and back her ex was gone , oh and someone slipped her location to him . Nathan barnes maybe was too close to those involved in the case but even in that he could see his former best friend should of been behind bars for along time .

  it was his promise , his way to make it up for not seeing it sooner , not finding out the man he thought would grow old together  giving out about their grandkids and wives at some park bench . only to discover his  ex best friend was a monster , a cruel manipulative abusive piece of shit .  He remember the day things he started to build up and he confronted y/n hoping she would tell him that he was crazy and she did at first only it was so forced like it was rehearsed constantly  over and over.  Then she let it all out all the years of hiding everything  from her ex husband finding her at the age of sixteen  working in some crappy diner how at first she thought she hit the lottery and then how it all changed , from every kick and punch to every insult she told him everything .  the look on her face was something that stuck with him when he said  her believed her, like it was the first time in her life to hear that sentence and how that broke the floodgates and had her a sobbing mess in his arms . that day and every day after  he promised he would help her get away from the man who tormented and abused her. Nathan knew it wasn’t just a standard divorce but he was not expecting this kind of psychotic possessive nature that was to follow .  the last resort  he and his now ex girlfriend got  help getting second hand car paying with cash emptying her bank accounts so that she didn’t leave a paper trail when she left and only he had the location  well he did til his assistant answered the phone from the sheriff and leaked the information in return for a big pay out . so now he was walking to his office to make a call to tell her he had failed to keep his promise. 

It felt odd and strange , feeling happy it was such a rarity because she wasn’t used to it . the happiness she felt was always followed by a shit storm , like the emotion was one of the rarest gems in the world and it was taken from her before she could enjoy the beauty of it  . Learning to live again , learning to know she was free to do whatever and go where ever was still hard , still something she was getting used to .  every morning she knew she could wear whatever she wanted and yet she was still going to grab clothes that hid her away . Leaving the house she could go out to bars or literally anywhere she wanted and yet it was still nerve wrecking doing her shopping like she was under a time limit checking her surrounding constantly or just staying home completely . in all the strangest feeling she did have a good group of people around her , ones that made her cheeks hurt from smiling and not the palm of their hands , her sides splitting from laughing and not the feeling of a kick or boot that would knock the wind out of her lungs . even now she was letting herself be social , standing in the back yard of the millers with her grandfather talking away to the miller girls about the latest trends , the older men stopped listening finding themselves completely lost and started their own conversation about some game they saw as joel was grilling away.   She felt so close spending the summer with the girls getting to know them individually . ellie was funniest girl she ment and yet most affectionate , sarah was sweetest and most caring .  the main reason for the get together was them going back to their moms but promising to keep in touch . 

Yet in  her conversations her eyes would drift to where he was ,  it wasn’t like it was a new thing anyone with eyes could see how attractive both brother were but joel stood out more to her. The dark wavy hair with silver strand placed throughout or the scruff on his jaw  and those eyes ones if she let herself she would get lost in them easily.  The smile on his face that could melt icebergs with how warm it was . he was a rarity to her , well one of the rare few men she didn’t see a mask that monster hid under, his intentions and act were true to him , he was kind and sweet once you got past the grumpy exterior but even that was so bad .  he , tommy , nathan , her grandfather and the sheriff  , the men she could count on one hand that proved to her not all men were monsters out to hurt her. 

She was too damage , too scared , too stupid , too this and that of the words her ex constantly told her to even see anything past looking at joel . that voice that told her she wasn’t worthy of a mans love and the humiliation that kept her even trying to get past anything more than a friendship with joel or anyone else for that matter.  Then when that wasn’t in her head , it was fear if she was to tell him how she felt that he would reject her  , she’d lose friendship she built with one of the closet people in her life and just like happiness  those were also a rarity . so she was just fine with looking , with daydreaming of the older man she cared for dearly. 

“ hey room for one more” that voice , one she knew  instantly that had her nearly falling with how fast she turned.  That face from the past looking at her across the back yard. 

“Aunt maria” she almost squeaked taking them all surprise  with how fast she move and how tight she hug the woman almost knocking her to the ground. 

“ pretty girl i missed you , i didn’t know if you wanted to see me or not” she said softly holding her closely. 

“ i miss you so much , i always wanna see you” she almost whispered feeling like she could cry with happiness.  Everyone standing in silence  and smiles at the sweet reunion between the two , maria may of not been her blood but she was closet thing to an aunt to peach growing up with her mother and maria being so close almost like sisters . 

“ who’s hungry” joel coughed hating to break them apart . 

“ about time old man” ellie groaned holding up her plate. 

“ you know staring is be notice one way or another” tommy whispered making his brother jump startled almost dropping the plate in his hand. 

“ ain’t staring  , don’t do that” joel huffed and yet he hated how true his brother was , it was like his body knew she was near  with how his eyes always found her . 

“ course not because staring and not asking her out all this time would be creepy or is it time to trade the truck for a white van” tommy snorted .  “ serious make a move already man “ . 

“ let me give you a list of reason to why the fuck that not happening because one she ain’t interested, two she nearly half my age, three if i do ask her out and she does reject me i scare her off those girls of mine will have my head oh and four her grandfather is my landlord and boss if by some miracle she did agree and it ended badly i would have to moves state” joel listed off.

“ and yet you can’t stop staring at her like she hangs the sun , moon and stars “ tommy pointed out , 

“ a girl like her would never be into an old man like me” joel sighed. 

“ why not and your not old  man , come on  joel” . 

“ look at her and look at me , it don’t make sense ,  she deserve so much better” joel finally said but tommy could hear anothers  words .

 “ that’s that bitch talking , not you man  brother or not you are a great man who deserves everything , happiness that so happens to be in the form of a peach “ he smiled softly.  “ not  letting a gold digger make you think different” tommy said . 

“ bitch or not she was right  look at me , what have i done  , what have i got “ joel asked not  realising peach was heading to the cooler that was close to the two men talking still smiling catching up with maria not expecting to hear the words come out of joel’s mouth  , putting himself down. “ i lost everything in that  divorce and don’t get me wrong in i’m happy not being in a loveless marriage and i’m grateful it gave me the girls but man i’m rented a house with my little brother , working day and night so i can get my girls the minimum when they deserve the absolute world i can’t even offer to pay for sarah to go college when time comes , i’m literally a joke of a man and father” joel snapped. 

“ you’re wrong , sorry i didn’t mean to butt in but i can’t let someone as amazing as you joel say those things about yourself, your an amazing father probably the best. You get those girls whatever they need and want  no matter what , your one of the sweetest kindest people i know , shit cook in the kitchen but a king on the grill “  she said so easily as he stood completely in awe. “ trust me joel you’re one the best” she added. 

Before he could even say anything her attention was taking by the sherif standing there , the look on his face told her what she already knew that the happiness never lasted . 

“ peach i need speak to you a moment .. it can’t wait darling” with that she was walking off as joel was still standing their digesting her words . 

This was the pin she waited for to burst the bubble and set her back into reality. The thing that told her being happy never lasted.  He was still talking but she couldn’t listen it was like her brain stopping working trying to think of what to do next even though she knew what it was she just didn’t want to dwell on it too long. She felt stupid for starting to believe she could have something even as simple as a life of her own . 

“ He might not even come here” 

“ we both know that a lie sheriff , he’s either on his way or he here ready to pounce and get me” she scoffed. 

“ who’s coming to get you” ellie asked making everyone look over to where she stood. 

“ my ex husband , erm he .. sorry i cant” she ran off still not ready to tell them the real reason , the fact she fell for a man like her father  , unable to take the looks  of judgment or pity or even both . 

“ like mother like daughter” she thought as she walked  towards her house , hating how she let herself get close to them all . 

“ her husband?” tommy asked confused as the well the others that didn’t  know. 

“ ex husband” joel corrected piecing it together in his head from when she first arrive it wasn’t  only her father she survived the clutches of. 

It was good while it lasted , time of being happy , having friends and family in her life it was all bound to come to an end . heading into the kitchen pulling her phone off the charging dock seeing the miss calls , texts and voicemails from nathan . she gave him a quick text to say the sheriff told her everything and she would ring him later. She decided to talk a lap around and mourn the house she was making her own home , all the work she done over the last eight months .  the picture she finally put up , ones of her and her mom , one of  her and her grand parents and then one with her grandfather the girls took . the selfies sarah took of  her and ellie and peach after painting her bedroom , the three of them covered in paint . her favourite one though was them all standing in her kitchen after dinner she made , them all but mostly the smile on her face and smile on joel face  . she took it off the wall holding close to her chest as she went to the living room looking around til she stopped.  Completely frozen to the spot like she was being held under a tub of ice  , the frame falling from her hand landing in a loud thud and the glass shatter all over the floor beneath her feet. 

He knew there was more to her than the dark childhood that there was darker secrets , darker parts of her life that she was trying to recover from. It all made sense now and he didn’t even know what it was but the way she was so nervous of him and tommy , how guarded she kept . then he heard the glass shattering in the moment he stepped on the porch immediately he ran into the house not even a second thought to it nearly running past her in the living room . 

“ peach darling you oka… what the fuck” his eyes widened following her line of sight . 

The big bold red letters all over her wall  that sent a shiver down his own spine That read out  

“I FOUND YOU “ .

part 5

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Thoughts, Headcanons and Comments on Negaduck (My AU).

This here is more of a commentary blog and maybe a rant, it can also be considered as a headcanon blog and also for Negaduck fans (which I feel like the majority will curse me A LOT for not agreeing with either group, OG and DT 2017). For those who want to, they can read it as they wish, but I'm already advancing that it's LONG and will have some low-level words (I'll censor it, but it's still worth it). Feel free to leave comments about your opinions... And preferably, the comments should be healthy...

So... I woke up these days and thought to myself... "Do you know what would be good today? Talking about a character idolized by the majority of Fandom as the best villain in Darkwing Duck and a hidden passion for many people and suffering hate from everyone ? YAY!!! =D" (yes, I have self-love... Don't worry, this is just a joke).

Me after this blog:

Ok, clarifying something for everyone here... I like Negaduck himself, I really like his concept and even his personality. Characters that are basically chaotic, crazy and the reincarnation of evil itself, I love that concept. My problem with Negaduck is kind of his Fandom... People put him on a pedestal and say he's the ultimate villain and the rest is just the rest... I'm talking about a kind of toxic part of the community, like those who make meaningless or simply problematic ships (sorry for those who ship, but Darkwing Duck and Negaduck would NEVER happen in this ship, they are literally mortal enemies and in OG it's worse because Negaduck is an alternative version of Drake). My problem is not the character, the problem is his toxic fans and the fact that he is always considered one of the best villains and blah blah blah. Guys, I see Negaduck as a good antagonistic figure to DWD. The vision of what Drake could become if something went wrong. A criminal genius who has no scruples about getting what he wants and who will do the worst things in the world to get what he wants, including threatening his own companions, the Fearsome Four, with death. A psychopathic maniac who is so toxic that he is basically disgusting and chaotic. Think of classic Disney villains who were the antithesis of evil, like Jafar and the Evil Queen. They're almost pure evil, but they're still charismatic. Basically a villain we love to hate.

Having already spoken my vision, let's move on to the Headcanons and also criticisms of both Negaducks (the OG 1991 and the DT 2017). Just remembering that I like both versions, but I have my criticisms of them... It's never an attack on the fans, it's just constructive criticism and my view of the character. And let's start with what people apparently idolize the most... Negaduck/Jim Starling from DT 2017. Starting with the most controversial one here that will cause me more attacks from the fans, but ok! =D

The story they made for Negaduck is, to say the least, curious... He was the original actor in the Darkwing Duck series in the Ducktales Reboot universe, whose career took a break after the series ended and he wanted to return in the new film. His name is Jim Starling (pause to praise the idea of the name and her reference, the team is to be congratulated on this honor), he is apparently a duck in his 40s and, apparently, serves to draw a parallel with the DW of original series. The original protagonist of the series that many people followed and to be the antithesis of Drake Mallard, who is the new modern Darkwing Duck of this generation. There are things that I genuinely like about this new Negaduck, like the fact that he is his own character and not an alternative version or copy of Darkwing, the metalanguage with the original Darkwing Duck being a series in Ducktales and things like that... My problem is what they did, the execution... I don't know, I don't like how they wrote Jim, he often makes parallels with the OG protagonist Darkwing Duck and seems to demonize him, while exalting the current Drake Mallard who is nicer, the which I honestly don't like. Besides... WHAT THE F*CK DO HAPPENED WITH JIM AT THE END?!?! A CRAP SCENARIO FELL ON HIS HEAD AND HE BECAME GOO, THEN HE BECAME NEGADUCK?!?! What did they give the screenwriters?! Give me, I want 2 of these...

Okay, calm down... Back to focus... I don't like how this ending happened, it kind of takes away the idea that he's a human and makes him turn into a mutant, which I don't approve of since the fun part is that Darkwing Duck and Negaduck are human, but they're impressive they survive something that would kill them (like old cartoons) and don't get a scratch. The justification they gave to Drake is good, that he always stands up because he has impressive willpower and that he is stubborn. But Negaduck... No! I would change that yes, Jim would survive even though that thing fell on his head and crushed him, but it would have just been a "scene" that he did, but he would appear injured and, if he appeared again, it would show him with scars from that incident . It would be much better... Now, his motivation... It's kind of whatever... I don't hate it, but the way it was done I didn't think it was cool, even though the justification was valid. I've seen some people making fun of him that he just "wanted attention", which is kind of true... But considering that ND is evil incarnate, you can accept it. Oh, and one last aspect that I liked and that was in the classic series... When Negaduck is completely unstable and basically insane, his eyes become spirals. That's awesome, I'm not going to lie. :³

Alright, now let's move on to the 1991 version of Negaduck from Darkwing Duck. Here they will probably give me a lot of hate attacks too...

Negaduck OG is the counterpart of Darkwing Duck from the Negaverse, an evil version of Drake Mallard who went to the Primeverse for who knows why and is wreaking terror in St. Canarian... He is the leader of the Fearsome Five, a criminal genius and also one of the most dangerous villains. That's in the sense of... He has a BUNCH OF GUNS THAT HE TAKES OUT WHO KNOWS WHERE AND EXPLOSIVES THAT COULD DESTROY THE ENTIRE CITY!!!! Besides, he is a genius criminal strategist and basically almost destroyed the city and even the multiverse in one of his madnesses. For that reason alone, I really like the concept, a person who basically represents chaos in person (Paddywhack doesn't count here, because he's literally a chaos demon) and who is one of Darkwing Duck's smartest villains who almost defeated him. My main problem with him is... He's basically a version of DWD from another universe and he's evil. I don't know about you, but this sounds so generic... There's this with Superman, Batman, Spider-Man multiverse story and "What if"... It's not that I don't like opposite versions of heroes, I do... But when it's a separate character from him. Reverse Flash, for example, is a completely different person from the Flash, Dr. Zoom. Making Negaduck just an evil alternative version of Darkwing is a bit boring because it's a bit limited... Besides, they didn't properly explore the Negaverse itself... ND is a good character, yes, but it's just this lock that makes me think: "Really? One more? Okay...-_-". I like what DT 2017 did, separating Negaduck from Darkwing Duck, in the sense of giving him an identity and not making him an "evil Darkwing Duck from another reality", making Negaduck his own person. Negaduck's parallel with Darkwing Duck becomes more interesting and palpable, whereas in the OG it's kind of a tired trope. There are certain versions that I applaud standing up, like the Hulk and Batman with one of them, but otherwise it's written in a generic way until...

But then... After complaining so much, I just want to say something... This in no way makes one version better than the other, each version is different and they all have their mistakes and successes. I've seen people comparing both versions and saying that the old Negaduck was better than the 2017 one, but I think it's slightly stupid. Each version is for a different audience, if you liked it, fine, if not, that's fine too. I've seen @o-dandelion-o compare both versions and say that the 2017 ND is a crybaby (I would personally give that to the 2017 Drake, but ok...) and that the 1991 ND is superior... It was probably a joke , but it's worth highlighting... Guys, it doesn't make any difference to me! I'm a writer and I can play the character any way I want! I don't agree with the vision of certain artists, and that's okay! I respect their vision! Only that! I want to make it extremely clear that my version of Negaduck mixes these two, the original and the 2017 version. I took the concept of him being his own character, Jim Starling, but I kept the chaotic and evil incarnate essence of the original. It's an alternative universe created by me and my friend, that's all...

Anyway... I think that's it, thanks to whoever read this... Until next time...

Final arts made for @anniesilveratl2 .

[11queensupreme11]

Unpopular opinion of the ROR fandom, I don't like that they pair gods with humans, don't get me wrong, I don't hate people who pair them but I don't really see the point. ☠️

An example is with TetonPosy (my favorite 🥰), I don't like Poseidon x Kojiro, seriously, I don't like it, unfortunately for me the fandom in Spanish (I don't know if the same thing happens in the English one), almost always (if not always) they pair it with Kojiro. And Poseidon never showed interest in Kojiro, instead he detested him, damn it, at which point Poseidon showed that he felt attached to the human that he considered inferior.

Also the fact that my favorite tenton died at the hands of the Japanese, and that he is old:( (all the other humans, even over 100 years old, look young and Kojiro doesn't, he looks like an old man; and he is (ignoring that the gods are greater than them). I don't like him per se, and Kojiro's appearance doesn't improve overall. For me (fucked personal opinion), seeing a couple where one looks young person with that appearance and being with someone with an elderly appearance is ... strange (sorry if it sounds controversial, but that's how I think

The people pairing Qin and Hades is another example, saying that they are kings of both worlds among other things, yes I admit that Hades recognized Qin but as far as I remember it was because it reminded him of Poseidon. They even dared to steal the phrase quoted by Poseidon and put it to Qin .😡

It's that of: a perfect god, blah blah, I don't remember what else was about the phrase (I forgot it)

They pair Shiva too much with Raiden when it has been shown that they have partners (Shiva) and canonical love interest (Raiden if I remember correctly)

Adam and Zeus, seriously, I have to explain this. (If there are people who match them)

Buddha and Zengoku (was that the boy's name?) I see them as a relationship like brothers in general, I see relationships with Buddha as a friend-brother, not romantically except with Bruhilde although we all know that she doesn't even fight Buddha)

I won't bother getting into incestuous pairings (cough cough HadesPose) because they are Greek, (reference to incest in Greek mythology)

I would talk more but I got tired of typing so much, so I'll leave it here. And another additional thing, it doesn't bother me that it's bl or gl, what bothers me is that I can't find where they come from to match them and the other one is a fighting manga/anime and in their fandom the only thing which pairing is more popular.

Man, it's an anime about fighting to literally survive mass extinction in humans (reminds me of the end of shingeki in the rumble) and the only thing I find when I look for them is two guys fucking or other things (sorry for the vulgarity )

And The same thing happens in another fandom that I was previously in, which was Bungou Stray Dogs, If you have the opportunity I recommend it to you, it's good (you can ignore my stupid suggestion), that happens with two characters Chuuya and Dazai that the fandom ALWAYS pairs them up, literally whenever they have the chance.

And that's annoying, your fandom with the soukoku , and their ships are toxic, if you talk about something bad about soukoku they hate you.

lLiterally, one is a former mafia executive with serious problems that he takes lightly and the other is a gangster, where do you see how tender it is for a A relationship. And then they become stupid (x2 sorry for my criticisms without argument) that they loved each other in the port, blablabla.

lI'm sorry for complaining without solid arguments to support me and adding another fandom to something that has nothing to do with it, but I seriously hate that in fandom the first thing they ask you is: What pairings do you like? (It has happened to me with ror in face groups :( when romance is not the central thing in ror

i don't ship anyone in ror tbh, ror is one of the manga/animes where i dont ship anyone cuz im just so focused on the future fight matchups. but im pretty sure ppl are shipping the gods with their human opponents because they interacted with each other the most, which makes for good shipping material.

but not all characters in a ship need to have interacted with each other in canon.

one thing you gotta know about shipping, is that it doesn't need to make a point. it doesn't need to make sense. people pretty much just ship what they want. it's just a fun lil thing, we're basically little girls playing with our barbie dolls and making them kiss each other 🤷‍♀️ it doesn't matter if character a canonically hates character b's guts and would never romantically like them, or if character c and character d never interacted.

literally one person just needs to take a look at these characters and go "hmmm i think they would go well together" and bam, a ship is born. there doesn't need to be a reason or a point to it

but i get what you mean about how shippers annoy you. lately jjk shippers are starting to annoy me too (they doxx and bully ppl who like over ships they dont personally like, and accuse boy x girl shippers of homophobia because of it 💀 ppl really need to stop acting as if their gay ship is a form of activism, its not). i haven't seen any toxicity in the ror fandom over their ships yet and that's probably because the fans aren't from america (which is where the majority of those crazy toxic shippers are from)

when an anime/manga's fandom gets too toxic for me, i honestly just stay away. i focus more on reading theories and analyses rather than admire fanarts featuring a ship and stuff like that, which helps in twitter cuz my timeline changes

[pinkiepiebones]

ANOTHER FIC! But this is WIP. Movie spoilers obvs

"I know it's the same rat" Robert said firmly. 

The group had a pretty new and unspoken rule- when Robert says weird, magical shit, roll with it. He doesn't share very often, not since literally cutting his toxic boss out of his life, but he comes to every meeting, sometimes with the cop Rebecca by his side. He's always clean-cut and in pastels, looking like some British knockoff of Mister Rogers. He nods and listens and offers gentle encouragements. Sometimes he even brings cookies.

Tonight, he was sharing. Rebecca was at his side, looking exactly like everyone thought an off-duty cop should. Usually her eyes were scanning the gym, ever vigilant. Tonight she was watching Robert. Robert looked uncharacteristically tired. He clutched a styrofoam cup of lukewarm coffee in his pale fingers and seemed to be intent on speaking more to his dark reflection than the room.

"It's been following me, this rat. I know it has." He swirled the coffee and watched the liquid cling to the sides of the cup. "I see it on the railing when I leave my apartment in the morning, I see it at the door at work, I've even seen it in Rebecca's yard, almost as if it knows my schedule and anticipates where I'll be."

Rebecca looks to the group, to Mark, with an expression of worry. "He thinks-"

"It's Dracula, still somehow clinging to power, controlling a rat to spy on the familiar who betrayed him" Kevin offered.

Mark waved a hand to shush Kevin and said something about allergy medication before pulling a folding chair close and addressing Robert directly.

"And even if, through some horrible magic happenstance, Dracula has somehow reconstituted himself, what do you do?"

Robert didn't look up. "I don't know," he said softly.

"You kick his ass again" Carol suggested. The group offered sounds of approval. Rebecca nodded, smirking. That had been a fun day.

"Well, okay, yes, Carol's right," Mark said, "but before that, you just re-assert yourself. You took your power back from him. He can't hurt you any more, Robert." 

Agreements and platitudes filled the gym and Robert sat up a little. Rebecca gave his thin shoulder a reassuring squeeze and the meeting moved on.

Outside, the rat leaned back. It had pressed it's ear to the gym door. It knew Robert's voice. His schedule. His favourite place to get name-brand lighting fixtures at closeout prices. His cell phone lock code. It knew everything.

The rat scuttled across the parking lot and down a storm drain. It ran until it was told to stop. Something like instinct, but darker, more focused, pulled it and every other rat in the New Orleans sewer system in to servitude.

The rat moved past dozens of others hard at work. Rats had gathered pieces of concrete and chewed until either they died or their teeth wore down to bloody stumps. Tiny pieces were fetched by other rats from the amassing dust and gravel and piled them in a surprisingly clean area of the sewer. Other rats brought little mouthfuls of human blood to spit onto that pile. Drunk revelers above wouldn't really notice a rat bite. And those who did and went to the doctor with concerns would be told that rats don't drink blood, just take some aspirin to keep the fever down.

Of course rats didn't drink blood. They just needed it.

It had taken months of chewing and scampering and bloodletting, but tonight, the foul-smelling pile of ash and blood stirred. The rats gathered to watch, to bear witness. 

A single skeletal human finger, tipped with a claw, shot up from the mess. 

The claw landed on the concrete.

It rose again and fell again. Tapping out a message.

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[moon-dog1634]

My analysis of the song Should I Stay Or Should I Go linked with Crowley (and Aziraphale)

This song doesn’t show up in the show I just heard it while working and it was like a light bulb clicked on

Darlin' you got to let me know

Should I stay or should I go?

Spoilers for Good Omens season 2

If you say that you are mine

I'll be here 'til the end of time

The kiss. Crowley’s last ditch attempt to get Aziraphale to say that he loves Crowley, to say the he is his. Of course Crowley will be there until the end of time, he’s immortal. But he’s also been there since the BEGINNING of time. He’s been with Aziraphale literally since the beginning.

So you got to let me know

Should I stay or should I go?

Is Crowley going to stay in the bookshop with Aziraphale or is Aziraphale going to leave, Crowley then having to leave as well because the memory of Aziraphale is too strong? Should he stay at the bookshop? Or leave the bookshop because Aziraphale isn’t there. And because Aziraphale isn’t there, it doesn’t feel like home.

It's always tease tease tease

Not directly Aziraphale’s fault. Just the fact that Crowley is smitten. Aziraphale however, does tease him. He asks Crowley to dance with him. He asks to take their car. It’s their bookshop. But it’s not an us. We could have been us

You're happy when I'm on my knees

Aziraphale is happy when Crowley was an Angel. He likes it when Crowley does ‘holy’ things because to him it seems as if Crowley never really hated god, so to speak. (Early on in their relationship I more mean but also at the very end)

One day is fine and next is black

So if you want me off your back

One day they’re dining at the Ritz and the next day they’re fighting (because Aziraphale loves him but doesn’t fucking now it and is terrified of his love)

Well come on and let me know

Should I stay or should I go?

Should I stay or should I go now?

Should I stay or should I go now?

If I go there will be trouble

And if I stay it will be double

If Crowley leaves and doesn’t go to heaven, he’ll have to deal with hell. But if he stays and goes with Aziraphale to heaven, he’ll have angry angels and angry demons hunting him at every turn and he himself won’t be happy.

So come on and let me know

This indecision's buggin' me

If you don't want me, set me free

Crowley seriously does not know what their relationship is. They’re a group. A group of the two of them but Aziraphale wants heaven? He can’t have both. If Aziraphale wants heaven then he can’t keep dragging Crowley along. He has to set him free.

Exactly whom I'm supposed to be

Don't you know which clothes even fit me?

Crowley doesn’t want to be an Angel. Heaven and hell are toxic. He doesn’t want to fit into one box. He wants to be himself. Crowley wants to love Aziraphale freely without having to be under heaven or hells rule.

Come on and let me know

Should I cool it or should I blow?

Pretty self explanatory, is Crowley going to spend the rest of time with the Angel he loves, or is he going to blow up from heartbreak.

[incarnateirony]

Nothing funnier than the same people that have openly hated a show for ten years, and insulted the show for ten years, asking why they aren't being catered to by the series as it opens up into a full franchise.

Like, you guys realize, if you hate a show for 10 years and bitch about it nonstop, you're an anti, right? You don't get to claim Discerning Fan if you hate everything about the show and creatives for upwards of a decade.

Everything after that is irrelevant noise. Your opinions included. Yo, chucklefucks. TPTB doesn't have to care about the opinion of people who hate their show anyway, and they're definitely not going to pander to the people that openly hate their show.

If, perhaps, this feels like the walls closing in, maybe you should have thought about it and how you treated real people, much less how you treated the content.

But one thing TPTB is absolutely not going to do is appeal to a bunch of Show Antis that built themselves a little social hierarchy club in a convention space. Even if they have Real Powerful Fandom Friends. That shit doesn't help their profit margin. That shit doesn't help their franchise. That shit just doesn't do anything for anyone.

But after a decade of this, a literal decade, and escalations that attack their friends and family, or in the very least shit on them online 24-7, they're sitting here making confused ape noises picking their noses asking why they aren't being pandered to WHILE pretending they still have control of the conversation.

Narcissism run amok in consumers forgetting they're consumers watching the environment their false hierarchy was built in, in consumer space, go through a trash compactor to get rid of them so the new kids can have space without toxic fuckbags dragging the series.

You guys don't even pay out anymore. Most of you are Jared stans, though that's not exclusive; his M&Gs have been base for a year running and not selling out. Last J2 greet sold for less than Jensen solo. Misha's 30 is even decaying while people prioritize the 45. The only one selling REMOTELY close to how they always have is Jensen because he's relevant in All The Things And All The Interest Groups. Meanwhile meg donnelly is a huge star in the current demo and they need to let their franchise breathe, without a bunch of toxic leeches attached for the ride.

Just. Genuinely fucking hysterical they're still trying to console themselves they're being pandered to at all, whereas some of us know for a god given fact straight from Jackles what this is all for and always has been, but maybe they can push their propaganda of warped questions a few more times here at the end to feel like their fashy entitled asses are being pet and told they're still In Power or whatever.

Y'all motherfuckers have been fanning the door yelling, "I'LL LEAVE IF YOU DON'T LISTEN TO ME, REALLY, I WILL!" for a decade, and still haven't left, and they're aware as fuck about that, because now even trying to get rid of you and inviting you to hate watch, you're still missing the goddamn memo. Fucking leave already. It's been 10 years.

Even those of you not Jared stans or wincels that sold your identity into the convention circuit group identity of socialite garbage, many of which are tripling down themselves to match as a unit to match the wincels, have shit to look at. The line between bitter and anti is irrelevant in TPTB's mind, yall both toxic to the franchise, bye. They're making space for people that actually like the modern show, and aren't just there for themselves and their own attention or access.

[bibbykins]

Yo, I hope you're good and feel free to answer this whenever coz I feel like world's working against us and just dumping anything to not let us rest (with that said, my university is currently speed running it's way to finals, bro we only had like 2 fucking weeks after our prelims and then bam. 3 am here and at 11, my first exam starts :)

With that said, I'm thirsty for some toxic fiction. In silhouetted bonds, if things didn't work the way Namjoon wanted it to be, what would change? What would happen? Like I'm imagining the mc still agreeing to the plea and going back to that place but I'm imagining her that within two months, she'll suddenly ask to visit him and say that he can do whatever he wants, he can get his pricey attorney whatever, but she's done and that she wish that he'd live a happy life away from her then walk out.

Thanks for indulging me miss ma'am. 🥴😘

Ugh literally you're so right😩 im slowly finishing the other stuff I need to finish to free up some writing time and I'm like vibrating with excitement lmao! I hope things slow down for you too!! And good luck on your exams pls get some rest or promise yourself an immaculate nap after!!!

Also LMAO toxic fiction is just fun to read so I get it! First off, very bold to assume SB!MC would wish him a good life, she is violently vengeful on a good day, buuut her not falling in love with him was a very real possibility for them. If Namjoon hadn't thought of every possible word to say and every possible way she'd react and absolutely fumbled, here's how it would go down:

-He'd take a deep breathe, silence would fill the air until he speaks, "Fine. I'll never force you into anything. I'll leave you alone." They bargain back and forth until he's promised to not meddle in her life more than once. He gets one chance to make an impact on her and that's it. It all ends with him saying a simple, "You know I'll always love you, right?"

-Namjoon would, as a result of the plea bargain not being held up, get out of prison almost immediately

-And then.... nothing.

-A year, maybe two, would go by. Enough time for MC to start to feel comfortable in living life again. She might even make some friends from work, maybe even go on a date here and there because it's been nothing but crickets from Namjoon.

-She would be partially disappointed (bc she's also p unhinged) that he didn't love her as much as she said, but either way, she would move on and get a really great job as an editor for a popular newsite

-Then, only when the time is right, only when she's really found a friend that she loves, only when she's found a friend group both in and out of work that bring her joy, only when she feels like she's found a real life of her own to lead, all hell breaks loose.

-She wakes up on a Monday way earlier than usual because her phone is buzzing like crazy. Something's... wrong.

-That friend she loves so dearly? Hates her now. Their partner is lying and saying MC came onto them, and her friend believes them.

-There's nothing else MC can say, she's blocked before she can get a word in, and everyone else in the friend group feel the same. After all, she never talks about her past, how do they know anything she's said is the truth?

-She had no choice but to face them at work- well, what was her work afterall.

-Turns out, the other slew of texts were that her huge newsite company is filled to the brim with corruption. All around MC she's seen CEOs and politicians drop like flies, she knew something was going on but didn't know what, and she had hoped her workplace reporting on all these scandals just might be safe.

-Protestors scream at her and employees trailing behind her as they walk in to work. Not that she's met with anymore warmth inside with her fellow coworker friends turning their back to her.

-Her whole life in one morning and one haphazard meeting, has fallen apart. The higher-ups want her to lie, to sign off on blatant lies, to pretend nothing is wrong, but she can't. Of course, her coworkers have no problem with it. She's the only fool who walks out of the building.

-She's alone, jobless, and lost in a city that knows her better than she knows it. Once again. All of a sudden, she's 18 again. All by herself, betrayed by the people she cherished.

-A couple months go by and she can't find a job in her industry. She's been predictably black listed after writing an op-ed for a rival paper about the corruption at her old newsite. The hype for that story came abd went and now she's on her way to look at a new, cheaper, apartment to live in when she bumps into... him

-Namjoon looks her up and down, genuine surprise on his face as he greets her with a shy smile on his face.

-He insists on walking her to wherever she's going and well, in her fragile state of solitude, it's like no time has passed at all.

-The pieces fall into place pretty quickly and in no time, she's right where she should've always been. Right by his side, as his Queen.

-He doesn't lie to her when he says the only thing he did in their time apart was ensure she got an interview the first job she applied for... He decides to omit the fact that he knew it was only a matter of time before that corrupt newsite was going to suffer from the change to his leadership. He decides to omit the fact that he knew you were going to be placed on a team with a ton of liars with their own baggage. He decides to onit that fact that he was only genuinely surprised when he saw you again because he didn't expect everything to fall into place so soon 💖

The end lmao I hope this made sense???? Idk im a mess and all the couples I write are too 🤪 Thank you for the ask and good luck again!!!!!

[jaiyemourningstar91]

DONE

Since coming out to two of my, sort of life long friends--two guys who have literally become brother's to me--saved me from self non-existing...you name it. Been there with me through all my ups and downs in life, especially my adult life...all the heartbreaks, depression, etc etc---BUT. Since, coming out to them as queer (a pandemic as I consider myself *pansexual + demisexual*) and becoming more open with them about myself, my beliefs, sexuality, etc. They've kinda been acting different. More judgmental than usual.

Like we built part of our brotherhood based in hard hitting roastings and what have you. No punches pulled at times. So, when I say things are different, this goes beyond all that. And I don't know, maybe it has something to do with us all getting older. We're collectively in or around mid 30s. Life has changed for us in different ways, yet, also remained the same. As our trio has seen them both become rather successful at life and having built lives full of experiences I have never been close to. Traveling to foreign countries, marriage, successful carries, financial stability, decent family, houses with land attached, you know, the finer things in life. As best as one can get in this economy at least...

But me, well, I've always been the overweight loser of the group. Always punching upward trying to break my glass ceiling. Cool, calm, and collected. Gentle giant who always tries to be selfless. Do the right things. You name it. But, in the end, life happens. I've been through the shittiest things. All the bad luck. Everything that could go wrong, has. Bout all that hasn't happened is my own premature burial. I'm at yet another low point having lost my car out of nowhere due to engine failure. Overnight, mind you. No warning signs or anything. Lost a decent paying job, now working only making 11.50 an our at a dollar store. Management at that, which really is a just a glorified cashier to be honest. I was walking to and from, but thankfully I get rides now. Befriended by some people who apparently thought I am a "foodie" because of my weight or me simply saying I enjoy Chinese food? Whatever the case may be, I am thankful for the rides, but I also felt a little insulted. I don't even eat like that. Hell, some days I have to remind myself to. ANYWAY, sidetracked. Back to what this is about.

SO. Today, my 'brothers', well one of them insists I call him. Urgent matters. I'm like, I kinda feel like I know, but BOY did I not know the details exactly until I called.

According to them, they have spoken with their respective spouses, without my knowledge, and decided that I have two options. To move in with one of the two, leave the life I am currently working on, INCLUDING abandoning the love of life, my adopted children (doggos and cats), the friends i have made recently, my job I just started a few months ago, and my roommate too. Like everything I've known after breaking up with my toxic 13 year relationship last year. Scrap it all to apparently come live with either of them and basically pursue the same exact professions they are doing. One is a truck driver. Other is someone who works with mentally challenged children. One I can live rent free until I'm on my feet. The other, I'll have to do things, which weren't disclosed but I am assuming help around house, rent, bills, or something as I find work out there which is like 4 hours away from here. The other is about 2. But yeah...

And the reasoning...

Basically they are tired of me constantly failing at life and not being at the level they have made it to. Saying they think I'm never gonna make it without them at this point. I'll be homeless in my 60s, granted I'll make it that far. No retirement plans. Want me to break up with my boyfriend, without giving me any reasoning behind that by the way. Just straight said, break up, didn't even have the respect to use the right pronouns too, which pissed me the fuck off because I have told them to do so several times now and clearly they aren't taking shit seriously! Like I am really fucking shitty that two people who have been like brothers to me have basically said I'm hopeless, you'll never get anywhere in life unless you pick a path like this some red pill blue pill scenario. And then insinuate that the offer has an expiration as if I'm gonna be left in the fucking dust if I don't accept. Telling me there are no excuses not to pick one of their paths as if my current life has no value at all. As if don't have love here. People who depend on me. Animals too. My own ambitions set out and things I am working towards. Like fuck all that I guess, just so they can turn me into whatever the fuck they are now.

Don't get me wrong. I can see some of the sentiment, but it is the way they come across and the stipulations attached. Like what the actual fuck? And overall, the way they seem to see me now since coming out in general. Like I'm "one of them" which I caught one of them saying before in our group chat, which honestly, these days I hardly pay attention to because most times its just them chatting about all the stuff they do that I can't relate to anyway.

But gawd damn man. I'm baffled and I really think I just need to cut out the new cancer. Cold turkey. The disrespect is real. Sure, they got decent paying jobs, but trust, what goes on in they homes and all the BS they talk about ain't something I want to be around. One married with 6 kids that ain't even his, Grown at that and apparently tearing his new 300k house apart. Go figure. The other has a GF who loves him to death. Brought him into her home. Allowed him to be there while he works on his career. She makes 6 figures a year. Done got him in the same profession. Yet, he saying the moment he gets to where he wants to be, he's just gonna leave her? Really? And also apparently, she got tons of issues too. Like why would I leave the peace I have here?

I have someone in my life for ounce who isn't ripping my heart apart. I have pets. PETS! All my life I thought I was too allergic but turns out, take some allergy pills and I'm mostly ok if I am medicated. Like my life could be better with a better job and a car. Which are things that are on the horizon. It's not hopeless here. A work in progress, yes. But not something to just toss into the fucking void.

AAAAANNNNDDDDD where in the god damn FUCK was this sort of assistance when I NEEEEEDDED IT MOST!!!! I was literally about to be living out of my FUCKING CAR before I moved in where I am now, and neither one of those FUCKERS offered for me to move in or anything! One offered me to take over his apartment he was moving out of, which found out I couldn't offered anyway. That was it. Like...wtf man. All the sudden NOW, you want to be here for me to that degree and then shit on my life and basically say I'll never amount to anything if I don't accept. Homeless at 60. Wow. Fuck me getting a better job, a car, maybe even becoming a published writer, or anything else. As if this economy gonna be any better at that. It is only getting worse. We all gonna end up fucked. Even they still struggling themselves. One too many elaborate trips out the state has them crumbling.

I'm just appalled at this today. Heated. The delivery. The timing. The circumstance. The ultimatum. How I am being made to feel...The shit hurts. Now I gotta take the blade to another connection in my life and sever it. Because I don't want people in my life who apparently don't believe in me. That is the last thing I need. I am trying so fucking hard to turn things around again. It took me 9 of 13 years to finally end a depressive toxic cycle from my ex, and I lost everything because of it. My house, my car, my FUCKING kids! All because I didn't want to continue being with a cheater, a liar, and manipulative bitch! And now, after over 20years, I have to end a brotherhood.

This is why I am introverted and don't make friends anymore. This is why I don't care to date even though I am in an open relationship. People really just end up showing me they ugliness. And I am left hurt. Fuck the sentiment man. Call me worthless, like I haven't come back from the depths of suicidal depression to still be here on my own for the most fucking part. They came in with an assist, but I wouldn't went through with the shit anyway. My kids needed me. They act like they so set for life but they both secretly miserable with their lives and not where they want to be. They can deny that shit all they want to.

The audacity man. I've been through too much and come back from even more, to be considered hopeless.

One these days I'm gonna make it. And when hands are out stretched towards me, they will get nothing. I had always planned to give back to them. Fuck em now. I'll show you worthless.

[gamerezrathing]

Just a friendly reminder to be careful what you say in chat. You never know what that stranger has been through, or is currently going through. I'll admit that I got a bit emotional during this unfortunate interaction; I'm not ashamed to admit that I have human emotions.

I was already having a very rough day, and went to play a video game to decompress. Now, I know that Path of Titans official servers aren't always the best way to do so, but I've rarely had toxic encounters, and truly enjoy playing on official servers.

For those who'd rather read the screenshots, scroll to the end of the post. Just keep in mind that the summary clarifies some things that the screenshots don't.

This is a summary of what was said. No real names/usernames are mentioned in this post except for mine:

Green = EzraThing (me)

Pink = Pink1 and Pink2 (both were part of the group who unalived me)

Purple = Purple (the other member of the group who unalived me)

Red = Red (someone who had nothing to do with this, but still had to get their irrelevant words in)

Blue = Sweetheart (an innocent soul)

Orange = Random Bystander, Another Random Bystander, Antihero, and Translates To Daddy (pretty sure you can figure it out)

(Couldn't get a screenshot of this first message, but I vividly remember saying this)

Ezra: ggs to the gqint (I meant giant) carni pack that murdered an adol duck. It was a really goofy thing. Lol

You know, a light hearted, teasing joke. The whole thing made me laugh. From the sudden ambush, to the wild goose chase. But, they got me in the end, so I was saying my "ggs".

Pink1: Giant (correcting my mistake)

Pink1: Lol a sub thal and sub chicken

Pink1: And a sarco

I didn't see the "And a sarco" until after I already sent my next message. The keyboard takes up the majority of the screen whenever I go to type.

Ezra: Sarco did the most damage

Pink1: duh

Ezra: Yeah duh, What's your point?

Was getting a little frustrated at this point since I already said ggs in a light hearted way, and they were taking this into more toxic territory.

Pink1: Ur dumb for saying that lol

Pink1: 3 is a giant number guys watch out

Yeah, 3 is a giant number for a fresh adol duck that was suddenly ambushed, and murdered, by sub-adult and adult carnis. That, and I don't have very good vision in the first place.

Ezra: How is that dumb? I'm just trying to quest in peace, you guys won, I said "ggs", end of story

Pink1: Pvp is no peace

Pink1: Ggs go quest

Ezra: Okay, thanks. Bye

Accepted the permission I apparently needed from them to go back to what I was doing before, and not be bothered anymore. Apparently this group can't even manage that.

Purple: Ewww ezra you're on xbox... Now im glad i bit you - sarco

Ezra: Mind your business

Was trying to give the hint that I was already moved on and didn't want to continue their "game".

Purple: Someone is insecure

Ezra: Considering that I'm not the one holding onto this dead conversation, I highly doubt that. Lol

Purple: Ezra you seem to take this game to heart. (Didn't get the rest of this message in the screenshot) Something along the lines of "smoke something and chill".

Ezra: Literally can't smoke, but okay. Lol

What can I say? I've got fragile lungs that can barely handle me standing behind a running car. So smoking is an absolute no-go for me.

Purple: Ezra back down to 669... RIP

Okay, so? I'm an adolescent duck, how much did you think I was going to have in the first place? Move on with your life, bro.

Purple: Ezra it's okay

Bro acting like I'm the one harassing them. They didn't seem to want to leave me alone, so I decided to try to have some fun with it.

Ezra: Do you talk like this to everyone, or am I just special~

Pink2: Ezra,shut up. I'm tired of seeing your name in the chat

Ezra: Bruh, what???

Genuinely confused at wtf is going on now, and had to reread the chat a bit to make sure that I wasn't going crazy.

Ezra: I've hardly said anything, Pink2.

Purple: ezra you're very special...

Bro was just desperate for even a sliver of my attention.

Pink2: Ezra, you're ruining the peace of the server

Yeah, 'cause it's totally my fault that Pink1 and Purple, and now you, decided to harass me.

Ezra: How am I doing that?

Pink2: Existing

... Way to tell someone who has genuinely had problems with unaliving thoughts that merely existing is causing everyone problems...

This is why you don't talk to strangers this way; you never know what the other person has gone through, or is currently going through.

Red: XD

Red: Y'all savage asf XD

Way to support toxicity, Red...

Ezra: Mute me if you really don't want to hear from me anymore, Pink2.

Pink2: Too much work

Ezra: Logged on like 30 minutes ago, and I already want to kms. Exactly what I came for. Lol

Dark, sarcastic humor is my coping mechanism. I would never tell anyone to kys, but I tend to joke about kms when I experience another one of my rough depressive episode. It rarely happens anymore. It's a tough habit to break, but I'm working on it.

Random Bystander: Global Chats Wild and extra special today, huh? Lol

Ezra: Apparently

Just trying to move on at this point, and hopefully get some fun hours in the game.

Purple: Ezra shut up

Ezra: Just mute me Purple

Pink2: Ezra seek therapy

Do people not realize how expensive therapy can get? Besides, there is no fixing me; I'm broken beyond repair, bud.

Ezra: Too expensive

Red: Alcohol isn't that expensive

Way to support alcoholism, Red...

Antihero: All u shut up love of god you dirtball swine

My hero~

Another Random Bystander: whys everyone so whiney tonight

Me: No idea, Another Random Bystander

Red: It's past their bedtime XD

Way to finally say something okay to say, Red...

Purple: Antihero shut up you're on xbox

What does this person have against xboxs?

Pink2: My bad Antihero, Ezra is being disruptive

Yeah, 'cause I'm totally the one beating a dead horse until it's a fine, brown paste staining the ground...

Antihero: i have pc 2 scrub sit down

... Still my hero?

Purple: 200 is crazy

Did they forget that people spend their marks?

Antihero: thats what your pc is worth hu fat boy

I genuinely didn't see this comment until I was scrolling through the screenshots... No longer my hero. Lol

Purple: Ez report

Purple: Player Report Successful!

Purple is desperate enough for attention to grab the lowest hanging fruit possible.

Red: Xbox solid, I sold my ps5 for xbox

Way to finally say something positive, Red...

Ezra: I just wanted to come on and enjoy this game for a bit, but apparently everybody hates me

Ezra: And wants to report me for no reason (I didn't see Antihero's comment that Purple was actually responding to until after)

Red: If it makes u feel better i also hate u

Way to immediately dwell back into the toxicity, Red...

Sweetheart: (/whisper Ezra) test

They were seeing if the whisper command worked, I guess. Lol

Antihero: ill be your friend

You literally just called someone fat earlier, bud. But thanks, I guess. Lol

Translates To Daddy: I don't hate you

... Dad?

Red: Im kidding XD

Ezra: Did you think that you didn't count as everyone?

(These were both sent at almost the same time, so it may not make the most sense) I meant it more like "Did you think that you didn't count when I said 'everyone'?" ADHD go brrrrrr-

Sweetheart: (/whisper Ezra) what is even happening right now?

Sweetheart: (/whisper Ezra) I am sorry they are being so mean

Honestly, thank you so much for reaching out to check on me. It truly does mean a lot.

Red: U cant say everyone, how can I hate (Didn't catch the end of this message, either) Something along the lines of "how can I hate someone that I don't know?"

I don't know, how can you? 'Cause you clearly do, somehow. How do you talk like this to a complete stranger?

Ezra: Well you clearly do

Ezra: (/whisper Sweetheart) Don't apologize for them; it's not your fault.

I apologize if I sounded a bit harsh. I was truly just ready to log off at this point.

Sweetheart: (/whisper Ezra) I know it isn't but the toxicity is hard to watch sometimes

(Didn't get a screenshot of my last message before logging off, but this is what it essentially was. I accidentally hit send about halfway through, so the actual chat message isn't exactly like this. Lol)

Ezra: Welp, I'm getting off for the night. Congrats Pink1, Purple, Pink2, and Red for making someone's already terrible day even worse.

I logged off before I saw any responses.

Now, for those who want to read the actual screenshots, here you go (first image is a guide on what order to read them):

[calicoups]

🌿 hani’s rules!

i have the right to decline any requests if i do not want to write or feel uncomfortable writing them. i will not write things that may make me or others uncomfortable (dubcon/non-con, member x member, abuse/violence, toxic stuff, cheating, etc). i do try to mention any and all warnings within every work i post but if you think i've missed something, please don't hesitate to inbox me or comment under that post and i'll get that fixed! my works are female reader insert but i try to be as inclusive as i can! sometimes, i can't get to asks/requests quick enough due to demotivation or just out of me being busy, so please be patient with me. i write for bts, seventeen and ateez. most of my current works are on choi seungcheol of seventeen (literally just because i'm so in love with him) but please don't hesitate to send me asks about any of those three groups. lastly, my asks/requests are always open (unless otherwise stated) so don't hesitate to leave me anything, let's be friends!

[stardust-static]

Me: "I wish I had a big group of friends. I want a community of people 😔"

Also me: *literally doesn't even like people & takes forever to actually warm up to another person*

I will say that my toxic trait is that if someone isn't extremely loving towards me I assume they're probably a jerk and I won't truly like them until they show me that they actually like me. Defense mechanism if anything. I think it's 'cause my natural reaction has always been to be very loving towards people and then I got burned one too many times. So now I'm like "you don't get any of this love until you show me some!" 😂 but yeah this has only resulted in me not having many friends which is fine most of the time.

But every once in a while I go through a phase where I'm like "I want more good people in my life"... And it makes me really sad. I'm currently going through this. But yeah adult friendships are difficult. Sometimes being an adult in general is a lonely experience.

I still have hope that I'll find some more good people someday. :)

I'm going to have to leave my house more often to partake in this quest though.

[lenteur]

i really thought about whether i should leave clues or not, but i was terrible at them anyway 😭

of course, i want the people in my life to be healthy, safe & happy <3 i'm so happy your mum is there. whenever i was sick, my mum would be my angel <3 she would always feed me chicken noodle soup, bring me lots of blankets & chocolate <3

if i'm really invested in something i will stay up til 4am, i used to always be awake until like 7am when i was a teen and i would always regret it in the afternoon cause i'd be sleeping until 3pm :o i know exactly what you mean, i feel that way with a girl group i listen to. one member just outshines the rest of them and i think it's really unfair, i mean, i do think that the staff are maybe partly to blame but a lot of fans have noticed it 👀 i'm the same, i don't like drama. the only drama i like is drama in the show but if it's drama outside of it, i'm like nope. not interested.

i'm so so happyyyyy you like it!!! honestly, it meant so much but i really loved getting to know you <3 it was my favourite 🌷 you're so sweet, so so sweet 💗 pls never change, you're a lovely person ❤

oh so i'm either gonna watch the good detective or revenge of others, i'm not sure which one first. they're both kdramas <3 i think i've only seen three c-dramas (meteor garden, falling into your smile & a love so beautiful) i have a list of dramas i've watched and ones to watch and i tick them off as i go along :)

i remember you mentioning that one to me, i'm gonna watch that one after the one i watch this weekend i think....we shall see, i change my mind a lot about what i'm gonna watch

great minds think alike 💖💜

WE CAN SHARE CUSTODY 💘 i would have mentioned how GORGEOUS they were but i wanted you to see their faces first!!! 💎 OH MY GOD YOU ARE ADORABLE I LITERALLY MIGHT CRY STOP :( i have plentyyyyyy more photos of my kitties!!!! SEE BELOW

toffee tag

luna tag

oh please! you don't have to worry about your clues not being good enough. i am so bad at guessing things, even if the clues are as big as the Eiffel tower 🤣💔

the way you describe your mum is so cute and endearing 🥺💗✨ it reminds me of my relationship with my mum as well. matter of fact, we call each other guardian angel because of the way we always take care of each other ❤️ my mum is truly a gem, my treasure 💖 I'm so proud of being her daughter 💕

staying up until 7 am... don't remind me of that 😭🤧 I'd regret it so much but still do it. where's the logic? the favouritism in a group is unfortunately still a thing 💔 I just remember being a 2nd gg stan and during that era, the bias towards one particular member was blatantly obvious but I can't the one who received that treatment because they weren't the ones who wanted that to happen 😭 however, i think if you want to blame someone for that, direct your attention to the company because the idols have little to no power in the way they're promoted. I can still see that happening in this new generation (gg and bg alike) and it makes me wonder if companies did learn anything about what happened in the past 🤔 don't they remember how favouritism has torn groups apart? how it creates a toxic environment in the workplace? how most of the idols they're debuting are so young they have no idea what's normal and not normal? tldr; just stop it with the favouritism! I can understand you want to send your most popular member to make the group known but, as for everything in this world, know how to balance things... why do I keep writing novels for random subjects but I can't seem to do so when I need it the most? 😭🤧

tysm 🥰😘 I hope you don't change as well because you're amazing just the way you are (bruno mars copied me btw)

oooh! I've heard of those before hehe I hope you enjoy watching them 💘 and if you do want to talk about them, I'll pretend I've watched the show to fangirl with you 😏 oh so I see we have another thing in common? I also like to make lists of shows to watch but then I end up with a list of 6374848 shows before I even finished the first one on the list 💔 which is why now I'm only putting shows I REALLY want to watch in my list ☺️ I'm smart I know no I'm not 🚫

AAAAAAAAH IT FEELS SO GOOD TO FINALLY BE ABLE TO OFFICIALLY CALL MYSELF LUNA AND TOFFEE'S MOM/AUNT 😍🥰💘💗💕💖❤️✨ first of all, I'd like to thank heather for allowing me to share custody with her 💞 I'd also like to thank rose for hosting this wonderful event and allowing me to meet one of the most wonderful people ever 💘 and finally I'd like to give myself a pat on the back because I had some strong arguments that convinced heather 😹 (more like I forced you to share custody but we won't talk about it 😜) if you see me reblog all photos on both their tags, no you don't it is just an illusion 👀🧙🎩🪄 (putting a spell on you so you won't notice my strategy)

[dodecademons]

Not to generalize or whatever, but I'm sorry but like wtf is going on with some of the cis hets? I literally got to know this couple and the guy just... insults her? All the time? "Lovingly" he says, she just kinda lets it happen. So far i have heard him insult her looks, hygiene, weight, voice, personality, intelligence, and just overall is mean to her. They've been dating for 3 years. Girl that sounds like a toxic af relationship to me. I have NEVER (and will never) insult my partner while we were dating, and even after we broke up (except one because they were literally manipulative and gaslighty). I like to be loving not insult their literal existence like that guy does. I will tease them sure but what that is isn't teasing babe, that is reason to break up. Biggest red flag

Wild.

[just-some-random-blogger]

Bootylicious

Stray Kids Bang Chan x Idol!Reader Summary: You're known as the gym rat in your group, and quite frankly, you only have two moods: shredding or chilling. This was why when you're not asleep in between schedules, you're spotted with a male idol you happened to meet in the gym you were at that day. It's a known fact though, that you and Bang Chan are gym buddies and each other's spotter. Word Count: 2k+ Warnings: Internet toxicity, sasaengs, vulgar language, sexism, misogyny, pining, fluff, mentions of Pentagon because why not <3, etc.

A/N: Girl, i shouldn't do this but I did. It's so funny to me someone requested this cause I have recently become an exercise junkie lol. Also, if you can't tell, there is a pov shift after the cut so yeah. I also wanted to keep the reader gender neutral but I want to write about how psychotically different people treat male and female idols because that stuff aint it. It's most definitely not what anon was expecting me to write but I hope they enjoy it nonetheless.

There's compilation in YT with growing parts centered around you flexing your physical fitness and prowess. It ranges from you affectionally touring your fans, which really meant the cameraman, through the gym, introducing your trainer, and doing your routine on camera, to your group (and others) both fawning and bragging about how strong and how hot you are.

CLIP #1: A scene from an interview of your group in Japan, struggling to talk about how you can do 40 straight push ups.

There was a male interviewer in a suit you could all faintly recognize was talking about your recent Instagram post of a gym mirror selfie.

One of your youngest members smirked and in broken Japanese, cutely said, "Wah, she does 100 push ups! Everyday, every night."

You snap your head to the maknae and raise your brows, "nani?" You begin to shake your hands in protest and begin to explain your truth, "absolutely not 100. Maybe around 40, but nooooo, not 100."

The interviewer and your group comically react in awe. The man in the suit urges, "can you show us?"

You give a face, "Excuse me, but I'm not getting paid to do that in this miniskirt."

Everyone, including the film crew, break into laughter.

CLIP #2: A scene from a variety show where you had to prove you were, in fact, yourself, by doing a shortened version of your exercise routine.

One of the hosts of the show asks, "Wait, do you honestly do all of this in your workout? Like you can do all of it?"

The list of your exercises were written on a colourful cardboard, held by the one who just spoke. It was a range of exercises in 10 sets, from jumping jacks to sit ups, to vague sounding exercises like crab pinches and robot arms.

You purse your lips at the last question asked of you, not really liking the tone in which it was asked. You answer quickly and nod proudly, "I actually do more, cause when I get in the zone and I'm already really sweaty, I feel like I should keep going until my whole body burns." You chuckle.

The older hosts, tilt their head and mutter lowly under their breath something along the lines of, "I'd rather die."

You finally do the routine, quickly, continuously, earning impressed reactions from everyone.

"That's hot," one of the hosts note.

"Ya, for some reason it looks easy to do."

The hosts begin to clamour at that statement, and force whoever said to do the exact thing you did. Clearly, they don't work out as much as you do and cannot even get halfway through it without stopping.

You break out into a breathless laugh in amusement of the comical attempt but then protest, explaining how bad it is to force yourself to do more than you can

CLIP #3: Pentagon, Hongseok especially, fawns over how fit you are

Trailing a conversation about how your group is close with Pentagon because your companies are situated closely to each other and you wind up eating together a lot, there is an anecdote about how there was a jar no one could open, no one but you, that is.

The interviewer asks no one in particular, "wah, none of you could open the jar? Really? Or did you all just pretend so she could open it?"

There is a chorus of answers concluding with, "no really, she was the only one that was able to open it."

The story is backed up by how the jar had a really small lid and some hands were too big. Then came an explanation how you were recently into the new rock climbing machine in your gym.

Hongseok speaks up, "I was invited to go to rock climbing in, like, an actual rock climbing place and I was honestly so surprised when she began to climb. She said she never actually tried rock climbing on a wall, but it seemed like she had been doing it for years."

Shinwon agrees, "Right, right. I was also really curious about what they did that day," he points to Hongseok, "that I joined them one time. I never felt so out of shape in my life. I just stayed back and filmed everything."

Pentagon laughs, and then agrees that you were exceptionally fast and just super fit in all honesty.

The interviewer catches Hongseok's expression then suddenly asks, "do you like a woman like that?"

"Yeah, I like my women strong."

Then came a lot of teasing remarks from Pentagon, and a plethora of complaints from delusional fans who did not want Hongseok to ever breathe in your direction again.

With all that's been said about that, in all the parts of this series floating around in the internet, one thing remained, there was a slightly larger population of impressed fans than the still large portion of antifans who wanted nothing to do with it and only came around to hate.

It's hard not to think about it, but even the slightest back handed compliment can sometimes linger in one's mind.

And right now, as much as I kept my mind on my counting as I finished my set high knees, I couldn't help but think of how much backlash I got from posting a post workout photo with my midriff exposed.

Apparently that was not only enough to merit hate for being both a whore and an attention whore, but people baselessly began to hate on my groupmates simply for being associated with me.

It's kind of sad really, how, say Wonho, can post a fairly exposed photo of himself and get so much praise for it, and yet I couldn't even do anything remotely close to that.

And I don't even mean to come at Wonho, we all know he's a beast at the gym and should be able to show as much of his hard work as he is comfortable in showing, but why can't I?

"Hey trooper. I thought you said you were only doing 80 counts?" a voice cracks me out of my train of thought.

I turn to whom spoke and chuckle at myself as I stop my leg raises, "ah yeah, I got lost in thought, and your really good song."

I pull on my earphones and give a lopside smile, "I love working out to God's Menu."

He gives a soft, "he he, thanks."

"No need for a thank you when I'm only giving my honest opinion, Chan."

"Yeah, well still, it makes my kokoro go doki-doki," he sniggers, crossing his arms and flashing a dimpled smile. I raise my upper lip and reel back, "EWWW!"

I playfully shove him. He acts hurt, "this is violence against children."

"Chan, you're literally older than me."

"That doesn't mean I'm not a child at heart."

"You mean, it doesn't mean you're not a drama queen."

"Hey, I have no interest in having a throne, my only interest is," he leans in and whispers, "you."

I feel my soul leave my body as he snorts to himself and runs away. I regurgitate in surprise, "YA!"

"You better do your next set properly," Chan says heading off to a cable row machine, "I'm always watching."

I try to ignore the blood rushing up your neck, "creep."

He shrugs, "rather that or have you get injured, sweet heart."

Yeah, Chan has saved me from a lot of injuries I could have had. It was a bad habit. It stemmed from the same thing that made me mess up my count a while ago, my overthinking.

Sometimes I thought of rather harmless things, but sometimes I began to fixate on the hate I received for simply being. I do a lot to get my mind to realize that they hated me simply because they could and because it was easy. Exercising helped tremendously, especially when I had someone fun to work out with, especially when I was with Chan. He just... made me feel safe, y'know.

But when the news of us being work out buddies surfaced, a lot of sasaengs came for me. Of course, a lot of Stays and my own fans were really kind about, speaking out that we were our own people and exercising together did not mean anything in particular really.

But some really went for it, and made it a hobby to comment on everything I was in that I was a slut for 'working out' with different men every day."

I let out a breath as I finish my routine. I catch my breath and go for a swig of my water. I take a moment then sit down by the mirror, which was near where Chan was currently working out.

"You're doing it again."

I turn from where I was blankly staring at turn to Chan who gave me a soft look, "you good?"

I release a sigh then purse my lips, "maybe."

He pouts, "what happened?"

I shrug and stand from where I sat, "you know, the usual."

Chan then comes up to me and takes my water bottle from me, "you know, no matter how much people say you don't need water to live, you can never change the fact that you are extremely dependent on water to live."

I look at him and half- heartedly point, "are you calling me thirsty?"

He begrudgingly groans and releases a chuckle. He calls my name out in a scolding tone. I feel myself relax, "I know what you're getting at Chan."

He nods, "good. I'll always be here to remind you of that."

I smile and feel an urge to hug him, "if you weren't so sweaty, I would totally hug you right now."

Chan then gives me a look then does not hesitate to crush me into his arms. I groan and whine in protest. He chuckles, "you literally just said you wanted a hug!"

"YOU'RE LITERALLY SO SWEATY. NO ONE WANTS THIS TORTURE."

Chan huffs and gives a wounded look, "hmp. You better spot me while I lift or else I'm unfriending you."

"Hmm... I think I'll be good without you as a friend."

I half expect Chan to whine about it, but he instead smirks, "ahhhh, you must want me to be your boyfriends so badly huh."

I- I mean...

CLIP #4: A crack edit of Chan when he gets asked about his gym relationship with me in Chan's Room.

He was looking through the questions and suddenly chuckles, his ears noticeably began to redden. Cue a zoom in of his face and his red ears. Cue a clip of Cardi B saying, "that's suspicious."

He says my name then continues, "am I close with her? Yeah. I would say I'm close with her-- and her whole group actually."

Captioned: Nice save, Chris.

"The kids and I are close with her group," he says, clearing his throat.

A clip of him clearing his throat is repeated about ten times.

Chan adjust the beanie he was wearing as he thinks of what he was going to say next, "we actually do work out together a lot because she's under a trainer that works with my trainer."

Captioned: Sure, Chan. That's the only reason, right?

Chan catches another question, "Is she a beast in the gym like Hongseok says?" He breaks into a laugh. He then rubs his cheek and grits his teeth.

A clip of someone saying, "Oh he's jealous," flashes on screen.

"Yeah," Chan finally says, "she's got a really high stamina."

Cue the clip, WHAT DID HE SAY?

Chan continues, "she can go between exercises without stopping. she doesn't even take that much time to catch her breath. In fact, she sings while exercising sometimes, which helps make her vocals stable."

Captioned: Queen Tingz.

The next thing that happens is Chan breaks into a laugh and begins to chuckle. He says, "Sorry I saw a funny comment."

Captioned: WHAT HE MEANS IS HE SAW A COMMENT SAYING 'SHUT UP CHRIS, YOU'RE WHIPPED."

Then came these comments:

LITERALLY LOOK AT HOW FLUFFY BANG CHAN GETS WHEN HE TALKS ABOUT HER DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME MY SHIP IS ALIVE

They are dating period. prove me wrong. you cant

Chan literally blushes over anything, buT HE TURNED INTO A TOMATO WHEN HE TALKED ABOUT HER BYE

if you hate on your faves loving each other, you most definitely need Jesus (:

PLEASE CAN YOU SEE HOW WHIPPED THEY ARE FOR EACH OTHER

Yeah... it's not been confirmed to this day.