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[scrawlingskribbles]

when you see a song just titled "Monster" you know it's gonna be a banger lmfao

[komelrebi-san]

bodyswap! with venti

inspired by this post! by @nanaslutt @zhonglisbeloved this is for u my love 🫶🏻 tw: MDNI!!!, venti and you swap bodies lmfao, reader's own body is fem!, sub! venti dom! reader, caught masterbation, dirty talking, degredation, size kink, multiple orgasms, orgasm denial, breeding, rough!, unprotected sex (wrap before you tap kiddos!), spanking, lmk if there's more!

who knew that whopperflower honey swaps your body with the person next to you?

well, not you and venti, apparently. though you probably had it coming - whopperflowers had the ability to appear as other plants after all. though, when venti has absolutely zero solution though he's an archon and you were simply way too embarrassed to ask for help from sucrose or albedo, both of you decide to just wait it out.

but venti had other ideas. that much was proven to you when you walk into your shared room, eyes landing on venti, in your body, small fingers desperately drawing circles on your, no, his clit.

your cock hardened at the sight, your own face looking back at you in shock with flushed cheeks when venti realised that you'd caught him in the act.

'needy little slut.' you spit, walking over to him and unbuckling your pants. venti's long cock sprang up as your pants fell. you take it into your hand, hissing when a tingle ran down your spine.

'couldn't even go for a day without touching, mhm? you like touching my cunt, is that it?' venti whined at your words, hand twitching as he tried to hold himself back from touching. for sure, it was awkward to hear his voice and see his face as you talked to him, but fuck- he could feel arousal dripping out of his pussy as you spoke.

'you're dripping wet.' you remarked, walking over. 'and you couldn't even touch yourself right.' you fisted your cock with a hand while you pushed venti's hands away with the other. collecting some of his juices, you pushed 2 fingers straight into him. a loud gasp fell from his lips as your fingers reached in, the calloused finger pads from lyre-playing brushing against his g-spot, making him see stars.

oh, so this is how stimulation against that spot feels, he thought. but his thoughts are cut off abruptly when you started pumping your fingers in his cunt, curling them in a 'come here' motion that drew endless whimpers and whines from his lips.

'nngh- fu- ah!' he moaned, and fuck it was so hot hearing your voice say these words as they rolled off his tongue.

'tsk, loosen up.' you grumbled as you sped up your ministrations in his walls, leaning down to latch your mouth on his clit. venti instinctively tried to clamp his legs shut, but you'd let go of your dick to prevent him from doing so.

'C-cant- wait- fuck i'm- i'm c-cumming!' a cry ripped out of his throat as he came, the knot in his belly snapping open as he gushed all over your fingers. he felt himself clamp down on them, walls fluttering as you continued sucking on his bud. he'd squirted all over your fingers, the juices dribbling down your arm.

god, he looked so fucked out, the feeling of squirting just from your fingers too much for him to take. who knew that fucking with a cunt felt so good, mhm? you grinned at him, the sight of your flushed face looking back at you. his tongue lolled out of his mouth, drool running down the side of his chin.

taking the opportunity, you grabbed his waist and turned him over, tugging his waist up as you forced him onto his hands and knees. you rubbed your cock head on his cunt, groaning as his juices were spread over your sensitive slit.

'i- i need your cock inside me- nngh!' you don't let him finish his sentence as you pushed your cock into him in a rough thrust, bottoming out as you gripped his ass with both of your hands.

'fuck- you're so tight, shit.' you groaned. is this how he felt every time you rode him in your own body? his walls were so warm, clamping down on you and sucking you in as you pulled back out, only to snap your hips all the way in again roughly.

'fuck- make me c-cum- please, please just- nngh!' He slurred, words almost incoherent as his mind went blank due to you thrusting fast and hard into his tight pussy.

'yeah? wanna cum all over this cock? you want me to fill you up?' you swallowed, cursing under your breath as you gripped him tighter, spanking his ass cheeks when he pushes back against you to meet your hips. loud, wet squelching and sounds of skin slapping filled the room, venti's loud cries tore from his throat as tears rolled down his cheeks, hands gripping the bedsheet.

venti looked so pretty underneath you with his ass up, you had to admit. the moans that were forced out of his mouth in your voice, and the way his cunt pulsed and his walls fluttered around you.

‘yes- nngh fuck- yes- please, please i-’ venti whined, babbling words that were all jumbled together.

'fuck- look at you, you needy little whore- you've been wanting to get fucked in my body all this time, is that so? mhm?' venti couldn't even reply to your words, but the way his cunt clenched around you was enough to tell you that it's true.

with a loud cry, he came around you, juices squirting out of his squeezing pussy. you don't last long either, pushing all the way into him with a groan as you painted his insides white with your seed. as you pulled out of him, a dizzy feeling overcame you as your vision went blurry.

blinking, you rubbed your eyes and looked up, realised that you were back to your own body again when your gaze lands on venti, his face flushed as he looked down at you.

'i think we should give whopperflower honey a try again.' you piped up, tugging him down next to you as you cradled him to your chest.

[the-bloody-sadist]

in case no one else has asked, please list your top 10 BL manga/manwha? 👀

i am. very interested in what other media you enjoy, especially BL

Combining these two bc I didn't wanna leave the second out!

(I wasn't a big fan of Blood Bank personally but I'm so glad it helped you with your world building Lil Whale!!)

I'm hoping some of these are unheard of for you guys because THERE ARE SO MANY BL/YAOI AND I READ THEM CONSTANTLY BUT NOT SO MANY ARE FANTASTIC AND MIND-BLOWING AND SPECTACULAR AND DEEPLY PSYCHOLOGICAL! I'm pretty sure I'll end up listing WAY more than 10, mainly because I want to highlight ones I feel like a lot of people haven't read. ALSO because I read so fucking many of them that I've collected a stash and NOW IS MY CHANCE TO YELL ABOUT THEM.

Just a disclaimer, these are not in any sort of order, as they're all about the same level in my head, just grouped. I'll list the "big name" BLs that I adore after these! First up are the ones that either have a quiet fandom or aren't well known! Since there'll be so many, I'm not going to say much about them, just know that usually no BL/Yaoi is perfect to me, since there are many bad psychology tropes here and there or unnecessary cruelties that aren't exactly realistic etc., but overall, I like the way that the story and characters are handled and/or love the art.

Here's the top five of my top ten that's not a top ten bc there are so many (I just said I wouldn't group them but I lied my ass off apparently):

Jealousy [Scarlet Beriko]: This is one of those that emotionally hits so hard that it will stick with me forever and I will usually tear up just a tiny bit when I think back to the moments that made this one so beautiful. A lot of times a story with major hurt, angst, and tragedy won't wrap up with enough to make me scream and cheer at the end. But THIS ONE DID. And I stopped reading for a while when a big event happened because I thought it would end horribly and I'd have to suffer three weeks of fiction-induced depression for a man who wasn't even real. BUT NAY. The themes you get in this one revolve around loneliness (huge draw for me, it always hits), mafia-connected characters and the rivalries from that, self-destructive prostitution, and characters who have difficulty receiving love without freaking out. Are those even themes idk. OH WELL. YOU GET THE POINT. I want this one on my shelf. You might've heard of it, but the fandom is silent so I never did. T_T OH ALSO THE ART ON THIS ONE IS GORGEOUS I FUCKING LOVE IT.

Hitori to Hitori no 3650nichi [Hitomi]: First of all, favorite manga artist. FAVORITE MANGA ARTIST. I'm never exactly sure if the artist is also the writer or if the writer is never the artist or...BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER. Anyway! I listed this particular title because it was the first that I found by this person - but then I discovered it was a part of a bigger series, and there are like I DON'T KNOW FIVE DIFFERENT MANGA?? OR SOMETHING??? Related to this one. I don't know which order, I just know that I read them all in a frenzy. THE CHARACTERS. OH! OH THE CHARACTERS! Oh my gods, it's so good. LMFAO. The arcs these characters have are fantastic, and I loved the fact that the abuser in one is shown to be the victim of abuse in a prequel story, and that his anger issues and other elements of his personality came about to affect him and destroy him. Just...I don't recall the details, READ IT. That's all. Spectacular depictions of nuanced trauma within abusive relationships.

The Beast Must Die [Lee Hyeon Sook]: This remains one of my favorite depictions IN ANY MEDIA of a psychopath, because it's SO accurate and I'm SO fucking proud of the author for doing their research and OH MY GODS YOU GUYS IT'S ABOUT TO GET A DRAMA CD LET'S FUCKING GO! This story is so good. It's so evil. It's so psycho-thriller. It's so WELL DONE. It features a dark academia-ish secret society within a college setting who hunt people for sport, sometimes. LIKE. Come on. And the psychopath (dark hair) IS THE MAIN LOVE INTEREST! You could literally hear the summary and go "oh this is for Sadist". And I don't get a lot of those that deliver this well. SOMETIMES the art makes me twist my head a little but YOU KNOW WHAT I DO NOT CARE OKAY? It's just SO good. There's murder, there's kidnapping, and - most importantly - a main character who doesn't just DEAL with whatever the psychopath does. He's smart, he fights back, he learns to understand psychopathy to determine if he should remain with the love interest...it's fantastic. That's all. I will stop. *BANGS THE WALL*

Aporia [Seontae]: ALL HAIL THE HEALTHY BDSM RELATIONSHIPS THAT STILL HOLD TENSION AND EMOTIONAL WEIGHT AND SPEAK TO ME!!!!!!! HELLO!!!!! This is my favorite BDSM-themed story. Everything is consensual, but is everything safe??? Not when it comes to the main character's emotions and tendency to sacrifice his wellbeing for a partner. BUT NOT TO WORRY, HIS SADISTIC LOVE INTEREST IS CONSIDERATE AND ATTENTIVE AND CARES ABOUT HIS FEELINGS!! This is, perhaps, one of my favorite depictions of a REAL sadist. A real one as in a realistic, irl BDSM-relationship sadist. Someone who is just as worried about taking care of his partner as he is about hurting him JUUUUST right. ANYWAY! THAT'S ALL! READ IT! HE'S LITERALLY ME!

Royal Servant [MasterGin, Chungnyun]: Okay, we were talking about healthy BDSM in the previous one, now let's talk about TOXIC BDSM-THEMES THAT I LOVE. Lmao. DO YOU LIKE MASTER/SLAVE DYNAMICS? DO YOU LIKE STORIES WHERE THE ARC LEADS TO THE ABUSIVE MASTER EVENTUALLY LEARNING TO NOT BE ABUSIVE AND LOVE THE SLAVE? YEAH ME TOO. I DON'T NEED TO DESCRIBE THIS ANY FURTHER. AUTHOR OF ANGEL BUDDY, THIS IS THE ONE THAT I KNEW HER FOR FIRST.

A bunch of other good ones you may or may not have heard of (I won't describe every one of these unless I have something particular to say, so enjoy the pictures from them that I snatched):

Love me in the Wilderness [Wang Tao]

Neon Sign Amber [Ogeretsu Tanaka]

Zetsubou ni Nake [Shinou Ryo]: Guys. This story is UNIQUE AS HELL. I had to say something about it. The premise is that a man who was raped turns around and goes back after his rapist and rapes him back, and then they fall in love. IT'S....the amount of times my jaw dropped was insane on this one. SOMEHOW IT'S WRITTEN SO WELL. SOMEHOW THEY NAILED THE STRANGE REALISM OF IT AND HAD ME TEARING UP OVER THE INTENSITY OF THE RAPE SCENES. VERY WELL-PACED, VERY TRAUMATIC IN A GOOD WAY. HIGHLY RECOMMEND. The way they come to love each other after this crazy foundation of mutual rape is IMPRESSIVE. Kudos to the writer.

Love or Hate [Yeongha]: This is a very well-known one but there's like zero fandom so I think it fits here. Also a lot of hate going around for it? Which I never understood, fuck those guys. This remains one of the most beautifully-written that I've ever read, and I mean that purely in like...the ACTUAL writing on the page. I'm talking poetry, purple prose. I just recall being blown away by that, and no manga before or since has ever reached its level. For once I felt like the writer was also a novelist because of the way that they put things, and had a clear voice in the style. Did the main boy end up with someone I didn't want him to end up with at the end? Yes. But I felt like it fit pretty well, and it was sort of a tragedy, and it was supposed to hit you painfully in the gut. A lot of people were mad at the main character for that and I don't really think it's fair. In any case! A beautiful story with complex characters and intriguing dilemmas. Highly recommend it.

Shangri La no Tori (Birds of Shangri La) [Ranmaru Zariya]

Two in Six Billion [Denzou]

The Pizza Delivery Man and The Gold Palace [Upi]: Great story and character-building so far! I will say that once it became porn, it dove a little too heavily into it for me. Like I only needed one scene of the porn, I was enjoying the panic attack scenes much more. BUT YEAH, IT'S ONGOING, SO WE'LL SEE WHERE IT GOES! But the panic attack scenes were the reason I read it and yes, I did tear up.

Sleeping Dead and Living Dead [Asada Nemui]: I RECENTLY FOUND THIS ONE AND ADOOOOOOREEE IT SO MUCH. I DO NOT CARE THAT IT'S AN OLD SCIENTIST AND HIS ZOMBIE PATIENT. NORMALLY THAT WOULD HOLD NO SWAY OVER ME, BUT OH GODS, THE ART IS SO PRETTY AND THE STORY IS SO GOOD. I LOVE THE LITTLE ZOMBIE MAN! I LOVE THE LITTLE ROMANCE THEY'VE GOT!

Private Lessons [ANCO, Mongya]: It's cuuuuute what can I saayyyyy it has BDSM and threesomes and I liked it. Very entertaining. Scratches the BDSM itch and the little SUB WAS SO CUTE. Anyway.

Kingyo no Ubugoe [Gontaku Nido]

From Points of Three [White Eared]: Threesome dynamics!!

Silent Lover [Qiang Tang, Bai Li Jun Xi]: I STOPPED THIS ONE AT A CERTAIN POINT BECAUSE IT DIPPED INTO WEIRD M-PREG AND STUFF I CANNOT READ. But BEFORE all that, I was deeply ingrained in this one. It has a main character who can't speak (a particular weakness of mine) and he's OH SO CUTE and he's given as a sex slave basically to the emperor (emperor? idk he's a kingly man, something like that), and the emperor is evil but learns to be soft and yet it takes a LONG TIME SO I WAS BAWLING HYSTERICALLY OVER SOME OF THE HEARTWRENCHINGLY PAINFUL SCENES IN THIS FOR THE POOR YUU-ER. A good read until it decided to go the omegaverse-by-magic-potions route. I didn't stay to figure out where it actually ended up.

Yoru wa Tomodachi [Ido Gihou]

Toumei na Ai no Utsuwa [Hitomi]

Re:Birth [Misuaki Asou]: The singular omegaverse story in existence that I actually liked. Hopefully that says a lot. Mostly because it's about the omegaverse elements NOT being present for the main character and him trying to fake it because he's lonely and afraid that his partner (an alpha *shakes off the disgusting label because who the fuck thought alpha was a cool word*) will leave him if he finds out he's just a regular guy (aka beta I guess? ABO is weird idc).

Sahara no Kuro Washi [Soutome Emu]: MASTER SLAVE MASTER SLAVE---

Haru ni Kaeru [Kunieda Saika]

Incorrigible [Bbong]

Well Done! [ANCO, Mongya]

Nemuri Otoko to Koi Otoko [Zariya Ranmaru]

Even If You Don't Love Me [Pando]: It dropped off SUPER hard (it's ongoing still) but damn was it good in the beginning. I am sick and tired of where it's at currently but the psychological manipulation and the horror of a certain twist in the storyline was CRUSHING to me. I only wish that it would have gone a better way after it happened, because it slowly destroyed itself and became like a lot of tropey rape stories. The asshole just keeps being an asshole and it's not really where the story seemed to want to go with that. But otherwise, it started off strong and I'll give it kudos for that.

Bigger titles I'm pretty sure everyone has heard of that I enjoy:

Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai [Yoneda Kou]: Is it a little unrealistic that literally everyone in this story is gay apparently and wants to fuck one man apparently and/or rape him? Yes, absolutely. Does that matter once you're in the story and it's so good and all these unrealistic cruelties make a really strong bond between the main love interest and this self-destructive masochist who's probably not really a masochist but only interested in hurting himself because he doesn't know how else to handle his trauma from childhood? Ummmm yeah. Anyway! This one had a lot of inspiration and a lot of tears and a lot of obsession from me. I re-read it all the time, I watch the movie over and over, I listen to the audio drama and cry at my favorite scenes. Do I care in the end that it's a little unrealistic at times? No but I do laugh sometimes when I'm about to share it with a new person. Because BL is just like that generally and you've got to put up with a little of those tropes to find your favorite stories. THIS IS ONE OF THE TOP FAVORITES OF ALL TIME FOR ME BTW, IT'S ONLY SO LOW DOWN HERE BECAUSE PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE IN YAOI KNOWS ABOUT THIS ONE ALREADY, AND WE'RE ALL AWARE OF HOW GOOD IT IS.

ENNEAD [Mojito]: I will say that this is basically the best manga/comic/manhua...what's the Chinese word idk ANYTHING OF THIS MEDIA TYPE that I have ever read. It's not done, and people have been complaining that it's starting to fall into the common BL tropes but you know what I do NOT care. Mojito is a genius, Mojito is a master storyteller, Mojito is beautiful, Mojito is strong - I just love Mojito and this work. So much. The action, the horror of rape, the deep-set character conflicts and dilemmas and internal turmoils. Everything, nailed it. Nailed it. And not to mention it's set in FUCKING EGYPTIAN MYTHOLOGY AND THEY'RE ALL GODS AND THEY HAVE SUCH COOL BATTLES AND COSTUMES AND DUDE???? I'm so hooked. That's all.

Killing Stalking [Koogi]: OBVIOUSLY. I don't really need to say anything about this one except that yeah, some of the psychology is a little off and some of it is just super shallow. But I loved the characters and that's what mattered in the end. I fell in love with Sangwoo too and it ripped my heart out when I read the ending. I was depressed for like two weeks and it was the first story that had ever affected me that way, but I was also younger and this was one of my first yaoi/BLs and yeah. GREAT story though, fantastic storytelling, very lovable characters. Sangwoo was handled so much better than most "asshole/kidnapper/rapist" characters and I will never stop appreciating that, because a lot of writers tend to forget that your villains have to have redeeming qualities if you want us to like them (????). Jinx, I'm fucking coming for you. Suck my dick. KOOGI FTW.

Missing Love/A Married Man [In Hyerin]: Some of the DESCRIPTIONS of how trauma works especially of the sexual nature in this story are SO. SO. GOOD. However, I am beginning to grow VERY ANNOYED at where it decided to go with the most current updates of the story. The author did enough trauma to the main boy, now it's getting so incredibly excessive that it's overdoing it and the author's kinks are showing through. LIKE I GET IT. Okay? I do. But this one became too much and I need him to return to the actual story arc of going through that trauma so he can HEAL with the right person taking care of him.

MadK [Ryo Sumiyoshi]: I am into NONE of the kinks that would lead to me picking up this manga. I hate demons, I'm not a monsterfucker, I can't do extreme guro, and yet I SAW CANNIBALISM. THAT WAS THE ONE THING THAT I THOUGHT I'D GIVE IT A TRY FOR. And then accidentally I got obsessed because the plot is AMAZING and the writing is SO GOOD and who cares if I hate demons and monsters ALL OF THEM ARE BADASS AND HOT (??) AND IT CEASES TO MATTER. Good on the writer for making them appeal by personality alone and expressions and whatever else you signed a deal with the devil to make me like because it worked. Also the guro is beautiful, so it doesn't even matter. Hannibal levels.

Warehouse [Killerwhale]

Painter of the Night [Byeonduck]

Viewfinder/Finder [Yamane Ayano]

Given [Kizu Natsuki, Gusari]

Nii-Chan [Harada] (and basically every other work by Harada)

Sadistic Beauty Side Story [Geumsan Lee, Woo Yeonhui]

Dine With a Vampire [Pangin, Pinko]

Angel Buddy [Mastergin, Chungnyun]

My Partner's Tastes and Fetishes [Deok Hwa]

Interview with a Murderer [KJK]

On or Off [A1]

Steel Under Silk [Snob]

The Pawn's Revenge [Evy]: It was going to be SO GOOD! And then it dropped off harder than a boulder from a balcony and I have absolutely no idea why the author took it the way that they took it, but go off I guess. It's boring as hell now but it started off with promise and I enjoyed the art and character designs. Too bad, I suppose.

Caste Heaven [Ogawa Chise]: An old classic with all the sticky sometimes icky mostly ridiculous BL tropes but hey, it's cute. It's sexy. It's fun. I don't care.

Wet Sand [Doyak]: We're still in the beginning stage of this one but I'm excited to see where it goes! Plus the art SLAPS ASS like nobody's business.

19 Days [Old Xian]: I hate comedy, I hate fluff, I hate buddies that never become lovers, but none of that mattered when I picked this one up. The duality of man. Bite-sized chapters and ACTUALLY AN EVENTUAL ROMANCE that none of us thought we'd ever get.

Legs That Won't Walk [Black Apricot]: Although this one dropped off hard for me and I'm really just following it to see if it picks up again and does something interesting (it probably won't) I did enjoy it in the beginning. I just get tired of the "asshole just keeps being an asshole and nothing else but woobified slut keeps coming back to him??" without the strong and realistic undercurrent of Reasons Why Someone Would Come Back such as manipulation or threats or unhealthy attachment. Perhaps it was sorta there in the beginning with them but now I'm just like why are we still continuing this story.

Pearl Boy [Inking, Zoy]: *Awkwardly scratches neck* It's not the best okay? It's not. It's really not. I don't like half of the things that occur in this one, but the ART, bro. THE ART, BRO? That's what got me into it and what kept me into it, PLUS I do like little Jooha. I stayed for Jooha, too. Dooshik drives me a little batty most of the time and looks ugly for half the story to me, but when he's badass, he's pretty badass, so I can forgive him. I really don't know why he has such drastically changing appearances because I thought he was someone completely different for a bit LMAO. In any case, I have to admit I like the uhhhhh danger that Jooha gets himself into and the crazy things that make no sense but you know what he gets hurt and then there's comfort and rescue and they cry and I cease to care that it makes no sense. (Sorta, I don't actually cease to care I just laugh awkwardly and go okay sure that's how it works because it's so hard to find stories that don't do this LOL I'm beating a dead horse) BUT WHY DOES HE CUM PEARLS? WILL WE EVER KNOW? WHO THE HELL THOUGHT OF THAT AND WITHOUT A SUPPORTING MAGIC SYSTEM IN THE WORLD TO MAKE THAT MAKE SENSE? IT WENT DOWNHILL SO FAST AND THE ENDING IS TERRIBLE BTW. THE VILLAIN SUCKS.

That's it. I can't talk to much or I'll run out of words but HOPE YOU GUYS FIND SOME NEW READS!!

[flightyalrighty]

Everything you said about the Sonic movies is true and you're so real for it. I remember getting to that one part in the Knuckles show and turning it off right after because... what the hell LMFAO??

And like, I'm sure we all expect Sonic and his friends to not be 100% themselves in the movies, and I know he's supposed to be more of a kid, but them removing the core part of anti-authority is just... boring. Where is the sauce. Where is the Sonic?!

That's a part I like about your comic so far btw. Like, yes, G.U.N. SEEMED "friendly" at first, but secretly having inhibitor cuffs ready for Shadow? How these G.U.N. soldiers arresting them are totally okay with insulting him, and likely represent many more in the organization? Chef's kiss. Amazing work. BRAVO! So much shared with so little effort. I hope you're already proud of what you've written because it's so refreshing (and also just thank you for speaking up about the problematic aspects of the filmverse because its hard to find sometimes)! ❤️

You're speaking to my heart you know that? Thank you very much for this ask. Was too wiped out after work yesterday to answer it, but now that I am, I'd like to give you a big ol "YAAAAAAY" because goddamn, you're right. Where IS the sauce. Where IS the Sonic.

I think what you said at the end, "thank you for speaking up about the problematic aspects of the filmverse because its hard to find sometimes," is pretty sad. It makes me sad to think about the reasons why that might be besides general fandom nonsense.

I think that, because of that era older Sonic fans have been through in which there were a ton of youtubers and game journalists and stuff dumping a buncha bad faith criticisms into the internet about Sonic and influencing Sega/Sonic Team to change Sonic for THEIR sake, we've kinda collectively become this terrified, shaking little dog when it comes to actual GENUINE criticism regarding anything to do with this series. The Sonic fandom, from what I've seen since being here (2003) has this slight toxic positivity aspect to it. Slight.

This is pretty apparent when it comes to the Sonic movies, which are okay at best, but if anyone says this then a bunch of people are going to come marching into your inbox or comments making up a bunch of excuses as to why it's actually totally fine that there's no fleshed out women in three movies and a tv show. As one person once said to me: "Enjoy the boys and stop complaining about the girls"

Stop complaining? We complain all the time about games, why do the movies get a pass?

Well! Anyway! Thank you for reading Infested! Sonic the Hedgehog is braver than any G.U.N. soldier! Sorry for rambling!

[pistachiofiasco]

fevers, medicines, fights

Pairing: Gilbert von Obsidian x Reader Genre: fluff, comfort Words: 2832 Warnings: n/a

Also on AO3!

i finally finished this lmfao it ended up so much longer than i thought it would don't mind me everyone, i'm just happy that i'm finally working towards living my best life and it apparently starts with incredibly self-indulgent fanfics for my favourite menace to society

You could tell as the carriage slowed that your plan to maintain at least some level of dignity and grace had already fallen to pieces.

A short but pleasant trip back to Rhodolite, but a difficult journey home to Obsidian. The changeable weather and the days long travel time had left your body sore and tired, compounding into a minor fever and a not so minor headache. Recovery would likely take a few days of solid rest. It would be such an unremarkable occurrence, if the man waiting beyond the comforting dark of the carriage was anyone other than Gilbert Von Obsidian.

The soft jolt as the carriage stopped felt like a (metaphorical) nail in a (metaphorical) coffin, which somehow didn't feel so metaphorical the longer you waited to step out. The outcome was a forgone conclusion, you knew, but still. An attempt (to delay the inevitable) couldn't be held against you.

A nervous "my lady?" from outside the door told you you had to move, dizziness and queasiness be damned. Even through the dark wood of the carriage, you could feel the increasing pressure of Gilbert's presence on everyone present. He had probably already figured something was wrong.

Pushing up the latch, letting the door swing open, teeth grit against the unsteadiness as you pushed and pulled the heavy (and, made with all his (excessively jealous) love or not, currently infuriating) layers of your dress to at least let you avoid stumbling out like a drunken fool. Or worse.

One foot at a time. You can do this. Just one foot at a time.

One foot at the edge. The driver, from his position by the door, seemed to sag in relief. You spared a glance in his direction as you pressed forward, down to the carriage step, wanting to convey at least some sort of "thanks" and "sorry" and "I promise I won't let him kill you". It was too bright though; you couldn't make out his face as you squinted in the sunlight under blue Obsidian skies.

Your foot landed heavy on the metal step and you could feel your weight shift uncertainly. The tremor of it shot up through you, sending another quake through the back of your skull. Panic was curbed by grim determination. You were not going to fall on your face in front of Gilbert and all these people. You were, however, definitely going to break your heel and possibly sprain your ankle.

Momentum carried you forward and even through the heavy pulsing in your head, the rolling in your gut, and the flush of gross sticky sweat dripping down the back of your neck, you could swear you heard a collective sharp breath. A harmony of dread and despair – Gilbert truly had picked people who could read the situation very well.

Eyes on your feet, you watched with bated breath as the ground drew closer. Even the slightly glossy polished stones made you squint in a blurry glare, as you waited for the impact, the snap of the boot heel, the twist and pain of your ankle rolling. It would spare you from the sting of scrapes and cuts and humiliation at least.

The heel hit the paved stones hard and you felt the shock of it jar its way up your leg, your body, in your head. The pounding increased and the sun bore down and you could feel your teeth grit against the urge to empty your guts on the steps of the Obsidian palace.

You heard, more than felt, the snap of you boot heel. Black gloved hands, black cape, black hair were all already there before you could lose balance, before your other foot could come down to brace you. Hands holding you steady, cape blocking the gleam off paved stones, black hair as good a place as any to bury your face until the world stopped tipping and sliding in all manner of directions.

"Little rabbit."

There was a warning there, more than a question. What the point of warning you now was, you had no clue. You had already crossed the line into 'clearly not healthy and not okay', there was no point picking a fight about it now. You found you didn't have the energy to say it though, instead sighing heavily against his neck.

The black shifted, hands moving to grip you tighter, head ducking to brush hair closer. "Little rabbit." There was an edge now; you were on very thin ice. You knew what he wanted, tried to pull forth the energy to respond. You had been telling him so often to communicate when he wasn't feeling well; you couldn't be a hypocrite now. You could do this, just a few quick words, just the bare bone basics. Not feeling well, rough trip and the weather was unkind, I'm okay, I'm not lying, I'll be fine after some rest, just help me get to bed.

Later you'd wonder if you got anything other than "bed" out audibly. As it was, even through the banging of drums in your head, you could tell the air had shifted. The blazing sun felt so far away now, Gilbert's temper chilling against your sweat soaked skin. Words were said over your head, sharp and cutting and clear enough that you could see the image of his daunting smile behind closed eyes in the dark kindness of his neck. Arms moving, shifting under you to lift you like a child even with all the layers of fabric weighing you down. Against the sticky skin of your forehead, you could feel the fast beat of his pulse under his jaw.

Go to Rhodolite for visit with entourage. Write multiple letters saying you're okay. Get sick on return journey. Announce arrival by almost collapsing out of the carriage. Well done me.

Breathing deep, you tried steadying yourself in familiar smells. The medicinal tone was still there, undercutting everything, but it had become increasingly overpowered by something warmer, headier, sweeter, (healthier). Always there was a whiff of vanilla on Gilbert now, as if the delicacies he'd raided from your kitchen clung to him as evidence of his (comparatively petty) crimes.

The thought brought a smile to your lips. He'd been using your vanilla syrup. You could smell it on his breath, despite having hidden it away before you left. Bad man.

As he lifted you, you reached up to wrap your arms around his neck. You turned your head to meet his gaze, and finally get a glimpse of his face after almost a month away. You'd missed him too, after all (though he'd never be fully convinced, never fully understand just how much; how often you thought of him, wanting to show him and share with him the things that brought you joy and the things that reminded you of him. He still considered it going back to Rhodolite, after all, not coming home to Obsidian, coming home to him).

That red eye finally entered your line of sight and you felt your chest clench. There was a look there, beyond the anger ("you said you were fine, were you lying to me") and worry ("someone is going to die if this can't be fixed"). There was a panic, wholly unfamiliar to you. To him as well, it seemed. When your mind is clearer, you might be able to follow the thread of his feelings (you were always better at understanding him than himself). And you might consider how long it has been since Gilbert Von Obsidian has loved anyone, and what happened to the people he had loved before. And, most pertinently, where it had happened. But your head was still spinning, such thoughts feeling far beyond you at the moment. But you knew Gil (not The Conqueror Beast, The Worldwide Disaster, The Emperor Gilbert Von Obsidian, but Gil, just your Gil) still needed something from you.

"Gilbert." It was quieter than you intended, breathier too. You weren't aware of how you were breathing before, but the scratchiness of your throat made you realise you might have been panting. Swallowing you tried again, the sound more in focus this time, with more strength behind it. His eye never left you. "Rest with me?"

It was a question, more than a demand. What the point in either was you weren't sure; you (both) knew this man would deny you hardly anything you asked of him.

You were barely moving as he carried you, extra care being taken to not jostle you in the slightest, all the way back to his room.

A gentle kiss pressed against the skin of his neck, the smell of vanilla right under your nose, safe arms wrapped firmly around you. You were asleep before you even made it to the castle doors.

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"You're awake, little rabbit."

Turning your head, you found Gilbert set up on his side of the bed. There was a strange wooden table, L shaped, jutting over from the edge of the bed frame. Reports and paperwork were laid across it and more were stacked on his bedside table, along with an ink pot and pen (vaguely you recalled a comment you had made weeks ago, half asleep, curled into his chest, holding on to him as he made to move to his desk. You had told him to make a table that wouldn't require him to leave the bed and he had laughed ecstatically as he attempted to peal your fingers from his shirt (you both knew he could have easily broken away from you, you both knew that he was exceptionally delighted at your display of clinginess, and you both knew that he would – lovingly – hold it over your head and you would – lovingly – deny any memory of it)).

Looking back at him, you watched as he pushed the table, turning it away from the bed (he had added a rotating hinge to it, of course he had, the show-off). He shifted back to you, leaning over to brush back some of the hair stuck to your face.

He was moving gently, more gently than you'd ever seen him. You smiled at him, calling his name and reaching for him, and watched as he breathed out a deep breath, shoulders relaxing.  The shadows under his eyes were darker than usual. Well, eye. The eyepatch was in place.

"Are you okay?" You reached out to him, hands finding his neck to play with the black strands there. The aching stiffness in your body and the heaviness in your limbs suggested you had been lying here for definitely more than just a day. He looked vaguely unamused at the question; his usual smile had a slight tilt to it that you could tell was fondness, with just a hint of exasperation. Clearly in no rush to answer, he fiddled with the stands of your hair, adjusted your duvet. He didn't seem mad at least and he wasn't throwing out threats of conquering nations so he wasn't sulking either. As he made eye contact with you again, his smile turned somewhat rueful.

"You, little rabbit, are a terrible patient."

"Excuse me?" That hadn't been what you were expecting.

"You sulked every time I asked you to eat something and you refused to take your medicine. You wouldn't listen to me even though I was clearly trying to help you."

Pot meet kettle, anyone?!

You stared at him, trying to parse if this was a joke or jibe, payback for sleeping for too long. He was still brushing your hair back, smile in place. Squinting, you read the lines of his face, his eyes, his lips. He wasn't joking.

Oh, you little...

"Well..." you said, and his one neat eyebrow went up at the sickeningly sweet tone, “now we both know what that's like, don't we?" Your tone was something of a surprise to both of you, with more attitude and more needling than you had intended. Maybe you were slightly offended. Briefly, you wondered if you might have cause to regret this confrontation. He seemed to find it incredibly amusing, lips widening into something more genuine (more childish, like having a spat with his significant other was enough for him to be having the time of his life).

"Are you calling me difficult, little rabbit?" He leaned in further, hovering over you on the bed. He meant to intimidate, certainly, and on another topic you might have backed down. But Gilbert von Obsidian called you a 'difficult patient' and that was not a fight you would run from.

"Well, you're no peach, that's for sure." You tone was dry, nose turned up and, taking a leaf out of his book, you raised one eyebrow back at him.

"That's incredibly hurtful, little rabbit. And after all the effort I went to to help you recover."

You could have caved, softened, and thanked him for clearly watching over you the entire time you were bedridden (there was still a tension, etched in the lines of his neck and shoulders, from worry he wouldn't easily own to – your heart clenched at the idea of what he might have felt sitting and waiting beside you, what memories it might have dragged up). But you were still a bit miffed and his smile was brighter with every word you said, so today you wouldn't give in so easily.

"Oh yes, I'm sure you went through so much looking after little old me."

"Are you mocking my efforts to help you, little rabbit?"

"Are you mocking mine, Your Majesty?"

You stared at each other in silence, eyes narrowed in challenge. Maybe it was the lingering effects of the fever or the still present heaviness across your body and your head. Or maybe you were just having that much fun in this quiet moment with your not-yet-husband(-but-definitely-eventually-going-to-be). There was a quiver on your lips that his eye immediately dropped to and there was no helping the laughter bubbling beneath your next words. "Walter likes me better anyway."

His eye went wide, mouth just slightly open in the Gilbert equivalent of jaw dropped. You had very genuinely surprised him with that one and it was so very rare to see this man speechless. You took in the expression for just a moment, before rolling away, attempting to muffle the snort that you knew you couldn't stop. He would never let you get far though.

As you buried your face in your pillow, you felt the bed shift as Gilbert lunged for you. Deft fingers and evasive hands grasped you, finding that spot on your side that made you shriek with laughter. He was persistent too, half pinning you down as you yelled his name and reached back to try push him away. Tears leaked from your eyes as he pulled you back towards him, turning you in the circle of his arms, still unrelenting, his face a blur of malicious glee. You gripped his fingers, crying for mercy as he finally stopped. You blinked away tears to stare up at him, hovering over you once again, looking exceptionally pleased with himself, with his grin stretched to face splitting proportions.

Reaching up the cup his cheeks gently, you brushed under his eyes, trailing over the new dark circles and creases there. You felt your chest swell once again with how much affection you had for this man, and with the knowledge of just how precious you were to him. You didn't even need to consider everything - just the look on his face was enough. His eye was sparkling, even in his own shadow, and his smile was softer, sweeter; this expression was the most 'truth' that Gilbert could ever offer you. He said nothing, content to watch and rest his face in your palms, enjoying the light pressure of your fingers moving across his face, down his nose, against his lips. He couldn't help take a little nip, quick and sharp enough to hurt surely, but you didn't even flinch.

"...Thank you, Gil, for taking care of me."

Your tone might have been too sincere, too loaded with everything else you wanted to say but didn't have the words for. Perhaps if your feelings weren't so strong, didn't sometimes make it hard to breathe when you so much as thought of him, it might have been easier for the words to leave your mouth. But as it was, you found them, so many thoughts and feelings clambering to get out, stuck in your throat. Gilbert knew you, better than anyone else (though Mr Akatsuki and Rio would strongly disagree). Gilbert recognised everything you wanted to say, all of it culminating in three tiny little words ("I love you I love you I love you") that you pressed against his lips.

He kissed you short and sweet and you kissed him soft and warm. Again and again, until he hummed and pulled back to smile at you again, brilliant and dazzling and radiant.

idk if this makes sense to anyone else but sometimes canon!MC is a little too puppy-coded for me and i need a more cat-coded interactions (but that might just be me who knows)

gilbert taglist: @scummy-writes

[theerurishipper]

Welcome to me watching the Paris special, this time with commentary! I watched the special and wrote down everything here as I watched it and forgot to post it cause I'm a dumbass. Also, this is long asf, in fact, it's so long that I had to make a Part 2.

Okay here goes!

Ah, the Gabriel version of the theme. This really took me by surprise. It's fire tho.

Straight into the action, I like it.

Max and Markov aren't different people in this?

That's some entrance from Shady and Claw, really ups the stakes. Makes you wonder why Nino tried to fight them with a nerf gun.

Ubiquity is so pretty.

I might be the only one who liked the Gabe scene we got.

Feeling some nostalgia for the candy cane cosplay ngl.

And we get a good scene with Adrien and Plagg. I liked the advice Plagg gave about how not all destruction is bad. Neat.

Some Alya and Marinette. Marinette is going through some tough times and is in need of support, and Tikki takes this opportunity to escape from her and steal macaroons. No hate tho, you do you Tikki.

Though she does react to the people of Paris cheering for Ladybug. That was sweet.

Alya turns into Ubiquity, and then we get... Betterfly.

Betterfly? Seriously? Coulda just gone with Hesperia.

"I'm not sure there's anything to hope for from Ladybug." My poor baby!

Love the look of absolute confusion on Alya's face.

Hesperia's confusion about his evil counterpart is really funny ngl.

SHADYBUG

"There, you can have your boyfriend back~" love the delivery on that line lmao.

But also, CLAW NOIR

Not her just stealing his belt immediately.

Marinette hates Adrien Agreste. This truly is the reverse world.

But also, I love Claw Noir pretending to be his own fan to impress Shadybug.

Claw Noir sure does love using that Cataclysm.

For someone who just woke up to see her friend gone and a hole in the wall, Alya collected herself pretty damn quick. I would be freaking the fuck out in her position. Just another reason she's the best.

RIP Alya's phone. Gabe really did a number on you.

Shadybug makes a butterfly tracker, proving that she ain't no Gabe.

Hesperia is befuddled by our world, Part 2.

It's always gotta be the Eiffel Tower, doesn't it.

Claw Noir's pulling a Chat Blanc?? Hello??

Hesperia (I'm not gonna call him Betterfly) is apparently a gentleman. It's almost disturbing after 5 seasons of Gabe being the worst piece of shit to grace our screens.

I guess no matter the universe and moral alignment, it's Gabriel's fate to get beaten up by teenagers.

Not Tikki loredumping about parallel universes right now lmao

Times like this remind me that Tikki is, for all intents and purposes, a god.

"You'd die before I could ever explain all this to you," is actually a pretty valid (and disturbingly hilarious) justification for not having bothered to bring any of this up before.

The Supreme is someone I'd like to learn more about. I've narrowed the suspects down to either Fu or Su-Han. Watch it be Lila instead if we ever get that info.

I feel like the info about the timers is something we should have gotten way, way earlier. Like, a few seasons ago.

Ladybug's triumphant entrance!

"Whatever, pest." Queen.

I love Claw Noir's staff.

Shadybug took no prisoners at all.

CHAT NOIR

Destruction vibes, and right after that incident too.

Claw Noir is unhinged.

Claw Noir just fucking cataclysmed himself??? Guess Adrien is always gonna be self-destructive in every universe huh?

Welp, looks like Chat Noir is officially re-traumatized.

I want y'all to remember that this boy went through the whole special with a cataclysm wound on his person and did not falter once. Mad respect.

Chat Noir got tossed. Chat Blanc call back number 2.

Obsessed with the way Bryce Papenbrook pronounces "cockroach."

Finally, a villain who actually gets rid of the Lucky Charm. Hawkie, take notes.

"Who the cat are you?"

So Shadybug can create whatever Lucky Charm she wants, huh?

Someone's been listening to the fandom.

Not the time freezing lmfao

I don't like that Gabe is turning Adrien into an angel, even if this is a good version. Anyway, Chat Blanc call back 3.

"Kitty catty" "Later loser!" I love her.

Of course, not all bugs can fly.

He moved out of the way.

I fucking love Claw Noir so much you guys, he's so funny.

Well, he tried. Shadybug's just better than him ig.

Hesperia stores his butterfly in his cane. So it's just our Gabe that tries to keep multiple butterflies, I guess.

I think they should kiss.

So they're doing this in hopes that The Supreme spares them? Interesting, and pretty sad.

They're so scared of the Akuma lmfao

If I was Alya, I'd have given myself away by now. Actually, I wouldn't have had the presence of mind to even hide.

Guess the counterparts are from some dystopian world ruled by The Supreme. It tracks with the look we got at it in the opening.

"In order to get something I wanted." We saw the Peacock Miraculous in the opening too, and also Emilie died. So I guess Adrien is a Sentimonster in the other reality too. Damn it.

I guess this Gabe realized his mistake instead of descending into madness like ours.

She just broke Marinette's box like it was nothing. So much for that.

Claw Noir lounges around playing with dolls and mocks Shadybug for being lazy while she does all the work and he lazes around. Have I mentioned yet that I love him?

Also I am glad they stayed true to Adrien's character and had him play with dolls.

The whole part about Chat Noir... be still my Ladynoir heart.

Love how they incorporated the webisodes into this. About time those had relevance.

Shadybug really "hates" Claw Noir.

Marinette's having doubts, my poor baby girl.

Shadybug and Claw Noir have power, but not their strength. That's a really good line.

She's reading the diary and crying... baby.

This is such a touching scene. I don't say that lightly, but it really is.

SHE FOUND THE WISH

Marinette really wrote down every single world ending secret in this one poorly protected diary huh.

She literally took him down in 2 seconds. Bruh.

IDENTITY REVEAL! THIS IS NOT A DRILL, I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A DRILL

Shadybug managed to achieve in 2 seconds what Marinette and Adrien have not achieved after 5 seasons of Love Square drama which I admittedly enjoy but that's not the point.

Those strange... marks? Cracks? Scars?

Blots off... I'm dying y'all.

Reverse Love Square? Hello??? HELLO???

She literally just beat his ass, tied him up and took his Miraculous and this is his reaction once he realizes who she is.

He's down so bad.

They should have played Careless Whisper here.

CUTIE PIE, MY SON

The Supreme is such a fucking asshole, he gagged the Kwamis.

Emonette wants our Marinette's life? She doesn't know the half of what she's getting into.

The Supreme got to the wish somehow? What the fuck?

"Reality is The Supreme." I don't know who this guy is, but he is DELULU.

This shot... masterfully done. My poor baby girl.

These kids are not okay. My poor sweet babies.

Daggers out. Seriously, stop it, you two.

He's trying to comfort her. They're just... I'm in pain. I'm so sad for them y'all.

Gabe in his prototype Monarch outfit.

Good thing (for him at least) he had the Ox, or else this would be his second cataclysm of the day.

Ladybug and Chat Noir are back in action, baby.

I'm sorry, I would not be able to say Betterfly unironically without bursting into laughter.

AFTER 5 SEASONS, WE FINALLY GET TO SEE CHAT NOIR'S NIGHT VISION AGAIN

Not that they needed it lmao

Alya coming in clutch with the recording. Queen.

LADYNOIR LADYNOIR LADYNOIR

It's so so so nice to see Ladynoir on screen again after Season 5 killed it.

Hit the word limit, so continued here.

[prettypinkporkchop]

IM ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED WITH HOW THE WOLVES WOULD ACT IF YOU ARE ALTERNATIVE!!! (me. I am ALTERNATIVE. Grunge. Pookie.)

Here's one with Embry

I know I'm alive

Summary: Hey alternative/goth/grunge/eno pookie! Edward and Bella are getting married. Embry wants to keep you out of the chaos. How does he do that?

Warning: language, smut, Deftones Coded

Song: Beauty School - Deftones

"I watch you taste it. I see your face. And I know I'm alive. You're shooting stars. From the barrel of your eyes."

Embry grabs your wrist, making you jump and take out your earpod. You drop your attempted knitted blanket. You're trying here, lol.

"Hm?" You look at him.

"Sorry to interrupt you, babe. Sam called. Bullshit meeting with the Cullens." He smiles and then sits beside you on the bed.

"Mm. Of course. Is it about the wedding?" You snort.

"Yup. Imagine marrying a dead man." Embry chuckles and grabs onto you, biting your shoulder softly.

You squeeze into his body. "If you were dead, I'd still be with you." You look over at his face.

"I'd be with you, too.." his face lifts into a smile. "Imprint." He winks.

You giggle and shake your head. "Go to the meeting. I'll be here." You kiss his nose.

He scrunches his face and then stands up.

----

You finish cleaning the house when your phone dings. You check it.

Kim: GIRL! Apparently we are going to the wedding. I have no clue why. Time to go dress shopping I guess. Unless I wear my prom dress from senior year lol.

You: I don't wannnnaaaaaa. Lol plz help.

Kim: trust me. I know. What's that song you showed me? I wanna quote it. It's like uh.. "fuck that fuck that" corn?

You: LMFAO A FOR EFFORT. I LOVE YOU.

After a while, Embry opens the door and you stare at him with a blank face.

"I know. Come on, let's go get you a dress." He sighs.

You two go shopping and you end up getting this dress: (this what I pick but you can choose whatever)

"Do I look ugly in this?" You ask Embry as you two walk to Seth, who is standing near the cake. You adjust it a bit, pulling it down.

"Uh, uh. Shut up." He wraps an arm around you, his hand gripping your waist.

You guys make it to Seth, who's eyeing the cake.

"Hungry, kid?" Embry laughs.

"Yes, but the cake is so fancy. I'll feel bad eating it." Seth laughs.

Embry lets you go and looks towards the trees. "Jake is here." He says.

He walks toward him, leaving you next to Seth. Seth shrugs at you and then wraps his arm in yours.

"Want to find some chairs? I think it's about to start."

"Sure." You smile.

Before you two walk toward the chairs, you hear commotion in the woods. Seth keeps a hold of your arm and you quickly walk that way.

There stands Jacob and Bella. Sam is yelling at Jacob. Embry stands there with a sad face. He looks over at you and motions you to stand by him. You walk over to him and Jacob runs off.

"Sex with a vampire." He whispers in your ear.

This shocks you. How could they be so stupid? "I'm going to go find Kimmy.." You sigh.

"No, ma'am. Stay by me.after this, I'm on guard." He whispers.

----

You decide to leave the wedding with the girls. It's an awkward car ride. It's silent.

"How about we listen to something to lighten the mood." Emily says.

Kim who sits in the back beside you, turns her head to you and smiles. "Korn?" She asks.

"Let's get our anger out." Rachel in the passenger seat agrees.

"Come on, Kim. Let's try something different. Ever heard of Deftones?" You raise an eyebrow at her.

"I think Jared likes them." She says.

Emily connects your phone to Bluetooth, and you end up playing My Own Summer (Shove It). Emily is nodding her head to It. Rachel is tapping her hand on the console. Kim is dramatically head banging.

"All I understand is 'shut it shut it shut it', and that's how I feel!" She screams over the song.

You laugh and then turn your phone to her, showing her the title.

"Oh! I'll pretend it's shut it!" She laughs.

----

Embry finally makes it home. You're already comfortable in your pajamas and laying on the bed, knitting.

Pajamas: (what I envision)

Embry opens the bedroom door, and he has his hands behind his back. He's smiling mischievously.

"Uh oh, what you got?" You eye him.

"Open your hand."

You lift out both of your hands, cupping them. He leans forward and drops it.

Eyeliner!!!!

"I found it in the truck. I remember you've been looking for it." He smiles.

"Eek! Thank you, hottie!" You jump up on your knees and wrap your arms around his neck. You pull him down on top of you.

"Damn, tiger." He chuckles and kisses you.

You kiss him back softly and wrap your legs around him. Because of that, you feel him get hard. You decide to fuck with him and push yourself up against him. He growls in your mouth and grabs your sides roughly. His fingers dig deep and you know it'll bruise.

He pulls away and looks down at you. "Let's forget about everything." He whispers.

You quickly nod your head and pull him back down to kiss you. His hands reach up and pull your shirt up. You briefly pull back from his lips to take off your shirt. He reaches up and grabs your breasts, groping them roughly. You groan and move your hands down to unbutton his jeans. He lifts up, letting you do that, and throws his shirt off. You've got them unbuttoned, so he pulls them down. He lowers himself and pulls off your pants and panties.

He grabs your knees and pulls them apart. He wastes no time to lick up and down your folds. You become a moaning mess and grab onto his hair. He pushes two fingers inside of you and sucks your clit. Being his for a while now, he knows what to do to you. Once he knows that you're about to finish, he pulls away.

"UGH! Babe!" You cry out.

He responds by lining himself up to you and pushing inside.

----

You're at Emily's because everyone is trying to calm down after everything. Bella and Edward are on their honeymoon, and Jacob isn't having it. Poor guy isn't even there to hang out.

"Y/n! I need your help!" Emily calls from the bathroom.

You get up from the couch and walk in there. She's just standing there.

"Yes?"

"Can you tell me if the bathroom stinks?" She asks.

"Uh? What? It smells like.. lemons. Why did you need my help?" You say confused.

"Okay! Great! Let's go back out there."

She opens the door, and you follow her out of the bathroom and into the living room. Embry is standing up, and everyone else is sitting around. You see Rachel has her phone out recording.

"What's going on?" You ask.

Embry takes your hands and looks into your eyes. "I love you so much. I'm so happy to take care of you and have you. You are so gentle, funny, and sweet, and you're a sexy rocker." He chuckles.

Your heart pounds, and you realize what's going on. Before he even says anything else, you smile, and tears threaten to fall.

Embry smiles and takes your face in his hands. "I'm going to cry if you do." His eyes water just a tad.

He bends down on one knee and pulls out a coffin ring box. He opens the top and the prettiest ring is presented to you.

"Y/n, will you marry me?" He looks up st you, hopeful. He sniffles a bit.

"Yes." You say softly, and tears start to fall.

Everyone cheers and embry stands up, puts the ring on your finger, and then hugs you tightly.

"Oh my God, I love you." He breathes out in your neck.

"I love you, too, Embry." You rub his back.

----

"I can't believe I'm doing this." Embry laughs while the tattoo gun vibrates his chest.

You sit in the chair beside him, feeling the ink embedding in your skin.

"These are so cute. I'm jealous." The girl tattooing you says.

"My wife and I have matching tats, too. It's super fun and meaningful getting these." The guy doing Embry's says.

"I know! I'm so excited!" You squeak.

"Damn, dude. Your tattoo is... how is it healing? I'm confused." The tattoo artist asks Embry.

"I'm not sure. My other one did this, too." Embry plays it off.

"Well, at least you know it'll heal well." He smiles up at him.

You gasp in the mirror. "It's so fucking cute!" You giggle.

Embey stands next to you and observes his. "I feel badass." He snorts.

You lean up and kiss his cheek. "Thank you, baby."

----

"No! You're not going!" You scream at Embry who is trying not to cry.

"I have to! It's my duty!" He takes a step closer to you.

"No! Fuck this. You're staying here. I don't give a shit about a fucking demon baby, I don't care! You're going to die in that battle!" You scream and sob.

"Baby, I won't. I'm strong and I promise to come home-" , he reaches to grab you but you push him off.

He stands there in shock at what you did. He blinks a few times.

"WHAT HAPPENED TO FORGETTING?" You scream.

"I meant it. I didn't know this would happen."

"Embry Call. You're hurting me." You cry.

-----

You stare out blankly from the kitchen table. It's been days. You've barely functioned. You know Kim and Rachel are in the same boat. Emily has been keeping it inside, but you know she is just as afraid.

Your eyes finally move to the window, and you see it's dark out. You don't remember what time you sat down at the table. You haven't eaten.

A knock on the door startles you. It's just Emily. She's been checking on you, Kim, and Rachel. You stand up and open the door.

It's him.

He looks up from the ground, and his eyes pierce into yours. "I kept my word."

"Embry!" You scream and start crying. You jump onto him, and he holds you tightly. He kicks the door shut and brings you into the bedroom. He plops you down onto the bed and looks down at you.

"I see your face, and I know I'm alive." He quotes Deftones.

[an-actual-attack-helicopter]

Book 6, Episode 4: The Starscraper Analysis/Commentary

Callum: "It's strangely warm, yet cool and tingly at the same time."

Rayla: "That's called pissing your pants."

Then Callum reads "Orior ascendo scando" which google translate says means "I go up and climb." The next phrase he says supposedly translates to "raise, raise, raise." Latin nerds, correct me if, by some miracle, you're here.

Apparently Terry is still collecting sticks. I thought he stopped once he finished Claudia's wooden leg. I'm gonna try and figure out why he's doing this.

I'm still unclear on why Claudia is so adamant to help Aaravos. I guess maybe she would feel bad if she didn't pay him back but like. She kills innocent creatures to make magic pancakes.

karim looks like an edgy viren with the scarf thing and hobo vibes lmfao

I find it interesting that Kosmo has his handslike this so often. Perhaps it indicates that he has more devotion or something.

Also dude the celestial elves are basically just a glorified cult. I dont blame em, I worship a star too. a Fallen Star, specifically.

8 little star thingies at the top, and 8 staffs (probably).

So yeah, 7 staffs identical to viren's and one empty slot. That's likely the one Aaravos (or some other "Great One" ig) gave Ziard.

As for the little colored gemstones in each staff, I don't think they are related to the Primals. They could, however, be the same sort of magic gems that we saw in season 4. The writers took valuable runtime to explain all the gems' names to the audience. They could have just left it at Moon Opals. But these staffs having primal gems would be a good reason to have named all of them in season 4. Still not convinced? Bro, by the end of the season it's straight up revealed that Viren's staff contains a Quasar Diamond. So yeah, I'm pretty confident in this.

Anyways, the elder dude reveals that they gave the Novablade to a brave human girl. Definitely the Orphan Queen. I heard some interesting speculation that maybe Ezran will find the Novablade hidden in the vaults of Katolis or something. 'Cause I think the Orphan Queen is his ancestor. Ooooh maybe she is where we'll get the explanation for Ezrans animal telepathy.

Wait, are they immortal or can they just live for a super long time? In the wiki i remember it saying it was the former. Maybe mortals just say they live forever because it's so long. Either way, a reductive statement. Leola clearly didn't live forever-

btw here is confirmation that Great Ones = Startouch Elves, just for like the 6 people who were unsure lol

I FUCKING S W E A R THIS IS A GOOD OMENS REFERENCE

[kiwiana-writes]

Writing Patterns

Thanks for the tag @songliili!

Rules: list the first line(s) of your last 10 posted fics and see if there's a pattern!

Excluding podfics, here we go...

Henry is more moist than he's ever been. [x]

By the time the car door clicks before swinging open, Henry’s palms are sweating. [x]

Henry has, for as long as he can remember, utterly and completely lost his ability to function around obscenely beautiful men. [x]

Henry is sure he’s had worse days than this. [x]

The morning after Alex’s twenty-first birthday, his mom calls him into the library after breakfast. [x]

Henry, Please find attached the list of collective bargaining agreement breaches reported by the Sports and Recreation Floor in December. [x]

“Don’t quit your day job, Henry,” Jessie tells him doubtfully as she peers across the table at Henry’s, frankly, incredibly poor attempt at today’s craft project. [x]

Henry is, he thinks, fast becoming knowledgeable in the somewhat perplexing sport of ice hockey. [x]

When the call ends, Alex barely refrains from throwing his phone across the room. [x]

It’s a rare weekend where they have a game on Sunday night instead of Saturday, and Alex is making the most of it by actually attending a house party for once. [x]

Patterns... (mostly excluding baked goods porn I can't believe that's currently number one on this list lmfao)

A pretty even split of Henry (6) to Alex (4) POV, which reflects my overall stats as well (weird considering I'm way more comfortable in Alex's POV lol)

Apparently I really like to start fics not in medias res but very much as part of a bigger story

There are some decent opening hooks in here, I'm surprised, I don't think of that as a strong suit

You know whose POV we're in from the first sentence of every one of these, which is nice

Only one of these ten has dialogue in the first line, which is also kind of a surprise.

That's all I can think of... anything else y'all notice?

Tagging @anincompletelist @cha-melodius @clottedcreamfudge @cricketnationrise @dumbpeachjuice @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @myheartalivewrites @orchidscript @rmd-writes @sparklepocalypse and anyone else who wants to play; I can never remember who likes to play these, apologies.

[dehvoursarc]

SHIPPING INFO. Answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

What’s your OTP for your Muse(s)?

avenchi and wriochi. and it's all shrimpy's fault LMFAO.

What are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

I mean. I'm not super picky. I have a few specific ships I won't do, but other than that, I'm open. I don't mind crossover ships, rarepairs, ships with muses who don't meet in canon. My thing is, as long as there is chemistry between the muses. I won't change how I write my muses for a ship. I also don't mind darker or 'messy' ships, especially since, with ch.ilde, uhhhhh *gestures at it*

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

my hard line is muses under 18. it is in its early 20s so that's a no. other than that, with this muse, i'm not really super picky? especially since this is a fantasy world where there are 500+ year old beings.

Are you selective when shipping?

I would say yes. I like there to be a dynamic that lets us both explore our muses. I love building plots and developing them together, because that's what really hooks me with ships. It's why I do tend to limit how many of a certain ship I write, because I want to make each dynamic unique and give the other mun's muse attention as their muse, and all the individual thought they put into it. In the same vein, I don't really enjoy feeling 'collected', or that the same plots are being reused with my muse that are being used for others. I want to create something together. So I tend to mostly feel comfortable shipping with those I know are willing to do that with me, and who will respect my portrayal, and who will let me gush to them about our muses.

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

uhhhhhm. I honestly have no idea, I tend to tag suggestive with any sort of making out, and nsfw when the clothing comes off, mostly to be safe bc I struggle knowing what others consider nsfw. hashtag bible belt life.

Who are other muses you ship your muse with?

idk what I did with my ship tier LMFAO but. other biases include lumine, lyney, thoma, and kaeya. though I am also a sucker for yoimiya and ganyu, and a writing partner got me hooked on navichi, because ch.ilde is weak for compassionate, badass ladies, apparently

Does one have to ask to ship with you?

yes pls because I need you to whack me over the head with it, I am dense as fuck and I will not pick up on hints you want to ship.

How often do you like to ship?

I do enjoy it, but like I said, I need that chemistry between both muses and mun. I'm here to have fun

Are you multiship?

yes. I only will do ship exclusives in rare cases (ie, for other muns I talk to and trust/vibe well with, and with whom we've created a well-fleshed out dynamic that me and my muse get very attached to)

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

ehhhh, kinda? I don't go looking to ship to start out, but if it happens, I do very much get invested.

What is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

wriochi..... also not this blog but aster has me hooked on skk so bad i'm crying over them on the daily

Finally, how does one ship with you?

if we've had some interactions and you're interested: tell me!! I love talking about it, but,, I also need that communication. I really enjoy creating those stories, but only when we're both invested in it and having fun. I love rambling and bouncing ideas off each other, but I need to be comfortable enough with someone to be able to do that. my adhd brain will go nuts, and I bring a lot of energy to the table, but I also very easily feel annoying, so that chemistry between muns helps a lot tbh.

I stole this from the dash so go ham and yoink it if you want.

[lilflowerpot]

hello again~

I'm here to ask a question about LoZ. so, I have a friend who plays and recommended it to me because she knows I love open world games and breath of the wild is (apparently) one of the best open world games ever and I've been hesitating ever since. she might be a little biased tho lol

and like. there's a sale going on right now for botw, so the recommendation just kind made itself known in my memory again

anyway so, basically I'm here to ask if it'll be worth it? I mean, the general consensus wherever I go seems to be 'amazing, go get it u won't regret it'

(and, this is totally optional, but if you could answer asap that would be great because idk when the sale ends, thank you)

p.s I love little blade. you're amazing

I think it's obvious by now that I am a //massive// Zelda fan so tbh I'm likely no less bias than your friend lmfao, but that being said I'm going to try and give as balanced a response as possible!

Pros

BotW is beautiful, and I mean b e a u t i f u l . The graphics have this lovely watercolour quality to them as an ode to the artstyle used in Skyward Sword, but more crisp & refined. Unlike a lot of the big open world games (looking at you skyrim) BotW doesn't sacrifice colour or try to be "gritty", but rather leans into that soft-apocalypse, studio ghibli vibe.

The narrative is equally lovely and fulfilling, and depending upon what order you collect Link's memories in you will likely have a different gameplay experience. You'll also meet a lovable cast of characters to whom you'll end up unreasonably attached, which will ultimately break your heart in the end,,, I apologise in advance, but I promise you it's worth the pain.

On that note, do it for my bitch-ass bird son. You'll know him when you meet him.

Link can jump. This will mean very little to you if you've not played a LoZ game before, but my boy can fucking JUMP.

You can also climb pretty much everything (bar like one specific material) which means if you want to get to that Cool Thing Over There, then with a mix of mix of ungodly arrogance, sheer willpower, and a lot of stamina potions, you can. If you suffer from the magpie brain (ie. you see a new shiny thing and become immediately sidetracked from your original objective) this will mean that you take about 10x as long as you should to do literally anything, but my god is it fun.

The soundtrack gives me feelings that I cannot put into words, and the voice acting is //phenomenal//. Importantly, Link himself does not have a voice actor which is the only correct choice considering he's been heavily implied throughout the entire LoZ franchise to be an elective mute, and I would have //hated// hearing him speak.

Link is also just a very sweet & funny golden retriever boy who occasionally sasses back like nobody's business. 10/10 protagonist.

If you like women, you will like them even more by the end. If you don't like women, there's a 90% chance you'll seriously reconsider it upon meeting [REDACTED].

The game has something for everyone: you like exploring? Well you're going to do a lot of that. You like collectables? There are so many outfits (that you can dye to your liking!) and a wholeass compendium to fill out. You like puzzles? You'll certainly find your fair share. You like combat? The basic mechanics are what you'd expect with there are enough different enemy types to keep it interesting, but dO NOT FIGHT A LYNEL WITHOUT MAKING SURE YOU HAVE ENOUGH WEAPONS BC THEY WILL BREAK AND LEAVE YOU WITH A VERY ANGRY VERY MEAN MAN TRYING TO KILL YOU.

It is genuinely very good value for money, and even more so if you can get it on sale! Not only do you have the mainline game & all its side-quests, but there's also the expansion pass, and, of course, an entire sequel just ready and waiting!

Cons

Sometimes the open world can feel a little too open. Considering the game's context, it makes sense, but comparatively games like Skyrim feel more densely packed with Things To Do, whereas BotW has several areas of overgrown nothingness that are lovely to look at, but not especially interesting (though this is better rectified in TotK).

You can't swim underwater. This was not rectified in TotK, though I dearly wish it had been.

A lot of fans used to complain about the temple format of p much every Zelda game up until this point, so the developers essentially removed temples altogether and instead replaced them with only four (technically optional) Divine Beasts, plus Hyrule Castle itself. I... did not like this. I'm a big puzzle girlie, and though BotW has shrines scattered across the landscape—most of which are puzzle-based—I personally felt that this substitute was lacking in comparison to the original. TotK does improve on this by reintroducing temples, but I still could have gone for a few more (Skyward Sword was the opposite of this, with very linear gameplay which a lot of people hated, but I personally will stand by SS's Ancient Cistern until my dying breath, and Twilight Princess had some really innovative temples that I have replayed several times over).

On a semi-adjacent note, the final boss just... wasn't my favourite. That's not to say it was bad, only as boss fights go I've had better (I did, however, like the final segment of that fight).

You will develop an immediate fear response to the Guardian music.

Ultimately though, I absolutely do think you should buy it, and am jealous that you'll get to have that bright-eyed bushy-tailed first-time experience, because believe me, if I could erase my memories and play BotW all over again, I would.

[malka-lisitsa]

Verse: Stranger things Crossover

This is a cross over verse so I keep and combine both canons rather than AU Katherine to fit solely in the ST universe. Mostly bc I'm lazy and don't want to figure out how to make her vampire powers stay and be canon compliant lmfao. ANYWAY-

In this verse Katherine has caught wind of the weird shit that happens in Hawkins. Since she is always looking for some way to get rid of Klaus, either by killing him or permanently stashing him somewhere, she's become very interested in the tales of this "Upside down" that people don't really come back from.

Usually interactions will center around Katherine trying to get to anyone she hears of that has directly seen/been to/or affected by the upside down. Minor characters get questioned for information about the bigger characters. The bigger characters get questioned about the upside down and how to get there/make sure someone doesn't get out.

Katherine will use compulsion on muses to get the information she wants if the muse isn't cooperating the way she wants them to. It's not her first choice but it is one she will use. Characters that have been altered by the upside down we can discuss if/how the compulsion affects your characters since clearly they've been mind fucked already.

Katherine is still a vampire and will munch on people, but unlike most vampires apparently she knows how to cover her tracks and do it responsibly. Bonus if her snack your muse is willing to feed her.

For the most part she is not here to make a mess or kill anyone (unless you manage to just REALLY piss her off then I can not help you) she intends to lay low in favour of collecting the information she needs.

Characters that have psychic powers will find it difficult to get into her head, shes a 500 year old vampire that's learned how to keep herself safe and is highly resistant to magic/psychic head infiltration. Characters like Vecna and Eleven we can definitely plot <;3

[pentition]

(knives out spoilers Again)

same anon who sent the ask about the ring -- your answer was incredibly thoughtful and i'm always blown away by the level of detail you go into! i just wanted to add that, apparently, the only other means of obtaining the diamond ring are via gifts from other bachelors after marrying them (namely ernest, owen, and unsuur). with this in mind, it's so hard to believe the ring isn't intended for something explicitly romantic. i just Have to know what they were cooking here

Hello again! Welcome back, welcome always to come back! And thank you!! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ I know Pathea's games have cool lore and characters with their own level of details, but I'm an absolute sucker for delving more. It makes my DM/GM and editorial brain go ZOOOM when I'm given questions on story/character designs and developmental potential because that's... my life. Lmfao So really, thank you. My brain is made happy with these things.

That's so interesting!! I didn't know that, I was actually mulling over the diamond ring vs engagement ring and realized I didn't know where the prior came into the picture. That's delicious information, thank you!

It felt like some means of a romantic gesture initially. I forgot to add that they could have been separate gifts for his 12 SEPARATE lovers (I'll never get over his wording). Like he was collecting them all gifts when this happened - provided he was being honest about it. Which I'll be bitter about if that's canon and not just Pen being Pen - because if it's canon and folks that romanced him didn't get to react... It's bad either way but that has an extra oof.

But idk, I still feel like it was Pathea's coding/programming to not have an alt drop available. Which if that is the case it still makes me go ??? at the implication it was intended for builders that romanced Pen. Because where is that narrative going??? What is being cooked... what are they building in there?

I am starving for more context and content. I really and truly hope everything with Pen isn't just over. The potential with his character... I crave. :')

Also I'd love to hear your thoughts and opinions!!

[chungledown-bimothy]

How did the other ones age terribly, if you don't mind me asking?

I only have one tattoo at the moment! It's on my upper left arm and it's just a mountainscape with trees, a crescent moon, the constellation Cassiopeia, and swirling watercolor to make the sky look galaxy-like!

Honestly you're so valid. Also, I know it's never been confirmed bc they don't really talk about it past a passing joke, but I fully believe that Margaret Encino is a trans woman and I love that for her.

Ajdhd that is too much church for one day. I literally can't imagine growing up like that 😅 even going to church for an hour on Sundays (and on Wednesdays bc we went to church before CCD) was sooo boring as a kid. But honestly I never really believed in it 😂

My brother got irritated with me one day when I was 6 (he's 8 years older than me and never particularly liked me) and told me Santa wasn't real. I immediately went to my mom and asked for confirmation, and my mom sucks at lying so she told me the truth. I then immediately asked, "so then is the Easter bunny fake too? And the tooth fairy?" And when my mom answered yes to those, I apparently took a long pause and asked, 'is Jesus real?" 😂😂😂😂 My mom was so out of her depth

Those songs and that album are such good choices!!! FOB songs go hard and are honestly kind of underrated!!

It's honestly not that bad of a schedule! I've been doing it for almost 2 years now, and once you get used to it, it's actually great. Plus, when I take vacation, I get 3 weeks off instead of 2!!

What other bands/artists do you like?? If you have Spotify and don't mind sharing, who was your top artist of the year?

- 🪐

They're both from fandoms I've since completely separated myself from.

One of them is a BTS tattoo (their logo on my inner wrist) I got in 2018, and while I still listen to their music from time to time, I really don't pay any attention to them any more. The fandom as a whole fucking sucks, and it seemed to just be getting worse, so I bailed a couple years ago.

The other is a goddamn Sanders Sides tattoo I got in early 2017. Also not a big piece, and one that's aesthetically cool divorced from its source, so not a big deal there. The tldr on it aging poorly is that Thomas has been stringing along and fucking over his fans for the last few years, and it fucking sucks.

I have not learned from either of these experiences and will soon be getting a kingdom hearts tattoo and a d20 one (once i figure out what the fuck i'm actually gonna get lol)

Holy shit that sounds so beautiful!!

It definitely was a lot of church, but I was so devout, I truly didn't care. I also, as a freshman and sophomore in high school, did an additional scripture study class from 5:30 to 6:30 am every weekday 😅

That's fucking hilarious oh my god. I cannot imagine what my dad would have looked like or said if I'd asked him that lmfao

I'm glad the schedule works for you! 3 weeks definitely sounds great ^_^

My current favorite artist is Sig Figs Collective for sure. They were pretty much all I listened to from this past October to when they had to take their music off Spotify. I also listen to a lot of show tunes and other pop punk (mcr, green day, mayday parade)

I think my top artist last year, though, was, uh. Markiplier. I listened to one of the songs he released for In Space With Markiplier almost 500 times, and there were a few other songs he's done that were also in heavy rotation lol

You?

[rengokugutspill]

Of course following the hormones in association with getting about ready to get my period, I was seeing excessive fatigue for about a week, where I felt like I was just so tired & never got enough sleep. Though I think during that time there were a number of occurrences where shit was waking me up & since I'm someone who typically sleeps twelve hours, getting interrupted sleep fucks me up. Then it shifted into still extreme fatigue but insomnia on top of it, only serving to make me feel more aggressive & volatile because there was no relief in being able to actually sleep. Two days before my period starts I start getting headaches but not quite migraines.

Because I'm still pretty tired, I've flipped my days to waking up before dawn & going to bed in the evening. I went to go to bed yesterday, I feel like I'm so exhausted just because this type of day is very disorienting. I don't think I really take into account when I actually woke up, so when it's evening & I'm getting delirious it does feel a bit confusing & disturbing for me. Even though I think it's both right & appropriate for when I'd actually woken up. & idk, I think I was being pretty active lately during my wake hours.

When I'd laid down, I could clearly feel tired but was having a hard time falling asleep. Tossing & turning, eventually most of the cats going downstairs. Which Burger is out for the most part now outside of meal times, but I still have to close my door when I'm sleeping because Lucifer is back on apparently thinking he's a bat flying around my room. & I do feel so much better having Burger out, even if I do have to close my door sometimes. It feels better than he's free roaming so I know he's not in a room feeling bored & bent out of shape.

I think in the past couple years I started experiencing the sensation of falling asleep. Like nearly watching it in real time as my thoughts start to fade into something incomprehensible. Like, since I usually sleep with a true crime program on, I forget if I've mentioned here before, but I always know when I'm falling asleep cos they'll say they're looking for the criminal on the show & say his name & my sleepy thought is like “oh shit, we gotta find this guy !” & when I start having thoughts like that, I know it's all over for me lmfao or I've had some where I'm at the family barbecue & the criminal shows up lmfao but I do also blame this for occasional bad dreams

I also blame this for why I don't dream about Rengoku more, because I think I can't fabricate a dream about him when the material being fed to me is threatening or otherwise worrisome. Though I had a weird dream he was on some kinda game show where he was gambling on behalf of some kingdom but the gambling was done on some high pedestal thing where everyone was like at a poker or black jack table & he got voted off the show & a trap door opened beneath him & dropped him off the platform & then he just walked away ?? I'd had another one where I went to Japan to collect rare Rengokus & went into some establishment, but things were different from USA so there was this thing where you applied coins to a machine to get a ticket to buy a sandwich & I was really anxious because I didn't understand but Rengoku was there telling me I could do it.

Though I had a really weird & upsetting dream about him the other night that was like a movie dream, it was Rengoku but a different Rengoku & I was not in the dream. This Rengoku was a bit bigger & in a different lifetime, he had a wife & son & the son looked just like Senjuro & the Rengoku was having memories of the Rengoku from Demon Slayer so he kept thinking his son was his brother Senjuro & his son was really concerned that his dad kept forgetting who he was & his wife was worried & making him go to therapy & he was overall despondent & uncomfortable because he didn't understand what was happening & was uncomfortable that he couldn't remember his own life but was having memories of a different life. That dream really bothered me, it was a really worrisome & distressing dream, like a disturbing psychological drama movie that he was in. I did not like it & don't want to have another one like it.

I've also noticed for some weird reason that sleeping during the afternoon creates a higher likelihood for me having sleep paralysis when falling asleep. I've had a lot of really weird ones. & I can usually feel it coming. I'd said this before to my mom & she tried to insist feeling like it was coming on was me just being afraid of it happening & then because I was afraid I ended up willing it to happen. I really don't think that's what it is. I understand we really cannot figure out what is causing sleep paralysis in every case. We have an idea of what causes some cases. I'm a skeptic but a spiritualist, I believe in spirits, ghosts, elementals, energies, interlopers, but I also think most “unexplained” phenomenon actually do have viable & reasonable explanations if you look hard enough. Obviously as someone prone to delusion, it's very important to challenge everything & not accept things wholly at face value or blame fairies or paranormal for everything. The pursuit of knowledge is the pursuit of deeper understanding & vivid clarity in all things. & curiously, spirituality tends to be defined by “what does it feel like to you ?” & a lot of “trusting your gut instincts.” Which again, is hard to really say with delusion prone thinking. Yet I do think that is the most reasonable way to interact with spirituality. It's interesting when looking at psychics because they tend to say they just feel something, yet you put ten in a room & if they're real psychics, most of them will key in on the same thing even without being able to communicate with one another. I know some things are just really hard to explain & are wholly feeling based. I guess to say the third eye or spirit body are in seeing, feeling & interacting with the unseen. A sixth sense you hone. I believe it.

With that being said, I do think something unseen causes my sleep paralysis. I'd had a dream before at my second apartment where I was at the house I lived in for the second half of my childhood, there was a swimming pool & deck in the backyard & there was a voice speaking to me that I guess was my great grandmother maybe & she told me I have periods of nightmares in that apartment because I think it was like thirty years ago (it might have been more idrr) there was a band of dudes who roamed the area committing horrible crimes & causing general unrest & that their spirits still come back on the anniversary of those events to terrorize the same places, so they come into my room at night to terrorize me when I'm dreaming. It was a really interesting dream. In the same dream she had mentioned there is something in my room every night that always watches me & it's neither good nor bad, it's just always there watching me. I guess it must not be human because she didn't say it was a man or a person, she called it a “something.” But I'd imagined it sitting in the chair in my room that used to be at the foot of my bed. Now I have a bedside armchair & I almost imagine that it sits there.

So I ended up having a nightmare last night that scared me so bad. In the dream I was standing in my room & the TV was on. I heard my roommate come home & I'd walked towards the stairs but the stairway was different in my dream, it was a switch back staircase. I met them on the landing & we'd gone downstairs. From there it was pretty accurate to real life, they'd gone into the livingroom & I went into the kitchen, the rooms are connected by a large archway, so each looks into the other. As I was walking into the kitchen, I started to feel like I was going to faint. I'm going towards the sink because I think it's dehydration so I want to get water, but the rims of my vision are blackening & it's coming over more. I told my roommate I was going to faint & then just fell on the floor. I was still conscious though my vision was completely black & I couldn't move my body. My vision started to come back & I got up & try to open the cupboard for a plastic cup to get water because I'm worried about glass that I will drop it & I'm holding onto the counter because I know I'm going to faint again & the plastic cups aren't in the cupboard & I faint again. I come back & nearly blindly grab the plastic cup from the dish strainer & I get the water in the cup but then I can't swallow. I get the water in my mouth but it's like my throat is closed shut & the mechanism in the throat that allows you to swallow isn't working. So it's like the water is just in my mouth & when I try to get it to go to my throat it just sits there & I'm trying to choke it down but only the smallest amounts of water are making it. Then I woke up. It was so scary & my first thought when I woke up was how I'd read something about how spirits don't bother you if you have cats around because cats chase them away & I was thinking about how I only had the nightmare after all the cats left the room, so I immediately went downstairs to get Venom & she was sound asleep on the back of the armchair in the livingroom. I prodded at her asking her to come upstairs with me but she was so asleep she could hardly move. She ended up getting up & walking to the door & when I opened the door she ran upstairs & I brought her to the bed & she sat & waited for me to get in bed, but she was clearly so asleep she just kinda lulled there rather than immediately coming to me. I basically went right back to sleep, but the aftermath of the dream felt just as uncomfortable as the dream. I feel like it's rare the cats are in such a deep sleep that they can hardly walk, but I wonder what she must have thought ?

She woke me up again before the sun rose to let her back downstairs, but I was feeling better then so I was able to let her down & go back to sleep. But I did get my period in my sleep & bled on a pair of underwear I liked & it really bothered me. I thought it would wash out no big deal but I must have bled shortly after going to bed because it was acting as though it was already really set in. I haven't given up, but I'm worried it's really not going to lift.

I ended up seeing the two flame breathing bromides I wanted listed in lots with other items & I was planning to get them but I wanted to make sure I'd ordered the cats' food & litter first, & while I was out smoking I got my new phone sim card so I thought transplanting the cards would be easy so I thought I could just do that really quick but it ended up taking a whole fucking hour & the whole thing was a shit show. First, my phone requires the key device to take out the sim card, which I don't have & they didn't give me so I had to look up online how the fuck I was even supposed to remove it & what ultimately worked for me was an earring back, though nearly destroying the earring all the while.

I was supposed to keep my original phone number & the directions said in order to activate the sim card I was just supposed to make a phone call, so I'd called my roommate but the call was fucked up. They ended up calling me back but didn't know who I was because the phone number was different & said it was Michigan ?? I checked & yeah, there was another phone number & I was pissed off so I called the provider number which it said to do if you needed help activating your sim card. The call won't go through so I end up having to call from the house phone & I'm on hold for an hour again before patched through to a dude representative who honestly was really rude, he was like saying I needed to call back on a different number because he couldn't hear me & I'm like how the fuck am I supposed to do that ?? I have a cellphone I can't use & my home phone, what other phone do you expect me to use ?? He basically says since I was on the phone with him he manually changed the number but idk if that's true because my step dad has the same service & he said his phone number just changed over after an hour. The dude ran some random troubleshooting with me to make sure the phone was working & I'd asked about the software update but he was saying it was only effecting the phone service & mobile data which sucks but like whatever, I guess it was just misunderstanding & wishful thinking on my end. He ended up telling me my phone was up to date with it's software & like no, it's not because my phone is succumbed to forced obsolescence & can't update any further since two years ago so he basically told me to go fuck myself. Which whatever because I get it's not his problem but like don't lie to me & say it's up to date when I know it's not. Especially because just the moment before he said it wasn't up to date... It just bothered me. I gave him a bad review just for that because wtf ?? There's no reason to lie to me when you can just educate me on what the actual problem is. Then I wouldn't've been mad at him but just disappointed with myself.

Then my step dad was worried because for some reason when he tried to call me to test if the phone service was working, I guess he couldn't call me ?? So we had to check the different facets of my phone to make sure the service really was working & imo it does seem like it's spotty now, it is acting a bit weird apparently. But thankfully the right number is applied to it again.

After all that I was going to buy those two bromides & of course they both sold by that point & I wanted to cry. I'm still holding out hope that maybe they will list together for a good price. Part of what made me nervous to buy those ones were although the items were listed in lots with other items, I didn't want any of the other items so it really wasn't worth it to me outside of the single bromides themselves.

I also ended up looking at Romwe because I got curious if I could get new cardigans from there & I'm so appalled by the inflation. Thirty dollars for a cardigan from a fast fashion brand ?? I'd love to say I think they'd be cheaper at Target or Walmart, but at this point with how intense the inflation actually is I'm concerned that's not actually true. I decided to look at lingerie while I was there because I feel like I have these ideas in my head but I feel like the types of things I want don't exist for easy. I also felt like just basic underwear was more expensive than when I had bought from them before.

Which that was actually where the good pair of underwear I just ruined was from. I was really hoping I could find underwear that was nearly the same, but of course not !

I saw some nice cups & bands that I liked. There was this article that was like a demi sports bra but with a keyhole chest so you peep the between boobs, but of course it was a bullshit material with that dumbass scalloped lace lining. There were some nice balconettes but I understand the strap placement is important to the lift offering & I'm saying I do not want the side straps. There must be a way to get the lift with that cup without having your armpits carved out. I'm thinking perhaps a v shaped end ? To attach to the outside like the balconette straps but then have one also attached more towards the front, meeting the main strap in the middle to go over the shoulder to keep it away from the armpit. Because idgaf who sees my strap as long as the boob is lifted... I really feel like I'm about to start making franken bras.

(hello mtv, welcome to my bra lab.)

I ended up getting a set from Mercari with money I wasn't able to cash in (out ?) before. Mercari was really weird because the sellers didn't follow the same format as the Depop ones where they only listed by shirt size, most of the ones I looked at actually applied the cup & band size. However, after I was looking at that really cute savage fenty sports bra & the person told me to check the website for the measurements, I ended up checking Aerie's measurements to see they had small listed as 32a/b & medium as 34b/c I think ? With that being said, everyone I saw on Mercari listing Aerie sports bras in size large were tagging them as 34c/d & I was thinking that didn't make any sense because their website says medium is 34 & large is 36 so how the fuck are they saying they're thirty fours ? I decided to trust the Aerie website, but then I'd seen a lot of three garments that idk what you call them, they're sheer cup with a longer crop top like band underneath. Bustier I guess ? I really wanted one but the lot was cheap. I was unsure because they were marked as 34b but the tags were visible & said medium. I decided to try it but I will feel a little distraught if they don't fit. Though I suppose I could just resell them ig. I'd also seen this one bra that blew my mind because it's the same exact bra I just sold the other week. I was devastated to sell it because I bought it when I could wear bs but it ran small so it didn't fit me but it was so fucking cute, it was fuchsia with that early two thousands trendy tribal / geometric pattern that I love so much in lilac & blue. I ended up taking the straps off the one I had to use for a different bra & sold it as a bandeau & this one was selling as a bandeau. I really thought the person selling it was the same person who bought it from me until I'd seen the one I'd sold wasn't marked as delivered yet & when I checked my sold listing, it was marked as a b & this one showed the tag as 34c. & it was super cheap ! So I bought it & I'm about to lose my fucking mind if it fits !!

But at least then I think this should be enough breast coverage, I should chill the fuck out lol

I'd also noticed studio announced Rengoku cafe is precursor for cafe themed for other hashira to come ! The merchandise teased currently really reminds me of the first hashira meeting goods, where everyone is seated in portrait by candlelight. There is a vast array of merchandise, which is very great & compelling to see. Though Rengoku get excluded from most sets sadly.

For this one I like the layered acrylic panels. Again, a little hard to see due to the product images being so small, they fit very in line with the upcoming hashira expressions & personalities event ! It is too bad we don't get to see Rengoku for this, though I would say, unless they were to create animations for the two backstory comics, we don't see enough new Rengoku moments to really make having him follow suit with the layered acrylic panel worthwhile. I love to see him, but when his moments can really be reduced to we've seen you two times, it does make reusing those same assets over & over become stale... So I really wish they would just make the animations for his backstory comics... It would definitely give a lot more material to work with when making new merchandise for him...

& ngl the new intro artwork for the random acrylic stand is so sad not to include Rengoku. To view everyone walking into the light, happy & smiling together & just not him. I'd felt before it's really sad & sucks Rengoku is the first hashira to die because everyone else you can get to know a little bit for time spent with them in hashira training or end battles, but realistically he's like shown to you & that's it.

I also like the first placemat hardcase (a), I like the way the hashira were included in that one, it felt new & appealing to look at. The other one might be very appealing as well, but product image is just too small for me to really make out what's happening... For the stand clips I think it's funny Rengoku & Uzui featured Kimetsu Academy. But I like to see it because it's interesting & refreshing to see more facets to the characters. I also like the hard case, but I admit that I don't know what it is lol

There's also another eatery campaign coming up that will feature Rengoku after the new year roll over. So he doesn't have a new art now, but I am hoping he will. Especially because honestly pov Rengoku gives you soup is one of my favorite images of him, I'm not super bummed out for food collaborations because sometimes the art really do be slapping, though I wasn't really for the other characters' ensembles, so I don't really have my hopes up lol

I am wonder if post will have another new years collaboration this year ? I would imagine they do since they have the past few years, last year included all the important characters seen so far, so I am wondering if it will be full cast or if it's just going to be the newer introduced important characters, letting the older characters go back by the wayside ? Though I am always rooting for Rengoku, I admit for some events I don't get too distraught if he isn't included because sometimes I feel like it's good I'm not fiending to collect such loot lol

But I do think I am going to try to get his stand clips on resale. The lot is too big to pull from for me to try from the studio. I'm sure Rengoku's are going to be stupid expensive though @.@

I started this post two days ago & tapped out mid post but then yesterday was so busy & such a headache I wasn't able to finish the post then. I was going to say I got another flame breathing bromide, so now there is only one I am watching for. It is on sale for a decent price now, but I am still kinda holding out to see if there's a reasonable lot with it. I also finally bought the accessories for the scrapbook(s). Though I am slightly worried because I am bad at measurements, I don't have a super informed idea what the size of the binder is or the inlets I bought for it. Though I was thinking further about extending to postcards & coasters.

I had noticed scrapbooking was made popular in the same vein the idol dolls were, cultivated by the kpop fans. I'd heard the bromides were made popular like trading cards, but I was also under the impression they were typical nineties disposable camera photo sized, yet I actually think the kpop bromides might be like trading card sizes ? Because when I was looking at the binders & accessories for the kpop adjacent scrapbooking, I noticed everything appeared to be smaller than my smaller regular printed photo sized bromides. Which is where my worry about size & measurements are coming from.

I seen they have these things they're calling “toploaders,” which I guess would be familiar to card collectors like that of Yugioh, Pokemon or Magic The Gathering. I guess they're just protective card sleeves ? They have pre-decorated transparent card holders with all kinds of designs, but when faced against the traditional photo sizes, it appears most of these are too small. Which idk, I suppose it's redundant anyway to want pre-existing outlines that weren't made from the heart, when the reality is I should be doing the decorating wholly myself.

I found the top loader slips that should fit the standard photo size that have holographic effects, I've seen sets of colored & designed paper for backgrounds in scrapbooking & all kinds of stickers. Also cold laminate with a number of different effects. My plan is to apply bromides into clear envelopes & decorate everything over the clear envelopes so I'm not actually defacing the actual bromides in anyway. After each bromide is edited, it will be inserted into the binder, where I can proceed to add additional decorations around the top & backs of the inserted images.

I'm also thinking I can print out Rengoku images, digital photo collages & make my own cold laminate stickers to add to the exterior collages per page.

I was telling my roommate about it & they sounded very excitable for me. It is something that may end up being a long work in progress, because not only is there thought in decorating every bromide but then pulling each page together, all the while likely acquiring more bromides, more stickers, more editing doodads.

So I keep planning my forward expenditures. I've still got my eyes for collecting new Rengoku merchandise that I've still yet to see post, but I think I am going to keep getting more doll clothes & craft supplies currently. But I've made five sales recently, one of them was really good money. Though I'm also feeling some kinda way because three of the bras I've ordered haven't arrived yet with no viable ETA apparently due to the hurricane Helene ? But the same thing has happened with that Vinted package I shipped what feels like two weeks ago now. It made it to Louisiana & just has not moved for a week.

Coinciding with this, my mom ended up bringing me a number of bags of items that's been sorted through. I'd say I kept half of the clothes, but I will soon be listing two lots of bras she had given me as well as a number of different styles of crop tops. She gave me two whole grocery bags of fragrances. I know they are seeing a crackdown now on resale, so I've at least found four I think are viable to sell that I don't want. There is a lotion that does not appear to be opened which should be fine, but at least two of the other items were perfumes that had been sprayed more than some of the ones she'd given me before that I've been using had been sprayed. So I'm definitely nervous to list them because I don't want to get hit with a pull, threat or reprimand.

I keep thinking lately I want to draw still, but I haven't pursued it. I mentioned being more comfortable with what Burger is up to now & it is freeing, but it also feels like the first time in months I haven't been constricted. I feel like I just want to loaf around & do nothing. I'm also thinking about maybe trying a new game I've bought that's sat untouched on the shelf or perhaps doing new games for Legend Of Mana or Pokemon Scarlet.

Of course there's always getting on more listing, crosslisting or working on sewing projects. Today I just want to have zero thoughts & melt into my bed.

Also as a footnote after a previously mentioned statement, I got that fuchsia bra & added the straps & it fits so perfect I feel like there aren't words ! It's like a balconette so nothing transgresses against the armpits, the cups are perfect & pull everything into me. It makes the bust look small in the regard everything is pulled & held close, but I couldn't get over the evenness & slightest squishing with the faintest divot of cleavage. My only complaint is the other one was like perfect condition. Because it's a bra with a built in lace lined bandeau over it, there were a couple spots where the bandeau was pulling away sloppily from the bra. But I suppose it doesn't matter because not only did I get an amazing fit, but I got to wear a bra that I've wanted for years :')

[blackvahana]

I've been working on the floating islands around the main house ("house") while she settles, or at least... making them into islands lmfao.

Apparently I have indeed automated the process! I was saying to myself I should and Lev corrected me saying I did. Yeah, I hooked them into the concept of the spread of time and space I believe, or less the concept and more the actual spread as an extension of shit I'm (more than) elbow deep in

I'm trying to take a backseat right now! Mostly because I'm worried about how Mental this is getting, but that's. fine? I'll just push it back out into the Communal Astral Proper lmfao. But I'm starting to see in the stretch mark cracks plants popping through and. they. are. fascinating. I bring up stretch marks for a reason, they're flesh pinks in my vision filling in the blanks like faces rising through stretch marks.

I guess it's the first forms of to-be plants. The place is referencing specific DNAs and such of various plants in the collective unconscious type thing of existence (can you tell I'm too tired for wording this properly), effectively marking the path, the nutrients needed, and all the other stuff for the plant to grow there. This one looks like that one kinda of nightshade though. Or. Is that even real?? Its flowers are like... four normal purple petals, four petals elongated into sort of lynx ear tufts or rats tail type things, it's leaves have similar trails if I'm seeing right. Anyway.

Yeah. I'm standing on an island, the grass(?) feels like flesh lmfao. It's rounder and smoother than it should be, very new and tender and vulnerable right now. If I look down at it, it's slowly creeping apart and filling in the blanks like film rolls creating AI frames as it elongates... Even things like the tree here - ah yeah. I'm on this island because I like this one, tree and pond and plants - are moving and expanding. Will they ever stop? I don't know. I don't care. I mean I will know when I do care to stop it, but right now...

The thing I need to fix though, later, is the Day forming a uh. egg white around the yolk of the islands/etc. It's hard to see everything here, physically because of the clouds but mostly in my eyes because of the Day Sky being opaque andddd I mean that'll get fixed when I hook it back into reality itll get a more normal day-night cycle. but. saying that... is weird.

I don't think it'll actually be normal here lmfao I'm starting to think an orrery is going to - why does my music have to devolve into clicking machinery lmfao - be an actual grounded part of this place. Oough! Just felt way farther away from the house for a second! And it feels like heavy rain cloud sunset. Interesting. Oh yeah. a storms coming lmfao