#I'm still not getting the full picture

[baked-mota]

I read a reddit post the other day where someone asked if they were being a dick somehow and how to fix but turns out they were being asked out the whole time.

What I'm trying to get to is that I think I was propositioned to by a friend (or asked out??????) and I completely missed it.....

[front-facing-pokemon]

[poke-poke-poke]

Blue!

I love @pokemonlolitaproject 's co-ords a lot, so i wanted to draw one---

Melony + Lapras co-ord :]

(I'll reblog this with the link to the original co-ord post--)

some wips ^^^^

[artheresy]

An argument over whether or not Dan Heng is Dan Feng seems to have begun getting sparked again in certain parts of the Fandom and it does nothing but hurt my head to no end

Both sides cherrypicking or treating it like a strange situation, making false equivalents. "Yknow governments don't consider people who've lost their memories to be separate people" that's a flawed argument to use in favorite of DH = DF because it's not just he lost his memories. He literally grew up, experienced his own childhood, had a whole identity cultivated based on those experiences and that life and continues to live his own life. To treat the situation like it's just him getting a bit of amnesia is wild to me

But also I hate when people continue to insist he's running from Dan Feng and his past and how he's miserable and shouldn't ever confront the past and deal with it as if his and Blade's whole stories aren't centered around rebirth and karma, paying for your past life's karma. He needed to confront the past to ensure a freer future! He literally has!! And he will continue to do so because he realizes this, DH isn't dumb and he's grown since we first saw him. He understands

But yeah uh I'm so tired

This whole thing feels very Ship of Theseus. What makes the ship what it is, the physical aspects of its planks, its sailing history, or both?

For him, the question is what makes someone who they are? Is it the body that makes them up and any inherent genetic factors (like traits)? Is it their experiences, how they've grown up, and the identity they've developed in that time? Or is it both factors mixed together?

Personally in the case of Dan Heng, I think it's both! Yeah he has a lot of traits from Dan Feng. There's a lot inherently there. But we can't disregard his own experiences and the identity that has formed based on his history and what he's seen.

Again I can't stress this enough... It is a false equivalent to compare him to people who lose their memories or get amnesia, he didn't just lose those memories. He started life from the beginning, a whole different kind of life. And even then, the amnesia topic comes with its own debates. Isn't there a whole other thought experiment regarding someone put to trial who ends up with amnesia and what their verdict should be?

I guess in the end, it's all up to people's own philosophical beliefs after what constitutes a person. My personal belief that DH and DF will always be connect but the separation between them is also meaningful is something based on my own ideas of what consisitutes a person and their individual identity, similar situation with how I see Rukkhadevata and Nahida as connected but still not the same person exactly. At the end of the day again, it's personal beliefs

But what I can't stand and can't stand by, is someone acting all high and mighty like they're perfectly right and everyone else is wrong, especially when they're cherrypicking or not holding all their evidence to the same standard. According to some ppl, apparently it's better in the CN fandom where instead of treating it like "I'm right you're wrong" people have divided themselves into "DF and DH one person" and "DF and DH two people" groups and most importantly of all, they treat both like theories and just keep to their space and tag which they believe when it's relevant. Why can't we just do that? Why can't we follow in their footsteps instead of bringing up this argument every so often with the same tired flaws from both sides?

[hoardlikegoldenirises]

something a little silly

(he's not actually angry at the "drugs" thing, just busy trying not to die)

oh i almost forgot

transcript of my bad handwriting:

Page 1 Panel 1: 2013, 1:38 pm (sfx: DING DING DING)

Panel 2: 9th period, 1:40 pm

Peter's internal thought bubble: "Oh shit my meds"

Panel 3:

Student 1: Hi, Mr. Parker!

Peter: mm-hm

Panel 4:

Student 1: Mr. Parker? Hello?

(Student 2: Huh?)

Panel 5:

Peter: Hm?

Student 1: What are those, tic tacs?

Student 2: No, he's doing drugs!!! (In class!)

Text pointing to Peter's hand holding his pills says "PTSD medication"

Peter: HKFGH (choking noise)

Page 2:

Panel 1:

Student 1: Are you okay?!

(Student 2: oh fuck)

Peter: COUGH COUGH

Panel 2:

(sfx: WHEEZE)

Peter: It's not DRUGS!

Panel 3, Peter cont.: Well, I mean, it is drugs, but it's prescription—it's medication. OK?

[sunshinediaz]

no snippets today because there's nothing i want to share but here's the list of chaptered fics i made last night that i want to complete before s8 premier, teehee

[bylertruther]

modern au mike would be the repressed internalized homophobia harboring kind of gay that says shit like "it's not gay to kiss ur homies goodnight 🙄 that's just being a good bro" and is essentially playing gay chicken with will 24/7 which is why will never suspects anything and thinks it's totally unrequited. bc they have Always been like this . and still mike insists he's straight and who is will to say Um Actually esp when mike made a big stink abt dating his sister n also gets super defensive abt it any time they talk abt it or get anywhere even remotely close to talking abt it. hope this helps 👍

[lightdancer1]

And frankly I don't care what fanon says:

We have seen how Death and Dream interact. She never has a problem calling him on his shit, and the serious shit. I really don't think that Death and Dream discussing Nada in the Season of Mists was the first time it ever came up.

The surprise here would not be that the topic came up, but 1) that Death and Desire, who have a relationship at least as hostile or moreso as Desire and Dream agreed on something of importance and said so in a short span of time, and/or 2) that Dream actually was willing both to listen and to act on it. And here, at least, is one case where the fishbowl would probably make a difference in Dream being willing to hear this and to admit he made a mistake instead of spitefully doubling down and lashing out about it.

I can't see Death staying completely silent about it for 10,000 years. I can see that where she and Dream had some major arguments would have been this and that Dream wouldn't have taken it well in the past. Dream acting on that, Dream admitting he was wrong, is a key turning point in his fate and where he first begins to face the dual choices of changing or death.

[jazzzzzzhands]

this one goes out to thunderstorms mmmm big BIG rumbly bumbly ones!!! i love love LOVE thunderstorms and how they make me feel! big loud thunder!!! YESS so i decided to paint a lil painty! <33

um another picture cause im not very good at taking pictures!

[jorvikzelda]

sometimes you feel a little sad. and when you feel a little sad the perfect cure is OBVIOUSLY to hop on silly horse game and play dress-up

[toastingpencils37]

Bruh, the ninja's aim with the cannon is fucking ass.

Every damn time.

Lowkey also going to vent in the tags for a minute

[rainbluealoekitten]

i genuinely feel so bad for my ex's gf though because she's out here posting on her insta that it's their 3 month anniversary but boyo is making me playlists with unrequited love songs and posts stuff about being nostalgic about when we were dating, keeps complimenting how i look, and literally yesterday was telling me he still has the sticker we stole from the library where we held hands and cuddled like. he's such an important friend to me but really i guess i will have to cut him off (again) bc i thought we were both over this but apparently not and it's just going to hurt a lot of people if i don't

[jojotier]

there's something utterly fascinating in watching white cismen try to explain the "new phenomenon" of groups other than themselves being into things. and by fascinating I mean frustrating like hell

like the intro to "The Writing Dead: Talking Terror With TV's Top Horror Writers" has on page 2 the following quote about horror media:

"In a genre that has traditionally appealed to young men between the ages of eighteen and twenty-five, what has finally convinced so many others- particularly women and older audiences- to watch? To see horror as something more than blood and guts?"

and you know right out the gate that this guy is out of touch as a motherfucker, because like. even if you take into account the fact that this book appeared in 2015 and likely had been written in the previous years, if you're not white and cismale, you'll know that there's been plenty of horror that's appealed to a bunch of people since forever!

the twilight zone's still resonating with people! supernatural (derogatory) might not be completely horror per se, but just look at the fanbase there! even outside the realm of tv, horror podcasts were being revolutionized literally by queer people! and that's not even getting into the indie horror game scene!

but to this guy, the uptick in more diverse viewership of horror tv is an anomaly meant to be explained vaguely by the 'intimacy of television' or streaming services or 'fandoms, maybe?' and like sure, maybe these are right in their ways, but it's still just one part of the deal. and the thing that really gets me is that the acknowledgement of horror viewership being noticeably more diverse is kinda glossed over in favor of how the magic touch is in the nature of television itself or the Talent of those writing horror shows.

and like to be very fair. I just read the intro. in the actual interviews, the folks interviewed could defs bring attention to the fact that horror is compelling to groups who aren't that very narrow demographic of young white man not just bc we like being scared, but because horror is meant to reflect the fears of our times and, therefore, with more diverse representation people are able to see their Own Fears reflected

But of 13 interviewees, only 2 are men of color and 3 are white women. the remaining 8 are white men. so I'm not exactly holding my breath here

[elftwink]

the one fun thing about writing something longer than 10k or so words is once you get really frustrated with the specific part you’re working on and start being like ‘im a fraud im a sham ive never written anything’ you can just take a breather and scroll around 1000 words forward and be like. actually i’m so talented and cool and hot and this is going to be the best thing ever. this libreoffice document contains multitudes

[drewsaturday]

ik i said i'd lessen my yj bitching but.... another thought actually <3

i feel like something the "you just got too into theorizing and got attached to a show that doesn't exist" crowd mocking s2 disappointments is not recognizing that a huge chunk of the most exciting promo scenes all turned out to be hallucinations.

like, even pushing the tonal inconsistency between the season 1 finale lottie setups and what lottie actually turned out to be aside, we very much were baited into thinking certain things would happen that very much did not happen.

yeah some people probably did go off the deep end with [spins wheel] javi is actually NUGGET kinds of theories or whatever, but... we didn't JUST get here because we spent too much time theorizing in a media illiterate echo chamber. we got here because the show set things up that did not pay off.

i don't think the hallucination bait and switches necessarily implied such huge plot elements as the lottie inconsistencies did. i fully acknowledge it was smaller things like gen frothing at the mouth and attacking ben or mari frantically backing up against a wall (due to what we now know was a hallucination) adult!lottie's hands covered in blood, or teen!nat wiping blood off her face looking ashamed. but it certainly did not help that so many of the seeds sewn to go "look how UNHINGED this season is!!!!!" turned out to... not be real. i mean sure, it's a great look into the girls' mental declines, but... it's not the same as those things physically happening proportionally to the hallucinations.

i also should acknowledge that some of the other hallucinations we saw in promos were lottie looking into a plane and descending down into tunnels (this was an episode-specific promo, i believe.) we did actually get some underground tunnels! so i'm not like, intensely disappointed about that, even though it would've been really cool to get the sort of ladder shaft she was specifically climbing down. and the plane window thing wasn't much on its own. you could also argue that with what i mentioned above, we did see adult lottie cut her hand open--even though that's very different than a murdery covered in blood look--and we did see actual cannibalism like nat's blood-covered mouth implied.

some of the other hallucinations were more obvious like antler queen walking through the burning plane or a dirtied up teen lottie walking through a mall, and i have to wonder almost if getting obvious hallucinations made me expect some of the other scenes to not be hallucinations. i also have to wonder if any of this was purposely misleading because of spoiler culture these days--always having to go in a direction the audience won't expect even if it doesn't make sense.

idk, maybe some of us DID go too insane over analyzing every little trailer detail, but... they include those things for the sole purpose of hyping people up. as much as i've grown to appreciate some spoilers being given to us by showrunners to make sure we do stay on track in our theorizing (like confirming they wouldn't eat the baby, or that adam Probably is just some dude), they still very much did include the most exciting scenes possible to get people to watch more.

and while to an extent some theorizing does go off the rails, most of us are perfectly capable of going "hey, this theory didn't pan out, but what happened instead made SO much sense with what the show already set up and it was SO enjoyable!"

but ngl our theories were usually so grounded in knowing the actual show so deeply that we're the perfect ones to say if something didn't meet the expectations the show itself put forth. and a lot of season 2 did not pass the vibe check.

[thetransintransgenic]

Vaguing one of my "I rarely interact with you but I truly appreciate you" mutuals but it's really really nice that after a brief absence from Tumblr I have someone who will de facto provide me a running update on exactly what degree of gay smut Tumblr allows on their platform at the current moment.

This is a valuable part of our relationship to me, and honestly I hope everyone has someone like this.