#Im in the UK so I'm not staying up all night

[beyond-far-horizons]

Waiting on another MK trailer - why do they drag these things out?

[mrs-saturday]

🏹 The Archer (LS2)

♥ my masterlist!

♥ pairing: Logan Sargeant x Reader

♥ synopsis: The aftermath.

♥ a/n: Im so upset. Im broken. This is my grieving process

Combat, I'm ready for combat,

The pre-race ritual has always been the same for Logan and you. In front of the mirror, your hands slipping around his toned midriff, nails tracing the evidence of gym sessions beneath his race suit, his helmet on its stand, air at a standstill, as his head falls back onto your shoulder with a shaky exhale.

He knew it, and you knew it.

Zandvoort was the last one, and even though no one knew that for certain, and Vowles hadn't called the meeting, hadn’t thrown down the gavel on the blonde’s dream, you both knew it and it sat in your stomachs like a weight.

He picks his head back up, and turns to face you, planting a small kiss on your nose, and you do the same.

His nose is awfully cold, but you watch him slip the helmet on, and pray that it warms him through.

I say I don't want that, but what if I do?

Watching him spin out was like the nail in the coffin.

Watching orange tongues lap at the rear of his car was enough to drive you to a Hamlet-like state; to jump in his grave, pull the casket lid wide, and scream to the onlookers your love. 

When he’s back from medical, he looks at you, a silent acceptance of the end of his career quite literally going up in flames. He runs over, head buried in your chest as silent sobs wrack through his trembling frame. “Logan…” you mutter into his hair, about to ask what he thought would happen to his seat.

“I don’t even want it anymore…” he cries

“But, what if you do?”

'Cause cruelty wins in the movies,

He was told he was out 2 days before they announced it. The young Argentinian with his head hung low in the meeting room, unable to look at Logan. The cold fist of Vowles telling him what he’d been expecting, but the thought of him ruining this young boy’s career filled him with rage. 

How dare he do this again. How dare he do this to another bright star, to ignite his explosion all too short of a supernova. 

I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

You try to get him to stop for a moment, but he’s sat furiously typing. He has to get it all out, he says. Too many thoughts, he says. He types and types as you hold him. Every frustration, every late upgrade, every lost nugget of feedback, every false promise, the results of which spilled into the American’s notes app like he was a teenage girl, feeling her heartbreak through lines of shower thoughts and ill-placed rhymes.

When he finished, he exhaled, and looked at you, with a weak smile, and hit delete on the note. 

Easy they come, easy they go

You two don’t stay in the UK long. The boxes are full the day it’s announced and the flights to Florida only a few days after. 

“Home” he had begged on that night, “If the track can’t be, I want to make home with you”

And you agreed, you packed up your life in England alongside him, the helmets and trophies of past delegated to a manila coloured box labelled “FRAGILE: HANDLE WITH CARE”

They would stay there.

For a while, at least.

I jump from the train, I ride off alone

The last thing he does is visit Oscar. Or at least, he tries to. His rosy knuckles tap on the Australian’s door one last time before he realises Oscar is not answering, despite the party going on inside the house. He is far too busy living their dream to remember to answer to the door to a boy delegated to a photograph on his mother’s refrigerator. 

I never grew up, it's getting so old, Help me hold onto you

It’s like he’s 11 again, in his parent’s living room, watching ‘Top Gun’, and eating popcorn. No one has bought it up. Not you, not his parents, not Dalton, it hangs in the air like the wheel had clung to his car by a wire’s length. Instead, you all ignore it for the simple pleasure of family. You laugh as he throws popcorn at his brother like they’re children. And you smile to yourself.

He never got to be a kid, really so why not hold onto that freedom now?

I've been the archer

He’d been the winner

I've been the prey

He was the prey

Who could ever leave me, darling?

You could never leave him, darling.

But who could stay?

Home always stayed.

[bbrissonn]

𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐮 - 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐫 𝐳𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐬 (𝟔)

╰┈➤ a week after her album released, lanny has a special surprise for her fans

╰┈➤ pairing: trevor zegras x ex!singer!girlfriend

╰┈➤ social media + real life

╰┈➤ disclaimer: i made a shitty ass graphic for the special surprise, ik it's ass, but it's the best it's gonna get so no judging pls

╰┈➤ masterlist

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-OCTOBER 20TH, 2023-

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: ̗̀➛ alannaoregon has posted on instagram

alannaoregon

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alannaoregon i guess i suck at keeping things a secret cause like all of twitter knew... BUT IM GOING ON TOUR LOVES !!!

i seriously cannot put into words how thankful for all the love and support you've shown my album in the last week, and just to me in general for the past four years.

all the sweet words and messages truly mean everything to me. some of you are a little crazy if i say so on tiktok, BUT I LOVE IT !!!

anyways, i can't wait to spend my nights yelling with all of you and interact with you !!!

love, lanny 🩵

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becky.rivera can't wait to travel the world with you girl

alannaoregon @/becky.rivera who said you're coming? becky.rivera @/alannaoregon GIRL alannaoregon @/becky.rivera we're finally gonna go visit that one mamma mia spot becky.rivera @/alannaoregon SHUT UP IM SO EXCITED

_alexturcotte ok miss worldwide

colecaufield dont forget about us lan

alannaoregon @/colecaufield never coley

user72 girl six shows in the uk, but none in france??

user829 @/user72 no seriously, there's only one in italy !! alannaoregon @/user829 i can promise you that more dates are to come in the near future. this is only the first part of my first tour, and it certainly won't be my last :)

jackhughes can i get free tickets pls

alannaoregon @/jackhughes clean my room for the next five summers and i'll think about it jackhughes @/alannaoregon I'LL DO ANYTHING PLS IM BROKE trevorzegras @/jackhughes sure ya are bud, you got the biggest contract of all of us alannaoregon @/jackhughes YAH WHAT ZEBRA SAID, PAY FOR IT MISTER IT GIVES ME MONEY

user6290 OMG MOTHER AND FATHER INTERECTING IN THE COMMENTS

user0247 @/user6290 SO GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO SAW IT

jamie.drysdale ur putting me in a though spot rn lanny

alannaoregon @/jamie.drysdale WHAT DID I DO??? jamie.drysdale @/alannaoregon HOW DO I DECIDE WHICH SHOW TO GO TO??? alannaoregon @/jamie.drysdale why pick when you can go to both jamie.drysdale @/alannaoregon and third wheel during the summer too?!?! im staying in toronto thanks alannaoregon @/jamie.drysdale fake fan user278 @/jamie.drysdale THIRD WHEEL IN ANAHEIM???

user9291 lanny please don't make these tickets cost me a liver

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-REAL LIFE, ANAHEIM-

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"I'm so proud of you, Lana." Trevor whispered as his thumb rubbed the same patch of skin bellow the girl's eye. Her eyes were looking at him like he had hung the moon, while he stared at her with such admiration in his eyes.

"'M proud of you, too, Trevs." She answered, her voice low, making the boy chuckle slightly.

"Don't make this about you, love. You're going on a world tour." He breathed out, his voice filled with disbelief.

"Oh, now you don't wanna talk about you, huh?" She teased him. Trev let out a dry chuckle before bringing the girl close to his chest. The two were currently laying in Trevor's bed in hid new house. The boy finally decided he didn't need a roommate, meaning the two could now have alone time whenever they wanted. Well, Trevor likes to put it that way, but they both know it's because none of his teammate wanted to live with him anymore.

"This wouldn't be happening without you, T." She whispered against his chest, making the boy tense up slightly.

"In a bad way, or in a good way?"

"Good way. If I had never met you, I wouldn't have released my first album, and my career probably wouldn't be where it is right now. You're the best thing that's ever been mine." She whispered.

"You did not just quote Taylor Swift-"

"I did!" The girl giggled. Her boyfriend rolled his eyes before lifting her head and pressing a soft kiss to her lips. "Say it back."

"You are the most wonderful and amazing thing that's ever been mine, sweetheart." The Ducks player mumbled before pressing a hard kiss to his girlfriend's lips. The singer couldn't help but smile at his words.

This was the happiest she had been in a long time, and nothing was going to ruin it.

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taglist <3 @lxnceclercs @aliaology

[charlesleclerc2003]

All I want! Jared X Reader (Jensen X Reader)

Summary: After the sudden death of your husband, his best friend helps you through the grief.

Warnings: Death of a major character, suicidal thoughts, depression.

A/N: I'm sorry I haven't written anything in a while, my life has been hectic recently, but hopefully I'll be posting more often now things have calmed down.

My Masterlist

If you ever want a request my inbox is always open. I will try and get any done as soon as possible. Always looking for more inspiration, hopefully you guys can help.

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You were sat at your desk, flicking through your emails when your phone rang. You happily picked it up since your husband usually called you after he finished filming a scene

You had met your husband, Jared after being a guest star it one of the episodes for his show Supernatural. You two had immediately hit it off and he had asked you out. You had been dating from two years even whilst you lived in the uk and he was filming in Vancouver, when he asked you to marry him.

He made it extremely romantic and not long after you found out you were pregnant with your first child. You moved out to the states to live with him. That was when you met Jensen, his best friend and co-star in Supernatural. Little did you know how much he would help you in the coming months.

After your first child was born Jared, regrettably, went back to work with Jensen. He didn't want to leave you so soon after giving birth but both you and Jensen assured him that everything would be okay, and that you had Jensen's wife Daneel to help you if you needed it.

He made sure to call you whenever he wasn't filming just to check in on you and your son, Ash. It became a habit and he calls you every day just to check in whilst he's away.

You found out you were pregnant again shortly after the boys started filming season 10. Jared was so happy, and all the crew threw him a party to celebrate.

It was that night that you got the call you were never hoping to receive. Your phone rang at 2 in the morning waking you and your sleeping toddler.

Answering it, you didn't even look at the caller ID.

You didn't recognise the voice on the other end. Then your heart dropped, "I'm afraid to say your husband has been in a road traffic collision."

"Is he okay?" You question.

There is silence on the other end before they say "I'm very sorry for your loss Mrs Padalecki."

Your phone drops from your hand and you let out a few quiet no's.

You start to shake and sob uncontrollably.

You hear footsteps coming up the stairs before Daneel rushes in, engulfing you in a hug and letting you scream and cry on her shoulder.

The sound of your toddler screaming breaks through, and you reach for him. You pull him onto your lap and cry into his long hair. He is an exact copy of Jared.

You look up at Daneel, and her heart breaks for you, "it's gonna be okay." She says giving both of you a hug.

"He's gone." You whisper, Dani, barely able to hear you.

The next few days were blurry, everything happened so quickly.

You all flew out to vancouver, Jensen met you all at the airport. As soon as he saw you he hugged you tight. You broke down again.

"It's gonna be okay." He mumbled into your hair.

Your hand immediately went to your stomach where your unborn baby girl was certainly very active.

You had the funeral back in Texas, and Jensen didn't want to leave you on your own, so they invited you to stay at theirs. You could stomach staying in your own home. Everything of his was still there.

You found you really struggled with day to day things, even seeing your son shattered your heart. He looked so much like Jared, your heart couldn't take it.

One night, it got too much. You found your self in the bathroom surrounded by pills. You didn't want to do it but your heart couldn't take it anymore.

You sent a quick text to Jensen, 'Im sorry'

A few seconds later your phone rang. You answered put it on speaker and laid it down on the floor.

"Y/N, are you there? What's with the text? Are you okay?"

You burst into tears, and you hear rustling and voices on the other end of the phone.

"It's okay stay on the phone with me, me and Dani are coming round. Where are you sweetheart?"

You manage to croak out "Bathroom, upstairs."

You hear the door unlock, all of a sudden glad they had a spare key to your room. The bathroom door opens and what Jensen sees breaks his heart.

He crouches down and pulls you into a hig whilst Dani gets rid of the pills.

He pulls away, his hands still on your shoulders, and looks you in the eyes.

"I need you to be honest with me, have you taken any?" He asks as his thumb rubs your arms softly.

You start to cry again and shake your head no.

He lets out a breath, glad you hadn't done anything.

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A few months later, you're finally doing better. It still hurts, and it always will. But Jen and Dani have done so much to make it easier for you. You've started therapy, and you're on medication for your depression. They were even there when you went into labour with your baby girl.

You decide to name your daughter Elouise Ross Padalecki after Jensen.

Years down the line you're finally in a better place and you visit his grave every week. Telling your children stories of their father. Jensen and Misha love to tell them all the goofy things he used to do on set.

[meanscarletdeceiver]

More on Nobby's social life in preservation

Some buddies of special note:

GER 87: They were together in their Clapham Transport Museum days too, and iirc when the time came they were pulled up to York on the same train. 87's just a very nice lad, uncomplicated, not a bad rivet in 'im. His departure for a smaller museum a few years back was upsetting for him and his friends. Kudos to all these old sods, that time around they finally dropped some of the stiff-upper-lip-ness with which they had pulled through all their long lives... internet therapy is going great!

L&YR Aspinall 1008: An even older friend, from Nobby's days at Horwich Works... and had to make a tank engine friend, you know; life is hardly worth living without one! 1008 is a personable engine, though her flaw is that she prides herself on being "a card." "a wag." "a real live wire!" :D She's good fun. Sorta.

MR Composite Coach: They didn't meet till NRM and in fact it wasn't until well into their tenure there that they discovered that they have a similar outlook. They're both very smart and shrewd and skeptical, and that means that, after a long day entertaining guests and behaving themselves, they can have some great late-night private chinwags where they just read everyone else for filth.

NER 1275: He and 1275 (sometimes known informally as "Hip," sometimes as "Bouch") are an especially close pair in the NRM phase of their lives.  They have a lot of life experiences in common so, when it comes to the most important things, they get each other. But that doesn't mean they are always or even often exactly of one mind. Hip loves rousing music hall numbers, sunny showtunes, even had a disco phase! And, as far as audiobooks, he merely tolerates Nobby's dry, heavy nonfiction until it's his turn for them to listen to stories, veering towards fantasy and adventure. The two of them are affectionately resigned to each other's regrettable tastes.

Notably these friends are all pretty low-key and on the whole less famous than him. Coppernob will insist, year in and year out, that he stays strictly out of the internal politics of the more august preserved UK engines. But he says this because he's lying to you and to himself, lol.

It is true that he was shellshocked and felt out of place when first removed from Barrow. The preservation circuit felt so intimidating and cosmopolitan at times. And even these days, now very much at home in the NRM, he tends to be better at keeping his opinions to himself than he used to ("pah! leave me out of it. i'm not anybody.") But this only heightens his impact once he finally breaks his silence, and the truth is that he relishes that.

[beardedjoel]

hii julie!!:) this may be kind of weird but i just had to ask you for opinion. so we all know that gladiator 2 releases on 15th november in uk and i was trying to book a flight just to see pedro even if from a far (if he even shows up, i hope he does🙏🏻) and im kind of confused because from what i've read on google the red carpet premiere is 18th november but it just seems kind of weird cause it's like 3 days after the movie comes up in cinemas so i don't have an idea when to book a flight to london. like idk if i should book a flight on the 13th in case red carpet would be 14th or 15th of november or or will it actually be on the 18th even if it doesn't make sense😭😭😭 i just love pedro so much and since i'm living in europe it's not so far away to fly to london from where i live

ooh anon i wish i knew more about this for you! i always assumed things happened before the movie came out but that might just be for LA here in the states since it's such a big movie hub. so that could be why the london one is later? but i know they aren't typically open for the public as far as i know, so i hope you have some luck with it! depending on how long you're able to stay, maybe go a day or two early like around the 15th or 16th for a chance to see what's happening! and then catch the film in london on opening night for fun either way 🤭

[fuckinorangecat]

part 2

Abysmal. There is a character limit, I can't believe this madness. Anyway.

We walked through a bunch of claw machine/gatcha shops and played a little bit. It was nice and I saw a very dedicated lady trying her absolutely hardest trying to get a golden kamuy figurine. She got it in the end, I was so happy for her. I was gonna attempt myself and if I got it I would've given it to her. She looked so close to giving up. Ahh, human perseverance. After that we got tired and went to a cafe where we waited for another addition to the party. A scottish JET, we outnumbered the American 3:1, fuck yeah. After meeting up with walked around further and went to a retro game store called Super potato or some shit. It was actually really cool lol, they had a claw machine for random ds/psp games and just a bunch of niche but cool japanese titles that we never saw in the west. One day I'll be able to read and play them properly. After that we found a fucking kebab stand, me and the friend I was staying with went ballistic, much to the american's confusion. Also the way americans say kebab is hilarious lol. We instantly buy some wraps and devour them, although it made me sad because it didn't hit the same as home. Guess it'll never be the same. Straight after I bought takoyaki, it was a very fat day but we walked like 30,000 steps by the end of the day so it should be fine - plus im on holiday. I'm not actually the biggest fan of takoyaki btw, too fucking heavy of a food. It's like eating a small rock every ball. After that we decide to find an izakaya and wind down. We find a place with outdoor seating and a perfect 6 seats, we were expecting two more JETs. Two more americans which unfortunately bring the numbers even. When they arrived, it was lovely. We all just spoke about random shit I can't even remember and drank. It was a great night. We bonded and exchanged instagrams, the Osaka JETs loved me and I them. Before going home we went to a conbini and I bought ice cream along with this other JET who LOVES ice cream. She bought one earlier too so I thought I'd join her this time. We ate ice cream and went on our merry way home. Two of the JETs go on the same train as us so we mingled a bit more. The girls all decided to have a twilight binge together, they invited me too but damn I smelled like shit. Ain't no way I'm polluting someone else's house. Especially after she showed me how nice her little place was lol. It'd be like a hotbox but instead of weed it's dutty fuckin' pits and tbh whole body. It was hot ok and I suffer in those conditions. 35 degrees celcius and crazy humid. Also we were exhausted since we've been running on 5 hours sleep. SO WE GO HOME, shower and sleep pretty much straight away.

The next day I woke up, packed up early to meet a former coworker from the UK. He was in Japan for a couple of weeks and I promised I'd meet him, that was actually the whole reason I came to Osaka. I said goodbye to my friend and went straight to the station my friend was arriving to. Travelling around Osaka was easy, it was pretty much identical to the tube. Just with better trains (airconditioned). I reunited with my former coworker and it was great lol. It's felt good speaking to someone I've known for a pretty long time, even though realistically we've only been apartment for like just under two months lol. Not much to actually write about but we did some touristy things! Went to the aquarium, which was actually the biggest aquarium in the world when it was built in 1990. I remember reading it on wikipedia before I was here randomly. I didn't realise it was the same one till I got there and felt a hint of familiarity. After that we met up with the rest of his friends which was amusing, a total of 6 black people and me so everyone was looking at us. I couldn't stay long but I helped them find a restaurant and order, talk a small bit, exchanged instas and left for my dreaded 7 hour journey back home. My friend actually walked with me to the coach station, bless him and i almost missed it too lol. I was very panicked and annoyed, thank you D for putting up with that. I hope the rest your trip to Japan was great.

The coach journey itself was fine, this time I actually slept most of the way unlike last time. I couldn't wait to be home and when I got home I was greeted by my neighbourhood cat Pochi. I was happy.

AWAY THAT CONCLUDES THE OSAKA ARC AND IM LAZY AGAIN

love, J-sensei

[hotchley]

🐨 Yay, I’m glad it’s going well for you! Don’t be afraid to speak up; you’re so freaking smart and everyone should hear what you have to say. I’ve been accepted to one college, applied to two more that I’ll hear back from in December, and then I’m waiting on one more letter of recommendation before I can submit the last few.

The college I got accepted to is an all-girls school that’s right by where my brother goes to college. It’s where his girlfriend goes. She works for the admissions office, too, so that’s kind of funny. There’s an event for accepted seniors in high school where we get to tour some of the dorms and go to an activities fair and stuff, so she and her roommate invited me to stay the night at their apartment that day too, which will be super fun!

The poetry contest I’m in the finals for is called The Who Freaking Care Writing Contest For Poetic Rejects, which is the best name ever. It cracks me up. I submitted my poem solely because the idea of an ostrich picture as a rejection letter was amazing to me. I didn’t get an ostrich but that’s okay! If you want to look it up, my poem is called Black Holes :)

I have a good deal of school work to do today but I may end up pushing it off to tomorrow. I work best right at the deadline. My mom and I got coffee this morning though so I might just try to power through a bunch of it while Im caffeinated.

I have a few songs I want to work on with my guitar, and then some stuff I have to learn for church. I’m on the worship team for our Thanksgiving service, which should be fun! There’s a pie potluck for the worship team. I sang at the Christmas service last year and it was a great time.

Oh, and have you listened to Midnights?? I listened right at midnight when they came out and it was great. I really like Anti-Hero right now, but my favorites switch around every time I listen. I can’t wait to hear your thoughts!

I was absolutely convinced I had answered this. Clearly I had not but anyways I'm answering it now, hi.

That's very kind of you.

Also super cool! You absolutely deserve to get in. And can I just say, I went to an all girls school for seven years. Whilst it has absolutely destroyed any ability to interact with people normally (see: the Canadian guy who potentially despises me but was also a walking red flag that I ignored for reasons I will not disclose) it is also one of the most unifying things ever.

Ahhh that sounds like so much fun!!

I did in fact read your poem. Several times. And I voted for it because it was my favourite and I was obsessed with it. I love the ostrich picture, my rejection messages have just been: unfortunately your application was unsuccessful and we cannot provide feedback </3

Whatever works for you! I absolutely cannot work close to the deadline, I'm awful and I shut down completely and I cannot read anything properly. My essays are due on the 11th and 13th and they're done. Everything else is not but it's absolutely fine. Coffee sounds great though. I should make some...

Ooooh that does sound like a lot of fun! Do potlucks really work? We sometimes get told by an aunt that she's bringing things for us, but I wouldn't trust some of the people in my family to do their part haha.

I have in fact listened to Midnights. Several times now. It came out at 5am in the UK, but I had to walk to the coach station to get home and it takes 40 minutes so I listened at like 3pm and then on the journey home. I think, after several months, my favourites cannot be narrowed down apart from them not being Lavender Haze or Snow on the Beach. I do however think Anti Hero, Would've, Could've, Should've and You're On Your Own, Kid are very much Tristan songs so I have a soft spot for them :)

[mirobami]

Hey, great to see you again! May i request headcannons of Miyo, sumika and ririka slow dancing with the reader? Like they dont know how to dance, but the readers really gentle and patient teaching them how to. Hope you have a great day/afternoon/evening, dont forgot to stay hydrated! Its really hot in the UK rn. ( im literally melting) love your writing. Bye :)

↳ slow dancing tutorials

❤ GENRE: fluff.

❤ CHARACTER(S): m. inbami, s. warakubami, r. momobami

❤ SYNOPSIS: in request!

❤ NOTE: Hi hi! omg i've been hearing a lot about the heat in the uk, do stay hydrated too, this summer is quite frankly trying to murder us all also I can’t imagine sumika not knowing how to dance so enjoy a little slow dancing headcanon for her

━ MIYO INBAMI ;

It was really late, almost 2 am and the world outside was dark yet calm, because no one was outside, everyone was sleeping peacefully

Or so she thought, until you had walked into the living room turned into her laboratory

She had gotten an idea for a new chemical that she wanted to test out so she got out of bed to test it, hoping you wouldn't wake up but alas, her hope was futile because you could sense her not in bed with you

You can see that Miyo has dark bags under her eyes, meaning this was not the first time she got up at an ungodly hour and didn't go back to sleep

She ushers you to go back to sleep but you shake your head and say, "You look tired. How long have you been working on this?"

The silence says everything and you tap her hand, suggesting, "Dance with me."

She didn't expect that but she expected much less for her body to move on its own and before she knew it, she was slow dancing with you--or attempting to slow dance

She knew she couldn't, but she couldn't say no to you; it didn't mean that she wasn't nervous about stepping on your feet and she constantly looked down so that she didn't step on you

You patiently taught her a simple two step that she could follow, then a simple movement that you could practically dance to on a plate

Miyo clung to you, her face buried in your neck while trying to make her feet move the way you taught her to; she was smart so she caught on quickly and also caught on to what you were trying to do

You had single handedly made her take a break without doing much; Miyo was not only impressed, her chest was warm as she continued dancing the night away with you

━ SUMIKA WARAKUBAMI ;

She has had to learn how to slow dance several times as an actress, and especially since she gets invited to "galas" that always involve a little bit of dancing

So when she asks you to be her date to one of the galas, you wholeheartedly accept, ready to slow dance with her

The night is long yet the time has finally come for the both of you to get on the dance floor, moving in rhythm to the dreamy music playing from afar

Sumika was confident in her skill, but she didn't expect you to be good either; you didn't notice but because of both of your skills had gained the attention of the other individuals in the same room as you

You two never stepped on each other's feet but Sumika was gazing at you lovestruck, just like you had seen her in one of her roles, only this time, you were the love interest in a very much real setting

"Darling, why didn't you tell me you could dance like an angel?" Sumika asked curiously

"I'm full of surprises."

"That, you are."

No one expected her to be with someone; after all, she was the untouchable Natari Kawaru, infamous for her many roles that were merely dreams to never be granted for others

But for you, she was just Sumika Warakubami, the girl who was head over heels for you and always missed you when she was filming, always brought you back items that reminded her of you, always wrote you letters that she gave you, indicating how deep her love for you ran

Sumika's ability to slow dance was just as mesmerizing as her acting, only this was more authentic and its memory was reserved for you only

━ RIRIKA MOMOBAMI ;

She’s so nervous about stepping on your feet the first time you suggest slow dancing with her

Yes, she's a Momobami, no, she has never learned how to slow dance before and now she wishes she took up on those ballroom waltzing classes her servants offered her when she was little

But how could she reject you, when you looked ethereal and out of a fantasy with the green of the trees, the rustle of the wind, and the sunshine all coming together to paint you into a picture she would burn into her mind?

You take the lead, your hand on her waist and taking her other hand in your free one

She definitely felt like a princess but the illusion was quickly ruined when she could feel herself stepping on your feet

Instead of chiding her, you gently fuided her through some simple and common steps in slow dancing

She was so focused on how you were teaching her that she didn't notice that you were gazing at her with so much love in your eyes; she noticed and there was a red tinge across her cheeks before she let herself be led by you

It was a calm atmosphere, no one would be able to interrupt you here; it was only you and her, able to control whatever narrative your dancing could write out

Ririka could swear that this moment was made more perfect by the wind singing its own unintelligible melody, only to be heard by you two

She wasn't as anxious about dancing with you anymore, she welcomed it gladly and would definitely take you up on the chance whenever the opportunity arose again

[time-is-honey]

coming home wounded (to childe)

hi! sorry ive been MIA recently, UK daylight savings happened recently and im still not used to living here (woah honey lore, ze moved to the UK a few months ago)

also u two aren't dating in this but theres some romantic tension because of course there is

warnings: blood, gore, swearing, mentions of undressing but it goes literally nowhere, childe’s real name used, not proofread

hes so concerned!!!

huge crush on u, hates seeing u hurt

geeeeeeeentle

makes u feel safe, constantly reassuring you

sleeps in ur room that night

“You don't have to tell me right now.”

God, fucking ow. Treasure hoarders usually aren't a big deal for you, just mind your business and walk by. Today was different though, for some reason. Some fucker in a mask decided YOU needed to be today’s target, so now you're stuck with a stab wound on your thigh and damn, it fucking hurts. You’ve never really been injured to this extent considering you're not much of a fighter, so your tolerance is practically nonexistent. Having to walk home isn't much better either, but at least you might have someone waiting for you. Your good friend Tartaglia has been your roommate for around two months, and it's honestly a 50/50 chance that he’s home to help you.

Fumbling with your keys, you finally manage to make it inside your house. By this point though, the pain was far too much, and you collapse, yelling in pain. You’re conscious, you know that, but it’s getting pretty hard to stay that way. Your prayers seem to be answered though, and your roommate rushes to your side.

“[Name]?? What happened?” He asks frantically, his usual confident facade is nowhere to be found.

All you can manage is a sob as he lifts you. He doesn't need an answer, honestly. All he knows is that you need help and that he has the supplies to help you.

“It’s alright, you don't have to tell me right now. I’ll get you patched up, okay? You're gonna be just fine.” He reassures you as he sets you down on the bathroom floor. You believe him, of course, since his tone of voice is the most genuine you've ever heard from him. You have to admit, being vulnerable around him when he’s like this doesn't feel that wrong. You wouldn't even mind crying right now if it wasn't for the fact that your leg had a fucking stab wound in it.

“It hurts, Ajax, it hurts so bad.” You can’t speak louder than a whisper at this point, that's how awful your pain is, but he hears you loud and clear. He pauses, not for long, but long enough to take in the fact that you just used his real name for the first time. He had more important things to worry about though, so he ignored the pink slowly spreading across his cheeks.

“I know, [Name], I promise that you’re gonna be okay. I've treated wounds like this many a time, so I know what I'm doing. You can trust me, I swear on it.” He gives a slight squeeze to your hand before getting to work.

“I’m gonna have to take off your pants. I know it's awkward but your wound is much too high up for me to be able to treat you properly. Is that alright?” You nod reluctantly, only hesitating because of how painful you know it’ll be.

He slowly unbuckles your belt and pulls them down, you wince and tighten the rock-solid grip you have on your sink.

"Sorry, I know it hurts, I'm being as gentle as I can.” You've never heard him speak in this soft of a tone, you almost wish he’d be like this more often, but considering the circumstances, it may be for the best that he’s not.

He treats your wound as if you could crumble under his touch. He’s never seen you as fragile or weak and has never treated you that way either. Until now, anyway. He’s constantly checking if you’re alright, hoping your pain is subsiding even a little. Tartaglia can't stand to see you cry, much less cry due to this level of pain. He can't help but take a break every few minutes when applying medicine just to hold your hand and tell you everything’s going to be okay. He’d never do this for anyone else, but something about you just makes him want to shield you from the world and keep safe.

As he wraps up your wound with the last of his bandages, his tone of voice becomes increasingly less worried. His normal cocky attitude slowly creeps his way back into his cadence.

“See? I told you you’d be just fine, I'm a master at treating wounds. Don't you just feel peachy?” Any semblance of vulnerability you both shared is quickly swept away, as expected from Tartaglia.

Of course, you need to quip back, “I’m sitting in front of my roommate with my pants around my knees and a fucking stab wound in my thigh. I’ll give you one guess as to whether or not I feel ‘peachy.’”

He chuckles at your response before lifting you in his arms once again, taking you to your bedroom this time.

“Get changed,” he says, his genuine tone coming back slowly, “or try to, anyway. I’m staying with you tonight whether you like it or not. I've gotta keep an eye on you in case I made a mistake patching you up.”

He’s lying, and he knows he is. Something in him is screaming to stay with you, even if he knows you’re completely set. You even have a feeling he’s lying.

“You sure?” your question through your closed door.

“Positive.”

His warm smile greets you as you open your bedroom door once again. You try to limp slowly to your bed, but feel the same arms life you yet again.

“Don’t put weight on your leg.” He gently sets you down on one side of your bed and climbs onto the other, facing the ceiling.

What seems like a few hours seem to go by, there's a noticeable amount of tension surrounding the two of you, but you seem to ignore it. Tartaglia, on the other hand, hates awkward silence.

“[Name]?”

“Hm.”

“You called me Ajax earlier.”

Shit. You so did. You REALLY hoped he wouldn't acknowledge it, especially considering how vulnerable you seemed to be.

“Guess I did, why are you pointing it out?”

“I’m not upset, don’t worry. I just keep wondering why you did specifically then.”

All you can manage in response is to clear your throat. He laughs quietly and turns toward you, grabbing your hand yet again.

Giving it a reassuring squeeze, his voice lowers to a whisper. “It’s alright, you don't have to tell me right now.”

The two of you stay that way, fingers interlocked with no intention of ever letting go. You two were just friends, of course, but here in your bed, relationship status meant nothing. You both knew you’d have to take on tomorrow like none of this happened, but for now, you both just wanted to stay with each other for as long as possible.

You closed your eyes not long after, you knew you couldn't manage to fall asleep any time soon, but you may as well try. The pain in your leg was still excruciating, but Tartaglia’s presence seemed to be far more relaxing, so maybe you have a shot.

A few moments go by before a light squeeze is given to your hand.

“I’m so glad you’re safe, I don’t know what I’d do without you.” His voice is no louder than a whisper. He plants a kiss on your forehead before turning over to get some sleep of his own.

His misguided authenticity only fuels you to do the unthinkable and mutter softly in his ear.

“Thank you, Ajax. I love you.”

Who knew all you needed was a stab in the thigh to finally say that.

SORRY IF THIS SUCKS ITS LIKE 6 AM AND I STILL HAVE YET TO GO TO BED AHHHH OK GN

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[shadyteacup]

Hi, I really have no clue how to puts words on my thoughts so ig I shall start by apologising I kinda have nobody to talk, I've read your writings for a while now and I always love them so it kinda ended up like a safe place even if that may sounds weird? I've been feeling really down, idk since when maybe 5 or 6 months or even more I don't really realise. My mind has been sm of a mess I don't know how to deal with it anymore I worry over deaths of beloved, insecurities, weird dreams or disturbing thoughts, studies, future and relationships or just interaction with others. I've always had to bottle up those feeling and this issues bc my parents(I'm a minor) always said seeing a psy was for weak or crazy people (ngl I wanted to punch them) so I didn't get any help. The only thing I'm holding to stay sain all seem to fly away, I can't get rid of the past and I'm scared of the future, where everyone would be deconnected and nothing would be real anymore. I know that's dumb and childish to worry over such things and it's like I keep walking to a wall my mind created and then one day I'll crash into it, lost the person I love the most, I will be all alone forever and nothing could fill me. Idk how to talk to other too, I end up cracking some jokes and make fun of what scares me bc i'm afraid of their reaction, they're gonna laugh at me and distanciate from me and I'll be all alone bc socialising with other hard .I've seriously asked myself if I should end my days, thinking it would be the only way to put my mind at ease, to fully relax and don't worry over a single thing. I want to see again those I've loved and still love. If I care for the whole world why don't anybody look up for me? I'm a coward so I can't even handle this by myself and take a decision alone but I acknowledge that so I'm not even ashamed anymore. There again I sincerely apologise for venting to u about my whole issues and on heavy subjects with a poor English and sm mistakes that I would feel ashamed to read what I just wrote.

At least I wish you a good day/night, that everything goes well for u and by the occasion I wanted to tell you how i love your writings and your blog is really amazing for me <3

Hi

I know I took long to answer this, and by now you've probably given up any hopes of getting an answer back

But it took so long because I was going through this too, and every time I tried answering, it ended up triggering me.

There was a time when I was suicidal myself.. idk if I should call it that, because I never acted on it, but yes, constant thoughts of wanting to off myself did flood my mind back then.

In fact, I felt that way exactly during the time period of receiving this ask, making it rlly hard for me to help u..

uk, in Hinduism, there's a saying that goes, "if you want to help others with something, practise it yourself first"

There's a whole story about how this God, who loved eating malai/makhan (sort of like cream, made from milk- but that's not the point), was approached by a mother, who asked him to help her son quit his own malai addiction. She wanted him to do something about her son's addiction. So He asked her to give him 10 days to solve the problem.

After said time, He came back to the duo, and simply said, "Stop eating so much malai, son, its not good for your health." to the son.

You know why He took 10 days? He tried to end his own addiction, first. Because in order to help others, you must help yourself first.

And, unfortunately, my 10 days aren't over yet. But every time I come across your ask in my inbox, I yearn to be able to do something about it. Because I want to help you, but im not qualified to do so.

Just remember that there are other people going through what you have gone through/ are going through, and that you are not alone.

Yes, maybe talking to a therapist might help you, but if your parents aren't allowing you to do so (ik, adults can be dumb about such things), search for therapists online. Im sure there are free consultations available online. Or even better, if your educational institute provides a student section, you can talk to them. I'm pretty sure most of the institutes today have a psy available for students to talk to. Make the most of it!

As for the suicidal thoughts, remember how valuable you are. Your life isn't a fickle thing to give up on so easily. In the end, you are your own strength and best friend. Talk to yourself, be kind to yourself, and most importantly, be truthful.

Wanna know how I overcame my intrusive thoughts? I talked to myself. Literally, I sat in front of a mirror and talked. At first, it felt a little weird, but you know, after a while, I found comfort in that. I became my own therapist, and helped myself out of it. This was tough, since due to the pandemic, everyone from my family was home, but I still managed to lock myself away in my room for some time. And I used to whisper, or talk softly so as to not let anyone know what im doing.

u n I were going through the same thing, but I hope its all in the past for you<3

again, im truly sorry that I couldn't muster up the courage to answer this earlier, and I hope this helps you.

and remember, I care about you, n so do your parents. they might say no to a therapist, but they care about you, and love you. You never know, maybe they themselves went though something similar earlier in their lives, but didn't know how to vent it out. Parent are sometimes grown ups who don't know how to perfectly handle a situation, so they do/say what they have been taught to do/say in such situations. Society can make seeking therapy a taboo, or a big deal, and maybe they don't know how to see beyond that. Don't hate them for it, but do remember to never make the same mistake when you grow up... I really do care for u, n truly love you, so pls, take care of urself

[strongsassysexysloane]

Eleventh Day of Twelve - A Tired but Treasured Day

A/N - Look at that! We are second from the end! Thank you to all the comments and love! Really appreciate it, it's been a long week!

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Read previous drabbles below.

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You walked into the office clinging to your cup of coffee. It felt like you were just here and you were, only five hours ago. This time however it was your own doing. You'd found a tiny shred of evidence to go on and had to follow it before the trail went cold. Then it lead to Gibbs and Nick finding the killer in a warehouse in town and bringing him in at just after 0100. You didn't finish interrogating until 0200 and it was now 0730. Coffee, coffee needed to be pumped into you to wake up this morning and a constant flow throughout the day would be required.

To your delight there was a hot cup sitting on your desk as you walked into the bullpen. No note so you assumed this time it wasn't from your gift giver. Day 11 and no one had spilled the beans or gone looking at the cameras like they wanted to on day one.

"Gibbs dropped it off about five minutes ago before he went down to get a report from Kasie who wasn't pleased to be called in so early." Ellie explained while leaning back in her chair and sipping her coffee. "He brought one for all of us."

"Christmas miracles do happen." Nick grinned, dropping his small cup in the trash. "Done."

"It's not a race. You just slugged all your energy for the next three hours."

"Oh please, I've stayed up later and come to work more tired before. Remember the November incident." He waved off.

"I still feel hungover from it." Ellie grumbled, scrunching her nose at the memory of Tequila.

"Please don't remind me." Tim groaned. "Plus I'm not allowed anymore Tequila, Delilah's orders."

"She may be on to something." You ran your hand through your hair, smirking at the banter. Turning on your computer for the day, you saw the next gift hanging from your desk lamp. It was beautiful, a little teddy bear carved out of marble with a shimmering purple and green crown sitting on its head.

"Day 11, the gift giver strikes again." You rolled your eyes at Nick's words while holding the Christmas decoration in your hand, running your thumb over the intricate detail.

It was sweet, a cute addition to your small Christmas tree at home. You'd put it up on December one. That was your tradition and some years it didn't seem worth it but you made the effort. Being alone on Christmas sucked, there was no way around it but this year you were making an effort to not sulk about it. The secret gift giver certainly lifted the spirit as well.

Your tree wasn't over the top but a nice addition to your home. This would fit perfectly front and centre and you made sure of it.

The day was relatively easy. The office banter keeping the spirits going with a good supply of caffeine. It was really just a lot of paper work and then you were set free around mid afternoon to try and have that weekend off. This time Vance made sure the team wouldn't be called in. There were other agents to take the call after all.

You'd missed Jack most of the day and didn't want to interrupt her as she was head deep in evals for the end of year. Instead you decided to shoot her a text when you got home.

- Just wanted to say have a good weekend. Didn't want to interrupt your head mojo.

You knew she'd get a kick out of it and you weren't mistaken.

- Head mojo hey? Smarty in the evening just like you said. Missed you today, didn't realise how many evals I still had to do before I went on my trip. Now I'm back logged and still at work.

It was just hitting 1830 which was a late one for Jack on a Friday. She was always hurrying along at the end of the week to make sure by the time 1700 hit she was out the door.

- I hope you are either finishing for the evening or planning on having dinner while you work. It's getting late, Jack.

- No need to worry about little old me. I need to get these done, I'll grab a bite later. Enjoy your night.

An idea popped to mind, you grabbed your coat and car keys and headed back out into the snowfall with your blue scarf still wrapped around your neck.

Thankfully, you weren't too far from the Navy yard and the Diner was just a five minute detour on the route. You called ahead so the food was ready when you got there and still warm when you knocked on her door.

"Come in, y/n."

You huffed, opening the door. "Now how could you possibly know it was me?"

Jack was sitting on her couch, shoes off, legs crossed and glasses tugging her hair back and sitting on her head. "You didn't reply, you always reply. And you care too much." She got up, placing her laptop on the coffee table and walking up to you.

Those were a lot of compliments you weren't entirely prepared for. You thought Jack was the one that cared a lot, but never too much. "I think I care just the right amount but I can eat this all by myself if you'd prefer?" You smirked, pretending to walk back out but Jack caught your arm.

"I didn't mean it like that. I lo-ike that you care so much." She ran her hand up and down your arm a few times before dropping it away. Her warm comforting smile turned into a cute frown. "And don't you dare walk out on me now that youve made all this effort to come here." She took a deep breath in. "Is that two cheeseburgers and fries?"

The frown and the way her nose twitched at the smell was completely adorable. "With a side of gravy. Wasn't sure if you liked it on your fries or not." You shrugged, missing the soft and loving look Jack gave, you walked past her and sat at one end of the couch, unpacking the bag of food. "Come, sit." You urged, patting the spot beside you as she just stood there and watched.

With a soft smile curving her lips, she came around after a beat and sat exactly where you said to. She took the small pot of gravy and poured it over her fries before pouring the rest over yours. "Thank you."

You bumped her shoulder lightly. "Anytime. Can't have Jack Sloane Hangry and loose in DC." That got you a slap on the knee but it was worth it as her hand soothed the spot she hit and stayed there for a while until it was time to eat.

"Didn't mean to ruin your Friday night plans either." She took a huge bite of the burger.

Between bites you managed an answer, "You mean my big watching The Holiday movie while eating a cup of noodles or the one where I go to sleep at 7pm because im living on about four hours sleep right now."

Skipping over how tired you were she jumped at the mention of the movie. "That's my favourite Christmas movie! It's got the best of both worlds! The sun of LA and the cold winter wonderland of the UK. God, I haven't watched that in years! My mum and I went to the movies to watch it and then every Christmas after we'd watch it together, some people had Love Actually, we had The Holiday. Guess I stopped watching when mum passed." She ate a few more fries. "Wow, Jack, way to ruin the good mood. Sorry. Got lost for a moment there."

You liked it when she rambled. She always would say so many interesting things and you just loved to hear her voice. You prayed the day never came when you wouldn't hear it anymore. "Don't apologize-" You held up your hand to stop her from butting in. "- And, no it's not because of Gibbs silly rule. I enjoy hearing about your past about things you love or did. The Holiday is a sweet movie, my must watch in December along with The Grinch, Home Alone and many more. I try my best to keep the holiday spirits up when I'm by myself for them which has been the last many."

"I enjoy hearing you talk too." She smiled, taking a massive bite of her burger and filling up her cheeks.

There was no silence after that. The evals were put to the side and you talked for what seemed like hours. Talking about childhood Christmas' and silly stories to cringe worthy dating moments over this time of year. It wasn't until you couldn't keep your mouth shut from yawning that you said good night around 2300.

"Sorry you didn't get your evals done." You sing over the roof of your car as Jack unlocked her Mini.

"Don't be. I'm happy to come in tomorrow because tonight was fun!" Her genuine smile told you that she wasn't lying. You could read people pretty well and most times Jack Sloane was an enigma to you but right now you knew she was telling the truth.

"Good night, Jack."

She opened her car door before adding. "Enjoy your movie!"

You yawned with a laugh. "You're kidding right? I'm going to sleep, I'll watch it tomorrow now."

"Fair, good night y/n. Sweet Dreams!"

. . . .

Who doesn't want this to end? Me. But I also maybe, slightly want a break from writing every day. It's been fun but tiring. I've enjoyed it a lot though! I love this time of year, if only I wasn't working in retail.

[devilgod247]

This will be 3rd time lucky trying to post here, it's one of those days where it submits but doesn't actually lock in to put on my page ...

It's coming up to Xmas and we're all freezing our asses off here in the UK. Pass the blankets out, get the kettle on and get the cuppas going whilst you're wrapped up tight and snuggly.

A new year is coming up and with it comes endless possibility and wonder. We always go into the new year with fresh optimism and hope for a better year than last year but at some point during it you start to question what's really different.. you're older, hopefully more wise and craving more for comfort. Be it food, bed, a partner etc. We all fall by the wayside during it but why,Reason: we all need that boost from that something or someone to keep us going, your internal strength will only get you so far.

So how do we change the go about it, I found a little gift to myself always gives me a mini boost to keep smiling. It doesn't need to be a bought item, it could be as simple as making time for myself to go out and see the sights or to finally catch up on a boxset/film but whatever it is remember to always give yourself a pat on the back from time to time . We are our biggest critics and we never ever give ourselves the credit for doing sometimes the most impossible thing to date for yourself or others. Stop being hard on yourself. You're doing great.

Now trust me, I've not always been like this. I used to lack so much confidence to even speak up from the bullying and the being treated as an outsider/unwanted person. It took a long while to even build up the confidence to express my true feelings be it romantically or other. As a kid I fought a lot otherwise I would be targeted, I wasnt big or tall. I didn't fight to hurt people , I fought to defend myself and others who also got bullied for many different reasons. Still to the day I will always try my best to help others and it's not because I'm trying to be some sort of Saint, but it's purely because of these reasons;

1/ I hate to see others who struggle (who like I did) and not have anyone show genuine care

2/ my grandad and my mother raised me to give my all, no matter how big the challenge

3/ a past event where I lost a friend In a time where I couldn't be there for them during a night I was unwell . It still scars me to the day to put my health first ahead of others

I wear my heart on my sleeve and it's my biggest strength/weakness. When it comes to my feelings on someone I rarely show my full prowess as I didn't get that "spark" with them . I've only ever had that twice in my life and I'd like to actually stay in that place with that person one day. That side of me can conquer any difficult challenge or obstacle that stands in front of Me or them. I have fears but when im in that moment knowing I must fight for them, I don't waiver. I put my head down and get on with it, no matter how scary it may be.

There's times where I wish I could be the bad guy so I don't feel these pains that I do but I keep having to remind myself to keep on the path as the right person will be there with you to tackle all these challenges. I must be true to myself. I will always have a feeling for everyone I come across and they each get a side of Me that best fits their character and how we interact. Over time it can develop depending on how we develop that relationship.

I will continue to follow my heart and that doesn't mean love, but it means to follow the feel good and push for that forever happy . Yes there are days where you can't always be on the up but we all need days to reflect .

Yes, I still have feelings for someone who I talked to in great depths with and maybe she was right. Right person, wrong time . That's the thing about serendipity, if it's meant to be, it'll come back to you.

I've yacked for a while now, so I'll leave off with have a merry Xmas, keep warm and safe through these Baltic and freezing conditions. Tell your loved ones how much they mean to you, cherish every moment you have . I'm about to pour some hot ribena in my mug before I go see Mr. Llama again on my walk.

Have a lovely day and take it easy

Your friend

Chris

P.s. if you ever want to talk or need some help with anything I will stop what I'm doing and help you however I can(within reason obviously).

[lilplumbobs]

1-150, I'm a nice person I swear

 Under the cut bc Amber is a major Niaomi  :)

people tagged in this post im too lazy to search through 150 questions to find the question i tagged you in sorry @fadepixels @grumpysimmies @imsysimsy @backstreetsims

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? -  2. Are you outgoing or shy? - shy3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? - Ambs in 4 years4. Are you easy to get along with?- I would like to think so5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? - No bc its JP and JA and MC6. What kind of people are you attracted to? - the living kind7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? - lol no8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? - JP JA MC9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?- No10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? - Ambs 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? - Squeak Quacks12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?- Slim Shady , Puppy Dog Eyes, Bad Intentions, Not My Day, Coming Over, All Time Low13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? - YUS14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?- Eh not really. 15. What good thing happened this summer? - Ehm well Summer of 2k16 I cliff jumped16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - I haven’t kissed anybody 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? - Yus18. Do you still talk to your first crush? - Nupe19. Do you like bubble baths? - Yus and Nupe20. Do you like your neighbors? - Nupe21. What are you bad habits? - Nail Biting, Staying up until 7 am, thinking myself into bad moods and more depressing shit we can’t mention here. 22. Where would you like to travel? - UK, Bora Bora, Australia23. Do you have trust issues? - Yus (thx mom) 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? - Sleeping25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? - All of it26. What do you do when you wake up? - Go back to sleep27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? - Darker28. Who are you most comfortable around? - Ambs29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? -  wuts an ex, ive never had such thing30. Do you ever want to get married? - eh maybe31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? - Lol yes 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? CAN WE MAKE it A FOURSOME BC BABEEEE but if I only had to choose 2, JP and JA, Misha is too pure ;-; 33. Spell your name with your chin. jnoirdcyhn (close enough)34. Do you play sports? What sports? - How fast can I type35. Would you rather live without TV or music? - TV, but what about SPN ;-;36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?-Yus37. What do you say during awkward silences?- Do you like tacos38. Describe your dream girl/guy? - A living person39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?- EA and I don’t really shop 40. What do you want to do after high school? - Drag SOMEONE from UK and bring them here and have a house with them and take them to do American things ;-; 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - Yus42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? - That I don’t want to talk43. Do you smile at strangers? - Yes44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? - Outer Space45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? - My non stop screaming father46. What are you paranoid about? -  Everything47. Have you ever been high? - Nupe48. Have you ever been drunk? - Nupe49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? - Nupe50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? - Black51. Ever wished you were someone else? - All the time52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? - Self Esteem53. Favourite makeup brand? - lol whats a makeup54. Favourite store? - See above somewhere55. Favourite blog? - I don’t really have one56. Favourite colour? - Don’t have one57. Favourite food?  - Pizza58. Last thing you ate? - tuna sandwhich59. First thing you ate this morning? - tuna sandwhich60. Ever won a competition? For what? - For being the most61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? - almost got suspended for cheating (IT WAS ONCE AND NOT A BIG DEAL) 62. Been arrested? For what? - no63. Ever been in love? - nu64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? - Never had one 65. Are you hungry right now? - Always66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? - Tumblr Friends are Real Friends67. Facebook or Twitter? - Twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr? - Tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now? - Nue70. Names of your bestfriends? Ambs, Britt, Asia, Rosa, 71. Craving something? What? - Sleep72. What colour are your towels? - Mutli ( ihave a lot of towerls) 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? - Two73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? - Nupe but I have them on my shelf 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? -  4 or 5 75. Favourite animal? - CATS76. What colour is your underwear? - Pink77. Chocolate or Vanilla? - Neither78. Favourite ice cream flavour? - Ew79. What colour shirt are you wearing? - Purple ish80. What colour pants? - Blue81. Favourite tv show? - SPN or Greys82. Favourite movie? - MBV3D or Ten Inch Hero83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean Girls84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean Girls85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? - Damian86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? - Dory87. First person you talked to today? - Ambs88. Last person you talked to today?- Ambs89. Name a person you hate? - Ambs90. Name a person you love? - Ambs91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? - Ambs92. In a fight with someone? - ambs93. How many sweatpants do you have? - 294. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? -  4?95. Last movie you watched? - 96. Favourite actress? dont get me started on this one97. Favourite actor? DONT GET ME STARTED ON THIS ONE98. Do you tan a lot? - No whats tanning r u trying to get cancer99. Have any pets? - Ya 7 plus kittens 100. How are you feeling? - Sick af 101. Do you type fast? - Yus102. Do you regret anything from your past? - Yus103. Can you spell well? - Nu104. Do you miss anyone from your past? - yus105. Ever been to a bonfire party? - no106. Ever broken someone’s heart? - i think so107. Have you ever been on a horse? - yus108. What should you be doing? - school work109. Is something irritating you right now? - my sister110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? - nu111. Do you have trust issues? - yus112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - i forget who 113. What was your childhood nickname? - rosebud 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? - yus115. Do you play the Wii? - yus116. Are you listening to music right now? - yus117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? - yus118. Do you like Chinese food? - HOLY HELL YESS119. Favourite book? - i dont have one120. Are you afraid of the dark? - a little121. Are you mean? - yus122. Is cheating ever okay? - hell no123. Can you keep white shoes clean? - no 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? - no125. Do you believe in true love? - yus126. Are you currently bored? - yus 127. What makes you happy? - things128. Would you change your name? - no129. What your zodiac sign? - aries and cancer ( i did 2 different thingies) 130. Do you like subway? - YUS131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - idk ppl of the opposite sex so idk 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? - THIS WAS ALREADY ANSWERED133. Favourite lyrics right now? - trying a mind blank134. Can you count to one million? - nu135. Dumbest lie you ever told? - im sleeping when im not really sleeping136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? - closed137. How tall are you? - 5′4138. Curly or Straight hair? - straight139. Brunette or Blonde? - brunette140. Summer or Winter? - summer141. Night or Day? - night142. Favourite month? - April (MU BIRTH MONTH)143. Are you a vegetarian? - Vegan144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? - n e i t h e r shit is nasty145. Tea or Coffee? - BOTH AF146. Was today a good day? - i guess147. Mars or Snickers? - tf is a mars148. What’s your favourite quote? -  too sick to tell you 149. Do you believe in ghosts? - Yus150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “ hELL nO” 

[rosesastrology]

For anon

"theci. Scorpio/Gemini/Aquarius. Older than the internet almost. Writing a book about the Pluto in Scorpio generation. I don't know what kind of music. I used to be a musician and I sold records all over the UK and Europe and Canada but it was a different time and then they were just bad people. Suits. I never wanted to be a musician for the public to start with. But I was asked to do my private stuff for a show. I didn't want to be rude. I said ok. They called me again. LOL. Places got bigger. I know that I can say no NOW. Up to the last year and a half. I was still being polite. To EVERY single asshole I was dealing with. I had a lot of shit from salespeople I bought to get thecm to go away. Therapy was a very good idea. I'm not over yet. My ex boyfriend almost killed me in 2016. As I was just thinking about if I was about to be dead and I had a great moment of clarity in that I am not a very bad person who is not deserving of the same love I have for the other people who are NOT me. I don't deserve to be treated like a second class of being. To be an afterthought. To be an impediment to the person who is not growing up as I pay the bills and do the work of two people in a lot of the same patterns in the relationships between me and others. If I can live thru this, the game changes. No love with conditions or strings or a lot of rules that change in the mood. I am so sorry for NOT realizing that I was just as love worthy as the cats I rescued or a little kid and I don't know how to handle it because I grew up in a very unhealthy home and I can make it go. Now I have power to get the police and order a bad person to be gone. If I live I'm not going to be the same person who he was attacking in the start of this shit. So I lived. I kicked him out of my life. I wrote a good proposal to the publisher. I have a counselor. Me? 🌞♏10th house 🌜♊,(very end) ♋Mars all 5th house Saturn right between the end of 5th and start of 6th housemagine something up for me... -peppermcgowan old and living in the world of night in earth 🌎 Oh yeah everything is a 5th or 8th house thing except old ♐Neptune in the 11th.... So I guess It's just...make me WHATEVER you think I feel or sound like. I was trying to edit the other one ☝ and I accidentally had a cat walk across my phone and annihilate the majority of the shit I've written. I'm not in a dark place. Just had a couple heavy interviews with people for the book. And I've been trying to get this guy who I'm seeing to either grow up or get out. I don't have time for Pisces moon alcohol shit ..... I was a lifeguard when I was 20. Im over saving people. XO, Pepper McGowan.... Earth 🌎"

Answer: you sound badass and like you've been through a lot of things, you're in a better place now, like you said. And I hope you'll stay there, love and hope~ I wish I could help you with the Pluto in Scorpio book, but mine is in Sagittarius. It sounds very interesting though!

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