#Learn Pain Less

[the-woman-upstairs]

Daniel being both relieved AND disappointed that he and Louis didn’t fuck…………buddy I can’t wait for you to find out which vampire you DID fuck.

[enrapture]

[anbaisai]

Do you do speedpaints? Your artstyle is so lovely, I honestly just want to see your process ♡

Thank you! I... actually haven't ever recorded my progress because I'm rather embarrassed about it (including how long it takes me to complete stuff that seem simple at a glance 😭), if you ever watch me draw I think it'd be very frustrating because it's almost never a linear process of sketch -> line art -> colours 💦. This is because I always notice problems I didn't notice at first in my sketch and have to frequently make up for it by re-sketching (and finding refs) in the middle of lining, or do a loooot of adjusting and fixing near the end. So it looks a bit more like sketch -> start line art -> several hours of fixing my mistakes and redoing parts -> FINALLY finish the lines -> colour -> possibly more fixing.

Redoing things in the middle results in the sketch usually looking quite different from the one I initially started with, so I can't even make a proper progress post unless I saved screenshots from earlier stages. HOWEVER. I do have one example I can share because I did send friends screenshots, so here's a rough idea of how I made this piece!

This was the sketch I started out with:

And then this is after I very obviously went to the bathroom mirror to get better refs:

I care a lot about getting anatomy correct even if parts are covered in the final product, so I usually can't avoid sketching the body before I add clothes, hence the different colours just to help myself understand the pose/anatomy better. It wouldn't be this much of a struggle if I sat down and did some more drills practicing anatomy properly via figure drawing or something, but well... I'm lazy... so I always just study the pose or anatomy I need for the piece on the spot.

Line art, which is usually the stage I put the most work into:

Colours + any special effects or final adjustments:

All in all, I'd say my steps are pretty straightforward and nothing special, but hopefully this was somewhat helpful!

[smal5504]

ATTENTION!!! ITS HERE!!! 🚨🚨🚨

welcome to the PIN BFDIA ULTIMATE CHARACTER 💥 HYPERANALYSIS!!!

learn from this project of mine and delve into pin's excruciatingly complex character as bfdia progresses, and how all of her psychological trauma accumulates with everything she undergoes in the season (deeper than the limb pullng), permanently shaping the way she is as a character and why her actions matter .

HI OSC TUMBLR HI HI HELLO after years and years and years of screaming drawing analyzing projecting animating speculating yapping pondering and geekery over this stupid red thumbtack girl i have to say that bfdia 18 finally did it to me. im never going to be normal ever again iim nev♡♡♡♡♡♡ going♡♡♡ to be norma♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡AAAA A AAAA A aaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

im happy i could make somethigng like this it was fun!!! how often do you see a half google slides presentation half traditional video essay character speculation vid aroun here... hmmm

and by the way if you FOR ANY REASON are INTERESTED for more my work centered around pin (PLEASE PLEASE PLEAASE) then you are welcome to look and see my!!! bfdia pin imaginings series and my pin blog !!! and thaaaAAAAAAAaAAaanks

[cabbagestrand]

day 4: decided to draw akko to give her more love <3

[masterwords]

Where my whumpies at?

[commanderfreddy]

i do genuinely feel like people need to practice being miserable more. like as a skill. i feel like every day i see people making needless fools of themselves and ruining their potential for much greater fulfilment, stability, knowledge, peace, everything, out of immediate and intense knee-jerk reactions to the potential of feeling bad for even a little while. this is something i still need to work on myself but i really do believe its so important. sometimes things are sad. sometimes they are painful, uncomfortable, frightening, uncertain. agonising. refusal to let yourself feel that emotion wont make them less so. they will assert themselves upon you nonetheless.

[idontbelieveinfear]

WOULD BURN THE WORLD FOR THEM. DONT TOUCH THEM. SNAPS TEETH

[carcassfeeding]

the wolf knows something that i do not

[qoldenskies]

While I was reading chapter two, I was quite caught off guard by how "chill" everyone was acting. Like, Leo and Donnie probably just went through the most excruciatingly painful/traumtizing experiences of their lives and Donnie wakes up to Leo just joking?? Like, HOW CAN LEO EVEN SPEAK/MOVE? And then he's sneaking out with Donnie and still doing ninja stuff?? Like, he was BOILED, he should be getting SKIN grafts right now but well that's Leo the ninja turtle plot armor for you. And I guess it's been a few weeks, and the fast healing...😭?

I expected that everything was going to be utter chaos and that everything would significantly get more effed up after the first incident. But I guess I just didn't think that Donnie getting attacked at the docks was where the next incident would take place. Like, how did Leo get from being COOKED WHILST SCREAMING IN AGONY ON HIS DEATH BED to being coherent and making conversations and joking and-

God the amount of oppressed trauma and pain in these kids is INSANE.

Like dude, how did Splinter get them out of there??? Did Big Mama just let them go since the battle was just "over" and THEN he tried getting actual help for his son? How did Mike and Raph handle Donnie getting clawed to death?? In the show it took a gosh dang HANKIE AND TICKLE FIGHT for them to survive that round of Shredder. I mean, at least April was there but she hasn't really been around right now for reasons I guess. Either evacuated or just safe with her family off somewhere else (as Donnie assumes) but without even stopping by?? Unless she did while they both were unconscious, but STILL 😭

It's ringing off such heavy alarm bells in my head because I'm realizing that this is prob gonna be the "calm before the storm" scenario. And then it clicked for me that you said this was going to be a disaster twins villians au and..yeah, this is gonna get CRAZY. There's about a million different ways this could lead to that outcome, and well, I'm here for all of them lol. I'm super curious to see how you'll make that happen. I'm seeing some HEAVY foreshadowing righf now but for so many different things. Woo-wee. I'm definitely seeing a metaphorical frog slowly being boiled in the future, so good luck to this turtle fam 🫡

And lol, I know I'm ranting and not really making sense (I never do lol) but I'm sick and just a little flabbergasted. I'm not seriously asking you to answer anything. Just here's my thoughts about the chapter so you know I read it. My brain is going nuts !!

leo making jokes and acting dismissive is meant to be a bad, unnerving thing. it's unclear how long donnie has been out, personally i'd say less than a week but it was still a while. if he's woken up before this point he doesn't remember. it's long enough for leo to try and build up his walls and act dismissive about it.

trust me when i say that he's intentionally burying the lead. the weight of this trauma influences every choice he'll make going forward, and focusing on the shredder and breaking into the foot base is meant to be his way of distracting himself. it's easier to shove it aside when there's a problem that needs to be solved and you're in survival mode, which kind of applies for everyone.

the route of their physical healing is just supersoldier plot armor, though, and i will admit that lawl. i considered going more in-depth with it and making it slow and excruciating, but i needed to get the plot rolling and i thought lingering in the medbay would make the progression less clean. i think i got what i wanted to across without prolonging it, specifically looking at how the stagnancy emotionally affects leo and how every little reminder of his failure causes him to shut down or lash out

[quietwingsinthesky]

choosing to give lucy the headcanon of semi-fluency in french (<- language credit in college that she kept actively trying to keep useful) solely so that she can speak to ezio when he bleeds over through desmond. he is also only technically fluent, and his french is like six hundred years older than hers. something about the two of them being able to communicate but neither in their first language…

[mosstrades]

im someone who stuggles not to let his curiosity and drive sometimes (often) cross over into an overwhelming and maladaptive need for answers, for explanation, for certainty. someone who, historically, sees making art as a primarily intellectual exercise. this is not inherently a bad thing, we all have our temperaments and this kind of attention can be a strength. but, you know that artist who makes a painting, and then only wants to show it while explaining it to you? thats me, sometimes, more often than i like. every story i used to write had another hundred page document behind it, explicating every single choice -- often i would simply read that, instead of ever actually write the story itself. the explanation precedes everything. the answers alone are the experience.

david lynch's work and philosphy has been and is a vital foothold in my efforts to learn to love the questions as our breath. learn to appreciate intuition and dreams, trust them instead of fear them. learn to see that the world has so much confusing, uncertain, strange beauty, that can be terrifying but turns sublime when you cease rejecting it from fear. when you embrace the unknown and dont try to immediately & anxiously explicate it all away, a whole new world opens up to you. that you need the darkness in order to dream, and you need dreams in order to live fully immersed in what the world has to offer. a foothold in learning to be okay with abstraction, with imperfect subjectivity, with uncertainty. to know it is not anthitetical to truth and meaning. know that to skillfully make ideas come alive into a work *is* to rationally pin them down, but that you cannot lose sight of the intuition they were born as.

his artistic intuition reminds me of what i need to have -- the trust and humility for experiencing the inexplicable and understanding that to be enough. a devotion to ideas and their realisation. a balancing force, for my endless inquiry -- to not forget to live the question in my the search for an answer. to allow some thing to go without clear or universal explanation, allow for some things to remain unresolved, allow for others to have that be their resolution. it's why his work equal parts captivates me and disturbs me -- i am very bad at this. but feel in my heart a need to get better at it. to be a better artist, a better thinker, a better searcher, a better person. you need to feel it, intuitively, quiet your endless noisy need for an answer and simply let it fill you up, let it resonate intuitively, and find in that how life makes sense to you and you alone. mediation, mindfulness, humility to sit with abstraction without trying to pin it down. more and more i try to understand this. some things don't need to make perfect sense. some things dont need answers, or their answers are not the point. some things dont need anything but to be experienced as they enter you -- like dreams do. that can lead you to the answer, and that can also be enough in itself. that can be just an intrinsic value in being alive to experience it. and so often, it is all in conversation with the search for joy. it's why he feels so captivating, so unique, so tremendously alive. why people use the word "visionary" when talking about him. because he knew how to use his medium in all the potential he could see, so that it let you live in the strangeness and questions. he understood them as sublime, he understood them as enough, he understood them as a joy. he understood them as beautiful. and his memory will remind me to do the same; always to seek the space to dream.

[xxbvtt3rflyb0yxx]

we have a snow day today and i’m having a rlly bad pots flare up (like to the point that i can’t stand up on my own without blacking out and i feel like my bones are burning)

convenient timing ig because i don’t have to technically miss school

i’ve just been resting on the couch watching cartoons and video essays all day and eating the snacks and meals my mom has been bringing to me and i do kinda feel guilty for not restricting or being productive but also it’s nice to rest and not be destroying my body actively lol

i know this is necessary and i’m trying to let myself be okay with resting

[boozye]

I feel like I just got put through a meat grinder. Am I done? Anyone know if we have yellow fever tomorrow?

[cocopurplepompom]

You made your icon? Do you have a bigger picture of them?

Sure! I had to dig through my camera roll for these since I don't have them on hand right now, but here they are, before and after painting!

I made them in with my school's 3D printers, a matching pair for me and my friend.

Unfortunately, they are very small, about 5 cm tall, so the pictures might not help much.

Six's raincoat took so many layers of paint, but it was worth it in the end!

[dangaer]

❛      is it ... always like this? ❜ the room, he means to say or, more particularly, the scene in which he has unwatched ravel before his eyes, the one that has left garth further from wishing to open his door, to do anything but stand there in silence for but a few moments until orlok had decided to reveal his hiding place, head peeking out underneath the bed as though he were one of the monsters that even josef used to warn him about at a young age. he imagines it would be better if he were not so surprised, that if he understood others were treated similarly and not just differently to himself then maybe he could have seen such happenings from a mile off, would understood the coldness of the room felt beneath 3 layers of clothing was more than simply just a lack of heat, goosebumps littering from old memories instead of the chilled nights breeze ━━ but would he really know, about the world that rests outside the church, outside what he is permitted to learn? his understanding does not mean that he would never be considered their enemy, the opposition, to the plans all these groups seem to want to hold. ❛ i know it's not my business, but you ... seem sad. did you want to get out of here? just for the night?  ❜ it may not be something he should get involved in, but sometimes, briefly, does he make it so. ❛ i won't tell if you won't.  ❜ / @diverse-hearts-ocs ♥'d for a starter!