#Loop Session

[four-pointed-leaf]

request for a friend. average tuesday in vaugarde or something

[viarayy01-blog]

just waiting for it all to get better!!!!

[tryagainstarlight]

You never asked yourself how or why you looped back, huh?

[appleciderjulie]

IMPORTANT REQUEST:

if you have a Siffrin Plush please send me pictures of him……… i joined the fandom in january and therefore could not get a plushfrin for myself………. pleasg i need this. the doctor says it’s the only way

[baekhyoris]

may i hear u ramble about insecure reader wanting to live up to the hyuga name after marrying neji … constantly feeling like they’re falling short or feeling like an outcast … neji comforting them … bubububu…

ANON YOUR BRAIN IS SO HUGE ILYSM 💙 everything's under the cut cause i have a lot of thoughts on this lol. i tried my best to make the reader gender-neutral but i think this may lean more towards fem!reader so sorry in advance if that's not what you had in mind. may or may not turn this into an actual fic someday so consider this an idea dump of sorts.

➢ the hyūga are a traditional bunch. i think we can all agree on that.

➢ you didn't come from nobility, being born into a small clan. and though you went onto becoming a respectable chunin later in life, none of your training and mission knowledge will ever help in navigating the intricacies of the most notable clan of Konoha. you certainly weren't the most graceful, nor would you call yourself elegant. and on top of that, you were an outsider. in a sea of lavender eyes, you stand out like a sore thumb and it's a constant reminder that follows you.

➢ there's a certain kind of pressure that comes with being married to neji hyūga—the genius of the clan. the whispered gossip looms around you like a ghost, people wondering why he wasn't slated to marry someone of greater standing when he became of age. after all, it was expected for neji to marry into prestige, not someone from a lesser family.

➢ the expectations to comform to the ways and traditions of the clan weighs heavily on your shoulders. To master the etiquette required of a hyūga spouse. to bow at the right times, to keep quiet, keep demure.

➢ a lead weight pulls at your stomach with each mistake made. a nagging thought that you're not good enough for neji. that he deserves to be with someone who wouldn't potentially embarass him.

➢ but you love him dearly and so, you try your hardest to uphold these standards—gods you do—but it's only a matter of time before the cards finally topple over.

➢ you were laying in bed one night while neji reads a book next to you. closing your eyes, you attempt to feign being asleep knowing that your mind wouldn't let you get much sleep. his hand rests on the side of your head and you can feel his eyes on you.

➢ "you've been quiet all day. is there something?" he asks, gentle fingers holding your chin and turning you to face him.

➢ "uh-no. everything's fine. just can't sleep is all." the reassuring platitude comes out a touch too quickly and the slight quirk of his brow tells you that he doesn't buy it. ever the perspective one.

➢ the bed shifts and Neji stands, taking your hand and urging you to follow despite your protests. "come, let me make some tea that will help you."

➢ some mixture of inadequacy and bashfulness curls within the base of your stomach as he instructs you to sit at the dining table. keeping your back straight, you keep your legs crossed at the ankles while your hands lay on your lap, stifiling the yawn that threatens to escape from your lips. an ache forms in your shoulders, it's exhausting trying to keep up apperances all day.

➢ your gaze follows your husband as he grabs two cups from the counter. he should be sleeping right now, you think. especially when he has training the next day, but here he is and a fresh wave of self-loathing washes over you. you close your eyes, feeling a sting behind them.

➢ "do you...ever regret marrying me?" the words slip out before you even process them. some part of you hopes he didn't catch that.

➢ "no, of course not," he says, voice incredulous. "what makes you think that?" you press your lips into a thin line at the loaded question and you suddenly feel small underneath his inquisitive gaze. a hot cup of chamomile tea is placed in front of you and the warmth somewhat relaxes your body.

➢ "well, it's just.." you reluctantly start, taking a deep breath as your fingere fidget with a loose thread on your shirt. "i think you deserve someone better than me."

➢ silence follows and all you want to do is go back to bed and pretend that you didn't say anything in the first place. but something keeps you seated. as usual, his face gives away nothing.

➢ neji would be equal parts confused and concerned. deserved better? you were the person he's wanted for so long. he wouldn't have married you if he wasn't fully certain that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you and he tells you such.

➢ but that seems to have the opposite effect he intented, with the way your hands clench into fists and your body grows tense. instinctually, his hand reaches out to you but your next words stop him in his tracks.

➢ "i'm not good enough!" you snap, eyes shut.

➢ "nothing i do is good enough," the words tumble out of your mouth like a waterfall. "i've try to change, be perfect for you—make sure i'm someone who can stand next to do but nothing works. you jumped through so many hoops for us to get married and i can't even do the basics right. you deserve someone who can actually measure up." you stand up, turning away as the tears begin to flow. "no matter what i do, all i'll be is a fucking outsider and-"

➢ his arms wrap around you before the supressed sob finally breaks free. you tighten your hold on him as your body shakes from your cries. your rant quickly devolves into a string of incoherent apologies that spills from your lips.

➢ soft kisses were placed on the crown of your head and his fingers run though the strands of your head as a silent form of comfort. the elders' of his clan had been urging for neji to marry a member of the main branch, that such gifted genes couldn't go to waste. but he refused at every step. as far as he was concerned, it was either you or no one.

➢ "i don't know who told you such things," neji begins once your sobs calm, his thumb gently brushes the tears that cling to your waterline. "but that couldn't be further from the truth. there is no one else who'd i want to be with, especially someone as loving as you."

➢ many more things lay on the tip of his tongue—how dear you are to him, how you've stayed with him through thick and thin, how you've always been a source of comfort—and they all get put into the gentle press of lips to the center of your forehead. whenever words failed him, he can always count on physical affection to fill in the gaps when needed. "believe me when i say that i love you. i could care less about clan politics or expectations placed on. you're more than enough for me. you always will be."

➢ the sincerity in his voice makes your heart swell with relief and gratitude. your body relaxes at his warmth, at the knowledge that he's the person who you'll love for the rest of your life.

➢ "thank you," you whisper, the corners of your lips pulling to a small smile. neji mirrors the action, pulling you into yet another kiss, doing justice to the words that are left unsaid.

ask box is open. send me more neji related headcanons/scenarios <33

[curly4830]

i think i'm sick i think i have a disease i think something's wrong with me i think there's a deep sickness in my bones

isat """""review""""" coming soon™ i've been playing through it over the last 2 weeks with @usefulnt0409

[astrophysician]

finally drew our antagonist in a way i like!! everyone say hello to Professor Kookoo the Kookaburra. please form an orderly line so that everyone can get their turn beating his ass

big thanks to @silvers-starrway for designing this jerk ♥

[indigo-greer-collins]

ooh blake and bestie as reckless driving by lizzy mcalpine & ben kessler anyone?

“I didn't mean to kiss you

I mean I did, but I didn't think it'd go this far

I didn't mean to kiss you

Now you can't focus on the road when I'm in your car”

—> imagining bestie processing the gravity of everything blake’s done in the name of saving them from their very doomed narrative. they’re starting to have regrets, but they can’t do much from the passenger seat anymore. the kiss was a heat of the moment thing, was blake gonna keep endangering himself?

“Now we're going 100

Your hands aren't on the wheel

'Cause you're just staring at me like you're not convinced that I am real”

—> it’s very clear blake unhealthily idolises his… friend? partner? to the point where they’re not fully a person to him, and the admiration might be sort of endearing at first, but they can only fit this idealised version blake has in his head for so long. how long til everything crashes and falls apart?

“I don't love you like that

I'm a careful driver

And I tell you all the time to keep your eyes on the road

But you love me like that

You're a reckless driver

And one day it'll kill us if I don't let go”

—> they do love blake, quite deeply even, but do they love him to that level of self-destruction? they don’t want blake to die in the name of the pair’s connection. like they said, everyone dies eventually. is he stable enough for bestie to start making some distance? yk, just so evil powerful forces stop using him for their own malicious intentions.

[apple-onigiri]

oh great i gotta add community gardens to my loop playlist too i completely forgot about it but it's totally their song. guh. poison damage

[campbyler]

not rlly an ask but i just want to say that you guys pick out the perfect songs for each chapter. i just listened to the ones for 10.2, and say it (by maggie rogers, the last song) was literally SO fitting along with all the others songs for this chapter and all the other ones. i think if i hadn’t read the fic and just listened to the playlist i would still get the entire story.

you guys are miracle workers fr KEEP UP THE AWESOME WORK 🥳

thank you SO much omg we really do try!! i’m extra extra happy that you specifically pointed out say it by maggie rogers because i’ve had it down as the closer for Months, wayyy before 10.1 was even posted, and have been spiraling over it for the better part of the YEARRRR it damn near broke my top 10 on wrapped bc i have been listening to it so much for the last nine months at least. say it is just very very mike wheeler to me… both in the context of him in acswy/10.2 and also as we know him in canon and the album overall is one of my favs! we take a lot of time thinking and choosing songs for the playlist and our eventual missed hits playlist is probably going to be a mile long because there are so many that came close to making the cut but didn’t quite fit, but either way thank you for the appreciation! good to know that our mild neurosis has been paying off 😎

[fullbrave]

something i think is really neat about the throes of the watchmaker ost is how i had no idea which tracks were yasunori mitsuda's until i checked. the difference between the two composers was always pretty noticeable to me in the main game but i get the feeling he and eric took a lot of inspiration from each other and just generally had a way more collaborative approach this time around and that's so fun

[hella1975]

you good queen?

ive actually had a really really good day! it's super sunny here, i wrote 2.8k words in less than 3 hours, and im about to have a nap <3

[castingpods]

Me: I’m normal about Sam Barnes from the Bright Sessions

Also me: [compiles all the Sam moments from the show that I relate to]

[lorelune]

dnd canceled this week for the umpteenth time 😔

[appleciderjulie]

post-canon isat au where after traveling together siffrin goes back to dormont’s house of change with mirabelle and starts teaching astronomy classes. this is so important to me

[pixxyofice]

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