it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.
yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.
it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.
how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.
chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?
how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.
"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.
i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.
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Exploring the dark corridors of the insanity complex
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Watching any show created by Jojo Tichakorn: everyone here is a terrible person I love them so much
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ugh yeah that’s so crazy that everyone just wants situationships rn…out of curiosity where r they lol. the people who just want situationships. lol. like what city
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silly but,, i saw a post going around with that passage and well. visiting halsin post epilogue, plenty of room for this joke to happen lmao
you're always considered a young man when you're with full elves i guess!!!
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Golden Blood
2 Moons 2
Still 2gether
Bad Buddy
Love Area 2
Tharntype 2
Love Sick
Tonhon Chonlatee
Color Rush (Korea = we have beaches, too!)
Cutie Pie
Word of Honor (China)
We Best Love
Until We Meet Again
The Yearbook
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oh by the way wasn’t the way izzy told edward he has love for him low and defeated, like it was some sort of condition he wishes he could cure once and for all? wasn’t that a tear threating to fall in izzy’s eye as stede walked away from him with nothing but a disappointed glance on his face after he told him to give him his worst? wasn’t that moment before stede headed to ed’s body the first time izzy has ever interacted with stede in a positive manner, let alone thank him for something? wasn’t this the best and most human light we have ever seen israel ‘izzy’ hands in?
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