#Oh hey I’m rambling :)

[fumifooms]

I don’t like minimizing the importance and gravity of Laios and Toshiro’s fight into just being a childish squabble, even if to a degree it is framed that way, because to both of them it has a lot of personal significance and emotional weight and runs very deep to their characters… The fight isn’t nothing it’s a LOT, they made up but it’s not something easy to express and to get over for either of them which makes it all the more meaningful! I’m on both sides but there very much are sides, there’s no "they’re both having a ball, Toshiro and Laios hand in hand yay" side to the fight, that comes after

The fight with Toshiro WAS very scary to Laios, almost existentially so, but it’s moreso the "I thought I’d made a friend!!" bit and my god. My god actually

Like it’s not "just" about oh his friend liking him less than he thought, THAT IS SO MUCH. It’s a bond he thought he had being a lie it’s all the time and moments spent together either being a lie from his perspective or marred now looking back. It’s not only being upset at Toshiro for lying but upset at himself that he’s so easy to fool, it’s being upset that there’s something so wrong with you that you can’t even tell if your "close buddy" even actually likes you or not, it’s like. Holding my head. He can’t trust his own vision of events that happened do you see. There’s always this film of distrust that it could be a lie that should be there when he interacts with people there’s always this sense of cloak and dagger to expect backstabs out of nowhere because you CAN’T see it coming you CAN’T you CAN’T there’s something about you which makes it impossible so you CAN’T-

He’s so scared of not being able to read people. He knows it’s a weak spot he has, he’s always known. All of these bits are centered around social expectations and betrayals, the assumption that he doesn’t belong either in society or with other humans.

And Laios’ level of awareness is actually sort of complex to analyze, but it’s there, there’s how out of him and Falin he was the one sensitive to the ~aura of hatred~ he felt from the townspeople, there’s of course his nightmares whispering to him about the mocking looks, and how yeah actually he realizes that his gold stripper coworker was taking advantage of him. There’s of course the Winged Lion speech about his trauma and how he fundamentally mistrusts/dislikes humans to some deep seated degree, this distrust that he still keeps under control always. There’s how pre-canon he often wanted to suggest eating monsters but never worked up the courage to bring it up with the others. There’s how he gets across as stoic when he isn’t being enthusiastic…… We don’t know how aware and wary he is exactly in the moment but we do know he has some anxiety around social stuff, and looking back he does notice and aughh augh, the sense you have to hide yourself to not get hurt and be on your guard and shit and.

When you don’t know what to look out for and when to look out for it, the general ‘common sense’ of not always trusting people or noticing when someone’s messing with you becomes hypervigilance in social settings

"Man they really know what you hate huh". Being socially unaware literally plagues him, he knows, he knows it so well.

It’s so quick that it’s almost hard to digest how literal and blatant Laios summoning his monster to crush all the people who’ve hurt him is. His literal go-to coping mechanism for comfort in his literal monster-induced emotionally intense nightmares, saving him by taking away the upsetting element (the humans)

"Monsters are his coping fantasy, where they can whisk him away from humanity, all the hurt it’s caused him and its arbitrary rules" with the subtlety of a brick. Monsters are his comfort safe zone "because they kill humans" yes but no it’s because he pits them as the guardians against humans who to him are in the role of the agressors. To him they represent freedom from the shackles of what it means to be part of humanity, a fundamentally social species

[thingscanalwaysgetworse]

Thinking about the Ian/Ellie/Ian reunion through a romantic lens. Spending decades trying to convince themselves that they didn’t miss each other and then they meet up and it’s like?? Alan and Ellie are already gazing at each other like long-lost lovers. When they walk into Ian’s lecture, he pauses and looks like his world has just shifted on its axis. Ellie and Ian always had something going on between them but now Alan’s realizing that his own feelings for Ian are maybe less platonic than he thought. And then later they’re all bickering lovingly like they’ve been married for years. I’m unwell

[transmasccofee]

Ngl I’m tempted to animate something from that one canon au where Kusuo dies with this cover

[skyward-floored]

Me: oh yeah, this scene is going to be intense and cool and heartbreaking and

My brain: and soft

Me: yeah, and soft— wait what

[spoonmoment119]

the real sexyman was the friends we made along the way

[starzonez]

being a young closeted person on the internet these days is much like watching the pink opaque i would say. i look at the lives of those i follow or happen to see around and long for it as well. seeing myself free and happy and shameless in a community of people who i see and who see me. but that seems soo far away from the realm of reality and that’s why i only ever see it through a screen. um anyway…

[designernishiki]

nishiki’s the type to roast the shit out of majima in the 90s for choosing to wear such tight pants and would laugh wildly when majima retorts saying “just wait. everyone’ll be wearing shit like this soon, i’m just ahead of the curve”. and then when the 2000s come around and skinny jeans are the new norm he sits in his office in the dark, head down on his desk, and cries. because he’s proven to be a failure even at the things he’s most passionate about– and worse, he got bested by goro majima

[victimized-martyr]

Hi so I just realized something

So in Cartman finds love, Cartman tells Nichole he and Kyle are a couple, who tells others Kyman is a thing, which reaches Kyle and ofc gets mad and accusing Cartman, but ONLY Kyle is questioning Kyman (not stan, not butters, or kenny, they’re barely watching in the bg, but don’t approach them otherwise. Keep that in mind), the episode concludes with Cartman’s gay ass romcom 3rd act reconciliation song and how does Kyle rectify this confusion? He doesn’t. Simply tells Nichole “that fat turd up there set you up with tolkien ‘cause he believes black people belong together”.

Jump forward to s20, and, of course, Kyle is seen crying over Cartman during the mass school breakup. Everyone’s in shambles, but there are indeed witnesses. Jump further to Kyle being shocked Cartman has a girlfriend, starts fixating on their relationship— stan has to tell kyle “dude, we should stay out of this.”, kyle says “You’re wrong! In a way… we’re all going out with Cartman right now.”, and the boys just. look at each other. silent conversation happenin w/ out Kyle realizing what he meant.

All of this rambling to say, I think the average outsider may have been misinterpreting Kyle and Cartman’s whole… Thing. I think it’s fair to say some students have been assuming Kyman were dating between s16 to s19, and Kyle’s behavior during heiman was just, weird Ex Behavior. :|

[rainia]

just finished Bridgerton s1 👁️👄👁️

[hannahhasafact]

I’m probably the only fucker dumb enough to want to pay my student loans off but my god I’m so tired of having my net worth be negative dollars I would like to just be able to exist

[lesbiansanemi]

Uh oh. I accidentally liked a marvel movie. Losing my media snob credibility immediately

[hotcheetohatredwastaken]

BDOR Prologue: The Yiga and The Shiekah (3/5)

Wild’s captor dragged him further and further out of sight. They hooked a scythe around Twilight’s neck, and its sharp edge dug in deep as they tried to pull him the other way.

“No, please! Wild!”

Wild swung at his captor, and he knocked his mask nearly sideways. His captor raised his scythe—

Read the rest below!

TW: Electrocution, Attempted Kidnapping, Human Trafficking, Threats of Rape/Non-Con (it’s blink and you’ll miss it), Swearing, Canon-Typical Violence, Description of Injury

[cognitive-behavioural-torture]

I love seeing Twitter screenshots on here

it’s exactly like seeing your ex on Instagram while laying in bed with your partner

[deathxproof-archive]

Also have a fun little life update since it’s 8 AM (the time it is everywhere in the world right now) and I haven’t slept and my partner’s work alarm is going off—

Graduated from college in 2020(sad party popper noise). Studied theatre, visual arts, art history. Emmett Timeline OUT. Andrew Rose Timeline IN.

Started testosterone and changed my name AGAIN in 2020. Got FUCKING medicated.

Worked as a manager for FuckBucks for a few years, as I feel is a valid post-theatre-degree job, many arts graduates would agree.

Started an art business that’s currently on hiatus(for moving reasons). Made a few zines. Still doing that. Had a fun pagan spiritual awakening.

Saw My Chemical Romance and The Mountain Goats within a week of each other and came out a changed man(-adjacent).

Started dating my best friend from high school and we moved to our dream city with my college roommate, my cat, and my partner’s snake the week before I turned 25.

Moved from the mountains to the ocean with a brief(lol) stint in eastern Massachusetts suburbia(read:hell).

Quit smoking cigarettes. Started smoking cigarettes again. We grow and quit again, save for when heavy drinking is involved(read: rarely).

Working at a cool artsy downtown cafe with cool artsy people!! My partner works with vampires!! Dipping my toes into theatre again(slowly)(very slowly)(literally just got this job and don’t know how to schedule that around theatre schedules)(we learn and adapt).

I picked up my Doctor Who writing fixation like an old long-untouched sketchbook full of familiar-ish art that I want to sketch over, finish unfinished pieces, and try my hand at redoing old work in a not-very-changed style. I want to write old muses like I redo character designs.

I picked up my general Doctor Who hyperfixation and slammed it against a wall like a wet teddy bear for the satisfying sound it makes.

And I am, perhaps, actually, legitimately, most importantly, the happiest I’ve been in my 25 long and short years on planet earth.

(The Brainworms for the Master & the Doctor [both separate & together entities] never went away. The Brainworms for everyone else came back with a vengeance.)

[theministersdoom]

I think I’m coping well with the realization I have a little crush on John Cena for some reason

[cornerihaunt]

lmaoooooooo i’m soooo embarrassed