#Sebastians are good too but theres this one called “the only one for me” you should look at!

[yanderemommabean]

Momma!!! I finally got Stardew Valley on my laptop, now I can mess around with all the Yandere/possessive mods I’ve had saved for ages <3

Hell yeah! Tell me how it goes bean! i have just about every male bachelor one saved myself! It's going to be great, I promise!

-Mommabean

[bebebelll]

does anyone know her dad? daniel ricciardo smau (part 1)

pairing: daniel ricciardo x toto's secret child!reader / daniel ricciardo x schumacher and wolff!reader warnings: cursing and some general fandom hate wags get note: first time doing this i dont know if this right but lets go! part 2, part 3 and part 4

mickschumacher happy birthday to @ynquads !! sorry for crashing into the cake! mama said she'll make you another

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gina_schumacher thanks for almost cropping me out of the picture

mickschumacher it's about yn!! ynquads i though i was you favourite cousin gigi :( why u being so mean to me :( i'll go tell my parents micschumacher ill tell mama you're being mean to yn username123 always love seeing mick and yn be annoying little siblings

maxverstappen1 congrats! is it enough to say it here or do i have to make my own post? ive given you a present

ynquads bring me cowboy boots from austin and you dont have to

username cute cute cute cute cute cute

username honestly schumacher genes dont even feel real anymore

username right!?!?! i want yn to win the figure skating grand prix but then i remember that video where she went karting with max username like a billion drivers and a skater and the good looks in ONE family? god really does have favourites

lewishamilton happy birthday! it's been great seeing you grow up

username excuse me sir? what do you mean grow up?

ynquads visited japan for a wedding and now i'm all ready for skate america!! let's gooo cricket club!!

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username YOU GOT INVITED TO YUZURU'S WEDDING

ynquads i even got to bring daniel🤭

danielricciardo it was a lovely wedding❤️❤️(ours is gonna be better)

username excuse what the fuck lewishamilton actually you're not allowed to marry her without our permission danielricciardo whose permission would i even ask? lewishamilton every german speaking driver and like three team bosses good luck

username ARIANA (our queen & god susie wolff) WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

maxverstappen1 daniel's being gross make him stop

danielricciardo am not! ynquads lmao throw bread at him danielricciardo all the love ive given you and this is how you repay me? ynquads ooh i'll repay you 😏 maxverstappen1 dont be weird under my comment

username oh she has time to fly to japan but not go to a single race ever

username babes danny has not been in the since zandvoort. theres been no race to go see him username they've been together for like three years and she's only been to less than ten races username like seriously cant she ever be supportive username you people do realize she's an athlete too?

ynquads we got silver!!!💪🥈🥈🥈congrats to kaori sakamoto 🥇 and isabeau levito🥉 (also thanks uncle lewis for dinner)

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nicorosberg he gave you alcohol?

ynquads i have never actually drank alcohol at all in my entire life (also dad was there i was not even allowed to get food that had rum in the sauce) maxverstappen1 oh yeah we did not at all just get drunk ynquads shut up before nico goes to talk to my DAD

username are we all just gonna ignore that she calls lewis "uncle" like seriously how disrespectful is that

username calm the fuck down she calls him and all the older grid (especially sebastian) uncle so it is not new

danielricciardo why you holding your head like that? is it heavy from all the pretty? i can hold it for you

nicorosberg this is who you choose @ynquads danielricciardo why are you bullying me too??? ynquads hes funny onkel nico (uncle) username how is nico rosberg here dragging danny ric? you dont even follow him?

username EVERYBODY CALM DOWN THIS IS NOT A DRILL WE HAVE A CHANCE TO HAVE YN WIN THIS YEAR'S GRAND PRIX PLEASE BE ON EVERY PODIUM

susie_wolff congrats honey! we're really proud!

username i still think it's so damn weird she just hangs out with the older grid. how does she even know then to go on dinners

username okay but when the hell did this even happen? i follow yn and she trains in toronto and during summer is in germany or england. she doesnt attend the races? how the fuck is she and DANIEL RICCIARDO together babes

username i bet my life that max introduced them i can feel it in my bones that he planned this username "oh sorry i won by 30 secs and you have a shitbox to drive, wanna meet my friend she's great gf material? you have no chance without help" ynquads i mean.... username OH MY GOD

username she's such a shit girlfriend honestly. she dates daniel for publicity and then drags lewis down too

username what the fuck are you smoking??

username how the FUCK did daniel ricciardo bag the talented pretty QUAD QUEEN MISS YN SCHUMACHER!!! thats my wife actually! what about our kids and three lambs??

f1wagsupdates paparazzi has released a video of mercedes team boss toto wolff exiting a restaurant and driving off with a young woman. even though she tried to cover herself, the woman was quicky identified as yn schumacher. she is a figure skater and 20+ years younger. in an interview from home yn can be seen walking around the wolff kitchen in little clothing. is this the ending to toto's perfect looking marriage with fellow motorsport boss susie wolff?

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username if i dont read it, it doesnt exist. no one's cheating ever

username toto and susie's kid is like 5 how could he throw that away??

username its always the goddamn family men fucking over their wives and kids

username this is such bullshit. toto and susie have been together since like 2011 this is so horrible

username little clothing? she's wearing like pajamas

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f1 fic rec list

self indulgent! my personal masterlist of hits, also theres 25 of them... 25 days of fic christmas, an advent calendar perhaps!

turn back and return by @rudesses

“No! We are climbing together,” Charles says, because Charles is very generous. He likes to phrase it that way—together. They haven’t climbed together in years.

charles/alex mountaineering au, SUCH good characterisation, the universe is so full and it has this like. longing-not-going-for-it that makes me crazy. THEE chalex fic to me. it holds tension so well and really makes you feel nervous in the high adrenaline moments, and you can tell the care that charles and alex have for each other, and their well established relationship immediately as the fic starts, which i think is so well communicated in so little time!

phantoms and pencil marks by cazio

Pierre woke to a boy sitting next to his bed. Amnesia AU

pierre/charles, amnesia au where pierres been in a accident and has severe amnesia, its written so well from his perspective you can feel his confusion the whole time and its amazing piarles but also a standout character study of pierre it has so many painful moments, i love how pierre he... is meeting charles again and again, but warped and you can see how painful it is for everyone. so so so good. it takes everything i love about amnesia fics and elevates it

Second Star to the Right by @gufettogrigio

It is stupid of Nico to even give Lewis the chance to notice. The hot water kettle is just a bit too heavy at breakfast one morning and Nico loses his grip. Lewis is next to him at the buffet table of the hotel and catches it out of reflex; Nico knows better than to think it’s kindness. He stares at where Nico’s fingers are still refusing to cooperate. "What happened to your hand?" "Nerves" - Nico answers with a shrug, glad for the double meaning in the English phrasing. It's up to Lewis how he wants to interpret it; Nico didn't lie.

nico rosberg/lewis hamilton but also jenson button/nico rosberg but separately, there are alternate endings.

SOO so so iconic, i have reread this multiple times. mind the tags, but it's an incredible nico character study, everyone in this is amazing but especially toto, this line: [Toto laughs, kindly. “You are my World Champion and I’ve only got two of those. I am invested in your continued survival. Always.”] it is everything to me. nicos mentality about himself, his feelings about racing, about the championship, about lewis. wow!

provenance by ecorone

At the end of the world, art curator Lewis Hamilton finds his way back to the artist called no5.

lewis/sebastian, genuinely like. an incredible work of art fic. it's an apocalypse - non driver - surreal fic. its setting is if the end of the world dinosaur times were happening now, and what to do with all your regrets, and follows lewis as the main character. it has so much depth to it, the writing style itself is incredible. the characterisations, the philosophies, the EVERYTHING. i left an insane comment on it just so i could spill my thoughts out better and i can't do it a second time hahaha but i would so so so highly recommend reading, to be honest even if sewis is not your thing just because. imo it is so much more than just a fic about drivers. also read their other stuff bc i do not like lewis/max as a pairing but i will vouch for ecorones interpretation as being. THEE lewis/max thesis.

echo of the future by @tetrapod7

Lewis, once on the path of the Jedi and now in the midst of the Galactic Empire, learns of the chance to save ancient Jedi texts. Max, a stormtrooper, becomes smuggler Daniel Ricciardo's copilot. They too pursue the Jedi texts -- with the hope of selling them to the Empire.  Their stories collide at the Jedi Temple on Genbara. As the danger of an Imperial Star Fleet looms large, Max, Daniel, Lewis, Seb, and Jamie have to figure out what matters most to them, what they owe to each other, and devise a plan for an unavoidable space battle with the Empire -- a battle for their future and hopes.

lewis/sebastian max&daniel i will like. forever and always be a star wars guy x i read this in one sitting it made me feel insane everything about it is perfect, all of the storylines running at once then colliding. lewis in this especially is EXCEPTIONAL, r0s-c0 made me laugh so hard when i read it. droids 4eva! the particular sw verse this is is built up perfectly there are SO many details here and so much world building it makes me want to eat it. the entire atmosphere is quintissentially star wars, a mission running on hope and a few credits. amazing &lt;3

in that iron ground by @lilyrizzy

"Maxy,” Daniel says and it sounds like he’s choking. Max frowns, deeper. He crouches in front of Daniel, resting his hands on his bare thighs. Daniel is still only wearing the boxers and undershirt he went to sleep in. Nothing’s changed. “Daniel, what is wrong?” Max repeats.  Daniel swallows. I don’t want things to change, he thinks again. “My dad’s dead," he says. Or Daniel takes Max home to Perth for a funeral.

max/daniel incredible scholarship on daniel and max, who they are to each other especially in daniels lowest moment, i love how it... it is the lowest point of daniel that we are seeing which brings out so much depth to his character, and who he is especially behind his like, media/character mask. the characterisation of daniels family, how he struggles to process the grief, the complexities around grief and the consistent running undertone of why-mine-and-not-yours surrounding max and daniels fathers. his internalised homophobia/fear of coming out. amazing

sixteen cadences for children in bloom by distressedgremlin

Pierre flips his cap around and marks it on his calendar: 2021, the year of living selfishly

pierre/charles SUCH A GOOD PIERRE. such a good pierre. he deserves to be selfish and to live selfishly. i think seeing him become so confident is so great in this fic and especially the narrative foils between him, daniil and yuki i love, how he evolves in those relationships, becoming a team leader, becoming someone who HE likes. also obsessed with distressedgremlin's sewis fics. so so so obsessed. the le mans fic is everything to me

constellation falling into place by wraysford

For some reason, the last part is what sticks in Nico’s head, you were quick, in that awed, painfully genuine tone of Lewis’, but, he hastily reminds himself, how fast or slow he was back then doesn’t matter anymore or, wherein Nico goes to university and Lewis races

nico/lewis HEARTBREAKING au to me. nico quits racing and lewis doesn't and they meet again. im obsessed with it as a nico character study and a look inside his strange little brain in this universe... its perfect. the underlying jealous and what-could-have-been in every scene, the way lewis is so. GENUINE about wanting to reconnect with him, it kills me.

tomorrow on every shore by @missyourflight

This season on Below Deck Sailing Yacht... Six weeks. Nine charters. Lots of hot tub stuff. *  “Is it not your colour?” Max says. The production team gave the whole crew new uniforms for this season, swapped their usual navy polos for something that apparently pops more on camera. It’s sort of peachy, not Max’s favourite, but it looks good on Daniel. “Please,” Daniel scoffs. “Everything’s my colour.” He bumps his hip into Max. “You weren’t tempted to go with the skort option?” Max bumps back, pretending to consider. “I thought about it, but it’s just not practical on deck, you know?” “Guests are arriving,” Christian says, his smile tight, eyes fixed ahead. “Could we attempt to act like professionals, please?” And then the guests are on the dock, and everyone puts on smiles to greet them, and it’s almost like a normal charter except for all the fucking cameras everywhere.

max/daniel, below deck au, i read this right after binging below deck med so obvs it was perfect. i love everyones characterisation especially christians. + yuki as the chef is perfect. i love the interview sections paired with whats happening in the fic bc its like... i love an unreliable perspective! fantastic au and they are so 3D fleshed out

striving for goodness while the cruel men win by @misonikomi

Lewis had been at a disadvantage. Cruelty had never been bred into her; she had to learn it one piece at a time. When she first started karting, she had tried to blend in with the other kids, an impossible feat. There had been so much violence even then, in the way the kids looked at her, spoke to her, and touched her. She had to learn that violence as well, in order to win

lewis/sebastian, gender swap au, i think one of the first and only i read because i get a bit nervous about them, but incredible, incredible thesis material. the characterisations of lewis and charles and amazing, how they change and are the same as women. perfect narrative foils for each other. sebastian and lewis' relationship in this is fantastic, how lewis' past with nico has affected her into her relationship with seb but also with f1 in general. suzie is standout in this to me, the woman-woman relationships in general are perfect

december makes me quiet by @warriorbarnes

“Hallo?” he greets, and gets to his feet.  “There is a snow storm,” are the words he’s met with. He’s taken aback at first, the accented english not what he’d expected, and has to recalibrate his brain from german to english.  His brows knit together when he realizes who it is on the other end of the line. “Charles?” he asks. or, right before Christmas, Seb gets an unexpected guest.

sebastian/charles, one of my favourite sebchal fics!!! i think it handles that line between awkwardness and getting to know each other so well. any sebchal fic that has charles being normal around sebastian is immediately inaccurate, we know his complexes! i love to read it... so comforting, being snowed in is THE premise!

lucky thirteen by @azzy421

Being the daughter of the most successful racing driver in the world (retired) comes with a lot of privilege and a few very notable downsides.  1. Dad is famous, and it makes people act weird around him and ask Ayla weird things, like what he eats for breakfast or what deodorant he uses. 2. Sometimes he gets talked into going to Germany for the summer to talk about engines and aerodynamics with Uncle Toto’s team for months on end. And this is only really annoying because - 3. He never, ever wants to talk about racing with Ayla. Ayla, head over heels in love with the world of Formula 1, is determined that she’s going to prove she has what it takes to start karting, even if it means going behind her dad’s back to do it. When she discovers that not only is there a girls-only karting group next to their temporary home in Germany but that it’s being run by four-time World Champion Sebastian Vettel (Ayla’s second-favourite driver of all time) (also retired), she is determined to seize the opportunity with both hands.  And, well. Her dad is lonely. Sebastian seems even lonelier. Solving that problem would be a nice bonus.

lewis/sebastian, i also usually never go for kid fics but this one intrigued me and it is SOOO good. seeing lewis through the lens of his kid, her passion for karting and especially his very, very real fear for her entering that world... so so so realistic and good. it has the exact right amount of self indulgence but also reality, i love seeing the 'future of f1' with mick, lando and george, and how lewis to ayla is still first and foremost her dad. sebastian in this is incredible but also this cannot be prophetic because if he did become an f1 hermit it would make me so sad xx

how to get it, how to live it by grandsprix

Alex wants to say no, because - well, because his ex was a closet case, and Charles is the kind of beautiful Alex is going to feel insecure about, and he has half a tub of strawberry cheesecake Haagen Daaz and a rental of Dune waiting for him at home after his shift, and is that worth giving up to give some French twink a blowjob in the staff bathroom? or, Alex works in a gay bar in Soho, and Charles is lost.

alex/charles, obviously love every grandprix chalex fic, but this is my favourite! i am so charmed and in love with charles' characterisation here, his clumsy confidence and how he is immediately offended by alex not wanting to have sex-sex with him haha also alex's like... slow sense of impending doom at becoming closer to him. perfect

come on, starboy by @yekoc

Daniel’s just slinging his bag over his shoulder to head out to the parking lot when there’s a noise behind him, the hollow metallic echo of a locker door slamming. Turning, he sees that kid. Max. The running back who always fumbles.  He’s standing in front of the locker he just slammed, muscles tense. His too-big mouth is drawn into a flat line. He has his phone in his hand: he looks at it, puts it in his pocket, and grinds his fist against the bank of lockers in front of him.  “Hey,” Daniel says, because he feels creepy now, just looking.  The kid looks up at him, startled.  “Oh,” he says. “Hi.”

max/daniel, obviously like anyone reading this list will have read this or if you haven't you should?? max and daniel are perfect in this actually perfect. it has that... stuck in a small town that you are outgrowing but will you ever be able to stretch. standout to me: the spectre of max's dad. we hardly see him properly but you can tell the impact he is having on max, and by extent on daniel. this is also possibly my favourite lewis, second only to new wave (new emotion). the way he steals the show for me in every scene he is in, his college aspirations, fears for the future, wanting to gone beyond the simplistic perceptions of him... amazing. number 2 yekoc favourite is glory from a high rise but i am only reccing one per author strictly to not make this list insane

the heartbeat is a hunger by @thelittlebirdthatkeptsomanywarm

2019 FORMULA ONE SPORTING REGULATIONS Art. 34: BONDING Teams are required to register all bonds between drivers with the FIA at the beginning of each season. New bonds must be formally recognized through a bonding ceremony under supervision of at least one FIA representative [...]. Art. 34.1 [added on 1.01.1993] Bonds between drivers competing for different teams are prohibited. I'm so unused to being - well, understood perhaps. - Vladimir Nabokov's first letter to his future wife, Véra

lewis/sebastian, lewis/nico, SUCH a good bonding au... a really interesting look into how dystopian something like this could get, and i think a realistic look into how sports is constantly pushing us to the limit so if there were more ways to do so.... they absolutely would take advantage? lewis and nico's relationship is so interesting here, and seb as the trope inversion is SOOO. it is so well executed.

new wave (new emotion) by nothoughtsjustvibes

In which Max realizes he’s in love with Daniel and flies to Colorado to make it Lewis’s problem. Lewis just wants him to leave – preferably on a plane to Australia.

max/daniel lewis&max, my favourite lewis. ever!!!!!! max in this is STELLAR as well, their relationship is so so funny and so well balanced, i mostly love how... lewis deals with AD21 mentally in this? and how he's like urgh max is here? i will be nice. to hey. max is pretty cool :) in a very organic sense and also lewis being a mentor figure when i have 2022 lh superimposed over 2008-2016 menace lh in my mind is very funny. lewis micromanaging max's problems to fix them is my favourite thing, also every small interaction with charles in here is brilliant.

crude generalisations and vulgar simplifications by @janinaduszejko

Alex remembers attending his first Cabinet meeting - he’d been awed by the imposant room, the history this place held, where wars had been declared, disasters averted and ensured, with its stately inner ring of ministers, surrounded by the bustling outer ring filled with their advisors and assistants. The gratitude he had felt in that moment, being a part of the centre of it all, the place where power housed. Almost six hours later, he’d stumbled out of the stuffy room with George at his side, eyes wide with commiseration as he’d led Alex through the narrow halls.  “These ministers.” Alex had said, a hollow look in his eyes. “Are they all-?” “Afraid so.” George’s voice had been kind, but knowing, like he’d expected this and had grimly prepared himself.  “Halfwits.” Alex had moaned, as George had patted him on the back in sympathy. “Fools and idiots, every last one of them.”

george/alex, so so osos oso os good. i LOVE a political au i love intrigue i love stupidity i love jargon <3 and this baby has it all!!! i love any kind of misunderstanding/torment in a fic and in this one... alex u are so good at torment <3 george also coming up with the weirdest solution to their workplace romance is SO him. christian horner in this made me laugh a lot. this was i think the start of my galex downfall

steal the air out of my lungs (make me feel it) by @baking-soda

Max has never been so tired in his life. He can’t believe he’s going into call like this, that he couldn’t get to sleep last night. What an idiot. “Hey,” Daniel says, sauntering into a work room balancing a green smoothie and two large coffees from the caf. He puts one in front of Max. “You ready to save lives, Maxy?”

max/daniel obviously like. titular maxiel material, but i read it again and often! i am not a med student by any means but ive done placements in hospitals + medsci papers and reading this was like. it is exactly the feeling! when ur in it and you are a cog in a very big machine made for helping people and it is the most exhausting thing you have ever done but the most fulfilling... max in this fic is so so so amazing. the dissonance between how he sees himself and everyone else around him sees him. scenes that stick with me: when hes going to text his dad about the intubation but then he deletes everything because he thinks it wasn't impressive even though he had just been riding high. and every scene where he comforts the rookies but he like.. doesn't even realise himself he's doing it. to him he is being normal. love &lt;3

Invent us as we were (real tears, hard love) by diamondcrystalink

“Seb, aren't you freaked out?” Every human who doesn’t work with mimic engineering hates seeing mimics down to their components, it's said to ruin the illusion. Sebastian didn't even hesitate to help him. “Why would I be? It's just you,” Sebastian replied without much thought, his concentration on shaping the lattice to the gash. - Charles is an android who should have had his memory wiped at the start of the season per regulation, Ferrari decided otherwise. Sebastian doesn't know.

sebastian/charles, android-au-i-love-you! illegal ferrari goings on i love you!!! i am forever and always a sci fi lover and this hits all the spots for me, the idea of charles as the golden boy of ferrari because he was literally made crafted and perfected by them, the ethics/philosophies of being an android (charles hating remembering that he is), the way it starts and ends with a dream as well, bookended perfectly. so so good

the alps by @grandprix-ao3

Yuki catches his first glance of Pierre somewhere without him in pre-season testing. He’s blue and pink, he’s glowing, a flat-brimmed cap with Alpine’s A emblazoned on it sitting backwards on his head. Pierre and his sunglasses, the microphones in his face, the questions, the novelty, the half-arrogant grins. “He looks different in pink,” Liam remarks, halfway to a joke. Yuki hates it. It reminds him of all the distance between them, all the words he’s too scared—too late to say. There’s a gap between them, now. It's mountainous. It’s brutal.

yuki/pierre, this is one of my favourite all time yukierre fics so i couldn't not include it. every single thing about it is perfect, yuki struggling with his feelings, the way he and pierre are drawn to each other again and again. the struggle with what people seem to see so easily and making that real. ALL TIME!

cleaner better breed by @toastandvegemite

The lights inside the glass box turned on and Daniel saw the android for the first time. Something hooked in his chest. “Did they have to make it look so real?” he murmured to Michael, turning his head slightly. (RedBull builds a robot driver. They call it Max.)

max/daniel this had me on the edge of my seat the whole time, the idea already of technology displacing high risk/reward activities like sport is so fascinating combined with the fact that sports is such a political tool in terms of soft power, almost unmatched, so how to wield that soft power effectively with a robot? make him a bit human and likeable. all of daniels internal monologues feel so true to form throughout this fic, and the ending. AGH! catch! love this au

Everything I do, I'm gonna think of you by @misonikomi

Charles's eyes scan up and down his body, expression somewhat unimpressed. Seb takes inventory of himself. Nondescript jeans, gray Puma sneakers, plain gray t-shirt. Not much to look at, he admits. Or: Charles is Bella Hadid, if Bella Hadid used to kart and was also a bit disillusioned with modeling, and Seb is still Seb.

sebastian/charles, SUCH A GOOD AU!!! i love fashion and i love f1... this is like a perfect in between. a really really good charles character study again i love taking the drivers out of their... natural habitats! and this as well, it doesn't shy away from how charles in this universe has lead to quitting karting, homophobia, gender etc. and sebastian is so unabashedly seb and them learning how to be together and charles gradually showing more of himself... the modelling world in this as well is so rich. its so good!!!

home (is wherever I'm with you) by actparci

On the drive back to the hotel Max had turned to him, blue eyes fierce and piercing.  “Promise me you won’t stop being angry. You’re angry because you know what you can do. Use it, control it, let it fuel you. Other people won’t understand but that doesn’t matter, you know what you’re capable of.” You and me, he’d seemed to say, we’re the same. Charles wonders now how he ever thought Max wouldn’t understand. Or: Charles leaves Ferrari, tries to win a championship, and learns some things about belonging. All the while, Max is there

max/charles, i do not read much lestappen at all but this was amazing. charles moving to red bull and its done so well, because. i am a forza-ferrari-forza-charles guy forever but i am also addicted to alternate universes! all of the moments where there are differences between the teams, having the cheesy but so emotionally cathartic races and interactions and wins... its too good!

For the thrill of it all by @boxboxlewis

Charles unfolds from his headstand with cervine grace and stands up. “Geooooorge,” he says slowly. “George, George… George.” His eyebrows fly up, and he narrows his eyes at Alex. “Your friend who needs a place to stay for a few days, he is George? The George from your classes? That one? Posh George?”

george/alex, this is a series so technically cheating... essential george characterisations here! they are both so british (deeply derogatory) all of the dialogue is so perfect!!! i love their dynamic as flatmates, charles i love you but if i were flatting with him id kill him xx [If this were real, if they were dating, he wouldn’t fuck George, not tonight; he would draw it out, the anticipation, he would allow them the luxury of a long slow discovery. As it is he pulls back] my favourite line because alex is in every universe deluded. that boy loves you!

transmotion by heroics

Vettel's eyes fly to Lewis's, and he looks as shocked as Lewis feels. Then he grins. "You again." "Me again," Lewis says. He's lived in Frankfurt nearly four years now, and the German feels clumsy on his tongue in a way it hasn't since those first few months.

sebastian/lewis, literally what can i say. football, fashion designer au. the sebastian in this fic is so well fleshed out, and i love how its the.. uncertainty of being between stages in life, and how they struggle as adults with their relationship. lewis having moments of unintentional cruelty that they have to pull apart, and sebastian the same, the perils of homophobia in sport. charles and pierre in this i love, when pierre and lewis talk about his fashion show. pierre is a lh fanboy in every universe!

okay. that's it! they are literally in no order and also so muddled i am so sorry. if you are on this list i am such a big fan of you and just want to show my appreciation xx

[mamapilled]

mother nonsenses 1.0

was part of the manifesto. (but not anymore?) though these are just random ideas in my notebook that i havent yet found a way to fully write sth decent with. though the evidences are all there. here just for archive, none of these really mean anything. except the last bullet point? but it also doesnt mean anything

- [this was one of my replies when heilhades333 and i was talking abt my ageswap luther and her matriarch nature. then somehow it snowballed into ranfren chi no wadachi?] i think as far as where the series is currently at, randal's still far too young for luther to consider anything about him having a family of his own or even a partner. at this life stage he is still under luther's care, and therefore, a part of luther's family. i see luther as the highest queen of her own beehive, so she wouldnt want randal to eventually have his own family (though, as the "ivory heir", maybe that day will come. if they can grow old that is). luther's way of building a family is more of collecting "family members" - what she'd like to call them, rather than building branches. i dont think she would mind if randal gets a partner as long as they'd submit to become a part of her family (like how she got sebastian as a pet for randal) maybe only when said partner wanted to pull randal away we'd have a problem (satoru. though its mostly bc she wanted to go camping with her family and also blueberry pancakes)

^ i kNOW the mother here is referring to the mother/earthbound franchise. but this is my domain and i can say whatever i want

- [purely delusional. hello hitchther nation?] in my beautiful mind theres this specific what-if situation luther is the queen bee, the hitchhikers are the drones, randal is the queen-to-bee (haha get it) while the catmen and like, nana carpet seb and the rest are worker bees. the drones' only purposes is to mate with the queen (only the fittest ones get this honor) and they'll die in the act but they're happy doing so ^^; this is just me fumbling the hitch hikers’ role theres nothing more to this really, lol

- [i’m still marinating this thing with nou but its going to be mother manifesto 2.0 when i finally know how to verbalize it. wonder when that is... the following paragraphs are choppy and rough bc theyre mostly texts i sent to nou at 12am] AGAIN IM NOT A NATIVE ENGLISH SPEAKER PLEASE EXCUSE ALL THE... IDK VERBS FORMS ERRORS I DONT KNOW! WHAT THEY ARE!!!!!!!!!

i know luther is the emperor tarot card (totally agree. shes also the empress TO ME. because im me of course) but then nou told me about her being the sun while randal is the moon and. huh. that kinda caught me off guard because the sun is supposed to represent. well? good omen and all the nicest things in the world. huh. everytime i think too much abt this i’d get super emotional (im getting emotional Right Now. thats why i dont think i can fully articulate this 2.0 manifesto any time soon) bc yknow. according to a normal regular person’s standard, luther is far from “good”, but also cap did write that luther “believes hes a nice person but is working on it” (not the exact quote but you get it)

something about her trying to be a good person though she probably would never be one but still in her cynical little mind hes being sweet and loving and Good. and not doing whatever she "in the past" has done. bunch of references to "the past" are mostly if not all abt how horrible and terrible and scary she was and how she keeps saying shes not like that anymore though we arent sure how much of it is true bc shes fucked in the head to oblivion. its the thoughts that count i guess?

these are probably all related to luther giving birth to randal (in my head) since ARHGHGH idk!!!!!! i'd imagine this was her before having him (or at least, when she just had him for a few? years? decades?) and then until she had to raise randal and realized he needs to grow into a decent person and started that fucked up roleplay spiral game of her she goes out less and less and trying to be a perfectly normal loving human and a caretaker of this made up family and stopped doing whatever the fuck she was doing when she was still a young maiden terrorizing canada’s deepest forest suburban hell

since randal is like. THE ivory heir to me too he'll take over one day its like now shes just being a mom and making sure hes ready to be it. one day (that day might never come once again she loves making shits up in her head saying stuff no one can fucking understand. cynical woman) and also making sure everything around him is ready for his growth and also being a good role model for him. yadda yadda. not to mention randal keeps talking abt how shes not like before / this body isnt what it used to before as if they both know shes fucking aging (old) and having randal is what she wanted in life like how parents after having children just want to devote their entire life to give their children the best upbringing bc their time is ending soon its time for the next generation. THIS IS ALSO PURELY DELUSIONAL SORRY

whatever im rereading camping arc again (i do this every night) what can i say i love female hysteria and getting the horrors abt luther von ivory slowly descending into insanity

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Ughhhhhhhh I wanted to save this post for a lot later in my project but fuck it,I just started episode 4 which means that the jack the ripper arc is starting and boyyyyyy will I have a lot to say about that as far pronouns go

So yeah, this is Me Pointing Out The Use Of Formal And Informal Yous In The German Dub Of Black Butler part 3 (feat. Actual Explanations This Time woaaaa)

Okay, basically we have du, which is informal you and you use it for like, your peers I guess and people you know well

Then we have Sie, which is formal and you use it with people who have some kind of authority and/or power over you (employers n teachers n stuff like that) and with strangers or people you only want to maintain a 'professional' relationship to. Also, yeah you have to capitalize it when you write it down bc theres also sie as in, she and sie as in, they

Last but not least theres Euch, which you also have to capitalize. I didnt actually know how this was properly used until I looked it right before I started writing this because Ive never heard it being used outside of fiction occasionally, and if youve read my previous posts I probably said something wrong about it. From what I can tell its used for like, royals, aristocrats, people with nobility titles or whatever you wanna call those leeches, so thats why Lizzy n Ciel use Euch to refer to eachother that makes sense. That being said, I still think its kinda strange that Lizzy uses it for Ciel while also trying to get him to be less formal or whatever. Like, I can buy that Ciel would do that but Lizzy ?? Then again, she grew up as a woman in victorian england so thats probably why. HOWEVER the mafia guy addressing Ciel with Euch is still funny like bro, youre kicking the shit out of him his stupid nobility title doesnt mean shit now

Anyway, now that thats out of the way, I have two things I would like to point out:

Number 1: when Madame Red gets pissy w/ Lau for pretending to know who the Undertaker was towards the start of the fourth episode she uses du, when she had previously only used Sie bc yknow, even though they seem to be on p good terms, their relationship is purely professional at the end of the day. Now, I was gonna go on this whole tangent about some incomprehensible bullshit in order to explain this or whatever, but the reason for this probably really simple: its weird when you get upset enough to yell at someone but still use Sie. Thats it. Now, idk if this is particularly common but I actually remember doing something like that with my therapist lol like, I usually address her w/ Sie because yknow, ~Profesionalism~ and when I got really upset during one of our sessions and started yelling at her I switched over to du

Oh wait, I just remembered in the second episode that scene where Lau insinuates that he would do something "indecent" to Ciel and Madame Red starts yelling at him, she uses Sie for him there ?? Idk maybe the script is just inconsistent and Im putting too much thought into all of this

The second thing I wanted to talk about is: Sebastian has been referred to as Sie pretty consistently so far and like, I know thats gonna change soon because theres no way Grell is gonna keep trying to be professional or whatever once shes out of diguise, but still. As of the start of episode 4, the only people to use du for him are Ciel and that mafia guy and thats weird to me. Like, it makes sense for the servant trio to do that because hes In Charge and all that, and it makes sense for Grell because even though theyre 'peers' in the sense that theyre both butlers, they are strangers and dont really know eachother. But like, why is Madame Red doing it isnt she a baroness?? This would make sense in the modern day because you would address like, your friends personal assistant or whatever with Sie, regardless of wether or not youre "above" them in some weird way, because youre strangers and you wanna be polite to the people sour friend employs but. this is the fucken victorian times man, Idk a lot about that era but Im pretty sure they were big on this kind of weird classism

I was gonna end it here bit then I thought what if no one wants to du him because theyre intimidated or smth. Like, I know he can be intimidating but is that supposed to be 'a part of him' in the same way that being really hot is or what. Does he have a strong aura that compells people to do that. does he have that sigma male vibe. Discuss. comment down below

[reaperkiller]

hope i'm not too late for this AAAA mayhaps 6, 8, 20, 22, 27 and 30 for sebastian?? 💚

NEVER TOO LATE TO YELL ABOUT MY BOY

under a read more bc i can't shut up apparently

6. Who will they take advice from, no matter what it is? Who won’t they take advice from, no matter what it is?

he will take advice from anyone who offers it, but will he listen?? will he go through with it?? all depends on the day and if he can somehow fit it into his schedule or something because he is a little freak. and if someone is suggesting a change [that will most likely make things easier] he's like NOOO i cant fit that into my schedule guess i can't do it then. sorry ): <3

have i ever mentioned he is a little bit of an idiot. bc he Is A Little Bit Of An Idiot

8. Do complex puzzles intrigue or frustrate them?

if he let himself have fun and didnt have a constant stick up his ass he Would be intrigued by them and would maybe actually enjoy doing them. But Alas. No Fun Zone in his own brain. so he would try it for maybe 2 minutes and then give up.

20. What do they like that nobody else does?

everyone around him ejoys flavoured coffee of some sort. sweet coffee. coffee that isn't Just Coffee. but he loves black coffee. the stronger the better. he will NOT add things to it. if anyone else drinks his by accident, they will Know bc their skull feels like it's going to explode. and yet he still has the gall to complain that it 'isn't strong enough' for him

22. Do they like being called pet names? Do they call other people pet names? What’s their go-to?

he is a little freak who just needs to be loved,, if anyone called him any sort of pet name he Would crumble instantly. melt into a puddle of mush and tears. theres not many he would use tbh, but his go-to has always been darling. which is Nice but also. he calls people that before he kills them too so. do with that what you will <3

27 . Forgiveness or vengeance (or…)?

OGHGOOhoho. hojhoh ok. Ok. i need to be normal about this one. ok. he never really expects forgiveness from people bc he's done. plenty of unforgivable things [namely Murder] so that would be very hypocritical of him. also he would feel like he doesn't deserve to be forgiven anyway but thats a whole other thing. i will explode if i go on about that,, ANYWAY he Is capable of forgiving people for petty little things though

he's also not petty enough for vengeance apart from a Very Few Select Incidents bc he prefers not to let his emotions cloud his judgement on things bc that will only ever make things worse. but he is allowing himself the exception of payback for the guys that basically almost killed him that one time and sent his life in a vastly different direction. and it is Very Interesting to me bc. i'm not even sure if it would be revenge for him, more like,,, relief maybe or something idk. Closure perhaps. he's not going to kill them. but. eheoehehehe. (^:< i have some ideas

30. What would they do if they knew it would be forgiven?

well now this is a very good question considering. all of that whgjfsghjdghjg. he wouldn't Expect to be forgiven anyway so there's not a single thing he does with that as a motivation. he just does stuff, and if it ends in forgiveness, well then that's a fun little bonus. if he himself sees murder as unforgivable, and yet continues to do it anyway,, then nothing is really going to change. my brain broke writing this answer idk why but now it is simultaneously empty and full at the same time. Hello

[tussegah]

Phil elvrum - by abigail comaholly

There is this certain threshold right. Where if you pay enough attention to life, during life, 

There appears to be no end.

Like if you stand there and actually engage with the beauty of an ambegious (i suppose in phil elvrum case its often natural, but it can also be rustic, like the paint on a house) thing, like for example the water running down the face of the tree bark, you feel only a sense of presence but no sense of finite narrative, and thus no sense of narrative resolution, you can see where its going, but there appears to be no end. The only end would be a fabricated, arbitrary or logistic conclusion, like having to go home because your mum called you to, but theres always the sense that you could go back and continue an endless story.

If you focus on objectifications (Like for example, objects as having purposes, like the story of the fence ending in the outcome that it stops the things from inside it from getting out) it seems like life is finite and things end. Because the very way we create idea of death is by attributing things purposes and then saying there identity 'dies' when they become redundant in relation to said purposes. People conceptualize death by turning a person from a subject to an object, as both through claiming the person looses their subjectivity (since they are unable to have it derived from them anymore, as they appear to only follow the laws of physics from then on), and also by categorising them based on the 'redundancy' of their body (its inability to move, meaning that they cannot be part of the narrative of being alive). However one never categorises a dead person as 'more subjective than them', even though the person who has just died has expereinced an expereince of subjective intensity beyond what one could imagine, the impossibility it must have felt like to actually pass into death from the first perspective of being alive (not just the questions they would’ve been asking as they slowly crossfaded into death, but the actual movement into somewhere that isnt alive, or the dispersion of the feeling of being alive).

But when you long for something, when you say 'i dont know what this is', yet you still look at it, you are waiting for it, it is something that you expect will rather explain itself to you, rather than you explain it on behalf of itself.

I do think people's lives end on this earth, like their body, their ghost falls out and they cant fit back in. 

But if, during this life, you have a kind of patience where you expect something to happen.

Like you dont assert what is going on, but you just wait for it

You expect something to be worth it and to come, then

There is no end. 

It just feels like waiting forever in each moment. Each moment feels infinitely long

As we wait. And sometimes it comes, a friend, a wonderful friend, a wonderful and singular raindrop hits you straight in the eye as you look at clouds. But surely these events dont take place on earth, they are too succinct and connected to me and brilliant, they responded too directly to my desire for them. After i experience those moments i think of it in a way where it felt like i was asleep for a bit and then when the moment was over woke up again and then life went back to feeling like it takes forever again. Because i guess when nothing is conclusive than nothing can help conclude that feeling.

Afterward: Sorry i just wrote this thing on my mums computer while listening to to The Microphones on my mums and i thought it was really good and Annabel and Sebastian said i was allowed to use this account whenever i wanted to say something so long as i told everyone that it was me who did so um yeah.

Abigail Comaholly, 14 years old, Snowflake Symbol, Dissappearing Like the Dirt on the Roads or a Gopher up a Drain Pipe when the big Rains hit Street. (It's the one with the white painted wooden planks where the paint is mostly falling off and/or has lichen on it and all the trees without leaves around the front bedroom (which is my bedroom)) <3

Hiii, also, 8th of January 2004 2:47pm

[tears-of-boredom]

I feel normal about the name [my uncle's name]. I don't always associate it with my uncle. I can diffrentiate between a person and their name. I don't have complicated feelings about my uncle...seriously i don't know if im jealous or relating or whistful or just thinking about him a lot for no reason. I havent seen him in like probably 8 years, I have no idea where his life went. I don't know if i see myself in him or what. He's the only thing I can think about when I see a turqoise VW van. I don't think we ever even exchanged a single word. My relationship to him is just so weird. Maybe its just because i saw him actually get independent and move away from my grandparents place. Maybe from an early age i felt like I should do that as well. I don't know I feel like these types of feelings are something i should discuss with a therapist. I hate my life and it hasnt even really begun. Its sad how i refer to my childhood like im not currently living it. I wonder how life would've been if mom had a partner to raise us with. I don't really feel sorry for her, I'm just sad that I didnt get a proper childhood. It ended when i was maybe 11. At least thats how it feels. I used to brag about how i knew how to cook macaroni and minced meat for myself at 10...Whenever i think about my age i see this row of numbers in my mind. Theres a clear distinction that a new phase of my life begun when i was 10. That that was like a level milestone in a game...One time when i went to my therapist appointment she talked about my future, and i was too tired to stop myself from crying. I think I talked about how i broke down in swedish class that day. The general consensus was that it was my medication that was making me so sensitive to crying. It really wasnt, but i wanted to believe that changing the meds would magically cure me. One other time she talked about how I should start doing social interactions bit by bit, and to remember that the worst thing people could do was not say anything back. I told her that i was getting really fucking anxious just thinking about talking to someone. She offered to change the topic, reminding me later to still try and maybe say "good morning" to a classmate sometime. Maybe 2 times I've actually told her about a thing that I had to hesitate over, that i had to have a battle over in my head, that was a big deal to me. She listened, but she really only said things like "how do you know that the other person feels like that?" afterwards. I don't know it, but frankly really nothing will change the fact that I have social anxiety, therefore i wont approach someone banking on the fact that they remember me positively and not like a fucking weirdo. I know that my social anxiety isnt that rational. That's why there are two layers to my mind that i call "the emotional side" and "the factual side". It's just fucking hard to really do anything when my mind is contradicting its own thoughts constantly. This mind layer bullshit is why I sometimes feel like im not actually autistic. Its the reason I'm so hesitant to imply that i have any mental illness. If whenever i have a sensory overload, I'm extremely aware of how im acting, I feel like im doing it for attention. Because i do wish people would see me struggling and worry about me and regocnise me and.. everything. Someone said that you can't "accidentally fake something", and I straight up dont believe them. Yeah it sounds logical so it probably is true.. but I don't believe it. I wish my dreams were really clearly nice and exactly what I wish my life was. It feels more painful when they feel like real life but just so that i have friends. She's Losing It by Belle and Sebastian is a good song. The lyrics dont really match my situation but sometimes i like to ignore that and cry to it anyways.

[the-letter-horror-lover]

Notes:

THIS IS THE END OF THE BUTLER RED ARC! AH! I HOPE YOU ALL ARE ENJOYING THIS SO FAR! TRUST AND BELIEVE THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO COME!- Natalia

Chapter 19: ~The Butler & The Maid, Circus arc~

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

In which the young master is invited to a circus that is involved with a series of child kidnappings. Or in the case of Josephine, Sebastian and Ciel going undercover in a circus to help solve the case of the disappearing children.

"You were supposed to be like us! an outcast! with no one to turn too!"

"Truthfully I was like you. However I did have someone to turn to, and for that I will forever be grateful and do anything he asks of me, and if his orders to me are to kill you, then so be it."

-Arc contents-

• Book of circus spoilers!

•Graphic descriptions of:

-Blood

-Vomiting

-Murder

-Death

Notes:

Hello everyone! this is the final arc before shit gets wild! I guess you could call it the calm before the storm lol! the first chapter for this arc will be up either tomorrow or the day after! thank you again for reading and supporting my book!- Natalia

Chapter 20: The Butler & The Maid, Go to the circus

Chapter Text

"Noah's ark circus huh? I've never heard of them."

"I didn't think you would have. They were only just discovered a couple months ago, which oddly enough coincides with the recent kidnappings."

"Do you think they could have something to do with this? if their recent discovery coincides with the kidnappings ?"

"That could be a possibility."

"Even more so, we know rarely anything about the case itself, so we really don't have any way of knowing if the children are really being murdered by people from the underworld."

"If corpses haven't shown up in either the surface or underworld then theres a pretty good possibility that the children are still alive."

"Well if it's been decided, let's go you two we're going to the circus."The boy sighed as he looked out at the setting sun that over looked his estate. Smiling happily the maid clasped her hands together excitedly before having her and the butler excuse themselves to prepare for there leave. Josephine was rather interested to see such performances once again after not seeing them or rather being in one for such a long while.

She remembered the warmth the bright lights casted on her, the roar and excitement of the crowed and the cries of her name echoing from every which way, it all made her vision become clouded with a long forgotten past.

The Earl just hoped it wouldn't blur her sense of judgement.

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-That evening-

"So this is it huh?" The young master spoke as he looked up at the entrance of the rather large blue and white stripped tent, bright lights lit up the dark area almost in a tempting way, as if saying come one! come all! People from all directions excitedly entered the tent, their eyes wide with curiosity as they could only dream about such events that were to take place tonight.

'Doesn't seem to be anything suspicious however, why do I have a nervous feeling about this?' Josephine thought to herself as she and the butler followed their master into the tent and onto the bleachers where they sat in the shadows of the room.

"Ladies and gentlemen! boys and girls! of all ages!" A voice from the stage shouted as a singular spot light shone on him. His bright orange hair was pulled backward into a ponytail and he had three silver earrings in each ear. However that wasn't what made the man odd, but rather the skeletal hand...

However that wasn't what made the man odd, but rather the skeletal hand

"Welcome to the Noah's ark circus! My name is joker. If you'll look here," He smiled as he produced a set of balls from what seemed like thin air, before juggling them, causing the crowd to clap but then laugh when he missed one and let it fall onto his head as well as the other couple he held.

"Whoops!" He chuckled.

" The whole circus is jostling for a chance to give you a fun show so here we go! With one shot from the fire-eating man!" Appearing beside the leader of the circus was a rather tall and well built man with a large tattoo on the side of his bald head, in his hands he held a torch that burned with a flame as bright as the sun. Putting the object in his mouth he ate the fire with ease causing the audience to roar with cheers and excitement.

"THE SHOW OF THE CENTURY BEGINS!" Cheered the leader as he gestured to the ceiling, to see two children dressed in pink and green costumes, fly through the air on the trapeze bars, flying from one swing to the next with such ease one might think they were actually flying! Even Josephine was amazed by their stunts.

"Next is our gasp-inducing flying twins! Peter and Wendy!" Hanging by one of the swings by their knees, Petter reached out to his sibling who was swinging from the opposite bar, jumping off the object she grabbed her siblings hands and together the two gave the audience a heart warming smile that made the crowd cheer.

"He never misses his mark! the bull's eye knife thrower Dagger!" Now the spot light appeared on to a man with light blonde hair and piercing blue eyes, as he, at the speed of light, threw knife after knife at the woman who was tied down to a wheel and spinning clockwise. Altogether the blades didn't hit the woman once but instead made a perfect outline of her.

"No music nor anything particularly special." The earl spoke aloud with slight disinterest, causing the woman to slowly nod with her eyes still transfixed on the show.

"Indeed."

"There is no sign of the rumored kidnapped children either." Sebastian said in a hushed tone.

"And next is, the princess of our circus and her death-defying tightrope walk!" The light now panning to a fair skinned girl with one sky blue eye and curly white hair, patiently walked across the tightrope, with no guard beneath it to catch her if she fell. In her hands she held a small parasol as she made her way to the very center of the rope where she proceeded to do a split.

"If they don't intend to make a show of the children, Perhaps the circus's movements and the children's disappearances are merely a coincidence?" Josephine suggested as she leaned over a bit so the boy could hear her. Humming at her answer he began to consider the possibility but proceeded to put it off to the side for now.

"Next is the rare snake-human halfbreed! Our snakeman's dance! Snake!"The light now on the floor with a half naked man with silver hair and piercing golden eyes with visible slits in them had an array of snakes drooping and slithering up his body, his face calm and unalarmed as he listened to the crowds gasps.

"And finally! the star of the show, our wild animal tamer! Beast!" This performer struck out to Josephine, oddly. She watched her movements carefully, her leg, the right to be specific seemed to lag just a bit in movement, not that anyone would notice, but Josephine wasn't anyone and quickly took notice of the young woman right away. Noticing how when she stood it seemed as though she was trying to balance her weight on her lower half evenly, the maid furrowed her brows and squinted her gaze at the animal tamer in thought.

'Her leg...its movements are quite odd, they flow so smoothly and yet a since of delay every so often...'Josephine thought to herself as she squinted her emerald green iris at the wild animal tamer who cracked her whip in a manner that seemed so natural that it made Josephine crinkle her nose with slight detest. She never liked the mistreatment of animals nor conditioning them to do such acts but she would be the one to admit she was just like the wild tiger. However, at one point in her life Josephine never knew true freedom and was too remain forever caged up and let out to preform. Failure was never an option her and the tiger had that in common.

"For this act, we'd like a volunteer from the audience!" The ring leader shouted causing Josephine to quickly snap out of her thoughts and give the child her thoughts and analysis of the show so far.

"It appears the final show also has no connection to the children."Josephine spoke as she glanced over to her master who in turn nodded, but quickly stopped when he noticed the butler had stood up.

"What is it? did you find something?" Ciel asked as he looked up at his butler with a raised eyebrow, the woman beside him following his gaze and just as equally curious as to what he found, since she herself hadn't seem to hear or see anything too interesting. Suddenly the skeletal hand of the ring leader pointed to the butler.

"That really distinguished man with the tailcoat! Please step onto the stage!"

'Sebastian you joker-' Josephine thought to herself as she watched the man turn to his master to grant him permission.

"Sir?"

"Go." He quickly stated as the man nodded and began to make his way down the staircase. The bright spotlight following him as he jumped over the barricade with such ease it made some speculate the gentleman had done this exact routine before.

"Now sir, could you lie down over here?" Joker asked as he gestured to the opposite side of the stage but the demon just ignored him, his eyes set on something else or rather someone. Stunned by the sudden disobedience in orders the first tier members as well as the young master and maid watched as he walked past the performers and instead towards the tiger.

"Ahh, such round eyes..." Sebastian sighed as he cupped the animals face in his gloved hands, thumbs delicately tracing underneath the creatures eyes causing it to purr softly.

"OH, BLAST! TIGERS ARE CATS!" The earl exclaimed as he watched his servant act completely out of character over such a dangerous creature and acting as though it couldn't maul him to death in minutes

"OH, BLAST! TIGERS ARE CATS!" The earl exclaimed as he watched his servant act completely out of character over such a dangerous creature and acting as though it couldn't maul him to death in minutes.Trying to stifle her laughter the maid but a hand over her mouth and tried to look away from the sight.

"Oh dear!" She giggled.

"I've never seen such soft, vividly striped ears, how lovely! Your paw pads too, are plump and exceedingly charming." In the midst of the butlers deep admiration and professing of love for the animal it sudden opened its mouth and put the man's head in between its sharp jaws.

"Ah-" The butler said aloud as the crowd suddenly let out a scream the boy and maid included as they went to go get the damn butler but they had to reassure themselves

"Ah-" The butler said aloud as the crowd suddenly let out a scream the boy and maid included as they went to go get the damn butler but they had to reassure themselves. He wasn't human after all and could therefore take care of himself in situations such as this... even if to a normal human being this was completely out of the ordinary and the butler may look as though he was about to die.

"That damn butler."The two sighed as they felt their nervous sweat slowly disappear from their brows.

Clicking her teeth angrily the tiger's tamer raised her arm high in a swinging motion, as she readied to crack her whip hard onto the animal. But the butler's quick reflexes wouldn't allow such harm on to the beloved kitty, letting the end of the whip wrap around his gloved hand like a snake, he quickly tightened into a fist. Causing the audience to gasp and watch with bated breath the demon pull himself out of the tiger's mouth with such ease, that it even alarmed the earl a little bit.

Standing up right the butler just smiled warmly and put a hand over his heart, the whip still in his grasp.

"She did not do anything wrong, in the face of such loveliness, I was unintentionally rude. And besides that. If you simply recklessly swing the whip, you'll never be able to train her."He spoke politely as he glanced over at the tamer with sharp crimson eyes causing the woman to gasp.Not only at the look and words he had almost pierced her heart and soul with but because the tiger had pounced on top of the butler once more.

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-After the show-

"Who said you could go that far!" Ciel snapped as he gave Sebastian an angry glare causing the woman and butler to smile playfully at his sour mood. The rest of their investigation went smoothly as the butler had remained un harmed and the show went on without missing a beat. Surely nothing was too out of the ordinary and yet the three still had their doubts and suspicions.

Turning to face the butler Josephine put an honest hand over her heart,

"I enjoyed it, honestly." Throwing her a nasty glare the woman just giggled and carried on escorting her master to their awaiting carriage. All the while Sebastian seemed to walk as though he was on air, his smile unusually wide and radiant over his little playtime with his new found furry friend.

"My apologies

"My apologies. I've lived for such a long time, but it's only cats whose fickle emotions I cannot read." He beamed.

"What were you thinking!? being far more conspicuous than necessary-ACHOO!"Frowning at this she reached into the inner pocket of her cloak and produced a white silk hanker chief with her initials sewn into one of the corners in a lovely shade of dark blue. It was a parting gift from her manager, before he had dropped her as a client, respectfully, might I add.

Taking it he wiped at his runny nose and proceeded to hold on to it. His cat allergies finally kicked in as the maid feared they would.

"You know I'm allergic to cats!" He exclaimed as he let out a series of sneezes that made Josephine sigh and urge her master to hurry along, as she thought about the consequences to come if they got any worse.

"Well then let's hurry you home, before it gets even w-"

"There you are! hold on a second!" Glancing over his shoulder the butler saw the ring leader come rushing out from the big top, his good hand waving down the butler who stopped.

"You! in the coat-tail!" Not daring to look behind her the woman quickly grasped her masters arm and pulled him off to the side, behind the stalls they were still easily able to hear the conversation between the two men

"You! in the coat-tail!" Not daring to look behind her the woman quickly grasped her masters arm and pulled him off to the side, behind the stalls they were still easily able to hear the conversation between the two men.

"I'm really sorry for earlier." Joker said as he gave the demon a polite smile. Shaking his head the butler refused to accept.

"No please accept my apologies instead."He said as he placed a hand over his heart.

"I was surprised 'cause you suddenly got so close to the tiger. You okay from the bite?" He asked with a raised eyebrow as he looked the man up and down, inspecting for any injures but none were to be found.

"Anyway's we've got us a special doctor here, and I was thinkin' he should check you out," Joker continued as he gestured back the way they came.

"C'mon round to the back." He said as he turned his back to the demon, looking over his shoulder for his masters wishes the boy in turn nodded a yes, which made the creature smile.

"In that case, I will."

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-The Manor-

"Huh? why did it end up going in that direction?" Ciel asked as Josephine pulled the covers up to her masters chest. The butler who was catching the two up on the conversation and or what he had gathered from his trip to the infirmary looked over his shoulder and gave his master a questioning look, as if to say elaborate for me please?

"Why did it end up with you saying you had some people interested in working for the circus!" The boy questioned as he tried to figure out what direction the butler was going with this.

"You lot are now signed up for the entrance test, However, Josephine you may be the exception." The butler noted with a grin as he watched the woman hover about her master, making sure he was plenty comfortable.

"Of course." She hummed as she began to untie her masters eye patch and lightly place it on his night stand.

"Just you two infiltrating isn't enough?" The boy complained as he threw his hands up in the air obviously frustrated about the whole ordeal of having to sleep in the bitter cold, and even more so be forced to but on a performance! physical activity was something the young master wasn't rather strong at.

"Living in a tent? what a joke!" He spoke bitterly.

"Would that really be all right? Us living according to our own free will, rather than your orders?" Sebastian asked with a raised eyebrow. Glancing from the butler to the boy the woman smiled and gave her masker a knowing look.

"He does have a point, the stage was my home. I might as well end up in the top performer's tents quicker than we expect which means I could get some top secret information for you."

"...I guess you two are right," He huffed as he crossed his arms over his chest.

"But you need to preform in the circus, right? I can't do that sort of thing." He said as he glanced at the two with a slight pout, as if begging for this to be a valid reason as to why they allow him to stay in the comfort of his manor.

However the two weren't having it.

"How true."Josephine spoke softly as she glanced over at the butler as if asking what to do now. But he just simply smiled and clasped his hands together happily.

"Well, as much as you can, please do your best on the entrance test." Sebastian said as he prepared to take his leave.

"As your servants we will be rooting for you from the bottom of our hearts." Josephine smiled as she placed a hand on her heart. Sighing the boy closed his eyes and rolled onto his side, facing away from the two servants.

"It can't be helped. I'll do it."

Chapter 21: The Butler & The Maid, Audition

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"Whoa, you brought a really cute- wait a minute haven't I seen ya before?"

"I would hope you have."

"That smile, that eye, y-your-"

"Josephine Brandson, it's a pleasure to meet you-"

"Joker."

"Joker."

"No please the pleasure is all mine! I-I've always had a fondness for your talent! It's a shame what happened to ya, but i'm glad you're back on the rise!" Joker blushed as he held onto the woman's hands tightly, before looking down and noticing they were still holding hands, blushing he quickly let go of her and began to chuckle nervously at his actions.

The next morning the three were quick to make preparations for their auditions at the Noahs arch circus. Quickly stuffing their master with breakfast and slipping him into some loose fitting commoners clothing the three practically flew out the manors front door.

"Me too-Oh! I would like to introduce you to my friend, Finnian. He's helped me out a lot when I was in the dumps and I would hate to leave him by himself. So I thought I should bring him here with me." She spoke as she lightly rested her hands on the young boys shoulders, a hint of sympathy hinted in her voice caused Jokers heart to crack slightly as he truly felt pity for the poor boy.

"Well he sure is a cute boy! However cuteness isn't enough to join the circus. If you can't perform, that is."Joker smiled happily as he patted Ciel's head. Giving the ringleader a nervous smile the boy gulped and nodded.However this didn't make the maid's smile falter in fact it widened at the thought of seeing her master perform.

"Of course he can! he trained under me no doubt." She proudly stated causing the boy to flash her a quizzical look. Sure the statement was true but was fencing particularly something you saw in a circus? and even if it was, he was no where near as good as her the two couldn't even be considered a comparison.

"Really? well then, let's see you try your luck with knife throwing. Dagger, lend him a knife." Joker smiled as he turned to the blonde beside him. Giving the child a friendly smile he pulled out from behind his back a simple five inch throwing knife/

"Here ya go." Taking it the boy held the weapon in his hands before watching Joker's hand extend to the target that stood a good couple feet away from them.

"Hit that target from over here." Giving him a nod he quickly glanced over at Josephine to make sure she watched. Which she was, with her arms crossed and head down slightly she watched with seemingly slited eyes as her student began to show off the training he had been given just this morning.

'Puff up your chest! good! now arm back at a full 90 degrees! not too far back just enough to feel the blade still grazin' ya! now throw! ' The woman instructed as she watched the boy fling the blade at a makeshift target. Unfortunately it didn't make it far before hitting the target and falling to the ground. They had been practicing since she had gotten him dressed that morning and yet there still was no sign of improvement and they were due to leave the manor in just a few short hours. Even the butler who stood by and watched couldn't do anything, but watch the training session drag on, his abilities were something to marvel at but surely this he couldn't even help or rather fix.

Looking at the small pile of knives that had no gathered at the bottom of the target the boy groaned and face palmed with frustration and anger. At this rate it was useless but the woman was still as determined as ever.

'Shall we try again master?'

"Ah boss you're too mean, with those skinny arms he can't reach that

"Ah boss you're too mean, with those skinny arms he can't reach that." Dagger spoke as he looked over at the ring leader with a teasing look on his face. Shaking his head Joker sighed and watched as the boy approached the targets with little to no confidence, he had only hit the target twice during their short practice that morning and it sadly wasn't consistent.

"It's not mean. It can be the closer for the show. " Sighing, the boy closed his eyes and gripped the knives in his hand, positing himself in a throwing stance he puffed up his shoulders brought his arm back and threw the weapon. Unable to watch the oncoming failure the woman slowly closed her eyes, just in time to see the dagger re direct itself to the target rather than the ground.

"NO WAY!" They gasped. Covering her smirk with her blue velvet scarf she glanced beside her and noticed the butler tossing a small stone in the palm of his hand, before flicking it in the direction of another misdirected knife.

Smiling with confidence the boy continued to throw the blades with all his might, all the while the butler made sure they landed on the target perfectly. Some even going so off target that it seemed highly unlikely for it to land and yet it hit the red circle dead center.

"Is this alright?" Ciel asked as he gestured to the makeshift target where various knives were stabbed harshly into it, a majority of them striking the head rather than the heart like Josephine preferred. Smiling she walked over to her pupil and gripped his shoulders pridefully.

"See, taught by no one but the best." Still stunned by the tiny boys performance Joker smiled and nodded his head in thought.

"Hm, well ya got talent that's for sure! but the exam isn't over yet!" The boy's confidante smirk quickly fell.

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-The big top-

"Tightrope walking!" Joker beamed as he gestured to the contraption above them.

'Oh dear.' The woman spoke as she clutched her hands nervously, the butler who still had numerous tricks up his sleeve could only smirk as he rubbed a small stone in his gloved hand with anticipation.

"Doll! tie the lifeline tightly! it's dangerous if a beginner falls!" The ring leader called as he looked up at the two with a gleeful smile. Nodding the tightrope walker tightened the rope around the boys waist tighter causing him to gulp and nervously look down at the crowd of on lookers.

"Can't I do some sort of music test instead!?" He shouted down.

"Hmm? Already giving up then?" The man called back as he gave him a questionable look.

"N-No! but if there's something else-"

"If you're serious don't dawdle and do it fast!" Letting out a shaky breath the boy slowly began to make his way to the rope that held his fate

"If you're serious don't dawdle and do it fast!" Letting out a shaky breath the boy slowly began to make his way to the rope that held his fate. Letting his right foot rest upon the rope he sucked in a deep breath and quickly let his other foot follow, quickly though he began to falter, his arms flapping up and down at a rapid pace as he looked for help to balance him, but no one came to his rescue until a sharp pain dug its way into his back, causing him to straighten up immediately, but still falter.

Surprised by this the young woman looked over at the butler to see him holding a stone and quickly throwing them at the boy as he maintained his balance all the while he made the slow walk to the other side of the rope.

"My, is this some sort of punishment?" She asked with a small quirk of her lip.

"In some form or another." The man mused as he gave her a closed eyed smile.

"He recovered after all!" Joker shouted with amazement as he and the rest of the crowd watched as he collapsed onto the other podium.

"That's great! I didn't really think you'd be able to do it!"He mused as he clapped his hands.

"So don't demote this cute lil' kid, boss!" Dagger smiled as he helped the boy down the ladder and onto the safety of the bit top floor.

"Not yet! the boy hasn't done something real important." The leader spoke as he leaned down to look at Ciel with an almost serious expression. Fearful of what that might be, he gave the man a nervous look, even the servants were hesitant as to what the last trial would entail.

"A big ol' SMILE!" Slapping a hand over his mouth the butler turned and looked away, the woman beside him could only look to the floor and cover her laughter with a cough, causing the two to laugh even harder.

"C'mon, smile!" Joker gestured as he pinched the boys cheeks

"C'mon, smile!" Joker gestured as he pinched the boys cheeks.

Red with frustration he looked down at the ground and furrowed his eyebrows at such a nauseating request, how dare he ask this of him. Such a stupid demand and yet the pressure to get this over with made him push his pride and angered thoughts aside and instead produce the most glorious smile the man had ever seen.

-That afternoon-

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-That afternoon-

"Everyone!~" Joker hummed as he called all the workers to attention, his smile wide and inviting as he gestured for everyone to come around and hear the news.

"From today on, we have some new friends,"

"First off we have the famous, 'Blue velvet beauty', fencer Josephine Brandson!" Looking around at the group of performers with her signature smile she gave a small wave that made a majority of the men nearly faint. She was still a stunner even years later, her charms had not faded and neither had her talents and everyone was ready and or excited to see her in action once again.

"Hello!" She spoke with a cheerfulness that made hearts of ice melt.

"It's an honor to have you join our circus, m'lady! truly!" Joker went on as he held her hands excitedly, cheeks tinged pink as he couldn't believe he was speaking to his childhood crush. Never in his wildest dreams did he think he would be able to speak to her so casually let alone stand next to her!

"Oh, please! I though it was about time I got back on my feet again." She said as she wavered her hand to dismiss the man's comments as he gave her one last smile before gesturing to the smiling demon beside her.

"Moving on we have 'Black'!"

"It's a pleasure!" He spoke with an unusual cheerfulness that made the woman almost glance at him funnily.

"Also this one is...SMILE!" Putting her scarf up higher on her mouth the maid began to excuse her laughter for a cough all the while the butler snickered and clutched, his top hat in his hands. Luckily nobody noticed but the boy who just gave a nervous smile in response.

"Let's get along well everyone!" Joker smiled as he clapped his hands together.

"Well come on then Smile! greet your elders!" He spoke as he gently pushed the boy forward as to greet the older members of the circus who in turn smiled and waved to the boy.

"It's nice to meet you..." He muttered shyly causing the servants to continue their secret snickers.

"C'mon, Smile!, Smile!"

Chapter 22: The Butler & The Maid, Blend in

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"New people practice over here, aiming at making their debut in a real public performance."

"Josephine since you're already a star you get to work with us, I'll show you the way."

"Sounds good."

"Newcomers work on the basics first. Warm up carefully-"

"JOKER! It's almost your turn!"

"Yes'm'. Josephine please excuse me but I forgot I had some important matters to take care of. Do you mind training here for today?"

"Of course not! please take care of whatever it is you have to do."

"Such a lovely lady! thank you!" Joker gushed as he walked out of the tent. With her smile now vanishing from her eye her facade slowly came down as she heard the master and butler talk in hushed whispers. Walking towards their stretching forms she made it just in time to discuss what they had found out so far.

"The poisonous snake tent is the entrance to the first tier, members' tent huh?" Ciel said as he looked from the butler to the ground.

"So instead of a guard dog, it's guarded by snakes, is it?" The boy muttered to himself.

"To enter the private tent, we have to become first-tier members?"He asked as he looked up at the two.

"Indeed, which won't be a problem, Joker has told me that I have been promoted to first-tier. I'll try and gather as much information as I can."Josephine spoke as she unraveled her scarf from around her neck and left it by one of the barriers that separated the audience from the entertainment.

"Have the two of you sensed anything regarding the children? Perhaps a sign of some sort?" He asked as he looked to the two servants with a hopeful glance, but they only replied with a shake of the head.

"I hear no children." Josephine sighed as she took her cloak off, to reveal her in a simple shirt and pants. Stretching her arms high above her head she began to follow everyone's lead and prepare herself for a long days work.

"Nor do I sense them." The butler sighed as he lightly leaned against the boys back in an effort to help him stretch.

"I couldn't hear anything in the form of a child like whisper of endangerment, nor a sound of struggling." The woman said as she remembered the auditions and how she heard nothing out of the ordinary.

"I couldn't feel any sign of the children's presence either last night or during today's tour." The butler elaborated.

"Even so, we have no evidence there's no relation to the children's disappearances, you have searched every nook and cranny have you?" Ciel spoke sternly as he gave his servants a warning look, which they returned back with a slow nod.

"That's right. There's a possibility their current condition is such under wraps that we are unable to sense them," Josephine said as she stretched her arms behind her back.

"Hey, Don't stretch so sluggishly you guys."Dagger spoke as he raced over to the trio. His face laced with worry when he noticed how the boy's stretching would render him injured if he didn't correct his posture.

"Apologies, um boss Dagger? what about your performance?" Ciel asked as he looked up at the blonde.

"Today I was the top batter! I'm already done and observing practice. Oh! Josephine?"

"Hm?" She hummed as she looked over at Dagger.

"Turns out we'll be working together for quite a bit." He said as he scratched the back of his neck nervously. Sure he was also her celebrity crush when he was younger but Beast was the only one for him, and besides Josephine belonged to Joker. Everyone with in a five mile radius could see that.

"You don't say?" She said with smile as she raised her eyebrow with interest.

"Yeah instead of me throwing darts at you, your gonna throw darts at me! " He grinned as he put his hands on his hips.

A tad bit nervous about the whole ordeal of throwing knives rather than jabbing them at someone who was equally jabbing at her the young woman gave the man a nervous smile which made him sigh and rest a reassuring hand on her shoulder.

"I trust ya! You and those skills of yours!"

"I won't disappoint you!" She beamed.

"Oi, Smile I'll be teaching ya how to throw knives, What about you Black?"

"I don't have any particular preferences." The demon chuckled.

"You've got good reflexes don't you? If there's something you see and it looks like you can do it. Give it a try!"

"Indeed." The man smirked to himself as he launched himself towards the hanging trapeze bars. Hanging by his knees he swung himself back and fourth and proceeded to produce a set of balls from out of thin air.

"First is Juggling!" Together the performers and lingering stage hands watched in, awe as the butler preformed such tricks that left them amazed and stunned.

'My that butler is talented.' Josephine smiled to herself as she stood and watched him whirl around from corner to corner showing off his numerous talents that led every single performer in the tent speechless. Sebastian was indeed a one man circus inside and out.

From pole climbing, to leaping through fire, to hanging on a high wire the butler stunned and amazed all that watched. Even the master for a second was perplexed and amazed by the demon's power but surely it was nothing he hadn't seen before.

"Amazing! way to go Black!" Dagger clapped once the man had finished. Frowning slightly Ciel lightly nudged him causing the butler to glance down at him.

"You're getting too carried away, act a little more like a new-" The boy harshly whispered to the butler, the young woman giving a slight nod in agreement.

"C'mon, honestly! another super newcomer's appeared? I won't lose y'know!" A voice from above shouted.

"See he already has his eye on you-" Dagger chuckled.

"Do you hear that?" The butler asked as he glanced over at the woman. Hearing the familiar slow and almost non-existent heart beats of those that lurked more than demons, the young woman closed her eye and sighed.

"Indeed I do."

"Heeyy! come down for a sec! you gotta meet the new comer's they're wickedly talented!" Dagger shouted to the tightrope walker who stood above the crowd. Hearing him groan with disgust out came a long pole used for cutting tree branches, un-wavered by the sudden object landing by the feet of the two servants they watched as the man from the shadows slid down and appear before them.

"SUIT!" Dagger shouted enthusiastically as he gestured to the man in a bright yellow suit and red and white polka dot tie.

"I thought I sensed an unpleasant aura. So it was you, was it?" He asked as he looked at the demon with distaste, the butler equally angered with the reapers presence.

"Honestly." He said as he pushed his glasses up before glaring down at the boy. Feeling her motherly instincts take over the young woman put a hand on the boys shoulder and pulled him back a little. Her smile unchanging as she looked at the man with an iris as dark as evergreen.

"Careful." Josephine seethed with a smile laced with edge. Glancing at her with his yellow-green eyes he squinted at her before raising an eyebrow.

"I'm sorry have we met?" The reaper asked, well more like stated.

"I'm Josephine Brandson." Josephine said proudly as she placed a hand over her heart. Humming at the name the reaper had remembered hearing that very same name and face quite some time ago, for he was the one who was to reap her soul when she had her unfortunate accident. But she prevailed and saw through the veil that was quickly covering her eyes, she would always be known as the one who got away.

"And you're with this fiend aren't you?" He asked as he gestured to Sebastian, his eyes never sparring him the glance.

"Indeed." She nodded.

"I thought so," The man sighed.

"What did you come to fish around for this time? you devilish fiend!" He suddenly spat as he pointed his shears at Sebastian causing him to look at him with confusion, the woman and child equally thrown off by such a statement.

"Devil?" Dagger questioned as he looked at the two men oddly.

"Even under the best circumstances, in this time of grim reaper shortages-"

"The hell are you goin' on about?" Josephine questioned as she gave the reaper an odd look, obviously still playing into the game of being her former self with the dissociation of the Phantomhive's. The crowd that had now gathered looked equally confused as they too were curious to know what they were talking about.

"With a demon appearing like this, I suppose it will throw off my schedule."

"Give it up forehead! You said it with such a straight face, I couldn't tell you were joking!" Dagger laughed as he slapped a hand on the man's back.

"Since the first day he came here this guy's been telling jokes! Stuff like;" how about this soul?" he's a real hardcore occult fan!"

"Though they're not actually jokes." The reaper muttered as he pushed his glasses up to the bridge of his nose.

"I'll introduce you. These guys just joined today, The small one is Smile and the big one is black, It seems you've already met Josephine,"

"Well, bond over your hopes and get along well!"

"I'm sorry but there's no way i'll get along with a savage beast." The reaper spoke bluntly as he wavered his hand to dismiss the thought.

"AH! No way!? The circus is about teamwork!"

"Why is a Grim reaper in a place like this?" Josephine muttered as she leaned a bit over towards the butler. Her eyes still transfixed on the well dressed man.

"A grim reaper personally infiltrating a place is rare. Now we know one thing is for certain,"Grasping the boys attention now he glanced up at his butler and maid with interested eyes.

"There is something in this circus after all." And with that being said the investigation commenced.

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-That evening-

"Thanks for waiting! It's now time for the new arrivals room assignments! For fairness these're the results of a lottery. Smile in tent B here's your roommate!" Joker smiled as he patted the shoulder of a brunette child with one blue eye, the rest covered by her hair, cheeks and nose littered with light brown freckles. As she smiled warmly at the boy before giving him a slight wave.

"Blacks in tent 9."

"Seba- Black and I aren't rooming together!?" Ciel gasped as he looked at Joker surprisingly

"Seba- Black and I aren't rooming together!?" Ciel gasped as he looked at Joker surprisingly.

"Ahhhaa Smile really sticks close to black huh?" The man chuckled causing the boy to blush and shake his head on refusal.

"T-That's not it-"

"Then you'll be surprised when you find out Josephine isn't rooming with you either!" Feeling as though he was at a huge disadvantage now the boy just sighed and put on a fake smile, even if it hurt to make it.

"Wh-or I mean th-that's fine hehe." Giving her master a pitiful glance she turned to look at the butler who was glaring daggers at the reaper who was making sure to keep a close eye on the demon, but the glares hardened even more when they heard the announcement of who would be rooming with who.

"Black your roommate is Suit!" Feeling the tension thickening between the two the woman could only stile her laughter when she saw the look on both of their faces

"Black your roommate is Suit!" Feeling the tension thickening between the two the woman could only stile her laughter when she saw the look on both of their faces.

"And as for Josephine while we get your tent set up you'll be roomin' with Beast for a day or two, I hope you don't mind." The ring leader said causing Josephine to look away from the two and instead to the man who called her name. Giving him a happy smile she nodded and showed that there was no ill will of the idea of sharing a tent, even if the latter refused the idea immediately, but when push came to shove Beast reluctantly agreed. Even if she was her bosses favorite.

"Of course not! I'd be happy to actually!" She spoke kindly causing the man's smile to widen even more, his heart racing a mile a minute when she flashed him that signature smile.

"Right then! follow me!" Gesturing for the crowd of newbies to follow him, they did as they were told and let the man guide them out of the tent and out into the cool mid-afternoon. Due to the sun being hidden amongst the grey clouds, it provided little to no warmth for the group, especially for the young master who was shaking like a leaf.

"First, these're the tents you guys'll be sleeping in. It's where the backstage an' newcomers- or second tier members live, 'bout two or three people share a room."

"WHAAAAA!?"

"Black and Smile already get along well, so this is your chance to make new friends!" Dagger commented as he gave the boy a friendly smile.

"Exactly why look at Josephine! she's excited to make new friends aren't ya love?"Joker asked as he turned to face her.Giving him a smile she nodded and clasped her hands together in front of her.

"Oh! of course!"

"See! Alright then moving on allow us to show you the rest of the circus!" The ring leader began to show the rest of the crew all the odds and ends about the circus, from the mess hall, to the store room, to the first aid tent. Nothing was missed and or sensed to be out of place by the two Phantomhive servants. Josephine couldn't hear anything related to children, no crying, sniffling or prayers for a release from their cages, the butler was also having trouble locating the kidnappies as well, even his demonic prowess couldn't have helped and this troubled the trio very much.

"And here is where you'll be staying Josephine, Beast's is just that one there at the end. For the rest of you newbies these are the private tents which you'll get if you're really good. that's snake's tent by the way, so stay away from that one if you know what's good for ya, theres a bunch of poisonous snakes roaming free, so if you get bit even once you're off to the underworld!"

"By the way Smile..." Joker suddenly asked as he looked down at the boy with a sympathetic expression.

"What happened to your right eye?" Putting a hand over his eyepatch the boy was slightly taken aback by what he asked, surely people gave the one eyed boy odd glances here and there but never were they brave enough to ask.

"What happened to your right eye?" Putting a hand over his eyepatch the boy was slightly taken aback by what he asked, surely people gave the one eyed boy odd glances here and there but never were they brave enough to ask

"Eh? ah...this is- there was an accident." He stuttered.

"Is that so? so young, but you've been through a lot." The man sighed as he gave the boy a sympathetic look, he too knowing what it was like to lose something precious to him. Quickly shaking his head he smiled and rested a gentle hand on the boys shoulder.

"Everyone here's been through something so you'll get along with the rest of them!" Giving him a smile Ciel nodded in agreement, still disturbed by the fact he would be no where near his dear servants and even more so that he would have to share a room with someone he didn't even know.

"Y-Yeah."

Chapter 23: The Butler & The Maid, Make an enemy

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"So you're my new roomie for the next couple a days aye?"

"I'm Jose-"

"I know who you are,"

"Joker wouldn't shut up about how excited he was to have such talent like you come to our circus."

"Oh..."

"Don't think you're so high and mighty girly, just because you're a head liner now doesn't mean you think you're the top dog. That's Joker's position and no one else's."

"I understand that. I'm not here to take any one's position believe me. I just simply wanted to get back into the swing of things. Fame then and even now doesn't appeal to me...I just...wish to make people smile again. That's all." Her acting was far better than she thought. Anything more or less would seem suspicious, she was determined to be convincing.

"Really? making people happy? that's what you've rehearsed?" Beast chuckled bitterly as she turned to look at the woman from over her shoulder.

"You gotta be joking! someone of your caliber never gave a damn about money or fame!? I don't believe that making people smile crap for even a second!" She spat as she crossed her arms over her chest, eyes narrowed in disgust over the woman's half assed words which they were but she would never express that verbally.

"You stars are all the same." She gritted as she threw on her scarf. With her back to her Josephine scowled at the cloth tented walls before peering over at the woman who was preparing to leave.

"Believe what you will, but my words are as true and blue as the velvet I use to wear." She said with a smile. Rolling her eyes she lifted the flap of the tent and gave the woman one last glance.

"Tch. I'll believe that when I see it."

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-The next morning-

"Good morning all!" Josephine smiled as she and Black entered the mess hall. Looking up and over at the duo the group of men and women could only give the woman a tired smile and wave as she floated in like an angle with her dark and ominous shadow falling behind her.

"Morning Josephine!" They all called as they held cups of strong coffee in their strong calloused hands. Tired eyes with heavy and dark circles under them watched as the two walked over to the two youngest members of the camp one of which was peeling potatoes...

"Making friend's already I see..."Ciel growled as he continued to peel away. His form visibly shaking due to the cold weather. Tempted to take her cloak off and wrap it around his shoulders she knew it was against her better judgement. She couldn't be his mother in this situation nor a loyal servant. She had to let him be as much as her heart told her not to her mind said otherwise.

"Of course! Kindness get's you places don't it?" She giggled slightly as she remembered saying those exact words to him some time long ago. Sitting down next to freckle the woman and child began to strike up a conversation while the butler could only concentrate on the knot the young master tried to make to keep his eyepatch on.

"You're gonna have a hard time untying a dead knot on your own." The man tisked as he began to untie the knot all the while the boy and two women looked at them confused. Suddenly letting out a laugh Freckles pointed and said,

"Smile, Black ain't your mum!" Nodding in agreement Josephine giggled and shook her head.

"Let the boy do it on his own Black!" Looking at her with a slightly confused face the butler couldn't believe what he was hearing. That was until he saw the look in her eye.

"He's a man after all."She finished. Gritting his teeth at the humiliation the boy just gone through he let out a low growl before facing the butler with reddened cheeks. Grabbing his tie he yanked him down and whispered in his ear,

"Don't treat me as your master while we're here! follow Josephine's lead!"

"Understood I shall at once."Straightening up again the butler dusted off his tie before noticing the shreds of potato 'skins'.

"Straightening up again the butler dusted off his tie before noticing the shreds of potato 'skins'

"Um. Smile, what do you plan on making with those peels thicker than meat?" Sebastian chuckled as he pointed to the tick slices of potato skin and actual potato. Looking down at his work the boys cheeks turned an even deeper red once he realized he hadn't done it right.

"Uh-"

"SMILE WHADDYA THINK YOU'RE DOING!?" Freckles shouted as she walked over to see his efforts only to be disappointed and completely embarrassed. Picking up one of the skins Freckles pouted and stuck her tongue out.

"Blimey what part of this can we eat?" Cracking his knuckles the three looked towards the butler and watched as he pulled his gloves on tight.

"It cannot be helped, I shall deep fry them as they are into crisps and make fish and chips." The butler said as he picked up the container of them.

"SWEET! I LOVE THOSE!" Freckles cheered excitedly.

"Good to hear. Josephine?" The butler hummed. Grabbing the other basket she nodded and followed suit.

"Must you ask for my assistance?" She giggled.

"No I guess not." He mused as they carried off with their goodies to begin making breakfast. As they walked away Freckles smiled and looked over at Ciel who could only hold himself as a bitter chill ran through his spine. The thin layers of clothing and scarf not doing him any justice as he tried to keep himself warm.

"Black and Josephine seem to really get along huh Smile? Are ya sure they aren't ya parents?" Freckle laughed as she nudged the boys shoulder. Looking over he gave a shy smile and nodded his head.

"Hehe yeah I'm sure..."

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"Come and get ya breakfast while it's hot ladies and gents!" Josephine shouted over the commotion as she stacked her hands and arms with plates of fish and chips which the patrons hungrily took away before seating themselves at the wooden tables and benches.

"Blimey this is great!" One person said as they dug into the fish.

" Oi! Black and Josephine this is bloody amazing!" Another man called as they stood up from their seat and gave them a smile and thumbs up. Smiling the woman continued to pass around plates and gave the man a nod in approval.

"Why thank you!" She gushed as the butler handed her two more plates. Hearing the congested breathing of a familiar child the woman peaked over the varies hungry people and watched as Freckles came barreling through the crowd, Ciel mercilessly dragged behind her as she continued to push and shove her way through.

"HEEEEYYY! OUTTA MY WAY!" She shouted as she knocked people twice her size out of the way. Impressed Josephine smiled and handed them each a plate.

"Here you lot go!" She giggled as Freckles took both plates and giving the woman and man a loud.

"THANK YOU!" Before shoving the plate in the boys hands and running off to a free spot in the large tent. The boys visible blush growing brighter due to the running and exercising he's done through out the morning. Continuing to pass out plates of food to hungry workers and performers the woman couldn't help but think.

'Hopefully he makes a friend while we're here...'

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-That afternoon-

Sweaty and seemingly almost out of breath the woman wiped the sweat from her brow and stretched her sore arms, pulling her ponytail tighter she gave the butler a knowing look which he returned with a nod as he grabbed onto one of the trapeze bars and began to swing back and forth. Grabbing the one on her end she pushed herself off the landing with her legs and feet pointed straight, before flipping herself upward and going straight into a flip, releasing herself from the bar she held on to, the butler following suit as they briefly passed each other mid-air before catching one another's bars. Neither one of them missing a beat as they seemed to resemble the circus's stars Peter and Wendy.

"WOAH! LOOK AT BLACK AND JOSEPHINE THEY'RE BLOODY BRILLIANT-NO WAY SUIT AIN'T HALF BAD EITHER!" Freckles gasped as she caught Ciel staring at the two of them, still so amazed and stunned that these were the two people he had employed. More or less his amazement was drawn to the woman as she was particularly known for knife tricks and swords .

But this new form of art? he never would have expected from the likes of her.

But within the blink of an eye, mid swing, she flung herself forward on to the safety net where she landed, before bouncing back up where the butler who clung to the bar by his knees caught the woman's outstretched hands before flinging her back to the still swinging bar. Hooking her legs onto the swing she smiled and proudly to herself before making a small finally and flipping herself back onto the podium, the butler following suit.

"WOW!THEY'RE AMAZING THOSE TWO! SMILE! ARE YOU SURE YOU TWO LIVED TOGETHER!?" Freckles asked as she looked over at the equally stunned Ciel.

"For a time yes hehe..." He chuckled nervously as he scratched the back of his neck. While the shenanigans of the butler and maid continued up front the fierce competition of the seniors pursued behind the curtains. Gritting her teeth the woman's cheery red lips curled into an angry snarl as she saw the woman receive compliments and praise from other performers. Her smile as sweet as honey made her sick with envy.

"Tch. Damn bitch." She snarled as she caught the attention of a passing Joker who instantly stopped and turned to look at her with a menacing look on his face.

" She snarled as she caught the attention of a passing Joker who instantly stopped and turned to look at her with a menacing look on his face

"You better respect her, she's a class act, we are nothing but fortunate to have her on the team." He spoke sharply causing Beast to gulp and nod in understanding. Even the great Joker was wrapped around her finger now! something she wished she could do.

"R-Right. Sorry..." She muttered before watching him walk away.

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The rest of the afternoon was uneventful after wards, all the woman and butler had to do was their share of chores and team work while also cautiously spying on the head of the troupe. The butler was now on the other side of the site having needed to help the other performers set up for tonight while Josephine did a quick load of laundry.

"Hmmm, mmm-" Beside her she could hear the sound of her master shivering with frustration and chill, the sound causing her to sigh softly and look around to make sure no one saw her duck between the tents. Noticing his curled up form she grabbed a clean blanket from the basket and wrapped him in it. The sudden warmth making him sigh with relief.

"Are you alright?" She asked as she began to dry his wet and matted hair, such things could most likely contract a cold. Something he did not need during this time.

"I fear you'll contract a cold, let me get you a change of clothes

"I fear you'll contract a cold, let me get you a change of clothes."She said as she searched through the clean laundry basket to find something that would fit the small boy.

"ENOUGH ALREADY! I'M GOING TO FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT IF I CONTINUE TO LIVE LIKE THIS!" He snapped causing the woman to sigh and rest a hand on her hip. Her eyebrow raised in a fake shock.

"Don't tell me my great and powerful master is surrendering already? We only just started! Why, this isn't like you to feel so defeated."

"It shouldn't be like me, the head of the Phantomhive family, to live like this," He sneezed as he wiped his nose against the scratchy blanket she had put over him.

"Let's bring this to an end quickly." He stated sternly as he watched the woman pull out the necessary clothing for him to wear.

"At once dearest." She said as she began to peel off his clothes and quickly dry him with the blanket.

"I already have the investigation of the troupe members underway, while Beast is out on stage tonight I won't be able to search her side of the room, Joker has his eye on me no matter where I am."

"Out of suspicion?"

"Even worse, I fear it's admiration." Rolling his eyes at that he scoffed and shook his head.

Such frivolous emotions.

"Sebastian is unable to move at night due to the reaper observing him, so you'll have to go in and infiltrate her things. There's a chest that I've been keeping a close eye on so search there first." She spoke as she buttoned up his shirt with quick and nimble fingers. The tips of them red due to the bitter cold but she didn't mind it, as she quickly pulled up and buttoned her masters trousers.

"Right, however we need to think of a way to shake off that Freckles that has attached to us. I must move or else it'll be pointless." He said as he felt the sudden warmth of wool socks cover his freezing feet as well as a pair of poorly insulated shoes.

"I understand me and the butler will try to be as swift as we can." She said as she placed a hand over her heart to signal her promise. Before slipping another jacket over his shivering shoulders and scarf around his neck.

"...Let's get back soon I want to eat sweet's while drinking warm tea." Smiling in thought she giggled and stood up.

"I shall prepare them for you...when we return to the estate of course."Giving him a teasing wink she grabbed the basket of laundry and carried on with her chores and spy work.

"Tch. Blasted woman."

Chapter 24: The Butler & The Maid, Perform

Chapter Text

-The following evening-

"D'ya know where my headdress is? "

"Here it is."

"EVERYONE! the performance is about to begin so hurry up!"

"Good luck tonight."

"You? Wishing me luck?"

"Would you have rather I say break a leg?"

"That suits you much better." The woman smirked as she rushed off with the other performers.In the back of her mind she knew she had to keep the act of being happy when in reality she was ready to get this entire matter done and over with.

She really didn't mind performing...

So she says until she actually has to do it.

She didn't like to be reminded of her past but then again this was a past she once had a fond love for believe it or not. Maybe tonight it would come back to her? sometimes it was nice to revisit the past the young master is a good example of that...but in this case? maybe not?

"Ladies and gentlemen! boys and girls! of all ages!" Jokers voice rang in her ears as she began to stretch her limber body that was decorated in the color of blue velvet and silver. Trying not to lick her lips in anticipation she closed her eye and listened out for her call.

"First up we have our most newest member! some of you folk out there might know this fearsome fencer now turned acrobat! The legendary blue velvet beauty! JOSEPHINE BRANDSON!" Sucking in a deep breath the woman exhaled and put on her award winning smile. Walking out into the bright lights that the setting had to offer all she could hear was the deafening ringing in her ears. Screeches of the crowed were muffled due to her sheer adrenaline rush that just suddenly emerged out of no where.

The sights, the sounds and the smells of being a performer again brought her to a state that she hadn't felt in a long time...a state she never thought in her wildest dreams she would ever come back to.

"JOSEPHINE WE LOVE YOU!" She suddenly heard to her left causing her to look over and smile graciously.

"WELCOME BACK JOSEPHINE!" Waving to the audience with a wide and proud smile she blew them a big kiss which made them go even crazier. Putting her hands on her hips she smiled and shouted out loud,

"IT'S SO GREAT TO BE BACK! I'VE MISSED ALL OF YOU!" The cries of those young and old became louder as she felt her heartbeat suddenly thump in her ears. Her blood rushed with adrenaline as she felt herself become heated by all this excitement. This sudden rush of power that coursed through her wasn't anger or bloodlust it was a sudden rush of... joy?

'She sure knows how to please a crowd.' Joker thought as he watched her from behind the curtains. A childish wonder and amazement glimmering in his eye as he watched a true master at work.

Just as she was about to begin her routine she suddenly felt an odd but never unfamiliar presence lurk beside her.

'What is he doing here!?'

"HELLO ALL! I'M JOSEPHINE'S ASSISTANT AND NEW COMER TO THE CIRCUS!MY NAME IS BLACK! ALLOW ME AND MY MISTRESS TO SHOW YOU WHAT WE CAN DO!" He smiled as he picked the young woman up and threw her up into the air where she caught the trapeze bar and began to swing herself back and forth. The two decided before hand to repeat the same actions through out practice since that seemed to be a show stopper to even the senior members of the troop.

The two decided before hand to repeat the same actions through out practice since that seemed to be a show stopper to even the senior members of the troop

Their performance marveled the crowd as they watched Josephine do most of the work, while the butler mearly assisted her. Her smiles and waves to the crowd were just like they use to be way back then, causing former fans to scream and shout her name with praise. All of it made flashbacks of her past performances flash through her eyes as she envisioned the crowd throwing roses to her, not a single person would sit by the time she defeated her opponent as they all clapped for her amazing win and elegant skills.

But that was no more.

She could not stand to be blinded by such past thoughts as she knew this was only temporary.

And besides these people didn't love her.

They never did.

The only thing they did love was her pretty face...not the talent she possessed.

Because if they did, they wouldn't be cheering the way they were.

Finishing their act the butler decided to add an interesting twist and catch the woman in his open arms, while his legs clung onto the trapeze bar. A bit shocked by this, she landed perfectly in his arms bridal style, with one arm wrapped around him and another waving to the audience of ecstatic fans.

"Where is the young master?" She asked through her smile, her chest heaving up and down at a rapid pace as she tried to make her final appearance a memorable one for the already impressed crowd. Smiling to himself the butler held her close before flipping himself off of the bar and landing perfectly on the ground with Josephine still intact.

"Infiltrating Beast's room like you said." He said as he gently put her down on the ground. Nodding in satisfaction she continued on with her act and gave the crowd a bow along with Sebastian who grabbed her hand and held it up high for everyone to see, his other hand gesturing to her as if to say, 'praise her! she did more work than I! '. Looking at him with stunned and amazed eyes the young woman couldn't believe it, the butler was smiling so happily at the audience and the way he had grabbed her hand made her believe that she was back in her prime for just a brief moment.

Regardless, Sebastian managed to make her forget reality for only just a second and bring her back to a time she had long since forgotten about though she was now a bit older and realized the bitter truths of that past she left behind, the butler was the one who made it seem as though it wasn't all that bad and that maybe, if she had chose a different direction, she would have never suffered such a nasty fall.

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-After the performance-

"No, really I'd rather rest for the night I'm quite tired-Oh! why thank you! great job everyone! good night!" The young woman smiled as she waved to the group of performers who suggested going into town and grabbing a drink to congratulate everyone on their amazing work today. However, the woman had other plans after the show she was instructed to meet up with Ciel and Sebastian at his tent where they would catch the female up to speed and give her , her new orders.

But just as she was going to disappear into the mass of tents a sudden voice called out to her. Making a slightly irritated face, she turned and gave the person a smile. She couldn't allow that side of her to show especially in the midst of an investigation.

"Josephine! hold on a minute!" Joker called as he ran up to her, lips curved into a smile once he saw the woman.Deep down Joker still had a fond love and admiration for the woman, she was strong, talented, intelligent everything he loved in a woman she was it. But in a way he figured all men saw her that way, he knew he was just another desperate fan who could only dream of getting to know her like Black and Smile did so he humbly put his true feelings away...

With the exception of a couple of nice gestures here and there...

"Oh Joker-" A bit out of breath he huffed and puffed before giving her a happy and pleased smile for stopping when she did.

"I-I just wanted to commend you on a job well done, you and Black are certainly something!" He chuckled nervously as he scratched the back of his neck with his real hand. Taking the compliment to heart she put a hand over her heart and blushed slightly. All though she didn't like preforming anymore she surely couldn't get over the rush it gave her and nor the tendencies to take such compliments to heart. It wasn't like she was asking to be complimented but sometimes these words of encouragement and praise would creep into her head at night and make her believe she missed that life when in reality she didn't.

"Thank you!"

"I got you a little something but I can't seem to find it, now where did I-Oh! found it!" Shuffling through the pockets of his pants he finally found his magicians wand, wavering it around he had his hand cover the top of it and produce a bouquet of pink peonies.

"I got you a little something but I can't seem to find it, now where did I-Oh! found it!" Shuffling through the pockets of his pants he finally found his magicians wand, wavering it around he had his hand cover the top of it and produce a bouquet ...

"These are for you my lady."He said as he handed her the flowers. Stunned she took them from his outstretched hand and brought them to her nose for a good whiff. The scent that radiated off of them was incredible so much so it made a tingle run up the woman's spine.

"They're lovely! thank you so much Joker!" Although he felt he had seen it all the man couldn't help but see the wonder and joy that sparkled in her emerald green eye. The posters he would see of her on the streets gave off a similar feeling but that joy she radiated could never be copied onto paper.

"Yeah well, I looked up to you ya know...your talents are somethin' else."He blushed.

"I appreciate this really I do! thank you! Well I better be off then. Good night." She giggled softly as she gave him a small wave before turning around and walking towards the demons tent. Watching her disappear into the inky black darkness he couldn't help but think that some one like her just couldn't be real.

But indeed she was.

"Good night."He whispered into the cold night air as he put a hand over his beating heart.

Continuing on to the butlers tent, the woman tightened her scarf as she felt a bitter chill run down her spine. This winter wind was sure a vicious beast this year surely the young master couldn't wait to get back to the warmth of his manor and neither could she. Walking closer and closer to the tent she was able to hear the commotion of the boy and butler, the last sentence capturing her attention right away.

"You released the venoms snakes even though you knew I was in there!"

"Yes. I did." Sebastian admitted.

"Why Sebastian I never knew you to be so cruel towards our master." She stated as she pulled back the flap of the tent. Smiling the butler looked to her and said,

"But it was only his orders. He ordered me earlier to release the snakes once the crew members got back." Looking from the boys flustered face to the man the woman just shrugged and said,

"Well if it's an order than it must be completed no doubt."

'Damn the both of you.' The earl growled to himself as he began to shiver suddenly. The scarf and jacket the only thing keeping him warm, provided little help.

"Do be careful with how you word your instructions will you dearest? I would hate to have you be taken away from me so soon." She pouted as she gave the boy a saddened look before placing the bouquet of flowers down on a near by crate.

"I thought the young master who is greedy for games would think the same." The butler grinned.

"It's in bad taste to play games that make me feel like throwing up, demon!" The earl spat.

"It's an honor-" Before he could even finish the child let out a harsh round of coughing that made the woman's heart quicken with worry as she watched him almost hunch over due to how powerful it was. Once he finished he shook his head and looked up at the woman.

"Well then let's catch you up to speed."

Chapter 25: The Butler & The Maid, Overwhelmed

Notes:

Sorry for the short chapter! -Natalia

Notes:

Sorry for the short chapter! -Natalia

Chapter Text

"As an added bonus to our discoveries, I also found a piece of paper that has my name on it in Joker's tent."

"From what I saw they have my rank, my address and a sample personal history. The sender is-"

"You!"

"-are intruding on my private property by three centimeters,"

"Incapable of staying apart as you both decided, exactly like a dog to its owner."

"I will make sure my master abides fret not, Suit."

Letting out a muffled cough the boy pulled himself away from his maid before turning to the entrance of the tent.

"Outside you two." He gestured to the two servants to follow him.

"Yes." The butler hummed as he gave the boy a nod.

"At once." Josephine said softly as she and Sebastian followed their master out into the bitter cold.

"...So the sender's name is the Piper's son?" Ciel asked as he crossed his arms over his chest.

"As in Tom the Piper's son?" Josephine questioned with a raised eyebrow.

"It's a character from mother goose I have an idea as to what it means, Tom the piper use to luer children out of the beds at night with the sound of his piper, there the children would follow him out of the village and dance till their death." Sebastian answered as he looked at the woman from the corner of his eye.

"Hmm, also there is a hallmark of a horse in the sealing wax along with the initial K." Suddenly losing all interest in what her master had to say Josephine could only concentrate on the boys breathing which had become short and heavy. Almost as if breathing had become a challenge of sorts.

Almost as if breathing had become a challenge of sorts

"Then it's the same as I saw in the photograph...all of these crests are recoded by the heraldry-" He said from in between coughs.

"No matter how many records they have, I know that you are capable of finding it with this information alone," Ciel said as he looked to the demon, his feet paced back and forth as his huddled form tried to keep himself warm in this bitter cold.

"Disappearing children, a circus, Tom the piper's son...and me...I wonder how all that connects..." Looking from the butler to the boy the woman couldn't take the sound of his horrid coughing any longer. The butler didn't seem too worried about his masters condition which only made Josephine worry even more.

"Dearest, please calm d-" The woman said as she gestured for him to take a seat on one of the various crates, but he just brushed her aside. He was on the verge of a break through and nothing was going to stop him...

"Firstly we have to return to the town house-" Suddenly he stopped, hearing his heart rate sky rocket the woman looked down at him and spoke with a tone of worry, the butler equally concerned as to why his master suddenly froze.

"Young master whats' wrong?"

"Dearest please si-" Before she could finish the boy suddenly threw up, his hand and mouth covered in vomit.

"Dearest!" Josephine gasped as she bent to his aid, her green iris laced with worry as she wiped the vomit away from his mouth with her cloak. Surprised by this the butler rushed to his masters aid as well, this seemed to be different than the other times he would catch a cold. Something wasn't right and it put Sebastian on edge.

"Young-"

"Smile!? what's wrong!?"Freckles suddenly appeared as she looked at the boy worriedly.

"Alert the infirmary stat!"The woman urged, nodding the child quickly ran off, all the while the boy seemed to be fading in and out of consciousness. Listening to his breathing it sounded ragged and almost as if he was out of breath, furrowing her brows she picked up her master and let the boy wrap himself around her like a child to its mother. Resting his head on her shoulder he watched with half lidded eyes as the world around him grew hazy and blurry as the woman ran at lightening speed with the butler beside her. His expression equally worried as he noticed the visible tears spring in her eye.

"I got you dearest it's going to be okay just hang on..." She said as he suddenly slipped into sleep.

Chapter 26: The Butler & The Maid, Worried as always

Chapter Text

"It's Asthma."

"Asthma? this is the first I've heard of the condition in three years."

"If he hasn't had an attack in three years then it's considered as being recovered."

"However all you need is a sudden chill or sudden stress then it can come back abruptly."

"We've seen him have colds before but never this bad, I should have known something was wrong when I heard his breathing yesterday, I feel like such an idiot-"

"Josephine you are not to blame, you didn't know any better, the science around it is still fresh."

"Ah

"Ah..." The boy muttered weakly as his lone good eye slowly opened, peaking up from her arms Josephine smiled through tear stricken eye as her beloved master had finally awoken.

"Oh! that's great! you've regained consciousness." The doctor smiled as he removed the rag from his forehead. Leaning towards him a bit more the woman was excited as could be to tend to her masters fragile state, this was the only way she could truly be as strict as she would like with him. He couldn't do anything work related which gave him some down time to relax which she knew he needed now more than ever considering the stressful environment they were in.

"Are you alright de-Smile?" Josephine asked.

"W-Water." He faintly spoke. Pouring him a glass of water he tilted his head up and began to drink almost half of its contents.

"There we go

"There we go."She spoke softly as he stopped drinking and rested his head back down on the pillow. Setting the glass on the night stand the doctor cleared his throat and began to ask the Earl some questions.

"Smile? you have had bad asthma since you were very young right?" He began. Giving him a slow nod the doctor let out a concerned hum and nodded.

"There have been cases where people have died from it. You should be careful even when you think you've recovered ." He said sternly before placing a gentle hand on his shoulder.

"Rest until the fever and coughing has stopped okay?"Looking over at the three guests he smiled and wavered them off.

"You guys should get going then." Nodding Freckles gave a small wave before turning and leaving, but the woman remained still, afraid of what would happen if she left him alone. Putting a hand on her shoulder the butler gave her a knowing look causing her to sigh and nod.

"Right, get better my dear friend." Grabbing his hand she brought it to her lips and placed a kiss on the back of it. Getting up from her spot the servants gave their master one last look before leaving the tent. Glancing over at the woman the butler chuckled and said,

"You worry too much." Looking over at him she shook her head and wrapped her cloak around her shivering form tightly. Bitting her bottom lip she looked down at the ground then to the sky above. All the beautiful and lovely stars twinkled and glowed high above them while the moon remained hidden between the naked branches of the near by trees. The scene was romantic but what with all the chatter going on in the near by tents and the drunk carnies that stumbled around made it seem anything but.

"It's not worry...I just..." She did worry that much was true, especially for his health since it was so fragile now more than ever but she would never fully admit her worries to someone like Sebastian. Her actions were all he needed to know.

"I never worry, I just care a bit more than necessary. Do I not have the right to care?" She asked as she raised an eyebrow to the demon beside her. Smirking at her sassy tone he chuckled and nodded before turning his attention back to the stars above.

"You have all the right, however I can't help but feel as though we've had this conversation before."

"We have and yet even with all of your amazing talents and skills, I still feel as though I need to be concerned. Sometimes even the best have there bad days," She muttered as she buried herself deeper into the warmth of her scarf eyebrows knitted in concern.

"I just feel as though someday hopefully never, something will happen to one of us and we won't be able to do anything to protect him..." Stopping in his steps Sebastian looked down at the woman with a confused expression. How could she say something like that? Was she really have doubts about a demon protecting his master? How dare she.

"Are you doubting yourself? are you doubting what I'am capable of? what we as Phantomhive servants are capable of?" Stopping at the sound of his stern and confident voice the woman slowly turned and looked up at him with her wide green iris almost...

"Are you doubting yourself? are you doubting what I'am capable of? what we as Phantomhive servants are capable of?" Stopping at the sound of his stern and confident voice the woman slowly turned and looked up at him with her wide green iris almost amazed at his sudden quick questioning.

"As Phantomhive servants we have a job and that is to protect and serve our master no matter the case. Are you truly saying that we one day will fail such demands?"

"Of course not. I would never." She said with an equal amount of prided. His words hit her deep as she felt herself become moved by his words. She had always told herself that no matter what she would protect her master, her and the butler both vowed this to themselves. And yet why did she suddenly find herself doubting those words. Apart they were strong, together stronger but what if...one of them...

Died?

"I should surely hope not." He said as he turned his back on her and continued walking. Slowly she caught up next to him, his long strides slowing down so she would be able to catch up. The rest of the way they kept silent. The only sound they could hear were the ramblings of other workers and such as well as the sleepy, lazy words of those who were passed out from exhaustion.

Upon approaching the sectioned off part of the tents the butler went to bid her good night but she spoke first.

"Sebastian?" She asked her eye still looking down to the ground but her face uncovered from the comfort and warmth of her blue velvet scarf.

"Yes?" He asked as he raised an eyebrow. Slowly looking down at her with a raised eyebrow. Letting a small smile creep onto her lips she looked up at her friend and said,

"Thank you." Her cheeks dusting pink due to the cold air. Feeling his heart suddenly skip a beat the butler only gave her a slight smile and quick nod.

"I did nothing to be thankful for, I just hope you realize the severity of your words." He said as he quickly reminded her of her doubt.

"I do. Thank you." Stepping over the roped off section she gave the butler one last look, while he did the same to her.

"Good night Josephine

"Good night Josephine."

"Good night Sebastian." And with that she disappeared amongst the eerily colored lights of the campsite as well as the fog that slowly began to roll in. Almost like a phantom.

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-Later that night-

"Come...the both of you." He softly spoke as he tried not to wake his friend who snored nosily beside him.

"You called?" Sebastian asked as he held the tent flap open for the woman. Stepping in she smiled and rested a hand over her heart over the sight of her master and his new friend sleeping in the same bed together.

"Oh my it seems your little friend has grown concerned for you as well."She whispered as she and the demon made their way to their masters side of the bed.

"Tch." He gritted as he gestured for them to come closer. Gesturing to the female she opened her palm to him and allowed him to right his orders. The butler looming close was able to read and understand the words as well.

"This is an order

"This is an order. Sebastian go to the crest office and find out who owns that seal, the crest office in London is the England heraldry college of arms. At Edinburgh there is a Scotland heraldy, the lord of Lyon. Waking him could cause too much trouble so I will escape in the morning. Josephine keep on high alert and listen out to anymore details about anything between the higher ups. Come and pick me up." Looking over her shoulder to see if the butler understood his demands he nodded and so did the woman. Taking his hand she wrote out,

"Yes my lord." Kissing the back of his hand good-night she and the butler gave their good-byes before heading off to their tasks.

[babygirlizz]

izzie’s favorite movies and tv shows of 2020 (aka the worst year ever)

another year, another movie and tv show review. this year has, to put it simply, sucked. 2020 has been so terribly awful that sometimes the only light you can see are the absolute bangers of movies and tv shows that came out this year. with that being said, some of the movies and tv shows didn't come out in 2020. if the are mentioned in this post it is because they either: had a season come out this year, i found them this year, or they became popular this year.

SPOILERS: it may not come as a surprise but just in case you didn't realize, there will be many spoilers ahead, read at your own risk.

tw // death, suicide, drug use, mild adult language. if any of these things might trigger you, i strongly urge you not to read this post.

there is no specific order of these shows and movies, i'm just writing as they come to mind. if you enjoy any of these movies or tv shows, or if you have any suggestions for me, please let me know!

TV SHOWS

1) Santa Clarita Diet

Okay, so I know this show doesn't have anything to do with 2020. But, I found this show in 2020. I put it off for a while, thinking it wasn't my style of a show, but boy was I wrong. I loved this show. Sheila Hammond (Drew Barrymore) is a normal suburban wife and mom. She is a real estate agent with her husband Joel (Timothy Olyphant). She struggles with the fact that she isn't very adventurous. This all changes when she throws up an insane amount at a house showing. She then finds herself craving adventure, and craving human flesh. Yeah, she's a zombie. Not only is this show super hilarious, but it also shows the growth that they have with their characters and their family. I'm also team Abby (Liv Hewson) and Eric (Skyler Gisondo).

2) Outer Banks

So, I'm from NC. And, watching this show at first bothered me because I can very obviously tell this show isn't actually filmed in the obx, and the geography isn't exact, but once I got past that, I loved it. John B (Chase Stokes) is a teenager that lives in the poor side of the outer banks. He has a friend group called the Pogues which consists of JJ (Rudy Pankow), Pope (Jonathan Daviss), and Kie (Madison Bailey). They absolutely hate the Kooks, which are the rich kids. A while after John B's dad gets lost at sea, presumed dead, the group finds some evidence that may solve the mystery, and make them rich. In the process, John B falls in love with a Kook names Sarah (Madelyn Cline) whose father Ward (Charles Esten) may have a little more to do with the mystery than he let on. Through friendship, murder, and secrets, the gang may just figure out what happened to John B's dad.

3) Love, Victor

Alright. I loved loved loved Love, Simon. I also really loved the book "Simon vs. the Homosapien Agenda." So, when I heard about this show, I was so excited. Victor (Michael Cimino) is a teenage boy that moved to Creekwood with his family. He meets Felix (Anthony Turpel) who lives in his building. He also meets Mia (Rachel Hilson) and they begin dating. But, he also meets Benji (George Sear). While trying to get used to a new school, new friends, and a new relationship, Victor finds himself questioning his sexuality. With the help of Simon (Nick Robinson) and his friends, Victor finds it in himself to finally come out, and he admits his feelings, for Benji. This is such a good show, but I was so upset when season 1 ended on a cliff-hanger.

4) The Haunting of Bly Manor

The sequel to The Haunting of Hill House. Now listen, haunting of hill house was an absolute banger. When I saw that Bly came out I nearly died. I was so excited. But, I was alone in my apartment and also a lil bitch. So, I had to wait a week until I was home with my family to watch it. Now, I was so excited to be scared, and there were a few jump scares and ominous moments, but this season was more centered around the story line of Dani Clayton (Victoria Pedretti) and her new life in a foreign country. When seeing an ad for a live in job as an au pair. When she gets there, she meets the two young children she’ll be looking out for and the other workers of the house, including the gardener, Jamie (Amelia Eve). Throughout her stay at Bly she begins to notice weird behaviors from both children and by the end of the series she sacrifices herself for the children. Sadly, this story is being told by Jamie who Dani had fallen in love with during her stay at Bly. Now I was somewhat upset about the lack of horror, but was still very intrigued and drawn in by this series.

5) Julie and the Phantoms

Alright, at first I was not gonna watch this show. I thought it looked a little too young and childish for me, but everyone was talking about it on twitter so I had to. I. Love. This. Show. This show centers around Julie (Madison Reyes). Julie is a teenage girl who, sadly, lost her mother. The one major thing she shared with her mom, was their love for music. Since her mothers passing, she gave up music. This is until, dead musicians from the 90′s show up in her garage. Luke (Charlie Gillespie), Alex (Owen Joyner), and Reggie (Jeremy Shada) all tragically passed away in the 90′s after eating bad street hotdogs. When Julie finds their CD in her garage, she decides to play it and they come back in ghost form. But, only she can see them. With their help, she finds her confidence to play music again. Also, she has to find away for them to stay because they’re slowly disappearing. 

6) Derry Girls

Bitch. I love this show. And yeah it didn’t come out in 2020. Shut up. I found this show recently after watching the cast on the holiday special of the Great British Baking Show. I loved the actors so I had to watch the show. This show focuses on Erin (Saoirse-Monica Jackson) a 16 year old girl that lives in Derry, Northern Ireland in the 90′s. Alongside her is her cousin Orla (Louisa Harland), her two friends Clare (Nicola Coughlan) and Michelle (Jamie-Lee O’Donnell), and Michelle’s English cousin James (Dylan Llewellyn). During these years, a lot of people in Ireland struggled, especially because it was during wartime. Even thought this show isn’t focused heavily around the war, it’s amazing to see these teens live a fulfilling life while struggling with the state of their country, and the lack of money that their families have. 

7) Elite

HA. This show did have a season in 2020 so leave me alone. But bro, I love this show. At first, I didn’t watch it because I thought I could only watch the dubbed version in English, which I hate. I hate dubbed shows they look so weird. But, once I found out I could watch this show in Spanish, I fell in love. But, sadly, theres too damn much to talk about in one little post. It’s crazy. But basically it just follows the lives of teens in high school that are trying to survive. And no, not in the “I’m surviving high school,” sense. No, people be getting murdered. 

MOVIES (tbh i didn’t find a lot of movies good this year lmk which movies u liked this year and maybe i’ll like them!)

1) All the Bright Places

After the death of her sister, Violet (Elle Fanning) is devastated. She closes herself off, and has her parents get her out of doing school work that involves working with others. But, as time goes on, they realize she may need to start to move on. Violet then meets Finch (Justice Smith) who is enamored by Violet. He suggests they do a project together. While finding and visiting some of the smallest wonders of their state, they begin to fall for each other. While you are focusing on Violet and her mental health, you tend to miss some of the signs that Finch’s mental health isn’t great either, but by the time you do, it could be too late. 

2) Dangerous Lies

Hmm. This was weird for me. I had only ever seen Camila Mendes in Riverdale, and honestly, not a fan. So, Katie (Camila Mendes) and her husband Adam (Jessie T. Usher) are struggling with money. Katie decides to take a job working for an elderly man, and eventually gets her husband hired there as well. Unfortunately, he dies, but for some odd reason, leaves the house and all of his fortune, to Katie. As they get comfortable in the house, they begin to uncover some very weird and dangerous lies. 

3) The Devil All the Time

Ok. Iconic. You got so many hot men in this movie. Bill Skarsgård, Sebastian Stan, Tom Holland, Robert Pattinson. C’mon now. That’s crazy. But, this story is so long and in depth that I wouldn’t even know where to begin. This movie is a bit disturbing. It involves murder, sexual assault, killing of animals, and so much more so if that’s an issue for you please do not watch this movie. It was also quite long, but it was still good.

4) After We Collided

Okay just listen. I was that teenager. I read wattpad stories and was, embarrassingly, addicted to After. This was not a great movie per say, but it was After. This is a sequel to the movie After. This movie centers around Tessa (Josephine Langford) and her recovery after her breakup with Hardin (Hero Fiennes Tiffin). Theres sex, alcohol, bad acting. The whole nine-yards. But c’mon, they’re so cute together.

5) To All the Boys p.s. I Still Love You

Okay it was a good movie. I enjoyed it. This movie focuses on Lara Jean (Lana Condor) and her boyfriend Peter (Noah Centineo) and their relationship post the first movie. But of course relationships aren’t super steady, and John Ambrose McClaren (Jordan Fisher) shows up. Yeah, John Ambrose, from her letter. They become closer and Lara Jean has to decide who she wants to be with. Spoiler, it’s Peter. BOOOOOOO justice for John Ambrose McClaren, he deserved better. 

[starbuckie]

𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐬

challenge: winter warmers writing challenge by @spaceodditybarnes

prompt: “it’s beginning to look a lot like christmas” by michael buble

pairing: bucky barnes x reader

words: 2k without lyrics, 2.1k with lyrics

warnings: i genuinely don’t think i can say anything besides FLUFF, oh wait theres some mentions of the shmexy sex (i promise im a functioning person)

summary: in which they take a little holiday stroll and talk about what they are.

a/n: THIS MADE ME VERY HAPPY THANK YOU FOR HOSTING THIS CHALLENGE JADE!!! i kinda veered off the idea of christmas with this one, but my mind created another idea and i kinda just went with the flow. anyways, i really enjoyed writing this one, and i hope you all had a lovely holiday season <3 LOTS OF LOVE Y’ALL

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It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Everywhere you go

Take a look at the five and ten, it’s glistening once again

With candy cane and silver lanes that glow

Snow sprinkled to the buildings and sidewalks of Midtown Manhattan, making the traffic clog up to the oh so lovely sounds of taxis and cars honking. It was far from what people pictured it, really, New York was absolute hell during the holiday season. Sloshing boots and teens smoking pot outside the scantily decorated discount store that held very little, sad-looking Christmas lights.

It didn’t bother Bucky. No, he had never been a big fan of the holiday season. Even back in the forties, with his ma and little sisters, they had never been huge on celebrating Christmas, instead choosing to work those shifts during the holiday so they could make a buck or two more to hold them over. Now in the twenty-first century, the holiday just reminded him how truly lonely he was, everyone and everything he used to know long gone.

But then he found Y/N. Granted, it had not been a formal introduction. The poor girl had nearly damn run him over with her motorcycle for Christ’s sake, but nonetheless she crawled into his heart that cold December morning two years ago, and had not left ever since. 

Now she walked by his side at Rockefeller Center, her cold fingers intertwined with his warm ones, admiring the tree while he admired her. He already had every part of her memorized, from late night escapades in the sheets to studying the slope of her nose at team breakfasts. Even when he wasn’t with her, he was always looking at her, unable to pull his eyes away from Y/N’s radiance. 

This little… dalliance of theirs had only started a year back, and they had still yet to put a label on it. Sam had called it friends with benefits, Sharon called it being a couple without the name. Bucky had shut both of those ideas down, claiming that they were taking it slow and weren’t looking to call it anything yet they still had not really talked about it. Was it really worth ruining the bond he had with the girl he fell madly in love with? Whatever it was, they had never taken time out of their day to actually discuss what they meant to each other, but, God, he’d be a liar if he said he didn’t want to know.

“Bucky?” Her sweet voice brought him out of his thoughts, the glittering red and white lights of the Christmas tree reflecting in her eyes. “You seem kind of distracted right now, sweetheart, are you bored? We can head back to the compound if you like.”

He smiled at her worried tone, delicately kissing the tip of her nose. “‘M just thinking, doll, wanna stay as long as I can out here with you.”

The grin he received in return was breathtaking, her red-painted lips turned upwards and a little twinkle (literally and metaphorically) in her eyes. “Good.”

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Toys in every store

But the prettiest sight to see, is the holly that will be

On your own front door

“Oh, look at that helicopter, Buck! That’s so cool!” Y/N pointed at a little boy in the store controlling the airborne toy with a small remote. “They didn't have those when I was a kid, I just had my Tamagotchi.”

He scrunched his nose, staring at her with an emotion that could be described as nothing other than distaste. “What the hell is a Tamagotchi?”

“A Tamagotchi was like this little digital pet thing that you could take care of, mainly used for kids who were trying to prove to their parents that they could take care of a real pet. That’s why I had one at least, but I never did get a tabby cat like I wanted.” Y/N continued to ramble about her weird pet thing as they walked through the toy store, though Bucky didn’t really care. But he’d never stop her either. The way her eyes lit up in childlike wonder and her fascination with the toys on the shelves was too precious to destroy. This was the girl who he had seen slit throats and blow aliens’ brains out, and in the moment she was ogling an American Girl Doll like it was the last pancake at the breakfast table. 

Y/N finally convinced herself that she was done looking at the toys, claiming that she was too mature for such things (she really wasn’t), but he let her lead him out the door, before she halted right in the doorway. “What is it, honey?”

“Mistletoe.” He glanced up at the little sprig of green and red berries above their heads, hanging by a small strand of twine. A small group of kids with families stood around, watching them with both happy and annoyed faces. How could they not notice Y/N L/N and Bucky Barnes? Bucky’s vibranium arm may have been recognizable, but Y/N’s cheery, a little-louder-than-normal humming had caused a little group to watch them throughout the store. “I think they’re waiting for us to kiss, Buck.”

She leaned into him, placing her lips on his and placing her freezing hands on his cheekbones. Though Bucky had never been big on PDA, the rest of the world seemed to slip away when he was with her. He grinned into her lips, hugging her tightly around the waist so she squealed. When he forced herself away from her intoxicating mouth, she was sporting a bright smile and smudged lipstick that had rubbed off onto his. 

Giggling, she took her thumb and swiped off some of the red residue she had left. “You had a little something there, sweetheart.” 

A pair of hopalong boots and a pistol that shoots

Is the wish of Barney and Ben

Dolls that’ll talk and will go for a walk

Is the hope of Janice and Jen

Bucky watched Y/N point out all the different street cart vendors as they walked to Radio City Music Hall. She’d insisted that they go look at the window displays there as well, and who was he to argue? Strangely enough, they hadn’t talked much, other than the occasional “are you cold” from Bucky, to which Y/N assured him she was not. Her quiet voice sang the lyrics to Last Christmas when a little girl stopped in front of them, two auburn braids and green eyes boring straight into hers. 

The small child pulled on Y/N’s skirt, a silent plea to go down to her height. “Hi there, are you lost, sweetie?”

“I wanted to talk to you,” she looked back to an older woman, who gave her a thumbs up and a smile, “because you are my favorite superhero and I hope you have a very good Christmas.”

Y/N nearly melted at the toothless smile the girl, who she assumed was named Sadie by the necklace she wore. “Thank you so much, sweetheart. I hope you have a good Christmas too, and do you know this guy?” She dragged Bucky down next to her, the large, buff man hulking over the small girl. “This is my friend Bucky, do you know him?”

He eyed her warily, as if he were absolutely terrified of the tiny human. “You’re the Winter Soldier!”

Uh oh. The name was one that struck a chord of fear through everyone, still in shock of the events that had taken place in D.C. in 2014. While he and Sam had tried to label a new brand for the Avengers, people didn’t forget all the horrors of HYDRA and their prized assassin. Of course it hadn’t been him, even he knew that, but trying to convince people otherwise still made him feel guilty.

“You’re my second favorite Avenger, after Y/N, of course.” Sadie brought her hand to hover over Bucky’s vibranium one, her eyes wide with excitement. “Mr. Bucky, can I touch your metal arm?”

The man in question could barely utter out a word, muttering some sort of agreement before nodding with a timid smile. Giddily, she touched his arm, feeling all the cool ridges of gold-plated vibranium against the gun-grey metal. Sadie continued to pelt questions at him, about Sam and Redwing to his “adventures” with Y/N on the team.

Bucky, though shy at first, got more and more relaxed as they continued their conversation, his grin growing wider. Y/N loved her fans, she loved them so, so dearly, but seeing them interact with the man she loved was something different. Not a bad different, but a word that could only be described as pure joy. 

“Darling, I think we better leave Ms. L/N and Mr. Barnes alone. Say thank you and happy holidays.” The little girl looked sad, turning to look at her mom with a little pout, but she reluctantly obliged and soon the duo were off, into the crowded streets once again. 

“Y’know once upon a time I had dreamed about having kids,” Bucky commented. They walked along the sidewalks in a comfortable quiet after the encounter with Sadie, but Bucky’s mind had not stopped reeling from the happiness his conversation brought him. “Was gonna come home from the war, settle down with a gal, and live to be at least seventy years old.”

“Well, I can tell you you’re good on the last bit of that, Buck.” He snorted at her jab at his age, something that has become a norm for their little makeshift family of four. “What do you want now?”

He stopped in his tracks and looked over at her with a fond tilt of his lips. “Oh, just something real special.”

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Toys in every store

But the prettiest sight to see, is the holly that will be

On your own front door

“Y/N, what are we?” She glanced over at him from where they sat on the Met stairs, giving their feet a break from walking for hours. 

“What do you mean, Buck?”

He grabbed her hands and held them to his chest, trying to make her understand the amount of confusion and impatience he had with this one burdening question. “We’ve been sleeping together for a year, Y/N. We make each other breakfast, we go out together, I literally have half of my closet dedicated to your stuff, but even after all that we haven’t given us a name yet.”

Y/N sat in stunned silence, staring at the outburst from the man in front of her. To be completely honest she had never really thought about the question, choosing to enjoy each second she got to spend with the wonderful man with her. What she had noticed however, was how whenever they parted ways or were in the most intimate of moments, three little words nearly slipped off of her tongue. Every. Single. Time.

“Well, what do you want to be, Bucky?”

“I want to be the man you love. I want to be the man who loves you with his entire heart, though I like to think I already am. I want you to be my best gal more than anything in the world, and that I want to be the man who gets to hold and love you every night.” Slowly they drifted to each other, a magnetic pull bringing them to each other. “What do you think, doll?”

“I think,” her lips split into a grin, hovering over his own with the exact same expression, “that I want to be your best girl and the one who gets to make you pancakes in the morning and I want to be the one you get a cat with, who we’ll name Alpine because if I know you, names are the most important part of having a pet. I want to be held and loved by you every night, Bucky Barnes, and I am the girl who loves you more than anything in this entire damn world.”

Not another second to spare, Bucky pulled Y/N in close, letting himself get lost in one of her sweet, loving kisses, finally knowing that he was hers and she was his. At long last.

Sure, it’s Christmas once more

[turtle-steverogers]

I Watched TWS for the Millionth Time So Let’s Over-Analyze This Shit

-TFA theme at the beginning 🥰 (that theme is so fuckin good)

-Sam’s lil jogging route around the Tidal Basin/Mall

-Steve being sassy , just as a general

-Steve’s sadness errands

-Sam relating to Steve on the soldier front and making him feel seen

-Just. Sam Wilson

-The way that Steve’s to-do list in the movie varies from country to country (For instance, the UK list has Sherlock instead of I Love Lucy and The Beatles)

-Also I wanna know Steve’s thai order

-The fact that this whole exchange is happening at 6:39 am

-Natasha drives with all the recklessness of a 16 year old that just got their license

-Stealth Suit Stealth Suit

-Steve deflecting Nat’s date suggestions

-Steve’s aversion for parachutes...reckless endangerment ✨

-Steve speaking/understanding at least a little french

-Tony having designed the Helicarriers to have arc reactor power instead of turbines because “he got a close up look at the turbines” in The Avengers 2012 when he got caught in them

-“This isnt freedom, this is fear” aka the embodiment of Steve’s character

-Steve’s exhibit being in the Air and Space museum even tho he flew a plane once and crashed it

-Bucky’s display having two different birth years (1916 and 1917. the correct one is 1917)

-In the little video of Steve and Bucky, Sebastian Stan was saying “We *are* friends” after the director told them to “act like friends” for that shot

-Steve acknowledging Peggy’s family and therefore acknowledging that their relationship with each other, while still close and special, is not romantic anymore and Peggy telling Steve to move on and start over wtf endgame

-The parallel of Peggy losing her memory as Bucky regains his

-Sam Wilson willing to show vulnerability and not being ashamed of his PTSD and treating Steve like any other attendee and hoping Steve will open up too if he sees that it’s okay to

-Steve’s face after “it was like I was up there just to watch” cuz he gets it and both sam and him had to watch their other half fall

-“What makes you happy?” “I don’t know”

-The Winter Soldier theme is just Bucky’s scream pitched different and made to sound mechanical because Henry Jackman wanted it to sound like a man trapped in a machine

-Why is Steve a lucky bastard that has his own laundry machine

-Steve leaving his apartment building after Sharon points out the music and then SCALING THE SIDE OF HIS OWN BUILDING AND CLIMBING IN THROUGH HIS WINDOW LIKE CAN YOU IMAGINE SEEING CAPTAIN AMERICA JUST CLIMBING INTO HIS APARTMENT THROUGH HIS WINDOW ONE NIGHT

-STEVE’s APARTMENT I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS (i might make a separate post on that)

-The fact that “A Long, Long Time” is playing when he sees Bucky for the first time in the future and the song is about lovers reuniting after the war i’m not saying it’s gay but i am

-He calls Fury “Nick” which really indicates theyre not close in the slightest

-Steve is excellent in adapting under pressure (him immediately catching on and using Fury’s code story: “who else knows about your wife?”)

-Steve is Awful at lying but hes also Excellent at lying

-How tf did Steve get the flash drive in the vending machine without the vending machine dude noticing i-

-“Captain Rogers” “Neighbor >:(“ petty little shit

-Steve’s observation skills are A+++++ as we can see in the elevator scene

-More reckless endangerment like imagine just going through your work day and captain america falls through the ceiling

-Steve stole someones gym clothes after escaping SHIELD. let that sink in

-Natasha has about a billion masks on at all times (“I only act like i know everything, rogers” “the person that programmed this was slightly smarter than me. slightly” “the truth isn’t all things to all people all of the time”) also she’s quite insecure, especially when it comes to being perceived as a good, trustable person

-Meanwhile, Steve’s consistently himself even if it costs him

-Bucky trained Natasha in the Red Room (at least in the comics) so theres a good chance she made the connection between him and Steve and withheld that information

-The honeymoon in New Jersey😭😭

-Steve and Nat both have very different, but entirely valid approaches to situations: Steve’s is that of a tactiction, Nat’s is that of a spy’s. We see this in the scene at Pentagon City Mall

-Steve’s looking for someone with shared life experience and bucky has that

-Bucky killed JFK

-When Zola tells him that his death and life both amount to that of a zero sum, he punches the screen with his bare fist, not his shield, indicating just how much that upset him

-Pierce offers Bucky milk cuz he knows “the asset” can’t refuse or accept offers. He’s taunting him

-Sam drinks orange juice straight from the bottle and also doesnt refrigerate his mustard. There’s also a baseball trophy in his apartment so,,,,, baseball player sam anyone?

-Sam is also a gem who immediately helps out Steve and Nat with no judgement in his tone so they don’t feel ashamed

-Nat straightened her hair somewhere in Sam’s house

-“Cuz thats really not your style, Rogers” “you’re right, it’s not” *rubs sitwell’s arm* “it’s hers”

-Steve and Nat banter Steve and Nat banter

-Sam is just *clenches fist* so cool

-Nat immediately knows where Bucky’s gonna shoot when he lands on the Sam’s car and later she knows how to affectively fight him best because he trained her so she knows his fighting style

-Steve alone saying “Bucky?” was enough to break Bucky’s conditioning the slightest bit

-Sam met Steve like 36 hours ago and he’s already being arrested and made into a government fugitive with him and it won’t be the last time

-Steve is the only one entirely restrained

-“Even when I had nothing I had Bucky”

-Everyone meets Sam and is just like “aight let’s trust him with the highest clearance security information”

-Steve looks super nauseous all through the scene where Rumlow is handcuffing him and later when he says, “he looked right at me, like he didn’t even know me” he sounds sick and choked up

-Steve carries a lot of weight on his shoulders

-Steve’s “Bucky?” after the highway battle and Steve’s “Bucky?” in Bucky’s memory in the Vault Scene being different (in Bucky’s memory, he looks more heartbroken)

-Sebastian’s acting. Just all of it. And the way Bucky just opens his mouth for the mouth guard before he gets wiped....heartbreaking

-Steve realizes an organization that was meant to protect the people has become its own antithesis so hes like “aight. get rid of it” damn that’s the right mindset right there

-In the memory scene after Sarah’s funeral, Steve is so out of it and distressed, that he can’t find his key but Bucky immediately knows exactly where it is and what he’s lookin for

-Bucky was vain as shit and also had money: tailored suit, hair w shit ton of brylcreem in it

-The big breakfast Steve had was at Sam’s house

-The whole scene on the helicarrier between Steve and Bucky is incredible here are some highlights: Steve never backing down from a fight until it’s Bucky he’s fighting, Steve dropping the shield for him, Steve being ready to die if living means he’s living in a world where Bucky’s alive and doesnt remember him

-Their acting in that scene is so genuine and heartbreaking i can’t- i can’t-

-Steve’s got a comm i’m so chances are Nat, Sam and Maria can hear a portion of what’s going down on the helicarriers

-“I’m with ya to the end of the line” is basically “til death do us part” so the equivalent of wedding vows between Bucky and Steve is what ultimately broke Bucky’s conditioning

-When bucky fell, steve didn’t jump after him but when Steve fell, bucky went after him even tho he’s brainwashed. don’t think about steve’s guilt surrounding that. youll only get sad

-Bucky waited until Steve took a breath to leave him

-Sam waited by Steve’s side in the hospital

-In the end credit scene, Bucky and Steve originally were supposed to make eye contact, but the writers didn’t want it established that Bucky remembered Steve until CW

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Every time I watch it from here on out, I’m gonna add a lil more as I notice hehehe

[bleepblopbloop56]

mkay reccommend me some music (anything blatantly queer or dance-pop-y especially)

oh god i do NOT have good music taste but here i go

blatently queer:

Mexico OR Baia from The Three Caballeros

BOYS WILL BE BOYS by Miles Mckenna

IDK If Im a Boy by Blue Foster

Its Only Sex by Car Seat Headrest

I/Me/Myself by Will Wood

Butch 4 Butch (i dont remember who sang this one)

okay dance-pop-y songs????

Call Me by Blondie

Everybody Talks by Neon Trees

Better Than Me by the Brobecks

Discord by The Living Tombstone

Sober by FIDLAR

and Would You Go with me by Josh Turner

as for just like general recs id do

Soap by Penelope Scott

Old Black Train from Over the Garden Wall

Hungover in the City of Dust by Autoheart

Im not a good person by Pat The Bunny

and Theres Too Much Love by Belle and Sebastian

[startwithbrooklyn]

THE GREAT ND REWATCH OF 2021 / SEPTEMBER 28-29, 2019 // the bonny scot

posting this a day later than normal because this is one of the rare episodes that shows a passage of time from one day to the next yayy love that for them

-wonder what filming these beginning sexy scenes is like for them in real life

-sooooo can lucy see nancys sexy dream? is she judging? does this mean she likes nancy with owen or nick more? or is she trying to tell nancy that her sex dreams are irrelevant to the mystery at hand and she needs to focus?

-seeing people in the ✨prison chair✨: gomber, carson, karen (voting for josh s3 just saying)

-completely ignores carson's question about herself typical nance

-"or maybe i did stumble across a knife" its like hes trying to make the case against him look plausible while attempting to maintain innocence. this is a slippery slope for carson to try and encourage her to keep her pacified + hide the truth while also trying to keep her from getting involved bc hudsons

-"genetics gets you in the door" aaaaand then she walks in to everetts office to meet him and crashes their family dinner

-ok who tf is dawn and why is she in charge here

-this guidance counselor of nicks is my favorite person

-"i admire your allergy to pleasantries" bess and nancy both have reveals to big families but nancy does not have the graceful, accepting reveal to her rich family like bess does at this lunch. nancys reveal is messy, cold, bloodstained and sticky-fingered, not nice in any way whatsoever. and this little chat with everett (bit of a parallel to lucy's) just highlights how nancy is always bad at bargaining with her grandparents*- always trying to fight on their level but giving up her equal hand bc she doesnt know how to hide it when they bring up something she doesnt know. like confronting celia at the masque: she was so confident with her theory and what she knew, but then we got a "what does that mean?" like. the instant you say that, you lose. and she walked right into the "yes i do have someone, hes in jail" 🤦🏼‍♀️ even in the car with ryan at the end of s1, he literally just fucking leaves her there. like 🤷🏼‍♀️ what did u think was gonna happen sis?? for all she can predict how past things lead to present circumstances shes fucking awful at seeing the direct future *(grandparents except for patrice bc her dementia makes her inaccessable)

-lmaooooo this awko ass portrait...i get the empty space is for nance but who on earth thought this was a good pic??

-LISBETH 🥺💙

-"will u help the claw for me?" george struggles financially to keep her livelihood while nancy is somehow shown as being taken care of even when her parent is incarcerated; both nancy and george live in single parent homes now with mention of both medical debt and george being breadwinner yet nancy has no struggles while george does. (i wonder if ryan had been able to help george here how the story would have changed)

-"when it comes to following people around without their knowledge or consent i am somewhat of a repeat offender" 😂😂😂

-"he wasnt endgame after all" BESS lmaoooo

-"...okay." lmaoooo i fuckin love owen

-i was hoping the girls' faces would be more shocked like with a glance to owen but they just....werent

-"we're the good guys" <---- this statement is soooo interesting in terms of how they structure the show and how the characters see themselves (its an interesting contrast with the more definitive good vs evil with things that are both clearly good and clearly evil but theres also a lot of moral grey area here, the show is kinda swamped in it. are nancy and crew the good guys? are they the bad guys in someone else's story? concerns.)

-"i'd call it more than just stuff" like why did u concede that??? and then the shit about oof that didnt sound like a compliment lmaoooooo why does she suck at arguing?? she and owen wouldnt work long term bc theyre so similar (as mentioned later on)

-i LOVE george slowly falling in love with nick here- hence how upset she gets when nick bails on her for nancy later (which is totally justified!!!)

-i am LIVING for the little nod this driver guy gives bess when she turns back around all nervous 😂

-"i do like buying things" i would so say that too tbh

-"you'd have plenty to talk about" LMFAOOOOOOO SHE KNOWS "marvins dont marry drivers" so diana is totally fine with the gay its just the poor she has a problem with 😂💙fuckin love that

-love how nancy just casually ruins everything for nick/george lmaooo

-"i have seen you at your best, nancy, and there is nothing like it." 🥴😳 i love this still-in-love look nancy gives him thats so strong he had to change the subject

-so is haunting time 11 pm? from that clock of bashiir's?

-how do NO neighbors notice this fucking water and shit

-these are TOTALLY AWFUL fake screams from the bonny scot crew 😭

-"i know well enough not to get involved when he's in play" both carson and ryan avoid engaging with everett even though nancy is willing to do so armed with less info and more balls/ but "could i trust him" and ryan says yes lmaooooo NO honey + that makes ryan 0/2 for helping the girls when they ask this ep

-"find a project of your own" and he does, with his youth center 🙏🏻💙 what s2 foreshadowing!

-"god i wish i still drank" 😂😂😂

-"she is darling." 💙👌🏻

-okay wtf is mirror bay??

-i really wonder about the extent of celia x sebastians relationship here. did she truly care about him or was it just secret and exciting sex? also would love more hints of diana vs celia moments like these. celia doesnt even look upset. i mean shes had time to deal but like wtf. and who exactly is sebastian to diana? not her husband? like damn what if he was. somehow i doubt she'd talk about him diddling celia if diana was disrespected also

-i wonder if celia being so invested in dna testing nancy was bc everrett dna tested ryan to make sure he was his bc of sebastian / other men (which would be totally valid on his part!! but wouldnt it be funny as fuck if ryan wasnt his 😂)

-what a neat hiding place in this frame lmaooo who put that in for them tho? like how do u go about ordering that

-"you certainly are your fathers daughter" this quote is doubly ironic and foreshadowy bc theyre referencing carson here as being a useful hudson attaché but nancy is playing everett just like ryan played celia about putting his house up (but TRIPLY ironic bc carson pulls off the long con of hiding nancy from the hudsons right under their noses this whole time!) the one time nancy is successful against them

-that bess/lisbeth look while lisbeth does something badass (+diana reassessing now that lisbeth has been revealed to be useful)

-"almost as fun as a real fight" why do i believe him? lmaoooo a bit weird that he would enjoy a fight w a partner, but i also think this is an acknowledgement of nancy being an "opponent" who exists at his level. but i also love the "let me take you out" as a direct mirror of her relationship with nick, where she avoids the public acknowledgment/"going out" but prefers the more subtle/hidden arrangements of staying in. but as shown with later eps, owen is way more capable of meeting nancy where shes at, which is so important to her + the only way of getting close to nancy. (the only foil is ace who somehow is able to do both)

-"not always about a guy" <---- this could have been such a powerful statement if the show had thought having nancy end up alone/choose herself instead of pitting her between love interests (nick, owen, gil, even potentially ace, in only 2 seasons) was a more worthy stance to take ; as an aro/ace person i cant tell you how much i would kill to see just one female protag choose herself over a man. and its more realistic to end up alone than have a happy ending anyway, for all that these shows try to be as "real" and gritty grimdark as possible

-"is that what you want?" this is an interesting question to his mother- like maybe he senses her unhappiness? combined with his issues with his father- still trying to look out for his mom? either way it's sweet. (it could also potentially work as foreshadowing of something happening to her, but i think that was played with but then diverted when it was revealed who really killed her) "i think its time i steer this ship" still kind of patriarchal tho. i get that its him coming into his own as a dad technically but still. i also like how he calls her "mother" and not mom

-love that old white people thumbs up at george asking about his clams 👍🏻

-okay fuck dawn tho lmfaoooo

-"stressful dinner huh?" 😂 i fucking love lisbeth so much why didnt they bring her back (wouldnt it be Fucking Hilarious if they brought lisbeth back to bounce bess on her expired visa since the marvins kicked her out and didnt fix it lmaoooooo)

-BESS IS A TOP lmaooooooo i fuckin knew it

-nick says "you can pay me back" wonder if thats gonna come back in s3 considering their "marital problems" (also, those bonds are sosus lmfaoooo if any single person cashing those was looked at sideways they'd confess in 2 seconds that some random guy is handing out bearer bonds they dont even make anymore with absolutely zero proof as to how he got them)

-"you wanna finish what you started?" 👀 (dont mind if i do)

-"i need my dad back" parallels s2 when she asks him to come home

-parent politics: "you are taking your life in your hands / no, i'm putting it in yours" vs "i know well enough not to get involved when hes in play" both carson and ryan try to dissuade nancy from pursuing her pulling this con on everett but go about it different ways: carson is wildly concerned with nancys physical wellbeing but ryan appears to be leaning more towards weighing the odds for her/ like a "you cant win so cut your losses/dont try" scenario which interestingly might have more weight with nancy; its easy for her to brush aside carson's worrying like second nature but nancy has been established to be a determined winner, and ryan speaks to her here like shes a beginners luck prodigy at a blackjack table by encouraging her to keep her record clean by not dealing in this next round. of course she herself admits shes incapable of not dealing in ie "you know me better than that" but i have lots more thoughts on how effective ryans approaches to nancy can be sometimes (saving for the reveal ep 🙏🏻)

-wonder what all carson knows about the hudsons? + that look on his face when he hangs up... wonder if he was just lying to her about knowing anything or just ashamed at having to admit bad things hes done for them

-love nick & bashiir waiting together 🙏🏻💙+ nicks very strong and pointed "good night" as a means of ending his convo w nancy on his terms (gotta reinforce those boundaries man!)

and lastly

-celia + that gossip girl moment when she just throws the whole phone away 😂(wonder if she was just talking to "gus" or whoever that guy was. keep forgetting the bobbseys' dad is in prison too, wonder if he'll feature in s3)

[awellboiledicicle]

Mok’s Mod List 2.0

Note that some of these mods require Content Patcher from the Nexus, and some mods listed need a bit of tweaking.

But thats not the point, the point is wanting to play Stardew Valley with Additions.

[cp] Babies Take After Spouse by Lakoria

What it says on the tin-- this mod lets your kids look like your kids! Its nice.

[cp] Dammit Clint Stop Hitting on My Wife by Rubecula

Tweaks Clint’s whole... thing to be closer to the whole “Guy with super bad social skills and anxiety about trying to talk to people”/”not really outgoing dude” and not so much “dude that literally watches Emily at her place of work and from bushes outside her house”/”Incel that you’d call the cops on if possible”. It correctly stops him hitting on emily when married to you. It makes him way more personable in terms of not setting off creep vibes. There’s a version available also of toning things down while being just friends. 

[cp] Elle's Cat Replacements by Junimods

[cp] Elle's Dog Replacements by Junimods

[cp] Elle's New Barn Animals by Junimods

[cp] Elle's New Coop Animals by Junimods

[cp] Elle's New Horses by Junimods

Lumping these together because they let you customize almost every sprite of a thing on your farm. Different cats, different breeds of dog, and new cuter barn animals, and horses. 

[Cp] Seasonal Villager outfits by Tanpopnoko and ParadigmNomad

Changes the villagers outfits as seasons change. No more Haley walking around in a tanktop and short skirts while theres like 3 feet of snow. Cute sweaters! Evelyn with nice sun hats! George not covered in food mess!

[cp ]Stardew Lottery Letters by Jokerine

You wanna play the lottery without putting anything in, and get like, cake when you don’t win? Want surprise money at random? Of course you do. Thats what this does. 

[cp] Canon Friendly dialogue expansion for all friend-able characters by Gizzymo

You ever play a file so long you’ve heard literally everything the npc’s can say? Like several times? Get this and get v in character lines that are spread out over the years. 

Abigail Dialogue Expansion by farmerjack

More Abigail! More words!

Adjust Baby Chance by JertsukkaTheMan

Some of us want to start a game with the goal of having a family with an LI. Its nice, its cute etc. But sometimes the game just won’t make your spouse ask you about having kids. For years. So this mod lets you adjust the chance of your spouse asking. 

All Professions by cantorsdust

Tired of only having one set of proficiency? Long to be a titan of farming? think its bullshit that you can’t master raising cattle AND growing potatoes? This mod unlocks both professions as you level things up. 

Animal Sitter by jwdred

Let your pet feed, water, and care for your farm animals. Or have your spouse do it. Pay for it or don’t, set if animal things go in to your inventory or a chest. Is very good if you wanna have animals but also are bad at telling which you’ve pet and which ones you haven’t.

Better Fruit Trees by CatCattyCat

Do you want an orchard without having to space things like a dnd movement grid? 

CJB Cheats Menu by CJBok and Pathoschild

Make fishing easier! Change walking speed! Change relationship levels! Complete that quest that you can’t find the thing for! Get chips for the casino! Get money i guess! 

CJB Item Spawner by CJBok

Decorate without being tied to the whims of everything else. Get things for quests. get ore without going mining bc mining is Danger sometimes. 

DokiDoki Dialogue Alex by alistairweekend

DokiDoki Dialogue Elliott by alistairweekend

DokiDoki Dialogue Harvey by alistairweekend

DokiDoki Dialogue Sam by alistairweekend

DokiDoki Dialogue Sebastian by alistairweekend

Collecting this together because it basically just adds more dialogue that makes the relationships much more convincing. 

Family Planning by loe2run

Lets you set the max number of children you and your spouse can have at a time. 

Free Dusty by skuld

Freedom for the doggo! Allows Alex’s dog Dusty to wander the town with Alex or wait for him in places. Not great irl, very good in game with the alternative being a way too small yard.

Gift Taste helper by tstaples

If you hover over the calendar on a birthday or on the portrait on your social menu, it’ll let you know what people like getting. A life saver. 

Happy Birthday by Omegasis

Lets you set a birthday for your Farmer, because really, you should have one.

Immersive Festival Dialogue by tangeriney

People now actually talk about the festivals happening around town! Like you know, normal people.

Instant grow Trees by cantorsdust

are you, too, impatient as shit? Want to have a syrup farm in a specific pattern but dont wanna wait? Get this and instant trees in the morning.

Kisekae by Kabigon [use Pathoschild unofficial update]

Like Get Dressed, this mod lets you alter the image of your farmer without having to pay the wizard. Why do you have to do dark magic for a haircut. It’s bullshit. So use this mod and get dressed up for festivals. The unofficial patch is on the compatibility page of the wiki.

Longjevity by RTGOAT

Adds more things to the game. Optional taxes, also adds more crops and clothing changes, and soda crafting. Can conflict with Seasonal Outfits, but can be worked in together. 

Map image exporter by spacechase0

Screenshots are now less of a pain

NPC Map Locations by Bouhm

“Where the fuck are they?” a sentence of the past! Adds markers to the location of villagers and shows if they move.

Paririe King Made Easy by Mucchan and PathosChild

Spelling Prairie is hard, but the games shouldn’t be. Makes you functionally immortal bc that minigame hurts me. 

Range Display by CatCattyCat

Displays a colored grid showing how far things cover. Scarecrows, beehives, and sprinklers. No more guessing where things reach!

Remote Fridge Storage by arjan3004

Fridge is tiny, is too small for mighty farming and foraging skills. Chest, though, chest is many and large together. Use chest as ice chest to store fridge, and cook with those things! No inventory management required.

Replanter by jwdred

Like Animal Sitter, but for the farm bit. Option for instant selling upon harvest. Also has option to put it into a chest for later. 

Part of the Community by bmarquismarkail

Ever feel weird about the fact you never get to know people through, like, social osmosis? Like if you’re super good friends with Sam, he’s probably talked to his family and friends about you. If you’re selling all these things to people, and helping people out, shouldn’t most people at least know ur a chill person? This mod gives a couple points toward your relationship to the citizens for every festival, for every thing sent in the box, and if you talk to people in a room with others, they all get a point or five. It’s very useful for keeping relationships going.

SBM Black Roof by ??

Mod i used to make my house pretty, but i can’t find it anywhere. 

Skull Cavern Elevator by Bifibi

Adds an elevator to Skull cavern, with option to change when the thing appears. No need to keep trying to not die every 10 floors only to need to do it again later.

Stardew Hack by bcmpinc

Basic thing that allows for below mod.

Wear More Rings by bcmpinc

You have ten fingers, why not so many rings? It would only make sense. So get your shinies on yall

Note 2: I have not included links in the post as links would make it not show up in the tags and thus would make sharing harder. Searching the Nexus modding website or the compatibility page will get you there. 

[libidomechanica]

Untitled (“Just take her mouth”)

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