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Not to preach to the choir but I wonder if people generally realize that AI models like ChatGPT aren't, like, sifting through documented information when you ask it particular questions. If you ask it a question, it's not sifting through relevant documentation to find your answer, it is using an intensely inefficient method of guesswork that has just gone through so many repeated cycles that it usually, sometimes, can say the right thing when prompted. It is effectively a program that simulates monkeys on a typewriter at a mass scale until it finds sets of words that the user says "yes, that's right" to enough times. I feel like if it was explained in this less flattering way to investors it wouldn't be nearly as funded as it is lmao. It is objectively an extremely impressive technology given what it has managed to accomplish with such a roundabout and brain-dead method of getting there, but it's also a roundabout, brain-dead method of getting there. It is inefficient, pure and simple.
#the notes on this post are about to get sooooo annoying#this doesnt touch on the fact that AI is stealing artist's jobs which i think is the real biggest harm of AI#but like#god#just take a minute and think about how stupid the current use-cases for AI are when you consider how it gets to those conclusions#this guesswork has its place in fields where guesswork is necessary like when screening for potential health issues in the medical field#but the benefit of the medical field is that when you get a false positive you can just do further testing to confirm the initial reading#that's called a second opinion and it is how the medical field is structured fundamentally#if you screen someone for cancer and it comes out positive#but it turns out they didnt really have cancer#that's fine! that's good news and it's good that you were at least wary of it!#but so many other applications for AI do not have this leeway where incorrect answers have further reaching consequences#and more importantly AI isn't stealing the fucking jobs of doctors!!!#although jesus i really wish doctors would stop using AI to take notes for patients#yes please lets give all my personal medical info to a big machine that stores and processes literally everything it hears#im sure there would never be far reaching consequences if that machine ever had a data breach#blah
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fellows for pride month im getting a compound microscope to complete my lichen identification setup. cant hold it in anymore cant keep it back
#for those not acquainted#the optimal lichen ID setup has both a compound and a dissecting microscope#you use the dissecting scope to inspect the creature and do chemical tests (although tbh some chemical tests you dont need it)#and you use the dissecting scope to search for spores and look at smaller structures. usually reproductive structures bc lichens love those#my old compound scope wasn't great but it died. it was my fault. did not take the batteries out and moved like 3 times#tried to do surgery on it to clean it. prognosis was grim#side note if i had a nickle for every microscope ive done surgery on id have 3 nickles which isnt a lot but its weird it happened 3 times#lichens
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Do you think a driver's throat is better or worse for blowjobs because of the neck training? Like would it be easier because there is more mass so it would expand more or would it be tighter because of the muscle mass? This feels like Schroedinger's cat dilemma to me
uh, fair warning that I'm more of a bones person and not a muscles person. @ocean-prose feel free to hop in and correct me.
I don't think it has any impact. if it does, it's incredibly minimal. sure, the neck training creates more muscle mass, but the actual throat itself is just going from something like this
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to something like this
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if that makes sense, with the assumption that the lateral borders (blue) are the outside of the skin margins, and the medial borders (pink) represent the pharynx. you're not actually increasing or decreasing the diameter of the pharynx itself.
if you're talking about how it's possible to see the bulge through someone's throat, then the additional muscle of neck training would just obscure that visual I would think? the flexibility of the pharynx isn't actually changing with the increase/decrease of muscles around it.
I think the most notable impact would be that it's probably harder to move their head around. like sure, you can tug at the hair or whatever, but they're not going anywhere they don't want to lmao.
#author asks#again this is Not my thing#however I do see tests where we are looking at esophagus damage#and the actual size of the person or their neck generally does not have much to do with that#anatomy can be cool like that#where all the internal structures are roughly the same size#no matter the size of the person#like lungs! it's very very visible with lungs lol
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I think about Silco running his own charity. A lot of crime bosses did something of the sort to not just give them a decent public image, but also to somewhat engender loyalty from the local community. Al Capone opened a soup kitchen during the Great Depression that fed over 2,000 people a day (not with his own money though).
So yeah, while Silco definitely ran Zaun with an iron grip, he absolutely could have employed tactics real crime bosses did that would make the greater Zaun favorable to him. He could have opened his own soup, thrown block parties with really great food, or he could have even opened a cultivair, which is just an enclosed park in Zaun, chembarons in LoL lore actually do that.
Personally, I think in a world where Silco and Vander stayed together, Silco would have invented the Zaunite version of the Girl Scouts (unisex).
#arcane#silco#arcane ramble#i think silco would find the structure of the girl scouts more suitable to test out young talent#and yes jinx would run the test kitchen for the cookie sales#also yes silco would make sure to buy the community's loyalty if he had to#whether through cookouts or bribery or force the cookouts are just the fun way
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I wanted to clip this just to point out Fernando's amazing save, but their commentary shamefully made me laugh so hard 😭
#its so childish but so funny icl 😭#'testing the structural integrity of his underpants' STOP 😭😭😭#i keep rewatching it and giggling its too late at night for this#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1
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Ling!!!
#click for better quality blah blah blah if ya want close ups just zoom in turn up ur brightness to notice all my mistakes ect ect <3#anyway LOOK AT MY BOY LOOK AT HIM AAAAAHHHHHHH :DDDDD#i curse him with thick fluffy hair and thers nothing you can do about it#thats why i cant call this a hair study bc canon is a lot more scratchy and straight. it does have a bit of poof but not like this#in the process of writing these tags i noticed several more errors and had to go fix them T^T they were small but i had too!!!!#honestly this was a lot of fun i need to do more doodle pages like this- WAIT I NOTICED ONE MORE THING oh fuck it i cant be bothered#also idk why i gave ling a frog shirt when the rest of it is vaguely canon but uh. idk. amestris tourist fashion maybe. yeah sure#also. spot the greed. its soooooooooo not obvious#but i need a pose that gave off shampoo commercial vibes and ling would never but greed one million percent would and does so constantly#this was also like. a mini expression test. and now that im real deep in the tags i can cry that he doesnt look the same in each doodle#im so bad at faces and i choose to blame my face blindness. inconsistent jaw and chin and facial structure go brrr#my favourites are probably the turned away ling and the lil sleepy one like. im proud of the bottom left and the other is just adorable#second place is top right and greedling#more low quality funnies#my art#ling yao#fmab ling#greedling#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fmab fanart#ling yao fanart#tags my beloathed ;-;#moss' madness
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Going to college as a nontraditional student with an office job is kinda funny bc now when a professor messes things up in a way that fucks me over instead of being like "omg this authority figure is so unfair 😭" I'm approaching it more with the vibe of like "if Karen from Accounting doesn't fix this mistake that's hindering my work after my third passive aggressive email I'm going to CC her boss"
#my professor has multiple things messed up on her online course that are actively preventing me from preparing for the midterm exam#1. the notes she uploaded for last weeks lesson are in an unviewable format (its a .bin file? she converted an image to binary code??)#2. she hasnt uploaded the content for this weeks lesson yet. and that content is going to be tested on the midterm#3. both her syllabus and the review guide she uploaded mention a pre-midterm test thats worth 2% of our grade#and i think is supposed to help us prepare. but she hasnt uploaded that or even mentioned it at all?#4. the exam itself isnt in blackboard yet. which wouldnt really be a cause for alarm if it was any other professor#i would just assume they were probably waiting to upload it until the day of the exam#but given everything else shes messed up so far im worried she messed something up with that too and it wont get uploaded at all#so. she said in the syllabus that we should message her directly in blackboard with any questions and she'll respond within 48 hours#but my first message was sent on friday. it is now tuesday#she said to send a follow up if she doesnt respond within 48 hours. i sent a follow up yesterday morning and she still hasnt responded#and im not going to wait another 48 hours when the exam is in 3 days and she still hasnt even uploaded the final lesson that will be on it#so. shes getting a text from me at the phone number she listed now like#if she doesnt respond to that within a few hours then i might call#and if she doesnt respond to THAT then im going to put it in an email and CC the head of her department or smth#bc we NEED to be able to prepare for the midterm. its THIS WEEK. some people are actually scheduled only TWO days from now#its already bullshit that shes including this lesson on the midterm when the due date for it is AFTER the exam#but then shes also THREE DAYS LATE (so far) uploading it??#AND she hasnt uploaded the pre-test or even mentioned it at all???#rambling#this professor is gonna get a BAD review from me man#its already bad enough that her online course is structured so poorly that its hard to even tell what we should be doing each week#and now this shit
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The Space Shuttle Structural Test Article (STA-099) being returned to Rockwell International's Palmdale Facility from Lockheed. STA-099 was used to test the launch and orbital stress an operational orbiter would experience. In January 1979, it was decided to convert the space frame into Challenger (OV-099), taking the operational orbiter slot intended for Enterprise (OV-101). There were many reasons NASA chose it over Enterprise, the major reasons were it was stronger, lighter and most importantly, there was less to disassemble.
Date: November 7, 1979
source, source, source
#Structural Test Article#STA-099#Space Shuttle#Space Shuttle Challenger#Challenger#OV-099#Orbiter#NASA#Space Shuttle Program#Construction#Rockwell International#Palmdale#California#November#1977#my post
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Furred Attempts at One's Self
#my art#my ocs#furry art#furry oc#AKA FURSONAS RAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH#I've been finally meaning to rip that bandage off and revist my hyena-sona and as you can see there's no time like the present!!#It's actually been a really refreshing and overall happy process so far and I'm happy to share these small bits of it hehe#This all came from the fact I'm getting into the habit of animal studies again and I felt like this would be a nice test of my knowledge#I'm still forever learning but I think I'm on the right path of capturing the face structure of a hyena and in turn other canviorous mammal#My furrysonas are also vessels to give myself bodymods I'm way to scare to get to I just keep winning hehe#Perhaps I'll look just as cool as this...so day#Also fun fact: The reason I choose a capybara as a sona is because I was a capybara in my friend's Cult of the Lamb playthrough hehe#Ever since I've been connected to the large wet rodents; and I wouldn't have it any other way#THAT AND THERE'S BARELY ANY REFERENCES FOR CAPYBARA PAWS HELP ME#I must make them accurate and yet the limits of search engines pain me#That and hyena noses are tricky to understand but I shall digress
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A hit n miss page of me trying to do some draws of Anotos' guardian,his dream bard, more inline with how his in game model looks. -- *✧Support me!✧* *✧Tip me for a job well done! ✧*
#doodles#the dream visitor#bg3#bard#not bad tests to do now that i have his screenshots freal#I think I'd like to combine n play around with how I draw his facial structures some more#if I don't just fully adopt my ver stylized memory draw of him#i also took one of them to full colour-- but i'll post that another time
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( also i'm sorry to say it but i'll probably have to cut a lot of ongoing threads when i do come back ;__; as well as be just generally a little more selective across the board to help with my energy management. now that my disability is back in Full force i need my creative outlets more than ever but at the same time i can't just throw a bunch out there like i like to (ideally). thank you for understanding! i also will be trying to prioritize my multimuse as well, since fsr w caleb i am Unable to write short threads and the variety will be helpful too.
#> failed psychology tests so bad im someone else now; ooc#im trying to set some sort of structure for myself so i can come back better and stronger atm but im thinkin at work so
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Thinking about that poll that was like “were you a gifted kid?” And specified like, AP classes and stuff. But in my school system, the GT (gifted/talented) program was SPECIFICALLY for neurodivergent kids who didn’t need accommodations in the traditional special Ed way (up to a certain point), but in a more stimulation way or for teaching in a less traditional way. Most of the GT kids were on the spectrum (me!), had ADHD, were bipolar, one had Tourette’s, it was honestly a big mixed bag but we all had some kind of something going on. Our school was very big on saying you are NOT smarter than, more special than, more talented than, etc etc the other kids. You are in a SPECIAL EDUCATION CLASS because you need DIFFERENT TEACHING STYLES to learn at an appropriate pace. So our methods were more creative or else we wouldn’t be engaged with the work, our classes were smaller to give more individualized attention, our tests were formatted differently to accommodate different things, etc. like. It was all there to accommodate kids who were neurodivergent. So seeing a post like, specifying AP classes, which to me are understood as college level courses for anyone smart/hard working enough to take, not just GT kids was so bizarre because like. Anyone can take those?
Anyway tumblrinas who were in gifted programs were you in it because you were smart or because you were neurodivergent? (Or both!) did your school make a distinction? Were you raised with a superiority complex (I’ve heard this is common) or told you were in special ed? Did you have to take a test or be recommended for the program? I’m so curious!
#gifted kid#gifted kid burnout#gifted and talented#you could always tell in my high school classes which kids got into the program when because kids who tested in in elementary school#were definitely neurodivergent#and kids who tested in in high school or late middle school#were typically overachieving/really smart but didn’t have that same ‘weirdness’ a lot of the other young GT kids had#a friend of mine actually got rejected from his GT program over and over because they said he wasn’t gifted he was just an overachiever#and wouldn’t benefit from classes structured in the GT way#his mom was so pissed because she thought it was an accelerated program for smarty pants kids#but no. it’s just for us weirdos (affectionate)#crazy they didn’t clock him though he’s super autistic now#diagnosed and everything
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I get where people are coming from when they say Diaspro in Winx lost the plot for the sake of being turned into a minor villain and that's all once Valtor enabled her to do what she did in S3, but I feel like that was a reasonable narrative choice. It's only a love potion at that point (while I could go on all day about the ethics of love potions, of course, a later season has her straight up trying to do direct murder). She's a noble, guards will do her dirty work, and I understand that she would feel like getting revenge on Bloom while getting back together with Sky. She was promised a position — romantic AND political — she nearly had and then it was taken from under her by a random fairy who wasn't even "supposed" to be in the running. I don't think what she did was nice, but it makes sense for the story and for her character for her to want to reclaim her position in the way she did. Sky's love was an accessory, in part, to her political ascension, and thus he is again rendered accessory and accomplice by the love spell. And, sending guards after threats seems to be the thing to do in the magical universe if you're a disgruntled noble, so it's probably not unfamiliar for Diaspro to have seen occur before or want to do. It's not a uniquely rotten response any more than Radius' behaviour towards the monster (who, he didn't know it, was Stella). If we fault her for this action rather than only the intention behind it, we need to examine how the worlds in Winx Club deal with threats to their monarchs in general, which sounds interesting but I frankly don't have time for tonight. Diaspro did wrong, but she didn't do uniquely wrong there, and Eraklyon has the punitive security structures in place to have enabled that.
Diaspro's later appearances seem to flatten her motives and the symbolism behind why her relationship with Sky was important and what she does about it (who cares what Diaspro's political aims are and how her status might reflect how she deals with problems, the audience needs to see Bloom thrown into fire I guess), but I feel like seasons 4-8 weren't really that good anyway, so I can't even claim this as a fault of the writers doing Diaspro specifically wrong instead of them just doing the whole show wrong at that point. It might be related, and it might be a coincidence, but a lot of the writing choices seemed to become more flat to me right around when the art shifted to that lifeless godawful Flash simulacrum of S1-3's art.
Also like... idk but if some long-haired hottie wizard in a sick coat and contemplative eyeshadow told me he could help me get my promised chance at both romantic and political success back, I'd at least hear him out, yknow, see what he had to say (<- don't trust me I simp for Valtor)
#rubia speaks#winx club#winx#diaspro#winx diaspro#not supporting women's wrongs but parsing them in context#actually you know what. love u bloom but i have a diaspro apologism streak in me#love potion BAD AWFUL ROTTEN but the guards? we need to interrogate the king about that one i think#and make ur guards pass a basic test on the obvious visual difference between a fairy and a witch idk :/#is diaspro entitled to sky's love and the political position of being his wife? no. does it narratively make sense for her to be mad? yeah#is her position of having been given the expectation of a certain status and result and having it 'undermined' a compelling one? yeah!#i think there's a lot to say about expectation vs reality and the burden of unfulfilled unsealed commitments in Diaspro's situation#and the societal structures in Eraklyon that allow her to act outside of due process because she's big mad as long as the king is cool w he#how the nobles protect their own class and interests even when Sky is acting unusual from VALTOR'S FUCKING MAGIC DAMN#now if she could just drop the magical coercion and the classism and the witch slander..........#interesting how that arc makes Bloom almost an underdog when... babe.... ur a Princess.#Sky's not out here marrying a commoner he's courting a princess of another world#.... sociopolitical views of Domino by other worlds? Bloom acting vs not acting the part of how a princess acts on Eraklyon?#Bloom as a Lesser Princess because of the condition of Domino?#Association with the Winx and Alfea in general making of her a symbolic commoner?#much to consider about Bloom's 'underdog' role compared to Diaspro in the Eraklyon Engagement Era
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duuude look at this close up i found. society if
#the ridges look different from what they decided for miral in season 7 but 6 years later who can blame them it still looks cool#diary#if they had gone with those inital makeup tests that roxann dawson talks about where they made her look more 'alien'#proobably would not have gone well but i'd be having the time of my life#trek#also roxann dawsons jawline facial structure. all of it. ma'am
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Coding woes (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Ukadevlog#Bug testing sure is something lol#These are both problems I've figured out now luckily! And I did them on my own! :D Extra pleased with myself :3#My slightly cocky attitude of ''Well that was frustrating - luckily I'll never run into another problem again'' amuses me lol#'Cause in the moment everything's flying! The code comes together lovely and it's all great! And then I come up to the next thing#Something I haven't done before - something that there's no Direct how-to of how to do a thing#Like setting player-and-character pronouns! I didn't know how to do that! But I figured it out!! :0 What a rush haha#It really did take me an evening of knocking my head against the wall in attempts - I waaaayyy overcomplicated it to start haha#I was like - trying to set up a system that would call on specific pronoun sets individually based on player input#Ridiculous - so much easier to just slap some values into an envelope and have those tied to a specific shell lol#But that took all night! I got sleepy while working on it and even my drowsy brain was like Wait...what am I supposed to check against? Haha#Such a weird experience subconsciously as well :0 'Cause I had normal dreams that night#Maybe some slight code-adjacent dreams of A Screen With Text On It but that could be anything :P#Most of it was just normal dream melodrama - but in the few times I woke up to readjust or roll over or pull my blanket#It was juuuuust enough for my ''conscious'' brain to kick in and think about what to compare against - what structure would work#And so by the time I woke up proper I had to frantically write down a bunch of code in a spare word document so I wouldn't go stir crazy lol#Breakfast must wait! Dailies must wait! I Have to write this down!!#And when I implemented it - it worked exactly as I hoped it would and is much much Muuuuuch simpler to call upon haha#Wow! That was a weird fluke that definitely won't happen again! Haha#I don't actually believe that I just have no way of guessing which aspect will trip me up - This Should Be Easy! And then it isn't lol#Definitely didn't predict the second - Especially because other than a small roadbump of not knowing how to Shell-Switch (ty again Cherry ♥)#Everything up to then was going well and everything after that was going fine! Until The One Thing happened pffbtl#I wanted to assign a value to check if a specific piece of code was being called upon - basically a fork between two outcomes#That went fine! The value Was changing! But only the first fork was being called???#No lol I just didn't put the second = ugh pft - and what's more frustrating is that I'd been using == up to that point!! I'd been warned!!!!#I - for some reason - was convinced that using && would make the value check Only need to check If x = 1... That's not how it works......#It's an If statement! If x = 1 then why do I have to check IF x == 1! Just check!!! Hwagh rules and whatnot lol#Like I said it's all fixed now but sheesh! What a silly mistake! I knew better!! And now I double know better haha
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Hi there! If you don't mind me coming to TK's defense in the fight, and specifically the issue of how he seemed so harsh. And I agree that there's a bit of an assumption on TK's part thatCarlos would support his decision. So from what I saw TK didn't really get mad until Carlos brought up his father and the search for his killer. And I think also a better way to approach him doing that would have been to try and reason with him that he has to be able to see an end to things that might not be him catching the killer, most people do because they aren't cops. But I can see how TK has already been here for a year and a half with Carlos. And he has been supportive, he only asked for therapy when it started affecting their marriage and even then he didn't ask Carlos to give up the case. So now he's the one in crisis (not the same of course) and he's looking for that support and its not there. Instead Carlos seems to be insisting TK live with him in that grief of Gabriel's death until he's ready to move on, the "and it always will be" line, and that's not fair either. Sadly crisis rarely line up so that one person has fully processed everything when the next one hits. And for TK's POV it looks like Carlos is willing to let his little brother, a living person, be shipped off to be raised an ocean away, in the name of Carlos getting closure on a dead person, the whole future versus the past thing. And I could see why this would set him off so strongly. I don't think he's ignoring this painful subject in Carlos's life, he hasn't for the past year and a half, but he is saying in this instance he has his own needs and he's putting them first. This is just me imagining TK's POV, I don't think that's what Carlos was saying really but maybe he didn't think what he said through to the end very well. Does that make sense??
Also I totally agree with you on the Wyatt and "doing right by Julio" nonsense. I really hate when this show goes all out on the copaganda to justify questionable behavior. And if it wasn't for the specific "make things right" line used I might be able to see what Carlos did in a more favorable light. But Wyatt didn't do anything wrong, he actually did a really amazing job under pressure, and he shouldn't be made to feel this is something he owes the cops, or Julio, or anyone. I do know the show tends to do this and its why I always have to brace for episodes like this. And yeah, killing a bunch of people shouldn't be viewed as "making things right", I don't care who they are.
Hi <3 This is gonna be an ESSAY. I apologize in advance. Whoever has time to read all this...wow 😂 First of all, I don't mind anyone writing me with an opinion as long as it isn't racist/queerphobic/etc. So all good. I think it's super fair to want to talk about an issue and I will reply whenever I have the bandwidth 💕 Also, as someone who's not a native English speaker, I will not try to nail you down on word choices. But I think if you meant it literally, coming to 'Tk's defense' at least with me isn't necessary at all. My criticisms toward him or Carlos are never an attack on them and having a different opinion or coming at something from another angle is just that. No defense necessary. If that makes sense??? I hope that doesn't come off as condescending I'm just hoping that the implication of people criticising or stating opinions is taken less and less as an attack in general. Because fandom often falls in such a binary. Good vs. Bad. And I don't prescribe to that in life or fiction. All of this to say, I think you make really valid points for why TK feels that way. I agree to certain extends. TK for sure has had to struggle with watching his husband be consumed with work and his father's death. And even if Gabriel had died of natural courses, it is TOUGH supporting a partner. It surely was tough for Carlos to support TK in season 3. And that is a struggle you are willing to take when you love someone but it takes a toll nonetheless. BUT: narratively, what Lone Star gave us was this: therapy - resolution through a compromise with the box - Carlos helping with the barn - gigantic birthday party Carlos seemed to have organized or at least was heavily involved in and present for and THEEEEN - TK not communicating well. In real life, issues like that are so messy and take forever to be resolved. Ngl, I've been hurt about some things a lot less severe for yearrrs. And I go to therapy too lol. But Lone Star's short season and pacing and cramming all of this in one now leads to this narrative to feel so jumbles because we as viewers can guess that the issue wasn't resolved for TK. How could it be?
But to give us two episodes of only seeing them happy and united again and then have TK not talk about adopting Jonah with Carlos first? THAT for me is the issue. Not TK being snappy and being upset when Carlos brings up Gabriel. Despite not seeing the on-screen struggle of it continue, that still made sense to me. I don't see that to be the reason why TK sprung the Jonah thing on Carlos like that. And he DID spring it on Carlos. That is human and again, don't mind him not finding the perfect words. But S4 established Carlos as someone who said he might not want kids. That's where we left things off. Jonah challenges that. That is super fair. I honestly have a case like that in my family I won't go into details for, but when I was 20, I was very briefly considering taking care of a toddler despite the circumstances being very very bad. It resolved in another way, but still, I have an idea what it's like to have family crisis and beign forced into making that tough decision. TK is so valid in wanting to take care of Jonah. And not thinking through logistics like Carlos would have. He is a very heart-first person. I was still surprised why they made the dialogue as it is because TK gives NO room for Carlos to weigh in. Yes, it could be clear to TK that he won't allow his brother to be raised by an institution and Carlos would likely agree. But to not even consider asking Carlos if he is okay with it? To take that agency from him? I don't think that's right and maybe we will disagree on that. It's a HUMAN BEING. And Jonah would deserve better than to have one of the men raising him not be in it 100%. That's the reason I don't want kids. I don't think it's fair t be wishy-washy about a child. "and he's looking for that support and its not there. Instead Carlos seems to be insisting TK live with him in that grief of Gabriel's death until he's ready to move on, the "and it always will be" line, and that's not fair either." -I don't think Carlos is insisting anything. I think the scene was too brief even to get into what Carlos wants more than it showed us what Carlos FEARS. He fears he wouldn't be able to raise a kid right now. And I think that has only partially to do with Gabriel's murder. Again, even in s4 he doesn't think he's ready. Give that man a minute to come to terms with maybe having to adopt, or lose TK. That's what it boils down to. Being in a crisis, dealing with trauma, and your life changing basically forever. You can logically support TK 100% but you can't deny how someone saying: "Hi babe we'll be dads now" isn't going to make you panic. Hell, someone dropping a dog in front of my door would make me panic. A full on child. AH. And TK didn't go about asking for support. He demanded it. He didn't allow another path. And Carlos in turn said: I don't know if I can cross that line for my own needs and sanity. Controversial opinion but even the best relationship would not make me cross certain boundaries and I don't think that should be the norm. TK said he accepted Carlos not wanting to be a father. The circumstances are so out of norm that he now brings it back up and has to be insistent. I just wish he would acknowledge that this is not something Carlos can do easily. I texted Mar that TK starting the dialogue off differently would have changed the entire thing for me. Like something similar to. ""I'm looking at adoption lawyers because Enzo wants to send him to a boarding school and I don't think I can watch that happen."" - Shows that TK is struggling with that himself at least. Still disregarding what Carlos would say but it leaves the door open just a little more to show a conflict and Carlos might have not felt as bulldozed. Others would surely write it even better. This is already so fucking long .... Feel like I would all get this out a lot better if I wrote a fic about it ngl. I'm so sorry if this is jumbled and messy. I promise you I take your words in good faith.
#michelle rambles#michelle answers#truly .......this got out of hand#doing an adhd test this week actually lol#it's either that or my brain just opposes linear and structured thought#anyway I hope it made sense
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