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haribojam · 5 months

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I.Q. What was the fucking purpose of that decision

#the bugaloos #bugaloos #THEY DIDNT EXPLAIN WHY HE JUST DID IT FOR NO REASON #comic long hair iq your a dick #ig he just wanna pinch some toes 🚶‍♀️‍➡️🚶‍♀️‍➡️#john mcindoe #i.q.#sid and marty krofft

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daily-hanamura · 8 months

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#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #weak when i think about early yosuke constantly living under the surveillance of the townpeople #in a way it kind of explains his reluctance in trying to connect with them (like in the magician manga) which is itself very complex #but for someone who's always on the lookout #for someone whos constantly checking his own behaviour and making sure hes not doing anything that could be perceived as negative #even if he did want to become better friends with kou and daisuke its hard to extend any trust to them #yosuke didnt understand why they were trying to be friendly with him -- to some extent i think its because he just didnt trust them #that they weren't trying to get him to relax so he would do something wrong and then inaba will have one more reason to dislike him #its an overthinking thing!!!#but with yu? he can relax a little because he doesn't expect yu to betray him in that manner.#at the end of the day #after the liquor store and the shadow yosuke incident #yosuke KNOWS that yu is someone that has his back #amd maybe that knowledge is still a little tentative because hes still unwilling to be fully honest with yu during their early friendship #but deep down he has the evidence that yu is on his side. he wants to believe that yu will continue to be on his side. :')#and this first friendship is what enables him to actually form more meaningful bonds with other people #i mean. after saki and the blowback from him trying to connect with saki.#is it any wonder that he's a bit reticent #but ah look. hes still doing that thing where he puts on an air of nonchalance and confidence and plays it off with a joke #even as it bothers him. :')#he's good with his queue

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hella1975 · 3 months

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i cannot stand the aot fandom this is not a new take at all they are universally intolerable but oh my dayssss u are FORBIDDEN from making ANY take about the show it's actually insane to watch. 'aot is perfect' no show is perfect. 'tell me you didnt get the show 😂🫵' people have different opinions/interpretations about things. 'eren is a good guy they could never make me hate him' i think there's actually 4 seasons and two movies explicitely using him as a tool to show that no one is 'good' or 'evil' they are only trying to survive. hello. the fandom r all so far up aot's ass that they actually discredit its writing in the process and it would be laughable if it wasn't so frustrating

#bc aot IS insanely well written but no one talks about it???#like all they do is SAY how well written it is but no one is brave enough to give examples or meta bc SOMEONE will jump on it #declaring they've misinterpreted the Single Correct Way of watching the show and are dumb and a hater for saying such a thing #i remember posting about my initial aot watch on here and i did NOT like eren i thought he was whiney and annoying (he is <3)#and i thought aot was overhyped but ive since finished it at long last and omg. it is so fucking good #one of those shows that you need to watch ALL of it to truly get what's going on #and the conclusion of eren's character i am genuinely so obsessed with ill probs make a separate post just about him #bc i have really 180'd on eren and i can see now he IS well written. but not for any reason i can see anyone else talking about???#people are just banging on about he was right and justified and a saviour and tragic etc etc and while those things are important #and should be considered that also like. was not the point imo #the irony and tragedy of eren jaeger was that after all the 'i am special simply bc i was born into this world'#concluded with the revelation that actually he was not special. the rumbling happened because a normal boy got a hold of a great power #and he mishandled it. he was immature. he acted his age. he was just some teenage boy and he responded in kind #there was selfishness and silly whims and a quick temper. he was never this godlike figure he gets painted as #and i ADORE THAT TAKE. THAT IS SUCH AN ICE COLD CONCLUSION. EREN WAS NEVER SPECIAL - THAT'S THE POINT #and like countless times through history one selfish person with their hands on an insane amount of power and a conviction #that they are doing the right thing goes on to lead to a continuation of the cycle of war #like the end credits with the tree is genuinely HAUNTING. it never ended. eren KNEW the rumbling would be unnsuccessful #and would leave enough of their enemies alive that they'd eventually retaliate HE KNEW THAT and did it anyway #why? bc he just /wanted/ it. desperately and immaturely. and so the war turned over for another generation and another and #LIKE THAT IS SUCH A POIGNANT HAUNTING TAKE. I FR STARED AT THE BLACK SCREEN ONCE I FINISHED IT FOR 5 MINS IN HORRIFIED SILENCE #yes it's not his sole motivation but ultimately the crux of his character boils down to the fact he's just some kid #to the point even when he's explaining it to armin at the very end they SHOW HIM AS A KID. THAT IS THE REAL EREN #THAT ANGRY SCRAPPY CHILD WHO THOUGHT HE COULD BEAT THE WORLD INTO SUBMISSION #NOT A HERO NOT A GOD NOT A DEVIL - JUST A KID GIVEN A POWER HE NEVER SHOULD HAVE GOT HIS HANDS ON #but if u say all that some chucklefuck tells u to kys and that u just Didnt Get The Masterpiece Of Attack On Titan #but do u know what? maybe people disagree w me! maybe this is just my interpretation! guess who's NOT gonna have a hissy fit about it?#fandom is about DISCUSSION and i have never seen a fandom as fucking allergic to it than the aot fandom #like omdddddddddd have a day off man isayama isnt gonna suck you off #aot

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puppyeared · 6 months

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Atla live action 😐

#thats my honest reaction 😐#to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid #like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat #or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already #good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive #to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil #i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better #but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because #it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak #and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but #come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and #makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality #i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was #IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys'#and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall #AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think #plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS #a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason #im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your #audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small #thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small #its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers #i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang #anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and #rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz #netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub #no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same #ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me #i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing #yapping

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netherdevil · 2 months

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unnormal vivilly dweller thoughts in my head

#“I'm right next to you” are we about to kiss. are you trying to kiss me right neow #i hate the chase sequence part (corny and unoriginal) but everything else is so perfect #hEeEeLP MEeEeEE #i fuckign love vivilly anyway but i think the vivilly dweller is what Really did it fr me #SERIOUSLY THOUGJ WHAT THE FUCK #i would make a palpers dweller but i dont think my computer can with how shit it is rn #like i definitely will at some point (unless someone beats me to it) but i just can't rn 😭#i csnt wait for august viv face reveal guys!!!! YAY!!!! idc what he looks like he will always be so splinkoid #plus whatever characteristics he has i can kinda just add on to my design to him behind his mask #i color his skin as dark grey just for his mc skin but seeing his snapchat n stuff makes me wanna show him off as rhe eyeblinding man he is #or not! who knows . i have a tendency to do whatever #okay speakijg of his face reveal #i have something i want to explain to the wall #a part of me is hoping he isnt generic conventionally attractive guy 38495839488 #the rest of me is neutral because idrc #the reason why is most likely because i would feel a deeper connection to him if we shared similar facial features #it's a good reason i think? but still weird to have because i shouldnt really care what he looks like at all #idk what to expect really but i guess i should be open minded abt it #I JUST. a lot of how i perceive him is through his mc character #that played a big part in how i grew to like him so much #but he ISN'T emo hoodie minecraft shyguy!!!#however i can still enjoy the 'persona' he has online. chill sarcastic insane funny blocky shyguy who does a little (A LOT OF) trolling #anyway back to what i was saying #hope bro isn't majestic as fuck irl #IF IT'S ANYTHING LIKE DREAM I'M GOING TO CRY #DREAM IS MAJESTIC AS FUCK I CANT EVEN WITH THAT MAN #i will be supportive anyway ofc because 1) i dont care even though i just proved that i do 2) i can separate persona from irl person 3)...U #IM SO NORMAL #also we're not goijg toctalkcabou t the dream thing. if youre my irl yoy didnt aee this (PLEASE DONT UNFRIEND ME OELASE #DONT LEAVE JUST FORGER Iなはoops didnt mean to type thatSAID THAT OKAY

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cherriesandpomegranates · 29 days

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I can't believe I walked into my first (ish) day of work at a new part time job today and basically said "why are you all so white" 💀💀💀

#i'm working in a forensic hospital #and the first thing they did was bring me to rounds #which was a meeting with like all of the psychiatrists and nurses and stuff #and literally everyone there was white (or perhaps white passing- i dont know everyone's ethnicity)#and afterwards my boss asked me if i had any questions or thoughts #and the first thing i said was that everyone in that meeting was white #WHY DID I DO THAT???#I mean. I was trying to call attention to the fact that maybe they should be employing more diversely #especially given the fact that they're treating a highly racialized population #(black and indigenous peoples are incarcerated at higher rates in canada)#But. it really wasn't my place to say really.#i'm just there as a research assistant to help them build their database #my opinions on the people they hire really have NO weight #though. it was bugging me in particular that one of the nurses was talking about a patient being agitated #and calling another person names #and the nurse was like 'and he called him everything other than a white man!'#and i'm just there like 'okay why does that matter? 😭'#i didnt bring that up though. not good to complain about your new fucking coworkers #i also dont think i explained my reasoning for mentioning that we had a really white group very well #i started fumbling when i acknowledged that there could have just been white passing people there #and then he asked me to explain what that term meant 💀💀💀

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hecksupremechips · 3 months

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My ass was trying so hard not to jump up and down with glee playing yttd with my sister and getting to the shin reveal I was like MY GUY MY FUNNY LAD MY SILLY RABBIT

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #its like i cant get ahead of myself when talking about him cuz theres still a lot not revealed by the end of ch2 but STILLLL #i was keeping my opinions on characters pretty neutral this whole playthrough though my bias towards gin and kai was very apparent lol #and i did start screaming in agony reliving my worst nightmare joe dying #i dont think my sister was nearly as torn up about it as i was though like god ill still never get over it #the first time i played i actually gross sobbed like maybe i was just sleep deprived but i was inconsolable literally never cried that hard #but yeah we did the second main game today and i was like #‘not trying to persuade your vote but heres one million reasons why we should let shin live ahaha’#i dont think she was very happy with her vote aldnks #but yeah i really am gonna be sooo annoying next time we play im literally gonna bring pages of shin analysis with me that i can gush about #it is an interesting thing this character cuz to me like everything about him is so clear like even from the beginning i just didnt buy #the idea that he was genuinely an asshole i knew there had to have been something more going on #and idk if ive made it clear guys…but hes exactly like me guys hes just like me fr #his story hits so hard it feels like my own self insert which is weird cuz obviously thats not true #but like i feel like its either you get it or you dont and if you dont understand exactly what this character feels cuz you feel it yourself #i feel like so much of him just wont make any sense to you #maybe im just being pretentious idk but like if you cant relate to his abuse and just #very blatant bpd then I feel like youll just judge him on how good or badof a person he is #like it just doesnt feel like itd hit in the same way like when i see this character talking about being hopeless and the way his trauma #makes him act irrationally like god it just clicks so hard it makes so much sense and i can physically feel it through the screen #I MAY BE FERAL ABOUT THIS CHARACTER TO AN ABSURD DEGREE SHHH #basically what im getting at is i feel if i dont over explain everything about this character to other people i fear they just Wont Get It #and that they will be judgmental which idk i guess makes me defensive #anyway yeah i just enjoy getting to re experience the spiral this guy has given me and i will be thinking about it a lot tonight

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monards · 3 months

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dies a little inside when people wholly demonize rhinedottir

#wow i would never do that to MY daughters #why would my mom do that to me?#gen dont know what set this off. the past 12 hours have been spent simmering in anger #WHO LET THIS HAPPEN... WHO...#did certain people become aware of the fact that the completely contrasting characterizations of her were! purposeful!#THERES A REASON THERE BOTH POLAR OPPOSITES.#stop saying shes either all good and innocent #or some insane abusive mother who hit albedo #WHY DO YOU GUYS THINK ALBEDO IS. A BABY???#HE IS AN ADULT !! HE CAN CONFIRM FACTUAL OPINIONS ! AND NOT BE BIASED BECAUSE ITS HIS MOM !#he explains her following HIS ideology of humans #no fucking shit he starts off with the more unlikeable traits she had. THATS THE POINT #'human beings are defined by their flaws'#THATS THE POINT. THATS THE FUCKING POINT #LATER ON HE MENTIONS BETTER TRAITS OF HERS #??????#????????????????????????????#ELYNAS & DURIN ARE NO WHOLLY UNRELIABLE JUST BECAUSE THEY SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY.?????#SHE DIDNT CARE FOR THE RIFTLORD BECUASE IT WAS A BYPRODUCT #SHE DIDNT WANT IT??? WHY WOULD SHE KEEP AMURDEROUS DOG !#also. the riftwolves are capable of doing shit. ON THEIR OWN?? they're chill guys! they are not simmering in hate! thats a sign!#elynas & during were just kind creatures idk what to tell you. that doesnt mean theyre completely unreliable #elynas is a FATHER. he wouldve realized and admitted by now if he realized what rhine did was completely fucked if she did it #HE WOULD'VE ALREADY WENT #BUT HE DIDNT #UGHHHHHHHHHHAHHHH #rhine

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the-unofficial-village-idiot · 3 months

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I feel like I need to start breaking bad over now that I know gus's main motivator was getting revenge for his partner's murder

#no because like he has such a well-constructed façade both in business and in customer service and then you see that flashback #and its like oh he really is just Some Guy who was hardened by circumstance he wasnt always like this #hes careful because he learned the hard way what happens when he isnt careful he Lost His Boyfriend and it drives so much of what he does #like fhkajaahj i know this is all super obvious stuff but im insane about the implications #like the cartel killed max As A Warning and gus still went on to the us to expand his resturant chain and sell meth #and like walt thinks hes just like gus but he never will be because he still has everything he never learned anything the hard way #he just jumped into a game he can never fully understand #but gus seems to have learned everything the hard way it isnt explained why he left chile but i doubt he can ever return #all he had left of his old life was max but then max was murdered he has nothing other than what hes built #he knows to be careful and to not get attatched he sliced victors corroted with a box cutter he was seemingly unaffected by gales murder #and even though his main motivator is that his bf was murdered he still reaches the point where he threatens to kill walts family #he was far far far more lenient than hector and don eladio #still do you think maybe just maybe he figured that was the only way to make walt careful if he went though a similar tragedy #and something similar Did happen to jesse even if it didnt make jesse more careful it cemented his place in the meth business #besides his loyalty and potential maybe thats part of the reason gus kept him around. kinda similar trauma #but i digress #🧪💎

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skunkg1rll · 6 months

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i cant stop thinking abt him... have been doing that all daynd i feel so sad nd my heart hurtsso bad nd i long for him sm it's just a bad day :((

#it's bc i saw that he #uploaded his background which was just nothing. and said that he feels empty #and a couple of months ago before i ruined it all #he said that he had me as his background #so now i feel so fkn sad #i dont know why im like this but i feel so crazy about him i wanna die #i think about him constantly and i'venever ever wanted to be with or know someone this badly #and to know that he sees me as a disappointment... and not good enough for him... and that he doesnt love me enough to wanna fix it #or even have a 'it' with me #hurts so bad #so now im just in an awful headspace...#i hate myself so much #i wish i could go back and not do what i did #i did it bc i thought it'd bring me closer to him #but i was wrong and i didnt understand that until now #and instead it caused him to think im not what he thought i was or what he wants me to be #and no matter how much i try to explain i realize thatonly i understand #bcmy brains broken and no one could ever understand why i do what i do #i am alone. always and forever i will never know closeness or intimacy #the thing is thatbefore i met him i was fine w that #i kinda longed for it but i had resigned myself to a life without it #then i met him nd it felt real nd like it could bereal for me #plus i genuinely like him sm i feel sm for him so i desperately want it w him #but then..... it turned out that im not good enough for him #it just rlly hurts that the ONLY time i've ever wanted someone #and it started w them wanting me back #who i am was a disappointment nd i fucked it up bc of a misunderstanding #that i cant clear up bc i cant make anyone understand my fucked up broken reasoning #i will bealone forever and i just wanna die

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rubyreverie · 1 year

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watched alex's goodbye episode yesterday and i am conflicted

#from what i heard from people i thought it was gonna be something else entirely #i thought he was gonna screw up things with jo and be single and he'd be drunk most of the time #he'd fight someone to death or similar and he'd lose his career and fail to his potential #i had heard some izzie whispers but i didnt know how that was gonna play out #and i see why people hate it but as an izziealex truther.... part of me is so happy 😭#but then i look at the bigger picture and IT DOESNT ADD UP #the writers never managed to write izziealex like they deserve and this is it #and also jo being colateral damage is sooooo evil and so badly done #in the last few seasons i've grown to love jo and her relationship with alex #them getting married for real... only for a half a season later alex leave her for izzie?#just doesnt add upppppp #i think bc my expectations were genuinely alex is gonna end a criminal i am not as disappointed as i thought i would be #i think that if they had explored this storyline and brought katherine back it would make more sense #or if they had shown us everything that alex said he did (contacting izzie seeing the kids and the farm their chemistry)#i dont wish he had been killed off but there really wasnt that many ways to explain him being gone #i just wish him and jo never got married. they should have forgotten about the marriage license a bit longer. put a rift between them for #whatever reason #bc alex truly would never leave jo #im sad im never seeing alex and mer together again 😭#maggie and amelia are INSUFFERABLE #isa.txt

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yuridovewing · 1 year

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i like little wiki trivia pages so i was skimming some of the avos centric ones and i got to the one for hawkwing's journey, and there wasn't a lot there except for kate or someone going "wow fans are gonna LOVE the protagonist for this one, the second I reveal it everyones gonna lose their minds"

and i'm just sitting here like. who the fuck is hawkwing

#i mean i know WHO he is hes the deputy for some reason and hes violet/twig's dad and also he REALLY hated his wife as a kid #and thats about all i know so far #but like when this book was first announced i did Not get the hype at all #maybe im just not interested in skyclan all that much like i get why this SE exists. its to explain what the hell skyclan was doing #which makes sense and all. not a bad decision. its just that i think its funny that shes like ''wow fans will be so happy for THIS GUY''#like the only book where he wouldve done anything was ravenpaw's farewell i think? ngl i didnt read that #did he have like an Epic Marvel Line or something #and fans just latched onto him. is there a hawkwing fandom im unaware of. uh. sorry if there is #im reading his SE after thunder and shadow btw and uhhh im taking a breather in between that lmao

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malkaviian · 2 years

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im home earlier than i thought

#i can actually work on things yay. at least one of them #for the mav and samael story i will rewrite the first chapter #bc i think starting with mav having One of Those breakdowns bc of what happened with zachary its not the best way #i think its better to start the story showing his Unconventional Desires and Fantasies about being murdered as violently as possible #and then explain whats the reason behind them later; when the readers have an idea of who he is. and maybe wonder why hes like that #or if hes weird just because something is wrong with his brain (i mean something is def wrong with him either way.#but did something happened for him to end this way or it just happened without something being a direct cause?)#at least i didnt even got to the midpoint; i only had ~800 words. which is kind of a win for me tbh i havent write shit in months #let alone this thing is out of my comfort zone for a lot of reasons; starting with the fact its not a fanfic and everything belongs to me #and i havent touched a subject this sensitive like a p4r4philia before. of course i did my research but tbf there isnt a lot on this one #so im trying not to sound completely uninformed; just that i couldnt really find a whole lot of research on this #bc it doesnt exist on the first place. the closest is lopatka's clase; which i've read what i could find about already; its not a whole lot #anyway i am afraid of getting hate comments. something something i am romanticizing a serious subject #something something i am portraying this as a love story (im not; if the characters think so its another thing) so i must be fucked up irl #something something 'this is fucked up and doesnt cater to my direct tastes; therefore is bad and you are bad too'#of course i will put warnings but you know how people are. and if they report the story wattpad could actually take it down #a bummer but. whatever. i always have ao3 but i will have to do an extra step and translate it to english #alongside having 0 audience there. well shit just happens ig lol #this turned into a rant sorry #lilith whispers

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trendfag · 2 years

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the correct answers to montes jury questions:

what was the most important thing you did other than getting michael out that got you to final 2?

made an alliance with turner at final 8 who was loyal to me to the detriment of his own game

what was your biggest blunder?

taking taylor to final 2 trying to flip the vote off of pooch and onto taylor week 2, made my allies at the time distrust me, led to me becoming a house target even if only a decoy one

what was the biggest risk you took in this game?

leaving a six person alliance with a built-in tiffany’s master plan for the leftovers, an alliance with two of the house’s main targets

#actually i dont think his answer for biggest blunder was a bad one he just didnt deliver it correctly #him flip flopping on his hoh was certainly a reason maybe the main reason that he became the other side of the house’s target #he phrased it really poorly is the thing. trying to cater it to brittany and michael like look see what i did for YOU!?#probably thinking he had everyone elses vote so decided to cater his answers toward them in hopes of swaying them #and whats crazy is i dont even think that thats how you get their votes. at least not michaels. for michael you explain why you wanted to do #the thing you blundered to benefit YOUR game and how it negatively affected YOUR game and then how YOU recovered #maybe brittany couldve been swayed by the type of persuasive ‘look what i did for you’ thing he tried but there was no universe brittany was #voting for monte so who cares #of course montes performance in the jury qa doesnt matter taylor wins no matter what

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snekdood · 3 months

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bitches prolly out here psychoanalyzing my old art on behalf of my abuser to cushion their belief that im a Horrible Person but then dont see the irony when I point out the shitty things my abuser has drawn and how I see it as clear evidence of their mindset and beliefs (of what's okay to do and how to treat people) descending and pairing that along with everything else they've done and it paints a clear picture of how this person got to the point of thinking it was okay to abuse me the way they did and then the people looking for reasons to hate me through my art will act like "they're just drawings !!!" about their art. which one is it. does someones art say something about them or not? or does it only say something about them if you hate them?

#personally I think me making fun of a douchey type of dude is less bad than drawing 'rape is fun' but yknow #ig I can just weigh the gravity of how bad each thing is accurately idk #vent #'yeah but you started to identify with the douche bag character !!' well- even before i realized I wanted to be him- the plot was #already that he was going to grow out of being a dick. him and mj were going to help eachother realize their flaws and become better #to eachother and everyone else. so by the time i DID realize I wanted to be a guy I already had in mind the mature version of him #floating around but I didn't really post about it bc I didn't want to spoil anything at the time #and it took me a LONG TIME to accept that I wanted to be snake. I was trans before that. and then when I was close to accepting it #I had that whole 'lsd' thing that made me slink back into my shell bc the people I was around made me feel like I would never be a guy #so instead I figured if I couldn't be snake then the next best thing was to be *with* him and started to self ship myself w him and he #evolved even more into an even more mature version of him that by the time I got out on the other side of feeling like I couldn't #be a guy I had this more serious and mature version of him in my mind and started to accept that I wanted to be him and basically was him #and just didn't know bc that version of snake was more like me than the one I made in 2013/14 #in 2013/14 I was only ever considering my comic in the context of some sort of comedy and just wanted to make a douchey character #to make fun of bc I had a lot of douchey people in my life who I felt like needed to be knocked down a peg and I figured the best way #to do that was to make an example out of them via the old version of snake and have him be an overly confident asshole whos hubris #often gets himself humbled even if hes too prideful to accept or admit it #at this point in time I didn't really see much of myself in any of my ocs. maybe a lil bit in mj and (mostly)peaches bc I didn't know it wa #ok to id with a guy... but even when I did subconsciously id with him here n there...i didnt relate to snakes douchey-ness like at all.#sometimes I jokingly act like a douche but again its for the same reason that I made snake a douche back then in the first place-#to make fun of people like that- to hopefully show them how foolish they are by me mirroring them or. alternatively. making people #laugh at me acting that way because pretending to act like a douche is easier to enjoy and laugh at than dealing w an actual douche #i'd do it with my ex-bestfriend all the time- I made snake such a dick because we'd laugh about it together and bc we wanted to make #fun of the dicks around us who lacked any self awareness and if not that any actual fuck about how lame and shitty they come off #what can I say. it's fun to mock people sometimes.#when I actually started to accept it my first pic I drew of him being obviously trans was in 2016... soo a couple months before I remet #my abuser...#which honestly explains why that whole relationship was so rough on me. I had just finally accepted myself and then this person comes #along and tries to smear me and gaslight me into thinking im Horrible for who I am. like. hello???????#my first time fully being myself was with them and their friend group and they all accepted me until their cult leader told them not to

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coolcoelacanth · 4 months

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bruh something weird happened in the pharmacy and i feel weird and bad and uncomfortable about it

#some woman picked up meds confirmed all the info so we can give it out #then two min later this guy pulls up w the same info #and i saw the womans car parked like next to his outside the drive thru #then im confused and i explain a woman already picked it up #then he says its his ex wife and she shouldnt get his meds #but he kept saying random shit that didnt make sense #so i hand it over to my pharmacist #then the woman comes inside and says he has rlly bad mental health issues and she is his current wife and they live together #and im like wtf is going on #she gives back the meds theyre still stapled shut and everything in the bag #then the guy requests the store manager for some reason even tho the pharmacist is the one in charge #then he demands to write down all our names #i gave a fake name bc i was uncomfortable #then he points at me while hes talking to the manager and says i was laughing #and i feel bad bc i was laughing a little but not bc i thought it was funny it was one of those wtf is going on laughs #but now im looking back and im like damn did i look like a total asshole i did not mean to come off like that #so now i feeo bad about that and i also feel weird about the whole situation and that i gave a fake name #and all of this is on my unpaid rotation so i dont even work there #then i call my sister to talk about it and ahe literally does not give two shits so i just end the call two minutes in #which is why im writing it hee #so i basically feel bad confused anxious scared and like a bad person

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