There is a video I found from back when I was three, you’re setting up a paint set in the kitchen and talking to me. I’m five years old, it’s getting cold, I’ve got my big coat on. She said I was seven and you were nine, I looked at you like the stars that shine in the sky like pretty lights. I hit my peak at seven. I’m thirteen now and don’t know how my friends could be so mean. At fourteen there’s just so much you can’t do and you can’t wait to move out one day and call your own shots. Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you’re gonna believe them. Good thing my daddy made me get a boating licence when I was fifteen. Well, I was sixteen when suddenly I wasn’t that little girl you used to see. I’m crazier for you then I was at sixteen, lost in a film scene. Secret jokes all alone, sixteen and wild. Seventeen and crazy, running wild, wild. It’s like I’m seventeen, no one understands. I’m only seventeen, I don’t know anything but I know I miss you. How can a person know everything at eighteen but nothing at twenty two? Don’t you think nineteen’s too young to be played by your dark twisted games when I loved you so? And I damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil at nineteen. It’s supposed to be fun, turning twenty one. I don’t know about you but I’m feeling twenty two. She’s still twenty three inside her fantasy. Oh, twenty five years old, oh how were you to know? Thirty two and still growing up now, who you are is not what you did. She said, I’ll be eighty seven, you’ll be eighty nine, I’ll still look at you like the stars that shine in the sky.
Every time Taylor Swift references an age in a song
okay i was listening to Last Kiss (TV) by Taylor Swift and then The Black Dog came on last night, and i have some thoughts
imagine Last Kiss x The Black Dog mashup as a surprise song– and the transition thingy between the two is like this
"and i'll watch your life in pictures like i used to watch you sleep, and i feel you forget me like i used to feel you breathe. so i'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are ..."
BUT instead of "hope it's nice where you are," it goes "... and i hope it's shitty in the Black Dog, when someone plays The Starting Line, and you jump up ..." LIKE THAT.
730 days alcohol free for me today & my health, wealth, quality of life/love/connection/joy are the strongest they've ever been and keep getting better. Once I removed the blinders of alcohol abuse fueling major depression and obesity, l've been able to race onward and upward to bigger, better and just *nice* things in life. 🥹🥰
My moods stabilized along with my thyroid and other health markers. In total l've lost +/- 318 pounds since my first day sober and that has been it's own challenging journey as well but always so so worth it.
Beyond blessed, grateful and thankful for myself, my family and my chosen family. Thank you for everyone who's supported me or offered encouragement of any kind. 💙💛💙