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shima-draws · 8 months

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Me: Oh god. It's time for our company's yearly performance review. Where my boss will judge my performance over the past year and see how awful I am at my job and--

My boss: You're doing such a great job and I'm so happy you're here <3

Me:

#SLAMS MY HEAD INTO THE TABLE I probably need therapy.#Shima speaks #LMAO #I always. ALWAYS get stressed about these and they ALWAYS turn out just fine #It's the self-esteem. The self-esteem I don't have :)#Anyway glad that I wasn't roasted and fired and I'm doing good at my job.#I'M GOOD AT MY JOB?? ME?? OKAY I'LL TAKE IT! I'LL TAKE IT #Listen this may not be my dream job but it's a good job with good people #And it pays my bills. Couldn't ask for more #Eventually I will leave to work elsewhere but I'm glad I'm doing good 😭#Realizing like. How important my job is actually. When I do leave the company I'll have to train the new hire #For at LEAST a couple weeks #Bc I'm the only one in this department that knows how to do payments! Just me!!#Anyway. Glad that stress is gone now #I can go home and watch One Piece and NOT cry over a tub of ice cream #(I'll probably do that anyway but bc of the anime Emotions and not bc of work. LMAO)

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spartanexperience · 17 days

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Shittt okay i gotta admit. Boreas is hot too 👀👀

I got a soft spot for him, but in a "what a pathetic wet rag of a man, I wanna see him get smooched silly" kinda way

#Even if it was a brief interaction you can tell Hermes doesnt enjoy his company DKRKMWMS #Bro needs to get his mind off beefing with Ares. Someone gotta melt his frozen heart #Eos is not exactly a self insert cuz im a transmasc genderfluid guy irl. So im not his selfship mom LMAO #Ive been wanting to oc x canon ship him too #But this guy's Mythology Romances record is ABYSMAL LMFAOOO #The only partner he is recorded to have is Orithyia...or more like he kidnapped and assaulted her. That myth is terrifying #OBVIOUSLY Boreas in my Herculesverse hcs would NEVER go that low. He may be a dick but not an incel BFKDNKS #He is just. A grouchy solitary wind goober who fears letting himself get attached to anyone. If he did fall in love he'd be a mess LMAO #Once he does its Ares' time to laugh #Im weak for the romance trope of ice/winter themed isolated characters falling for a mortal so i just might make his partner be a human 💅#Sa mention #Boreas

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bayofwolves · 2 months

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i've been thinking ab abeke x worthy for the last 12 hours... do y'all feel me. could i convince y'all to get on board this ship

#listen to me LISTEN TO ME #in arc 3 worthy feels safe enough around abeke that he always takes his mask off when they're alone #she's the only member of the group he does this with #the others have all caught glimpses of what's underneath the mask but abeke knows his changed appearance better than any of them #and around most people worthy feels a need to act as human as possible -- tucking his tail away‚ standing upright‚#curbing some of his more feline habits -- but with abeke he doesn't hide a thing #doesn't feel ashamed #he's comfortable enough to be his real self around her #abeke thinks he's obnoxious at the best of times but finds herself seeking his company out more and more bc as odd as it is‚#it's as though she's found a kindred spirit in him. i mean you have to agree they have unreasonable chemistry #and their height difference is the cherry on the cake. in my canon worthy is 5'5 and abeke is 6'0 #abeke has to tilt her chin down to look him in the eye. good shit #ofc there's the very real likelihood of abeke seeing worthy as shane and projecting her unresolved feelings onto him #which might ruin the ship for you if you're WEAK (not me)#i think it could be a very interesting layer to their relationship (that could be worked through with time and therapy. or not. up to you)#and can you imagine the guilt worthy might feel if he were to be with abeke #knowing that his former leader had loved her first #goddd they make me think.#in a world without shane this is the next best thing #if they were gonna kill him they could have at least given me this unlikely strangely cute potentially toxic pairing as compensation #text #spirit animals #spirit animals books #spirit animals series #abeke #worthy #shane #wortheke #shaneke #this is not the first time i have posted ab them nor will it be the last

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lockwoodshitposting · 8 months

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You know. That meme.

#inspector barnes has only even drawn a weapon in self defense once and rouge the bat is like i need u to enter the nuclear codes for me bud #dont ask why #rouge the bat #lockwood & co #lockwood and co #l&c #lockwood and company #lockwood and co netflix #save lockwood and co #inspector barnes #sonic the hedgehog

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ismyteadoneyet · 3 days

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dude my mom doesn't even let me identify as a pacifist without debating me on it how tf am I supposed to come out as queer lol

#i'm posting this on here because this is where I have the least amount of irls following me LOL #and the irls I have on here are the sweetest sjdjjdjd 💕💕#but I need to vent like what do you MEAN I SHOULDN'T SAY I'M A PACIFIST BECAUSE “WHAT IF YOU HAD NO OTHER CHOICE THAN TO HOLD A WEAPON”#LIKE #I feel like this goes under the same argument as “would you still refuse to eat if you were a vegan #and you've been STARVING for a month and the ONLY THING TO EAT WAS A STEAK??? WOULD YOU EAT IT THEN???“#like istg mother #if I somehow was in a life-or-death position where my only way of self defense or way to defend my loved ones #was to use a gun then I think I'd abandon a lot of the other morals and standards I have set for myself already eye-#AS LONG AS I HAVE THE CHOICE #I WOULD NEVER HOLD A REAL GUN OR FIREARM ???#I think wars and weapons and militairy are stupid af and think world leaders who use that sht are cowards and should learn how to use WORDS #which I KNOW is highly ironic considering what company I work for and don't think I don't cringe and feel bad every single time I remember #and I KNOW Sweden is one of the countries that produce the most weaponry etc in the world and I HATE IT #but alas #i do need a job #and I also can barely afford an apartment of my own much less move to another fkn COUNTRY #BUT WHAT DO YOU MEAN “NAH I DON'T THINK YOU'RE A PACIFIST?” 😭😭😭 BRO I NEARLY CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT MANDATORY MILITARY SERVICE #AND I NEVER EVEN HAD TO TRY OUT BCS I HAD THE OPTION TO JUST SAY “no thanks” ?!?!?!?#WHAT DO YOU MEAN

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roachemoji · 6 months

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#bo posting #vent #im self isolating #but i think i want to be alone #but i also dont #but the kind of company i want i cant have #intrusive thoughts about ny relationships are getting overwhelmingly #in too afraid to ask for anything #feels like if i do ill make things worse somehow #like im being a bad or inconsiderate person #but not avoiding things also makes me bad and inconsiderate #that im being a coward and should just deal with whatever outcome. even ifvits negative and nothing changes or gets done #and if i upset people it is my fault. and avoiding it is only prolonging that. ill upset someone no matter what i do #i just dont feel safe being a person with needs and emotions that affect others #that feels like it sounds sarcastic but im anxious and sad nd i dont understand how to help myself or what to do #and thrn we come full circle to why i cant ask for help

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candygalaxyyy · 1 year

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I’ve haven’t been this infuriated with a show in a while. The eighth sense is putting me through it. I am appalled, enraged, aggravated, vexed, my blood is boiling and I’m ready to throw hands…

Jae won needs to get rid of all his friends IMMEDIATELY. You know what, yes even the club president girl. Because she sometimes calls people out, but it’s never directly and other times she is silent & complacent, which can be just as toxic. I hate his fake a$$, arrogant, Mr jealous of jae won, always disrespectfully up in his business and entitled ‘friend’ tae hyung. I hate his rude, obnoxious, no sense of self worth because why are you kissing and chasing after a man who has made it clear - ON MULTIPLE OCCASIONS- that he does not want you, self-absorbed funky a$$ ex. I WAS SO MAD WHENEVER THEY APPEARED ON THE SCREEN I WAS THIS 🤏TO THROWING MY LAPTOP ACROSS THE ROOM.

Our man jae won is literally nothing but a walking shell, no emotions or spirit left. And he continues to surround himself with trash because he fears that the genuine people in his life will suffer if he gets close to them. So he pushes our baby ji hyun away and hurts his feelings. HURT PEOPLE, HURT PEOPLE! And it’s worse because he has surrounded himself with people who don’t understand his pain and are not comforting or supporting him, they are just projecting whatever they expect from him onto him. From the dumb a$$ teacher using him to get a job with his farther, to his ex, the fake friend and those $h!tty surf club members who only care about their stupid little trip. F ALL OF THEM

#hate how ji hyun’s friends are the only good people #ji hyun has the best company around him #i think he has chosen to appreciate his life rather than #wallowing in self pity or regret #he’s gotten braver and sassier #i hope jae won gets the help he needs and starts healing #i miss them together #jae won x ji hyun #jaewon x jihyun #the eighth sense #korean drama #korean bl #kbl #lgbtq series #the eight sense ep 7 #the eight sense ep 8

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voidimp · 9 days

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i hate insurance companie

#on the phone for two hours trying to get Sex Vs Gender sorted out bc at work we are allowed and even encouraged to self identify & they only #ask for gender not sex. but the insurance company pulls what *they* use for your sex as what you have listed as your *gender* at work #which is a Fucking Issue bc theyre NOT THE SAME & i might need my sex set as female for insurance to. u know. actually cover my top surgery #& hysterectomy *which im getting bc im transmasc* but they dont know if i can actually have that changed independently so even tho im #SUPPOSEDLY able to self identify i might not actually be able to in order to get insurance to cover procedures THAT ARE LITERALLY RELATED TO #ME BEING TRANS. and the best part is i dont even. have myself listed as male. i set it to do not disclose!! so the insurance company #apparently just saw that and DEFAULTED TO MALE?????#so now theyre looking into whether or not it will Actually cause any issues with coverage/if they even take sex into consideration when #determining whether the procedures would be approved/denied & if they dont then i get to just leave it as is. which is best case scenario #but otherwise i gotta figure out wtf im supposed to do bc i DONT want to set my gender as female at work #like i guess WORST CASE i set it as female for now (bc they do let u change it at least lmao) & then just change it back after but i #shouldnt have to do that!!! & like its not really my employers fault bc they are *trying* to be like accommodating of trans shit its just #that the insurance companys system like. interprets that information in a different way i guess?? & like they do COVER trans healthcare but #they dont really have any way in THEIR system to distinguish between sex & gender. & my employer only asks for gender. so its A Whole Mess

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curiosity-killed · 10 months

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It is! Possible! That I may be being too hard on myself! Again!!!

#me for most of this fall: I’m not doing enough well enough I’m falling short in everything I am Miserable #the universe lately: you’re such a natural turner / you are so creative / you are doing so much /#you are curious and humble and kind / you have beautiful lines / your writing is lovely #our company did this values in action award and my sister and I were talking abt it last week and how only 5 employees WERENT nominated #and i was like Clearlt I Was Not Nominated #and then today actually read the nominations and I got?? really sweet ones????#and just had a convo with a colleague abt how I’ve been worried abt underperforming/not doing well enough #and she looked at me like I had literally sprouted a tortoise out of my head and was like #‘’i. think you might have. Very High Standards for yourself. (?????????)’’#the new director I’ve been working with is so casual abt praise saying how I have beautiful lines and such a strong turn #and just need to relax and breathe #there have been a couple ppl recently reading thru like my entire AO3 and leaving the nicest comments???#my students are chaotic but at rehearsal they all want to come sit with me and ask me questions and I just #idk I know I have a tendency toward isolation and self-deprecation #but also like. when ur in it (the depressions (?)) it feels so absolute #and i know I have to go thru to get to a place where I can receive the good (emotionally)#and I know I’m a little extra sensitivo bc I‘ve been missing my brother #and specifically how he always always was the person who listened when I needed support #but yeah i. maybe rlly needed this #‘’over and over announcing your place in the family of things’’#<- current feels #personal #Bc it’s less about positive feedback and more abt feeling like belonging

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bumblingbabooshka · 1 year

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Dr. Invar - Varith’s Betrothed

#her scars are from a medical double mastectomy - she's a cis woman #she works on a very small majority Vulcan science vessel #so she doesn't have an official rank but she's close to the person in charge and was allowed on the vessel due to nepotism #her mother is a fairly cruel person who looks down heavily on others due to her high status but favored Invar A LOT #this led to Invar being a bully as a child/teen but then she became ill and was tutored at home #this led to her being fairly isolated with only her parents and people who worked for them as company (her 'friends' quickly abandoned her)#her being abandoned by others + being with her mother so much made her realize how awful she'd treated others and want to do better #She's quite paranoid about her health because her illness was one which continued coming back #She has not undergone the rite of tal-oth because of her health (she doesn't want others to know this)#<- in general she's hesitant to share information about herself with others bc of the fear they'll use it against her but projects an aura #of self confidence to the point it reads as being cocky or full of herself.#bea art tag #star trek ocs #beas ocs #Invar #despite/because of being a bully (and her mother) Invar has a VERY strong hatred/fear of being made fun of #she doesn't know Varith well - they've only met/communicated a few times (mostly as children)#[REDACTED] family shenanigans #<- very technically #but I'm putting her in that tag in case I need to find her again

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visdiefje · 11 months

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Back home and some complicated feelings about it again 😍 that said. Nothing beats my own beautiful bed

#sometimes I genuinely don't know whether I'd prefer to move back in with my parents or not #it wouldn't solve anything but I guess I could save up for a house? maybe?#but then again I can't right now because the point of being here is the learning and experiences #plus! I said I was going to try out the year. and we're only 1/4th through #which is a lot and not a lot simultaneously #back from friend trip agh. I miss the company even if being around people makes me self conscious #not my friend himself mind you but roommates I don't know as well as him. regardless. company nice #but the advantage of being at friend's places is that you can see what makes you feel at home in a place and then adjust that in your place #for example. my family never put a lot of stuff up on the walls #but I actually love rooms with a lot of framed pictures photos posters and such up. so if I do that here I'll like my space more #also!! I need to get more lamps #I love having various lamps around the place and I love not using overhead lighting #so I should invest in some home decor... for my gay little mental health #perhaps see what I can do to decorate for the winter holidays?#bien rambles #I've never been good at decorating or interior design but I can play around with it now...

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acgames · 4 months

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I see not enough people angry that Ubisoft shat one cinematic trailer for AC:Shadows and is asking like 90$ for preorder already...

No wonder AAA game dev companies' greed knows no bounds: their fanbases' stupidity doesn't either...

#acgames posts #Ngl i am no longer supporting any aaa game dev studio #They are ready to rip you out of your money after single cinematic trailer which always will be made to look pretty and people actually #Are chill with it #Like??#Have you no self respect?? There are better uses for your money instead of giving it to ubisoft ceos who will invest it into creating ai to #Replace any human input in those same games #Those companies no longer have any love for their games they have no passion left #It's only a soulless machine made to chug out shit tier games for your money #And their path for greed won't stop until people will be buying the product #Idk gamers need to have some self respect....

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medicinemane · 5 months

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#I get tired of people trying to explain what lens I should view the world through; what way I could think that would make everything better #forgive me but I don't care; I do what I do and I do what I can and you don't see the work I do under the hood #I don't want advice on self validation or whatever; I want... I want someone to hold a mirror up so I can actually see myself #by which I mean I want input on how I'm doing; if it's good enough; if it's worth anything; if anything I make is good #everyone things I'm nice; everyone has always thought I'm nice #but given nice leaves me profoundly isolated I don't think I care #not to mention in my opinion what nice in this instance means is that I'm capable of listening #it's mostly that I have manners rather than some quality about me #I'm well behaved and polite and can listen; and that's perceived as nice or even sweet #and it's not like I'm offended by people seeing me that way; but maybe you can get why... I can't do anything with that information #but if I'm doing enough... if I provide any value to the world... I might have heard that less times in my life than years I've lived #that's where I'm totally blind #people don't tend to offer any input; and also people don't tend to let me know what they're thinking #and I in fact am not a mind reader; I can often accurately infer things; but no of that means a thing till it's confirmed #and... well... hopefully no one reads the stupid shit I say and especially not the tags so this is safe and hidden #but truthfully people just like to hear that stuff they're doing is wanted and matters #and I do not #I don't know... gotta go do more cleaning cause I need to #and I have no idea if... I've got a reason for fighting so hard to clean; but I get very little input so... I expect... well...#and thankfully I don't think they read my tags so I can say this #but I really expect they won't take me up on my offer to come out here and get away from their parents; so there will be no pay off #not that I blame them in the slightest... it's just the only possible pay off for this cleaning would be helping someone I like out #and a scrap of company #but then again... in many ways anyone coming out to live with me is the worst thing they could probably do #sorry... I have a rather bleak outlook on many things surrounding myself purely cause of what I infer from the past #there is never pay off; only more shit I need to get done #I will never be loved; I will never be wanted; I will always just kinda be an afterthought that's occasionally worth venting to #no one will ever be particularly interested in anything I'm interested while I'll chase their interests or at least try to #certainly let them talk about them when they want #...though I take that over my normal total isolation... better to at least be permitted to follow in someone's shadow than have nothing

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unopenablebox · 1 year

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full disclosure that i may be receiving a patagonia fleece with the label of the biotech company i work for on it tomorrow. i assume that as soon as i put it on i will experience a full-body permanent werewolf transformation into a tech bro and be sent out to roam kendall square, hunting for organic grain bowls and venture capital

#ok i don't work for a biotech company per se #like. i am an academic. im just an academic who is technically rented out to a nonprofit immediately adjacent to the academic institution #and who only does work for that institution. even though technically the ~self-funding nonprofit~ like. owns it?#man i don't actually know how this works huh #but that's beside the point.#the point is that i need to do due diligence disclosure that tomorrow i will be a guy who has a patagonia with my employer's logo on it.#and i need us all to be ready to take whatever actions we see fit #box opener #doctor worm

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omegawolverine · 7 months

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looking at my mutuals talking about nijisanji and pretending idk about the situation even tho i used to have a nijisanji user with a layout and carrd to match

#shit self #tbf i stopped paying attention when mysta and nina graduated bc it was obvious the company was a shit show #and i only kept up with hex bc even tho i liked others most of them didnt stream at times #when i was available but then hex also changed stream times to smth that didnt work for me #so i basically just lost complete touch with vtuber spaces and nijisanji as a whole until now #but to say the selen stuff didnt not come as a shock would be an understatement #after zaion and yugo like...not surprised this happened at all #corpo vtubers should srsly unionize tho and nijisanji needs to DIE with this controversy already

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yoojinluv · 1 year

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#need to get my outer appearance to the point I’m like this about myself #like I have so much admiration..and it’s clear she works hard for it (working out etc)#idk if it comes off as vain but this is really important to me that I reach a point where I’m on this vibe abt myself #but this inner is just as important I just want to become a better person in general.. need to focus on that #and certain goals and not drinking alcohols every evening after spending all day at a job i hate..#I’ve been with the same company for ~5yrs and I’ve only gotten frumpier grumpier more boring and more lazy #surrounded by other ppl who have resigned themselves to living for the weekend #idk what I’m going to do #I know I’ve been talking about this for years #I feel like the relationship I’ve been in for the last few years totally destroyed my sense of self #bc I was always trying to focus on him #like a sunflower follows the sun #but this breakup.. might be an opportunity to come back to myself #isn’t it so crazy that I’m still living with my ex #I’m so thankful that he’s listening to political videos on YouTube in the living room bc it’s the biggest turnoff ever (he’s conservative)#and before u judge me for that… I could accept it bc i know he’s not bigoted just a little ummmm #easily manipulated #I’ve seen how succeptive he is to the way things are presented to him #and he elicits the exact response that’s why coerced #almost too easy #but he is so sweet #generous #and so soft although he considers himself the opposite #everyone he meets loves him #just one of those people

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