#WANTED TO KISS HER SO BADLY

[kittanthalos]

[livuvur]

Oh to be Winry Rockbell... *Sighs dreamily*

[n7punk]

what's the worst thing you watched and kept up with (at least for a while) because you were gay and begging for scraps? mine was probably pretty little liars

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

[iilovebeam]

I couldn’t help myself and I had to draw Lin… it’s 5am

[seariii]

*kicks door down* WHOS READY FOR SEARI BEING GAY

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A WOMAN MORE GORGEOUS?!?!?! SASODNASFKLX SHES SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL SHES SO PRETTY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

SHES MY WIFE, SHE LOVES ME, SHE ADORES ME JUST AS MUCH AS I LOVE AND ADORE HER!!! LOOK EVEN THE BESTIE KNOWS!!!

HER SMILE!! HER FUCKING SMILE!!! IS SO FUCKING PRETTY!!! SO FUCKING IFJDSAOJBFDNOS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *punches desk* IVE NEVER SEEN A WOMAN SO FUCKING PRETTY!!!

HER SMILE HER FACE LOOKS SO GENTLE SO KIND SO BEAUTIFUL!!! THIS IS THE WAY SHE LOOKS AT ME AND SMILES AT ME BY THE WAY!!! THATS HER LOOKING AT ME, IM WAVING BEHIND THE CAMERA AND THEY TOOK THE PICTURE THE EXACT MOMENT OUR EYES MET!!!!

AND GOD THE WAY SHE LOOKS IN THAT SUIT!!! FUCK SHES SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!!! I COULD JUST LOOK AT HER ALL DAY AND SIGH HAPPILY, I LOVE HER

[noahmrshall]

I. DON'T. HAVE. WORDS.

[megullumverrr]

[starboundsingularities]

tbh it's really always bothered me a bit that they never actually get into the consequences of misusing the magatama. sure, sure, they say your soul shatters, and like, yeah that's ominous and all, but what does it mean? obviously we never get to see that in-game but i've been thinking about it a lot and i would like to present these thoughts because oh boy there are a lot of them. long post under cut but it's a fun little au as well

alright so before getting into it all, obviously there are some things we're aiming to explain, in some sense, with this.

for one: what is a soul, even? most depictions of souls portray them as the very essence of one's self, as the "culmination of your being" or as some similar nebulous expression of an entire person. but... well, if a soul was the entirety of a person, what would that soul shattering entail? it would just kill them. which is a valid reading i guess but not very fun to mess around with and is also a reading that comes with some... troubling implications.

most notably, the meter on how close you are to that breaking point while using the magatama is the same meter as your penalties in court. not just in the asset used, which wouldn't be worth bringing up, but in the sense that once the magatama is introduced, that same value that meter is held at is shared between court trials and the magatama. before the introduction of the magatama, that meter refilled automatically between trials, each trial starting with it completely full, but after the introduction of the magatama, it was only ever refilled by successfully breaking psyche-locks. this is concerning, because it implies a direct connection between phoenix's soul and his performance in court, which probably wasn't intended but is very fun to mess around with and i love the idea of your soul being tied to your passions. however i don't love the idea of him Straight Up Dying if he does too poorly in court so. uh, no insta-death for soul shattering. anyways this whole side tangent never comes up again. thumbs up emoji.

anyways, if a soul shattering doesn't entail simply death, and if a soul isn't just someone's essence or personality or whatever, well, what is it? well, one compelling answer is that it's merely a container. it holds someone's essence or being or personality, but it itself is not that.

thus i present:

Soul Shatter AU

a soul is just a container. one that holds everything in. someone's passions, ambitions, personality.

someone's secrets.

if it were to shatter... without a container, everything would come spilling out. whoever was involved would be unable to keep anything contained within themself. sure, their physical self might be enough to hold in some of the more ambiguous, nebulous aspects of their "self", but it would prove rather difficult to hide something with nothing there to keep it hidden inside.

a fitting punishment, really, for abusing the power to reveal what others have kept hidden.

the fun part, of course, is what comes next. who's used the magatama? who's had the chance to fall to such a fate?

off the top of my head i can think of two people. phoenix wright and miles edgeworth. (i think mia used one too? my friend says she did but i haven't gotten to that part yet i'm only on the third game)

and both of them, despite their focus on finding the truth, are very ironically prone to hiding things themselves. their feelings, their troubles, their emotions.

what if we opened them up a little?

[n4rval]

ough. toriel my beloved

[ouroborosorder]

EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP THIS IS MY ENTIRE PERSONALITY NOW

[sarah-cam]

"I LOVE YOU, GABRIELA, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH"

[nxmeolvides]

In a mushy mood for the past 24 hours so I want to ramble a little about Ana and love... I love the idea of this girl getting little crushes so much. She holds them close to her chest, is reluctant to share them with anyone -- but Maria absolutely picks up on that attitude change each time and can needle it out of her. Ana maybe liking a boy on the playground when she's about six, and having no idea how to even process it. It flies right under her nose. She gets a crush on one of Maria's friends when her sister's in her teens, and her friends maybe come around to the house once or twice - Ana's 11, 12, 13, finds a boy ridiculously cool when he really isn't, and watches from around a corner with big eyes. Brings them in snacks, or drinks, and tries to seem cool and not at all like the little girl with a crush that she is. Tucks her hair behind her ear if he talks to her at all, acting so "mature", and then she pleads with Maria not to say anything when she figures it out - because by this point, Maria can read her so easily. She Knows.

And then Ana gets a little older, and doesn't know how to handle any of it. She's so repressed that she doesn't even realise she likes girls, and navigating boys is a disaster. She gets a poor opinion of the ones her age, because boys will be boys, and especially in high school. There's not a chance of her dating anyone because of how much she busies herself at home, and no one really seems worth trying with when she's got so many more important matters to deal with.

And of course, it all just means that when she does start to like someone, genuinely, and feels them working their way into her heart, it just about destroys her. She's got so much love inside of her, she just doesn't know how to express it. And she'd be so happy, just staying friends, staying close - but at the same time, she'd always be yearning for more.

[layzeal]

me sitting down to watch yet another cheesy and tropey lesbian chinese short drama starring wang laoji with some supernatural fairy fox demon and a cute girl with a mysterious illness who coughs up blood

[anidrawsfanart]

My vocaloid tier list!