#With all the fun information I'm learning I am also learning the horrors.

[the-furies]

besn lesrning a lot abt Shrek Lore in my Medicine Induced Brain Fog today

[panderghast]

I have maybe a pinch of hope left...

Cause like, I have sooooo much to give. And it seems like everyone wants a piece of it, but nobody wants to give anything back. They want me to be dirty, as long as I can wash myself clean again of course (my goodness). They love how quirky I am! Until I need to tone it down, oh my gosh it's mortifying. Why would I wear that in public, say that out loud? I'm going to walk away from you if you do that, I swear to god don't embarrass me. I have strong values and morals; unless we disagree. Then I become stubborn and unpleasant while I defend my opinion and you drown out my voice with your cynicism and ego. I can't even talk about what's bothering me, it's a personal attack on them exclusively. Lord have mercy it is actually about them, because suddenly they do nothing right and nothing is ever good enough for me and they just can't lose me, they can't!

Honestly, I'm also tired of playing into the thought of basic decency being my reward? I'm not your good girl. I'm not a dog. You aren't a dom, and I'm not a sub. I don't owe you that privilege just because you saw me naked and you put your hand on my throat while you fucked me. You don't know the first thing about BDSM, and you can't even tell me the definition of a kink. So why do you think this is a turn based game instead of a bonding exercise around consent? Don't touch me.

The thing is, I want to let someone in. I want to express deep and passionate love. But I am constantly misguided. I am lead to believe these men tell the truth, and then once I get comfortable in their embrace and I feel safe they constrict me like a snake until I stop breathing. My heart is treated like a possession, not a delicate gift. I'm a conquest in some sick subjugation, not a prize to be displayed and discussed and proud of. I'm a very fun toy to have, but I'm like a sports car - but they can't use me everyday, that's why they have their family car and I'm in the garage; they can only take my out when its convenient or they're feeling nostalgic or frisky. All I was asking for is maybe some recognition? A little appreciation, some attention? Maybe give me half as much thought as you did to your Baldur's Gate 3 character. Or, I suddenly turn into their mother and I get to experience all the Freudian bullshit that they packed in their bags and dragged around with them from house to house. I must be able to teach them all the things their lacking, right? I mean, after all I'm raising 4 kids successfully on my own and maintaining a house and budget without help and I do all these wonderful things like cook and clean and make art and I can still love so freely. Wow! I'm a goddess. I'm so special, unique, incredible, astounding...So, that's something that I can share obviously. It must be a secret, a technique I've perfected through all the trauma and opportunities life has given me. If I could only support them a bit...emotionally, spiritually, financially, sexually, physically, mentally...teach them how to take care of themselves since they never bothered to learn. Then I could make them a good partner. For me, of course! ...But I have to make sure I share their interests because mine are a bit boring, they don't get it it's too much information to follow, this cartoon is kind of childish don't you think, what is this a romance, I don't really understand old horror movies they're so badly made...but hey, have you seen the entire Marvel collection? Don't worry, I'll make sure to ask you questions on everything you do like that coincides with my interests to make sure you're telling the truth. Oh wait, make sure that I don't go out without them too much, they'll feel lonely. Why is my phone going off so much? I'm so paranoid about shutting my laptop when I'm done, omg can I stop doing that why don't I leave it open. Hey, they're out of body wash and shampoo btw. Ah, shoot, can I help them clean up because they're just so tired. Can I cover this bill, order this food, get these drinks cause they ran out of money? We haven't gone out in a while...oh it's because I'm not paying or planning for it anymore and the last time you did anything was March? What the fuck do you mean you don't vote? What the fuck do you mean you think feminists are annoying? What the fuck do you mean I emasculate you, I wasn't even talking to you, I was talking to my son about doing his homework or else he would end up living in his friends apartment sleeping on a mattress on the floor with no sheets and his winter coat on cause they couldn't afford the gas bill working a dead end job at a fast food place cause he has no skills...but if the fucking shoe fits, my guy. 🙄

[kimbapisnotsushi]

sou !! hello !! this is also random and specific but i saw the datekou headcanon post and i was wondering. might you have any inarizaki road trip hcs?

i didn't until you asked me so LET'S GO

oh god you thought dateko was bad??? they were only stuck in the car for thirty minutes at MOST

(or something idk i haven't quite mapped out their geography yet but miyagi is a coastal prefecture and sendai isn't like SUPER far inland, so i'm just making assumptions out here)

but anyways. kurosu is driving obviously as much as he moans and groans about it

shoutout to the coaches btw they are CARRYING these headcanons

realistically i guess they'd road trip to another school for a training camp or like idk. maybe hot springs for some r&r bc inarizaki def has the budget for it but in my heart they road trip to suna's hometown during one of the breaks so suna can see his family <333

i guess it also kind of depends on WHERE in hyogo and aichi they are but we could get a solid 4-5 hours of driving if it was from, say, asago to tahara

kita makes a list of all the snacks everyone wants and rounds up aran, oomimi, and akagi to help him raid the market/convenience store like the old hunter-gatherer days

they end up with two massive tote bags of drinks, chips, cookies, and other miscellaneous snacks and one cooler for things like puddings and cakes and whatnot

oomimi sits shotgun because kurosu needed someone to help with directions and everyone else was on "make sure the miyas don't kill each other before we get there" duty

they all thought that kita was brilliant for making atsumu sit in the back and osamu up front because even tho they're separated the twins will NOT stop bickering and trying to throw random pieces of trash at each other. poor riseki gets caught in the crossfire the most often

they all converged to make one giant road trip playlist so you've got the weirdest mix of pop rock/bubblegum/k-pop/city pop, lofi, indie soft rock, show tunes and soundtracks, and more

(i named those genres with certain charas in mind so like. have fun figuring that out!)

nobody's willing to take a nap in fear of what the twins might do to each other when they're not looking

they play really stupid games like the alphabet-chain game and i spy and even try for a few rounds of truth or dare because, hey, there's nothing like being stuck in a car with your fellow teenagers for four hours to set the mood for emotionally vulnerable bonding time, right?

anyways. everyone learns that gin is afraid of heights and all sorts of horror movies, akagi would like to get his ears pierced some day, kosaku got rejected in middle school in front of his entire class and has refused to fall in love since, and suna takes pictures to capture the memory of a place he does not want to forget

(sorry i'm being emo about suna missing home again i'll stop)

kurosu is sweating BUCKETS in the front seat btw. "oh my god what do i do with this information am i supposed to talk to them i'm their TEACHER i'm supposed to guide them i do NOT get paid enough for this - "

a shame, really, considering inarizaki could definitely afford to give that man a raise

it's okay they get some really funny dares like daring gin to text his crush a totally random and weird question

(and thank god atsumu has his phone tucked away in his bag)

there's not a whole lot of dares they can do in the car tbh so they get really creative like daring osamu to eat this absolutely evil concoction of mixing tiramisu pudding into a bag of spicy chips and eating the whole thing

he does. nobody knows how he survived it

and then riseki dared both osamu AND atsumu to shut up and sit down and not even so much as GLANCE each other for the rest of the trip

this was at, like, the 1.5 hour mark btw

and okay he didn't say it EXACTLY like that because riseki is a sweet respectful underclassman but that WAS the closest to snapping he's ever gotten

they do stop occasionally here and there to get out and stretch their legs, but this makes their trip even longer bc it takes like thirty minutes each time to wrangle everyone and get them back in the van

also akagi is trying out his most terrible pickup lines. or antipickup lines. either one works

akagi: "are you lactose? because i can't tolerate you ;)" aran: "PLEASE, MAKE HIM STOP"

the only reason aran feels like he isn't completely suffering is because gin is sitting next to him and gin is kind of soothing like a cute pet would be. not that aran is thinking of gin as a pet nooooo ahahaha that would be weird

meanwhile gin is wondering why aran keeps trying to feed him crackers

they finally get to suna's hometown after being on the road for SIX AND A HALF HOURS

and while everyone is happy to be outside soaking up the sun and fresh air, they're all going to miss the bonding of being stuck in a van perhaps just a little bit

it's all right, they've got the return trip to look forward to

(made 100x worse when akagi busts out a drinking game and proclaims they should play with juice boxes, but that's a story for another time)

[finalmemes]

THE CABIN IN THE WOODS. [ 1 / 2 ] roleplay sentence starters of the 2011 film. feel free to edit according to scenario / pronouns. tw: violence, drugs, death, murder, horror, manipulation.

it's a nightmare.

oh, come on. it's a jinx.

seriously? i thought they were looking good.

it's not the first time it's come down to that.

we know what we're doing, [ name ].

you guys better not be messing around in there.

no, i hear what you're saying.

it's gonna be a long weekend if everyone's that puckered up.

are you even listening to me?

why haven't you stuck that asshole's picture on the dartboard yet?

hurry up with the "very fabulous." i'm getting insecure about it now.

no, it looks awesome. [ name ]'s gonna lose it.

i knew what i was getting into.

you know what you're getting into this weekend?

if you treat this like a setup, i'm gonna have no fun at all.

what if i get bored?

no more learning!

he's a sweet guy. and he's good with his hands.

no, who gave you these? who taught you about these?

i learned it from you, okay? i learned it from watching you!

you know, [ name ], it's a weekend, not an evacuation.

people in this town drive in a very counterintuitive manner.

do you wanna spend the weekend in jail?

cops will never pull over a man with a huge bong in his car. they fear this man. they know he sees further than they … and he will bind them with ancient logics.

what are you, stoned?

[ name ], you fetching minx! you have any food?

let's get this show on the road!

i hope this is the right road. it doesn't even show up on the gps.

go someplace for one goddamn weekend where they can't … globally position my ass, man.

is society crumbling, [ name ]?

society is binding. right? it's filling in the cracks with concrete. everything's filed or recorded or blogged, right? chips in our kids' heads so they won't get lost.

society needs to crumble. we're all just too chickenshit to let it.

i've missed your rants.

you will come to see things my way.

but sitterson does like to be called "ma'am." he'll also answer to "honey toes."

you clear on what's gonna be happening here?

did they tell you that being prepped is not the same as being prepared?

i'm thinking this thing doesn't take credit cards.

sign says "closed."

i seen plenty come and go.

you sassing me, boy?

you were rude to my friend.

you got enough to get you there. getting back … that's your concern.

i know the railroad's coming through here any day, now. that's gonna be big.

one spider and i'm sleeping in the rambler.

come on. give me a hand.

everybody get your suits on. in 10 minutes, we're heading to the lake.

i was not informed there would be calisthenics.

that's just creepy.

i didn't even like hearing that.

thanks. for being decent.

well, i'll just be flattered and keep it to myself.

hey, let's not jump to any conclusions there.

ask me that again, only slower.

i'll see it when i believe it.

oh, christ. can you take a message?

to be honest, he's kind of freaking me out.

[ name ], baby, what's happening? how's the weather up top?

their blind eyes see nothing of the horrors to come.

am i on speakerphone?

that's rude. i don't know who's in the room.

i can't believe it. i did it again!

there's something else in the lake!

don't kill the gorgeous man! we're endangered!

they're practically giving their money away.

i'm not even sure we have one of these.

hey, what do you got?

they pick the same thing every year.

what do you want from me?

more than anything, i just want this moment to end.

seems a little harsh, doesn't it?

how can you wager on this when you control the outcome?

yeah, we rig the game as much as we need to.

oh, let's get this party started!

truth or dare?

i dare you to make out with … that moose, over there.

[ name ]… have you ever seen a moose before?

i'm living in a womb of reefer, leave me alone.

how did you know?

oh, my god. that is so sweet of you to say.

there's no need to huff and puff. i'll let you come in.

what's that supposed to mean?

i'm just skipping ahead.

what the hell was that?

the wind must've blown it open.

what do you think is down there?

why don't we find out?

how long do i have to stay down here?

sorry, i just scared myself.

i don't make up the rules.

oh, my god. look at all this.

i'm not sure it's awesome to be down here.

dude, seriously, your cousin is into some weird shit.

some of this stuff looks really old.

maybe we should go back upstairs.

i dare you all to go upstairs.

what is that?

jesus. can we not?

okay, i'm drawing a line in the fucking sand here. do not read the latin.

stop being a fucking baby.

we have a winner!

you had zombies, but this is "zombie redneck torture family," see? they're entirely separate species.

[skitskatdacat63]

Tysm for the tags @monacobasedgirldad @schumigrace @fernandoalonzoo sry im a bit late getting to this lol

Are you named after anyone?

My great great grandmother(I think??), though she was named Katarzyna, and I was born Catherine, but go by Catie obviously(this lowkey annoys my mom lmao, especially bcs if I were to have a nickname, it was supposed to be Cate.)

When was the last time you cried?

Today, over classical music. I think I cry at least once a day 😭 I am very emotional

Do you have kids?

Nope :)

What sports did you play/have you played?

I played soccer when I was a kid. Also does marching band count?

Do you use sarcasm?

All the fucking time, literally constantly. And also we sarcastically bully each other in my family, so I have to pull myself back from accidentally insulting people 😭

What is the first thing you notice about people?

Hmmmm, I feel like ive done this tag game before bcs I remember writing this exact answer. But usually I notice if someone is a good conversationalist or not. Like do they like to lead the convo, do they like to listen to the other people, do they talk too much, too little, are they awkward about it? It's just very interesting to me, bcs I think that kinda thing really does instantly show you if you're going to be compatible with a person(as a friend or more etc.) Cause I talk a lot a lot, and I think it's difficult to get along w people who are untalkative but also people who talk an equal amnt if not more djkfkglg.

What is your eye color?

Just brown!

Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies definitely. I mean im not opposed to a happy ending obviously, but that's not really what im always looking for in a movie, I guess? Rn I'm trying to think of my top movies, and man, not a lot of them have happy endings 😭 But I literally just watched two horror movies the past wknd so! Even though they make me paranoid

Any talents?

I think I could go on a rant about anything if you gave me a bit of time. I really think I can just talk endlessly. Is that a skill? Or is it just annoying..? But yeah I'm not sure, but I think I'm pretty good at absorbing information and being able to go on and on about it.

Where were you born?

America rahhh 🦅🦅 I like my state a lot even though I feel like all my peers keep saying "ugh I don't want to be in [insert state] anymore" Smh how dare you

What are your hobbies?

Mostly drawing! I draw both F1 fanart(pretty much all selfmade AUs tho) and ocs. I like writing lore and worldbuilding and meta, but not really writing itself. I like reading fic and watching movies as well. And I think one of the main things I do these days tbh is read about history and keep up with politics. I get more and more involved with it as the days go by, but unlike drawing, I don't really have an outlet for it sigh sigh. So that's why a lot of AUs involve history and random other things, bcs its fun to involve my interests with each other!

Do you have any pets?

Yes I do! Two cats and two dogs. The cats are named Jin and Frank. Jin is basically me in cat form, he's so anxious 😭 and Frank is like my brother, he's such a little bastard who loves to hiss all the time. My dogs are named Maisie and Ruby. Maisie is a menace to society, but she is also the most beautiful dog ever, so I forgive her. Her name makes me laugh bcs she's named after this book character, Maisie Dobbs right? So her name tag says Maisie Doggs

How tall are you?

Around 5'4

Favorite subject at school?

Politics >:) But I'm pretty interested in philosophy as well rn. Unfortunately my love for foreign languages has been slipping in the semester or so, bcs my professors on that side kinda suck. So I've been putting more energy into my other major, and now all I can talk about is history, politics and philosophy, etc etc. It's just a lot of fun and very interesting to me!

Dream job?

Man, sometimes I wish I could just be a student forever, I just want to keep learning all about the world and other things. But I'd like a job that's not too static, something that pushes me out into the world a bit, maybe smth in the government or like a non-profit idk yet!

Ahhhh I'm doing this a bit late so I'm not sure who's done it yet, I feel like mostly everyone has :,) I tag anyone who's interested, like seriously I'd love to see people's answers who I haven't yet!!

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heyo!

i consume all my interests critically and acknowledge when they or their creators have issues please for the love of god leave my blog if you think i cant watch/read/wtv something while also acknowledging its problematic elements🙏 i dont need you to come in my ask box and inform me a piece of media is problematic if im consuming it im probably well aware of the issues with it or the creators and i wont defend them

also the masses need to understand if i post anything related to shipping alastor hes still aroace in those my romance favorable aroace in a qpr ass is just having fun please be normal about aspec people in general

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⤍ poker, chorus, or fate

⤍ they/he, genderqueer aroacespec mspec lesbian

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⤍ physically disabled (pots)

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⤍ believe cdds can be nontraumagenic / want to demedicalize polyfragmentation

⤍ believe ramcoa isn't real

⤍ zionist / pro-israel

[hewholivesinhisname]

Most people just like to shit on men for fun and profit. They like to shit on god for fun and profit. Then they trash the world. But also more importantly in a spiritual way in that they are constantly, fucking constantly poisoning the social environment making it impossible to get anything positive done,

Create middle class families, especially white middle class families. And shit on the poor. And shit on the Jews of course with palestine.

They learn it early in school

School is a masonic project. to teach children the values learned in "the enlightenment" (the Echthroi's values) vs. the values of god. Get families broken up and kids away from their moms.

But who am I kidding?

Is anyone fucking listening?

I guess this is the price of existence.

I think about Jeffrey's existence. What he's there for, and I guess, really he's there to destroy reality. Like Kefka or the Nothing. And everyone is behind him of course.....because like the Morque, they want POWER. they even say if for these dead "martyrs" "rest in power"

I think he's going to win.

I can already feel it in myself. I hate this existence. Working so hard in school. Having my friends and family turn on me. Being bullied. Watching as their are even worse predators all around me, especially in power. Watching people actually still follow and listen to these monsters.

My mother was raped by her father and her mother never left him, however when my father lost his job...she left him. That fact always haunts me because it shows just how much women care morea bout societal acceptance than protecting their children. And I'm a poor man, so clearly I have nothing to offer.

So, thanks to people's faithfulness to the system we'll have prison hells. We'll have horror show after horror show. Economic inequality, revolutions, wars, crime, simulations of reality, hells. We don't have marriage but we have free pornography. Then some religious person points out maybe that they shouldn't do that and...the religions are fucked up too. However, they are less fucked up than the wider culture. But, blame god. that will solve all your addiction problems.

Don't blame all the rich people who sold you the addictive products. Don't blame the constant immorality. Make sure to keep hurting people, especially men. The kids bully each other, the men won't or can't protect the children. The women use all their social power to take jobs from the men and use shitty socially aggressive tactics to fuck over the men. Then they lust over the rich men who make money by degrading the general population. And their's predators on top of them and so on and so forth.

Jeffrey's good man. Not a good man, but he's good at being evil. Pushing the world towards pain and suffering. Then people will naturally not want to exist like I do now. He knows exactly what to do to make it seem like he's the good guy. After extended torture and psychological manipulation, I'm sure I'll fall for it too. That's the point of Darkmatter's videos which are very hostile to god, but informative. He might be hostile in some ways, but he's truthful. that's important.

He's one of the only people who is nice to me though and honestly I don't know why. I don't know why. Or, I do. He is playing some long game. The only real friend I have

They all want something. Money, cigarettes, women, to have their fragile egoes validated, POWER. to get in groups and do gang violence then call it something nice like democracy. They sometimes try to make it up by going to church maybe.

Created beings are hateful inferior creatures.

I am beginning to learn to hate people.

[nykloss]

stumbled across some of your posts about a code lyoko ttrpg

i am interested please tell me more 😭

ive been wanting to run code lyoko dnd for so long but i dont have the smarts to change dnd to make it feel code lyoko

Hey there! I'm super excited that someone's interested in this because it's such a passion project of mine haha, I'm sorry in advance if this answer is more than you bargained for!

To give you the rundown, I ran a very brief and experimental dnd 5e hack for Code Lyoko a couple of years ago for some friends. It was a lot of fun, but the system was SO badly Frankenstein'ed that we ran into a lot of technical issues, especially regarding the Lyoko/reality split and how it effected different builds. The old guide for that hack can be found here for free, but please take note that it is very informal and poorly optimized!

Recently though, I've been experimenting with non-dnd systems and building my own tabletop games, which is where Warriors of Xanadu comes into play. (This might get lengthy so feel free to skip to the TLDR.)

Warriors of Xanadu is a code-lyoko/garage-kids inspired system that I'm working on myself with the help of a few more experienced friends. It's built off of the Apocalypse World framework (basically a 2d6 system–if you've played Monster of the Week, Masks, or Avatar: Legends, think something like that) specifically designed to work well with the world and story CL provides. That means all the gameplay mechanics are inherently relevant to running code-lyoko-inspired adventures and there's no extra work to be done on your part. It's also a lot easier to teach/learn than something like DnD. (Even the character sheets are designed to be accessible so players could technically make their character with just their printed-off sheets and no additional resources! Much easier than dnd.)

Each non-GM player plays as a "Hero" and chooses a unique combination of a playbook (centered around academic character tropes like cool kid, geek, class clown, etc.) and a class sheet (how they appear on "Xanadu," with options like rogue, mage, warrior, etc.). Then, In-game, heroes go through episodic challenges where they encounter problems in reality caused by "the Virus," and must transport themselves to Xanadu to combat it. There's also a handful of original mechanics relating to social/academic rapport, corruption from the supercomputer, etc. The health/harm system and combat is inspired by Apocalypse World and Monster of the Week, and is meant to inspire a more survival/horror element than what something like dnd would provide. (Essentially the goal is not to engage in and "win" lengthy combat encounters, but to stay alive and usually avoid enemies when possible.)

I feel it's also important to note that it's not 1:1 Code Lyoko; it's very transformative and a handful of ideas are heavily abstracted to be more fun in a ttrpg setting. It's open-ended and customizable enough that you could technically run an unrelated story with it. That also means that there's some fun surprises for folks familiar with Code Lyoko, though, and you could still run something close-to-canon if you wanted.

The first draft of WoX is about 60-70% completed, I just need to finish the GM-heavy parts of the manual, finish some of the moves, and actually put together fillable playbooks/class sheets. I'm hoping to have it completed and ready to playtest by the end of the summer, but that's a loose deadline. Once I've done some playtesting and gotten feedback from others, I'll probably release the first public version on drivethru rpg and/or itch.io as a free or PWYW sorta deal.

TLDR; Warriors of Xanadu is a powered-by-the-apocalypse style trrpg system I'm working on. It's made from the ground up to support a Code Lyoko inspired campaign. I'm almost done with it but still have some work to do!

If you're comfy coming off of anon, I'd be happy to make note of you and send you the playtest version when I'm done with it, or answer any additional questions! (Same goes for anyone else reading this!)

[ghouljams]

I'm sure most of us are too foolish to try and run from the Fae. Sorry to disappoint! I think we would try to seduce the Fae thinking we live in a romance genre despite showcasing first to die in the horror movie traits.

Also, you wrote a grimoire as a senior capstone? If it's not too much in terms of details about your life, would you be willing to share more about how/why that came to be? Or even what sorts of cool things were included in it? That has to be one of the coolest capstone projects ever!

No, no, it's my own fault for making the fae sexy. I've doomed you all. I'm sorry.

Here is where I give a big BIG disclaimer that I am an outsider to the practice I wrote about, and will never be able to fully practice it outside of the research and compiling that I did for my capstone.

The tl;dr is that I wrote a Hoodoo/Rootwork grimoire for my women/gender/sexualities capstone. Which is such a mouthful, sorry about that. Details under the cut.

So the how and why are pretty easy, which is that my capstone class for this minor was focused on the black diaspora in the US and the intersections with feminism. Which again disclaimer: I'm so white. I loved the class, we read a lot of really fantastic books and I learned a lot! One of the books we read was on southern hoodoo folk magic and I was really interested in how magic intersects with medicine and religion. So Hoodoo became a fascination and I ended up writing a part essay part grimoire.

I read so many primary sources and found some old school practitioners, and just compiled all the information I could on Hoodoo. Which is not Voodoo, just wanna point that out at the start here. I did a lot of herbalism research, pulling traditional names and uses. I cross referenced the different plants with areas they would've grown in and their actual medical uses. Very useful for the historical essay part of the grimoire.

I could go on and on about the different spells and rituals that I learned, but I do not want to present myself as an expert on this because I'm not! Again I am an outsider to this practice, take my words with a grain of salt.

The really fun historical context that I wrote extensively about is how African women in slavery in the USA were using rootwork and herbalism as a medical practice. I also was looking at how the intersection of that medicine with US racism and Christianity made them widely feared as white people thought they were able to conjure demons and work magic. Unsurprisingly this made slave owners push Christianity and specifically Baptist Christianity on their slaves which mixed with the African Religion Collective(ARC) and created an interesting blend of the two within Hoodoo(this happened more severely with Voodoo but that's a different topic).

The Hoodoo religion portion of this is a closed practice. The rituals within Hoodoo do show up within a lot of different practices though. It was cool seeing the intersections of other practices and what everyone seems to agree on. Things like ritual baths and color associations are pretty common, but poppets and mojo bags aren't! Same with USA specific animal magic. It was a lot of planning and organizing to get all my chapters in order since I was hand writing and illustrating everything.

Anyway I usually use my grimoire for rootwork/herbalism which is not a closed practice. My professor wanted to keep my grimoire which was really flattering, but I got it back after grading.

[definitelynotshouting]

hi ! i just read all of the hunger au tag and #($+$(()33-(# . Hm . God awful . I am a worse person because of it /j . I have a lot of thoughts !!

First off , i find the conversion of biology and software fascinating , specially in the concepts of first worlds ! Like , you mentioned how players are more often spawned rather than born , and i personally interpret their first worlds as a sort of prenatal stage . think abt it , they're still connected to the universal code , still relying on it to learn and advance , and after they shed it and are finally "born" as themselves , able to access the rest of the world .

also , lots of body horror in this au . like , code , right ? i keep imagining the universal code as sort of veins , tendrils freshly born players are still teetered with , the connections grian has to put effort into severing as fleshy tendrils twisting and clinging unto players . much wet !

speaking of which , listeners , dude . i think genuinely they r much more scarier than watchers because they're not noticeable , their effects r not threatening , they don't stick to you n eat your insides , they get into your system and /change/ you , fuse into you , how many people have been affected by it ? even worse when you take into account they connect with other infected , n worse when they work towards Goals . girl what goals could the listeners want ????? I'm terrified .

And grian finally !!!!!! For al this time I've been looking at grian as having an eating disorder , cause , well , he does . It's so interesting , he ticks almost all the boxes . The guilt , the hiding it through clothing , the fact he's thinking of food all the time , damn . I'm also eternally fixated on the image of , like , the existential horror on it . he was created by sucking himself dried of code , he broke out of his own skin . something something caterpillars completely melt themselves in their cocoon before emerging as butterflies something something .

anyhow , such fun !!! I'm definitely gonna draw a lot for this , you're a great writer fr grrrr -🔆

Im really glad you've picked up on these concepts and themes i've carefully folded into this au, because it means they're coming across really clearly!!! :D thats how i know im doing my job as a writer, so im very pleased because all of these things you've mentioned (except maybe the Greater Code as tendrils) have been baked into the au with great deliberation

Spawned Players and their first worlds are absolutely very prenatal in nature-- i described to a friend a few months ago that a spawned Player's relationship to their first server, and the universe at large, is like an "umbilical cord" that they eventually detach from as they grow older :] how fast they go through that process depends ofc on the individual Player, but that was the general idea behind that concept!!

There's definitely a TON of body horror in this au WKDNWJDJSJ thats one of the first things i remember cw-ing for when explaining this au for the first time. Actual historical record right here LMFAO:

I personally tend to see the Greater Code as this sorta like. Fabric of binary, that forms the base for what everything in this universe is made of. Within it are echoes of recycled information, code that comes together to form the impressions of old meaning-- you could almost think of them as ghosts. No longer conscious, but emulating fragments of what they once were. Also, any and all body horror imagery is the full fault of my cousin, whom i consider the ultimate Horror Guy in my life, as well as his favorite video game, Dead Space, which has. so much meat in it, gods bless<3

Listeners are absolutely more scary than Watchers imo; i was sorta thinking of cordyceps as well as the mycorrhizae when i was coming up with them!!! There's something utterly terrifying about being so subtly changed and just not knowing why. You can see and hear Watchers; their presence is palpable even if you dont know what they are. But a Listener? They're quiet. Symbiotic but deeply, utterly invasive. Definitely more frightening on an existential level than a Watcher, which i find suitable for something modeled after fungi.

As for Grian, he 100% has an eating disorder. My portrayal of that in the au is very deliberate, even though its not directly stated. So im glad you picked up on that!!! And if you do draw anything for this for the love of gods send it here or tag me in the post i will DIE i love fanart and i am guaranteed to scream about it for a million years AUGH

[sixty-silver-wishes]

Tumblr’s Guide to Shostakovich: An Uncomfortable Truth

Hello, everyone.

You may be wondering why I'm writing another essay on the subject of Dmitri Dmitriyevich Shostakovich today, right after another one I just finished recently. However, important information has come to light, information that cannot be ignored. As a researcher, it would be irresponsible and dishonest of me to hide this information from the public, especially on a subject I have devoted so much time and effort into researching. It pains me to reveal this information, but in the field of history, sometimes uncomfortable truths must be brought to light in order to further our understanding of the past. I have known this information for a very long time, and, I'm sorry to say, have withheld it from the public, as not to soil and degrade the image of such a beloved composer (although historically, plenty of people have soiled and degraded his image, so if that many people are doing it, it sort of seems like it might be fun), but I am done hiding this information and must share it with my devoted readers, lest they continue to consume lies, falsehoods, and half truths. I will waste no time in divulging this information to you all. To those of you whom, like I, love Shostakovich's music, I hope this revelation will not alter your view of those brilliant works which you hold in such high esteem.

The truth is this.

After three years of researching and analyzing sources, contacting experts, and learning as much as I could, I have come to this unavoidable conclusion-

Dmitri Dmitriyevich Shostakovich was a Tumblr Sexyman.

I know. It's very hard to process- I myself spent a very long time turning this devastating conclusion over and again in my mind, trying to think of another possible explanation. But the truth is, he fits all of the criteria and more to be considered one, and I can no longer ignore the truth and pretend it doesn't exist.

First, his physical appearance. Most Tumblr Sexymen, from The Lorax's Once-Ler to Hazbin Hotel's Alastor, wear dapper formalwear, often with coattails, a bow tie, and a button-up shirt. This is often the case as well with our dear Shostakovich. There are plenty of photographs out there of him in formalwear, playing the piano at concerts or conversing with fellow artists. His intellectual pursuits add to this qualification of seeming refined and classy as well- Shostakovich was an avid reader, and often quoted his favourite authors in conversation. His friend Isaak Glikman, perhaps the first person to observe Shostakovich's Tumblr Sexyman status, even notes this about his manner of dress in his younger years:

Some accounts portray the young Shostakovich as a puny, sickly weakling. This was far from the case. He was well-proportioned, slim, supple and strong; he wore clothes well, and in tails or a dinner jacket cut a most attractive figure.

Already, this reads like a fanfiction about any Tumblr Sexyman. In addition to the suit, Shostakovich was very pale and also wore his trademark round glasses, giving him a distinguished, intellectual appearance, and Glikman also cares to note his friend's "splendid head of light-brown hair, usually neatly brushed but sometimes 'poetically' dishevelled with a mischievous, unruly lock falling over his forehead." Indeed, Tumblr Sexymen often have playfully messy hair and sometimes distinctive eyewear, and Shostakovich is no exception.

But clothes do not a (Sexy)man make. A Tumblr Sexyman is not complete without a bit of darkness- sometimes an evil side belies their composed exterior, or, like Sans from Undertale, their goodness is tragically juxtaposed with some sort of great trauma they experienced in their backstory. Shostakovich seems to fit the second category, and as a result, was very withdrawn and mysterious. From a young age and well into his older years, he faced the deaths of loved ones, public humiliation, the horrors of war, constant thoughts of his own demise, numerous health issues, betrayals from friends, and of course, the ever-present demands of the Soviet regime. With most Tumblr Sexymen, a tragic history makes them intriguing to fans, and given the decades of musicological research and debate surrounding Shostakovich's own history and political ties, it seems his own backstory has proved to be compelling as well.

But a Tumblr Sexyman has ways of dealing with his troubles, and wouldn't you know it, Shostakovich fits this criteria as well. Tumblr Sexymen often have a sense of humour, joking and making sarcastic jabs to hide their pain and anxieties. They may give witty one-liners, tell puns, or even perform comedic or upbeat songs. And with Shostakovich, we see multiple accounts of his sarcastic humour, especially in his letters to Sollertinsky, a penchant for wordplay, even satirical musical pieces about his life experiences, like the "Antiformalist Rayok" and "Preface to a Complete Collection of my Works." He may not be singing about an evil plan like other Sexymen may, but the fact that these pieces exist certainly make it clear that he used music, comedy, sarcasm, and wordplay to cope with his anxiety or depression.

His chaotic unpredictability and political greyness clearly factor as well. While Shostakovich had a very strong moral center, his unique historical position in both expressing himself as an individual and an artist and being a dutiful servant of the regime meant he had a rebellious streak, which would surface when least expected. The composition of the joke-filled Ninth Symphony at the end of the war, for example, is seen by many as an act of rebellion, especially when compared to the earlier Seventh, and even in pieces like the Fifth Symphony, called a "response to just criticism" after the harrowing denunciations of 1936, subtle acts of resistance are interpreted in this work as well. Indeed, Shostakovich's political alliances are hard to place, and the fact that he lived by his own moral code first and foremost gives him an almost chaotic edge that would fit right in with any Tumblr Sexyman. Every time it seemed as if he had finally conformed to the expectations of the Party, Shostakovich would once again stir controversy with an innovative or subversive work, displaying a disregard for the strict rules of socialist realism underneath his quiet and unassuming exterior.

So yes, Dmitri Dmitriyevich Shostakovich was indeed a Tumblr Sexyman. He fits all the criteria, from his appearance, to his personality, to his backstory. I know this information may be hard to process, but it's the truth. But perhaps I'm overstating things. After all, as one of the greatest Tumblr Sexymen of all time once said, "how bad could it possibly be"?

(Happy April Fool’s Day! If this looks familiar, I posted it to my Reddit a few years back.)

[corvuserpens]

So yeah, yesterday I decided to FINALLY watched The Meg bc everyone kept saying it was a silly fun shark movie... AND THEY WERE RIGHT. It was AWESOME.

I went in expecting practically nothing, and it blew me away. The story premise is ridiculous and it totally feels like the director, actors and crew 100% knew that and embraced it! The movie never takes itself too seriously, it practically tells you to just kick back and enjoy it for what it is, which is exactly what makes it so much fun. It's an exciting comedy horror about a giant prehistoric shark in present day Earth, the CGI is dubious but the cinematography makes up for it with some great, well composed shots. For example, when Suyin is in the trench and is being attacked by a giant squid? That in itself is pretty cool imagery, but then you see the Megalodon swimming over her sub with the squid in its mouth in the gloom, illuminated from below?? WOW????

Then the characters are like, surprisingly deep? They have interesting backstories that inform us on who they are and while Jonas is the only one who gets some screen time for his Big Trauma, we later learn that Lori might have blown up a whaler ship for an environment organization and that's how she learned to pilot? And that Suyin had a tough relationship with her dad but they love each other so much that with his dying breath he tells her how proud he is, that she already surpassed him as a scientist and he hopes Meying will grow up to be just like her? And we get all of that with some very organic, short dialog or like 3-4 minute scenes, which is rare these days. Legit good writing where it is most needed, all the more sober scenes are well-acted and so immersive, the characters are so likable I ended up rooting for all of them to survive (except that billionaire whose name I didn't bother to learn, everyone else I remember except him, FUCK that guy). Even the side characters, though flat, were interesting because the actors gave them so much personality!

And, WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERE'S A WHOLESOME CISHET SHIP WITH JASON STATHAM WITH VERY LITTLE SEXUAL TENSION BUT A LOT OF ROMANTIC TENSION?? WHAT IS THIS WITCHCRAFT??? Seriously, I was shipping Jonas and Suyin so hard, their interactions were adorable. How he goes from being the typical Tough Manly Man Who Is Super Competent And Punches All The Bad Guys While Wearing The Same Tough Guy Face All Movie to genuinely caring for the whole Mana One crew and respecting Suyin as an accomplished female scientist in her own right who knows what she's doing and is also brave and headstrong herself... Much 'aww'ing' was done.

Not to make this too long a rant, I love talking about movies I enjoyed, sorry, but a few other small things I liked about it: that Lori and Jonas remained good friends who care and support each other, and want the other's happiness even being divorced, we need more of that! And Dr. Heller apologizing to Jonas and meaning it for saying he was crazy and basically ruining his life (plus Jonas forgiving him in the end), definitely wanna see more of that! Jonas' friendship with Meying, THAT WAS SO CUTE, I COULDN'T GET ENOUGH OF THEM!! The gags were all genuinely funny, I was laughing through most of the movie, and the jump scares got me more than a couple of times (though that might be a fault on my part, I'm a big wussy and I am not afraid to admit it). The action is so. DUMB. But it's the kind that it's so dumb it's good, y'know?

Final note, I gotta say, let Jason actually act more because he's really good and directors keep hiring him to play a stoic emotionless hero when he can do so much more? He has impeccable comedic timing, his line delivery no matter how bonkers, always lands, he's REALLY CHARMING and y'all are wasting his potential imo. Given, I haven't really watched many of his movies after the Transporter franchise, but for example, I loved him in The Italian Job and a couple of weeks ago I started watching Homefront and I was enjoying it because he gets to play a widower with a young daughter in a new town, and now I definitely need to finish it bc I'm a sucker for father/daughter dynamics.

Anyway, yeah, if you like sharks, B-movies or just something fun to watch that will make you laugh, go watch The Meg. It's good enough to convince me to go watch the sequel next August. Can't wait!

[all-that-tmnt-jazz]

Hi, I apologize if I make any mistakes, English is not my language. Thanks for reading.

Could I request a TMNT matchup? Any universe. ❤️

I'm 1.67 cm tall, with honey eyes, long brown curly hair and dark skin.

A little about my personality, I'm an INFJ person, I'm ambiverted and I have little social battery, but I like talking to people I feel comfortable with, I love helping people and making them smile, I love animals, especially cats. I'm a fan of horror films, science fiction, anime and dramas. I like sleeping, playing bass and reading. I'm very good at starting conversations and making them flow in a really fun way, and I get excited when I start talking about things I like and hate injustices. I study Information Technology and I really enjoy reading about aliens and history.

Sometimes. I'm a difficult person to explain my feelings but I try, sometimes I'm confused but I'm the type who loves everyone, even those who hurt me. And I find beauty in everything, I fall in love with personalities. I like to talk about the things I like, I love rock and metal, listening to music is my way of escaping problems and making myself happy.

I am a person who defends who I love with all my strength, even if they hurt me. I'm a great listener and I do my best to listen to everything you have to say. If you need me, I'll always be here! have a great day.❤️

You've got nothing to be sorry for, my friend. I do match-ups for the Michael Bay universe and already have two in mind. Let's get this match-up started.

Mikey

Will definitely try to make sure you're comfortable

He doesn't want to be the one to wear down your social battery too much

He likes to make you smile, too. He tries to do that often.

He's always wanted a pet, so if you have any cats he will want to meet them immediately.

He isn't the biggest fan of horror films (bc of Raph) but will still try to watch them with you.

Will 1,000% watch sci-fi movies with you

(His favorites are the two "Alien" movies with Sigourney Weaver)

He hates injustices, especially how people don't take the time to understand what they don't know...

He will ask you to talk about your studies, but will only truly understand about 20% at most.

(He truly does try, but IT/general tech is more Donnie's thing)

He listens to a lot of music to escape problems, too.

It also helps calm the anxiety his ADHD causes

He also defends everyone he loves, especially his brothers

He talks a lot, so he does appreciate it when you listen

As much as he loves his brothers, they aren't always up to listening to him

He does feel like he talks too much sometimes and feels bad for it

However, he does make it up to you by letting you talk about your likes

He will definitely nap with you- he does not miss an opportunity to sleep.

Donnie

Has multiple folders on his computer with IT-related things and loves showing them to you.

He loves listening to you talk about your studies- he admits there are a few things you're learning that he doesn't know about.

He also has a small social battery but is okay with a comfortable silence, if you are.

He listens to more lo-fi music than rock or metal, but there are quite a few songs that he does like

(He has added a few of the songs you've shown him to his playlist)

He loves to watch horror films, especially ones with twist endings

His brothers can't stand him when they're all watching sci-fi movies together

He picks apart every little detail and inaccuracy, and he eventually has to walk back to his lab with how frustrated he gets

(He does have an exception- he loves the "Planet of the Apes" trilogy with Andy Serkis)

He finds it interesting how you see the beauty in everything, how you see a personality before a person

He wishes more people were like that, but he knows most people aren't and that hurts him

He has heard Casey play the acoustic guitar before, but he's never heard a bass before, at least in person

He actually loved looking at the differences between a guitar and a bass, even the most "minute "unimportant" ones

He does tease you often, though, for how short you are compared to him.

He means it all in good fun, though

You need to remind him to sleep.

Often.

[sunshineandcheer]

𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜, 𝙣𝙤𝙬 ! 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚'𝙨 𝙍𝙀𝙎𝙀𝘼𝙍𝘾𝙃 𝙖𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙩 !

// This is a roleplay account! Any message or piece of text not marked with the two slashes shown above is in-character, and is completely fictitious.

This pinned post will inform you a bit about the character, some unique circumstances regarding him, things you should be aware of when interacting, and the person who writes him! I sincerely hope you enjoy it. :)

THE CHARACTER HIMSELF.

Liam Sunshine was an OC created on a Multifandom RP server about a year ago. He started as a character that I would rarely think about, and grew to be my #1 original muse. Friends of mine interlocked their character's lore with his, so you'll probably hear vague references to it in RP. He's set in the SCP 'verse, inspired by the title of a Will Wood song, with slight influence from the game We Happy Few. However, he is his own character, and he stretches far beyond just that!

With the "backstory" set aside, I invite you to look at his 4.3k word DOCUMENT, that entails everything about the character - from personality, to backstory, to strengths and weaknesses. That can be found at the bottom of the post! PLEASE mind the TWs/CWs at the top of the doc, they are serious and important, and I just want everyone who reads it to be safe!

There's one important character missing from the backstory, but they'll be mentioned in RP and, one day, added to the doc! Keep an eye out. 👁

One final thing, before we move on;

I (the writer) am an indie dev. I hold this character very, very close to my heart, and he, the mystery character, and his story are going to be turned into a full fledged RPG/VN in the coming years. It's going to take a lot of work! ^^;

With that said, if you end up liking his character, please keep posting about it strictly on Tumblr! This account is like a little experiment; to see how people like the character and what could be improved. (It's also quite a bit of fun, because I ADORE writing him!!)

I'd also like to keep most things about the game under wraps for the moment, so do note that when asked, I can only answer questions vaguely.

THE WRITER.

The writer of this account is a MINOR. (Which is to say; do not attempt to initiate NSFW with the author or his character.)

I'm a huge nerd, and a lover of writing, podcasts, and video games. I really love the opportunity of getting to share this MASSIVE piece of my writing with you guys!

I also am on the Autism spectrum, so please be patient if I (or Liam) doesn't understand something the first time. When speaking OOC, tone tags are greatly appreciated! /g

BEFORE YOU INTERACT.

This account comes with loads of Content Warnings that you really MUST be aware of before interacting. The following list is exhaustive, some of these are not likely to come up frequently or at all, but it's important that you know that they are a possibility. Don't trigger yourself, and stay safe!

The list of TWs/CWs is as follows;

Death, overdose, violence and gore (commonly associated with SCP), self-harm, suicide, forced suicide, mind-altering medication, mutilation/body horror, heavy discussion of manipulation and toxic relationships, religious trauma, hallucinations, and spiking.

That'll do it! I hope you enjoy learning about this little guy and interacting with him. Thank you for reading all this; and stay cheerful!

:)

(There's the aforementioned doc, by the way!)

[moe-broey]

AAAUGH OOUGHHH.... (also some spoiler-ish things???? Nothing major, just referencing/discussion of supports)

Céline and Sharena friendship. Actually. ESPPPP after seeing her supports w Hortensia, like. I was actually wondering if she even would get along w Sharena, if they'd have any common ground personality-wise, beyond family and social status, but. I understand now. That literally wouldn't even matter to Céline. She just loves cute girls. She would find Sharena to be SO delightful. And the thing about Céline, is that, yes, she's very much a high society girlie, she's very much a princess and everything that comes with that, but. She's not really stuck up about it? She knows her worth, for sure, she knows she's desirable, absolutely. But like. She doesn't think she's better than anyone else. She doesn't have an ego. She's like. Grounded. And also, the littlest things entertain and delight her sometimes! Probably because she likely was a bit sheltered and secluded growing up, and likely also doesn't have a lot of the "average" life experiences one would have if like. They grew up in a village or something (actually, this is shown in her supports w Lapis, a bit! And what stuck out to me was just how excited Céline was to learn about Lapis and her resourcefulness -- both as a way to learn more about Lapis as a person, and a genuine curiosity and interest in what Lapis was teaching her!)

ALSO. BEYOND JUST THE FUN OF IT. I think Céline would really appreciate Sharena for who she is. Maybe there would be some bumps here and there, as Céline is assessing her -- I think, either Céline is the perceptive type (can tell if Something is off, if someone's words don't seem to match their emotions), or, that's actually a weak area for her. I know. Two complete opposite reads LMFAOOO BUT. I just don't know yet? But I am thinking about, how she is very emotionally intelligent. And I'm also thinking about, esp if it's someone she's just starting to get to know, she needs to study them. She needs information. Especially to determine how she feels about that person, measuring them up, seeing if they're someone she can be comfortable with. Sometimes, she's able to determine this quickly -- pretty much all the girls, she's quick to trust, and Alcryst, she's quick to trust as well -- I think, because she understands him almost immediately. Like, his M/O. His whole deal. He's fine, he's just haunted by endless horrors and ailments 👍 Passed the vibe check 👍 Also Jean passes the vibe check on account of being just a baby boy LMFAOO

But I think, how this relates back, is that. Maybe Céline would notice some Off things about Sharena, but not in a way that makes her seem untrustworthy or even insincere. It's a bit of a conundrum for Céline, actually. Trying to pinpoint it. But she likes Sharena, so she keeps talking to her, and makes it a goal to figure out what's going on. Eventually she does, realizing Sharena just has a rough mirroring, people pleasing and Getting a Good Grade In (insert any interpersonal interaction here) streak LMFAOOO

ALSO..... THINKING...... funny interactions between Alfonse and Alfred. Literally lowkey what happens in a few of Alfred's supports (I think it's a reoccurring thing?) where someone is up Way Too Late and Alfred. Is starting his day.

I think, on a more serious note, it would take some time for them to actually connect. Esppp bc of the opposite personalities. But Alfred is absolutely the perceptive type. He knows a lot more than he tends to let on. In a way, he has his own walls up, too. I think he'd be able to see through Alfonse very quickly, and given how Alfonse Is, just give him a little time to share way too much, be nice to him, and bam. Unintentional besties now. Alfonse head in his hands curled into himself dying in a chair "How does this keep happening" (<- GENUINELY does NOT understand How This Keeps Happening LMFAOOO)

ALSO. I SWEAR TO GOD I'M NOT MAKING THIS UP??? BUT. I THINK. IT IS CANON that Alfonse has some body image issues as well??? It's EXTREMELY obscure, I feel like it's only referenced in Kozaki's Bruno comics where it's shown that Alfonse is envious of Bruno's body type? Like. I swear to god I feel it SO strongly I'm not making this up but also I. Don't have any evidence to back this up. And also maybe I did make this up. I could be completely wrong. I could have just invented this as a core memory.

BUT. As obscure as it is, that could be an interesting thing to explore. ESPPP given. How. Alfred's whole deal is, a desire for strength and to have that strength SHOW, on a physical level, to prove he's all better now and that he can live a long life. And, how. Alfonse himself doesn't seem to be able to put on muscle beyond like, being nicely toned, but Lif. Is fairly muscular. And that. Presents an interesting... scenario.

Espppp thinking about like. When Sharena was telling him about the endless possibilities for all kinds of different Alfreds in all kinds of different worlds, maybe there IS one who's buff as hell. Have you considered selling your soul to The Devil from The Bible and getting yassified in the process? It would solve! At least two problems!! 😬👍

(ALSO. FOR THE RECORD I still haven't finished Engage and I'm still filling out supports, and trying to avoid spoilers 😅 So if anything is missing, or some things seem off or inaccurate, that's why!)

[elven-writing]

Pinned Post!

Here's all the information you'll need to navigate my dumpster fire of a blog! This post is pretty long, sorry!

Created: 12/03/2022

Last Updated: 02/08/2024

DNI (turned out longer than I expected, I may have over-explained. Oh well):

Bigots of any kind (bigotry towards terfs is okay because honestly fuck them.) THIS INCLUDES: Homophobia, Biphobia, Transphobia, any kind of hatred AT ALL towards ANY group within the LGBTQ+ community, Nazism, Anti-Semitism, Racism, Sexism, Ableism, Ageism, Xenophobia, Islamophobia, etc.

Any one under the age of 13. If you're under 13, you really shouldn't be on tumblr, but I can't control people's kids, so idc. If I find out you're under 13 and interacting with my blog, I will block you at bare minimum until you're 14.

NSFW blogs. While I say my blog is recommended for 16+, that does NOT mean I allow NSFW content of ANY KIND. My blog is 16+ for LANGUAGE and OCCASIONAL MATURE THEMES, not for NSFW content. (This was a lie, I'm a liar, there will be occasional hornyposts)

Assholes. I get that everyone has their own opinion, but if you start harassing me or any of my mutuals/followers, you WILL be blocked immediately. I may be a bit of an asshole sometimes, but I don't go out of my way to attack people for no reason. I will uphold everyone else around these parts to the same standards.

Trumpies/MAGAs/Far-right Conservatives. I'm all for political freedom, but I don't want any of those kinds around for safety and personal reasons. Also, refer to Bullet Point Number Four for further information on why I don't want Trumpies around here.

Religious nuts. Practice your religion however you please, I'm all for it. If you want, you can POLITELY educate me and anyone else who is okay with it about your religion. I'm taking a World Religions class and am very open to learning about other peoples' faiths. HOWEVER, if somebody says to shut up about religion, SHUT UP ABOUT RELIGION. If your only purpose is to tell people about "The Word of God" or whatever, GTFO. DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, use religion as a tool for hate, or use someone else's religion as a tool for hatred.

People who can't take a joke. I (and many others on this site) am a sarcastic sunnuvabitch, and cannot take time to account for EVERYONE'S feelings towards EVERY subject. I will do my best to use tone indicators (I forget sometimes) but do not get md if I don't. If it bothers you, leave. If I say something that offends you, let me know in my DMs and I'll work it out with you as best I can.

About me:

My name is Ozzie, I'm 18 years old, and I use He/They or E/Em pronouns. I'm still figuring out my gender identity, so I use the term transmasc for now. I'm demiromantic and bisexual. I am in a polyamorous relationship with my partners who I am absolutely enamored with and cannot shut up about. I have ADHD, MDD, and ASD. I also have uncontrollable tics (most likely caused by medications I was taking) but that doesn't really affect stuff online. I like dad jokes, animals (if you have pictures or facts about animals, I'd love to hear them!), art, music, and writing. I'm into video games like Minecraft, Pokemon, Animal Crossing, and some others I can't think of right now (mainly open-world, chill games.) My favorite movie is The Princess Bride (shut up, it's a classic) and I love horror movies.

What to expect:

I have absolutely no idea. Hope for the best, expect the worst, I guess. Seriously though, most of this blog is me saying dumb shit, me reblogging other people's art and absolutely going apeshit over how amazing it is, and me reblogging random shit I see because I have no shame. Probably a lot of Skeleton War nonsense, because fuck you, that's why. Also Goncharov. Lots of Goncharov.

Have fun suffering, my fellow losers!

-Ozzie <3