#aaaa why is she so beautiful ;w;

[noxtivagus]

i seriously love music & stories so much

[thecapricunt1616]

Balessan - (c.b. oneshot)

♡ O.S Inspo: Balessan ; Also known as: Poplar Buds, Balsam Poplar, Balm of Gilead, Mecca, Mecca Balsam, & Bechan - This Magickal herb can be used to bring forth; Love, manifestations, protection, healing, de-stressing, and assisting in healing from the loss of a loved one. Use in love sachets; carry for healing, protection, and mending a broken heart.

♡ Summary: This amazing, big brained, fabulous & wonderful request is inspired from this ask from my beautiful flower @daysofyellowroses - Thank you my love. -- In this O/S You & Carmy spend a day with his nephew at the park!

♡ W/C: 4,200

♡ Posted Date: 03/19/2024

♡ A/N: Aaaa! look at me pumpin' these one shots out like hot cakes!!! Get your requests in folks I have a long weekend ahead hahaha!! This was BEYOND fun to write, thank you so much again Rose for such an amazing request. I hope it's everything you imagined!! I lovee love love writing mushy happy Carmy, he deserves all the love in his life!! I totally see him being the pushover uncle just like this, Happy Meals & Ice Cream for daysss!!! <3

♡ Warnings for BTC: NONE!!! Well... carmy smokes a cigarette at the end? That's all hahah - ***NO USE OF Y/N - AS LITTLE PHYSICAL DESCRIP. AS POSSIBLE - READER IS CALLED 'BLOSSOM' IN THIS O/S :)***

➵ 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 ♡

Carmen had never felt true love before. He didn’t think he’d ever know what that felt like. He’d heard stories of parents meeting their newborn babies for the first time, saying that ‘it was an indescribable feeling of holding the entire world in the palm of your hands.’ And that to him, sounded like bullshit. 

It was sweet and all, but considering the way his mother and father treated he and his siblings growing up- that moment was fleeting at the very least. 

That was what he’d thought, until that is- he got the call that would change his life, forever. 

Sugar and Pete had kept the gender of their baby a secret, Carmy was very excited for them, and though Pete wasn’t his favorite person- he knew in his heart he’d be a great dad. Better then he could ever do at least, so that had eased his mind for the new blood of his family. 

Pete had called to inform him that Sugar had given birth, finally, he thought to himself. He didn’t realize that the labor process could take days. Sugar had went into the hospital on Tuesday, in the early afternoon when her water had broken- it was now 4 pm Thursday evening. It was about time for the kid to make an appearance. 

He’d made his way down to the hospital right away, no questions asked. It was Sugar after all, and after Pete had told him she wasn’t having any visitors, but had requested that he specifically come see her- he wasn’t gonna let her down. 

He’d even stopped at the 24-hour deli convenience store on the way, getting her a club sandwich that she’d been moaning about not being able to have for months - something about pregnant people not being allowed to have lunch meat? He wasn’t sure what that was about. 

When he got in the room, it was so quiet, he could hear his heart thumping in his ears. He wasn’t sure why he was nervous- it’s not like the kid was gonna have an opinion on him…yet. But still, he knew first impressions were important. He also didn’t want to fuck anything up, he wasn’t very sure how to hold a baby- he’d never held Eva when she was young, and he heard babies necks were super floppy, so he was really nervous he’d hurt them by mistake.

“Hey..” he said softly, and Sugar sits up. She looked utterly exhausted, she was pale, her hair was knotted and sweaty all stuck to her forehead, and her eyes were bloodshot from either pain or being so tired, he wasn’t sure which. 

“Bear! You came!” She said quietly, opening her arms for a hug. He walks over to her, carefully wrapping his arms around her as he wasn’t sure if her stomach would be hurting or not, and kissing her cheek lovingly. 

“Y’re amazing Sugar, you did so good, thats fuckin’ crazy- you had a baby, Sug” he tells her, rubbing her arm gently. Carmen didn’t know much about pregnancy and birth, other than what he’d learned from Sugar over the past year or so. The only thing he really knew about the birthing process was what he’d seen on TV, and the fact that birth hurt like an absolute bitch, and that there was no way around it. 

“Thank you…is that-“ she asked, picking up the bag he’d placed next to her on the bed. He smiled a bit, pulling the sandwich out. 

“Club sandwich. Don’t say I never listen to you” he teased and she pouted, tears filling her eyes and she pulled him into another hug. 

“Y’re the best Bear.” She said. “Sorry…I’m gonna be hormonal for like..another year” she laughed a bit. 

He chuckled softly, rubbing her back. “I’m used to it by now.” He teased. 

The door opened, and a nurse wheeled in a bundle of white striped blankets in to the room, lying in a bassinet. 

“Oh! Uncle is here! Okay so baby did great, they’re all set. We got all the bloodwork we needed, took their k shot, everything is looking wonderful. I’ll let you get acquainted” she said, being sure not to give away the baby’s name or gender before they were ready, leaving the little bundle next to Sugars bedside before heading out and closing the door quietly behind her. 

The baby coos, making sweet adorable little noises. Carmen took the bag of food for Sugar, placing it on her bedside table as she carefully picked up her baby, cradling them in her arms. 

Carmen was in awe. Everything about them was so…tiny. So pure, so untouched by the world. He carefully nudged the blanket down so he could get a better view of their face, the babies teeny little hand peeking out. He couldn’t help the small gasp that escaped his lips as the babe curled their whole hand around his forefinger. 

“Sug” he whispered, tears pooling in his eyes and falling to his cheeks before he could try and hold them back. “Oh god…” he said softly, stroking the baby's tiny fingers with his thumb. 

“Michael Anthony Lombardi” she said softly. He looks up at her, jaw dropped. 

It was totally something sugar would do, so sentimental. Naming her first son after her 2 brothers. But now, Carmen felt even more attached to the little guy. He was carrying his name- he had to take care of him, protect him, the same way Michael had done for him. 

Carmen sniffles, kissing her head and resting his cheek on top of it as he looks down at the beautiful little baby. Well- maybe not beautiful physically- yet. Carmen always thought brand new babies looked fairly weird, of course he’d never tell Sugar that, though. 

But, beautiful in the sense that he knew what this baby meant for them, for their family. It was a brand new beginning, and maybe- just maybe…this would be enough to get his mother to clean up her act enough to be the grandmother for this baby how she couldn’t be a mother to he and his siblings.  “Nice to meet you, Mikey” he said with the kind of smile that made his eyes crinkle, vision blurry with tears.

It had been about 6 months since you and Carm had met, and one of the things you loved about him was what an active, engaged uncle he was with his little nephew, Michael. 

He’d grown plenty now since the first time he and the little cub met, being ‘a whole hand and a thumb’ as Mikey proudly told you the time you’d met the little firecracker at the first family dinner you’d attended. 

That little boy was Carmy’s sun, moon, and all of his stars. He was constantly spoiling him with new toys, clothes, taking him out for “Mikey and Bear” days, the kid was the lockscreen on his phone for crying out loud. If you weren’t dating him, with the way he talks about that boy- you’d think he was a single dad. 

Sugar very much appreciated it though, she never wanted to stop working when she’d gotten pregnant, so being able to balance four different days off with 3 adults, rather than just split the duties between her and Pete- it helped their lives as a couple run a lot smoother overall. 

It took a while for Carmy to even introduce you to Mikey. He’d been nervous, reverting to his old ways of ‘waiting for the other shoe to drop’ and nothing would crush him more, then introducing his favorite little guy to someone, getting him used to them, and then them leaving him.

He could handle that rejection- but he damn sure wasn’t gonna subject Mikey to that same pain. If there was one thing Carmen swore, it was to protect the child with everything he had. 

This was the third time you’d be meeting Mikey. Carmy had asked if you wanted to take him to the park together for a picnic after he’d picked him up from school, and of course you agreed. There was no better way to spend the afternoon than sharing snacks with your Bear under the shade of oak trees from the late spring sun, and chasing around Sugars mini-me until he clonked out on the blanket for a nap. 

When you’d arrived to the park to meet them, you spotted Carm’s large black blanket with his backpack and 2 matching big and small Nalgene water bottles, adorned with stickers from different water parks and amusement parks they’d been to together, but he nor Mikey were nowhere to be seen. But you couldn’t miss them with how loud Mikey was being. 

“No! No! I call foul!!” Carm laughed boisterously. You continue on, seeing them come in to view past the blockade of a large tree- to find Carmy rolling in the grass as Mikey tackled him for the football he was holding. 

“The Cub takes down The Bear at the 20 yard lineee!!” Mikey shouts ferociously, jumping up and pouncing on Carmys chest in a bodyslam. 

Carm groans, “Ohhh you little cheater- when did we start wrestling?! They don’t do bodyslams in football, kid” he wraps his arms around Mikey, caging him in and tickling his sides, causing him to squeal and laugh wildly.

“Wow! Uncle Bear has been lacking at the gym, thanks for takin’ care of my light stuff Mikey” you said teasingly with a big smile. 

Mikey quickly got up, running over to you “Blossom!!!” he squealed, crashing into your waist, nearly knocking you over in the process. Blossom had become your nickname in the family, since the first time they’d met you, Carm insisted you’d smelt like cherry blossoms, to which Sugar and Richie agreed, so from then on- you were Blossom. 

“Woah! Kid you’re getting strong huh? Peewee football training been gettin intense?” You give him a big hug. 

Carm chuckled, getting up and dusting the grass and leaves from his hair and shirt, coming over and greeting you with a peck on the lips. “Tell me ‘bout it- Thanks for meeting me, kids got crazy energy today.” He said, ruffling the boys curly soft brown hair lovingly. 

“Nowww can we eat our lunch?” Mikey looked up at him, his pretty blue eyes sparkling in the afternoon light. He really did look like Mikey, and Carmy mixed together in the best way. The Berzatto family genes were mighty strong, at least on the men’s side. 

“Yes Cub. Y’know…you scammed me into a happy meal before we got here, how can you be so starved?” He teased, causing you to giggle. 

“Again? Wow Carm, you’re going softer and softer as the days go by” you teased, sitting down with he and Mikey on the comfortable blanket under the shade of the trees.

“Well it’s hard to tell him no. Did you know he got a 100% on his spelling test t’day? Mikey, tell Blossom how to spell ‘water’ ” he told him with a grin. 

Mikey looks over proudly “w-a-t…” he stops for a moment, looking at Carmy nervously. 

“You got it bud, keep goin’- sound it out, what’s next?” Carmy encourages gently. 

“E! It's E! w-a-t-e-r!” Mikey finishes proudly and you both clap for him excitedly. 

“Oh my goodness! You are such a smart boy. Good job Mikey!” You gush, giving him a high five. 

“That’s right the smartest. First spelling test of the year, and you nailed it bud!!” Carmy praised, hugging him and kissing his head sweetly. 

“Mommy’s gonna be so excited!” He said, sitting crisscross as he opened up his pb&j Carm packed for him. 

“She’s gonna be stoked, Cub. Absolutely stoked” you told him, taking the sandwich Carm had offered you. 

“Oh! Blossom I learned a new joke- listen, so you say who’s there when I say ‘knock knock’ got it?” Mikey asks and you nod with a smile. 

“Alright, thank you for my lines ahead of time, Cub” you joked, earning a chuckle out of Carmen who had surely heard this joke one million times since he’d learned it, considering he saw the kid no less then 5 days a week. 

“Knock knock!” Mikey said, looking at you expectantly. 

“I’m doing the dishes” you said, causing Mikey to burst into adorable giggles and Carm to follow suit since he couldn’t help himself when Mikey got started. 

“Nooo! Blossom!” He giggled “you say ‘who’s there’ this time, ok?” He said and you nod. 

“Okay, okay. I’ll make sure to be not so busy this time.” You teased with a giggle. 

“Knock knooock!” He said again. 

“Hold on just a second! I need to feed mister mittens- my cat!” You said and he laughs again, shaking his head. 

“You promised! Blossom! It’s ‘who’s there!’ “ he giggled. 

“Okayyy! Okay! Whoooos there?” You oblige. 

“Harry!!!” He said happily, popping a grape in his mouth. 

“I don’t know a Harry- so scram!” You teased and he laughed so hard he snorted, causing you and Carmy to crack up in a fit of laughs together. 

“You’re bad at jokes Blossom, here watch, Bear will do it right f’me. Bear, knock knock” he looks over at Carm. 

“Who’s there, Cub?” He said, taking a bite of his own sandwich. 

“Harry” he smiled big, “listen blossom” Mikey urges, causing you to giggle. 

“Harry who” Carm said with a large grin.  “Harry up and open the door it’s raining out here!!!” Mikey said, bursting in to a fit of giggles which of course caused you and Carm to join.

“Ready or not here I come!” You hear Carmy say. You hold your finger to your lips, holding Mikey tightly in your lap in the tube slide so you both won’t fall and give up your ingenious hiding spot the two of you had come up with.

“Shhh! We gotta be quiet Cub or he’s gonna find us- the bear will eat you!” you joked and he covered his mouth quickly to contain his giggles.

“Where are youuuu!” Carmy called from the other side of the playground, you giggled quietly to yourself. 

“We picked a good spot bud!” you whisper proudly and he nods, hugging your arm sweetly. Leg suddenly cramps up from being in such an awkward position in a tube meant for children much shorter then you, and you gasp quietly, moving your foot to relieve it but in the struggle- your flip-flop slips off, sliding down the tube slide and you hear it thump on the ground below, blowing up your hiding spot. 

You and Mikey look at eachother as you hear Carm laugh, “Ohhhh! Dead!! You’re both dead!” he said and you quickly lift Mikey behind you. 

“Go Mikey! Save yourself he’s gonna eat you!!!” you laugh and he scrambles out of the tube as Carm climbs up from the bottom, grabbing your bare foot.

You squeal in laughter as he pulls you down the slide by your feet, catching you at the bottom and kissing all over your face and neck, nibbling as he goes. “You’ve been caught” he growls playfully, pinning your arms above your head and kissing where your shirt rode up over your stomach leaving playful lovebites on your hips.

“Hey!” Mikey yells, running up and hugging Carms leg, hanging on it like a little monkey. “Thats my best friend! Leave her alone you big grizzly bear!” he yells through his giggles, playfully hitting Carmys leg.

“Ohhhh you’re dead Cub, dead meat buddy” he pulled away from you, scooping Mikey up and swinging him around. “Y’think y’can just beat up y’re best uncle mm little man?” he holds him upside down by his legs holding him carefully and dangling him in front of your face causing him to laugh wildly. “I present your savior Blossom, he’s been defeated” he sways him teasingly causing him to laugh more.

  “Oh noooo! Cub! The Bear got you! I forgot to tell you….he and I were working together in secret- mwahaha!!” you laugh evilly, tickling his exposed belly and he wiggles screeching in laughter.

“Not fair- Not fair!!!” he said between giggles. Carm carefully laid him on your lap so he wouldn’t get sick from being upside down and checks his watch for the time.

“Alright- we got 15 minutes, do we want swings, slide, or playing a game?” Carmy asked, causing Mikey to whine. 

“Noooo! Bear! It’s not time yet!!! It’s not even dark” he pouted, pointing at the sun, causing Carm to smile. 

“Y’re right, its not dark, but bein’ a big man in kindergarten means you got big man responsibilities now, like goin’ home and doin’ homework w’Dad yeah? He’s gonna be waitin’ on you, Dad’s not a man I can reason with m’friend, Higher rank on the totem” he ruffled his hair. 

“Fiiiine” Mikey grumbled. “I wanna do swings, race me-” he jumps up from your lap, sprinting towards the swingset.

“Wha- hey! You’re supposed to say 1,2,3, go! Those are the rules cheater!” Carmy laughs as he jogs after him. You slipped on your flipflop, going after the two boys.

“I beat you! See Blossom my new shoes make me so fast!” Mikey called to you proudly, hopping up and sitting in the swing as Carmy finally caught up.

“I did! Super fast Mikey!” you agreed with a giggle making your way up to the swingset. 

“Oh! Oh! Blossom, let’s see who can get higher!” Mikey said happily and you oblige, sitting on the swing next to him.

“Alright, Bear- you’re the judge I guess” you smiled, starting to pump your legs.

“I’m a tough critic, I expect perfect form outta you” he teased, sitting down on the picnic table in front of the swingset as he watched. 

“I’m gonna win” Mikey said confidently, already getting a few feet higher then you had. 

You giggled, “Yeah- cause you had a head start” you counter, pumping your legs harder trying to gain more momentum.

“It’s lookin’ good for Mikey babe, keep it up kid y’re doin’ great” Carm encouraged, resting his hands behind his head and stretching his legs out as he watched. 

“Bear can I jump off and you catch me?” Mikey asked hopefully to which Carmen laughs.

“Noooo way kiddo, I’m not takin’ a trip to the ER t’night, I got work in the morning and either i’ll end up hurt, or y’mother will kill me” he said, causing you to laugh as well.

“You’re gonna break your neck kid, don’t do that at school, did that once as a kid and I broke my ankle” you giggled, gasping as your flipflop flew off once again and hit Carmen right over the top of the head, causing you and Mikey to burst out in a fit of giggles.

“Hey!” Carm said, rubbing his head jokingly with a chuckle.”Those things are proving to be a horrible choice of park footwear, baby” he snorts, setting the shoe next to him on the bench for when you got off.

“I’m sorry! My work shoes were a worse choice and these are all I had in my locker” you giggled, the wind whipping your hair as you get higher and higher in the air.

“Bear! Bear! Look how high I am!!!” Mikey said proudly to which Carm nods with a big grin.

“That’s right bud! Y’re so high right now, bet you could touch an airplane if it was flyin’ over huh?” he said, digging his phone out of his pocket to take a video. “Say hi to Mommy!” he said and Mikey laughed happily, waving at Carm.

“Hiiii Mommy! I love you!” he said sweetly with a giggle. “Am I beating Blossom? Huh Bear? Am I higher?” he said and Carm chuckled.

“Mhmm- sorry baby, I think Mikey has ya beat this time around,” he said, ending the video and slipping his phone back in his pocket.

“Well how could I beat the best huh?” you mused, stopping pumping your legs so your swing would slow. 

“I told you!” Mikey giggled, digging his heels into the woodchips to come to a hard stop and running up to Carmy, giving him a big hug. “Can we get ice cream bear?” he asked and Carm laughed, shaking his head.

“You don’t stop, huh kiddo? No ice cream, It’ll spoil y’r dinner. How ‘bout, if y’really good at school this week- When I get you on Friday, we’ll go you ‘n me yeah?” he pats his back and Mikey nods with a pout.

“Pinky promise” He holds up his pinky and Carmy hooks his own around it, kissing Mikeys hand, and Mikey kisses his. 

“See? Deal” he ruffled his brunette curls and got up, grabbing the flip flop and coming up to you, crouching down grabbing your leg and kissing down your calf causing you to giggle before he carefully put the flip flop on your foot.

“I want a piggyback!” Mikey said, jumping on Carmys back to which he caught his balance with his forearm.

“Woah! Okay! Alright piggyback it is bud but y’gotta tell me yeah? We don’t want anyone gettin’ hurt” he told him, hiking him up on his waist as he stood up, Mikey wrapping his arms around his neck securely.

“Ok I’ll tell you next time” he replied. You hopped off the swing, taking Carmy’s hand and interlacing your fingers as you walked, swinging your hands together happily. The weather was absolutely perfect today. Not a cloud in the sky, perfect humidity, 72 degrees, you were surprised there weren’t more people here at the park other than the fact it was a Wednesday afternoon.

The three of you made your way back over to the blanket, and Carmy gently sets Mikey down to fold it up and pack up his backpack with the remainder of the food we couldn’t finish. “Blossom look! Look! I can jump so high in my new shoes!” Mikey said, tugging your pants to look at him and you obliged, keeping him busy as Carm tried to get everything situated to pack into the car. 

“Alright little jumping bean, time to go home d’you wanna race to the car, or I’ll carry you?” He asked, putting on his backpack and carrying Mikeys for him.

“Race- 123go!” Mikey said quickly before taking off and you laughed. Carm shakes his head with a smile, holding your hand as you both walked after him to the car. 

The ride back was full of laughter and singing Bluey songs, of course. That was Mikey’s favorite show at the moment, and you couldn’t help but smile at the way Carmy sang with Mikey along to every word. Carmy had even gotten a little Bluey air freshener that hung on his rearview mirror, just another little piece of Mikey that hung around, alongside his carseat that permanently lived in the back, the polaroid of him, sugar, and Mikey on his dash, the many toys scattered along the backseat. It was more than clear that the little guy held his entire heart in the palms of his hands. 

“Alright buckaroo” Carmy said as he pulls into sugars driveway. Mikey unbuckles himself, flinging forward and wrapping you into a hug. 

“Bye awesome blossom, thanks for playing with me” he said sweetly. You smiled, ruffling his hair and wrapping your arms around him.

“We’ll do it again soon, bud. Be good yeah? Listen t’your momma” You told him, patting his back. Carmy got out, grabbing his bluey backpack for him, helping him out of the car and carrying him up the steps, opening up the door and heading in to drop him off.

You opened up the center console, digging out Carm’s cigarettes and a lighter, knowing he was gonna be craving one bad when he got back in the car. Sugar didn’t even have to ask, as soon as the baby was born- if he was gonna be around the baby he wasn’t smoking until after he’d left, so there was absolutely no chance of any secondhand smoke being passed on to him.

Cracking the window, you lit it, taking a drag as he shuts the door behind him and comes back to the car. You offered the cigarette between your fingers and he smiled, taking it after he buckled his seatbelt. “Have I reminded you today, how much I love you my perfect angel” He leaned in, giving you a sweet lingering kiss on the lips. 

You smiled, humming softly at the sweet gesture. “Yes- well- not in person today, but, you did text me - good morning, I love you when you went to work, so that counts” he smiled as he took a drag, backing out of the driveway carefully. 

“Well, I love you baby, What are we doin’ f’r dinner? Am I cookin’ er we goin out?” he cracks his window, ashing his cigarette before having another drag, resting his tattooed hand on your thigh, stroking gently as he drove.

“I’m in the mood for some Berzatto Family Pasta” you hum, resting your hand out the window to feel the cool kiss of the spring evening breeze.  “Family pasta it is, Blossom”

[kanene-yaaay-o-retorno]

The way that I can't stop thinking about the song Skies Forever Blue but with the eggs from qsmp...

Like, the song probably is about romance and stuff but gosh it is also about having your entire world changed because of someone, of spending your time with them knowing at every second that you're both fated to get separated, is to fight against the destiny on your own, in little ways that matter, is to enjoy and love and cry and hurt all at once and it's so beautifullll

It's just so bittersweet and magnificent and I am in a qsmp roll lately so for me it fits so well! The way that when everyone received their eggs, their sons and daughters, to take care of they weren't taking it so seriously and it was not that big of deal because, well, ya know, eggs.... but they had quests that needed to be done for them to not die and get happy and at the end when the dragon comes back there will be a huge prize for the ones that kept them safe and sound so yeah

Then they by day things get a bit more complicated than that. Day by day, they weren't simply eggs anymore, they were little companionships that followed you around and went to adventures and chatted with you and had nice ideas so suddenly you're building a reinforced room to keep them safe because they *only have two lifes* and now you realize how little that is. The room soon becomes a nice house that you both decorate together. You sing them a lullaby everytime before they go to sleep. You tell them stories. They jump and play flutes when they are happy and do their little tantrums when they're annoyed. They like to get on your nerves and leave presents and sweet words when you least expect it. You explore dungeons together. You prepare little picnics and watch the sunset everyday.

They are now your kid. They have the name you have choosen. They have a house on your heart and you mind. They are being constantly attacked by monsters that you can't defeat permanently in an island that you can't escape from. You don’t want to escape alone anymore. You have nightmares of them dying. They love you so much. There is no secrets between the two of you. You accepted that if they are spies then you would go down for them. They are family. They only have two lifes. They still jump in front of the danger to save you. You are imortal. You would do anything for them. In the end they will always be taken away.

So aaaaa! Incoherent noises! Skies forever blue!!!! Every single time I listen to that part of the song that is like "Ever since the day, we met a parcel of my mind's lost to you" I can only think about the day that Philza logged like 3am on the server to take care of Chayanne or when the players mentioned having real nightmares of their eggs getting hurt or how Forever created and built an entire system of protection so no one else would ever go thru the pain of losing their egg ever again.

Or or the part that is "Long as all the words you say are going straight to me, I'm enthralled ". I can perfectly picture Fit having flashbacks of those years he spent in that world of devastation and being brought to the reality by Ramon, his beautiful baby boy that makes his entire life worth it

I imagine Tallulah hugging and crying and showing Willbur all the letters she wrote while he was away at the part of "How you do and where you been and why you never call, say it all"

And aaaa there is so much more! Dapper and Bbh spending literal hours planning and building together and Richarlyson being a lil brat with his parents but loving them with his entire heart. Etoliess teaching Pomme how to fight and Baghera shielding her on the first day right after they met because she was in a corner scared. Vegetta and Foolish building a freaking mansion and train because Leonarda asked them for one....

And that is not even getting into how they behave w each other! Forever crying after visiting Tallulah's house, Bbh fighting in that dungeon and screaming for Richarlyson to stay back, to go home and be safe. Cellbit and Pomme always exchanging a different kind of flower when they see each other, Cellbit and Richas building a Coffe shop in homage for Bobby, Jaiden showing her secret house to Cellbit and Richas where she used to watch the sunset with Roier and Bobby. Roier and Leonarda getting into siblings fights. Foolish always teasing all the eggs everytime they see them. Felps pretending to be Richas and Richas pretending to be him. Philza protecting all the eggs that were left in his care when their parents went to explore the train. Baghera calling Bbh "bebbou" and making a room for Pomme in Cellbit's castle. Pac and Mike creating an entire room for hide and seek. Max and bbh creating more and more theories about how to escape from the island and destroy the federation. Chayanne being so protective of Tallulah. Dapper showing all his siblings how to build things they needed to complete his quests. Quackity calling Richas "mi hijo" and being sweet and spending time w him and saying "I love you more than the 1% of the parenthood I have over u". Dapper and bbh singing Happy Birthday for the eggs that have gone away. Everyone giving armor and everything else to Slime/Gegg so he wouldn’t be alone an unprotected. Baghera making an entire lullaby just for Pomme and each of them scheduling playdates w each other....

Every single time they call them MY son MI HIJA, MEU filho (idk how u say that in french :( ) like really??? That what you've all decided to do today?? To make me cry???

I just have a lot of feelings about qsmp man

[pinayelf]

I LOVE YOUR INQUISITOR 💖🌸🎀 SHES SO BEAUTIFUL??

Fr tho why are DA elves built like skeletons otherwise 💀

AAAA THANK YOU 🥺❤️!!! it means so much to hear

I KNOW. I wish there was more body diversity w elves in DA...I refuse to believe every single elf is just skinny

[gnomeantics]

AAAA MY MUM BOUGHT BE A DIGITICKET TO JANGLE BALL <33 heres the liveblog of act 1:

aa its so good to see them all performing together again!!!

HOLY SHIT TWISTED GAVE ME FUCKING GOOSEBUMPS

lauren wrapping up the show😭

THE I DONT WANNA DO THE WORK TODAY DANCE

OHH ITS CLIMATE CHANGE AS WELL

lauren is such a queen here

I LOVE HOW EVERYONES JUST GOING MAD LMAO COREY WITH THE MIC AND JAMIE IS JUST NOWHERE NEAR IM SO OBSESSED W THIS

we're gonna break the mic and its gonna be a Problem!

you werent even IN this show!

AAAAAAAA JAMIE!!!!!

this would be such a beautiful song if it weren't literally about shit

JOEYS GONE BEAST MODE

my lips are- my LIMBS are going weak. not my lips

OH MY GOD JAMIE AND JAIME SINGING TOGETHER <3333

i wonder whos going to be lex

did you know if you spend money your kids will love you maybe <3

oh there is no lex–

SLAY COREY

ITS INSANITYYYYYY

OHH UVE WATCHED THE CLIPS OF JAY SINGNING STUTTER TOO MANY TIMES IS THIS IS

YESSSSSSSSS

I GASPED

IVE SEEN CLIPS OF HALF OF THIS SO MANY TIMES IVE VEEEN REWATCHING THEM SO MUCH SHES AMAZINGGGGGGG

SHE SHOULD BE FAMOUS I FUCKING LOVE HER OH MY GODDDDD

AAAA RUN AWAY WIHH TH ME

THATS LIKE ONE OG THE ABSOLUTE SONGS EVER WVER EVER

HOLY SHIT THIS VERSION >>>>>>>>> THE BACKING MUSIC AAAAAAAAAAAA

AKSJDJDJF AJ THIS IS SO FUNNY

The Gilderoy Lockhard Singers(tm)

why dud i mever realise that lyric was banal?

aj wrapping up the show😭

KIM AS ONE OF THE BARISTAS

JOEYS RUN AKSJDJDJFH

THE WIGGLY JINGLE AAAAAA

THE TRANSITION INTO THE GOLDEN RULE THIS IS SO SO GOOD

the flossing??😭 i love them so much

IS SHE GONNA DO QUEEN B

AAAAAA YESSSS

oh ny god getting to see her move around the stage while doing it makes it so mych better

it is the most wonderful time of the year. which means it is time..... TO DIEEEE

YEAH WE'RE A CULT NOW BABEY

jaime wrapping up the show😭

SHOW STOPPIN NUMBER?

spotlight on mr ingenue (fight ensues)

OHH ITS THAT CHRISTMAS VERSION OF STATUS QUO

now maybe im just not american but i love the implication that santa is responsible for making it snow

oh joey sing let it go for your elves cmon

SANTA CLAUS IS GOING TO HIGH SCHOOL TO THE TUNE OF I WANNA BE THIS IS AMAZING

the real villain is capitalism.... vhscc 2021 preshow vibes

[tobias-fell]

I wanna hear your rant on Hanne (I haven't read that book) (also only if you want to)

i am ABSOLUTELY willing to talk about Hanne

SO

there is no way that Hanne is a cisgender woman. i see people who read both books going "aw isn't it great that Nina and Hanne are such an awesome wlw couple <3" and like whatever ig i'll Respect Your Interpretation but you've got to be kidding. you've got to be

Hanne talks about how the only time they feel like themself is when they tailor themself to look like a man. they talk about how they don't fit in among women, how they feel comfortable in a man's body more than they ever did in a woman's one, how they hate how they look even when they're objectively a "beautiful woman", how they want a new name because "Hanne" just isn't theirs (this is why i also like to call them Ilya; that's the last name they considered, tho they have no canon new name), how they're truly comfortable and GLAD that they're going to spend their life seen as a man, Nina refers to them as her prince in their last chapter... etc etc etc. Some people would say this is just bc Fjerda is sexist or w/e but like. imagine a ""male"" character who said this about fem things lol. That Is Not Cisgender

i'm not sure if they're nonbinary or a trans man, i alternate between both interpretations and use he/they pronouns for him, but i DO know that the whole "there is absolutely nothing trans going on here" thing that some cis fans are toting pisses me off a bit. the author said in an interview about Rule of Wolves that there was gonna be a "heavily trans coded" character and later that Hanne doesn't vibe w she/her.

anyway OTHER THINGS ABOUT HIM !!! Hanne is just,,, aaaa i have a lot of feelings about what he means for Nina. I don't want to spoil Crooked Kingdom for anyone following my blog who may be reading it, but Shit Happens and i'm so glad that the King of Scars duology brings Hanne into Nina's life. He's an important part of letting Nina realize that no, Matthias wasn't an exception, and yes, though she can always and forever be angry, her anger should not be directed at the Fjerdan people; it should be directed at those who are feeding the insistence that Grisha (witches/magicians basically) are evil. Hanne's place in Nina's world helps prove to her that the Fjerdans can be good. Nina deserves a light like Hanne in her life and Hanne deserves someone who cares about him exactly as he is

[chomperzzzz]

AAAAAAHHRFR THE FIRST EPISODE?!??!

CHEWING, SCREAMING, SPINNING IN A CIRCLE

WOW. Okay,,,. can we please please PLEASE talk about the first episode because. AAAA

SO. here are some of my like IMMEDIATE thoughts

WOWOWO Teeth!!!!! Oh my GOD (gods?!?!?!)!!!! obsessed. actually so fucking obsessed. I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS

WHY IS TEETH'S HOUSE A MUSEUM?!??! clearly they aren't like a celebrity (well at least not a LIKED celebrity akjdshadj) but they're also like clearly VERY well known. Apparently they've committed every single crime ever?? I mean iconic tbh but why a museum?? DId people think they died?? were they EXILED?? so many questions hhrngnh

AS LONG AS WE'RE TLAKING ABOUT TEETH did anyone notice Olive exists as a STORYBOOK in Teeth's reality?? HUH?? THat can happen? AND MARIS LOOKED LIKE TEETH'S ""EXALTED" (spelling??) WHAT'S UP WITH THAT? How are the "realities" connected??? What connects them?

OKay also on that subject -- that biography Teeth picked up i -- aksdhasj WHO IS THAT ON THE FRONT COVER??? pic included for ref btw vv

SO WHO IS THAT?? I mean that's clearly Teeth's hand??! It's clearly some sort of scandalous affair i mean but if Teeth is accused of EVERY CRIME then why is this one such a big deal?? Was the person their relative?? Friend?? LOVER?? A celebrity?? (i mean w those boots we can see outlined..,,,,, slay tbH??? in multiple ways??)

5. Teeth wrote SPECIFICALLY "they're lying to you"... THEY?? I assume that means Teeth isn't guilty of ALL of those crimes (hopefully??) but is they the govt?? A group of critics?? evil people?????!?! what the FUCK /pos

6. ALSO worth mentioning i mean this house clearly had a lot of people living in it... you can see the wedding clothes, childhood objects etc etc -- where is everyone else?? were they kicked out/??? did they leave willingly??????? AHSDJASDKSJADHKDHHHHHH I NEED TO KNOW MORE

7. OKAY SPEAKING OF OLIVE -- omg i'm so obsessed w her hhrnrhghr talking to snails is the gender of the day folx

8. so Teeth has Olive's storybook -- how far does it go???! do they know everything that's going to transpire?? stuff that's already happened?? frothing at the mouth /so so pos

9. OLIVE JUMPS THE WALL BAD BITCH but what's the deal with the wall?? WHERE IS SHE GOING WHY IS SHE GOING TOWARDS WATER WATER IS OBVIOUSLY AN ISSUE HERE QUEEN STOP NOOO

10. WHY is grey green dude ("Scholar"??? i think i'm starting to get a hang of this) following her?? OLIVE WHAT DID U DO GET BACK HERE!!! I'm also starting to get the vibe each "reality" has v v v v different pantheon members bcz this dude is so crazy

11. OKAY NOW 42 -- omg. WOW. the vibes holy SHIT my smol bean <3 sinnamon roll <3 <3 <3

12. SEE IT'S GREY GREEN GUY AGAIN BUT HIS VIBES ARE SO DIFF?? okay so like. he's clearly 42's boss but their relationship is kinda wack bc WHY IS "BOATMAN" STEPPING IN?? does this mean 42 is like their warlock now or something?????

13. WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH 53?? he did NOT look happy to see 42 omg omg does 42 have a reputation?? or is there just beef between them in particular????? AAAAaaa i can't evennnnnnfjsdj

14. 42 looked HAPPY to see signs of "traveler".... *eyes emoji* bc what is THEIR relationship???

15. DARLINGWHATISINTHATTRUNK??!?!

16. Okay Darling is aligned w BLUE GUY (exalted again!!) this is so interesting omg i wouldn't have expected that?? like pink person is beauty and high achieving stuff so that's super interesting

17. NOTABLE ABOUT THE DARLING STUFF -- so Darling is like WORKING with the pantheon??? she's also like the only non-pantheon person we see -- HOW DID SHE GET HERE WHAT DID SHE DO TO GET HERE??? like everyone else is either MEGA separated in power or they're all chill but she is like THE ONLY NON-GOD??! tf

18. why do I stan Donny tho I --

19. MARIS??! MILF ALERT????? LITERALLY CW: MILFS AAAAAAAAAAAAA I AM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH

20. MARIS IS ACTUALLY LIKE FIGHTING THE GODS. HOLY SHIT okay so clearly there's gonna be some ~conflict~ here bc WHAT!

21. maris is tatted too...... omg... ANYWAYS

22. okay so who tf is Maris afraid of??? like she squared up w stone guy and seems to have fought krackens so WHO SCARES MARIS??? I'm scared hold me,,,,,,

23. TUCKER HAS MY WHOLE HEART IMMEDAITELy

24. KYYYYYYYYYLE okay so this is SUPER interesting Tucker is literally just CHILL w the pantheon like?? they're not gods or anything they're just dudes??

25. ALSO tucker is like totally fucking w the pantheon!! why are there no consequences here??? it seems like this place like. doesn't have any laws?? okay why is this place so idyllic and perfect for everyone except for tucker??? NO OFFENSE QUEEN I LITERALLY LOVE U BUT PLS SEEK THERAPY

26. WHY IS THERE ONLY ONE GRAVE HEY UH WHAT

27. FOLLOW-UP QUESTION??? WHOSE GRAVE IS IT????? BC UHHHH TUCKER IS BRINGING THE GRAVE FLOWERS AND AHHH TUCKER MY SWEET PRECIOUS BLORBO ALSO WHY THE *FUCK* DOES THE GRAVE SAY "I'M SORRY"??? WHO'S SORRY????

28. all i can say after that is. omg. why did Telos take all of them????? why these people??

29. also shoutout TELOS bc omg <3 my sweet summer child ASLKJDjsdklja why is he so baby

30. WHY ARE THEY ALL AT TELOS' HOUSE WHERE IS TELOS' HOUSE WHAT'S GOING ON W ALL OF THEIR REALITIES

FUKCKJDJKSHC okay this is going to be my whole personality for LITERALLY forever now I'm screaming crying scratching

it also must be said... the shipping potential here is >>> heheheheee but that will have to be it's own post

okayokayokay i just needed to get that out of my system hrfshnasd LOVE YOU ALL KTHXBAI

[zooone]

mutual love!!!! inspired by @gaytoadwithapopcicle (anon love will come tomorrow,,, ,.,,.,.,.,, im tirired)

@lyssys - oh my goodness where do i even begin. um. the whole reason why im even here???? the whole reason why i love logging onto tumblr?????? the whole reason that im inspired????? uh. hello??? literally greatest person ever. ive said this before but they remind me of mumza and niki... as caring and sweet and open as mumza and as beautiful and empowering as niki!!! the best of the best... huge inspiration for me,,, and im lowkey still shocked that she was my first mutual and she (wonderful amazing beautiful lyss) asked me (rambling bozo) to be moots! but nonetheless it was absolutely amazing ofc!! i worship them soso much. deserves the world <33

@sardonic-the-writer - insanely similar to lyss'- where do i even begin. i used to literally freak out to your amazing writing. again, v v surprised that they (absolutely cool, insanely talented sardonic) asked me (someone who used to reel over their work and inhale it like air) to be mutuals!!! aaa i remember when they first asked,,, i recently hit 100 nd was playing guitar when i saw them ask to be moots! i had to put my instrument down so i caan get up and jump w joy :)) but anywho very very talented! and accepting as well, i dunno how they were able to withstand me and lyss spamming them w scrunkbut /affectionate. also the whole reason i have like half of my mutuals :DD couldnt have done it w/o u man :)

@gaytoadwithapopcicle - MY MANNN!!1!!!!! my pal my guy my brotherein my homeslicicle my bro...... another instance in which i got rlly happy when they asked to be moots!!! like okqoabajwjsjwmwnwbsmdm this insanely cool person wants to befriend me???!!!?!???? i was shocked, to say the least. but toad is so so so cool!!!!!!!!! im exteemely flattered to be their first mutual and i hope i made a well first impression of how it feels to have a moot!! but v v v kind and sweet and respectful!! i feel v safe and welcome in their dms and theyre the coolest absolutely

@harbingerofheartbreak - yet another moment that i was shocked when she asked to be moots (man, i really am a fuckin loser, huh? /pos) honestly one of the most, if not the most, talented writer i know. the grammar they use is immaculate whilst also being still comprehensive,,, the way they show emotion is picture perfect,,,,,, and to say that way she writes stories to flow so well it blows me away is an understatement!!!! if they released a book id be the first to buy /hj,,, but aside from their amazing talent, they're also so so so sweet too! v supportive of others work, and wont hesitate to be the sweetest ever!!! aaaa i love em sm :)) <33 /p

@gh0st-b0ys - a huge issue i have w myself is that i often think im too annoying, by ghostly never made me feel like that. id post something absolutely idiotic, and still get happy when they would like it!! didnt matter what it was, as long as i get a like from them, everything is alright :)),,,, also they said that they idolized me?!?2!1?1?1??1?!3?1!!?2! wtf!?2!?!????????!1!1?! /pos waaa i cant express into words how happy that made me feel.... i idolize people all the time and to know that someone is like that towards me makes it sm easier to get out of bed. and even tho we havent had a lotta interaction between each other,,, i just wanna let em know that theyre insanely cool :Dd

@pebblebrainlovejoy - proud to say i watched them grow 💪💪💪💪 i feel like a proud older sibling whenever i see their blog. i remember seeing one of their newer works (cant remember what it was but at the time it only had like 2 notes) and i thought "this is actually amazing,, this persons gonna blow up, i swear." and they did!!!! and im so so so proud of them!!!!!1!!1 honestly, i love seeing their blog on my dash and it makes me the happiest whenever i do. absolutrly amazing writer as well!!! i respect them not only as a mutual vut as a writer definitely. cant even describe how happy their work makes me,.,,, like its amazing,, i would recommend it a thousand percent to people absolutely <33

[lex-n-weegie]

ACCIDENTAL KISS WIRH BLUE BURB BOY PLEASE?! Sorry, I am so hype to read your drabbles. I need some cuteness in my life today. /gen. ~@nikkzships

Oh ho HO sounds like a fun creative challenge 👀 (also that means so much aaaa ty sm 😭)

Kissed

7. accidental

The day was bright and shining, birds were singing and flowers were blooming. A small monster girl with a mushroom cap was practically floating down the sidewalk. Noelle, the sweet girl she is, helped organize a little hangout between her, Palette, and Berdly. Noelle even said she'd run a little "late" to give them some alone time. Palette nearly hugged the life out of her!

It was down by the river, and they all were supposed to bring their Swatches to play some multiplayer games. Palette had a small bag, said Swatch inside along with some of her games. They looked up at the beautiful trees and clouds, a big ol dopey smile on her face. Today was going to be fantastic!

She finally made it to the river, the nerdy blue bird himself already sitting near the edge and watching the water.

"Berdly! Hi!" She called out, catching his attention.

"Ah, my pal, nice to see that you you've arrived!" Berdly smiled, smug as usual. The little mushroom quickly jogged over and placed her bag a safe distance from the lake before sitting semi close to him. "Noelle informed me that she'll sadly be late, but luckily I am here to entertain." He proudly boasted, hand on his chest. She giggled a bit, something that briefly made his heart skip a beat.

"Well, I'm happy to send time with you." She smiled, slight blush creeping up on her cheeks. Well, that was some slight unexpected kindness. Berdly quickly shook the weird feeling off and grabbed his own bag.

"And you'll be even more happy once you see what I have riiiight here!" He brought out a video game with a flashy cover, making Palette gasp.

"You got HareWare Switch it up?!" Her eyes sparkled as she flapped her hands, stimming in excitement.

"Yup! Good grades continue to reward you." His smug smile grew, glad he could insert his smartness in the conversation.

"Yeah they do!" She scooted up closer. "Can I watch you play? Just for a bit?" She begged. Berdly thought about it for a moment, he didn't particularly like the idea of leaving Noelle out. But her big grin and shining eyes...how could he say no to them?

"Why of course! I might even be generous enough to give you a turn." She clapped happily, making a cute squealing noise. A genuine smile took over his face, until the smug look he tended to have. He took out the game from it's case and put it in his Swatch, Palette scooting even closer until their sides were touching. The bird's feathers fluffed up, but he lightly shook it off before finally booting up the videogame.

A good couple minutes has passed, neither of them really knew how long. Palette was just enamored, watching the game intently while Berdly focused on doing his best, aiming to impress. Between the sounds from the videogame, the splashing river, and the occasional gust of wind on the warm day, it was very, very calming.

So was his heart beating so fast?!

Accidentally, he had lost his last life, the level ending.

"Aw, you were so close too!" Palette pouted, looking up at the bird.

"W-well it won't be hard to get back where I was-" Berdly had turned to face Palette, unknowingly closer than intended.

His beak was now right against her lips. Not exactly a kiss, but oh my god their lips were still touching holy crap holy crap-

They both immediately flew back onto the grass as if physically shocked, bright red blush overtaking both their faces.

"D-did we just?!" Palette's face covered her cheeks.

"Uh, Maybe?! I don't know?!?!" His feathered hands gently touched his beak, his heart now so loud he could practically hear it in his ears.

"I-I'm so sorry!! I didn't mean- Oh gosh no I-"

"You're fine you're fine! You're okay it was fine! I-I mean-!" Crap, words were failing him now. Curses!

"Sorry for being late, I'm here!" Noelle called out, smiling for a moment before she noticed both of her friends, red faced and wide eyed.

"Uh...Did I miss something?"

[rrxnjun]

BEST MOTIVATION!!🥳 i'm glad u are handling things better!! LMAO THE JIHOON BRAINROT HIT U HARD but tbh i'm very good with him being the main character lmao and aaa thank u for telling me!! hope u manage to set it up🥹

aaa those are amazing🤌 i wish i was a proper kpop stan just to experience them fully💔 aa only listen to them when u have the time and u are in the mood for it!!! i will be here if u want to give a review about them later and not immediately!! it's so hard to get it right f with kpop songs for no reason😭 my friend still surprises me to this day with what kind of songs she likes and i know her music taste very well but some how i still manage to mess it up😭 TBH I WOULD BE DOWN FOR SONG RECOMMENDATIONS FROM CIX CUZ I NEVER LISTENED TO THEM!! the boyz english line is just too funny imo😭

OMG GOOD JOB!!!🥳🥳 GO OFF STEM GIRLIE!!! oh my lord i'm not surprised then that it's very difficult😭 u are very smart for even just getting into it!!! i will probably take it very badly cuz i already have issues in high school so whatever🥱 buuut i'm sure i will get through it somehow lmao if i even get in😙✌️ aaaa thank uuu so much i really appreciate u and love talking with u!!🥹🥹💕💓💓 (liebestraum anon💞💖)

girl im struggling. tried creating the side blog but i for the love of god cant come up with a proper url 😭😭😭😭 why did i choose a bias w the most unurlable name ffs everything looks terrible. i also havent been writing as much lately i think im having writers block which is really :// so lets pray it goes away soon

i added all the songs u recommended into a seperate playlist and tried listening to them the other day but then i got unreasonably angry at something so i just switched to my angry playlist 😃👍 howEVER i managed to get through the thrill ride ep and so far the title track was my fav,, i didnt find myself drawn to the other songs but that might honestly be bc of my shitty mood that day so im gonna give it a relisten and then gather my thoughts 😌😌 kpop is so diverse and so different than anything else so getting the songs right is always so difficult AHAHA

CIX RECS SAY LESS i actually havent heard their whole discography yet so take it as u will but. u might know movie star, numb or jungle (both of which fucking slap to this day,, their songs age like fine wine) oR cinema thats one of my favs from them!!!! their whole debut ep is very good but esp. like it that way and what you wanted are SOSOSO good oh lord. also 458 and without you (istg that song is one of the most beautiful kpop songs imo) are very very good 😌 hope u like at least some SJSJDKSK let me know if u do (no pressure to listen to any of these tho!!)

good luck w getting into uni im sure u can get in!! 😌😌 hs unfortunately cant prepare u for the shift (at least in slovakia) so it will definitely be something u need to get used to but trust me at uni nobody rlly cares abt grades anymore 😭😭 after a while u lose energy for that LMAO the only thing needed is passing 👍👍👍 rooting for you!!

it was nice hearing from you 💕 hope u have a nice weekend/the next week mwah!!

[noxtivagus]

prayers. granblue fantasy. AAAAAA RAMBLE IN TAGS I CAN'T HELP MYSELF I'M READING IT RN

[lunaekalenda]

Can you do a Levixfem reader

Where the reader “dies” In his arms on a expedition and he had to leave the body and turns out you were alive but outside the walls and the next expedition they find you. And when that get back in the walls together they get there freak on if you know what I mean😏. Thanks so much!🥰❤️

okay! i’ll try my best <3 ! i hope you like it! <3 it turned out kinda romantic aaaa

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levi x fem!reader

w: death mentions, fake death (?), slight nsfw in the end (really vanilla it's most centered on the feelings :D). No Regrets war flashbacks, some snk spoilers. mention of blood.

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“Y/N” Levi’s tears are falling from his face to your skin. Nobody has seen the captain so broken, crying in the middle of an expedition, hugged to your body. He caresses your skin. “Love, please, wake up...” he asks in a whisper, his voice breaking while he keeps crying. “Please.”

Levi feels Erwin’s hand on his shoulder, calling him. “Levi, we have to go!” Erwin says. Levi can’t take his eyes away from your beautiful face, how your closed eyes are never going to shine with that love they always do. Erwin shakes his shoulder harder. “Come on, Levi!!” he yells. Levi takes your body on his arms, but Erwin stops him. “What the hell are you doing?” Levi hugs you closer, tears falling from his eyes again.

“I’m not gonna leave her behind.” He says, his husky tone serious, as if he wanted to say to Erwin that leave you behind isn’t an option. Because you’re only asleep. 

Right?

“She’s dead, Levi. Dead. Leave her. We can’t lose you because you’re carrying a body.” Erwin’s words hit him. Dead... Dead is a word Levi hates. Because it is always followed by the name of someone he loves or cares for. His mom. Isabel. Gunter. Petra. You.

“No. She’s...”

“Leave it, Levi. You don’t want more people to die, don’t you?”

That’s true. He needs to be on his full capacities to defend the trope. He looks around, to a place where he can leave your body, knowing the titans will never take it. He easily founds a tree that has a hollow trunk, with a small slot through which it can slide you inside. He leaves you there, along with a bottle of water, in case you’re still alive. He kisses your forehead. “I’ll come back for you, love. I promise.”

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You wake up inside a tree hours after. You feel dizzy and your head hurts a lot. There’s a little bottle of water near you, and, needing it, you open it fast, drinking. You can hear a man’s voice inside your head. “Drink slowly, dummy. It will make you feel worst.” You don’t know who does that voice belong to, when it sounds so familiar. You can’t also recognize the place, looking through the slot. You’re dressed in your military clothes, and you still have your swords with you. Your light brown jacket is covered in blood. You start to recover some memories. The expedition. The titan that sent you away with his hand. Levi yelling your name.

Levi. Levi.

All your thoughts were back to him. Is he okay? Why did him leave you on a tree? Did something happen to him and he decided to hide you? Maybe he hide you for a moment and never came back?

You’re feeling anxious just with the thought. It has to be a normal reason. He’s okay for sure, and he will be back as soon as possible.

“No” Erwin’s voice is clear. Levi clicks his tongue again.

“I have to go back for her...”

“Levi, there’s nothing you can do for her now.” Hange says. Even when them wanted to accompany Levi -they were sure they could capture some good titans.- They didn’t want to disobey the Commander. “We wont make another expedition just for a body. I know it hurts, but let it go.”

“Fine. I’ll go by myself.” he says, getting up. “I don’t need anyone to go to the nearest fucking tree and come back.” He leaves the office, slamming the door. Erwin sighs.

“Hange, tell the 104 Special Squad to accompany their captain.”

It was afternoon when Levi was prepared to leave, but he found his squad on the wall’s door.

“What are you all doing here? Go back training, brats.” he says, getting on his horse.

“The Commander told us to accompany you, Captain.” Jean says, adjusting his jacket.

“We’re here to help you, to bring her back inside.” Eren smiles softly. That words make Levi change his opinion. He sighs.

“Be careful and don’t leave my side, right?” They part towards the door, and they leave. The camp is quiet after the extermination of the day before. Connie looks around.

“Do you think we will find her alive?” he asks in a whisper. Levi hears that, but he ignores it. Even when he knows it’s almost impossible to find you alive. They walk silently towards the tree where he left you. He runs quickly, leaving his horse with the squad, as they keep a distance. In part, because they want to pay respect. 

Levi’s heart breaks when he sees the empty trunk. There’s nothing inside, even the bottle isn’t there. He made sure to leave you somewhere they couldn’t find, but they did anyway. They found you. They didn’t let him say goodbye to you. 

Levi kneels in front of the tree, tears running down his face again. He wants to be strong, but he can’t. He has lost you. The most important person in his life.

You drink again before putting the bottle near the river, taking more water. You stand up with difficulty and walk towards the tree slowly, giving secure steps. You’re feeling dizzy yet, but you needed to drink. You know Levi will came back for you, and that’s why you walk back to your hiding place. You see horses when you’re getting closer. Horses and brown jackets. And, when you’re just a couple steps far from them, you see him, kneeled in front of your tree.

“Levi...” you whisper. He’s alive and he’s there. He came back for you. “Levi.” you say, stronger. Jean and Eren turn around. They see you, covered in blood and pale, but alive. Jean runs towards you and he helps you to walk. “Levi.” That’s the only thing you can say. 

Levi is used to listen to his loved ones voices once they had left this world. That’s why hearing you whispering his name isn’t something new for him.

“Captain!” Instead, Eren’s voice sounds clear. “We found her!” the smile can be heard on his voice. Levi wants to kick his ass for joking in a moment like this, but he faces you when he turns around. As beautiful as always, you’re supported by Eren and Jean, and they are making sure you’re not falling. Levi stands up as fast as he can, and he hugs you. You can feel his tears on your shoulder as he feels yours on his. He caresses your hair quietly, hugging your body stronger against his. “You’re here.” he whispers. You nod, sobbing. You have missed him, you have feared for him.

“You’re okay.” you say. He answers you with a kiss on your hair.

“I’m sorry, love. They made me leave you here. I knew it was bad, but I... I.” his sobs doesn’t let him talk. You caress his back, trying to calm him.

“It’s fine.” You whisper. After a couple minutes trying to calm each other, Sasha talks.

“Why don’t we resume this beautiful moment inside the walls? I don’t want to end being wedding catering for a titan.” They all nod. Levi helps you to get on top of his horse, and he sits behind you. There, caged between his arms and feeling his heartbeat against your back, you feel safe again.

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“I’m sorry.” he says. The doctor has just left the room, saying that you only injured a little bit your leg and your head is healing well. You’re on Levi’s bed, the one you usually sleep on. He sits near you and kisses your forehead. “I’m sorry for leaving you behind.” he says. He thought that, once you knew he left your body there, you would be mad.

“We’re soldiers, Levi.” you say. “Sadly, we can’t take all the bodies with us. Sometimes we have to sacrifice for the others.” you say. You understand Erwin’s decision and Levi’s pressure. You’re soldiers, after all.

Levi combs a lock of your hair with his fingers, softly. “I was so scared... I couldn’t close an eye during the night. I only could think about you.” he says. You smile softly at him. “I was terrified.” You attract him towards your body, hugging him. “I’m sorry, love, I’m so sorry...” you try to calm him with caresses and sweet kisses in his head. “I feel like you’re an illusion, that you’re just a product of my imagination playing with me.” he says. He takes his head out of your chest. “Maybe I lost you and that’s why you’re here? To comfort me?” 

You take his hand, sneaking it into your t-shirt, placing it near your heart. His eyes shot open when he feels your pulse against his palm. “I’m here. And I’m real, Levi. I’m the Y/N you always hug. I’m the same. I’m alive.”

His lips search yours in a kiss. He wants more proofs. He wants to make sure you won't disappear when he blinks. He needs to make sure. His hand is still in your shirt, but he isn't searching more. He needs to know you want the same, that you feel good enough. He feels your hands attracting him closer, pulling by the neck of his shirt. He sighs.

Kisses and mixed breaths. He looks at you when you part for air, his chest rising fast, his hands playing with the end of the t-shirt you're wearing. His eyes looking at yours, asking for permission. You nod quietly, looking at him in the eyes, making sure he understands you want this. His hands take off your shirt, admiring every single scar on your body, every mole and every birthmark. Making sure every one of them is in the same place it was, that your body is still the same he remembers. That they are all your little details he loves to admire.

For your surprise, he leans on and kisses every one of them. Every single thing that makes your skin special. You blush at it, but he doesn't care. He's showing without words how much he adores you, how much he cares for you. The affection and love behind every kiss is overwhelming. Your hands are fast unbuttoning his white shirt. He lets the fabric slide down his shoulders once you're done. Feeling his skin against yours is one of your favorite sensations.

There aren't too many words while he keeps kissing every inch of your body, taking away the fabrics that obstacle him. You can only think of him, of how cold his skin is, how good he feels and how much you've missed him, even for just a day. Because when you didn't know how he was, it felt like whole centuries. He lets out a sigh when he gets under the sheets with you, being careful to not cause you pain, standing on his arms on top of you. He smiles, a true smile when you tangle your fingers with his. His grey eyes have a mix of a lot of feelings: love, apology, desire, happiness... they're like storms. You feel his tender touch on your thighs, guiding them. You follow his movements, obeying him.

"Take advantage because I won't be so obedient next time." you joke. He chuckes quietly, and it warms your heart. He smiles so widely after that... You feel so good just watching him. He takes a hand down, fingers probing down your body, making sure you're ready. He chuckles again when your amused expression changes after a single finger touch.

His name comes out of your mouth like a praise. When he touches you, when he buries in you, when he quietly kisses you. You mind and body has his name tattooed while he sets a pace against you, slow but intense. Levi's low praises make your body search him more desperately. When his pace starts to fail and his hips move without any patron against yours, you let out his name again.

"Say it again." he asks. Hearing your name come that easily from your lips makes it even more real. More intimate. "Please." his voice isn't more than a low whisper now, mixed with sighs. He smiles when you say his name again, pushing against you a last time. He lets his head rest on your chest, your quick heartbeat against his ears. He tries to calm his breath. "I love you. I love you so much." he says. "I'll never leave you behind."

You smile, your fingers running through his hair with tenderness. "I know. I know, Levi." you whisper. His eyes feel heavy after the nervous night he passed yesterday, so he acomodates himself by your side, his bare body near yours. You feel his lips on your shoulder.

"And thanks for always coming back for me, no matter what"

[saintobio]

"caught sleeping with his wife" this is so hilarious.. like seriously that dumb gohoe didn't explain Sera anything ?? Because of that Sera was angry at MC.. You know I have a question. I don't really understand this stupid man. He has trauma from his past right ? Why WHY he isn't doing anything about that ? Like sir (f*cking gohoe) you're rich rich so you should go to the therapy... I serious don't understand that ? I know having abusive parent is difficult and it's serious trauma but it doesn't explain his behaviour. And that's why I'm so salty about that. Aaaa stop. Because I'm going to roast him with hell flames.

And my beautiful amazing MC meet with Toji! Yes girl you show who is boss! I hope that she'll work with Toji and start her own brand 🥰 Mrs Zenin huhuhu that's was so cute (I was going uwuwuwuw). I really like their relationship. Toji want to MC gain confidence and starts doing what she likes (no doubt she has a lot of time). So it's interesting but what does she do in her free time ? Please don't say she is waiting for her husband because my level of violence towards gohoe will increase drastically.

And please tell that MC is going to doctor. I don't want her to be ill. :( Petition for MC having beautiful cat!

Next MC is interesting person. She is responsible. She know that her future child will suffer. Worse gohoe will treat child like his father him (because of abusive behaviour).

And what the hell was with their promise ? Girll you really know how to shock readers (of course in positive way)!

I'm really happy that I going your blog and stories! Please take care of yourself! ^^ (and sorry for mistakes my English is still bad but your previous comment to my message was so nice! So I decided to be not ashamed about my English, more feedback you and another writers also! )

he can’t go to therapy when he’s rejecting the idea that he has problems. this man is stubborn and he’s unable to identify whatever’s wrong w his actions bc he grew up being subjected to the same environment. he thinks it’s normal to act that way. it’s only until he started living w y/n that he feels an inexplicable change of atmosphere that’s so warm and comforting.

and y/n does sketch in her free time. lately she just isn’t finding the motivation to do so bc of everything that’s happening between her and gojo :)

[xiao-cafe]

drabble game — prompt 98

pairing: childe x gn!reader

tags: angst to fluff, childe being... a child

prompt: “you were always gold to me.”

wc: 1.4k

notes: aaaa! it’s here! the first one! sorry for keeping you guys waiting but there’s still some more prompts so go ahead and send in some requests if you’d like! ^^

As night fell, the lanterns came aglow with warmth, spilling amber light onto the streets. You were closing up Xigu Antiques for the night, making sure to lock the place up tightly lest any criminals got their hands on the priceless antiques that sat within the confines of the shop. You loved your job. But you what you liked most was the fact that it was close to the Northland Bank.

You waited by the steps right next to the shop, fidgeting with the hem of your sleeve while your hands held on tightly to the square piece of parchment that simply read:

“Wait for me tonight -- Childe.”

Your heart pounded in your chest as you reminisced the last time you had met with the Harbinger.

It was about a week ago when he stole you away during your break hour and brought you down to the harbour for a stroll and some food. His hold on your hand remained firm even as he walked you back to your workplace muttering about how you should have longer breaks.

Yet, despite the sweet and gentle kindness Childe had bestowed upon you, you had never questioned the kind of relationship you had with him. You knew of his work and how dangerous he could be, but in your eyes, he was simply someone very lonely and seeking warmth and solace within your embrace.

You were fine with that.

Maybe.

The parchment in your hand crumpled as you clenched your fist, fighting back the rising heat on your face as you fanned your face with your other hand. As much as you liked Childe’s company, you were careful to never let yourself get carried away by his charm. Or so you thought.

The sound of Childe’s laughter resonated from the top of the stairs and you whirled around instantly, excited to finally see him after a week of missing his touch and seeing those blue eyes. 

Except, he wasn’t alone.

A woman clad in the fanciest of silks held onto his arm as he led her down the steps. It was strange to see him so close with another, smiling and laughing away.

Jealousy burned in your chest and you were sorely reminded that what you had with Childe was nothing special. Unlabelled. 

Tearing your gaze away, you attempted to see past the rose-coloured lenses that you had put on during your time with Childe.

Perhaps the letter he had left you was simply baiting to get you to stay and witness as he held another in his arms. You wouldn’t be surprised for a Fatui Harbinger like him to do something of that sort.

Throwing one last scornful glare in the direction of the couple, you turned your back against them and began your trudge back home, keeping your chin held high so that none could see the tears welling in your eyes.

You let out a yelp as a hand clamped down on your wrist, stopping you from walking any further.

“What kind of idiot w-” Your words were cut off by the sight of Childe’s flushed face as he stared at you determinedly. You’d be lying if you said your heart didn’t stutter seeing how he ran all the way to catch up to you. Although he looked nowhere near out of breath at all.

“Why are you leaving?” The grip he had on your wrist loosened so you seized the chance to snatch your hand back, cradling it against your chest.

“You were with someone else so I left to give you both some time alone.” You said stiffly, averting your gaze from the Harbinger. Yellow light illuminated his face and you could see just a tiny bit of hurt on his face. Yet, it was once again replaced by his easy-going smile.

“That woman? She was just a business partner.” Childe reassured, pushing his hair back, “I thought it was something serious that got you like this.”

At his words, your heart broke even more and you retrieved the note he left you from your pocket and swiftly threw it at him. The crushed up ball of paper bounced off his chest and Childe let out a sigh as he bent down to pick it up.

“Please don’t look for me anymore,” You told him, “We were nothing and will remain nothing, alright?” As you said those words, a stray tear fell from your eye which you hastily wiped away.

“I... “

You watched as Childe struggled to continue his sentence his eyes averted from yours and you knew you had been right. You were a fool for holding out hope that he’d have feelings for you.

You narrowed your eyes at him. “Save it.” You snapped, “I don’t want to hear your excuses.”

As you continued to walk away, Childe trailed after you. He continued to call out your name even as the other people still in the streets saw and whispered amongst themselves. Nonetheless, he still followed after you unabashedly, calling your name. 

You finally turned around, prepared to shout in his face, only to come face to face with him.

Childe's deep blue eyes met yours and it was as if all the air had been knocked out of your lungs. ‘That face of his is certainly dangerous’ You thought to yourself as you dropped your gaze to the cobbled floor.

“I’m sorry,” He murmured quietly, his hot breath fanned across your lips causing a shiver to run down your spine. “We… You weren’t nothing to me at least.”

His confession struck you like lightning and you picked up your gaze from the floor to look at him properly.

You had long since entered the unlit pathways, away from the bright lights of the main street which shrouded the both of you in complete darkness save for the barest of moonlight streaming through the canopy of trees. Even now, Childe still looked as beautiful as ever. 

You didn’t know what to say so you kept your lips sealed and watched Childe with expectant eyes.

“You were always gold to me.”

Your breath hitched as Childe brought his hand up to hover at your cheek, the fabric of his gloves barely brushing your cheek as if he were afraid you’d run the moment he touched you.

“I asked you to wait for me tonight so that I could give you this.” Childe continued to speak as he produced a box from his pocket. The small and angular box sat in the palm of his hand as he waited for you to open it yourself.

With bated breath, you opened the box to see a gold pendant inlaid with a jewel of dazzling blue.

“But since you don’t wish to see me anymore, this has no use,” Childe stated, plucking the box from your hands.

“W-Wait!” You yelled, grabbing onto Childe’s arm just as he pulled his arm back ready to toss the gift into the murky depths of the sea.

“Are you crazy?” You shrieked, “How could you throw away something so precious?”

Childe laughed as he continued to try and go against the force of your hands pulling at him to stop, “Do you want it then?” He asked, glee written across his features. You weren’t sure if it was because you had his hands on him or he simply was enjoying a test of strength between the both of you.

“Yeah, so I can sell it!” You sassed just as he relaxed his arm which caused you to pull him much closer to you than before.

“Unfortunately, I stole this so you’ll be arrested if you attempt to sell it,” Childe smirked.

His body felt warm right next to yours this late into the night and you couldn’t help but feel your face grow hotter with each passing second of his eyes on you.

“Did you mean it?” You spoke tentatively as you started to let go of his arm. “Is it alright to want more?”

Your eyes widened as Childe held onto your hand, keeping it still.

“Darling, with a gift like this, of course, it’s alright to want more… Because it’s what I want as well.” He admitted. Despite how dark it was, you could tell Childe’s ears were bright red as he tried to appear more confident than shy.

“And yes, I meant every word.” He added.

“You…” Your heart was ablaze with overflowing affection and you embraced the man, wrapping your arms around him tightly.

“I hate you.” You uttered against his shirt.

Childe’s soft chuckles filled your ears as he hugged you back, sending warm tingles throughout your body. 

end.

[bailey-reaper]

I am DEEPLY! GRATEFUL! For this beautiful blog. Despite his flaws, I really do love leggy reaper a lot. May I request s/o bashfully admitting to a (somewhat perplexed) Barok that the reason they do tasks for him usually regulated to servants is because they want to be a proper spouse and take care of their beloved husband?

Etiquette

Notes: 😭💜 Aaaa I'm so touched that you think the blog is beautiful, thank you! I'm also glad that I'm not the only one who loves Mr. Leggy! He absolutely is flawed, but I don't think that means he's beyond redemption. I'd like to think that people can change and grow, if they're given the chance and have the will to do so.

By the end of the game, I believe Barok wanted to be a better person.

S/O is gender neutral (they/them pronouns). Barok refers to them using petnames.

Content Warnings: fluff; vague domestic roles (master of the house / servants)

"What are you doing, love?" of course, he could see what they were doing -- they were ironing his laundry. What he really meant was why are you doing that. It didn't particularly bother him, but it was a source of some confusion.

"Oh.." they smiled, setting the iron down so they could look at him, "I'm just... doing the ironing," it was probably something that would normally done by servants in a house like this, but it was part of married life for their parents.

"I see," he nodded, "Um... do you want to do the ironing?"

"Y-yes... is that okay?"

Barok tilted his head, "Well, yes, of course..."

And so, they continued to do the ironing.

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A few days later, when he returned home from the Old Bailey after a long day of tolerating fool jurors and moronic defence counsel, the first thing that he noted was the scent of cooking food.

Upon checking the kitchen, he found his beloved at the stove, "Love?" he drew up behind them, circling their waist with his arms as he kissed the back of their neck in a tactile greeting, "What're you cooking?"

"Ah... welcome home, darling," they answered, kissing his cheek, "Oh.. this?" they looked down at the pan, their cheeks growing warm, "I... thought I'd make dinner for you, so I was cooking some steak to go with the potatoes I'm roasting..."

"That sounds wonderful," he continued to cuddle them close, though he did quietly wonder to himself why they would be cooking in lieu of the staff -- but, he had often prepared his own meals in the past as a means of eliminating the risk of being poisoned so it didn't strike him as that odd.

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One day, while he was in his study reading, there was a knock at the door. He looked up to see a member of the staff, Agnes, looking furtive and uncomfortable at his door, "Yes, Agnes?" he said, setting the book he was reading down, "Is something the matter?"

"B...Beggin' your pardon, m'lord," she said softly, "I... um... I just wanted to ask you somethin' directly."

Barok tilted his head, "Yes? What is it?"

"Um... I hope I'm not speakin' out of turn, but, is ... there a reason why your spouse has taken to doin' most of the household chores?"

"... Hm? Oh..." he folded his arms and pondered, now that he thought about it, they had been increasingly industrious on the domestic front, "... I'm afraid I don't know, but I'll ask to see what the reason is."

"I'd be much obliged, m'lord... if there's somethin' we're doin' wrong I'd rather know so that I can do better..."

"I'm sure it's nothing like that, Agnes, but I will check..."

As promised, he sought out his beloved and found them running a bath, "Here you are," he said, as he cuddled them from behind, "What are you up to now, love?"

"Oh, just running you a bath," they answered as they twisted around in his arms so they could wrap theirs around his neck and tiptoe to catch his chin with a kiss.

"... Is... um is there a reason why you've taken to doing all this domestic work, my beloved? We... do have staff around the home who would be more than happy to help, you know?" he titled his head and looked at them with a gently inquisitive gaze.

Their cheeks grew rosy from a strong blush, "O..Oh... well, I um..." it seemed they were beginning to realise their faux pas, "... I just... wanted to do the sorts of things a happily married spouse would do, the kinds of things my mother did for my father..."

"Ah...." Barok said, "I see...." it made perfect sense, and was incredibly sweet. He kissed their forehead fondly, "Aren't you just the most adorable creature in the whole world?" they giggled, "But, love, do you know the thing I'd like most from my beloved spouse?"

"What?" they asked, with a look of genuine curiosity.

"For my spouse to spend their time with me... perhaps we could cuddle on the sofa while Agnes prepares dinner for us, hm?" his lips curved up in a rakish smile as he nuzzled his nose against their jawline, "Doesn't that sound good?"

"W-well... I certainly wouldn't say no," they said, yelping as he scooped them up.

"Wonderful, it's settled then. This evening your attention is mine and mine alone."

"But what about the bath?!"

[sunnysviolin]

aaaa im in love w/ how u write hero and mari <333 do u have any new headcannons?

Augh! These kids.....these kids...I’m emo because I’ve been looking at the art that I commissioned from @enigmaticallyartful and it’s hurting my heart and getting me in my Hero feels. I’m gonna write some stuff on Heromari and then try to get back to the bigger chapter stuff I’m working on (Not Omori sorry y’all...I’ve been neglecting my BNHA fic and I got a super nice comment on it today, so I’m gonna try to put something out for that!!) Also this is such a side note, but I have to literally go back and read my stuff now because I don’t know what I’ve talked about on here before...lmaoooo this is it

Completely inspired this by @luvbunnz art...but let’s talk homecoming headcanons. I know your art was prom fits Ro, but let’s consider :O

So I’m going off of the really sad idea that Mari died in her sophomore year, so she would never be able to go to prom. She was able to go to Homecoming though, and she went both in her Freshman and Sophomore years with Hero. 

Homecoming is a little more lowkey compared to Prom, so she and Hero aren’t concerned about like looking polished and perfect. Sophomore Homecoming Mari dresses in one of her favorite more formal black dotted sundresses, a red bow standing out in her night dark hair. Hero wears complimentary black blazer over a white button up, his sleeved bunched at his elbows. He forgets to get her a corsage, and she doesn’t care. 

So much of their lives is dedicated to perfection, the greatest gift they can give each other is to let their love be imperfect. With one another they don’t need to be the best, they just need to be there. 

Still that doesn’t deny their natural charm and pretty looks. They are probably one of the best looking couples there that night, and the effortlessness of their beauty together is both heart warming and jealousy inspiring. 

They spend the entire night dancing. They jump around, they do silly stupid line dances, and they share a few perfect slow dances that are little more than just holding one another and swaying. By this point they’re both working so hard that they almost never see each other alone. Anytime they spend together is also spent with the kids, so having this night just for them...it’s exactly what they needed. 

Rather than getting picked up from school, Hero and Mari decide to walk back home. Mari’s sensible heels are killing her after hours of dancing, so Hero carries her home on his back. Her hair spills over his shoulder as she leans down to whisper and laugh in his ear, and he doesn’t know if he ever wants this night to end. He wonders if he could just pause the world here with his girl under the stars. 

Hero makes a detour and takes them to their secret spot in the park. They sit on the dock together under the full moon and the stars and chat together for hours. Months later after he loses her, Hero tries desperately to remember what they had spoken about, but it’s all gone. They end up falling asleep at the dock, and wake up just as the sun begins to rise in a panic. They sneak into Hero’s house through the back door and quickly make a fake bed on the couch that Mari definitely slept in

Kel covers for them and says that Hero and Mari came home late last night and fell asleep. Hero was definitely in bed when he got up this morning. Hero makes him homemade lunches for a month as a thank you. 

Okay so remember when I said that Hero only watches Grave of the Fireflies alone? I lied. He watched it with Mari.  

This was in their teen years. I HC that Hero was already having like normal teenage struggles before he lost Mari. He has a lot of pressure on him, and look being 15 sucks. 0/10 would not recommend. He’s stressed, tired, everything seems to make him angry, and he can’t understand why. There are times that Hero gets exceptionally unlike himself, so they have a system that the two of them started just after they both turned 15. 

They would send Kel to have a sleepover with Sunny and they would make a nest of blankets and pillows in front of the TV in Hero’s house. She would cook dinner instead of him (usually pasta because Mari was good at baking but not super skilled at cooking) and they would take it and eat in front of the TV. 

They don’t pull out their backpacks, they don’t mention homework or school or college prep. They don’t let themselves think about all the things pressing down on them.

They usually didn’t talk a lot on those nights actually, but listening to the music and watching the movie was usually able to bring down the walls Hero built up between them. Nights like this are bad, but they’re also good because they end with his head in her lap, her fingers in his hair, and the tension finally leaving his shoulders and spine. 

((After Mari dies memories of those nights sours. Hero feels sick and selfish. Mari had been hurting so badly and he hadn’t even noticed. She had taken so many nights soothing his ridiculous dramatics, and he hadn’t even seen she needed him just as badly. Grave of the Fireflies becomes his Mari movie, and that never changes.))