#aaahhhhhhhh help

[vampire-rodeo]

Please I am NOT an “over achiever” i am an autistic dumbass who was built for running around all day and hunting. i need smth to do all day im understimulated 😭

[salosanim]

little doodles (sorry felix. where cry emoji help. - Oh i find it. anyways 😭) (im drawing ashley parks and hillary bark, i mean bakery, I MEAN barkley. and then ill draw felix art. sry 🥺🥺🥺) im listenin' odetari now yee

[sanitizarium]

SPILLED DRINK DOWN THE SLEEVE OF MY FAVOURITE JACKET

[cyclonestudios-alt]

guys help I'm supposed to turn in an essay in like 10 days and I have a call w my writing tutor today and I have almost nothing

[serintikan]

Thinking about how Isagi and Rin making out.

With Rin sitting on Isagi’s lap. Shorts and loose T-shirt, Rin’s pretty thighs exposed as an invitation for Isagi to touch it, rubbing his palm across the soft skin along with a few gentle squeezes as his other hand slipping through Rin’s shirt, stroking his flat stomach, earning a small whimper out of Rin’s mouth that rang like a tune out of a pipe, calling Isagi to do more, more, and more.

So he bit down Rin’s lip just so he could hear him moaning in pain, just so he could roam his tongue inside the warmth of Rin’s mouth as he pulled the green haired boy closer. The sound of Rin’s moan was enough to fog Isagi’s head. It felt so raw in his ears that he wanted to eat Rin whole, to make Rin his fully, with nothing of Rin was left for others because he belonged to Isagi only.

Their kisses broke for Isagi to mouth Rin’s neck. Rin couldn’t control the beat of his heart and he was gasping for air for his aching lungs. His head fell to rest on Isagi’s shoulder as if it was its home. Rin felt his body burned. Isagi’s kisses felt like a flame that suck his in, yet Rin couldn’t help but to shift closer until their below touched. Arms hanging around Isagi’s neck, his fingers ran through the back of the older’s head, a slight pull on Isagi’s hair every time he bit Rin’s nape, trailing wet kisses and gentle sucks to leave a mark, a mark to let the world know that Rin was his, and no one should ever touch him the way he did.

[reallyswimmingconnoisseur]

I have an interview for a college!!!! Omg I am freaking out. This is my first ever physical personal interview and I might just poop my pants or sob infront of the panelists 😭

[the-living-null]

So who doesn't have a decent sleep schedule.

[ghosts-post]

Yandere Farmer with a neko hybrid darling? A neko hybrid who helps with rat/mice infestation and takes daily wanders around the farm.

Okay okay I know I said I’d be writing and posting for creep yan next but he’s taking me a little bit so have more Colton while I work!

-

I like to imagine Colton is allergic to cats, doesn��t matter if they are a full on cat or hybrid that man is going to be sneezing and rubbing his eyes constantly. But also how could he say no when you show up dirty and starving? What is he going to do turn you away? Hell no he’s scooping you up and giving you a nice warm bath and new home.

He would be content with you just taking naps around his house and the farm but the fact you are helping him around the farm by hunting down the over population of rats and mice really won his heart. Praises you for every rodent you catch but if you leave them as gifts on his doorstep or bed he’d be internally freaking out. He finds dead animals really gross. He’d be the type to thank you and act like he likes it but as soon as you walk away he’s gagging and picking it up with maximum two fingers, holding it out as far away from his body as he can and tossing it out the closest window or garbage.

He savors the few times a month he can convince you to sleep in bed with him, even if the next morning he’s waking up with puffy blood shot eyes and feels like he can barely breathe. He loves petting your ears, tail, and head but does need to wash his hands immediately after or his allergies will get worse.

He starts growing cat grass but is a little hesitant to grow cat nip, if you beg and plead for it enough however he will do it. He just takes a bit of convincing.

-

[Cat darling placing a huge dead rat at the foot of Colton’s bed as he wakes up]

Colton: AAAHHHhhhhh… I mean I love it… wow so thoughtful… thanks…

-

[Colton continuously sneezing and sniffling as he tries not to rub his eyes while the two cuddle on the couch]

Cat darling: Do you want me to move over? It’s getting really bad this time.

Colton: NO! I mean I’m fine! Stay stay I’m good!

[Colton proceeds to pull you even closer to himself]

[silviakundera]

Thinking about Lost You Forever Season 1 30-32 ish where snake boy 🐍 walks into his enemy's home to come save her life and then spends 37 years with her under the sea, and when she's a spirit it's actually nice. He talks to her, shows her the beauty of the ocean, and doesn't put on a tough act. They gaze at the moon, watch giant turtles, and listen to mermaids. But all only because he doesn't know she can see him with his walls down.

When she wakes she's legit sad to be asked to just leave him like that. And thinking about it, I'm just aaahhhhhhhh she does only want a peaceful life away from palace bullshit... and if he could only release himself from his debts I CAN PICTURE IT with him. Traveling on their bird, testing new poisons, practicing archery, spending calm periods in the sea, untroubled by whirlpools.

i know i know i know he's doomed and she ends up with a partner who adores her. But I can't help being enticed about the dream of what other futures could have been.

[thegoofyfanaticus]

(( Art is commissioned from the incredibly talented ArtReplicant. Original story by me. )) "What the Fu..AAAHHHHHHHH!" Connor exclaimed as Marcus forced Connor onto his stomach and mounted him after kneeing him in the lower back. Marcus laid directly on Connor as a wrestler would to gain riding time. To add insult to his domination, Marcus made sure to shove his hips into Connor's waist essentially grinding his cock into Connor's ass. "Stop that you fucker!" Connor complained as he felt Marcus's large cock grind into his ass. Connor squirmed to try and get Marcus off of him but he had no strength to throw the larger fighter off of him. "Stop..." Marcus grinned as he leaned into Connor, "This is what happens when you fight someone bigger and stronger than you. They dominate you and can do whatever they want because you are powerless to stop them. You want me to stop grinding my huge alpha cock into your ass, throw me off, and beat me. Only one slight problem. I own you now. Marcus landed an elbow directly into the back of Connor causing him to yelp in pain. "You wanted to climb the ranks before you're ready. You were going to help Dustin on the off chance he'd give you the prestige you needed to not have to work your way up. If you can't handle me, then you aren't ready for jack shit. I know my place and I'm working hard to build what I need to climb." "Shut the fuck up! I'm better than you!" "Prove it, little man!" Marcus put his right knee into the back of Connor and pressed in with it causing Connor to again yell in pain. From there, Marcus grabbed Connor's left leg and left arm and pulled up causing the small of Connor's back to compress and bend the wrong way. Marcus put pressure on the arm with a modified arm bar that caused Connor to seethe and suck in air as he tried to hold back another yell. "Come on, Connor! Show us all how much better you are than I am. Dominate me or I will show you pain and humiliation."

[mintytealfox]

Had a NortAlice dream for once, background the survival game was basically started as a duo hunter game but then once everything was decoded it was revealed you had to sprint cross country to find the escape from the game itself, and other survivors, and hunters. But first the cute thing to me, Alice had a little mini version of Norton's speed boost he gets near metal cause of a gift from him, which was so cute. Sadly Norton got got helping Alice escape from I think Ivy, then he was hunterized but he wasn't actually willing to hunt Alice still which 🥺 Of course even if unwilling Norton had things he couldn't physically do if he wanted, like stop and sit down or hug, but he still helped Alice get to the exit and was going to let himself but left behind... but the survivors who managed to get in decided to come together and find a way to bring Norton through with them... Downside was cause he wasn't actually suppose to be able to win now his eyes kept doll like qualities, but overall it was a cute dream.

Oh my GOSH this is RAD AS HELL OH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Norton continuing to help her get out no matter what! in BOTH forms!!! is AAHHHHHHHH -CHEF KISS- AND The planning ahead and setting her up for success even before this last run for it with the GIFT AHHHH

WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING THIS FRIGGIN AWESOME DREAM AAAHHHHHHHH

[wadeassgrabberwilson]

HELP ME!!! HELP!!! HELP!!! ME!!! HELP!!! HELPME!!!HELPMEHELPME!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!!! AAAHHHHHHHH IM DYING IM BEING KILLED!!!!!

[sapphic-luthor]

Help.

Help!!!

I finally sent a [vague] message to my farmer friend that may or may not mean that I have a crush on her. AAAHHHHHHHH!!! I’m panicking! It’s out there! I kinda want her to get the message, but also kind of not? coz I’m so nervous rn! What if it turned out so badly? 😭

- NM

omg exciting !!?! how obvious are we talking??

tbh if she doesn’t feel the same way then that’s just one to mark down as a “damn at least i tried” loss and ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and move forward but be proud of yourself for giving it a go anyway!!

if she catches on but doesnt feel the same yeah it might be weird for a wee bit but whatever you do do not get down on yourself!!! sometimes a crush is just for character building and to add to your lore

[teddybeartoji]

hey mickey. after much needed thinking, I've decided to have a try at bringing to reality my silly daydreams. and I'd like to share with you a few lines of what I put together so far. it's about hunter yuuta and a vampire reader. im deeply embarrassed to share this because i never did this sort of thing, plus English ain't my mother tongue. but i believe your words will be kind to me.

..

yuuta tilts his head to the side to understand what is that creature on the floor before him. he's never felt this feared before and the noises it let's out makes his heart ache. it's so unbelievably human. how could it be? he's never wanted to inflict such fear. the tip of the sword reaches the fragile looking creature as if it's to break at the slight touch. his eyes are sharp, ready for anything that might come his way. he's been fooled once and shall not be twice. but instead, he's met with a pair of scared eyes.

"it's okay. no need to fear."

and he doesn't know why he's betraying his own kind by offering gentleness to a rabid beast. a demonic thing who feasts on innocent lives. yuuta's mind isn't working as it should. perhaps it's the need to care for something smaller that takes control of himself before he can stop it. it's embedded in his nature.

..

HIIIIII HIII HII MOMO!!!!!!!! I'M SORRY FOR HOARDING THIS FOR SO LONG BUT AAAAAHHHHHHHH I AM HERE I AM HERE I AM HERE!!!

FIRST OF ALL HUNTER!YUUTA AND VAMPIRE!READER??????? OHHMY FUCKING GODDDD IT'S SO FUCKING DELICIOUS????? I AM ALREADY VERY FUCKING OBSESSED WITH IT FUUCKKK I LOVE EVERY CONCEPT WHERE THE SEEMINGLY TIMID YUUTA IS SO VERY FAR FROM BEING TIMID LMAO

"it's so unbelievably human. how could it be?" "the tip of the sword reaches the fragile looking creature as if it's to break at the slight touch."

OK AND!!!!!!!! AAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY LIKE THESE QUOTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HE'S LOOKING AT AND IT'S IMMEDIATELY FUCKING WITH HIS HEAD!!!!!! RRRAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH IT'S LIKE HE'S JUST SO DRAWN TO IT YK?????? EEEEEEESO COOL!!!!!!!!!!

AND THE WHOLE SECOND PARAGRAPH!!!!!!!!!! HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHY HE'S REACHING OUT!!!! WHY HE WANTS TO HELP IT. THE VERY THING THAT'S KILLING AND MURDERING IS NOW PLAYING SOME KIND OF A TRICK ON HIM!!!!! he's forgetting everything, the need to take care is just overwhelming for him isn't it.... ohhh i love it i really love it momo!!!!!!!!!!!

i love how reader's eyes are scared but you still call them a "rabid beast" eeeeeeeeeeethat got me so giddy. it's like yuuta is trying to convince himself of it yk? he sees the fearful eyes and then in his head he's still going "a beast. a vampire. danger. bad, bad, bad.". but then... he's still reaching out bc he just can't help it!!!! AAAHHHHH I'M SO INTO THIS HELLOO???? FUCKK I CAN'T WAIT TO READ MORE ABT THEM MOMO!!!!! AND WAHH THERE'S REALLY NO NEED TO BE EMBARRASSED TOO!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS FUCKING GREAT MY LOVE!!! I LOVE YOU SOOSO MUCH AND I AM SO VERY THANKFUL THAT YOU DECIDED TO SHARE THIS WITH ME!!!! I AM KISSING YOUR KNUCKLES AND YOUR WRISTS IN THE MOST LOVING MANNER MWAH MWAHMWAHH!!!!

BTWW!!! do you have any songs for them in mind???? you know i love my personal soundtracks lmao so i am really curious as to what music you'd associate with them!!!! please do let me know!!!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

AAAHHHHHHHH it's happening :'DDD

Peteee I want him to be here 😭❤️🥺

AAAHHHHHHHHHH

When was Sassapis ordained lol

Awww :')))

AAAHHHHHHH they're all there aahh :'DD

Lol hi Carol

Jay just like yep :) okay :)

Love him xD

I miss Pete though guys 😭

He deserves to be here he would love it xdd

Alberta there are closer chairs xD

Oh right lol wait she's on Isaac's side xD

SLDKGJDHS WAIT YEAH LOL

Eh xD

Well at least they didn't have the until death or as long as you shall live part lol

AGH CRAP

NOOOO

I swear if we end on a cliffhanger of them not getting married I'm gonna lose it

Did the basement ghosts help the puritan lady because they were upset 😭

Y'alllll I knew it's the seeds you sowed but I'm stressed 😭 don't care they don't deserve it xd

OH WAIT CRAP IT'S PETE

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH PETE :'DDDD!!

Awww he wanted to come home :'))

As soon as that scene ended he really went ". . Nah I wanna go home, bye :)"

AAAHHHHHH I LOVE THAT FOR HIM

He doesn't look in good shape though o.o

AYYYY HE'S BACK :DDD

Awww :')) 🥰🥰

LOL sir xD 💀

Awwww okay good he's here :'D

LOL Jay like "oh nice :D"

He's not still rough is he- okay no just talking about his entrance

Awkward I think that's Nigel's side lol

Ahh yeah that lol

I mean we can explain later and delay with the emotional consequences of it all xD

Nah okay it's chill lol

We're going ahead xD

Oop yep o.o

Ahh nice it is just leaving not being happy :'D

Awwww 😭😭🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺

AAAAHHHHHHHH y'all stop I love them and him so much 😭😭🥰🥺❤️

"Who's Donna??" XDD YEAH LOL

I mean we know but you know

Awww legally permissable kind :'D xD

LOL Carol o.o

AWWW :')))

Wait Isaac this better not be a realization but a reaffirmment

Just making sure xD

AWWW okay good :'DD 😭❤️

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thanks for coming in clutch and reassuring everything at the end Pete 😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️ the glue that holds everyone together for real <333

Aww yeah :') let's get them married <3

Although now I swear if they get interrupted by the ghost lady lol

It better happen later xD

AWW yeah :'))

AAAHHHHHHH

Isaac I swear

Better say yes boy

I know you just got it reaffirmed so answer xD

I DON'T LIKE THIS MUSIC STOPPING

Paused to save myself

Guys help

Guys help please

No guys please why would you do this to me xd

I think I'm talking to you guys guys help please 😭 xD

Making me go through this alone, not preparing me (I made that choice and I did not want to be prepared lol) xdd

Hold my hand guys 😭

Guys I SWEAR if you do not get married by the end of this episode

I just don't know about the likelihood of going back to the wedding again so I'm scared 😭😭😭

Like later in the episode I mean

AAAAUGH

Isaac I'm gonna kill you. I am gonna kill you. Just so you know.

Guys I can't take this. I can't take this

There BETTER BE something that BRINGS Y'ALL TOGETHER BY THE END OF THIS EPISODE

Sure have it be attempted revenge by the ghost lady 😭

Wait what if she's doing this o.o

Wasn't her power something funky? I don't remember if they said

Or also just like manipulating stuff somehow idk

Y'all I'm scaredddd

I need to unpause he's halfway through saying don't

Sick to my stomach

Guys help

Okay I'm doing it 😭

Jay XD

WAIT HOW DOES JAY KNOW

Wait no he must be seeing something else

Maybe something relating to the puritan lady?

Maybe he forgot something idk??

WAIT DID CHRIS DIE HE'S HOLDING HIS PHONE

And as soon as he actually becomes an option Nigel decides he doesn't want him right 😌 right 😌

Guys I'm scared

Okay but an immediate reaction/other thing happening means a distraction so phew that's good that's easier

But hey Jay fits in for once xD

THE NIX GAME

Jay I was counting on you 😭

SLFKFHS though xD

"Is this wedding voer yet" Jay 😭💀 XDDD

Real though lol

Me for real with this pain xD

Anyway you'll know when (well not anymore but yk) they start clapping lol xD

Explain the situation Sam o.o xD

AAAAAAAAAAHHHH I DON'T DESERVE TO HEAR THAT HEARTBROKEN SOUND IN NIGEL'S VOICE

Guys I don't deserve this

I don't

Isaac

Isaac

I'm going to kill you

"I really wanted this to work" BEATING YOU OVER THE HEAD WITH A STEEL PIPE.

ISAAAAAAC

And here I thought

That revelation

A good thing

I have been caught a fool

😐

After all the pain I'm desensitized to it at this point 😭

Also I think I still believe they're gonna be together xdd

I just gotta make it through this lol

And then even if it doesn't end up okay at least I'll have made it through it xD

I wish I was in more shock like with Asher's death at least then I wouldn't be pausing so much 😭😭

Also I mean the pain of so many of my shows this season xd

Okay okay okay hoo I got this

ISAAAAAAAACC

Something missing

Better than someone else :'D

Also maybe you're just overthinking it 🥰🥰 right 🥰 right 🥰🥰

Yeah Isaac exactly 😭

Guys I'm sick to my stomach

I'm gonna die

I swear if this ends on a cliffhanger

I know I have like 4 minutes left but xd

Which when you think about it is like a quarter of the episode so :D I've still got plenty of time

Even if this would be the climax and that would probably be the falling action :')) I do not care :'))

Guys get me through this xdd

I need to talk less and need this scene to end because I decided to make it all one post when I thought it would be a good thing and this is so long now 😭 xd

The humor comforts me :'))) it'll be alright right guys :'))) right :'))

I hope y'all aren't reading this and shaking your head in pity 😭😭😭

I'm gonna die

And bring Isaac along with me guys

Sorry not sorry

At least leave don't leave me standing here watching this

HALLELUJAH

I swear it better be that ghost lady

APICCHOLAU

ABWUHWUH

ALBERTA

ALBERTAAA SLFJFHSK

Girl did she step out to warm up or something and missed what happened 😭

Goirl o.o

Hetty and Trevor's faces xDD but also they're really sad faces 😭

ALBERTAAA

Have you not noticed that Isaac is not standing here 😭

And walked past you to leave xd

Imagine if the episode ended on this lol

Although with the actual length image her just singing the entire of the song and everyone just sitting there in silence like 😐👁️👄👁️ for 3 and a half minutes XDDD

Y'all I'm hilarious

Anyway help me 😭

Girl I need you to stop singing

You have a lovely voice but stop

GIRLLL XDD

Okay at least we got to cut away

Okay I do not like this wrap up feeling that's starting in half of the word "Well" and one strike of strings :')))

I SWEARRR we better get a cliffhanger of it was all that ghost lady's doing

WAIT maybe she'll kidnap Nigel and the Isaac will realize he does feel that way about him o.o cliffhanger or not idk

Like takes him into the dirt and Isaac decides to go after him or something 😭

Wait that sounds so dramatic (take him into the dirt)

Nigel and Isaac Orpheus and Eurydice parallel/moment 👀

Okay anyway I actually need to watch now xD

If that doesn't happen I might write it though lol

I just know this girl has to come up SOMEHOW

So far Pete was the unexpected guest, at the actual wedding xD

AUGH

I did not want to be here 😭

Y'all they broke up didn't they :'))

Pleeease tell me they just took a step back

I know they probably didn't but please I'll take anything I can get xdd

Aww Trevor :')) 🥺

He is the sweetest <33

Yeah I imagine 😭 xdd

Deserved Isaac I'm not even gonna lie

Kind and understanding how are we broken up or not 😭

Flower I'mma need you to stop talking right now

Maybe

Hear me out

Chris is helping him grow

And we move on from this tyvm

Ik it's not about him anymore but idrc

SAMMM NOO NOT YOU TOO

Jay just on his phone xD boutta hear a wild sentence lol

Though they probably filled him in

Okay yeah today that's okay :')))

So how about it the future

There's no coming back from a conversation like this is there guys xd too serious to backtrack form

Okay yeah Hetty but also like he's kind of always known 😭❤️ at the same time

Guys I don't like this serious genuine wrap up music

LET'S NOT HAVE A WRAP UP ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP GUYS

Also like. I'm not saying settle or anything he there are only so many ghosts on this property xd

PETE CAN LEAVE GIRL

Okay yeah and that guy xD

Aww ayy yeah :D she got it right :')))!!!

Famously lol xDD

But yeah her too

XD yeah

Aww Sas and Isaac :'))

Ahh is Thor gonna do it too

Yep xd

Okay good glad we're being honest 😭

AWWWW THOR TOLD FLOWER HE LOVES HER :'DDDD

Kinda insensitive right now guys not gonna lie but congrats xDD

Also idk if it's gonna go well for the moment 😬

Awww Sam updating Jay :'))

Jay about to be like "?? isn't that kind of inconsiderate??" XD

Nah he'll probably congratulate them lol

And then we also have to be like "oh yeah and Isaac and Nigel (maybe) broke up" xD

Yeah big stuff going down xD 😭

AWWWW SHE SAID IT BACK :'DDD 🥰🥰

Ayy the updates xD

AOUGH

Y'all are not gonna do this I swear 💀 xD

No offense but can we interrupt their wedding as well xD they literally just got out of a throuple they haven't even broken up with Nancy yet lol

Also Flower hasn't said that means she'll stay with him xD

I do not like Isaac's expression

AWWW yeah thank you Thor :')))

Also the way he said that just sounded so sweet and genuine :') 🥰🥰😭

Yeah Sas xD

SLFKGJDKHS OH NAUR NOT Y'ALL XD

They will I bet lol

Guys why xD

Isaac boutta be like "?? okay?? guys the frick???" XDD

GUYS WHY

"Yeha buddy good luck with that" SLFKDJS XDD

WAIT JAY DOESN'T KNOW WHO BAXTER IS SLFKGHDKS XDDD???

Jay having his world rocked right now like "who is this random guy you've mentioned??"

"He's very peripheral it doesn't matter" SLFJFHSKDJ AUVOEMSPEN??? XDDD

Well I mean he's getting married so it probably does xD

Please tell me this is before the wedding and we'll stop it

Agh gosh nope okay xD

Aww lol :)

Ope she's gonna mention the Puritan ghost lady and Sam is gonna know o.o

Yeeahh Patience her

OPE yeah 😳 she knows xd

This better set up a healing of their relationship xDD

It seems like it's just setting up a bad guy for next season though 😭😭

UH OH

Ahh so Isaac is gonna get kidnapped

Maybe Nigel will go to save him and Isaac will realize how strong his love for him really is 👀?

Listen guys I really can't believe they'll leave them like this 😭 xdd

Also not them literally burying their gays 💀 xDD

Probably lol

I mean bc he's going into the dirt xD

Anyway

Oh gosh Nancy xd

Why would you do this to me

Ahhh crap

We can't be compassionate a little bit and decide that since it didn't happen it doesn't matter xd?

I mean too late now really but you guys could at least feel bad and pull out of it while she kidnaps him lol

Wait this post is way too long one second o.o

[smileymoth]

Its so funny to me that 11 year old me was like. ok im probably a demigirl/non-binary but no that's weird i'm just a weird girl :( anyway let me go back to desperately trying to mimic the way hollywood undead men dress

(Im putting the rest of my gender stuff under cut bc it got so long on accident...)

I need to stop saying i'm *probably* non-binary bc i very much am. But at the same time i'm still a woman and a girl and a lesbian and I only like she her pronouns cuz everything else feels icky. But I am deeply uncomfortable with the classical "woman" classification but then again that's just the social construct part so if gender is a social construct and there's no right way to be a woman then I am still a woman but. This gender shit is so hard man, it took me long enough to figure out I'm a lesbian and then this gender thing ruins it again.

I Know that lesbians tend to have a difficult time with gender because the stereotypes are built on a system of woman-birth-child-machine-male-validation or something idk heteronormative society which is focused on men sth sth... so no wonder I have such a difficulty with knowing what my gender is. + that I probably have some type of neurodivergency so that adds to that.....

Realistically I don't care about labels that much because the gender thing doesn't influence my everyday life at all, idc if people call me a woman or a lady or a girl i like those infact but aaahhhhhhhh. Like. Girl help why is this so WEIRD!!! I don't want to be viewed as a woman in the sense of existing to get married to a man and have children, i guess. But I also don't want to label myself incorrectly(?) because would it be harmful to the overall community if I'm technically what the tiktokkers called "girl Lite" back in 2020 or sth??

Like the whole ordeal of "is someone x enough" is stupid but man. I always overthink everything. It took me 5 years to accept that I do NOT in fact like men. Like I just flipflopped inbetween labels for 5 years and sometimes I still think that ough but what if I'm not a lesbian because my fictional blorbo is a man or bc I fawn over Brian Molko... and then I get ill and want to cry at the thought of ending up with a man like girl you're so bad at everything....