#about anton

[schadenfreudich]

Okay, I have no idea if any of this is like, sane thoughts or I'm just being so very delusional.

Because back in like, August or something, I had a dream and the actual dream was very non-specific. There was this guy and he intensely stared at me. We were at a train station, though everything was foggy. It didn't even actually look like a train station, there was barely anything that wasn't just gray. And this man didn't say anything, he just looked at me, like he knew me, like he had something to tell me.

When I woke up, it felt so strangely real. It felt like he was a real person, who was trying to find me, like he had something to tell me. And while there was nothing indicating it, there was this instant "he's jewish". Something that has felt so strangely important ever since.

I was fully convinced I would see him in my dream again. But I didn't have a dream that night or any night since then, I rarely actually get dreams. But this feeling didn't go away. It just shifted to other things. He's a real person, he'll introject, he's already a headmate, stuff like that.

And none of those things happened. I didn't want to give him a name for a while because I worried it might make him introject. But I didn't want to refer to him as "the jewish man" for much longer. So we gave him a name, but it didn't feel like just a name, it felt like *his* name, which also didn't help. How could it be *his* name, if he isn't even a person.

And now, thinking about the soul lake and my innate connection to it, I have what feels like a memory and the thought of "what if *Anton* is stuck in the soul lake and needs *my* help?" because apparently know I'm also the guide for new souls or something.

Also I guess I don't feel like having to think about how we deal with headmates who have a wildly different religion. Especially not when the headmate came from a month long delusion. This wouldn't be different if he was christian or most other religions. It might be different if he was a muslim, just because we grew up muslim.

So I'm just kind of trying to avoid going to the soul lake, while I feel so very drawn to it. I must know, but I don't think I should know.

[taroddori]

shotaro better move over and let me do that instead

[joshoconnaissance]

FROM UP ON POPPY HILL (2011) dir. Goro Miyazaki

[rascal-rose]

2023: year of old man yaoi

[talksaxy]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[cold-open]

small red wizard terrorizes bars throughout boiler city

[abyss-is-lame]

ZZZ Headcanons because I headCANon

also i havent finished the game (im on like mid/end of ch2) so some of these may be canon

Anby has autism. Nothing can change my mind. She is autism.

Nekomata has a lot of cat items, like cat beds, scratching posts, toys, etc. and is a catnip addict. She regularly uses toy mice as forms of payment, and gets sad when its not accepted

Even though Billy is an AI, he sucks at anything math-related

Nicole is under the trans umbrella, cis fem to a ___girl xenogender (probably cybergender/cybergirl)

Corin can and will absolutely destroy you if you piss her off enough, she'll go from nice little goober to the worst pain you've ever felt

Soukaku is picky when it comes to food, if even 1 thing is messed up she'll refuse to eat it

Soldier 11 and Anby literally cannot be separated, and they would both full well die for eachother, and regularly get noodles together

Koleda is an absolute gremlin, and sometimes needs to be held back by the entire Belobog team like a feral animal

Grace will always say random embarrassing events that happened to Koleda when she's with the Belobog team, just for shits and giggles

Ben is treated like an emotional support teddy-bear by the Belobog team (mostly Koleda)

Anton is like the Kirishima of ZZZ. No idea how to explain it

Lycaon is strictly a carnivore, and sometimes just eats corpses in the Hollows because he can

Rina is like Corin's mom, basically helping Corin to function properly and not just cease existing from anxiety

Ellen has anger issue and can't listen to 'No', she will throw hands (and fins) to get her way

[aurorangen]

For how long will I have to live with this pain?

Transcript:

[Starting high school was a fresh start for me. I met new people and my best friends were by my side. I made lots of happy memories and forgot the bad things from primary school. It was all perfect when it began]

[That day, it started like any other day until I got to school. I was met with staring eyes and whispering voices. Talks about a missing person. Kingsley? Could he be related to Ashton Kingsley? 4 months have passed since the shed incident and we never talked about him at home. I hadn't thought about him in a while]

[Billy drove me home after school and I asked about the missing person case. The man was Dr Anton Boerescu and he showed me the newspaper, it was that doctor again. He kept quiet about my dad when he talked though. I was reading the article then looked up and saw an undercover police car parked on my house drive]

Police Officer: Payton Wilkinson, you are under arrest for the murder of Ashton Kingsley-

[My heart was racing and I was too stunned to speak. I couldn't understand what was happening. Billy tried to take control of the situation, demanding details as he recognised the officers from the other station]

[I wanted to run to my mum, but I was stopped and I froze at the sight. All I could see was her shaking while being handcuffed, crying and denying the accusations. I could hear Billy contacting his chief: he had no power]

Payton: [begging] Please! I would never do such a thing! Billy take care of Vincent! Make sure nothing-

[I was so scared: the police were arresting her for murder. I didn't know what to believe and started suspecting my own mother. The times she didn't seem like her usual self, if she was at work while I was at school, how much she despised him, why she has never mentioned his name. I fell to my knees. She couldn't have, could she?]

[prodbyton]

sorry guys this is it for me it’s so over i cant take it anymore im done bye

[schadenfreudich]

We finally gave the two... not quite people actual names, we could stop just describing them every time.

And while with Horst is was, yeah, that sounds like a fitting name, with Anton it was more of a "I think his name's Anton" which implies things that I will just not think about.

[taroddori]

them mewing and calling it sohee's pose 💀

[ratatatastic]

"can i say it in spanish?" "well spanish AND englis-" "LETSGO FINLAND🇫🇮🇫🇮🇫🇮" "somos campeones" "yeah somos campeones would you both- have a great time guys out there congratulations" "gracias gracias" "v...vamos gatos" "vamos gatos" "vamos gatos gracias" "vamos gatos"

WHAT IN THE CHAOS IS GOING ON HERE

Panthers Championship Parade | 6.30.24 (x)

[agent-gladhand]

I will never not be over this-

[talksaxy]

anton in his natural habitat (having floor time)

[rascal-rose]

happy father's day to amy rose's dad, would be cool if he got a game (what? I'm several days late? nuh uh)

[eissaphir]

I think living in a castle and swishing my cape around would heal me, actually