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justtwomushrooms · 4 months ago
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btw people,
in the depths of my Sherlock Holmes obsession, I downloaded all The Strand Magazine pieces that contained a Sherlock Holmes story and added them up as the collections that they would later be released in (with the magazine cover and table of contents and correct page numbers and everything)
so if anyone would want that, here:
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inkskinned · 2 years ago
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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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bigcats-birds-and-books · 22 days ago
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looking around my bedroom like "damn i really did manage to cram books into every spare inch of this space, huh"
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sergle · 1 month ago
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also i stayed in a hotel for the night because the drive to the show was like ~5 hours, so couldn't just come straight back after the show and i was almost sentenced to death, because in the room, there was like a little bedside radio / alarm clock setup, and it was putting out the most awful, subtle-until-you-notice-it electrical feedback noise
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tomselleck-ian · 1 year ago
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boblin + sex txt posts ‹𝟹
@boblinweek day 3: blush / warm
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kalashnikovlobotomy · 6 months ago
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and the toughest part is that we both know🎶 what happened to you, why you're out on your own.
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barksbog · 7 months ago
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one of my favorite games to play with my friends is called "find him"
the way it works is:
i pull up austrian houses for sale
stream it to friends (photos are fine but 3D tours are obviously the best)
than we just look through trying to find the cruzifix boy.
when we locate him we all yell "THERE HE IS" "I FOUND HIM" ect.
optional: i will wiggle my mouse cursor over him while my friends point at their screens
that´s it. that´s the game!
a word of warning tho: you may encounter weird houses that haunt you like the "barn cube" and "red roof/wall/gutters kitchen utensil nightmare"
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jerk-bitch-idjit-assbutt · 2 months ago
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I honestly kinda love the fact that they didn't subtitle the signs in The Well. I love whenever theres sign language in a show and they don't subtitle it. Sometimes it has to be subtitled, because it's plot-important information, or just something that the whole audience should be aware of. But for exchanges like the Doc and Alyss had in this episode, i like that it stays between them and any audience member who knows BSL. (I say this as someone who doesnt know BSL and only knows a tiny bit of ASL.) I dont know, it just feels like it adds an interesting thing to those scenes.
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conventiongoinglibrarian · 11 months ago
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SORRY FOR USING THE NEWS MEME I DIDN'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO GET YA'LLS ATTENTION!
Okay so this post is for Artists that are trying to save some money while vending at conventions.
A few cons that I've gone to have been charging extra for wifi access. (Extra costs?! In THIS economy??) This has lead to some artists/vendors paying the extra cost to use said wifi, or to use their phones as a hotspot (your phone bill!! nooo!!!) or having to switch to cash only (you might lose on sales! also having to do MORE math? plus the trips to the bank to get change?? 😭).
May I present to you: Library Hotspots!
This, of course, hinges on your local library having said service. Luckily, a good chunk of them do! Check your local library if they have hotspots to borrow. If they don't- ask them wtf why not? (DON'T ACTUALLY DO THAT. Write them a nice email saying you're a patron that is interested in this service. That will show their administration that they should invest in hotspots).
Okay so you've checked your library's website and it DOES have hotspots you can borrow- what now? Check the policy for borrowing their hotspots! They often let you know how long you can borrow the hotspot for AND you might be able to request one through an online form. (Listen I get phone anxiety so this is a bonus for me). Now all you have to do is wait to get a notification to pick up your hotspot, pick it up, test it out with your vending equipment (important step!), take it with you to your next convention/vendor event, use it, and finally bring it back to the library once you're done!
okay okay okay so those were a lot of steps. BUT! would you rather be saddled with unexpected costs of having to pay for convention wifi? I sure wouldn't with how expensive everything is already 😭
You might be thinking: "Weirdo-Librarian, why are you telling me this? What do you get out of this?" Well-
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doueverwonder · 5 months ago
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its just me and my 5k words of Indiana angst against the world
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yellow-yarrow · 2 months ago
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The gentrification of zines
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kvotheunkvothe · 3 months ago
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me: yeah so I've been working a couple hours late each day and plan to do some more work over the weekend since I've got time off planned next week when you all come to visit sister: you shouldn't feel like you have to "make up" for time off me, crawling over the table, seizing her lapels: listen. listen. look at me. I know I shouldn't have to. I should have time off. but the goddamn deadlines don't change just because I need them to. the same work will be waiting for me, and the deadlines will just be that much closer.
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puhpandas · 6 months ago
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guys what do we think about in a scenario where 3 star fam were responsible for mxes and the nodes in ruin that Cassies dad is the arcade conspiracy guy from security breach and PQ4 is a major part of his motivations for being in the pizzaplex in hw2
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bioaccumulation · 5 months ago
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I just got front row dinner table tickets to see Orville Peck as the emcee in Cabaret on broadway I'm pissing myself
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dcawritings · 1 year ago
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Love, Death and Rollerskates by @spadillelicious
Full Podfic Index on AO3
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This podfic was originally recorded as part of a reading event hosted on the Superstar Daycare discord server, but after editing things and getting some great feedback I wanted to share it with others -- it's a beautiful story and is responsible for many many hours of brain worms <3
And to Spadille: thank you for crafting such an awesome story! I hope that I've given your characters the audio-based attention they deserve :3c
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skenpiel · 1 year ago
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HI EVERYONE HERES ANOTHER LITTLE UPDATE!!!!!!!! i am in. tha hospital Tha psych ward specifically NOTHING BAD HAS HAPPENED AND I AM UNHARMED!!!!!! but i still feel very bad and i wanted 2 see if i could make some medicinal changes and they wanna keep me here while they do so that i can be in a controlled environment in case i react badly and stuff. and neither of my parents are home so i didnt rlly have anywhere to go except here LOL. anyways im still waiting to actually meet the doctor and then ill have some inkling of how long ill be here. but anyways just wanted 2 let u all know how its going ^0^
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